 Stop listening to the enemy who will tell you that God doesn't want to talk to you or that you shouldn't pray or that your past disqualifies you from becoming a person of prayer. If you desire to pray, it was the Holy Spirit who gave you that desire in the first place. Therefore, the desire to pray is itself an invitation to prayer. If there is even the smallest desire to pray and climb the mountain of God, it means the Holy Spirit Himself put it there.