 Welcome back to my channel. I hope you're all good today. So about six months ago maybe? I don't even know when I made this video. I made a video called the 21 books I have to read before I turn 21. Here's the thing. I turned 21 this week. This video is actually supposed to be going up on my birthday but I haven't read enough books to upload my vlog this week so this is going up in its place and then the vlog will be going up on Thursday instead. I'm not gonna be reading any books in the next four days that will be on this list anyway so it doesn't matter but I don't think I've done that well at this at all. Why bring it up now? Why bring it up? I don't have any hope. I don't have any hope. Part of it is I want to do this video because like I have no hope that I have read these. I think what I did when I made this video is I put books on the list to challenge myself. Great idea. Like I put books that I thought I would struggle to get to and so I put them on the list to motivate myself but of course I made the video and then I forgot about it. Like I just you know out of my head. So I don't even know if I'm hoping for half on this because I think it's gonna be like classics I'm like literary fiction to try and motivate myself but I don't think I don't think that's gonna have happened before we get into it make sure you subscribe if you haven't already we are super duper oh my god my brain can't remember on this so if you haven't subscribed yet I'd be really appreciative if you did. Today we are going to be talking about the 21 books I want to read before I turn 21. I still don't think I'm 20. I'm in my 20s. I want to make this video and I want it to be something I hold myself to account on that I tried to make sure that I read all these books but I'm 21 because in my head these are all the books that I'm like I'm gonna read you soon. First book that I definitely want to read before I'm 21. His Wild Beauty by Anna Marie Macklemore. Kayla from Books and Lala aka. Haven't read it yet. It's gonna be so bad. Okay. If I mood read like if I just read what I wanted I would have read this by now. Like I want to read this book so bad but it just hasn't fit into any video I've done like any themed reading vlog and I don't currently have it planned in anything reading vlog. I mean I have some reading vlogs planned that like I can't plan the books for in advance however it's got like a one in a hundred chance of being picked in them. Haven't read it. We're not off to a good start. Next on my list is Six of Crows and Crooked King. It's me again bitch. Hello you damn rock. I've had these for months and I haven't gotten around to it. No. I'm fed up already. I'm I don't think I'm gonna read any. Oh dear that's not good. I feel the need to say the f word now. Obviously haven't read them yet. So I've always wanted to do a dedicated themed reading vlog for these and it's been planned like in my schedule since like June probably but because you know sometimes I don't stick to schedule it's just been pushed back and pushed back and pushed back so I think at the moment it's in March yeah and I've said here's the thing this time I can't push it back because I've already told you I'm reading it in the first week of March because a few of you want to read it along with it with me like read the series along with me so I've already said first week of March so I can't go back on it so I am gonna read it but I haven't read it yet and I'm like honestly I'm so ashamed I'm so ashamed because everyone tells me this is gonna be like favorite favorite favorite cuz I loved 9th house like everyone is out here telling me I'm gonna love it so I need to read it but no oh my god I thought the YA section would be easy we're about to go into classics they ask you how you are you just have to say that you're fine you're not really fine you just can't I just I just want to cry I just want to cry that's all the YA I have on the list because like I said YA is something that I get around to fairly quick the other stuff on this list is like me trying to force myself to read these because I know that these could sit on my shelves for many I feel like we should get into classics because those are the ones that have everything I'm really gonna put off so first I have two of the penguin cough I know so first is little women by Louise and my Alcott women I bought this straight after watching the film many years ago many months ago I loved the film so so much I hate myself I haven't read it it's wrapped up somewhere so it could be in a wrapped up video at some point this year I love the film I've seen the film like four or five times now and I don't watch films that often so like I love the film I love the film so much and I want to read the story but like classics I might have to do a video is like getting over my fear of classics a vlog let me know if you'd enjoy that because I just put off classics like I enjoy them when I read them but getting around to them like it's not I don't do that very often but I love them when I read them so let me know if you'd like that to be a theme reading vlog the next is another profound addition I love Sherlock I've seen some discourse I have not read Sherlock haven't read it is missing me off somewhat I don't want to speak about it oh my god I have not read a single book is this the fifth one we're called to the way down I haven't read a single book I wish I were dead listen I've got my Sherlock fix recently through the Athena Cup series the strange case of the Alchemist daughter series so I've read stuff with Sherlock in have I read that Sherlock book no again it's a classic I don't think I've ever any of these classics I don't know how many I'm gonna put on this list it's not gonna go well I tell you what I'm gonna have to do that classics video because it has to happen it has to happen because there is a lot that I want to read but I just put them off next is Miss Petra grueless for the day by Ruth and Watson my most viewed video on my channel is the one where I go and visit a lot of independent bookstores and in that I visit Persephone books which is a book store which publishes out-of-print women's fiction no I want to cry haven't read it so I bought this Christmas 2019 