 Yo, yo, yo, man, hey man, check it man, hey, it's your boy, E-CEO, Boss Talk 101, say man, we coming down here to celebrate E's birthday with him. It's your birthday. Man, you know, man, say that new track, man, even, even yet instead, I hate to go straight to the music like an idiot, but I heard the music, man, you know what I'm saying? You got new music even in the hospital, man, you know what I'm saying? I got a studio under my bed. Hey, man, man, but on a real note, man, just want to show love to you, you know what I mean? We done did a few interviews now, man, you like my favorite interviewer, man. Like me and you, we just like hand and glove, man, we gonna make it work, you know what I'm saying? You're my bro, bro, you're my bro, bro, like, I didn't hesitate the first time. Not at all. You know what I'm saying? I be noticing a lot of others sometimes, they be like, you know what I'm saying? Like, who is this? What they got? Who is this? It was just that I had already seen you just putting in work, and I know how it is, especially with this grind, for example, I can go to a concert, I can, I can drop a mixtape, I can drop a song, I can go to and get a feature. You on the other hand, you got to work triple what I got to do, you know what I'm saying? To make sure other people want to be engaged with you, and sponsorships, and a lot of times people don't understand it. No, they don't. They think them as D-card chief. You know, but, you know, like the top, you know, us and our relationship with Big Tony, you know, that's the thing that made it to where it drove me. You used to always come down and play our hometown, you would perform, so, but before that, it was in Jefferson, Georgetown. I'm from Smithland, but I always would be there with Big Tony, because that's my boy, but Marshall right up the street, that's what I'm saying. But the thing is, you always show man love to everybody in the South, man, like you do, man, so I always, I'm a true Southerner, so swinging and banging and all that stuff. I came up with that, so I just don't play about that. You know, when people mention they top five albums, that's one of my top five, and a lot of people don't do that because we from the South, I got to make it known. We ain't playing no games about these down here. You know what I'm saying? I sent a list on Instagram another day. It was the top 10 most influential albums out of Houston. Really? Man, once I seen number one and two, I just, I didn't want to see the rest of the list. Exactly, because I think it's going to be a little biased to age, to culture, to people where they from. They had face-out and get a boy there. Then everything else, a lot of the other stuff, we just like, you know, it took everything and me not to come in on that. I don't know why I should like, it felt like I got a pink ring on. This is my oxygen monitor. It took everything on me, like, you know what I'm saying? Not to say nothing. No, because I, you know, I got to overlook a lot of time, but that's what fueled me to go to a well more, you know what I'm saying? And it's like, people try to throw chinks at the home, a lot of time, we, we self, you know what I'm saying? Almost self destruct sometimes, you know what I'm saying? That's right, that's right. I dropped the goddamn grenade on my foot. Yeah, yeah, yeah, we do it on our own, so you got to be careful. So you got to be careful. So, but music wise, I hate to say this, man, God brought me through a bunch of things. A bunch of things, yeah. And the reason he did it, I'm telling you, a journalist told me, a couple of times, they say, hey, as journalists and writers, we want to see you as the next representative of the South. As the same way, PMC, the Rick Ross stuff. Yeah, yeah. Because you never got your wisdom. No, no, you, and you deserve it because, like, say lyrically and just the culture, you are, you're the culture. So I got, you know, I'm going to tap in just a little bit. And I'm going to die of this when I get out of here. Say, look out, man, don't do that, man. We don't disrespect Gray. Just pray to live that. No, I can't. It's just for certain shows, because I cannot have. You know, I'm a real, I'm a teacher. Last year, when I had got a DWI, he didn't come up to me talking about what's up school. I said, hey, nigga, school, nigga, ain't nothing old school about me but some money. I'm talking about old school. They see Gray here, they think everybody's a school. I got a homeboy. They do me like that. He's 24 years old, he ain't full of Gray here. I would just do that for the youngsters who don't understand. Let me ask you this, man. I really like, like, with you going through what I interviewed you in Houston, where you were fighting counsel. You know, you were beating counsel at the time. Right. And so how did that end up, you know, for as far as, are you still dealing with that now? Man, I'm pretty much done with it, but there's a new drill. Right. Okay. How do you pronounce my name, Keith Trudeau? Keith Trudeau. Keith Trudeau, for example. So I got my chemo putt right here. Okay. So I had a colon cancer. Okay. So they cut the big ass hole, cut the tumor out. And right before I was finished doing chemo, my back kept hurting. You see, that's what drove me to the hospital. I was like, man, my back kept hurting. And then all of a sudden, you know, I couldn't urinate. It was like, ah! Everything. Like, ah! Yeah. When I visited my mama, I go to the hospital. They give me some damn STD. I say, man, that ain't got burns. I say, it ain't dead. Yes. So when I get back to Houston and come to find out, I had a little bit of small tumor. Okay. Like in my bladder. In my bladder. So that's when they gave me the first med bags. And the Keith Trudeau, they say, I didn't need chemo. They say, I can take the Keith Trudeau and be seen, you know what I'm saying? And be that way because it was so small. Yeah. So I started taking the treatments. You come for our, you know what I'm saying? Yeah. And they just stood IV. Yeah, IV in you. So after the second one, man, I peered like 30 times. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. In one, within an hour or two. Wow. You know what I'm saying? So the doctor was like, he was like, I got the doctor, like something wrong. He was like, nah, that's great. He said, I can't believe you're supposed to do that. He said, I mean, it's, it's shrinking out the way. Yeah. And so I had two treatments left. He said, after these two treatments, we should be fine. We should, you should be done. There's a company that's regulating insurance companies. Yeah. And what happened was the company, the company told my insurance company, we're going to no longer approve of the Keith Trudeau because it's really made for lung cancer. Yeah. And it's not proven that it works for other cancers. Yeah. But all the doctors know it works for other cancers. It works for other cancers. Yeah. And it costs them down thousands of shots. Oh, they're going to, they're going to get you. You know what I'm saying? So, so. It ain't going to be, you know, getting it easy. Yeah. So they was tripping on that. And then the, so you know, I don't have a man. At first, you know what I'm saying? I used to be in pain, pain, pain. And once I came home, there was no pain. You know what I'm saying? They tried to get me like, no cold. At first they tried to get me morphine pill. Yeah. I didn't understand. I did not understand what the doctor told me. But the doctor told me, he said, this is what it sound like, he said, take one in the morning, afternoon, in the evening, any night, any whenever. Like he wants you to come to the table. That's what he told. That's what it sound like he said. But what he really meant was, take one when you wake up. If you have any pain. Man, I took five of them. I'm in the truck like that. I don't know what the heck is going on. I was like, that's what's wrong with you? I was like, man, man, I tried to take me to the hospital. Yeah. So, you know what I'm saying? So, no colds. I don't want to, I don't want all that, you know what I'm saying? They sent me back to the hospital twice. So, I just took straight time now. They told me to take some CBD edibles. You know what I'm saying? Wow. You were cool with