 Okay, this is buckle your seat belt time. This could be renamed a crash course in healing. The theme song for the movie is the way the credits roll at the end. What a difference a day makes. 24 hours of crash course and crack the tough nut of the ego open and Woody Harrelson plays our main character who's going to go through character transformation. He's a doctor, he's a beautiful wife, a child. He's getting promoted. He thinks in this hospital where he works everything's going great for him and then he's going to be cracked and peeled in 24 hours. It's all happening at the mind. The mind must ask for it. Everything that seems to happen to me I ask for it and see who I've asked. I showed this to one of my friends who was a course friend from Canada one time and he just shook his head. He was like, David, David. I was like, how dare you show me such a movie. I said, no, it's great. If you have the eyes to see and you can see the purpose of it, it's really beautiful because we need symbols of the possibility of the crack and peel of the ego because sometimes it can seem like a slow, lingering, long process and that can be depressing if you lock into such a thing and so you see a movie like this and you go, whoa, that's the cracking of pride. So it started off with Michael and a couple of movies which were kind of almost like the Polymore of undoing and then the other one was the Angelina Jolie. That was a pretty good one there, too. But then we started talking and I said, well, if you really want a crack and peel then this is... It's going a little back. And Lucy certainly was that the personality she was at the beginning of Heming and Hawing out in front of that bank was cracked and peeled and that was pretty much a 24 hour. So this one has a parallel with that except this is a doctor who thinks he knows something and he's got a lot of opinions and he thinks he's right and he thinks it's important to be right more important to be right than happy and he starts off, he's kind of... He starts off, he's got this part of his mask and easy going and he's trying to be helpful. He's trying to be a healer. Doctors are supposed to be healers. Doctors are supposed to save lives. So he's got very much of a self-concept of being a pretty reasonable, helpful guy who's got a great life and, well, perks keep coming and a beautiful wife and child and all this and this and get a raise and all this and this. But then you might say what's the unhealed healer? Is there something underneath the mask of being a healer? So he's a doctor, so he thinks he's a healer. Most people who are in the medical profession and many helping professions feel they're healers but they're what Jesus would call the unhealed healer because there's a lot of pride that's underneath that mask and that mask has to get cracked and peeled. So if it's going to happen in 24 hours it's going to be extreme because it's just like with Lucy. Nobody watches Lucy and goes, oh, that was a gentle movie. That was pretty direct and pretty rapid with that blue crystal powder. The blue powder kept being referred to after the movie. I marvel at these crack and peel movies. I'm like, wow. If you really had a prayer of the heart for not having it be so stretched out then this is like an answer to a prayer. So that's it. I'll be ready to... Let's do it. Crack and peel? Let's do it. For us it's kind of enjoyable. It's actually our enjoyment because it's a symbol of what's possible. Even though the ego part is like, oh man, it could feel sorry for the guy. There's another part of us that's like, good, good, good. This is what I'm calling for. This is what I'm praying for. Okay, let's roll it. If you don't want this house, you don't love me. I do. I suppose that. I do. We could pose there, obviously. So basically it's given us a glimmer of the self-concept. He's there to be the doctor. He's there to help. He's there to help heal and everything. You see the money and the lifestyle out in LA and the pressures are already... You can see the anger to flare up because he's feeling pressured. And everyone who comes to this world and takes on a self-concept, whatever that self-concept is, they're feeling pressured. There's anxiety. There's fear. There's attention underneath to try to take on a substitute self-concept. But the lures of the ego, the money, the fame, the beautiful wife, the high prestigious job and everything like this, it seems like goody, goody, goody, goody to the ego, but you can't judge your advances from your retreats. And when you think you're succeeding in this world, you're actually retreating from the light in your mind. Everything is backwards. So he's an epitome here of... He's made it. People say on dating sites, well, if you can date a doctor, a wealthy doctor, that's like the big catch. He's like the big catch. He's epitomizing, we'll say, the unhealed healer because he's going around and seeing all these patients, but the anger flares up so quickly because there's something underneath. Now, what's so great about this movie is very deep is like with Helen Shuckman and Bill, Jesus told them that Helen and Bill picked their life partners to avoid intimacy. Most people think about picking a life partner to get intimacy, but it's actually not... In their cases, he says, no, you picked your life partners