 Here's the deal I ripped my hamstring off the bone I'm just kidding, but it is torn Minor tear. I've been nagging at it for two years. You've heard me complain about it for two years Finally got it checked. It's torn. It's a minor tear in the men and semi-membranosis Doesn't matter point is it's time to heal point is what's going on point is what's the point of this YouTube channel point is What's the point of my body? Okay? That's how I'm feeling because now I can't dunk. It's not forever I got a heel, but I got to let go of it. That's detachment. Let's get into it today I'm feeling the energy because I'm not dunking. I'm not working out. I'm not doing the high intensity It's a new found awareness for your boy. So I'm thinking what am I gonna do with all this energy one thing I'm gonna do let's make this video I'm gonna make this podcast. It's mindset Monday. Let's kill it This is what I love about what I do and what I love about loving things that love that you love to do because when you do The things you love it transpires it inspires it it radiates outwards It amplifies to other things that you do for other people and then it's just a cycle that never ends It's the most amazing feeling and it's fun and that's the end goal I don't know where I'm going with this, but I do know I'm enjoying it and I want you to enjoy So if I can bring my enjoyment to my expertise that brings you to your enjoyment and expertise We're all winning and that's what it's about. So whoo The hamstring I'm gonna start with that and we're gonna come back to what the point of everything is and Existence and what we're using our mindset for and how I'm looking forward to the future and what it's leading to and the energy It's creating and how we're using energy in one area of our life and how we're gonna use it in other areas of our life And how to find yourself express yourself to find yourself. Let's just start with the hamstring. Let's go. All right So welcome hamstring didn't want to I'm not gonna go in the full story, but basically two years ago in dunk camp over jumped Because T-dub showed up who is a legend if you don't know him definitely YouTube him legend showed up to dunk I already measured my vertical maxed out my vertical 42.5 pushing my body to the limit jumping out of my skin then I Jumped even more because I just wanted to dunk with the boys then T-dub showed up. We had a low-rim session What am I gonna do not dunk by the way that hidden footage my boys got that I gotta find that footage of me having a low-rim session With T-dub I may post that soon on my Instagram or just on my YouTube of that legendary session with T-dub Point is I jumped a lot This was back-to-back days by the way some days twice and then we had the dunk show which I did decent And I think I hit a windmill Backboard missed a lot of dunks. I was already fatigued. I remember my leg already being sore Then I kept jumping next couple I got back from dunk camp took a week off after all that and it was sore I was sitting at my my desk job at the time sitting on it thought it was just tight You know sitting on that hamstrings never that good when you sit sedentary lifestyle Not only kills your hamstring kills your entire life and it kills your soul. So that's just me Okay, that's just me as you can tell I have a lot of energy I can't do a desk job at least not this type where I get to yell. Okay. I need to yell By the way, I got this cold brew nitro brew from Starbucks leftover and I also put MCT oil in it with like the powder That's actually fantastic from this company HVM and which I can say really fast because I have energy really high and The MCTO makes me shit my pants So this with the nitro brew plus a little bit of water in my own americano with MCTO Definitely gonna shit my pants and I might go vegan But the point is with this new hamstring injury I might change up my diet to try new things we got to keep it pushing it feels like we're in the unknown and I like that I like that feeling but it's also terrifying. That's the duality you live in fear But also if you're aware of the fear you say That means I'm in the unknown which means I'm open because our Subconscious wants to avoid the unknown because the unknown used to kill us as like tigers in the bush You know caveman and that type of thing But now we don't have to worry about that but that that's by a lot biology that biological response is still there But having the awareness which is what I love about the content I create and and sharing with other people is if you can know They be like oh, it's just fear. It's not real and then also it's unknown And when you're unknown that means you're open and if you could be open into the unknown You have infinite possibilities that can happen at any moment. I can say any word I can do anything right at this moment that gives me infinite choices every choice compounds are to the next I'm jumping into so many different podcasts, but that's how I'm feeling. Let's get back to the story. So Where were we jumped a lot got back to work jumped more? I was flying I I recorded my highest vertical ever at 42.5 then I was dunking. I wanted to get better at dribble dunks I just jumped my brains out now I wanted to actually get better at dunking those videos if you look about November 2019 I was jumping some of my highest and then February jumped my highest ever had some of my best dunks ever If you type in on YouTube