that? I was great with that. But you know what I'm saying? Them boys ain't going to lie. Them boys got high. Yeah. I don't like edibles. No, no. How they do you? Yeah. That's a stomach hot, man. I don't like them edibles. That's it. That's it. So, I just took straight time now and prayed. Boom. It felt good. It felt wonderful. You know what I'm saying? The thing I trip off of is, you know, people, you know, a lot of people have a lot to say, you know, the episodes or whatever you have, your different things that happen with you. I talked to maybe Sam a little bit about it yesterday. He was like, man, a lot of time, it don't be that he owned anything. He just have like a, like a, like something triggers it. I don't know what that'd be. And so, one time we was that call coming from my mama. You know what I'm saying? Like, say for example, like, like me and him. We all in the cup. Three to say we three D. You know, and it's been back and forth conversation, conversation, conversation, conversation, conversation. I don't know what it is. It could be certain things, certain things that might trigger. You feel me? And when it triggered me, if I go to the level, I just go to the level of, of almost being so angry or something that I blacked out. That's what he said yesterday. You know what I'm saying? And don't even know that I blacked out. That's why I don't be around certain type of shit. Yeah. That, you know, when I was, when we was coming up in school, bro, in the school to Clayton, everybody they mama used to like smoke water. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. I know. That was a thing. Yeah. Like they are like a lot of them. A lot of other people like pop pills. I ain't like no pills. I ain't like, you feel me? I ain't doing it. But smoke, you know what I'm saying? Smoking. Water. Serious. Hitting lines. You feel me? I'm saying it was like a constant party. And so, man, I quit that shit for, I quit that shit for 20 years. Yeah. Yeah. And I went around certain people that was still doing it. Yeah. You know what I'm saying? So on this one particular day, this, this near that California. Yeah. Yeah. So, you know, I'm thinking of some of that little bullshit. Yeah. Man, let me hit it. I said shit, give me one of my own. Yeah. Shit next thing I know. Damn. Blackout trick. Watch this. I wake up. When I wake up, I'm sitting down. I'm at the house. I ain't, I wasn't at that house. I was at the house right there. So when I wake up, I'm sitting down. Fucking Rolex down. Wow. My shirt wet. So I say, man, what the fuck happened? Something to do like, man, ain't nothing else. I say, say my nigga, wait a minute, something ain't right. What's wrong with my shit there? Damn. The people next door, you know what I'm saying? I say, man, you know what I'm saying? He was out there. We, you know what I'm saying? We got out of the police. Was this when he was outside when they had recorded you? Right. He said, we got the police, you know what I'm saying? And we tried to, you know, hurry up and bring you back over here. So, you know what I'm saying? You know, I gave my comment aside at this point. What people don't, people don't understand is that's a certain thing we call dope deal. Yeah. Yeah. If you get too high. Yeah. Yeah. Like you might, you know, she might be, you might be more like that. The high you getting huge, huge, huge. You feel what I'm saying? Yeah. So, you know what I'm saying? Unfortunately, they caught me high with the dope deal. You know what I'm saying? But that day, everybody was concerned. And I, I, that was one concern. No, no, no. Real people was caught. I was because I got sent that. Because you're real. And I was like, what the heck is this? But I never, it never, it never went no further. But the thing was, I was like, okay, who out here with camera? And that's what I talked about. Because you're real. Like, gonna find out the little, it was one of them little youngsters. And the same little youngster, you know what I'm saying? That's the one I was asking, what happened? So I wound up counting. Right? Winning, winning. You know, as soon as I said, but it was too late. You feel what I'm saying? But God, they needed that to me. Okay. But did they steal your Rolex? No, no, no. What happened to it? I was just, it was gone. Being a monkey. Okay. Jungle. So you never got that watch back. No, no, no. Okay. So, so I had about, you know what I'm saying? It's like, that needed to happen to me. It needed to happen. Because it needed to tell me, keep your head from up that street. That's real. That's real. You know what I'm saying? Because people go through, man, I'm going to be honest with you. Being one, they were locked up with some people. I've seen some guys that, when they did do water, wet, they always was a reaction. They wasn't even, we was locked up so they didn't have nothing, but they still would have reactions to certain things. Right. To where it affected them certain ways. Right. And that's the part where it gets tricky. Because you may or may not be on anything and anything can happen. Right. But here's a good thing. I found out every, every punk ass nigga that last. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. That's all, that's all I opened up. That's all. So, every punk ass nigga that shit that then left, when they saw me the next time, they don't know I know they. They don't even know. They couldn't even hold a stand and look at my face. Couldn't look you in the eye. Couldn't look me in the eye. Because they know one thing. I ain't gonna, I ain't gonna just smash you. There's a couple niggas out there, but I ain't gonna do nothing to that. You know, I got a son. You know what I'm saying? I'm trying to be respectful in this rap game. Correct. It's hard to be respectful in this rap game when it's so many fake ass, full gay ass people. Yeah. But I seen so many. We took a time. These 35 niggas, the ones that shared and then left. Yeah. Yeah. So, now all you, y'all stay y'all punk ass right back there and y'all. I hope real. Can't get nowhere. I hope. You're so down. So, okay. Let's go to the night. As we know you already, we know you had to have your leg cut off because of the accident. That night at the Cliff Club, you had a show, right? Milo. You were a little old, matter of fact. And, okay. So tell, kind of tell me what happened. I do. They brought us some drinks and shit then, but I got some news that was like some heartfelt news. Okay. You feel what I'm saying? This was before your performance and everything. Yeah, just before I left. Okay. I got the call before I got to the club. Yeah. You feel what I'm saying? But while I'm at the club, I got the news again. So, now I'm trying to, I'm trying to mentally hold this news in without letting my anger on somebody else. Yeah. You feel what I'm saying? Mm-hmm. And, you know, sometimes people don't understand. The first thing in their mind is like, oh man, this guy on the ground will be a scoundrel, nigga. You don't know the fuck. Yeah. Yeah, yeah. So, when I went out, you know, like to come down, you know what I'm saying? We parked right on the street. You feel what I'm saying? I don't even know. You know what I'm saying? I'm not even, I don't even know. Because I'm going to murder punishment. The truck we came in, we was parked on the other end. I don't even know it's got them six lane freeway right there. You don't even, you don't even know it? I don't even know it. I'm just, I'm just like, man fuck. Man, man, man. Walking down that alley. Pow! And it happened just that fast. Yeah. But the car knocked me in the street. Okay. In the middle of the freeway. I get up. Pow! 50, 60, 70 mile ran over it. Wow. So, let me ask you this. Were you even on, were you on anything? No. Because people are saying that you was on weed and you know that. But you were just, you just had. Me and Sam, they may have been together. I'm a real nigga. I would say that I was. I went on shit. You feel what I'm saying? Yeah. But drinking, that's something we do. Yeah. I had, I had, oh, I had two drinks. Like that one. You know what I'm saying? The news that I got. What else? Made, the news I got would make, would make you like kitchen. You know what I'm saying? Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. Yeah. You know what I'm saying? It pretty much was some news that pretty much it just free rated you so much that you pretty much say it was like, it was like, it was like, look what you're going to do about it. Yeah. You can, you can either go over and get, you know what I'm saying? Get like in prison. Yeah. For this news. Or you can just wussah. Yeah. You know what I'm saying? Yeah. And so if I tried to do, try to wussah. Yeah. You know what I'm saying? And so my partner JV who, who was standing there with Sam, he was hurt. Yeah. Yeah. He told me that. That was just. JV, JV. He never been around me if I have episode. Episode, yeah. You know what I'm saying? But he'll never been around episode. He just like this. Yeah. You feel me? Yeah. Like Sam like, nah, nigga. Nah, nigga, grab that neck. Hold his arm, nigga. Make sure he's straight, nigga. Yeah. You know what I'm saying? Yeah. And my other partner over there, he on the phone. You feel me? I'm saying so. Because he never been with me with episode. Sam, the only one that know. You feel me? Out of, out of this group that's with us. So, but he's near. So he can get over there. And by that time, bam, I got hit with him. Yeah. Bam, I get hit again. Yeah. You know what I'm saying? So you got hit by the two different people? Two different people. Okay. Who's hitting wrong. You feel me? So the people, they didn't even stop. They didn't stop. Both of them. Both of them? Both of them. But the good thing is, the one that's straight on my leg. You feel me? Shout out to the detectives. I don't want to say, I don't want to say big name. But Detective Jay, she really put it in words for me. But she found a gun, right? She did. He had to change. They bumped. I bet. So she went and found the old bumper. My DNA was all over the bumper. Wow. You know what I'm saying? Wow. You know, the thing is, man, like, I just, like you hear all the stories. People say different things. That's not different. That's not different. Of course. That's for a thing. I definitely was trying to understand how to move forward when people keep pulling to me. It's not. They don't bother me. You know what? There's a flower in all their clothes. That's real. I'm talking about a flower that's worse than mine. You know, they, you know, they got bigger flowers than me. You feel me? They say what they want to say. I ain't nothing about it for nothing. Yeah. You say to people who do it all this channel, everybody got something. I tell people all the time, I say, if people start seeing what everybody dealing with, oh, we'll have an even plan for you. Stuff start falling out. You know, I started trying to hide mine right here right now. For real? You will be trying to hide yours because everybody got something. But the thing is, everybody want to look at everybody else is to try to keep attention on what they got. And guess what? A lot of times the people that's talking, all you got to do is you look back at them and be like, have you accomplished what I accomplished? No, that's real. Do you got what I got? That's real. You feel what I'm saying? You know what I'm saying? So, you know, that's something that makes you, you go look in the mirror. You know, I don't think people really, I know I didn't understand, like, that you still would have issues where you would get into angry positions and then flip out to where it would trigger you to go back to a spot to where you don't even know what happened. But I understood. As soon as I learned that, I understood it because of the people I built around. So I know everybody's affected different. But see the mold, you know what I'm saying? It's like the, the, the, the, the, the calmer, the calmer mind vibe. See, this is what I found out. If you riding in the car for three, you on a three hour trip and all you listening to is boom, boom, shoot them up, bang, bang, motherfucker, fuck your nigga, I'm a kid. You got the whole trip. Your mind is really getting, if you hear me, you really like, yeah, yeah. No, I don't need some front of your family to make it. I'm good. I'm very cool. Yeah. Because what they'll be on the scene, we got, a lot of us got PTSD too. For sure. No, that's something that, that's what I related to. You know what I'm saying? It's, you know, mental health issues from, you look at many people, we're not lost in the music industry. That I'm not lost. I was just talking about that. I got post trap syndrome. That's what I call it. Post trap syndrome. PTSD. Yeah. I'm free. I got post trap syndrome, man. No, I get it. Yeah. I had to wake up as a kid. In my life, am I going to die today? Mm-hmm. Or am I going to kill somebody today? Boom. I got a murder charge. It self-defense. Man, I'm risking my life and freedom to live for a bunch of years. Let me answer. I didn't know you, you got a murder charge before. Yeah, I got my murder charge. How old was you when you got out? I was like 19. And you got a murder charge? Yeah. Some niggas broke my heart. You know, we had all the fancy cars and stuff. Yeah, yeah, for sure. So, uh, this chick set us up. What we would do is, we had a big A live career. Uh, this swank, ocean swank of the bank. Yeah, yeah, yeah, for sure. We got a fish tank in the wall. Oh, you had them TVs in that damn car? Yeah, you don't know if we get that. We got the fish tank in the wall. Now that we live. So, for example, if you had the crib and you finna go, you grab the key off the counter. You go to the burglar boy. You don't like the burglar boy. Go outside. You like it. And you just throw the key back down the hall. Yeah. That was the way we did. Mm-hmm. So, this particular chick that was over there was, she kept the key. Mm-hmm. We, back there in my room, jamming beats, listening beats. It's me, Steve, big pep. And I want to say, we'll. Yeah, we'll. So, all of a sudden, you know, we get in the house with Mahler anyway. When you come through the hallway, if you don't know, this ladder is holding up that. Mm-hmm. That's dope. But if you don't know that, you just, so the next thing, you know, we are boom, boom. Damn, somebody hit the head of the door. I got an AK, but the AK is in the next room. Yeah. Ain't nothing in this room, but the radio swishers. You know what I'm saying? Of course. So, all of a sudden we're like, man, what the fuck is that? So, by the time I get up, we go through the door, and then we come through the door. Skeet man, you feel me? 357. Wow. So, we like, y'all give it up. Wow. He shoot my roommate in the head. They ain't killed him? Uh-huh. He survived. Wow. But when he shot, he looked like he did. Of course. You know what I'm saying? Because he just, he looked at my other partner. He looked at me. Nigga, pow! That nigga took off running. He was going, boom, boom, boom. In the show. He shot in the show. Went upon the run. He's just me and him and them. You know what I'm saying? He said, nigga, lay down, nigga. He laid it down. I laid it down. Four minutes? Four minutes. Then that motherfucker, that same nigga who blacked out, that nigga kicked in here. Oh, hold on. So, okay, with that nigga, I said, yeah. Pow! Took the whole pistol. Took the pistol from him. He turned to try to run and ran right to the wall. I lit his ass up. So you shot him with his pistol? Shot him with his pistol. You know what I'm saying? Poli's come. They see me watch their life. They're like, oh, this is a drug deal gone bad. I said, man, I don't even know this nigga. You know what I'm saying? I ain't no drug deal gone bad. I ain't even know black cars. Of course. Boys in the hood. You know what I'm saying? I used to see him for years after that. I used to see him for years after that. So, you know what I'm saying? They took a nigga. Did he ever change? No. I ain't wanted real few change. You know what I'm saying? So, so, so, yeah. They took me to jail. Grand jury. They died on a truck. They died on a truck. On the back, it was so crazy. Every time I went to court, life were like, tickets and shit after that. They would always bring that. It was like, how can they say that? You know what I'm saying? They know it was their self defense. Yeah. So, you know what I'm saying? Yeah. I never knew that. I never knew that. It was all on the news and everything. And