 Absolutely lovely. So great to be here. Yeah, it's really good to come back to Camus after about four months of traveling and here in our little library area we turned that into a little studio with lights and we have some live audience here. Yeah, I can show the live audience. Hi! In our little studio, this is our global library. It's into about four by four, five by five. And our blackboard there, I just noted the other day, we have one sentence written on the blackboard, teach only love, for that is what you are. I think that sentence has never changed since we moved in. I put it on there and it's just still shining. I don't even know how many years it's been. Everything is a blur, but it's right in front of us still. Five years, we're getting our cliff notes. It's good because that's very consistent. It was the thing that we felt inspired to look at and live by and it's still today. There's nothing really that's changing from that. Yeah. It's precious too because we just were out. I was just out with Kirsten before I married a mystic and I had to kind of read through the book, get the quick cliff notes to remind me because it was from late 2004 to 2007. And I think, oh my God, it's ancient. I have to refresh the parables and everything. And then we've had over the span of the last week or so, we've seen The Beatles and Snowden and people may think, well, what's the connection between The Beatles and Snowden? But we're just in this blissful state where these major lessons, the major lesson is just kind of echoing and resounding. It's beautiful. It's the end of the world as we've known it. It's the end of linear time and it's so glorious to live in that moment and savor it. And some of the highlights are, I guess from The Beatles movie, was faith and trust. You have to have faith in each other and have those that surround you, that have faith in you. And it really keeps pointing to this idea that it's one mind and that you draw forth reflections of that. Yeah, because The Beatles was very ahead of their time in their style, in their innovation, in music, in their inspiration really. Everything was really inspired. And people, even including their manager or producer, they really had to trust. They couldn't really understand. And using the reference point of their understanding of the music at the time and people's reflection of it, they couldn't really know what to judge. But with their trust into this group, the group actually lead the way to a new style of music or anything. And I feel that is exactly what we want to bring back to our mind. Our mind is, when we really think along with the Holy Spirit, our mind is ahead of this whole egoic game, is ahead of the time of space. And then when we come back to think along within the time of space and thinking, is that OK what I'm doing? Is that OK what I'm thinking? Is people going to be approved of this way of thinking and living? Then we're going backwards because there is no reference point for this egoic matrix, you know, time and space. We don't need to use this as the reference point. We need to look around and see are other people OK with what I'm doing? No, because you're leading the way. Because the way that we think are leading the way of this time and space, illusory matrix really. So we have to really have trust in that. And we have trust in going that we have trust in the people surrounding us that is going toward that. Then we're going to bring this support and trust upon us as well. So that's something very inspiring looking at Beatles. It's just happening. Francis and I went to see the Beatles here in Salt Lake City on the Broadway theater. And then I do remember us getting in there, being called away for a call with Europe while the previews were going on back in there. And then when the movie started, Francis was grabbing around in her purse to grab the Kleenex. And she basically was crying and bawling the entire movie. She had grown up in Beijing and really had not had an experience of the Beatles. And this movie, Ron Howard, is such a great movie maker. It was such a full-blown experience of the Beatles that it's almost like she was right there with the teenage girls that were screaming. Except she was just bawling. It was more intense, I think, than even what they were experiencing. You could see it on their faces. They were having an intense experience. Right now, we're just talking about it. Her eyes are bawling up. And then coming back here, and then I guess it was the next day, Francis just went into a full-blown mystical experience where she started to cut an apple, and then apple was so massive in her mind. She joined with the apple, and she couldn't cut the apple. Then she tried to cut a lemon. They had a little bit of something to drink, and she had merged with the lemon. She couldn't cut the lemon. She went into the all of all, the total bliss of total connectedness, the quantum field, the happy dream, the real world. What's so beautiful about it was she was just telling me a few minutes ago that for like two days she just stayed in bed and couldn't read things, couldn't watch videos, couldn't do anything that wasn't connected to God. Anything that was directly connected to God you could experience, but nothing else. I couldn't really even listen to music. The only thing, because I couldn't really do anything or really read or watch anything, the only thing I thought I could do was listen to something because my mind was awake and I couldn't sleep either. So the only thing that could really help or feel like a union for me to be in peace in that state was a Christian mystic talking about the direct experience of God and one is with God and how God is, you know, the Kingdom is within, the Heaven is within right here and right now, and that was the only thing that I could listen to for about two days. That's so beautiful. I've got John Lennon singing in my ear right now, whatever gets you through the night, it's all right, it's all right. Do it wrong or do it right, it's all right, it's all right. And you know, that's the funny thing because I woke up, when you were