How I jumped my highest in seven or eight years Steven sell you can just find it pretty easy comment Instagram me I'll find the link for you. I know my library. There's a lot of videos but you can find it easy and then I hit my head on a 10 foot legit 10 foot backboard and Even though my head hit the backboard your arms come down So it's a little bit easier than a reach check. So but my vertical off the ground I believe is 40 was 43 on that jump Conservatively because it could have been a little bit higher again when you're reaching for a vertex You don't jump as high because your center of mass is higher and you're trying to reach with your arm So it's harder to reach than it is to get your head to a high check because when your arms go down And you just stick your head up your center of mass comes out shout out to John Evans for pointing that out and So I think I jumped higher. It might have been about the same 42.5 I tangibly hit my noggin on the backboard which I equated to 43 Conservatively depends where I hit it. I didn't just graze it either. I look like a solid piece of my skull So let's just say 43 conservative my next goal was 44, but I was jumping my highs by the way when I hit that head on 43 I Was in pain the whole time my hamstring hurt every jump, but I didn't care it didn't hold me back I had full function, but then I'm like, you know what? I want to go next level and I hadn't lifted in the couple years and The I felt like I maxed out my current body's muscle capacity and it was time to get stronger Here's where the roadblock happened to get stronger. You need to do deadlifts and squats So those that ask what kind of strength exercises are the best the the basics squats deadlifts You're your quads your hamstrings your glutes hamstrings and glutes are the ones I neglected throughout my whole career which is why I have this imbalance but those hamstrings and glutes just hit those things get them strong and That's gonna be your powerhouse for jumping higher now I couldn't lift correctly because I was so immobile my hips were so tight my hamstrings were so tight plus it hurt like a Biz so I didn't want to push through that pain So I'm like I need to heal this hamstring Started trying to rehab it started trying to take a little bit of time off and by time I mean like a month or two wasn't that much and I'm like, you know what and I also healed my knee so I had a pretty good understanding of just body awareness when it comes to pain and how to stimulate it and how to Try to understand if I should push through a little bit of pain how much pain I should tolerate how much rest I need so I was trying that off and on all of 2020 met my trainer John Binford. We worked together a ton I noticed how tight my hips were I learned how to train my hips the deep hip muscles How to isolate my muscles how to hit my glutes how to use my hamstrings Building mind-body connection with my hips and my hamstrings and my glutes and all these little intricate details that it were invaluable It was an incredible incredible training, but the hamstring wasn't getting better. I was trying everything I stopped jumping again for about two months just trying to train Yes, I was kind of aggravating it with the lifting, but the jumping wasn't it wasn't as intense as jumping So I was trying to lay off it a little bit Long story short trying to train and rehab at the same time. I didn't want to like I wanted to get stronger And then finally after that much Oh, then I tried yoga to start 2021 did three months of that three times a week two three times a week at least twice Hot yoga to to get me extra like limber because I'm so tight Learned a ton there where I learned about my hips and how to even control my body with stretching and how to really breathe and how to Relax and really how to slow down and as you see this is getting less and less and less right so from dunking all the way to where we are today and After the yoga I even did Bicram yoga, which is even slower and even just more breathing and Even a slower pace and that still didn't heal it I wasn't really getting more flexible partially because it just hurt I didn't want to push through it, but I just wasn't making progress and of course rushing too much I'm aware of this obviously, but it's not easy for me to slow down. So every step I'm trying I'm learning how to slow down a little bit more and Then just now it is now April 26th this past Friday two days ago I got the ultrasound to finally get it checked out and it has a minor tear That's just there in the in the in the medial hamstring area. So all that work I did was kind of not the best because anything that aggravates it is not gonna allow it to heal and the doctor said this Which was kind of cool. He was like if you weren't a dunker I'd say just leave it be but if you want to dunk again You want to do what you can to heal it whether it's PRP or stem cells or physical therapy specific for that thing But anything I do to aggravate it obviously jumping but even running even stretching anything that aggravates It's gonna delay the healing which just makes sense But now I know so the good thing about this now is now I know That it's what it is and I know exactly where it is on my body So I know exactly what to avoid and there's protocols with physical therapy how to heal it and my advice to you is Don't overlook things test it out and just get it checked right away