they changed. You know what I'm saying? They knew it was their self defense. Yeah. So, you know what I'm saying? Yeah. I never knew that. I never knew that. It was all on the news and everything. And they changed. Man, that's crazy. So, yeah, after that, bro, when I would go somewhere, I swung the bag blowing up. It was blowing up on screw tapes. It was blowing up on radio. Yeah. And everybody run up to me. What's up? Are you a G? Yeah. I'm like, yeah, because you're Larry. I'm Larry. You know what I'm saying? That AD told me something like that. I found out who they were though. But let me just say this, man. You never know, man. Like I said, your legacy, like I said on that card, we wrote, your legacy can't be denied, man. You are the culture, man. And just the things that you've been through, man. How do you manage to keep your spirits up? Even after losing your league? What? I talk to you and your spirits are so high. You make me have to be like, man, I can't be. The way it is, you give everybody spirit and life, man. Everybody who I was calling and talking to, they the ones that started crying. I bet. I'm like, let me get their ass about the phone. You know what I'm saying? Hey, man, because the glass is half into half full. Half full, right. If I would have kept that lead, that was going to die. Correct. You know what I'm saying? Yeah. I almost died. I died twice. I remember you text me that. I died twice outside. You wouldn't even see that. Stop breathing. Stop breathing. I was in the fifth, late one. My boy JB kept breathing my heart. He hit me on my heart during the whole process. CPR. That made me come back. Then when I was in the hospital, I didn't know nothing about bleeding out at night. So I'm in the business. I say, ooh. This motherfucker don't hurt real. Something ain't right. I call the nurse. The nurse comes. Man, they were like, cold red, cold red. They come in there like eight, nine deep. And what happened, the arteries was popping. Yeah. Because they had put them in place. And the girls were trying to say. Say lean. The boy was just popping, pop, pop, pop. So blood, the whole bed full of blood, blood out on the floor. Wow. So I didn't know. My mama could see it. So I just see her. I just see her. Hey, she put a little hood on her head. Like get me out of here. This is a good deal with it. They rode out here. They're my brother. My brother retired chief. Okay. Yeah. Yeah. Secret service. Wow. Little brother. Gangster, gangster. You know everything. You know what I'm saying? He, he, he, he, he by the body. So he was like, you know, he had been there with me here. He gave me a towel. I put the towel in my mouth like. So that's how I got through. You know, they told me like, nigga, you feel to die. You feel to die. Yeah, we ain't. That was the third time. That was the third time. They had to turn it. They had to turn it. Two nights later. It happened again. Like ain't no wrong to me. But the blood coming on this side, right? Yeah. But it's not the same kind. Oh, you trip. I don't know. Oh, you. Oh, it don't matter. Right. So I'm like, yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. So they told me that first, you know what I'm saying? Like the third, like the third night, you know what I'm saying? Like, hey, we have to amputate it. What you want to do? And I say, well, if it's going to save my life, just cut it off. That's real. That's real. Man, my hopes are so high. Because every day they telling me they ain't the same league. So they trying to save it. No. They were telling me I was good. They were telling me we're not going to have to cut it off. And I say, Miss Hill, you good? We're not going to have to cut it off. So I'm like, oh, thank you, Jesus. Yeah. Yeah. I'm in the good. Lord, that's so life. You know what I'm saying? So that went on for days and days. I had all those surgeries. And that last one, when they cleaned it up, it just was painful. It just ain't feel right. And once they got the little thing, like it's not at all. And that was a picture you showed when they were working on it? No. See, the picture I showed is the pictures that they got on. On my file, when I first come in. Oh, when you first came in? So I was out of there. OK. You know what I'm saying? Like my first few days, I never even looked at my leg. Yeah. Yeah. Because I ain't know that bed. Yeah. I told my brother, I say, so my leg fucked up. He say, hey, yeah. I say, like, fucked up, fucked up. He was like, nigga, fucked up, fucked up. Yeah. I say, so I can't go skip down the hall and give me some coffee. He say, hey, well now. And man, when they told me, you know what I'm saying? You know what I'm saying? Oh, my God. I'm saying, bam. So I made the people put it up so I can take that. Because I documented my counselor. Document this. You know what I'm saying? So when they put up, put it. And a couple of friends and family members was like, man, your fans and people really don't know where you at or what's going on. I said, well, you know what? Today will be the day I just give him a little bit. Give him a little bit. And they couldn't handle it. A lot of them couldn't handle it. No, I couldn't handle it. He ain't gonna lie to you. I can't handle my wife. I can't. She can handle anything. I'm weak as hell. Yeah, a lot of me. What the hell? I need to call you, man. Yeah, a lot of me ain't looking at shit. I'm weak as hell when it comes down to it. So you say 10 surgeries? Did you go? I had 10. Since you got here, you done 10 surgeries? Since May 10. 10 surgeries. I got one tomorrow. Tomorrow should be my last one. Got one tomorrow. Doctors say tomorrow might be my last one. Then I go straight to rehab. Man. What they did was they come in from the knee. You know what I'm saying? First they had, you know what I'm saying? They was doing the, you know what I'm saying? They did the skin graphing out of the skin. Skin under the... Yeah. So they come in right above the knee. Yeah. You know what I'm saying? So when a couple of people came, you know what I'm saying? I shed some tears when they came because they walked in the door and they cried and you know what I'm saying? Yeah. But shit, I don't make money to have dance. No, that's... All right. I'm great, right? I can give that move. You know what I'm saying? I make money to appear mentally. Yeah. You know what I'm saying? Indiveribly. No, that's real. You know what I'm saying? That's so real. That's why I have, though. Like, to recognize that. Right off. Right off. Right off. My auntie told me, oh, you must read what I read. I said, baby, I thought that before you ever sent me. Baby, I am a pastor. Real talk. Yeah. I'm just not a regular rapper. I'm a pastor. My uncle is one of the smartest men in America. I've been telling people that he's been all on CNN. He led Southern. He was a student president in Southern when the police come through with the rise and kill those two people. He was a professor over here, a professor at Mississippi Valley State. He was a professor at Jackson State. South Carolina State. And he always embedded certain things in me. That's real. That's hard. So I live by this certain things. You have to just live by to be smart. Wow. To get by. That's real. That's real. If you don't want them to come in here and JFK or anything. You know what I mean? It's this. In your family, what is all said and done? What is the most important thing that your family, your fans, remember you by? We ain't got that yet. Okay. You feel me? You put in the universe what you want to put in the universe. They ain't everybody the same question. Dona, watch this. In five years, I'ma be top five that alive. In five years. In five years. In five years. Boom. I got to go kiss Lil Wayne first. So Lil Wayne is top five? No. I mean, before it was literally down side. Okay. Now, if I think about the real, the realm, I give people ties. You got Biggie, Pop, Face, Nas, Jay-Z. Nas and Jay-Z, tie. And Pop, it's a tie. You know why? Pop cannot wrap Biggie if it's about emotion and lifting you up. But if it's about metaphors and flipping, back and forth, flipping, living back and forth, Biggie would be Pop. That's real. That's real. You feel what I'm saying? That's real. I get exactly why you say that. I just want to