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born in the northwest and sides of Pakistan in in a city called the shower I think since my childhood my parents wanted me and my siblings to get quality education so my school life was my my my whole life probably like it was it was the only place where I would go it's probably one of the best schools in the city and I had friends there my best friends which were kind of like my second family because you know you have breakfast with them in the morning because we would go so early it was a military school so it would start really early and we had to like wake up at five in the morning and then go there and you have lunch with them so it was kind of like a second family to me are you able to just kind of touch on the political situation in Pakistan that this time so I think around 2007 I would say things started going wrong in there in especially in Peshawar that was the city most affected by terrorism and before that the Taliban of the terrorist group when they came to the city is like Peshawar the Pakistani Taliban is a militant Islam is is the mist group formed in opposition to the military in 2007 like there was probably bomb blast and suicide bomb attacks on daily basis and my family my parents my mom and my dad they would be worried all the time they would be watching news all the time and the day I realized that something was going wrong in our city was when I think there was a few people in our neighborhood and there that died in a bomb blast in the suicide bomb attack and when I saw their family and their family members and friends crying and shouting and that's when I realized that things are not going really well as I thought that's what I be trying to tell people like in America it's we got it overly sweet it's sweet here like ain't nothing really we don't have no trenches man the trenches to us but worldwide man our trenches not comparable I was around like probably around 10 8 10 9 something like that it was the day of 16 December where it started as a normal day and I went to school as per routine set with my friends we had our breakfast we were chatting about a normal stuff cricket politics WWE everything so we were discussing these things and then I was I was the head boy at school at that time so one of my teachers came up and they told me that we are having a first eight lecture in the auditorium so I should tell all the students in the rates and you're nine that they should be heading to to a auditorium and I think most of the students I saw they all were celebrating and were kind of happy that they're gonna miss lessons today due to the first eight lectures so we went to the auditorium and I think everyone sat down and the first eight lectures started and things things were going normal at that time and I still normal business remember my friends because I was the head boy so I was kind of like on the stage and my friends from I don't know what that means head boy I was I was the last boy or something because I don't know what a head boy is I was the audience would make like these funny faces to make me laugh and then all of a sudden we heard a noise there was a there was a noise it was a loud noise and I think some of the some of the students just jumped like they were they weren't expecting it and the others started laughing at them that they got scared and then we again continued like no one really paid attention to that and then we heard those noises again and this time I'm trying to put myself in this situation like if I'm in school not here any if I'm anywhere and I sit here any type of noise does not normally supposed to be there me personally I'm running me personally I know the eighth and ninth graders but in ninth and eighth grade I was running I know like no funny business I'm not I'm telling the dead-ass truth even till right now if I hear any noise that I know that's not supposed to be there I'm running consistent like those started getting louder and louder and getting more consistent that's when everyone in the auditorium like was silenced and everyone was looking up to the teachers that what what is happening and I think at that time I was assuming that it was a military drill and most of the students so were most of us I forgot that okay I got that Charles at a military school so like those sounds might be you know I'm saying a part of y'all day to days maybe I wonder if the school was set up like our schools and where I'm from like most of the auditoriums have a door that you can get outside to students and but when those sound started getting even more louder that's when I had a bit of a doubt and everyone was like a little like scared as well like what is happening and I looked at one of my teachers there in the auditorium I was like what's what's happening and they told me that odd don't worry it's nothing is it's just gonna be okay and I was like okay but what is this like we don't know and then our teachers started low locking all the doors in the auditorium and that's when like most of the students in there started getting more scared now and they were starting getting more anxious like why the teacher locking doors and I saw a few people like with shadows standing outside and when they realized that the door was locked they started kicking it they kicked it once and when they kicked it the second time the door broke and they came in everyone started going under the chairs I still remember I could see everyone because I was still on the stage and I looked at my teacher and I was a bit like scared and I was like what what is happening like just telling me like well what's happening like and then they started shooting they did I mean at our school we had chains on our doors so you can lock the door and put a chain on it start shooting all of a sudden they started shooting people at the back and and I was in a shock I couldn't believe my eyes I was I was just standing still I couldn't move I didn't know what to do my I just went blank one of them certainly aimed their