going through all that, I woke up in the middle of the night and I couldn't sleep either and I checked my phone and Francis is so sweet. She goes into a mystic experience and types out with her thumbs a little message to me on an email saying, I don't know if I'll be able to drive you to the airport tomorrow because I was coming out to pick up Kirsten and the reason I was going out to be with Kirsten because Kirsten had just been in a mystical experience and had called me several days before and she was overwhelmed and she wasn't sure how it would go with the tour so I answered one call and then to go out and support for mysticism and then Francis blows into the mystic too and she says, it's cute, I don't think I'll be able to take you but Sarah will be at your door at 8.45 so she signs off like, so she's gone too so I was like wow, this is good, everybody's going into the mystic and we'll just see what happens, I mean none of us even know and it was good because the morning came I went in and she was able to function and talk and drive a car and everything and I think she said Sarah's back had gone out and Sarah and Dionne doesn't have a driver's license so those are the only ones in the house so it was like she had to take me so we go there, she drops me off at the Salt Lake City Airport and I said thank you for coming back from the mystic just to get me to the airport so I can go support another mystic and she said being with you is like always being in a mystical experience and it's true because the feelings that I've been getting and I've been sharing in these kind of gatherings is that everything's involuntary so that's why you can have total peace right now because you really are not in conscious control of anything in this world it seems like you can be conscious of raising a hand or lowering a hand and it's just from an ego perspective but actually that's an illusion too the script has written it's all a prearranged plan and all you can do is behold it right now you can't change the plan you can't alter the plan I still have friends that have been in the Course of Miracles for years and it's still the hook of the egos still gets them when they read about for example a 90 year old man in Florida in Fort Lauderdale I got to send this thing today where he's 90 years old he's got a bunch of beloved people with him they're all into God and Jesus and helping people and Fort Lauderdale passed a law that you can be arrested if you feed the homeless and so they've been feeding the homeless and now the police came and they took this 90 year old man away and he said I'll keep at it I'll do whatever I can but these are my people and this is my calling and they now have an ordinance of law that says as you go to jail and it's like a $500 fine you go to jail or six months in jail if you feed the homeless and the police were feeling like they could hardly do their job he said I think they feel guilty ashamed to do their job to take me away but the 90 year old man he was so happy because this time the first time the police shut it all down and threw all the food in the garbage but this time they let the 90 year old man feed 100 people before they took him away to jail and the man was like thank you he was like thanking the police thank you that you let me feed my people well it's easy to get caught up and forget that this is a dream world that all those characters and all those images about what's going wrong and what's going right and who's in need and the haves and the have nots and morality and what's good and who's truthful and who's right and who's a liar and everything all of that's a fabrication all of it to keep you from this mystical experience where you're only in touch with God if you try to save the world as a human being if you try to save the whales if you try to save the planet if you try to save anything except the mind then you will be caught in guilt you will get caught into duality of right and wrong and even in the Course Jesus says the symbols of love seem to play out against the symbols of hate but how could there be symbols of love and symbols of hate if God didn't even create the symbols in the first place how can that have anything to do with God if God isn't a creator of form if God doesn't know about time and space so this experience that we're talking about means that you have to say goodbye like the Madonna song, the power of goodbye you have to say goodbye to judging the world as good or bad or right or wrong or this is better than that or comparing this with that or comparing teachings or comparing spiritual teachers or comparing even comparing metaphysics or comparing anything it's like let the name of God be your inheritance just if you're going to have one last word in your mind before you let go of all the words then the Course is just saying just let the name of God be the safe replacement for all the other billions and trillions and gajillions of thoughts and words and concepts just let that thought of God occupy your mind so fully that that's the last thought that you think and then let it all go and that's what that mystical experience reminds me of that this is our holy instant of release we don't have to buy in to anything of this world I mean there is no good and bad in truth there is no right or wrong in truth there is no this or that or here nor there there is no me and you there is no duality there is no mashgun feminine you know you could let go of all the spiritual spiritualized concepts too because anything that has to yin and yang no you have to let go of yin and yang there's no yin and yang going past even spiritualities and coming into an actual direct experience of God of oneness and to me the best quality of it is it's involuntary there's not some things that are voluntary and some things that are involuntary the experience of the miracle miracles are involuntary and should not be under conscious control Jesus says in the Course if you give yourself over to that your bliss your total bliss because you have no responsibility for the form of things you have no responsibility to uphold anything you