 Hi everybody, this is Michelle Walling from N5D Network. This is episode 17 and the name of this is Do I Have to be Thin to Ascend? And you may say, well, that's just an odd name. But it's really in response to a comment that I got on a video. As you know, Greg and I just returned from the N5D Superpower Activation Conference and we've been putting every one of our videos up for free in service to humanity to share the information. And one of the comments that I received was this. Some of the information was correct, but these two individuals are far from ascension as nobody who lets themselves get that overweight and out of shape could possibly be connecting to anything but Burger King and McDonald's. So I find that actually a little comical, but in a way I find it judgmental and egotistical. Meaning that only the ego would say something like that, definitely not coming from the heart. So how do you deal with comments like that? Well, I take it as a good opportunity to actually share my experience with my life and with my past lives and how I got to be the size I am and why I'm happy with the way I am and why there's other people that may be the size that they are and whether it's extra skinny or extra large, it doesn't matter. It's what's inside that matters. And I think most of you know that, but I thought you might be interested in hearing some of my life story. So there are many different human extraterrestrial mixtures on this planet. Most of the human templates on this planet have at least 12 extraterrestrial DNA additions to them. Some have tweaks, they have families of different, more of this gene or more of that gene or some people on the planet are hybrids. They have their mother and their father conceived and then they were abducted and taken up into a spaceship and added a third extraterrestrial gene into the mix. It's true. And so thus you have hybrid children who are more like extraterrestrials than humans, than the average human, let's say. So we all have our extraterrestrial lineage, as well as any kind of tweaks that may have been made over the lineage as far as inserting extraterrestrial DNA of different families, different races. And then we all have our personal bloodline, heritage here from this body that we incarnated into. Now, we made a contract with the collective that at this time in this lifetime, the majority of us would be meat eaters, meaning that we would succumb to the system that was set up to enslave us, dominate, control us and poison us, which does include meat. And as most people know, a lot of the meat that is killed, the animals aren't treated right and they have consciousness and they have feelings. And a lot of them are slaughtered in unsavory conditions, which causes emotional information to be stored into the meat when they die. But that's not really what this video is about. As we begin to learn, we make choices and we begin to turn away from these kinds of meats that you may find in your supermarket and then we move more towards organic. So if we're going to eat meat at all, we make sure that it's organic. So we know that that's not it, right? That's not the reason why some of us carry a little bit more weight than others. I think it does have to do with how active you are and, of course, your lifestyle and what you eat. A lot of people say you are what you eat. And that's a real, that's a truthful statement in a way, but it's also very cruel because I'm not a cow. I'm not a pig, but I don't eat pig anymore. So really what I wanted to cover though is that we've been inundated with fast food in this reality. And fast food was definitely a thing that I grew up with my whole life. It wasn't something that I had much choice over because of the way that I was raised. We'll start with going back a little bit. I woke up at the age of 40, as most of you know, which was only five and a half years ago. And before that, I had absolutely no idea whatsoever what they were doing to our food. Truly didn't. I had, when I was married at my second marriage, I had a lot of money at the time and I didn't cook. So we found ourselves eating out most of the time where I would go to a place called Central Market and buy meals, pre-prepared meals, bring them home, warm them up. And that was good. Before that, my first marriage, I was a mother and I worked. And I came home and did all of the household chores, including cooking, which I don't do. So as you can imagine, it was very convenient for me to stop by McDonald's or order a pizza, Taco Bell at the time before my body began rejecting these things. That was part of my lifestyle. And that started, let's go back to college. When I was in college, I didn't have any money. I lived off very cheap fast food, cheapest I could get. Anything that I could put in my mouth that would fill my stomach up I ate. I also lived on potatoes. Potatoes was a very big staple for me. And weenies, weenies and cheese when I was in college and I didn't have a lot of money. So these are things out of necessity. I was very grateful to have something to eat. But really, I think it all started in this lifetime as far as not eating ideally when I was born and my parents divorced when I was seven and my dad was the caretaker. Now, he made chicken fried steak was his homemade specialty with homemade gravy, mashed potatoes. He was really good at that. So probably once a week, maybe once every two weeks, that's what we would have if we didn't have fast food. There's a devilish place called Water Burger in Texas that has really good hamburgers and fries that we would eat. And we ate some McDonald's. I never did like Burger King just for the record. But things like, you know, we didn't eat well. We didn't eat like right. We ate well, but we didn't eat right. So I learned that that was normal for me. And I didn't really have a weight problem most of my life. So going through when my dad and my parents separated at seven and my dad cooked, he used to make things like spaghetti and meat with Colby cheese and homemade fries, homemade, you know, fried potatoes and Crisco oil and things like that. Yeah, we're talking my dad was a meat and potatoes kind of guy. Then his father, my grandfather, was a very generous man. And when he had