 Welcome to part two of this little transformation series where we're just talking about how we got started into this online business life thing that we now are doing. So if you've not watched part one yet, watch part one, the link in description where we talk about literally how we figured out about online business, our whole dropping out of college experience, dealing with friends and family, and all this shit. Watch the video for it. Yeah, so we talked about, we've had two big transformations in our life and it's all mental. The first one covers one and the second one covers the second one that we're about to talk about. And for us, that one has been even more life-changing and that's basically what this video is. Let's stop talking and let's just get right into it. Yes? Yes. Yes, okay, sit down, tell me, let me do it, let me do it. Phew! All right, same spot as before. Let's start. Let's start off with a little cheers. You don't have a glass so we'll cheers to that. No, let's not waste time. Let's start. And here exactly where we left off in the first video. This glitch was right before we moved to Chiang Mai. This could have been one long video but the first one was 40 minutes. So we just talked a lot. So we're like, let's split it up. So yeah, watch part one first. Part two left off when we were about to move out from home to Thailand. So that was one of the first things we were gonna do to get like, just head dive into this fucking life. Fucking no going back at that point. So really committed for it. Bridges are burned! And something I didn't cover. You were doing well with self-publishing. I had a little bit of self-publishing income as well. I had just sold my drop shipping store for $17,000 right before I moved to Thailand. So I was feeling filthy rich at that point. I had, I had- For a digital nomad, you're rich. You're rich. I had 30,000 in the bank moving to Chiang Mai. Yeah. That was pretty epic. Yeah. Anyway, it doesn't matter what I did with the money, but. Yeah, no. So after I sold my drop shipping business, Christian had his publishing business, we were making enough money to support ourselves. We could do whatever we wanted. And then we did. So we chose to move to Chiang Mai, Thailand. Let's be digital nomads. Woo! And I hate that word. I hate that word, because that's what we were. A digital nomad in my mind is this broke person running around with a backpack, freelancing just to make enough money so they can pay for the next night at a hostel. Yeah. And then just being cheap because they have no money. Yeah. So we moved to Chiang Mai. Do you want to talk about what it was like? No, it's faster. Like, that's just not important. So yeah, we were in Chiang Mai, Thailand for three months. So that guy's into this whole traveling lifestyle thing. So that was fun. We had a great time. But then after three months, like, yeah, it's time to get out of here. Let's move the fuck on. So then they're just like, all right, where do we go next? And it is relevant to talk a little bit about our time in Chiang Mai. Every day, not every day. A lot of fucking days, we were ready to start a YouTube channel. It's time to start a YouTube channel. We weren't sure exactly what. Remember when our first video was released? This leads into the main point. Remember what our first video was gonna be? Chiang Mai apartment tour? Yep, the Chiang Mai apartment tour. So when we were living in Chiang Mai, like right when we came, actually it goes even further back. When we were living at home and going to college, we're like, we need to make a YouTube channel because that's how we like build it on what we currently have. I don't really remember. And then what we were saying was once we move to Thailand and we're out of the home, away from our parents, don't have to worry about that, then we'll start making YouTube videos. When we were living at home, we never told ourselves, okay, let's start filming. We were always saying, when we get to Chiang Mai, then we will, so like boom, no responsibility needs to be taken down. Long story short, instead of making this video 17 hours long, we did not make a single YouTube video in Thailand because we were too scared. Well actually, we were just always making excuses. But what the core of it was, we were too scared to talk on camera and put ourselves out there. But in reality, we thought like, oh, it's just, we're doing this honestly. I'm working on publishing and all this. I'm always making excuses every day. I also had no idea what to start with. This is why the apartment tour went over. No, no, that's an excuse. Not knowing where to start. An excuse does not mean it's your truth to it. I still think excuses are really lame. Yeah, it's still an excuse. So three months in Chiang Mai, we were just growing the publishing business, getting accustomed to this lifestyle. It was cool and all. So like, yeah, this is nice. And then we're like, all right, where do we go from here? We want to leave Thailand. And then our mindset was, well actually we're going to go home to New Jersey for a bit. We're like, let's stop in Hawaii because Hawaii's on the way. Let's stay in Hawaii for a week or two because we can. But then actually Rasmus thought of the idea like we can go to Hawaii for a week or two as a vacation. But why don't we just fucking move there? Because we can now. Why? Give me a reason why I'm not. My publishing business has grown to like over 10,000 at that point. From Chiang Mai it, yep, December. First $10,000 a month from publishing was our last month in Chiang Mai. So at this point I had enough money to do something. I was doing