say, man, thank you for even doing the interview. I know already, man, it's been tough, but you've been so hot-spirited. I can't tell it's tough. Yeah, I can't. Thank you so much for a great interview. Nas and Meatball, they've been giving me nothing. What that is? Cheetahs left with zebra? Which one that is? I only woke up the cheetah, the zebra. My mama, hey, say, my mama gangsta. Now, let me explain to you who my mama fucking mama is. My mama Mars. She went from where the dick is the defense from. Okay. Bogaloo. My mama Mars. My mama really went to work and bust her ass for me and my siblings. I'm talking about to the point of like, like, I grew up not eating enchiladas, because I went to work with her. You feel me? And they used to say enchilada trays, and they were so goddamn greasy. So I grew up not eating enchiladas, not because of the taste, because I had an invitation, just because they were so goddamn greasy. And the lady my mama worked for, my mama, like, really worked for these people. Like, you know what I'm saying? Like, go wipe their grandest asses and clean them. That's how my mama would say it. She ain't used on home health term when she got mad. You know what I'm saying? It's home health when she hate it. When she mad. I'm wiping these white folks asses with y'all and y'all. You know what I'm saying? I remember that as a homeboy. I want to say his name from my hometown. He had a Nintendo. So me and my little brother, we stopped by his house as a school and he was like, come by my house, check out my check out. So we watching through the window. He playing the Nintendo. We just in the top of the room, you know what I'm saying? So when we get home, my little brother tell my mama, yeah, we was over there, something so big boy, we were watching him play the game through the window. Mama said, you was doing what? Through the window. Oh, he ain't let y'all in to play the game? She said, get your ass in the car. We jumped in the car. We went to Walmart. Damn, I said, damn, my mama got some money. I didn't know where my mama got all this money from, because she put the Nintendo in there in 20 games. She loved her kids. But no, I didn't know she didn't pay for them. That means she really loved her kids. She said, my mama was a gangster. She said, boy, hurry up and bring your ass out here. We took out her. She said, you better not let nobody play with them. That's when I knew my mama was a super gangster. But my mama was a real gangster though. She ain't gonna put all of this out there, but she ain't smoking on ridges. She ain't playing. She ain't smoking on ridges. Let's go with it. Your mama and me in the world, too. Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah. Oh, she definitely do. And by us being in this little cubicle together, we both were like, when she gets mad, she get that look. My mama would bomb your ass on Facebook. I bet. So you know what I'm saying? That's how you, you know what I'm saying? You got to be cool, my mama. You ain't better than playing my mama. I'm gonna make you laugh. This laugh, my mama. Remember this mama? When I was, I was locked out at the house, and I thought it was, I didn't know what time it was, being when I was asleep. So, so I'm, you know what I'm saying? I'm up late, you know what I'm saying? I go to sleep at three in the morning. I'm thinking, she gonna tap it on me. Boy, you know we got to get up and get ready to go. You know what I'm saying? I'm thinking it's 5 a.m. or 6 a.m. I'm like, dang, mama. She's like, what's that, your bitch ass sweet day? I said, that's what I know about one guy. I said, damn, mama, baby, don't tell me that. She made me mad. I got my bitch ass over, too. You know what I'm saying? That's what you mean. But it's what you mean. But see, my family's so big. It was 9, it was 9, 9, 9, 9. So 5 a.m. So once again, I can tell you when I walked in, and I see how you look. I'm looking at your face, looking at your demeanor, and you look good. You know what I mean? You're looking, I mean, nobody could just tell all the stuff that you just went through because of how you're looking, how you're acting. Say, let me make you laugh. There are some comedians. Like, I've been tearing their ass up on the underground comedy shit, right? So at least I'm there as a comedian. And I went to the open mic, and I walked by you like, what? I said, okay, appreciate you. I went back to you later on. He said, man, I ain't gonna lie. You boy, you look good. I said, nigga, you tell me that one more time. I'm gonna tell you. But you know, it was just that they thought, and they mind, a person that's, you know, going through the head of the counselor. It's something like that. You supposed to look, man. But it's all mental. You feel me with that? You know what I'm saying? Like, if you, if you just thinking like, oh, I ain't gonna make it. I ain't gonna do it. You don't get what you ask for. And man, I feel like men have it worse than women because I've heard of so many men who get bad news, especially we can't send stuff like that and you hear the next day they're dead. Because they feel like it's a death sentence once you get certain things. Like there's no overcoming it. But you know what they be? Men go to the hospital like less than women. Right. So by the time, you know, a man would put up with that pain for two, three years. Nah. You need to put up that pain so long. Like, instead of two or three of your polyps being affected, there's 10 of them. So now you're toward stage four and there's pretty much nothing you can do. You know what I'm saying? Because, and when you think of men, you know, in our, you know, like growing up in our community, they used to think, you know what I'm saying? When you get count, it's over. But Caucasian, I mean, so many Caucasian people come up to me and say in this industry that, hey man, I had colon cancer. Man, you would beat that. That ain't nothing. That's how they talk. That's how they talk. That's why I got a line where I say, I feel like Florida will beat up cancer. Right. You feel what I'm saying? Like once the doctor automatically told me. It's mental. Yeah. When you say, man, you have colon cancer. I'm like, okay. I know one thing. That's not brain cancer. That's not prostate cancer. Pancreatic cancer. Those are the worst. Those are harder. You understand? Like he told me the tumor that went right now, cleaned it all out. I couldn't walk, but it was out of there. You know what I'm saying? Yeah. Of course you have risks of certain things come back. So that's when you start learning by ways. To prevent it. Right. It's like, What you eat. It's not just that all the time. You have dark shoulders. Your environment. Stress. Your environment. Your environment. Your environment. Yeah. If you live in a, like an industrial field, certain kind of places. You feel what I'm saying? I get it. Yeah. And of course the foods, but there are so many other things that play roles in it. For as things you put on your body. Like products and different shit like that. All of that get to be a test to it. But the colon mostly deals with the intestines. See that's what I hate. That's why. When you talk about the products. You know how a new product come out. Lotion or whatever. And we love it. It smells good. Whatever. Then years later on it say, Well if you use this. Right. You can now sue this. I don't even believe some of them commercial. But we know one thing. I think colon deals with the intestine. You feel me? So of course over a long period of time. You gotta think. When we was kids. We ate at home. You know we didn't get them. Man my mom already take it. My mom. When did we get these? She boy it better be real. I better be about the grades away. Especially in my MVP football. Basketball or something. You need to just run the restaurant every day. See these kids. And people go fast food every day every day. So the process. That fake meat and processed foods. Going through that cold. It's great though. It's tanned it up in a way of. You know it's infected it. You know what I'm saying. And that's one of the main things. But like dark sodas and those processed foods. One of the main things. They told me in mind. Stressing your environment. All that play a key role. So