to avoid intimacy. And in this case, the whole reason he's become a doctor is because there's something... It happened to him in his life. There's something going on in his mind that he felt so guilty about that he went on to med school and became a doctor. And this whole thing, just because of something that's unresolved in his life, and that's what happens when people get into helping professions, when they get into relationships and so on and so forth, they're trying to alleviate guilt in a way that's never going to alleviate the guilt. Just the self-concept is never going to alleviate it. So as this movie unfolds, you'll see much, much later in the movie he'll start having flashbacks, like in Beggar Vance, when he has all those flashbacks to the war and all the bombs going off and everything like this. That's why he's all messed up. He's got these memories. He's got these childhood memories and everyone who walks this earth has these childhood memories that are just symbolizing this unresolved conflict and guilt. And he's covered it over pretty good by becoming this successful doctor. He's actually run away from the guilt and tried to solve it through an earthly lifetime like everyone who comes here tries to do. So this movie has enormous transfer value. It may start to trigger some of your own thoughts and feelings of scenarios, of memories that you've had in the past that reoccur. Maybe you've drowned them out pretty good but they pop through into awareness every once in a while. And there is what's driving this insanity on the surface of consciousness because you can see there he is smiling. He's looking at the patient and he's got the doctor mask back on but we just saw him get all tangled up in the cord and get really angry about a $2 million offer that he doesn't feel he wants to make. So, here we go. Sorry, he's feeling bad. Okay, we can pause if there. So that little boy next to the bed, that's Woody Harrelson when he's little and this is his brother. He's wearing that ring. Every time he looks at that ring it reminds him of what he's really thinking about. Not so much the hospital or his wife or whatever he's thinking about this scene or his childhood when his brother is dying. And this is why a lot of people get into the medical profession. They have some kind of a memory where they feel so bad about something they think they have to do something to make up for it, to compensate for it, to correct for it, sends people off into a lot of work in the fantasy land to try to overcome the heartbreak of something that they, it hurts them so much whenever they think of the memory. So this is our first glimpse of the memory that he's not talking about. No expression sessions, no therapy, not talking to his wife. Just, he's sitting on top of this really difficult memory and these difficult thoughts. And so that's what's going on when his wife is saying, are you still thinking about that of your man at the hospital? This is what is driving him. But he needs a way to access that and get at it and get at some of these core thoughts and feelings and beliefs because all the surface stuff is just a distraction. His whole life as a doctor with all the money and all the glitz and all the perks is just a cover over the pain and the hurt and it's actually his attempt to solve it on his own means. And it's just not working. So that has enormous transfer value if you start taking a look and if you happen to think of things from your own life where you still have a big charge around them, like unresolved issues. It's forgiveness and these kind of movies and your interactions with people just give you a backdrop to start to get in touch with the deeper stuff. Basically if you listen to it you can see all of his unconscious doubt thoughts and fear thoughts are playing out. So this is actually a gain for him in healing because remember if it's unconscious you're unaware of it. You can just believe you're gliding down the highway when in fact you're slip sliding away. When you are distracted on the surface and you aren't even aware of those unconscious attack thoughts and guilt thoughts the ego is sitting back there in the mind going I got you you're twice removed from reality you think you've got a decent life you're on a march to death because you've got all this unconscious guilt and attack thoughts that haven't been exposed. And of course you can hear a little bit of Holy Spirit coming through if you really listen closely to the dialogue after the fancy car was that like a Porsche or something? After the Porsche is gone and then the Camaro the dusty Camaro and everything the Holy Spirit comes in and says you're going to trade down he's trading down that happened to me I had a Cougar XR7 I had to trade down to a Gremlin that's the beginning that's how it works as long as you think you're riding high and pretty the Holy Spirit is going to have to have you trade down because you've got to go way down in humbleness you've got to let go of a lot of pride a heap of pride a heap of bigger, better, faster, more and a lot of us have played that out Lisa had a red convertible I remember I was driving behind it I was flying high she was flying high and owner of a company red convertible Kathy got in the car with you I was in the back but then Holy Spirit had you trade