extra money, he saved up for every weekend. He tried to bring the family together for community family gathering. And he would invite all of their friends, all of their business associates together with all the family. There could be 40 people, you know, at the house and he would sit outside all day starting early in the morning and fire up his smoker and put half a cow on there with a whole bunch of sausage, make all kinds of mashed potatoes and things like that. And my great grandparents would make pies and all kinds of varieties of pies. We had a smorgasbord. We had more than we could ever eat. And when we didn't do that and we got together, we'd go out to eat Mexican food or something like that. That was a tradition in our family. So that's the way I grew up. And I didn't know anything about how that was affecting me until I woke up to, you know, out of the fog, out of the programming, that that's not very good for you. Now, I didn't really struggle with the weight most of my life until I got pregnant. And that was a twofold thing. The first was I knew that I was only going to be pregnant once. I knew that I was only going to have one child. And somewhere deep down inside, I think I knew that this was going to be my last lifetime here because kind of a selfish type thing, I decided that I was going to eat whatever my body craved. And whatever my body craved out, I ate. I would eat for one and a half, maybe two. I gained, you know, probably 20 pounds over the normal, which isn't too bad. But I did get that weight off. And I always had a metabolism problem. And that probably stems from the thyroid problem and that probably stems from my family lineage. I'm not going to own this because I'm trying to change this. But my grandfather was over six foot four and over 350 pounds. My father was kind of a tall man, but my uncle, especially, he's still alive. My uncle's about six foot two, six foot three. He's probably close to 280, maybe even 300, depending on your fluctuates back and forth. So, you know, you can probably eat just as much as you did one year as the last year. But as you get older and your metabolism breaks down and your genomes are breaking down, it makes it harder for you to lose the weight. And you have to exercise just a little bit more. Now, when I was born, I was born with a knee problem. My knees would not, they were floating. And when I was a baby, I couldn't crawl on my knees. I scooted on my butt until I learned how to walk. And my parents just thought it was funny. You know what? What's wrong with you? My baby doesn't crawl. That's okay. But I realized that I hadn't had a problem. And I started having knee injuries and doing sports in high school where my kneecap would slip out of the socket. They call it something like a sub-bloxed patella. Now that is more painful than having a baby. It was horrifying. And it wasn't until I got insurance when I was in my probably 30s that I had surgery. And one of my knees had to be completely opened up and screwed together, stapled back together, lots of physical therapy, lots of horrible recovery. And the other one was done orthoscopically. Now, it seems that since that time, I went through a divorce and I was a single mom. And I didn't have a lot of time, didn't make a lot of time for myself or to exercise. And then in between my first marriage and my second marriage, when I got married the second time, I had time to exercise. And I did because if I didn't, then I would have gotten probably a lot bigger than I did then because I had the money to buy whatever I wanted anytime to eat. And then we traveled a lot. And like I said, I didn't cook, so we ate out. But after my awakening, I made a really big lifestyle change as far as sodas, alcohol, sugar, inorganic foods, processed foods. So I made some huge changes. So it's not like I don't sit around and eat, process foods or overeat. My issue is the lack of moving around. And it does have to do with my knees, my back, my physical problems that I have now that I believe that I'm working on and healing from probably past lives. I mean, it's really obvious when you're born with a knee thing, it's got to be from past lives. So a contract that I made that I've revocated. But really mainly working 10 to 12 hours a day sitting in front of a computer really doesn't leave a lot of time for yourself. So I'm really working on trying to make more time for myself. But the bottom line is that I love my body. And I love the way I am, just the way I am. And it will be nice to get some more exercise, especially when it warms up and I can get back in the pool because the pool has less stress on my joints. I might have a little bit of a hip issue that comes and goes, but mostly my knees and my back. And so when you carry a little extra weight, it's stressful on everything. So you're kind of in a catch 22. And I do realize that, but I'm perfectly fine with who I am and acknowledging that this is a vehicle. And I'm trying to do the very best I can in the situation that I'm in with my whole life and with my family's DNA. I'm very surprised that it hasn't gotten way worse than it could have if I just simply wouldn't exercise at all or if I would simply just eat whatever I wanted. Or if I was eating GMOs, what happens with GMOs is that your body knows it's toxic and also with the pesticides and chemtrails that fall on the food and are in the soil. But your body puts forth fat cells to protect you from that. So, you know, there's so many factors involved in, you know, being part of this matrix that is very uncompassionate to judge someone else for what they're going through. And that would be also, you know, your past lifetimes because everything's happening at the same time. Well, I think that my second husband was probably a king at one time and he had everything he could ever want. And that's how we used to live. And, of course, that didn't make me happy. But I'm sure that I also had, so I was with him when he was a king. I wasn't the queen. No, far from it. But I also had many lifetimes I know where I start to death. And so I always, you know, want to, I always find myself planning my next meal. And, you know, even if it's a really good meal, I just want to make sure that I have my