that's how long I've had this glad boy in that bookshop video it's only like 200 pages so like it shouldn't take me that long to read it oh god I just hate myself I can't even speak oh my goodness I'm so embarrassed something bears they love you this one is about this woman who lives a very mundane day-to-day life and then one day she gets like taken in by this wild woman and they have like this crazy day together you know it intrigues me I want to read it but do I ever get around to it no no I don't I'm so sorry and then the last classic I want to make sure I get to is I was gonna say Daphne by Rebecca de Morrie it's Rebecca by Daphne de Morrie I want to cry I want to cry I want to cry started making it had a breakdown what a petite yeah I haven't read Rebecca um what do I have to say for myself nothing I was supposed to read this in a reading vlog I think it was like reading the spookiest books on my tbr that I did why did I not read it I think I just didn't have the time that's the thing we're like doing third year uni at the moment there's quite often books I aim to read in the video and then I have to swap them out because I just don't have the time still really want to read this still think I'm gonna love it oh my god I haven't read a single book I haven't read a single how many I haven't even I have anywhere on that I've lost count but I haven't read a single book so sorry for that myself so next let's talk about nonfiction okay I have whole nonfiction books here first is not that bad by Roxanne Gay oh my god oh my god I thought we would have I thought we would have good luck here haven't read it again it's not that I don't want to read it like world beauty if I read if I mood read that would probably be one of the first books that I would read however I have to fit books into themed reading vlogs and I just like struggle with nonfiction to fit them into that oh my god this is so sad I love Roxanne Gay bad feminist was my favorite nonfiction of last year this is a collection of essays by lots of different women edited by Roxanne Gay talking about rape and sexual assault and rape culture and I've heard this very very heavy hitting I would love to read this I would read this right now no problem but I haven't been able to fit it into a video so we could all cry together the next is forgotten women the leaders by Jing Sheng oh my god so I'm actually I'm actually I could scream I could scream I could cry I could actually cry success I have read forgotten women the leaders I loved it I gave it five stars I do have another one in this series now I have forgotten women the writers there's four of these in total you just have the stories of women who history has forgotten and it just tells their story in like a few pages and it has these gorgeous illustrations in them and I loved forgotten women the leaders I'm so glad I read it I just love reading about women who history is forgotten but who who had such impactful lives and who we should be remembering so I loved this I gave it five stars I can't believe I've read one next is I'll Be Gone in the Dark by Michelle Mackie Moran I've read it again another one if I made red would have read it already this is the recurring problem is that obviously I mean obviously there's a load of books I want to read and I do read books that I want to read when I do the videos I do however like I would have read this by now I generally think I would have read this by now if I didn't do themed reading vlogs delusion convince yourself but like I I really love doing themed reading vlogs I wouldn't stop it for the world I don't mind that it takes me a little bit longer to get around to certain books and then lastly is The Five by Halle Rubenhold so this is about the five women who were killed by Jack the Ripper again do I even need to say it like I this is video is so boring I haven't read it I'm gonna I'm gonna cry are you not ashamed of yourself are you not embarrassed this is really embarrassing I'm sorry I can't there's no real word that I can tell you how embarrassed I am like embarrassed doesn't cover it I have a fake booktuber oh my god I'm so sad again this is telling the story of women who history is forgotten and kind of erased and we only ever hear about their killer um so I'd love to read it I would love to read it part of me always wants to do a non-fiction vlog but I always put it off because I don't think anyone will care and watch it and like I know that's not important and I should probably just do it but I'm always like I can fit the non-fiction books in somehow in a more interesting way and then I never do first this is an important one this is really important is the night circus by Erin Morgenstern so if you know me you know how much I adored the star of sea I'm really happy today yeah this is for all of us I love the night circus I gave it five stars I'm pretty sure I loved it Erin Morgenstern can do no wrong she's like one of my favorite authors I love her writing style so much the night circus was magical and whimsical and like complex I love books that are so heavily based on atmosphere like atmosphere is very important to me and concept next is the poppy war by RF Kwang so this is a fantasy and I honestly don't know too much about the plot at all however the poppy war by RF Kwang I love the poppy war also give it five stars it is this brilliant fantasy full of like political intrigue war following Rin who is this dark skin peasant who lives a really hard life and to try and improve her life she goes to this military academy where she discovers that she has all these powers that she never knew she has she discovers the magic of the gods and it's definitely a story that balances between right and wrong and like morally gray characters oh my god wait we've read three next is no exit by Taylor Adams so this is a I've read no exit oh my god apparently the adult ones are like it apparently I read loads of my adult ones oh my god I'm so happy it's about time no exit another one I gave five stars so here's the thing obviously the books I'm putting on this list are books I'm gonna love because I think all of the books I have read from this list I gave five stars and so we all gag nation on this oh my god all the