don't have a responsibility to maintain an image but you do have a responsibility to accept the Atonement which is really to give that cosmic image back to the Holy Spirit and say listen I tried to play with this image like a rubik's cube like the movie Snowden we just watched he's always had the rubik's cube going I tried to do the rubik's cube with the world and it's not my salvation it's not my joy, it's not my happiness I bought a ticket to the were her herl but now I've come back again why do I find it hard to write the next line oh I want the truth to be said da da da da I know this much is true that's a very profound line I bought a ticket to the world I bought a ticket to duality I bought a ticket to perception but now I've come back again back to revelation back to the great rays back to joy, back to the intimacy the glee, back to God back to spirit why do I find it hard to write the next line because there is no next line that's why you find it hard to write the next line because there is no next line I placed the future in the hands of God I placed the next line in the hands of God and then it disappears and then you truly are clueless and carefree and cared for and then you are truly free of the world roles, false responsibilities duties causes issues if you can hear Jesus talking to you right now and I'm calling you out of this world of perception perception time will never content you you might as well give up now it will just save you this illusion of time and delay but you can give everything over to this experience you don't have to join a group you don't have to join a church you don't have to join a movement you just have to sink sink, sink, sink, sink deep into your mind into the Holy Instant it doesn't cost you anything there's no price for it there's no sacrifice required there's no price to pay this is everything so that's what I'm feeling as I've just been dancing around like Fred is staring here because I feel the joy in my heart is that it's all involuntary it's all involuntary and let's talk more about what that means I've been talking a lot recently about the Church of the Atonement Jesus is behind everything all I could think of when I was watching Ron Howard's Beatles movie is I smiled, I laughed, I cried and I thought Jesus, my God what a story Jesus was behind the Beatles think back to the Beatles think back to the early 60s anybody remember the early 60s if you were around then you know war protests racial conflicts a lot of the same things that actually are going on in 2016 but if you think back to those times nuclear test bombs being exploded back then it was going on and now Korea is doing it now it's really the same old thing rehashed now it's not a lot different from the early 60s but in comes this insertion of the Fab Four and they start singing these love songs they sing a lot of them I think Lennon and McCartney wrote almost 300 love songs or beautiful songs and it was an explosion of love and everybody felt it everybody felt it even in China eventually you felt it it was pretty well blocked it was a pretty good clout in the movie theater she got the full impact of that meteor of light hitting the planet and then I thought the same I was sitting there watching Snowden and Francis just watched the documentary that was made too about it but all I could think of with a smile on my face as I'm watching it all Jesus is behind all of this even that even whistleblowers even exposing like what we do in our expression sessions no private thoughts, no people pleasing at the global level that was like with countries involved and classified information and this guy and people scurrying to use computers but it was the same thing it was just a massive exposure and even that didn't matter because Jesus is behind all of it laughing, going there's no private thoughts and there's no people pleasing and there's no privacy I see it as like a global scale massive exposure age of exposure coming up because there is anything that is hidden doesn't feel it's natural anymore and it feels like so much effort to keep it hidden and it doesn't feel right and I think that's what behind his motive to reveal but yet what he is revealing you know underneath it is he's protecting individual privacy but that is still is not it like in the end there is no privacy that is really natural for us and the privacy is keeping us locked in this time and space and believe that what we believe about all of this and because of that you know everything there is right and wrong there is competition there is you know different races and fights and war but all of it is because of this belief in private minds and yet you know I think what he was trying to do is to expose some secret of the government and keep the individual secrecy trying to find good in the wrong mindedness still and I would just say that we cannot find any good in the wrong mindedness we cannot find right in the wrong mindedness you know the wrong mindedness is all wrong in the end equally wrong not because they are comparatively wronger or worse than anything else just because they are not created by God and they are not true so we can save our effort in trying to find something good in this time and space and protect that and fight for that really again I just feel Jesus is right here with us again Jesus what do you have to say about Snowden did you like the movie oh yeah such fun such joy seek not for your security in the ego seek not for your security in information and data and protecting data and information seek for your heavenly father in the kingdom of heaven within stop right now foolish games foolish pursuits stop and drop drop within your mind sink in your mind like all the great misses and sages have said over all the centuries drop into the stillness that is your home that is your safety that is your security security cannot be protected with encryption the security cannot be protected with such silly things and bombs and and missiles and defense spending be defenseless like I taught you be meek be as little children this is the way to find your security the security is in