Because if I would have known this way earlier it would have been helpful, but I just I don't know why I don't I've maybe subconsciously I was afraid to actually see if it was hurt and also it didn't hurt that bad It was just gradually was off and on it just felt like the signs of inflammation like I've had with Tendons in other areas, so that's part of it, but make it a known but now it feels good I have this roadmap, so it's just since Friday, and I said you know what I'm done training I'm not gonna try to stretch. I'm not gonna try to strengthen I have to let go of my dunk camp goals because if you have a time frame on certain things It's gonna it call for me it causes impatience. It causes me to rush It causes me to want to put in work now, but if I let go it's been a very interesting thing and Obviously, I want to let go so I can be open to all these things and I want to come back to dunking But for you guys dunking is just something I've loved since I was a kid And even if I let go of it and never dunk again I'm okay with in my head with like this that may have been it Okay, but I just love the the chase and I also love the actual activity because there's other goals that I've let go of Then I'm like okay if I never I'm okay if I don't do it, but You have to question that you have to be okay and really think what if that was the last time I've done that I have plenty of things I like to do and other goals I like to achieve but I do like things physical so if I could never do dunking again. I might take up yoga I love the way it feels. I love the the challenge of it I just need some kind of physical challenge and I don't even know if I like the word need but it's it's something that I really enjoy doing Anyway back to where we're at today with overload of energy is that I haven't been doing anything physically challenging Which I usually do daily and if not daily every two three days I do something hard whether it's a hard run that pushes me Cardiovascularly or a hard lift or even just something something, you know, I've been dunking recently Even if it was a yoga class that was strenuous, but I have it and it's insane How much energy I have when I don't use my physical body now? I'm thinking with this is I had so much energy to make a video I had so many topics all this energy came to all these different topics I wanted to share them with you because you can start to notice how your energy is used in all these different areas Yes, I knew that my training was using so much of my energy, but now that I'm open to never dunking again I'm thinking how hard I can go in videos I can make it right now and also how my mind works when my mind is working right now It's like I can make a video every day. I can make the best video every day I can make a podcast I can make a YouTube video I can make an Instagram I can make them I can do photography for the thumbnail and all these other things I have all this energy to do it right now. So that's why I'm jumping on to capture it So it's interesting to me because I want to make the best videos possible So when I'm in this energy, it allows me to make the best podcast make the best video because I'm bringing my full energy to it and More on that when you're on YouTube and you're in the schedule and you're trying to make a video every Tuesday For example, it's really hard to do it every Monday and line your energy up with the content You want to create or the thing you want to do just like dunking, but I haven't thought about it as much with with content I knew with content. I couldn't do it any time I wanted because the inspiration hits in there, but with dunking was more apparent It's like you can't pick a day. You're gonna have the highest energy. You can reverse engineer it and say on Saturday What could I do to have the most energy that day, but there's stress in your life There's errands you have to run. There's bills. You have to pay. There's people you have to talk to there's things You have to do that take your energy that you can't guarantee you'll have the full tank that day That's why I strive for a life of freedom Which is why I have so much energy every day because I've built that for myself When you have this life of freedom like for example today's a Monday I got to jump on this camera set it up have everything charged Have my apartment have this microphone all these different things when my energy strikes That's the beauty of having a free life And if you're a dunker for me part of my job was I wanted the flexibility to train when I want to because if I have a High-energy like this. I want to go use it because I'm gonna get a better lift. I'm gonna fly. I'm gonna dunk I'm gonna jump my best because Days when I was at corporate and I was sitting at my desk. I'd be I Don't know if you could hear that outside. They're doing kind of construction Hold on. Okay. So because it's a good point. I don't want it to miss it There would be days where I had so much energy that I just wanted to go Run around in the gym and I can feel my body wanting to move just because I haven't used it And that's how I'm feeling today But I'm channeling to this video point is if you can design your life to be able to use your energy when it's When you want in the way you want you'll have so much more energy To use it's let me say that one more time so Instead of fighting yourself and trying to use it other ways if you can build a life