ones I've read I gave five stars this just shows that this list is stuff I need to read from no exit is like the most suspenseful thriller I've ever read I felt sick while reading it I had heart palpitations I've never been more stressed reading a book if you want to be stressed read this book it's horrible it's about this girl who stops at like the service station and in the snow and she's trapped there overnight and she finds out that in one of the other vans a girl is in a cage locked up and it's her trying to save this girl but she's stuck there the whole night and you know pretty early on like who the bad person is and so it's just trying to like escape and like outwit them oh my god I'm so proud of myself then next are half of the yellow sun and americana by chouamanda gozi adichi I own these for the longest okay so I have read one of these so we're up to five I've read americana I haven't read half of the yellow sun I really liked americana it wasn't five stars it was like a four star it was very intimidating but I'm glad I read it so I've read like a quarter so far that's not that bad that's not that bad like that's not that bad okay next is one that I put on the list to really challenge myself and I'm honestly terrified but it is will pull by Hillary man no it doesn't even need to hear it so this is like some kind of Tudor core history book it's like 700 pages long I don't know when I'm ever going to read this I don't see it for me but okay maybe that's like a future Megan problem like a couple years down the line I don't think it's for me now if we were villains by ML Rio but this I think is themed or thought were heavily inspired by the secret history which is one of my favorite books ever well it didn't go very well I have read that that takes us up to six okay this is going a little bit better now I read if we were villains I read it in my dark academia vlog where I read any dark academia for a week I didn't love it I think I gave it like two or three stars maybe it was like a 2.5 I just found the character so annoying and not in a good way like you don't I don't have to like characters I can hate characters but they just have to have some flavor like they've actually got to have some like characterization and I didn't feel like these did where's the flavor where's the flavor in this I didn't feel like it was very well written I was bored I wasn't a fan and uh I'm sorry but yeah wasn't a fan so that has gone away with the with the theory that all of these books are ones I loved but we still we still have a good ratio here so the last three books are all books that I really want to read on a trip the first book is black girl unlimited by echo brown so this was a rated author which I read it oh my gosh okay this audiobook was incredible gave it five stars so this is the story of echo brown's life told in kind of this like magical realism way where her and her family and like her mother are wizards it's so heart-hitting like it's very emotional there's a lot of trigger warnings for this I can't remember them all off the top of my head but definitely like sexual assault is one of them I will try and find a list of them all down below I would say it's like a necessary read I would really recommend gang for this if you haven't already the audiobook is incredible echo brown puts so much emotion into everything that she's saying and I just think it was it was such a good book so very glad I have read that I also really want to get to this time will be different by Misa Seguria so I literally just read this I can't believe that I actually can't believe that I haven't even spoken about this on my channel yet because I I just listened to the audiobook I didn't vlog it or anything so I'll be given like my full thoughts on it in my wrap up at the end of the month but I really really enjoyed this this is a story of a character who works at her family flower shop and her mom wants to sell the flower shop back to the white family that bought it off of her grandfather years ago for like a very small cut and then her grandfather bought it back for like way way more like years later so it's the story of like racism and anti-asian history in america but it's also like a romance and like a cute YA contemporary and I think it balances those two really well so I have literally only just read this this is like scraped by on the list I am back what it do baby the last audiobook the last book I want to read by M21 is the hate you give by Angie Thompson so it's shocking that I've never read the hate you give it was shocking at the time that I hadn't read it but I have read it now I have read the hate you give and I've read on the come up by Angie Thomas and I do have concrete rose which is Angie Thomas's new release that just came out which follows maverick who is star from the hate you give dad I love the hate you give this is I'm sure everyone knows what this is about but this is the story of star who witnesses her friend getting murdered by the police and he's unarmed and it's the story of her trying to like figure out what she should do it's such an impactful book beautifully written again like I think this is very widely read like everyone's at this by now but I am glad that I read it this year so I read a total of hang on one two I think I read eight that is not correct which is better than I thought it was gonna be I thought it was gonna be much much worse some of those like the poppy war no exit night circles they pulled us through I was not expecting them to be on here now when I make videos like this like when I make books I have to read this year when I made that video for example I'm much more realistic and trying to pick books I actually think I'm going gonna get around to rather than books that I want to challenge myself with because I don't think it's stupid like it's never gonna happen I'm happy with eight I feel like that's a successful number that's a lot better than I thought it was gonna be so thank you for watching this video and suffering through this with me I hope you enjoyed it if you've gotten to the end comment the shocked face emoji like that one comment that down below if you've gotten to the end and I will see you very soon in another video bye