 Hey, what's with you guys welcome back to my channel if you're new here. Hi. Hello. I'm Lydia My voice is really croaky It's my voice all broken Did that help? Yes it did help. Yay Hey, what's with you guys welcome back to my channel if you're new here. Hi. Hello. I'm Lydia and today We're gonna be talking about my toxic Ex now if you was watching if you watched my last video talking in my land to be and I mentioned This toxic ex It's linked here if you haven't already seen it My toxic at what a video this is gonna be so in due battle in 80 and I dated someone who lives in Leeds I lived in Lancashire, so it wasn't really long distance There's two hours on a train this person. I was dating in Leeds Had a court case coming up that I went to with her another court case Wasn't a violent offense. It was for just adding she did have previous convictions It should have been a big red flag harassment of her crisis to you breach a CBO, which is criminal behavior order Believe it was to breach the CBO. I can't remember exactly This was literally three days after I'd met this girl And we wasn't dating at the time we started dating after the court case Right after the court case run back to hers. She asked me how I said yeah In this relationship, I was manipulated and taken advantage of In so many ways One there's an actual sexual assault But That aside Actually, no, let's talk about that. So we were sleeping in the same bed shock horror. I know Two girls day in the sleep in the same bed Damn, I hope people get myself as them So we were sleeping in the same bed and while I was asleep. She touched me. I Don't know that because she told me when I woke up. Oh, I touched you. I Hope you don't mind Let me think about it. Um, yeah, I do mind. Thank you After that, she then gets a call from her solicitor That linker she needs to hand herself in It's a whole big thing that it goes off. She doesn't end up getting arrested. She's allowed to go But then she Desired to text her social worker I'm running away It comes to my and I didn't know she'd text her social worker that Because believe me if I'd have known that she's in that text I would not have let her come back to my flat Like there's no way I would have been involved in that. Well, no, yeah, let's take advantage of the idea some more And the next day I had police at my door Looking for her And I'll never feel as police officer said was those even Is she making you keep it here? I'm not the first person she's done all this to But she really got me believing in this whole conspiracy against her The West Yorkshire police She really got me believing it In reality, it was just West Yorkshire police doing their jobs and Following up on serious crime like death threats, which is what was going on That's what the police wanted to speak to her. It was some WhatsApp messages. She said that's why she ran away And that's the time I was on the land of here So those of you who haven't seen the year land to pee in and pee in video And then to be made me very so it made me reveal, which is why it's such a big deal in this video So I was really Still wearing myself and I trusted her but she had me a guy Like on YouTube and making videos against the West Yorkshire police these videos aren't Up any longer Just to point out how serious this actually was she had me record a court case And use that footage in a video and say how West Yorkshire police were harassing her Like she had me film my fucking court case She had me wrapped around her little finger. I did it exactly as she wanted everything was fine The cherry on top of the cake is She said this and the simple words and that's but it if I can't fuck you. I'm gonna put all the people That's okay, right Like if I didn't answer the phone she'd phone and phone and phone and phone and phone and phone Text I remember once there was an occasion where she'd text me 300 times I remember I'm I'm still ill with psychosis It was just calls and texts constantly Anyone who knows me knows I'm the worst person answering a message The best way to get hold of me is to the message message around Twitter She made me believe that the people I live in with was conspiring against me Which I didn't even know them so Why would they be My friends would talk to And I should leave them because they're making me ill And that's not all the behind the scenes Stuff that went on She then started to message my friends About one of my other ex's history And started to aimley with bad people and blah blah blah and everything She made me lose so many friends So quickly I used to go out and write out and enjoy mixing with people For the people I mixed with would be messaged by you here So they didn't want to hang out with me Because of the association Not to mention in all the times that She accused me of cheating on her when I wasn't just because I was hanging out with other values Like it was unbearable One minute and I'm a cheater the next and you want to be by her side the next She's sleeping with other people because I'm not there Yeah, you heard me right She was sleeping with other people while with me Just because she craved sex That's not our relationship I then said sex doesn't make the relationship and she said sex A relationship without sex is like a boat without water Which I don't think's the case. I don't believe I believe a relationship is about the connection I truly believe the only reason she actually told me about that Was to try and pressure me into having sex with her Those of you don't know since I've been sexually assaulted I don't Find intimacy you see I actually really struggle with that So Yeah, that was a good Part of the relationship I truly believe she didn't want me to have anyone to turn to She wants to be the only person in my line Which is why she pushed all my friends away from me It's why she made the running away with him to my flat It just That's the only way I can make sense of it Is that she wanted me to herself The whole entire relationship rolled around me giving to her Which to a degree is fine a relationship works both ways You give some you get some but when I say she needed me all the time is no matter what I had to do Or I had an appointment or not I had to drop everything to focus on her I wanted I was that I've gotta go I've got an appointment with my psychiatrist I need to go to this appointment and then she threatened to call her through it So I dropped the appointment If I didn't do what she wanted she'd threaten to kill herself. I'd be like you don't love me. I'm gonna kill myself I can't live without you. I'm gonna kill myself burning mine She knew previously that my ex said that and did that wonder when other exes previously committed suicide I don't wonder if me after breaking up me breaking up with him So her threatening this knowing what she knew It was just a play To get me not to mention she made the whole relationship revolve around sex She's how I feel if you I can't sleep with you. I'm gonna sleep with other people Very matter of fact not asking permission Because bitch if she advanced I'd have said so you wanted to eat on me The whole relationship was just toxic We had to be here when we broke up She continuously called me and texted me and called and called and called and called and called And wouldn't stop Until I got the police involved That was the only thing that made her stop what she was doing to me would have been an a third breach of a CBM Which means prison time I'm just glad that it wasn't like a close relationship. I know it was there was some distance between us Because it made it harder for her to harass me. That's all I've got for this video. If you're new subscribe My links are in the description down below. Thanks for watching. I'll see you guys on my next video