about five, which is enough to, you know, me on my own with no one else to pay for, like you could do a lot with $5,000 a month, you know? So we literally thought, my mindset was, where in the world of all the places do I want to live, the number one place? Yeah, that's literally what the mindset was. Anywhere, I can go anywhere and I'm going to move there. That's just what I wanted to do. Why would I not do exactly what I want to do? So that place was Hawaii. So we moved to Hawaii right after that, found a place and we lived in Hawaii for six months, okay? And first thing in Hawaii, we're just doing the same shit we're doing, building the publishing businesses, doing this and that. Still talking every day about we gotta make this YouTube channel, we gotta make this YouTube channel. That's why I'm making videos when you stop being bitches about it. I remember always talking to myself, telling myself like, I'm different, I'm different, I'm gonna blow up and I'm gonna have everything I want in my life. I'm gonna be a multimillionaire, I'm gonna do all these things. We had that confidence. Yeah, I did have that confidence. It was like, I knew it was coming. I knew it was coming. And like, I feel like for a long time, just like me telling myself that was like making me satisfied. Yeah. That's what I was doing. Yeah, it will come. It will come. I don't know exactly what it is, but it's gonna come. And I'm just gonna make it happen because I know it would be. Keep doing the same thing, it'll come eventually. The answer to that is no, don't do the same thing. You have to take massive action towards something. So then this leads back to the point that, like I was saying, we said this in another video that talking on camera is both one of the biggest fears we have at the time. At that point, we were both very self-conscious people. I don't know if neurotic threats were, but we worried about what other people thought, getting judged. We were sensitive is not the right word, but kind of like just scared to be ourselves, basically. Scared to really let people see who we were. So like at home, you could be yourself. Yeah. Together then with our friends. But then in public, we're like a little shy. Can I finish? Cannot properly talk to people because you weren't really comfortable with who you were. Here's what the problem is for me. Would you agree? Yeah, here's what the problem was for me. I remember all throughout high school and all throughout our time in Denmark, you give yourself this identity. And I'd always think that other people saw me as exactly that identity, right? And if I didn't always hold that identity at all times, if I changed a little bit, they would be like, what the fuck? They'd be like, whoa, whoa, you're so. Yeah, you're acting weird. Yeah, you're acting weird. And that idea of people thinking that of me, I hated that thought. I did not want people to think that way. It all stood. So they knew me as like the quiet introverted type and I wouldn't put myself out there. But alone when it's just like, it's like I'm friends, then I'm myself like I am right now. And then if I ever like sort of went beyond who I thought I was and who I thought they thought I was, it was just like, ugh, that's weird. Like that made me super uncomfortable, you know? So I didn't dare to actually put myself out there. Right. It comes down to the fact that this was talking on camera, making YouTube videos, something we knew we needed to do, but it was so fucking outside our comfort zone. It's not even funny. To the point where it took us eight months from saying every day, let's make YouTube videos, let's make YouTube videos, let's make YouTube videos, until we actually made our first video. It took eight months. Okay, now it wasn't just like on the eighth, the first day of the eighth month, we're like, oh, okay, time to make a video. Finally, I give in to like these stops that I had, let's do it. It obviously takes some massive event in your life for that to occur. And what happened was in March, beginning of March, I lost my KDP account, which was my publishing account. One aspect of my publishing account, not the whole thing. And I lost that. And it's like, everything just crumbled in one day. Everything just crumbled. I remember where I was. I was walking home from the gym with my shirt off, with my drawstring bag. How do you remember the shirt? Oh yeah, super traumatic experiences. You remember every detail about what was going on. And then I just had my phone, and then I just pulled out emails, just refreshed emails, and I saw an email from Amazon, KDP, and then I just clicked on it, and then account terminated, you will have all relatives withheld now, go fuck yourself, and find a new thing to do. It's basically what that said. I also remember the exact moment, or me, where I was when I saw the email, it said my account had been terminated. But we'll talk about that when we get there. Yeah, so I don't want to dwell too much on that, but that was what it took. Once I experienced that, first of all, I thought I'd lost everything. I had not actually lost everything, but I had lost about $10,000 a month in income. And it was fucked because, I thought I had to leave Hawaii, because Hawaii's really, really, really, really, really expensive to live in. So expensive. So I thought I had to leave Hawaii. Everything had to change, this and that. But long story short is it basically just put me in survival mode? Well, I like, okay, I have to take drastic actions to get out of this. Because you have no choice now. Yeah, you have no choice. You have no choice then to move on from