the mystical experience like Francis just had where she couldn't think say or do anything she could she had to listen to just the Christian mystics talking about God because God is all there is God is all in all give up these vain pursuits of trying to find meaning in idols in images of the world be free be free now amen amen thank you Jesus that's why he's laughing that's why he's laughing at Snowden that's why he's laughing at the Beatles eight days a week I love you eternity is not enough to show I care he can take any song that you have ever heard on the radio anything that's ever been written and sing you a love song like you've never heard before you ain't seen nothing yet when you look at the perception of this world because it's only the great rays the blazing lights of Christ's vision that will give you everything and so everyone's being called into this mystical experience leave behind your jobs leave behind your careers leave behind your families leave behind your possessions hold on to nothing dive into what is real and true what has always been there for you ever present at your command you can drop into it and have that full experience and go your way singing and rejoicing dancing around like Fred Astaire and Ginger Rogers why not dance like Fred Astaire and Ginger Rogers every day every day so your feet can barely touch the floor dance over on top of your couches don't sit in them dance on them dance on the top of your couches go to your roof I see Mexico living miracles Mexico go up with Lisa and dance on the roof dance on the roof don't let it just sit there and wait for some rain to come it's rare that rain comes at this time of year go dance there in the dance in the sunlight and be free this is what we're talking about there's no turning back there's no looking back and when the ego tries to come at you and says this is impractical this is so available I would have found it before this time for sure it's just trying to dissuade you from your joy, from your happiness whatever skills and abilities you have the Holy Spirit will use them to shine the light and you can count on that whether you can sing or not you will sing a happy song whether you can dance or not who cares just express break the ground every day allow yourself to break it don't look behind look at what has been done no, nothing has been done you are the one to break it to do it you're breaking the rules some of you heard this cable show breaking bad or something break good in bed break good in bed let that be your TV show break good in bed do you really think a God of oneness would have set up good and bad do you really think that could content your mind trying to sort out what's morally right and what's ethical right that's so much into behaviors which God didn't create bodies God doesn't create behaviors God doesn't have good behaviors and bad behaviors it's just this love and light that's our reality which is pure oneness that's what to focus your full mind on that's what we call non duality and don't just call non duality as some kind of category or philosophical camp and then go on with your mundane human lives oneness is actually something to be embraced and accepted as real and true it's not something to be talked about as some kind of philosophy or theology oh yeah I like non dual teachers go beyond the concept of teachers really I mean isn't it time you laid aside the concept of teachers too I mean really those are human beings that do what you know it's like if you go into the mystic all such things will seem so silly and funny to you and you will laugh at the idea that you ever could have even believed in such silliness in such ridiculousness you know let yourself have that experience and then let go of the idea that there's anything outside of you that's really what the mystical experience is you're just totally unified with God and oneness and you see that there is no external world and never has been and that's what happiness is about so no longer will you try adjusting to a lie as the angels told Resta you can live life without reacting and responding to the images without reacting and responding to the world because you rest in God and that's a workbook lesson sometimes people say do you have a favorite and I say no I don't really have favorites but I do know when I was doing the workbook lessons that when I got to that lesson I rest in God I just kept doing that lesson over and over day after day after day after day that like was calling me to drop and sink and I thought I'm staying with this one I stayed with I rest in God for many many days I didn't go on I wasn't interested in the next lesson I was going to go for an experience and that's what we really need to do we need to give ourselves over to that so this is fun isn't this an out of the blue session have we truly come out of the blue with you today out of the blue and the pink and the violet we've come out of we're out of color we've taken out of the blue show and we've gone out of color and I'm not talking black and white either that's more duality we are out of color we have transcended color in this moment this holy instant now some of you I think Sarah or somebody put out that you might have questions practical questions but in light of what I'm talking about really we are really practical Jesus is with us now and the Christ presence is here and you actually did receive some questions I did I think I might have answered all your questions but we at least could look at what came in wasn't there? something about divine providence was that Andy? Andy are you there Andy? I hope you're there Andy you're somewhere in my mind no? Andy Page P there's Andy jumping up no no not that Andy what's the name? PEJ if you're listening you'll see it on the replay like the Truman Show you'll see it on the best of them we're calling you anyway she's going to read Andy Page's I think this is Nicholas's friend were you on a video years ago with him? yeah you guys were on a video with me I think I remember that ancient years ago because they said Andy's Andy's only 22 and I said who do I know that's around