down you could even way down way way way down I got the last one so that's the point of all this you can start to the more you get tuned in you can start to hear the Holy Spirit speaking through the sky to trade down that was the Holy Spirit because the doctors got all this the doctors concerned when it gets the tools out on the paint job he's concerned about paint he's with a kid who they told has a couple months to live and has got abdominal pains and this and this and he's concerned about the paint job on his Porsche this is what the Holy Spirit has to work with so watch it, watch it like dropping tools on there oh then it just it's just the bottoms that kind of drop out, drop out, drop out, drop out because remember this world is backwards and upside down so when we are humbled when we are shown shown the falsity of what we sought for before the falsity of what we distracted our man with we're actually being helped even though from the ego perspective from the world's perspective this is the beginning of a nightmare from the world's perspective this is victimization but it's not really it's actually a profound awakening you know because he's not really happy the doctor's not happy and neither is the kid they both need each other in the biggest way possible and of the two there's only one that seems to have any symbols of spirituality it's the kid the kid of course the kid is praying the kid is asking for healing consciously and the doctor thinks he is the healer but he has no clue so here we go and he has no time to waste he has no time to waste no he's heard that he's only got a couple months so he's going for it next if you know the statistics I'm sure he wouldn't take that attitude fuck you so the pose that's characteristic of the unhealed healer the unhealed healer has no clue how to be truly helpful quoting statistics quoting scripture quoting all kinds of things and the Holy Spirit has to be the one that does the healing so that's a beautiful scene you know he walks in there and he's just being brought aware of his thoughts which are really thoughts of judgment he's just looking there and he's seeing the scene and he's going he's probably thinking oh well she's smoking the kids sitting back there she's endangering herself and him and he can't refrain from saying what he's saying but you could tell by the reaction of whoever you're with whether it's the Holy Spirit coming through you or not and when you are with someone and you say or do something and they look at you and they go fuck you that's not the Holy Spirit you have not inspired joy the Holy Spirit is invisible but you can only tell that the Holy Spirit coming through you by the inspiration of joy so that's just a classic little clip there of the Unhealed Healer and that's really that's what we're all about we're not here to teach the world we're not here to preach to the world we're not here to teach the world just through words and concepts we're here to teach through demonstration and what better way to practice than with your brothers and sisters right in the house if they're inspired and going off we enjoy then you know it's the Holy Spirit coming through you if they're growling and grumbling or like Benito was on the other day on the thing it's growling at you that's not the Holy Spirit we're here to teach what we would learn and do it so much so thoroughly that we are here to inspire joy and that's the only way we really know that the Holy Spirit is having an impact in our mind really taking us to be the true healer the true healing of mind is through the inspiration of joy and I think we're hitting the button in some of our TV shows some days because of the joy when you feel that he's on a ride of a lifetime here he's very full on what a gift what a gift to be proud of someone like that like with a kid like that I swear like I'm thinking I'm like we need someone like that I mean not that we need it but if something like that ever comes in it would be most welcome someone like that we've got you negated I tried to be like that she's getting ideas she's getting a lot of ideas here in this movie I don't know what a gift I mean that's like clearly Spirit's job right there like and he has like a direct prayer so it's like you're speaking the same language yeah I know it's like the same yeah and that's just a reminder we saw the hood we saw the gang members shot with the bloody L.A. just driving through the L.A. neighborhood and now we see this Porsche what does anybody know science term entropy what does entropy mean the whole cosmos is heading to chaos you just see the little symbols of entropy here this is the way it goes it's only the mind that tries to trick itself that it can make a nice haven in the storm of guilt carve out a little bit of haven on the surface of consciousness and say oh this is nice but it's entropy the whole cosmos is moving towards chaos that's why we need forgiveness the only way past entropy is forgiveness we're gonna go past that term so now his wife and everybody's starting to get a sense of what's happening and it's just beginning for him all he wants to do is talk about the medical model and the Holy Spirit knows that his mind is gripped in the medical model I know mine thinks it knows something about the body how the body works everybody says white