this. To me, this comes back to a previous video that we did with Stuart about what motivates you. Is it your goals in life? Oh, yeah. Or is it to get away from your worst nightmare? And that's what this was. Our worst nightmare was having to move back home and tell our parents like, it didn't work. It didn't work. You're right, I should have stayed in school, and I should have gotten a job, and I should have done exactly what you said. That was the worst nightmare. So that if, at that point, that's what we're thinking. If we don't do anything now, that's what our life is gonna become. And the crazy part is guys, this was March 2018. This was nine months ago. We're still in 2018. This was really fucking, it doesn't feel recent at all. But it was nine months ago, I was there. And yeah, that's how long the YouTube channel has been out for now, because that is what sparked it. So then it came out to like, fuck this. We have to make YouTube videos. And I took initiation. For me, it was like dire. Like we gotta move on to this shit. From stopping a little bit. Look, look, I want, it's do or die time. I want, first of all, I just, I hope, can you see my socks? They're pretty sick. Can you see my socks? Okay. So I just really want people to understand this. The idea that we had to move back home, those all that, that's my nightmare come true. Right? And still, without you, at that point, if I didn't have you, I still would not have created the YouTube channel because I was that scared. Yeah. Which is fucked. I can say, having my worst life become real life, even that was not enough to motivate me on my own. That's how scared you were to talk on camera. Yeah, I'm trying to prove like how hard this was. And I can say, me, I would have done it on my own. Now that's just the way, that's just what it is. So I'm just admitting this, I'm not proud of it. I had to take leadership here. So we just started making videos. We knew that we could make, the one thing we had to offer was we knew a lot about publishing, how to build a successful publishing business. So that's what we did. We started a publishing channel at the time. It's just making publishing tutorials, talking about shit that we could help with. Let's have a look at, just to show the massive amounts of on camera transformation. Okay, let's play. So we were convinced in our heads, back, sorry, camera overheats all the time. That's what happened. So we needed to take a 30 minute break. So we want this camera, everything else. The fact that it overheats all the fucking time is pissing me off. It's very, very annoying. So what we were getting at, we were talking about when we started the YouTube channel and how, wow, in the beginning, we were so bad on camera. Just, I was sweating beads. I was sweating bullets. I was sweating a lot of things. Beads too, all of them. Yeah, every time we had to film. And like, every time we would film, we would always get in arguments because like both stress levels for both of us were through the roof when we were filming. So we were both really honest. I'm just gonna say that's still when most of our arguments happen or just because we both want a perfect video. It's from filming related things. Yeah. We both want a really good video. We just kind of have some ideas of it. Yeah. Let's put up some clips about what some of our first videos were like. Buckle up for this. This is gonna be bad. Yeah. You may have already seen it. I was gonna play a few and to give you an example. Population of the most awkward shit. Yeah. And here it is. What's up guys? Rasmus and Christian here. If you want to go in detail about any of these, subscribe of course. If you want more videos. There you go. Thanks for watching guys. That's why in this video I wanna walk you through step by step. This loophole is very easy to use. And it will allow you to open up your own account with ACX even if you don't live in the US or the UK. Let's go. Hello everyone. And welcome to the first ever story time with me I guess. Yeah. Well can you tell which one I am? Which twin? Yeah. You should be able to. Cause we don't look that similar. Let's do this. So yeah, there were some clips right there. Let's not dwell on that. But in the beginning it was not pretty. And in our heads it was even worse than it looked. Like holy shit. I wanna say this. I feel like so many people struggle with exactly this. I hope this can help you. Exactly. Just with the exact same way. If you're nervous about it. I bet there is. I feel like to a much higher level than you. I bet there is at least 100 people watching this video who have a fear of talking on camera and it's holding them back from talking on camera. It's just a great skill to have in life. Even if you don't have any YouTube channels just being comfortable in any situation. So now let's talk about how that has changed our life. Is starting the YouTube channel. So I'll start off by telling you about what it's like. It's really fucking hard in the beginning. It sucks. It really, really, really sucks. It's nerve wracking. It's everything. But every video gets easier and easier and easier. Now how long does it take? It does not take five videos. It doesn't take 10. It doesn't take 20. After five you feel better than the first. After 10 you feel better than the fifth. After 20 you feel better than the 10th. And it's just ever evolving. So right now I feel very comfortable on camera but of course there is still so much progress to be made. So it's just you're always getting better and better and better and better. Like that it applies to a lot of skills. It's just transcended every single