or you can try to Reverse engineer the best way your energy flows then it flows But it also amplifies because like for example with this video Not only is it flowing in this video and I have a little energy to express and record and do these things but it also Fuels me up because my message gets out and I could start to use my energy for other things Does that make sense what I'm trying to say is think about what you love or what energy? You like the most and reverse engineer your life for that So for me training was super important creating and expressing content was super important to me And I knew it reminds me of Casey Neistat when he used to say he was scrubbing the buckets of Seafood or something and he knew he hated doing that so by doing something he hated he found what he loved So I didn't hate my other job, but I just didn't like the feeling of I'm missing out on this energy for example sitting at my desk and Wanting to create wanting to jump on an idea wanting to just really express or wanted to go train wanted to just use My body I wanted those few things to be when I wanted and I think Tony Robbins has a really simple quote but it's actually like the hardest thing ever to do which is We all want a life that's do things when we want Where we want with who we want as much as we want So that's like I think everybody would want that and now I think it's up to you to figure out what those things are that you Want to do and get clear on them because that's a really great way to live And I just want you guys to live your dream as well So going back to what I was saying about this new idea. So now let's transition into what's going forward with this hamstring So taking time off Going to heal it I'm excited because now it gets to heal and now I know that it's healable because if not if it was just Something chronic it sucks because I tried so many things to reduce that so it's almost better that it's torn because now I could heal it and I could see myself moving past it And I'm excited to document the journey and show you guys and take you along to show you The patience it takes but also the before and after there's nothing more powerful than that right now I've did a whole knee journey a couple years ago. You guys can see when I had chronic knee pain and that's gone So it's just an obstacle that I'm excited to share and also to look back on this moment when I got the news that I tore it To where I will be of jumping higher or whatever it leads to I'm open to it leading to something Completely out of the realm and that's what's exciting is knowing you can be open to all these different opportunities and just Chasing your higher self be open to what you want to do and be open to new things and that's the energy I'm in right now is I don't know my Just for transparency my lease is up in a couple months. I love this place So I might choose a new I might renew but I might try a new place But just the unknown of where that is another energy source of where I'm putting my creative energy my YouTube content Since I'm not specifically dunking what else am I gonna make am I gonna make more wraps? Am I gonna make more clone videos? Am I gonna make more? Cinematography that's a whole unknown that I can make a whole new strategy So it's just the energy which I truly believe we all feel similarly at similar times not always exactly But maybe you guys are feeling the same thing where this time in life That's why I like to jump on these ideas and get them out because it's fun to share it at the time They happen and all we have is the energy now all we have is this moment So I love capturing that and and getting it out and sharing that with you And it's just feels like a time where it's a brand new chapter with a lot of unknowns that could be scary But if you see them correctly, there's a lot of opportunity for you to start designing things the way you want them to be So going forward with this hamstring. I've been intermittent fasting getting more shredded than ever feeling amazing And it's funny. This is how my mind works as soon as my hamstring was I Found it was toward the next day. I went to the gym just to do some upper body Just to sweat a little bit some push-ups just some basic stuff even just rehab for my shoulders Not that they hurt but just the maintenance. I call it body maintenance. That's what I'm gonna do a whole series on Just to be healthy and move and get the body moving because it's really really important to keep it healthy because we sit A lot all day. I was doing that look in the mirror my abs are decent I'm like up. I'm about to get insanely shredded because I don't know what else to do with my body right now I can't really do anything high intensity. I don't want to aggravate this, but I can get shredded There's nothing wrong with upper body. I can and I can hone it I know I'm gonna hone in even more in my diet, which I'm getting into Because when I'm hurt my brain or when I'm in an injury reserve mode My brain goes to every single detail matters even more I have more cheat days or I have a little I'm more relaxed on my diet when I'm doing the full dunking because I'm burning so much calories or I'm pushing myself to the max right now I don't know if I could push myself to the max so my diet gets dialed in even more Which is just something how my brain works and I call that MP for those that are new MP is mild psychosis And I use it for my