blood cells red blood cells shit that's the Holy Spirit coming through again white blood cells red blood cells shit duality shit the Holy Spirit you have the ears to hear you can see the Holy Spirit is coming through the kid big time because the kid is the spiritual symbol in the movie he's going through his own terror and fear but he's trying to make it to the reservation he's trying to make it to the medicine man he's trying to follow his faith and try to make it over there and he's doing everything he can in his brief amount of time to do what he feels important to meet the medicine man to have the faith and like his book says to transcend he actually has faith in transcendence and the doctor has faith in bigger better more the doctor tried to scare him pushing down on the pedal to go faster and the kid's like a fast? would you like to go fast? how's that? so everything that he tries as a defense it blows up in his face think how quick your spiritual awakening would go if everything that you tried to distract away from love blew up in your face then you'd make a pretty rapid decision to change your mind but this is a hard nut so the Spirit is just showing us how it's done he's really convinced he knows something about the body and the medical model and the Holy Spirit's got to really undermine that knocking it out Ann Bancroft when she finally makes it into the movie we're going to have a metaphysical agent going boom going right under the bottom of his entire thought system this guy's just warming him up when Ann Bancroft comes in take out the bottom legs of the medical model and if you doctors are listening I'm recording this for you okay, let's go good news Holy Spirit's like let's come on Western Bar pull in here spot, anywhere he's telling him anywhere this charade is over he knows where he's taking him he's taking him into an old Western Bar to see how he does in there he's got to learn to inspire joy the character is no that was not the kind of remark not what you ask in this kind of a bar don't ask for character you see, you've got to have the spirit coming through you boom she drops it right on his sloppy eggs just like the one that was in the Fest food store you know they are not reacting in a positive loving joyful way because he doesn't know what healing is he's a doctor but he doesn't know what healing is and so he's getting a lesson you've got to lighten up and trust it's just loosening his whole thought system so it's trust the first time he says I've got to take a piss and he's lying look what happens talk about infidelity in the relationship there's an infidelity I have to take a piss and then he comes in he goes you are fucking lying and then all hell breaks loose you see what lies are not going to work in this relationship you're not going to uncover and become the heal healer through lies so this first lie that we see really direct lie you can see the face it's like there's a reflection like you lied to me and everything but the relationship is this is a healing relationship this relationship has been given over to the Holy Spirit so he comes right back and he jumps right in and now they've got the whole town extreme because of that lie so it shows how important it is to be honest authentic and honest as you can in this healing because who are you lying to if you lie to yourself then that just winds you deeper into the illusion and when you are authentic then that takes you out okay here we go so now we're getting now we're getting to the point underneath there where he's asked by his brother who's dying to to pull the plug on the machine and you can see his reaction no he didn't want to do it because the interpretation of a little boy is to honor the request of his brother to pull the plug on the machine could be interpreted by a little boy as killing his brother you see where these crazy interpretations go it could be anything it could be leaving somebody or doing something that you feel is just the worst kind of thing it's just that there's this interpretation of guilt of something that was done in a body that's the whole ego trait anything you think you've done wrong or right isn't the truth because you aren't a body but it's built up a whole scenario there are projections to keep the mind guilty to keep the mind from going back to heaven so the little boy just pedaling the bike as hard as he can and to race away from the scene and screaming there's just tremendous guilt the guilt over the belief that he killed his brother his brother asked him to do it see how that just like children and their parents divorce they can think I split mom and dad up it's always this horrific sense of guilt based on some kind of memory or behavior and that's the whole ego's trick so you see what it's taken through this whole movie the intensity of him throwing his wallet up throwing his watch out won't give up the ring you know he's like I'd rather die peel my cap I'm not giving up the ring but it's end with the guy firing the gun and everything he took all that to again bring that memory of that hidden repressed memory of the guilt the interpretation of the guilt of having killed his brother that's pretty extreme to take it and even it's a story about a brother two brothers the young man is telling that got his attention right away he's like whoa