area of my life. So let's talk about that. Now we're about to get into the point of this video. We haven't talked about transformation yet. So what sparked the transformation was being able to talk on camera and starting the YouTube channel. That's what sparked it. But what actually happened, let's talk about that because that's what this video is about. It's just made me like, I feel like everyone is this way. When you're in your last thing before we go. Can I? Yes, go. Nice. So since we started to now our personalities have changed. Or not our personalities. We've just changed completely. I was saying our personalities are the same but the time where I feel comfortable showing my full personality has widened so much. So I think everyone, no one's themselves at all times. When you're with your best friends and your family that's the goal to be yourself at all times. But I think no one is that. Almost no one is that. That's not the point. I feel like everyone with their family and closest friends, they can be themselves 100%. Or when they're alone, maybe only when they're alone. And then when you're meeting strangers and out in public and look who you don't know that well, you act different. You can't be your full self. You can't be your full self. So what has happened for me is that me acting like myself, like I do in my most comfortable state with my friends and my family and you, that has just become bigger and bigger and bigger and bigger and wider. In the past it would be like only in this small little zone can I fully be myself. Not maybe like 5% of the time. And being yourself is being comfortable with who you are. That's what it is. It's being comfortable with who you are. Because if you're comfortable with who you are then you could just be yourself and have no worries, feel no judgment from anyone else. But when you're not comfortable with who you are around people then suddenly you're self-conscious. You think you're being judged and you can't be yourself. You have to act like something else. It's normally like. You know what I mean. I know you know what I mean. It's like a super tame version of yourself with no personality basically. So what making YouTube videos has done for us, normally we could only be ourselves around like our parents, each other and our very, very closest friends. And then when we meet people, we couldn't be ourselves. We just had to like be these, because we weren't comfortable. And then it would take like weeks or months to become comfortable around someone. But now how it is, I feel comfortable with who I am at all times. That's at least what we're going towards. And I feel like I'm getting very close to it. I'm getting very close to it. So now when we meet like a group of new people, I'm just comfortable with who I am. I'm happy with who I am. I like who I am. And I could just be myself at all times. That has become one of our strongest characteristics now is being ourselves at all times. Being authentic and not being anyone else. And being comfortable with who I am and what I'm like, being happy with what I'm like. It's weird the whole loving yourself but I love who I am now. And that has, I did not feel that way eight months ago. My comfort zone in social situations has just gone from this to just this. Yeah, it's a social thing. Yeah. Yeah, completely like going out meeting new people, saying hi to someone I don't know. It's still like the introvert in me still doesn't always like that. But once I'm in this situation, it's very easy for me to warm up and feel comfortable and feel good and natural. So I, some people believe that like you're born either an introvert or an out-rovert. Extrovert I mean. I believe that I have transitioned from bringing an introvert to now I'm genuinely an extrovert. That's what I believe about myself. And it's just such an incredible feeling cause I've always wanted to be that. I like the attention but I just felt like I never had it in me cause I was just shy and self-conscious. Always worry about what other people think of me. Now I've gotten to the point where I'm not too concerned with what other people think. Like I am what I am. And then if you like it, you don't like it. I'm just me now. I'm very good at that now. Okay, I'm gonna ask certain way. Stop cursing. Oh, you don't like that? Fuck off. Like no, I feel great telling you that. I'm totally okay that you don't like that I am that way. Yeah, same. Fine. Yeah, no problem whatsoever. Like in the past I'll try and convince you and I'd feel bad that you don't like the way I'm acting or something like that. Not anymore. Yeah. That's basically what that big transformation has been. And it stems into every single part of life. Cause now when you're comfortable with who you are at all times, you behave differently. You behave naturally. You behave like yourself. You do the things that this comfortable person who loves who they are would do instead of what this self-conscious person would do where you keep on making decisions based on what other people think. And that has, that has, holy shit, that's changed our lives. Holy fuck, it's insane. And okay, here's another just feel good. You just feel good now. Yup. And then another thing I wanna say. One, I wanna talk about one certain area where it's really made a big difference in our lives. And do you know what I'm about to say? I think I know. Girls. Yeah, that's what I wanna talk about. He has made a- It's something we've never talked about before. Yup, yup. So like up until then, we'll just be completely open about our past with girls. Just be completely open about it. Yeah, okay, sure. I've