 don't know how to stop this video. Hey what's up you guys? Welcome back to my channel if you're new here. Hi, hello, I'm Lydia and today I'm doing another life update because a few things have changed. I'm a bit teary, I'm a bit emotional so please try and bear with me. From the last video I'm still in hospital, still in section. I am getting off the ward more though. It's end of day, I went on an outing and you know it was it was nice to get out and I still have and I've got my I have 30 minutes twice a day school early. The bigger update is the housing situation so if there's you don't know I'm legally homeless. If you want to support me my PayPal and my Amazon wishlist are in the description down below. Every little thing support, every support helps. What you can see in the background is what I have so not much. So yeah I am legally homeless and currently we're making applications for temporary accommodation and so far we've done Brighton and Kingston. Beyond that I don't really know where it would be because I haven't lived anywhere long enough recently anyway for it to be. So that's the working progress. I think what's getting me down and what's really affecting me is the fact that I'm still here. I'm still in hospital, I'm still on the section, I'm still stuck here, I'm still trapped here. I just feel like there's no way out. A positive little update to add into this video is I've actually lost a bit of weight while I've been here which that has made me feel slightly better. As for medication changes, it hasn't really been any. I've come off a daytime dose of Canazapam and today I came off my evening dose. I'm still on it in the morning and night and that has to stay like I'm not ready. That's changed and that's you know that's okay that's fine. I guess the thing that is I'm just down. I have a squishy cookie. I should do a video of all my sensory toys. If you want a video of all my sensory toys let me know in the comments down below or let me know by hitting the thumbs up button. I don't really have much to update on and just wanted to sit and film something. So yeah thank you for watching, thank you for supporting and thank you for being amazing. I'll see you guys soon with a new video.