 Transition is this mixture of joy and tears. It is a chaotic blend of yes and no. It is a mixture of I love this and I hate this. It is a combination of excitement and apprehension. It's a combination of this is about time and this is too early. It's a combination of dreams and memories. And it's difficult to separate out which of these two things is in play on any given day in any moment in that day because all of these contrasting tensions are in you not just in what's happening structurally or practically it's in you as a human being.