you want to hear you want to hear and then when he started to speak it it's the story of these two brothers there's all these parallels coming in it seemed like extreme things but whatever it takes to bring this dark memory and this dark interpretation that's what it takes for healing that's another reason why we have these expression sessions you don't even know what's going to come up you don't know you may go into one of these expression sessions you may lose it that's good it takes whatever it takes to get in touch with it you would rather have it up and out than have it buried down under and then covered over by a bunch of surface things where there's no healing happening this movie is really showing that it's the holy mountain and there's the medicine man waving at it and there's Dorothy and a tin man and we're gonna buy it okay, pause it that's what happens when you use anger protection you're just drawing forth the symbols and you know in Native American tradition if you get attacked and bitten by a snake a rattlesnake or something like that that's a symbol that's a reflection of your mind that's part of their tradition pay attention to the symbols here it is, he's flipping out now we're seeing some anger, some rage and boom right on the ankle that was after the question of is there anything sacred to you and he didn't answer and he just started projecting yes, he started immediately into the projection this was such a deep movie every frame one frame after the next after the next we're probably just being born when it came out there we go, we're getting set up for the best part of the movie here comes our metaphysics now this is Ann Bancroft she's just a spiritual devotee that's out there driving the trails in her little camper van and Woody Harrelson his character he's looking and he's like thinking like this is my chance now meeting a human being is going to be his chance for escape but this is going to be the Holy Spirit ripping under the underpinnings of his medical model belief system ripping under the underpinnings and so he thinks he perceives like he's going to try to convince her the guy, this kid is crazy and you know, we've got to get out of here and she's been sent in by the Holy Spirit to really get down there under the bottom of it it's the best part of the movie we can pause it there so he says I got you down it's gone and after he screams and chugs and protests you can see that the mind is starting to crack open here the ego is starting to crack because he's not trying to escape anymore he's actually seeing that there's actually some value in what's happening if he still believed that there was no value he would have just walked so that's a big turning point right there is even in the middle of all the intensity even when it's crazy it seems chaotic to the ego he said I've got you down it's gone go and then he goes through his tantrum and he comes back because there's something in him that realizes there's there's something good happening there's healing happening even though it's just barely making the turn so it's not surprising that from here on you're going to start to see the doctor trying to be truly helpful in his own way with what he believes which is the same with everyone everyone's trying to be truly helpful with what they believe and then it has to go deeper so we're going to see that see how the symbols are helpful when his mind changes they all change from rattlesnakes fighting to need some horsey cover to get where you're going to leave him coming up all around the car okay it's like this part in the development of trust where Jesus says the teacher of God has not come as far as he thinks he has so he's made the turn he's actually in collaboration now and they've come all the way out here following you know the little match match thing that had sky horse and they've come all this way and now he's just the doctor starting to believe a little bit he's at least willing to go along with everything so his mind has flipped and all the witnesses are coming in but this is another great scene about how don't ever think you know anything at all until you pass the test of perfect peace Jesus said think not you know what anything is for until you pass the test of perfect peace so even with the turn it's clearly been a turn now he's got to go there's more temptation more anger more fear even after all of that there's been a lot of it in this movie it just is a great reminder like don't think over until you have a transcendent experience transcendence would be ascendance laying inside of the body so here we go we're ready for another twist and turn in the plot here this is the part of the course the heal relationship section where Jesus says you will be tempted to get rid of your brother he says it that way too he says it right through the course to be tempted to get rid of your brother and Jesus has one response to that here not this now that's his response to the temptation to get rid of your brother so here it is what he's got a very strong temptation his little faith he's like ready to go berserk sound of sacrifice just another step he's come down now into his mind down down down he's just beginning to hit the belief in sacrifice I gave up everything we all know we've all been there he goes through all that and you think