gun towards me because I was standing right in front from a distance and shot me on the face the first bullet I received on the face I still remember that I screamed I screamed really loudly because that was probably one of the first bullet that broke my teeth and my maxilla and that pierced through my face and I I fell down on the floor and I still couldn't believe it like what was happening I was I was still in a shock and I was I was in pain I was in shock and I I didn't know what was happening around then I saw a few of my friends getting shot in their hands because I was as I was lying down and and my brain was just wasn't accepting this situation I was like this is this is not true this is a dream like this can't be true like my my my friends just died in front of my eyes like they they were just talking to me like a minute ago and they are no more with me and here I am dying like about to die as I was lying down there I was I was I don't know what what happened but I just said to myself that no I'm I'm just gonna try to survive I'm I'm gonna give it my best like I'm still breathing I was I was I was telling myself that this was I was just putting my hand on my mouth and the first time I tried to put my hand on my face my hand went in because it was open it had opened up so when I just kept telling myself because I had no one to console me so I was I just kept consoling myself that I'm still breathing I'm still breathing and I was I was just breathing and I was like I just putting my hand on my mouth again and again I'm like I'm still breathing I'm still breathing it's I'm still alive one of them saw me like that I was I was still moving and I was still doing movements and and they shot me again I know this is a serious matter but like I would like at this point like I know it's easy to say what I would have done but no lie if I if I got shot that looked like a fatal shot to whoever whoever did it you know I'm saying so I'm laying on the ground being as still as possible right they shot me again they kicked me to see whether I was still alive and they were they were checking every student in the auditorium they were they were they were going around and they were checking everyone whether anyone would move they would start shooting at them again my friend lying down there in the front of me like me lying down on the floor looking at them and they were dead they were no more and I was I was just about to to die I still remember that after like a few minutes like 5-10 minutes they left the auditorium and at that time I was lucky that my senses were still working I could still see things a bit blurry I could still hear things I could still think and I was I heard some people saying that they have left some students saying in the auditorium they're mumbling to each other like they have left I was trying to wave my hand I was trying to like call like someone so that they can help me get up and move but I think it was it was a chaotic situation and it was it was shocked for everyone as well they were kids themselves so there was there was no one to help so what you basically saying is at that point it was all man for himself they just started running outside and at that time I I didn't realize that I was shot on my leg and my arm as well because the pain in my face was so much that I didn't pay any attention to my leg or my hand like so that's true you can only feel pain in one spot you can only feel one thing and my wrist as well because they kicked me when the terrorists kicked me my wrist cracked kind my right wrist cracked so I didn't pay attention to any of those injuries because I had no idea I had them my whole focus was on my face that my because it was it was so painful when there was no one to help me I I tried to drag myself I tried to crawl I tried to drag myself I couldn't get up I couldn't stand up I tried to but I couldn't so I tried to drag myself and I tried to crawl and somehow I managed to get out of the auditorium there was no one to help me there was there was a class about six to eight meters away from me and I was trying to get there because it was an year seven class and I was trying to get there but I had lots I had lost so much blood and I had so so many injuries that it was it was really really hard for me to even like move one meter and when I tried to do that it took everything out of me those six to eight meters took everything out of me and I managed to reach that place I managed to reach the door and then my body had lost all its strength I was just telling myself that I shouldn't just close my eyes shouldn't let myself go to sleep if if someone is coming here to rescue me or these people they would think that I have died so I have to stay awake to let them know that I'm still alive and there was there was a tree a big tree my boy his will to survive is something crazy yeah we outside our school and I was looking at that tree and when the fires when the shooting was he got a what is IQ his logical thinking is off the charts he was out thinking logic you still hear the shooting you can still hear the bomb blast and the birds were flying from that tree they were scattering so I still remember I was I was I just said to myself that I wish I was one of these and I could fly away from here like them easily after 10 minutes there was a military person that came and they picked me up from the door and they they saw me lying down in front of the door and they picked me up and they put me in an ambulance he remained in the coma in the ICU for days I had been shot with bullets on my face it was multiple bullets on my face and my hand my arm and my my right knee was shot with bullet as well and I had got like some splinters at the back of my neck it was from the blast and stuff oh like legit splinters you mean and I had with with my face some crazy splinters injuries were the most severe injuries that I sustained I'd lost all my appetites my maxilla my jaws and the base of my nose was completely broken and it still is and the right side of my