 I'm getting a heat wave. So bad news for me. So, yeah. Oh, it's hot! You have to be okay alone. Oh, you're in love with this. It's literally 42 degrees Celsius right now. Convert that to Fahrenheit if you don't know the conversion. It is so hot, like it's like, we're not used to it, so it feels like a literal hotbox outside. Fit for the night. Hi, I look so greasy. It's 42 degrees. Not impressed. No, you, you, you, you. Off, off, I look so gross. Actually, not at all. Like, I was profusely sweating. After the ceremony, it was like kind of ceremony. It was just us in one room. People had to take turns going through like walking on the stage, and it's literally unbearable to be outside right now. I can't imagine places that are over 40 degrees every day. How's it going? Good. It tastes like peach. Like a peach slushie. Hey guys, what is up? So it's currently 1116. Portugal game is on today. The first in Belgium. So that's happening in 45 minutes. So we're just cleaning up outside from the mess that we made last night, and then we're gonna, or he's cleaning up. I'm gonna help him after I put down the camera, but we're going to watch the game. And it's literally 40 degrees today. Like it's so freaking hot. I can't wear more than this. Like you can't even be outside if you don't have water. So I'm so thankful. We have air conditioning. Hey guys, so the game is literally about to start, but we like order an espresso every month and it came with syrups. Like I think I just put them in here for free. So I'm gonna try it in my coffee right before the game. Literally starts in four minutes. So we're gonna take a quick here. This is the vanilla one, and it came with a saffron and tiki one. So I'm gonna try the vanilla one in my coffee today. I think it's gonna be pretty sweet. So I don't think that I'm gonna have to add maybe not even any maple syrup. So I don't know even how much she used. So I'm just gonna put like a dash in and see how that tastes. But I don't even know if I should sweeten my drink. I think I'm just gonna put a little bit of maple syrup because I feel like the vanilla can't be that sweet. I'm having a little bit of a panic attack. I'm gonna put it on my barista. I'm just gonna put a tiny bit of the maple syrup in here. And I'm gonna put like a dash of the vanilla. So a little bit of vanilla. And just a little bit of maple syrup. Yeah. People actually found their recipe even higher. I actually made the best drinks. I have a lot of people that agree. Alcoholic and vanilla. I love reusing Starbucks cups because it makes me feel like I'm drinking a Starbucks. Game literally starts in two minutes. We gotta go. Aesthetic. Okay, I'm just gonna put a splash of the vanilla. Don't know how much, don't know what I'm doing, okay? And let's mix her up. Definitely not sweet enough. I'm gonna put some more vanilla in. I literally don't taste anything. Well, it depends how sweet you want it. Can you taste it? Yeah, it's not sweet at all. It's pretty. It is? I can like that. Super sweet. Okay, okay. Well, how much do you put in? It depends how much you. It looks like, oh, because that's barely anything. I'm like a shot in. But that's like, like that. Yeah, that's still not a lot, but. Really? I don't know. That's good, that's good. Okay, let's go. Look how cute this is. I did it. Oh, that's really nice. And there's a little bee. Oh, that's so cute. Okay, let's go. You know what? I'm cleaning this shit up later. Sorry, mom and dad. Cheers. Hey guys, so the game finished. So bad news for me. Portugal lost 1-0, but it's very frustrating because they deserve the win. And I'm not just saying that. The shots were like, I don't remember the exact numbers, but I think Portugal had like 27 shots on net and Belgium had six. So it's like all of the last 15 minutes of the game were so gut-wrenching because we had possession. Like for the last 15 minutes, we were just going at it. It's obviously disappointing, but they played so good. We just couldn't finish. So it's okay. We won last time. We won the Euro Cup last time. I want to go play soccer soon because I miss soccer. My season was, I canceled my two past seasons. So I really want to get back out there and play. I think it's just too hot today, but maybe we'll do some hemp this week. But yeah, I'm going to go tannery now because it's so hot. I'm going to load up on the SPF. I'm going to put 30 SPF on and fill up our little kiddie pool that we have. So yeah. Okay, I'm going to show you how hot it is. I know I'm literally keep saying this, but it's just because it's not normal here. Like it never gets this hot. So it's kind of crazy. Getting a heat wave. Oh my God, it's 41 degrees. Literally 41, which is absolutely crazy for here. So that's all kind of freaking out about it. We just spent like two and a half hours outside. I'm coming in now just because I don't, I want to get my body to break. I don't want to get burnt. I did put on sunscreen though, but just in case like I don't want to get burnt. I don't want to get my skin to break because I know too much UV is obviously not good. So I kind of want to space it out and not like burn my body today. So yeah, I feel really gross right now. So I really want to shower, but we literally filled up the little kid's pool. So that was nice. And we had that to kind of dunk in a little bit, but we were just kind of playing soccer and stuff. Cause honestly it's really hard to just tan and sit down. Like I get very needy. Like