what you say to some of these black. Man who are watching this show right now. Would you advise them to like. Start going to do their checkups once a year. Man of course. It's almost like it's almost like a no brainer now. You feel what I'm saying. Like like like. They used to tell you to go at 50. Now they want you to go at 45. So me I would suggest you to go at 40. Here's the thing. I'm going to make you laugh first before I get to it. I'm in the hospital. Now this is when they found the little tumor. And they say. Mr. Hill you need to come back for another colonizer. I'm like man I just had one. So like come in. So when I come back. I got a nurse. You know she about 30. You know she about 40. Little carcass lady. The nice little lady. She like. Oh I can't get it. I can't get it. I can't do it. So they had to take it in over there. So I'm like. You know what I'm saying. She say you want to go to the bathroom and do it yourself. I said I try. So I get the rest room. Like man I can't stick nothing in the way. I try. I just can't do it. I'm just. You know what I'm just. Two gangsta. You know what I'm saying. I would but I'm trying. You think about saving your life. But I ain't giving a damn. I couldn't do it. So when I get back to. Back to my room. Be gone talk to that white boy. Come walk right there. I said. Yeah. Yeah. And we can find somebody. I can't even go. That didn't work that you figure you. You figure get this. You figure get do right. I would feel right. You know what I'm saying. So you know. That's how it is. So. As man. That's the mentality. Especially now. You know. Like we are ready. My mama already called. We already left. Baby Sam like. Baby Sam won't even he the hot dog. You know what I'm saying. Right. Like that is longer. They were like. one of the main things. Now, you can't check for everything, but that totally can't be one of the... Especially if it runs in the family. See, that's not true. Really? It's not in your family? No. All that old... I mean, it is, but I mean, somebody in my family that counts, I don't know who, but that thinking you are... Or good if nobody... No, no, no, no, no. Thinking you gonna... You got it because your uncle or somebody else had it. So that's just a fear. You can get it with nobody else in your family. Oh, wow. A lot of time when they say about you, you look at a family. It's the whole old family is obese. You think she big because her mama was big, doesn't it? No, she big because her mama letting her eat the same thing that she was eating. You know what I'm saying? Ain't that her red detergent? Ain't nothing red detergent. Your skin color, you know, that's just like me saying, I'm gonna have my next set of twins gonna have one lead. You know what I'm saying? But genes has a lot to do with it too, when I say that. They do. In a certain way. Because I've seen where kids don't know, say you lost your dad at a young age, whatever, and you just like him. Your mama said, man, you act, you, you do the same thing, but you've never been around him. That's true, but you're not gonna be fat because he was. I mean, you know what I'm saying? That's what I mean. That part is definitely true. You don't get your head out here. Like, I don't look, I wish that. You know what I'm saying? My shit used to be curious. I needed a bar or something. You know what I'm saying? Yeah, but like, I didn't know how much I was like Monday. Because I went around with my dad when I was young. When I got older, I realized, you know, I ain't know how much I went on with my mom. She didn't like my mom. You know what I'm saying? So, and you hear the people voice, people don't even think about that. Think about that next time. When you see some brothers listen to their voice, they talk, they talk alike. They don't even know it. So, you know, I had a question. So, okay. So going back to that day, when you got hit, you said the police found the bumper for the detective found the bumper. One person would hit you, but you said two people hit you. So it was only the first person that hit you at first. That's the person that the bumper they found. No. The first person, like, the first person then, then, first person going kind of slow. They saw me, you know what I'm saying? They were trying to try to, trying to slow them down. Yeah, yeah, yeah. So they didn't, you know what I'm saying? You know, they didn't, they hit me tonight, you know. Make me go to the middle of the street, but the second car is what did all the damage. All the damage because they ran over you. Right. And then they slowed down and then it kept on going. Because that's the part, because when you posted the pictures, that's what I'd ask Baby Sam, because I'm like, when you see the pictures and you see all your leg, I mean, half of your leg is gone on the side. And I'm like, they had to have drug you. Like you stuck under the car, they drug you, something for all of that to be gone like that. Yeah, they hit, they hit, they knocked the shit out of me, you know what I'm saying? I'm blessed. I'm gonna say I'm blessed. My mama called Mr. Twillight, you know what I'm saying? So, you know, they found it and did it on the bumper, whatever gonna happen, gonna happen, but, you know, it's a win-win for me. I live, I survive, you feel what I'm saying? So, you know, it's only up for me. I can't go, I can't go back, I can't go down. So how are you using that to move forward? How are you using that? Because sometimes, you know, people, some people tend to want to say, you know, I want to forget about what I've been through. Hell no, hell no. How are you using that to move forward? There's a man named, what was his name? Lee Brown. Anyway, that's Brown. Yeah, that's one of my favorite people. I know what you're talking about. Yeah, they just kind of retarded whatever, you know what I'm saying? He was a kid. But I didn't listen to him so much. Me going through this, for example, if I was to walk into an auditorium, you know, with some kids, nah, I know how to make them pay attention. They gonna listen to me because the ones that, you know, where I'm from and they from, we can, you know, connect on that environment, right? But some of those, they're not going to be able to understand if I try to tell them about certain drug use or things not to do, right? Because some of them may have not done it or whatever. Right. Man, when I take that, when I take that leg off, and just show them. That's going to make them feel better. I show them all this shit. You feel me? I got this thing. I got two in the back. You feel what I'm saying? They got to take off. I've been through some shit, shit. You feel me? And if I name, once I go to name and all the people that ain't with me, no more. You feel me? My future is three, four more years. Five at the most. Transition from music. Comedy. Films for being that motivation speaker. I just knew that's what it was. You know what I'm saying? I don't want to be a pastor, you know what I'm saying? I don't want to be a pastor. Just a motivation speaker. Motivation speaker, because you're going to help a lot of people. And it's going to help me. Yeah, because when I read that to you earlier, that's all I could see. That was all what you read. Right, because it's how many people you're going to save because of what you've been through. Because I remember even, we interviewed another young lady the other day, and her name is Goddess Johnson, right? She's blind. She's blind? She's blind. But she went through so many different trauma, foster care, all of that. But her trauma came from, okay, her younger sister, she was in the car with her younger sister that were driving and her niece. And niece was like seven months old. They had a wreck. She lost both her sister and her niece. They died. She lived, but the doctor said she wouldn't be able to see. She had to go through surgeries to be able to even get. Right now, she can see, you're looking through a telescope only on one eye, and you can see a tunnel vision. That's all she can see. That's all you can see. And she won Miss Beauty Pageant for the blind because she's trying to show, because she had to go through all sorts of stuff before she got to that point. But all these young girls are looking up to her. She's