oh is this a hoax I had a student one time and she said what if the whole course of miracles is a hoax I worked with that student for years and she was dead serious and I just had to look her in the eye and said you actually have that thought in your mind she said yes I do she said do tell me that you've never had that thought I looked her right in the eye I have not but you can see here he's had enormous faith but down down down down and here he's just hitting the belief in sacrifice everything out I'm a fugitive it's just the ego ranting through the whole process because there's still more to go here we go director of oncology out the fucker right now we'll get all checked up in a band I had to shave or brush my teeth or change my underwear in three days I had dirt in every pore it's just an expression session he's getting still all of his grievances he's just hitting the sacrifice belief and all his roaring grievances are coming you see how his hope comes up when he hears white horse there's some symptom something to salvage what he's always done and now he's like pleading you know but it's just great it's just showing all of his grievances losing out everywhere before he wasn't saying any of them when he was a doctor but now all this has brought his grievances up so now watch I thought well this is really healing movie but I thought will it go all the way will it go for the grand slam will it go to ascension can it go that far that's what stay tuned you want us to believe you're gonna have to shoot so even her faith is starting to come back you know it's like the power of the healing she was pretty much turned away from it all of them had their periods of time she could see the spirit working with all of them and then just what they need just when they need it is given and not a second before you hear the gratitude thank you thank you thank you just that's the invisible spirit working through all these images so now he was able to help him so he didn't fall into the coma because now the doctor still even after his trial of faith there he still believes that there must maybe be the sacred mountain and he hasn't given up on blues blues faith that he's joining with now so it's like they've gone from you know tremendous undoing partners now to they're joining in the faith so this is where the movie has the potential to go all the way because the faith is of course the faith is that all of this world is a misperception and as the flash out crew over there has been saying for a long time that it will just disappear if you have the faith to go all the way so there's going to be a flash out symbol that comes along with this too which is I mean that's going all the way way way way way so here we go and it's in the canyon it's in the canyon in the canyon so we can come there so this is great too as they're just coming up to the sacred mountain here comes the helicopter so this is the two worlds it's impossible to see two worlds the world always says there's some kind of a mystery or a crime or a chase scene and the police show up the FDI shows up the army shows up somebody shows up to the culprit and that's one story and then there's this mystical belief that there's something beyond this world and there's actual feeling and awakening which has nothing to do with helicopters and so they're driving up there in faith towards the sacred mountain and now the helicopter is coming in that's great just when you get close to the resolution you can bet the ego is going to throw in symbols of the other story like you fool you crazy thing you go for this crazy flesh out you go for this crazy transcendence transcending the world the ego is going to throw in all the world to say you're ridiculous this is all crazy it's hopeless, it's worthless so I love how this movie is very symbolic here come the police so to speak with the helicopters and just as they're coming to the sacred mountain so really it's like just a symbol if you have to keep your faith even stronger the closer you get to the transcendence because the ego doesn't want you to transcend because if you transcend then the ego's game is over and actually you see was never was there in the first place can't really be over because it never started but it's coming to that place of seeing oh my god love is all there is beyond the body that's what's so great we have a great commentary what's supposed to come beyond the body is the spirit okay man okay everybody recognize the dignity thanks y'all you do all that right where's the god damn see you're trusting me that I'm taking you on a journey and you're just all hanging in there okay alright we're halfway through the movie now no just joking halfway through the movie just joking okay here we go where's that medicine Skywalker let's see some Skywalkers Luke Skywalker look at him that's a great shot he's not concerned at all look that other guy he's like oh god he's like oh shit he's certain something's gonna show up he's like he's got the faith he's got nothing to lose he's kicking back he's been carried now he's faith he's working stronger and stronger he's got nothing to doubt there's no reason to doubt he's like it's cool this is it oh shit what now you connected left now hey do you know Sky Horse Thomas and that old advisor that's Sky Horse yeah they they even