organic food, that I have everything lined up. And that I also have an issue with blood sugar to where if I start getting my blood sugar gets low, if I don't eat, I get a little grumpy. So, of course, these are all things that can be fixed. And I just kind of live with it right now. But what I did really want to talk about is this perfection of your DNA and ascension. And that has nothing to do with your ascension is not going to happen because you're skinny. You're not just going to ascend and float up like a balloon. It could happen to skinny people, but not because of the way your physical body is. And I carry, my soul is a high vibrational soul. And I came into this body as a child with a different vibration than most other kids. And they didn't want to play with me. They didn't choose me to play in different games and things like that. And I just felt like an outsider. And that's because I carried a different vibration. And my body and my soul vibrate at two different levels. And eventually, what you really want to do is you do want to try to vibrate your physical body. It's a holistic view. You want to vibrate your physical body at a rate that can meet your soul's vibration. And also work with, it works with your body to be able to bring in more of your soul essence. So one of the things that I do is I bring in more of my soul's essence when I'm grounding to the planet. And I ground in that cosmic energy to the planet. And that's one of the exercises I do to try to help humanity ascend, wake up and ascend. So sometimes I feel like I need to have a bigger base, so to speak, to hold a lot of that light. And I know that may sound a little weird, but... And it's not really an excuse, it's such a thought, because I have no excuses. All I have is, you know, observations as to why this vehicle is like it is. It's me. It's who I am in a physical manifestation. So I think as we do work more on ourselves and connect and bring in more light, that light is going to keep shining on our DNA and lighting up the codons. And I think one time that I really stopped caring about worrying about dieting and more focusing on my inner self and my soul was in 2012, when I truly thought we had a chance at making a shift. And that would mean that we could have our DNA activated and that we would be able to create whatever physicality that we wanted. Which could mean we could grow our hair long, we could grow it short, we could have it green, we could have it blue. You know, we could change our eye color. We do have to work with the template involved in this DNA body. Or we could even bring in a template from another lifetime happening at the same time. So that's very interesting. But you have to keep in mind, you know, the compassion for other people. They're used to seeing you a certain way. It's really going to freak them out if you're at least not you. Even if you look 25 when you're actually 45, at least it's still you, right? So when that didn't happen, I knew that there was something kind of wrong. I really have always said that I felt like I didn't feel like 2012 was going to be the end or the end of the world or any major thing, but I did think it was going to spark sooner than now this DNA activation because I know that's what I'm here for. So secretly, I have to say that I've never really worried about my body that much, the size of my body and what other people think about me because I know that one day I will either leave this body or I will be free of it and go on back home to where I came from or I will transform this body and create whatever body I'd like. So it's just a body. It's just a vehicle. So it's very silly to look at other people and say, here she is not going to ascend because of the way they look and that includes skin color and race and all kinds of things, male or female, you know, anything. Also, I wanted to say that food actually serves me. And it does that because like sometimes when I'm on my radio show, I get very high vibrational and when I'm done, I literally feel uncomfortable because I am vibrating so high and I need to eat something to ground or I need to ground. And I could go out and hug a tree and that would just make me, you know, even more. I could probably pop out of my body. My job is to be in the body grounded. So I always eat something a little after a show. I've always found that potatoes, starchy things like pasta and bread have grounded me. And so it's like a double-edged sword, you know, because my soul is vibrating high and to stay in the body, I need to ground. And I don't know how or why that works, but it's always made me feel very comfortable. One of the best diets I ever did was that Atkins diet where you only eat meats and vegetables. You don't eat any carbs or sugar or anything like that. So I mean, that's horrible diet. I was eating, when I say best, I mean, that's when I lost the most weight, gained it all back. But I was eating meats and bacon and eggs and cheese and things like that. And that's not the way to live either. So yeah, so emotional eating. I also am very, you know, have used food very many times under a lot of stress to just calm myself down. And it does something with the brain and it sends forth some kind of calming aspect for me. So, you know, when it comes to being a breatharian, not having any food or having a love affair with food and being able to use it to calm myself and to do my job here, I have to say I would choose food over being a breatharian. Now, as far as a vegetarian, yes, eventually if it's going to take a while to get to this point where we ascend, I've already cut down on meat. I very rarely eat organic beef, but I do eat chicken and I only eat organic chicken. And every now and then go out to a restaurant. It's all in moderation for me. You know, the restaurant's not going to have anything organic. I had some lobster the other night, Wednesday night. And it did make me feel pretty heavy, but it did ground me. And it's all part of this experience for me. Secretly, I also have had many thoughts once I woke up that if this is my last lifetime here, I'm not going to sit and worry about not eating this or that except for the obvious things like the poisons. But more of blessing my food, raising its