just always been very embarrassed. Okay. That's why, but I'm past it now which is why I feel like I can talk about it. So he's very self-conscious in the past. So you say what do you wanna say? I mean, my, just my whole life and relationships and girls up until the last year, I was just the most awkward person ever talking to girls. Yup. Shy, had never had a girlfriend. We both just entered our first relationships in the past. Me, like a month or two ago, the rest is like last week. And so yours lives with us, mine is coming. I'm sure you guys will see them in videos if you're interested. But yeah, it's basically gone from like zero girl action. Well, I just wanna, I'm just gonna say this like, I kissed a girl for the first time in 19 years old. To give you guys an idea- Do you imagine that? Like, think about that. I was 18, I was 18. So yeah, to give you an idea, it's because like I was so, we had nothing to offer other than self-consciousness. Like what, fucking who would wanna be around that? And I don't blame them. And at the time, I always thought girls will never ever like me. No girl, how can a girl like this? How can a girl be so attracted to this? I have nothing to offer. I'm just a person. And I'll talk about now how it's literally polar opposites. Now it's the point. So since then, since I've gone through this phase of becoming happy with who I am and just loving the person I am, like I just love myself in that way. That sounds so weird. Like, oh, a fat person love yourself. But it's just real. Now it's the exact opposite. Now it's literally the exact opposite. And we attract all kinds of people but specifically girls are just now very, very attracted to us just because of who I am now. I'm just comfortable. I'm just cool. I'm just myself. I act like myself and fuck around from the way beginning. Yeah, and we're just fun. We don't take anything too seriously. So then since then, there's been plenty of action. And now we've only been these new people for like a few months now. It's literally every month we're becoming more and more comfortable with ourselves. And now suddenly we changed and then instantly we're able to find two girls that we love a lot. Yeah, like, can you see how that has just, like this one, starting the YouTube channel, that's where the fuck it comes from. This is where everything comes from. It's from the confidence. Like, gotten so much confidence from starting the YouTube channel and overcoming that fear and discomfort. It's just, I said my whole fucking life. Into relationships with girls, which is something, yeah, we were both so self-conscious about. And we're like, oh, I want this. I'm a fucking loser. I'm a fucking loser. I don't get any girls. That's changed a lot in the past. It's only like six, eight months. That's how short it's been. So fucking insane, man. Fucking insane. What other parts of life does it trends into? So really, so there's the being on video. That's a business thing. Yeah. Okay, business. Then girls, and then like you said, social in general. Social in general. And just when I'm laying in bed by myself, it's just like, I fucking love what I've become. I'm so happy with myself. I feel comfortable at all times. I don't feel stressed. I don't feel- When you have- I just feel great all the time. Like social anxiety is just a shitty thing to have when it's just bugging you at all times. I just realized, I just realized, I guess we had social anxiety. Yeah. I didn't realize that. I feel like almost everyone has a little bit and you still do in certain situations. Yeah. But it would just be very great and at most times. The next step for me or for both of us, I know when it comes to social stuff, is being able to be without the other person. Mm-hmm. Because we're both very dependent. We do everything together. It's true. We hang out with people together. We go out together. We do everything together. So, and then like when I'm alone, I do feel like a different person and I know you feel the same way. Yup, it's true. So that's just, that's one thing we have to work on. The only time we spend apart is with girls. Yeah, privately with girls. That's basically the only time. So, but yeah. And that has been that big transformation. What other parts of life does it have to say to you? Yeah, when I'm not with you, I don't feel like I'm myself. Yeah. Right? And we have to change at that place. Not dire for me to change. Not right now. Not right now. In the future, yes. Because right now we're working on building this brand together. And then in the future, I've already told you like, yes, we're doing this together, but at some point we have to break off. Yeah. And I have to do my own thing. You have to do your own thing. But for now, our forces are much better combined. Yeah. We got our things. To some extent. I feel like we can five X to some extent. Yeah. To some extent. To some extent in some areas, yes. In some areas, no. In some areas we held each other back. Now I can't tell you exactly what it is. I would have to sit down and really think about that. But yeah. So. Don't really think about that. But yeah. So. So, the camera, we're here again and it got cut off, but we were fucking. Fuck this camera. Fucking rambling about stupid bullshit. So, it's not the worst thing in the world. Let's just end the video now with the magic emoji of the video and I thought about it. What's it gonna be? The heart emoji. Because I love all you guys, seriously. I fucking love you. Just honestly, you guys changed my life. And yeah. See you guys in the next video, yeah? Yeah. Okay. And we just, yeah. Okay, sorry. Bye.