 Telling your dad, I can't be around you anymore when you're drinking, it's not easy when you love your dad. And in the past you'd rather be there drinking in the hope that you could somehow minimize it than not be there at all. So you've had reasons you've told yourself why you're there but it's killing you. And so to say to your dad, I will not hang out with you anymore when you're drinking. It's not easy to say to your dad who you love and who you're indebted to and who you respect but have maybe lost in respect for.