advantage. I'm also noticing now It's an addiction, but that's fine too if your addiction is health and for your highest self I think that's okay. I'm not a hundred percent sure if that's healthy But at least it's not other things and it's worked out for me So if it's make your addiction to be addicted to peace and when I have peace in my brain And I lay down at night and I sleep like a baby and I dream of weird things I feel good in the morning and I want the same for you and high energy is the way I feel and so It feels like an addiction because everything and you got to balance and you got to be careful You don't go extreme with it, but either way we're all healing And the next thing I want to say is the diet so because I was strict I was steady dunking my diet was consistent. I'm really big on consistency Whether it's training whether it's sleeping whether it's nutrition Those are the three foundations of energy by the way sleeping is number one nutrition and then body movement and by body movement I mean Stimulating it with what you need for today whether it's just a rest day But just finding that stimulus sweet spot and building body awareness. So I'm very very very consistent But now that I'm an injury reserve, I might try keto and the reason I haven't tried keto is because carbs are really big in explosive activity But I'm not really gonna be doing that right now So I might try keto because I like the idea of being even more mentally dialed in do I need that? I don't think so but Again something else to try Something new and I might try vegan my boy Devonte Wilson. I got the link up with him. He is an animal He is insane athleticism Incredible energy as well that I really enjoyed talking with him We've been friends for a while But we never got to meet in person and it finally got to link and it just felt like the best meeting of minds and energy as well shout out to Jacob as well and He's completely vegan. He's giant muscular and that's inspiration to me because it's someone doing my exact craft I've known vegan is good but seeing someone doing my exact craft whether it went with explosive activity and High energy it really inspires me to give it a shot and I like the morality of veganism So I might try that the thing is I'm excited to try new things I'm excited to push my body to a next level and last but not least. It's a mental game Everything in your external reality including your physical body is a reflection of your mind Doesn't mean when you're shredded it means your body your mind is as sharp as it is for me My shreddedness is a reflection of my belief in myself just because I didn't believe I can get to this level of physique Great word, but it doesn't have it doesn't have to mean you're in the best shape It's just a reflection of like what you feel about yourself for example Sometimes when I'm stressed I get pimples and I know that my mind's more anxious and I might be picking at my face more But that's me. I'm not saying that the better you look the better your mind I'm saying use your own body to help you uncover your mind And I've used my body with dunking to get deeper into my mind to find self-limiting beliefs to find Roadblocks I've had in obstacles that I were thinking about I had to find myself I've used my body by pushing myself I start to notice different things and to sum it all up this hamstring was me over training It was me trying to push past my own limits without any patience So I was trying to push through it instead of building the foundation instead of giving my body the time It needs to build that foundation and go next level. So this hamstring issue now Or the healing of it will teach me the patients I need and that's why I'm already excited about it because it's gonna be more Mental things that I can work on whether it's slowing down Well, and you I listed a bunch of things I'm gonna learn from this from the diet to the activities I'm going to be doing to the content the creations the art I'm gonna create all these different things I get to explore my mind and Dive deeper so it feels like a great tool this healing hamstring this injury is Already a tool to go deeper in their mind and that every time I go deeper in the mind I learned something new and I ascend to a new level of Existence and there's nothing better and that's what I'm gonna leave you with today So everything is in your mind. Maybe the entire universe is in your mind We could be in a simulation to me doesn't matter and it's fun Have a great Monday, I guess and we're gonna be doing this. I would love to get some comments I would love to get your feedback Hight me up hype yourself up just go do it if you don't want to comment If you don't want to say nothing just go live your day and think about energy for two seconds And that'll make my life more fulfilled. Happy Monday. I love you. Have a good one. Let's go Last thing I'm gonna say quote me on this you have to let go of your body to come back to your body So that's today's episode that was a lot of energy and I feel like I have plenty more to go I feel like I can go train myself now, but that was a really good expression when I express myself I feel satisfied and I get it out and now it's out for you and when it's out. It's not in and when it's in It's too much and sometimes it's too much it overflows and it manifests in different ways So get your energy out the way you need and find your freedom. Love you