vibration, allowing myself to have a relationship with food and loving the food and allowing it to do what I need to be able to get by to do my job. Because I'm holding a lot of energy. So that's just where I'm at. And that's kind of like, you can see from past lives, you can see from my current life, you can see from emotional, I had a lot of emotional issues. Thank goodness I had food to make me feel better. Because, you know, when you're going through these things before you're awakened, it can be very horrible, you know. And if you don't have anybody to share experiences with or to help you move through those things, you got to use what you got, right? So, but I never really had, you know, a really lifelong issue. I would say that I'm pretty lucky so far that I don't weigh more than I do. But if I did, it wouldn't matter because I know what's coming. And I know it's not going to keep me from ascending because I know who I am. And I know that I've done my inner work. So, let's see what else I wanted to say. So, the person that made this comment surely didn't listen to the video because it did talk about what's most important right now is being in your heart and being compassionate and loving. And many people have said that as long as you're a loving person and you're compassionate and you're more than 51% in service to others rather than being service to self, that those people are going to make it, whether they're spiritually awakened or not, whether they're religious or not, their vibration does not have any boundaries. You know, vibration is what it is. You can't fake vibration. You can't say that you're doing everything by the book perfectly and judging other people. So, that's not doing it by the book in perfectly. No one in their heart would really do that to someone else. So, how do you deal with it? Well, you can do what I did. You can talk it out. You can let it flow through you. You can share your experience with other people. If there's one person out there thinking that I go and eat at McDonald's and Burger King every day and that I'm not going to ascend, well, I certainly need to talk to that person and perhaps other people that might have that judgmental view of things. But it's not that their thinking is wrong. It's just that it's not on the same level of understanding as mine and I don't understand why people who are in their heart, well, I just know that people that are in their heart wouldn't do that. But interestingly enough, this person, their last name, had Arian, A-R-Y-A-N, and that made me think, because it made me think of the Nazi Hitler-Nazi regime where they were trying to kill everyone that didn't have the perfect look. Of course, they weren't fat then because they didn't have any food at all. But we're talking blonde hair, blue-eye, white skin. So, it kind of makes me wonder if that's just a program carried over from when they're past lives. So, you know, I judge not because they don't know what they're saying or doing, but it's time to wake up. It's time to be the God source that we are. And that means being responsible for your own actions and being aware of what you're saying and doing to other people because whatever you put out comes back to you. So, I guess that's really, there's probably more I wanted to say, but I just want to give everyone hope that no matter what you look like, no matter if you can't afford organic food, as long as you love yourself and you do that inner work and you raise your vibration, your physical body is not completely indicative of your vibrational level. That's within yourself and your heart. And yes, while we're working to change within to have an external reality of what we call perfection, the thing is, is we're perfect just like we are because we're doing the best we can. And until we have more tools to work with, this is what we need to love. We need to love our physical body for giving us this vehicle to do this work in. And I do that. And so I'm very comfortable with that. I'm also very lucky to have a partner who does not ever, ever put any pressure on me to lose weight. And I would like to look good in a bathing suit. I would like to do, you know, have more energy to do things and I will, when the pool gets a little warmer, one of my favorite places to exercise and I do encourage everyone to go on this journey with me to exercise a little bit more. I do work on the computer a heck of a lot and it's no different than when I was in the corporate world and sat behind a computer all day long as well or in the car back and forth. So I do want to say that it was, I guess another reason why I felt like I needed to work through this is because I worked very, very hard on the conference. I mostly organized everything myself and I mostly created everything myself to go with the conference and then I had these beautiful volunteers that helped set up many things. But by the time I got up on stage to talk about this one particular interview and then my speech, I was exhausted physically and that's when you know, you know, hey, you need to get off your ass and work out a little bit more. I can do that. That's no big deal. But I gave it everything I had and so I hope that, and that's from my heart and it did have a very physical toll on me as well and being around other people was absolutely fabulous and the energy in the place was just healing and wonderful but it was physically and spiritually exhausting for me to be there for everyone and hold the space. So yeah, people sometimes, they don't realize the work that some of us do requires just a different vehicle, requires a different outlook and requires a different way of looking at things and while this may not work for you, I just want to share my information with you and let you know that if you are struggling or having a problem with your weight or with the way people think about you, my advice is don't give a shit about what other people say because they're clearly not understanding if anyone has the gumption to say anything about the way you look and that's about it. So I want to send my love to all of the large people, extra large people, medium people, small people and extra small people. I love you all and I thank you for listening to my video. Bye.