face was completely blown away so at first my family didn't know that it was me they still had doubts because I had sustained injuries on my face and my face was completely covered with bandages so in the initial days my family was was was really really confused my dad had recognized me from a t-shirt that he gave me a few days before the attack so that's how he recognized me during that whole time had you realized like what was actually like going on at that time to be honest I still had no idea when I got shot when I went to the hospital I had no idea why these people shot me of my friends I have had nightmares even when I I would imagine PTSD is a real thing but after a few months when I was in in my room in the hospital I would have nightmares I would have dreams and I kept on looking at the door when I was in ICU because that shock when I saw them breaking in the auditorium I kept and looking at the door in hospital as well that someone might break through that and just come in again and I only knew about a few of my friends that I saw at that time that died but I didn't know about most of them and I didn't know what had happened to them 149 people at a school that's ridiculous of those 132 was school children ages 8 to 18 that time I was about like like if you have the capacity to do that like to that many kids like at what what are you fighting for at that point like what do you what are you claiming that you're really fighting for that's telling you to do that in your mind it don't make sense like nothing nothing can make sense of that for me well nothing is gonna rationalize that ten years old and those friends had spent like about eight years of their life with me so that was that was my whole life for me it was a short life so it was it was my whole life for me and I'd known them for my whole life today so year eight so he was eight years old or he was in eighth grade which one when I when I saw them that their names were on the list that people had died the first thing that was shocking for me was oh when I saw that 132 kids in our school were killed and my heart just sank like I was like I was just praying that please none of my best friends be on it like I was I was just praying and when I when I saw their names and all of their names were on the list that's that's when I I just went in a shock I I couldn't believe it at that time I was I was like this is not true I haven't seen them I haven't even seen their bodies yet like they they can't like when when sometimes when you just don't see your loved ones like like that you you don't really accept it your brain your heart doesn't accept that they know more with you I would I would be crying I'd be telling myself that you know what if I would have done this what if I would have laid down and I could have survived I wouldn't have got shot and then I could have saved my friends and and the fact that you know I was I was the one that called most of them to the auditorium because I was the head boy stole by a teacher so that guilt was kind of like really really like making it difficult for me and I was I was it was kind of killing me from inside my mom goes to me and she's like what what will happen if you cry now or if you just you know go in that darkness that you know you just has nothing to do with life now what will happen with your friends come back with that will it change anything and I had no answer to that and then she tells me that instead of crying and sitting here what you should be doing you should recover you should try to recover work on your recovery and do something for them do something that you know no other people or none no other release friends should be my mother or like kids like that you should be getting up and doing something for them while Lee was taken to Birmingham UK for facial reconstruction surgery he spent two years in the hospital there before starting a local school in Birmingham okay going through a canine a death experience especially so young how do you think that's changed your perspective on life I think before this incident I had no purpose and I mean I was I was young as well but you know I didn't realize the value of life I didn't realize the value of education that that's what it gave me like a sense of realization how important this thing that I'm doing and I'm taking for granted is I was I just say simply that you know before this incident like I just wanted to live for myself and now I want to live for others what would you I suppose one that's how I'd be feeling low-key when I got when I got when I got shot at and I survived I ain't getting hit I it wasn't it wasn't no I'm not gonna it was true it was crazy for me but it probably wasn't on the same level like world level is what's going on with his but like it opened my eyes like I couldn't live that selfishly no more because I want I had a daughter like I had to open my eyes like I had this little live I had to be there for her like I can't go to that can't hear that time about your classmates that lost their lives I think I just want them to know that you know they were they were there to get education they they weren't there to fight anyone and they were they were innocent they were all innocent and they were killed brutally for just getting education they were killed brutally for just wanting a future a bright future for themselves they were brave they were they had they all had bright futures they were all someone was future army officer some of them were future politicians businessman they all had aspirations they all had dreams that were just shattered in in a few minutes that was just taking away by a few gunshots in life you know you life is not what you think will happen life is what happens to you so it's a hard hard pill to swallow but sometimes you just have to accept and live with that reality don't ever take the opportunities or the education or you know whatever life opportunities you have for granted that was deep tell only like comment subscribe turn your post notification bells I'm gone