like, she didn't realize how many young, blind children out here who have self-confident issues. I'm sure they do. All sorts of trauma. But she obeyed her seed again. She's like, she has a whole different type of vision right now. She obeyed her seed again, though. Really? Yeah, because like, like it can cut, you know what I'm saying? Because she sees now, but it's just a little bit. If you can see a little bit, it's so many. I'm blind. Ma, I'm blind on ma. That's for real. I find it well, bitch. You know what I'm saying? I got no context right now. Your glasses ain't even that thick. No, these are read and blessed. Now I'm blind. You know what I'm saying? Look, when I was a kid, I used to go to the, I was on Medicaid. We go to the eye doctor. B, I couldn't, every pair of glasses that I picked, Medicaid didn't cover. Man, I got my heart broke. I got my heart broke from the third grade to the seventh grade. Seventh grade, I looked. I said, man, boy, I don't like some shit run. Didn't see it well. I said, man, can I get them? And he finally gave me some glasses that I'm Medicaid. Yeah, man. I'm not, she's blind. You know what I'm saying? Not dead, man. I'm talking about read. You know what I'm saying? I have to have my glasses or context in, you know what I'm saying? But that's big for her. That's big for her. That's all she does now is go around and do motivational speaking. And she helps a lot of people and she travels everywhere and do it. And she's been a blessing to so many people. When I follow her on her social media, the amount of people that give her love. That's real. You know what? Amazing. In our community, you got to get them some shit that's going to hit them in the heart. You feel me? Because they're going to overlook you. Yeah. You feel me? And the world going through a lot right now. Man, look how many people, look how many people like, like, maybe on the, on the, maybe on the corner, trying, you know what I'm saying? Trying to give you the word. Man, that nigga, that nigga in that car, just trying to go to work or get home or whatever. You don't even stop to, to absorb that. You know what I'm saying? So you have to get the people what they want. And you're the type of person that likes to give it real. I don't love that fact, because people would listen to you because of the way how you talk. Much less you like to joke around and stuff like that. So you're going to make them laugh with it too. Because some people want to cry, but with you doing all that, you can't, you try to make them. You can't balance it. Yeah, I mean, my, my, like my brother. You know, he'll be like, man, everything ain't a joke, bro. Hey, man, I'm making it happen. You got a laugh? I'm making it happen. Yeah, man. Make it happen, man. People don't know. Say, man, I lost my family without a rick, without an accident. I went to three houses to none. You know what I'm saying? I walked away with nothing, but my, my happiness. You feel what I'm saying? Do you know how hard there shit is? Sitting in the garage by yourself. My son was my best friend. Right. You feel me? And I couldn't, I didn't get to talk to my son for, kick over my son. People in the rap game that you have help get to a certain level of support. They scared to say your goddamn name. You feel me? Now I got this over there. You look at that over there, then you look the same as, like he said about the different people that try to pull you down in the past of what you do with your, of your recreation shit. When they doing the same shit, it just, they ain't getting caught. You feel me? And I'm just what it's more of a transparent type of dude. You feel what I'm saying? Like, hey, if you my friend, if you my partner, partner, nigga, you gonna know what I do. I ain't got time for all of those shit. Gonna hide in this shit. You feel what I'm saying? Cause I ain't doing nothing. I ain't doing nothing. That's the thing, I think it should hide. You feel what I'm saying? I ain't smoking no tea. I ain't shooting no heroin. I don't knock with nobody to do. I ain't on a crystal meal. I ain't doing none of that shit. How long you been sober off of drugs? Who say that? About the 228 beers in front of you? Shit, it's over what? I ain't gonna never be sober. God didn't want me to be sober. I was designed to be a gangster. My uncle was the biggest drug dealer. In this other region of Louisiana where I'm from. I started selling drugs at 13. Real drugs. My whole family, my cousins, I always went to the feds and didn't eat anything. We was, that BMF shit, my grandpa was in front of West Side. BMF, that was us as kids, my family. We got it in. My mama ain't gonna want me to say all that. We got it in. But look at my mama telling me, she say, boy, you go to jail selling that dope. Don't you cry at me. I said, okay. Two weeks later, give me $200. Yeah, it was traveling to all of my life, man. That's the kid, man. That's what, you ever run that shit, man? Unfortunately, you know what I'm saying? That's just what we grew up around. You know what I'm saying? So, like, I'm not on all papers. I'm not on nothing. The doctor prescribed me CBD, you feel me? But I am. That's the one with CBD. I hit me a little close or something. You feel me? But that's how, you know, I don't know what I need. That's all you need, all natural. You don't know what I need. I am a different kind of human being. I don't need no water, none of they kind of see it. But you know what I'm saying? Right. You know, I'm a different kind of human being. I'm just saying, man. I go to a ran where people don't go. You see, man, I ran you some shit that you can't fathom. Because PTSD, I always talk about how it's not only the military people go through PTSD, nor not only the police, but even street cats. Because street cats, you obviously, you see partners being killed in front of you. You see, you know, things that are so traumatic, that are regular, what my girl Martina would call me green, because I'm not exposed to certain things. But you see these things on a regular basis. But you, how can that not be PTSD, PTSD? You know what I mean? Nah, nah, I know why you asked me that course. Because your friend called you green, you know what I mean? There's no way to hear you ask me that course. Man, you just got to look how hard it is. I mean, you got to look up, okay. When you're in certain environments, you got jack bars to look out for. Police to look out for. You feel me? There's so much thing to look out for if you live in that life or in that environment. You feel what I'm saying? And people want you to just snap out right out of it, it's so quick and fast. If you are making, you know what I'm saying? I hate to say it. If you're making five or ten bands a day, and something happened where they want you to be scared straight, you got to go straight. I remember my, I remember my dad. Oh, I remember my dad. I remember my daddy telling me like, son, man, why don't you come work with me? I said, how much am I making? He said, you're going to make $400 out of every two weeks. I said, dad it back. But you know, for somebody, you know what I'm saying? That might have been perfect for him. But me bumping and grinding in this rap game as a kid, I mean, from being a mom, I ain't never had no job. And I worked as, you know, you know how you've been like, seven, eight, nine, 10 grade. You had those little summer jobs without school and everything. I did that. But once I became, you know what I'm saying? That's nothing wrong with, everybody should work. You know, that's nothing wrong with it. But it just, you know, I called my drill truck at the young age. Right. You know what I'm saying? I got my drill truck fresh out of high school. You know what I'm saying? So I was going to be feeling, it was hard as hell, immediately right then for me. You know what I'm saying? These are things that you carried all the way up till even that night, you know, you said you got a call and that's what triggered. This call, this call, man, this call was a call that made, you know what I'm saying? I tried to do everything in me to not reveal. I revealed to my people there with me, but I tried to do everything in me not to reveal this call to everybody else. Now, the person that I got the call