I need to get up and like walk or do something. So playing sports or something fun is honestly the best way to tan. Like just pass the volleyball round, and some soccer is the best way to tan. Makes the tackle faster. And it's just fun in the sun. Yeah, I'm gonna get a shower now. Get all this sweat off of me. I have to come here and show you guys my arm yesterday. Look at the attack that went on. Oh my God. I literally got horrifically attacked by mosquitoes. That's nice. I haven't lost my, but it's fine. That's like the one thing that I absolutely hate about the summer is the mosquitoes. It's just, I just don't get what the point. They just fly around and bite you. It just confuses me why they're using that thing. I just really don't like mosquitoes, but it's fine. You guys, the vibes on a summer night are just like spectacular. Like it's just like beyond anything. The warmness, I don't know. Like just the lighting, the air. Summer nights are a vibe. Like this time of night, it's like 8 to 56 right now. And this time of night, it's such a sacred time of the day. Oh, these are the nights that I literally live for. I just love sitting out on summer nights like this because we only get two months of summer. So I'm gonna try and soak it up as much as I can. Literally when it's nice like this, I can't not come outside and just like soak it in. Like it's so warm inside and it's like literally nine o'clock. Oh my God, it's 34 degrees right now. I really wanna get a disposable camera for this summer because I feel like those photos are just a vibe. And I really like the idea that like you take the photo and then it's a mystery because you gotta go develop it. Some of my friends can't hands down and I can't and I kinda wanna try. So a realization that I've come to recently was that you have to be okay with yourself. Like you have to be okay alone. Obviously it's normal to get lonely and everything but at the end of the day, you have to rely on yourself. If every single person in your life lets you down, if you don't have yourself, then that's when you're screwed. It's like I was thinking about it and I was like in my life, I don't have tons of friends and that's fine. Like I have a couple people in my life that I really care for and I really care about me. And at the end of the day, it's like, do I need those people to be happy? Would I be happy with myself? And I was like thinking about that. Like am I a best friend to myself? And you almost have to treat yourself like you're your own best friend and build that kind of relationship with yourself and that kinda goes along with loving yourself and being at the point where you don't care about what other people think of you. Sorry, I just have so many freaking mosquito bites on my foot, they literally attacked me last night. But at the end of the day, are you going to be fine with just yourself if things were to come to that? And I was thinking and I'm like, you know what? I don't know. So that's like something that I need to work on is like being more in tune with like myself and becoming my own best friend if that makes sense. Okay, if your friend was feeling shitty, what would you do to boost their mood? Would you go and buy them flowers? Would you go over and watch a movie with them? Like would you bring them ice cream? What would you do? And then you gotta ask yourself that question and be like, I was in a bad mood. What am I gonna do for myself? Like how am I gonna treat myself? Like you have to treat yourself like you're your own best friend. So if you're in a bad mood, go get some ice cream. Go watch a movie with yourself. Go buy yourself flowers. Like it goes like the same way. You have to treat yourself like you're treating your best friends and how you care for your best friends is how you should care for yourself. And a lot of the times I feel like we prioritize other people in our lives over yourself but you should have to make sure at the end of the day that you're taking priority in your life and you're checking in with yourself just like you would with a friend. You're not gonna go and not talk to your best friend for a long time without checking in on them without asking maybe how their day was. Like you're not gonna go months without doing that. So why would you go months without doing that to yourself? And so yeah, I've just like come to the realization that it's like at the end of the day, you have to love yourself. If you're the only one left and you have no friends, I wanna get to the point where like if I had no one else but myself, I would be okay because that's where true self-love comes into hand. When you can be your own best friend and know that like as long as you have yourself at the end of the day, then things are gonna be all right and you can pick yourself back up. It all ties back into getting to know yourself, getting to know your inner soul. And I feel like sometimes your mind will kind of try and disconnect you from your true soul and who you really are. Sometimes you have to follow your intuition rather than following your mind because your mind can get in the way. Your mind is the thing that creates anxiety. Your mind is the thing that can create sadness and all those feelings. That's what your mind creates. But sometimes you just ask yourself, like what is my soul saying right now? Connect with yourself, connect with your inner self, ask yourself that if it was just you at the end of the day would you be happy? Would