put in and then Tom Love was just up there right above that there it is there's the whole awakening it's one of those rapid rapid awakenings yeah I watched these movies I remember the first time I saw they started to get that feeling like where is they gonna go with this movie on the body beautiful but it's good to have reminders like that when the temptation is to think that things have gone all wrong this kind of movie show you can't judge your advances from your retreats how could you judge anything if the world's backwards and upside down and you're waking up from something that's backwards and upside down how could you meaningfully judge anything at all so it's like a total free fall total dropping, surrendering that's good and whenever you start to get depressed by thinking how long it will take to completely change your mind Jesus said in the Course how long is an instant he throws that question back but just think of this what a difference a day makes this was basically it was like pretty much like Lucy 24 hours to enlightenment it's just really rapid with Lucy you could see all the signs and symbols of her using the full potential and with this one it was just keep the faith and trust even when it starts to there's so many points where the doctor was ready to like lose his faith he was just really ready to just rage at being a gullible fool or having lost his whole whatever he perceived as self-concept to be but in the end they weren't enemies at all they were collaborators savers you saved my life that was amazing you know I'm an extreme juxtaposition to thank you for saving my life it's ironic because the kid saved his life he didn't save the kid's life because the kid dies he goes into laking off into the it's interesting so it wasn't it looked like it was for the kid but it wasn't for the kid it was for the doctor he doesn't die that was an ascension scene you heard splash but nobody knew he goes into the mystic let's go to the world let's go to the world like he's done his body left yeah that's a good point he didn't die he did not die the line from the course is teach that I did not die the teach that I live in you yeah that was great that was a big paragraph for me at the end I was like whoa let aside the body scene this appearance of the body medicine man the way he reached him you know it was just such a great welcome I was like I'm so glad to see you again it's like your homecoming long prayer answer to a very long prayer I saw him when he was 8 that's big and all he had was a phone number a book and a phone number that's his course in miracles and his metaphysical center phone number and we're in the lunch these are the lunch chairs we're getting in position we're in position and Suzette is gone the one that talking about the flesh out it's been fleshed she was the first of the flesh out talkers and it's really cool cause he's young I didn't see it as he died at all like he's young I'm just looking through my mind I'm like yeah that's right so it's like he's young but it's not like again it's simple that you don't have to be like it's not about the age it's like the awareness can hit at any time and even that he was a prisoner he wasn't really a prisoner it's like already he didn't have a lot of investment in the world and then he's like okay this world holds nothing that I want and he was just that ready that I want and so I mean well it's like that's it he was ready to let it go there's no value he had absolutely no value and then it's like he was even more and more carried and carried and carried and it's like that in the beginning when he made that prayer that was like that's kind of like that's it that's almost like as strong as it gets the prayer from the heart the beauty before you like Christ be before you behind me, above me like everywhere it's like that's it like letting go of all of it and it's like there he was and it's almost like he was going for it like that and you know everything else was kind of like like Lucy, yeah like that in a way it's kind of like like in a way it's even like like there one it's like even it's kind of like underneath it all the doctors like that's what he had it was like that deep reflection of that he he too like it's almost like he knew he was in prison it's like already although there was like a concept but he was in prison it's like he was it was hunting something was hunting and everything was like too much anger and and it's like and so it's just that like reflection it's like like very strong reflection like he was going into nowhere not knowing how to let it go it's kind of it looks like he's you know he's done well in the world but it's like this is something else the prayer for beauty it was like their prayer together yeah their prayer yeah and I think progressively too is that was the prayer the whole movie then you could see more and more that there was more and more of a love that grew stronger and stronger between them and a love for everything and also more and more disregarded the body that I mean that's that's got to be the most disregard when the body disappears you know because remember that movie what dreams may come where you know the guy kept he's where my children where my children he said you'll you'll see them when you want to see them it takes a while before he's not