 Without the ego there is only the quantum field and it's just pure connectivity, pure oneness. Two of the ego that sounds very boring. That's the meaning of life, the quantum field. Just a field of energy that's just totally connecting and extending and radiating. It's just like in the movie where he gets so accustomed to the aquarium that he doesn't see a way out. That's the same way when you're accustomed to the biology and the planets and the spheres and gravity and all these things. Then as you begin to go through awakening, it's like the ego is grieving its world. It's grieving the loss of what it considers life. It made its own life to get away from the connectivity of the energy and the oneness. It was using the tools of separation and the mechanisms of separation and the parts that are the reflections of separation to manufacture a false reality. It's almost like the hoax includes separate bits of consciousness and awareness that have shared agreements. The sky is blue, the grass is green, ooh sneaky sneaky. It even makes it seem more real when there's all these bits and pieces that seem to holographically have some shared agreements. Do you think this? Yeah, I think that too. Separation is reinforced. So it's very ingenious and it's very sneaky, but yeah, without the ego there are no parts. No pollution, no nature, no animals? No. Just nada. The thing about it is that seems to be the faith of the spiritual journey. I'm happy. I've kind of gone through the keyhole. But as you're going through the tunnel, you're wondering is there a light at the end of the tunnel? You can't always even see the light at the end. And that's where these phrases come up like blind faith. It seems in some sense like ah, it sounds like blind faith or pie in the sky or even where is the evidence. And you do find what you're looking for, but with the ego you draw forth a lot of evidence of separation. All of history, Jesus says, history would not exist if you didn't keep making the same mistake in the present. It's like Groundhog Day. It's just waking up every day, stepping in the puddle, going through the same things over and over, reliving the same day, which is really the same unholy instant, just over and over and over. And that's what linear time is. It's just repetition, just living the same old mistake over and over and over. And all he says in the Course is you've never stopped to pause for a moment to question what's beneath all this. Like to even ponder, you have no idea where you even began winding yourself into darkness. You've been winding yourself into darkness so to speak so long that you've never stopped to question what's the point of this. But certainly that's what we do when we get into the Course. So to take it back, trace it back. Like Carol King said, tracing a line till we can be fine, the thing that allows us to feel on the love is the real. You see, even in that song, classic Carol King, tracing a line still has the digging. It still has the exposing, it still has the tracing it back. But when we start tracing back together, so to speak, you can feel the synergy of that. You can feel here, that's what this whole retreat has been about. The exposing, the tracing back. And that's our life here at the monastery. That's what we focus our attention. That's what we give our care to. Not to try to achieve or accumulate or be productive. We're not interested in being productive. We are completely without ambition. When will it end? It never began. You can feel the relaxation of all the worry and struggle and care and concern. Try to make it somewhere. Where?