about was one of the persons that walked up to me. You know what I'm saying? So you know what I'm saying? So they weren't there that night? They were there that night. Somebody told me, say man, there's a person who died that I could lie. You know what I'm saying? So if you look at it, I got a list. These are five people that did me dirty over my lifetime. And I got some, you know what I'm saying? And all of a sudden somebody gave you a call, hey man, number three on your list at that club. Right there in front of you. So you know what I'm saying? So it's like the first thing I think about, that's the devil trying to get you at that moment in time. Yeah, it could be. It could be. You don't understand what I mean? Because that's just a big coincidence that at that time you get that call and this person is right there. That's crazy, huh? Yeah, that's crazy. So you don't think it could have been gold? It's the devil, huh? That's the devil. All devil, all devil. But remember, God, a lot of the devil attempts you in a lot of ways. So the devil was trying to see what I was going to do. See what you're going to do? Yeah, I could. Put that temptation right in front of you because he wanted, you could have either, like you said, you could have gotten life. Yeah, I just threw up and I said, oh God, I'm the boogeyman. I'm the boogeyman. I'm the boogeyman. Or you could have walked out. Somebody else would have got hurt. Anybody would have got hurt. But you were trying to do the right thing by walking out. But I, so, so, you know what I'm saying? Right. After that happened, you know, all I said, lose my leg. You know what I'm saying? But I know you think, how many times a day do you think about that night? None. You don't play it back in your head. You don't, none of that. I don't give a damn about that night. I think, you know, I've had nightmares since I've been here. But I don't, that night, you know what I'm saying? The only time I think about the night is like, me and somebody talking about it or something. Oh, okay. It don't come, it don't come to my mind. So you're not that type of person who, because you know some people be like, trying to look back and be like, what could I done differently? How could I, da, da, da, da. When I had the murder story, I ain't, I ain't never thinkin' about that night. Come on, you feel like, you know, and like I hear so much from my son, you know what I'm saying, growin' up like, but once he got like 13 at the internet, he was that good. Better, you shot somebody. You know what I'm saying? The internet, so, like I hear it all, you know what I'm saying? So, you know what I'm saying? I could block out a lot of shit, you know what I'm saying? You know, I am a soldier, a real soldier. You know what I'm saying? That's why I like the drugs that I did do. They was made for soldiers, you know, unfortunately. But as some people say, the reason why people do that is because you don't have an outlet to, because if you just so-called forget it, but you know, subconsciously, you really don't forget it. That's why it attacks you in your dreams and your nightmares. So sometimes people say, it's good to just have somebody to talk to to let it out. Whether a counselor, whether it be a stranger, whether it be your mama, whether it be whoever, you have to get it out, or else it's gonna internally attack you. Man, when I was young, like, every time, like, if you come out of prison, you know what I'm saying? They would, you know, you go to the headway house and all the time. Me personally, everybody that I knew, they went to like the drugs, the amy's, or them. That shit ain't working. Everybody said that. Nothing, that's what I'm saying. But now, when they mentally themselves wanted to succeed, it worked. Yeah, you have to want it. Right then, right on top, you know what I'm saying? Just like they interviewed somebody, right? And they were talking about, I think, smoking with his old pimp that we interviewed. And he used to smoke like a freight train all the time, everything. And, you know, he was supposed to go to the classes. He tried rehab, all of that stuff, that and alcohol. And the lady in there is like, man, just do what you got to do in here, and when you get back out there, do what you want to do out there, because this ain't going to work. The lady working in there told him that. She told him that. So guess what? He went out here, found a guy who does hypnosis. It worked. Man, he said, but he said the difference is, because he said his girlfriend went with him and it didn't work on her, but it worked on him. The difference is, you got to want it. She didn't want, she was just doing it because he was doing it. That's just like, that's what didn't think. That's what the music. If you in a rap game, and you only in it because you see your friend making money, he on TV, and it's not in you to grind, you ain't gonna make it. A relationship. If one person in a relationship, you know, just for, you know, to be the seat filler, because it's beneficial. And there's other person in the relationship because they love a person. I love you. It ain't gonna work. You know what I'm saying? That's why rap groups don't last. You can't see people, rap groups don't work no more because it is. You have to be, they have to become partners and friends because for example, they got a song. They gonna rap this, this song is about the love for a woman. Now this dude in the rap game for money, this dude in the rap game because it's in his heart. Okay, so this dude, when he rap his verse, the stuff that he gonna say, is gonna be just shit to make money. It's not gonna be touching. Him, he gonna rap it from his heart. Now, eventually they gonna clash because he's in it for the money and he's in it for the culture. Right. Yeah. So it's your birthday. Yeah, man. And I know you had a lot of people over already. Yeah, yeah. You know, boys been coming, they're right. So, show me some of that. Okay. I don't want no more chicken. I had enough of William chicken. We can do the proud of all the William chicken. You need some Rudy's chicken now. That's what they said, but see, the person who told, I told, they just say, I said, man, that's a really good time. No, and I, yeah. Yeah. You never had Rudy's chicken. No, no, no. All of the road is there. My partner in the road has said Rudy's good as hell. This season ain't good. And see, I need some seeds. Yeah. I ain't good since they were too spicy. That gives me a hot smell of my pet. Every time that medicine make my pet a difference, you know what I'm saying. But it's my birthday. Tell people this. I'm three ages. Okay. What's the three ages? On Fridays, I'm 30. Saturday, I could be 35 or 40. Oh, okay. On Sundays, I'm 45. You know what I'm saying? So, what's the day Sunday? Today's Sunday. Oh, shit. I guess I got to be 45. 45. Well, it's been a blessing. And I was so appreciative that, you know, you allowed us to come in here to talk to you. Yeah, it's real. Because this is something that everybody probably want to know about and they're curious about. That's real. But, you know, you know where our heart is. Oh, yeah, y'all are up there. Y'all are up there. Y'all are up there. Y'all are up there. Y'all are up there. My brother, Bonnie, Bonnie did some push-ups for you. He did them some extra push-ups for you. Y'all swole for the weekend for you. You feel the go. Congratulations, man. Hey, to have a child going to Brown University, it's almost like, it's like taking a needle and throwing it all the way from here to Oakleaf and going through a window and cutting the TV on. That's a whole, that's a great accomplishment, my brother. We're so proud of her. Yeah, that's real. You know what I'm saying? That's real. So, another love. You know, I went to Brown, too. Yeah, Clifton Brown. That's my daddy. My daddy named Brown. You know what I'm talking about? Yeah, that's good. So, y'all let her make it because, you know what I'm saying, most women are smart anyway. My cousin, he had a 4.6. All the women in my school and in my class were smart. So, I used to just, you know, I was smart, but I just used to cheat on them. Cheat on them. And like I like them, make them do my homework. Man, love y'all. Boss talk. Boss talk 101 and we out.