ready to see his children but in this case he was ready to he had really disregard for the body all the way through the movie yeah just grew stronger and stronger even to allow the body to be carried toward again and then to go running down towards the lake which he never had seen until he finally comes to it and then the disappearance of the body is like he he didn't need to see it anymore it didn't it didn't serve anymore and that's how our desire grows for God stronger for love for love for love and then we start to have more disregard for the body disregard disregard and then it's so disregarded that it disappears including the world the disappearance of the universe that's because it's no longer desired or needed so that's kind of important when you think of this because we've gone through all those phases but you start to see everything we're doing with this place or with the monastery or with books or with sweetie or Christmas trees or anything but it's all part of a pulling our investment away from appearances so that there will be no need for appearances at all and it's good to remember we're not trying to make better appearances or ultimately we're not trying to change appearances it's just withdrawing all investment from the appearances which is what lesson 128 is the world I see holds nothing that I want so Jesus is just saying well if you don't want it it won't be there for you to see or I want the peace of God you know peace of God is my one goal the aim of all my living here the end I seek, my purpose, my function and my life while I abide where I am not at home that's just like saying there you go turn your desire and your mind towards the peace of God and away from the appearances and then they won't be there for you to see anymore because you won't want to see them so that's really going into the mystical but hasn't it been a ride hasn't it been a ride hasn't it been a ride feel like we're just we're on the ride we're doing the high fives with each other whoa and then again whoa we're on the ride yeah it just feels like all just yeah thank you Jesus until I can say I'm a believer I'm a believer you got me yeah there's a time in life you couldn't read the bible then you got the course into your house but you couldn't read that and then that real deep angelic experience the truly believed truly fly that was such a blazing light experience that you could then you could read the course you picked up you go you could actually read it just one mystical experience took you in readiness light years ahead wide open you can read it and then you have one angelic experience and then so that's why when people put down mystical experiences like a mystical experience oh yeah one I had those three revelatory experiences and that my life was never the same that changes everything and of course the miracles was in my house I had three revelatory experiences and then that one student who said what if the course is all just the biggest hoax what if it's the biggest hoax in the history of the world and everything not after you have revelatory experiences you don't I said no sorry I said tell me that you have not had that thought I said yes I have not had that thought but then she went off in her life to go under this spiritual path it was all balance balance that's a lot of work live your life in harmony let go of all you see so mystical revelation is different from mystical experience well a lot of people have a lot I was talking to somebody oh this psychic from Canada was interviewing me and he was saying what's the difference between psychic visions visions of the future versus mystical experiences and he told me then he said he told me his mystical experience which just took him into absolute oneness and the whole world disappeared and that's what revelation is he was on interviewing me on his show and he said it just one minute I have a body in the next minute there's nothing there's just all love and oneness and it's beautiful so he was answering his own question the difference between like doing a reading for somebody telling him what's going to happen in their life in the world versus everything goes there's just love and oneness he said there's nothing apart from me I was everything there's just the words of the old Jack Jones song it only takes a moment da da da da da your heart knows in a moment you will never be alone again it's just that I always hear these old songs from my 60's oh god it's great hey now da da the dream is over hey now hey now there's no walls between us I'm like whoa blow me away blow me away before can I say now I give to you it's our friend Jacob or he did another song I'm the holy child of God in heaven I'm the holy light that shines always walking through this world in perfect safety from darkness and from fear I know always I'm so happy you know these songs are we just put a string of these songs together and it's like oh my god don't get us started we'll be doing a full computer something right we'll be the singing mystics instead of chanting we'll be singing these great songs my love is warmer than the warmest sunshine softer than a sigh deeper than the deepest ocean wider than the sky my love is brighter than the brightest star that shines every night above there is nothing in this world that can ever change my life