you be able to pick yourself back up? I've come to know the difference like within the past like literally few days of the difference between your ego and your soul, like you, your ego and your soul. So basically your ego is the one that cares about everything. Your ego is the one that cares about what other people think about you. If this person likes you or not, if people find you attractive, like that's your ego talking. Like that's what your ego needs. That's what your ego is feeding on. Your soul doesn't really care. Like your soul is just you and wants to be you but it's your ego that wants to make up for it and wants to please other people. And I've really like differentiated my ego and my soul these past few days. And I've noticed like when my ego comes out and my soul's trying to talk and it's just like crazy. So I've been trying to like work on my ego and it goes hand in hand with like not caring about what other people think about you. Cause that's all that all has to do with your ego. Your ego is like you want people liking you. You want people's good sides. That's like the ego talking. And sometimes I realize that like I have to speak my mind more often. I just have to say I just have to be more truthful to people like and not care what they're going to say back to me. Like for example, let's say if my friend asked me to hang out and we had pre-arranged plans. That we planned something a week in advance. And it's the day of and then in the morning I'm like shit. Like I really don't feel like going today. Like I'm having a bad day or I just don't feel like it. For you to go and cancel those plans. I'm at least my first thought is going to be like, oh shit, what are they going to think of me? They're not going to like me anymore. Da da da da da. And that's like all your ego talking because you're caring about what they're going to think about you after you cancel. But I just like come to terms that I have to just say like when I don't want to do something or if I'm not feeling it. I just got to be truthful with more things and just speak my mind and say no, like I'm just not feeling it. That's it, that's your answer at the end of the day. Like no, I'm just not feeling like going out with you today because I'm just, it just doesn't vibe with me right now. And that should be more normalized. Just kind of saying no and not giving a specific answer either, just saying no. Just because like why does there have to be an explanation to everything? That might have been really freaking confusing but I've just been like really getting to know like my two sides, like my ego and then my soul, like me. Yeah, so I just wanted to put that out there that like realize that a lot of the things that you do and say or think is because of your ego and not because of who you truly are. So my challenge to you guys is to like if you ever have a thought or do something just like think was that my ego or was that my soul? Like was that me? Yeah, anyways, that was my little shebang spiel moments of regalia episode. I hope I didn't get grassdazed on my book. I'm gonna go inside now, finish off editing and then I need to upload a video tonight and schedule it for tomorrow. Hey guys, what's up? It's a little later. I literally have three fans going on in my room and my room is so messy right now. I need to clean it. So we got fan number one, fan number two and fan number three. I do have air conditioning but my room has five windows and the sun literally beams in my room all day. So my room gets so hot because I don't have blackout blinds or curtains and there's only one air conditioning vent in my room. So of course it's obviously better than a house with no air conditioning but it's still like pretty hot just in my room. So we got fan circulating here. It's like fighting here with fans. Like it's fine. So my room is kind of a mess right now. I mean, it's not like horrible. I kind of cleaned it a tiny bit before. So it's not like really bad but I think I want to clean it before I like settle into bed just because waking up to a clean room is a different type of happiness. It just like makes my morning. I don't want to wake up to a messy room tomorrow. Therefore I should clean it, you know? So I think I'm gonna clean it now before I go to bed. So that tomorrow morning I can wake up with rainbows and unicorns. Also I literally can't stop itching my foot. Like I have 10 million whiskey whites everywhere. Let's clean. Okay, before I actually start cleaning I just needed to say this before I forget because this happens a lot where I'm like about to say something to you guys and then I just forget. Oh, you're gonna want me for this. After you watch this video you have to do this, okay? Go on your music app, search up forever by labyrinth. This is a song. This song, you guys, okay? Wait until second 25, okay, 0.25. Wait until it gets to that timestamp. I have no words for the feeling that it gives me. Okay, I'm gonna go clean now but like I just realized I have literally a mosquito bite on my forehead so that's amazing. You guys, so I made a summer collage for my background. This is like my summer mood board. I also put it as my channel banner because I love it so much. How cute is this? It's literally so adorable. I got all the photos from Pinterest and then I put them in Pick Monkey because I have a subscription on there. I use it for thumbnails and stuff and then I just put the whole collage together. It's so adorable.