 It's hard to describe your mental and physical feelings when you're taken from a war zone plopped back into society. I got my master's degree after I came back and I could kind of personally re-evaluate what I'd been through, but for a 19-20 year old boy that's plunked back into society I think we can now realize how tough it is with the PTSD that so many of these men have and trying to, I mean they've lost all of their innocence, man. For some of them the program is gone, they can't reprogram and they need some really professional help to get them back and after they've been in this state for so many years, I mean I've been back for 48 years now and can you get that back? I hope so and I hope that whoever sees this, if you need help, that you'll go for help because I finally did after I had retired from my teaching. I was a workaholic up to then so I didn't think so much about what I'd seen and didn't revisit it too much.