that age? Nicholas he's my 22 year old mystic so anyway we're going to read a question from Andy because I think this question is something that some of you have been thinking also so that's why we're going to read it this is a question regarding Plan B's this year I decided to finally drop all pursuits and ambitions to only focus on my one true desire awakening it has been going great advancements but recently I have been getting non-stop reflections of Plan B's I'm 22 I live with my parents after losing interest in my business I did not know how to tell them I quit almost every day I get reflections of my belief in Plan B from my parents and extended family along with the belief in Plan B I also feel like a bum since I'm a bum since I'm not producing any income to help my parents while living for free at their house I think what I want to do is give them all my savings and move out so that I can learn divine providence I haven't received guidance for this specifically but more importantly I would like to cleanse my mind of all these beliefs feel free to speak on this topic feel guided that's so beautiful Andy well that sounds like the story of my parable but you're only 22 I lived at my parents house so I was 28 you're surely going to be out in divine providence before me you're ahead of me you're ahead of the game I was in there till 28 I was still going back and forth playing the university game and trying to learn stuff and get degrees and all this and this and then playing with my cat Mo which is short for Mohandas K. Gandhi and having a time of inward time like what do I want to do with my life I was doing that in my 20s in the parable of David and the course came to me I think when I was about 28 right about then but I was still taking the course and going down into my parents basement and reading and launching out into course groups and doing all kinds of fun stuff that was very inspired so we can't necessarily say anything that's good or bad or right or wrong about living at home because all this stuff about independence and being an independent person and everything that's all ego too people use all the symbols of the world I feel grateful that Jack and Evelyn had me there and actually Andy Jack said some of the same words he would say to me David you're a bum you're a bum get a job you're hearing the same words Andy it's so cool you're doing it at 22 oh man that's so fantastic you're six years ahead you are soaring there get a bum and mine was no good dirty rotten bum get a job that was pretty much the phrase and so really if you're just being called a bum that's kind of light but actually what happens was I have so much gratitude for them because they were like angels my cat was like an angel my parents were like an angel I have such gratitude for loving parents that let me go to university and experiment and read and pray and meditate in the basement and it got to be they were so respectful that I would be meditating for hours and the door would open the basement door Dave so we have some food and supper if you'd like to join us you can oh it was it was like angels it was spectacular really spectacular so really it's not so much that you have to give all your money to your parents walk out the door and say mom, dad, thank you I'll never see you again and I'm going out to be like peace pilgrim and walking around and to learn divine providence actually it starts with tuning in and with everything like if you have some money give the money to Jesus and the Holy Spirit immediately it's like it'll burn a hole in your pocket if you try to keep it as a person you'll still have guilt if you're trying to hold on to the money or give it away out of guilt just give the money immediately over to Jesus and the Holy Spirit and say this is your money now what would you have me do with your money I don't know the way to enlightenment and salvation but you do so be you in charge I give you this holy instant I give you the body I give you the money I give you everything go into prayer and ask if it is that you are to leave your parents but we never do leave anything behind when we have any kind of resistance to it I was just hearing about this movie what was it called Into the Wild I think Jeffrey was telling me about that and even though it was quite a journey a solo journey he had mighty companions angels showing up left and right that adored him to resistances where he had autonomy and independence and in the end surrender into love love is the only important thing that there is it's the only reality so you can do that too and don't feel concerned about the age of the body 22 because if you just surrender over to spirit and say spirit you guide and direct the way you will be told or you will have these feelings and if you don't feel anything and you don't hear anything call us up and talk to one of us because we'll join with you in prayer and where two or more are gathered in his name I am there so that presence of love is there to guide but that's a really good question I think everyone who's joined in today has had some doubts about economics or survival and Andy is asking a question for everyone like where am I withholding from trusting the Holy Spirit is there areas of my life like finances or sexuality or vocation or family relationships or whatever is there any of those areas or others that I have not given over to the Holy Spirit yet and that I'm holding on to believe that I know better and it's not like the Spirit will rip anything away from you if you give your relationship or relationships over the Holy Spirit those relationships will be blessed and purified by light and love and joy to shine the light of love and radiate that light of love nothing is taken away it's just that the specialness, the egoic specialness but that's all there's no loss involved only a purification of specialness but don't try to skip over and don't try to drop them on your own let the Holy Spirit help you drop them because if you try to drop them with the ego they're going to be like flypaper they're going nowhere but if the Holy Spirit washes them washes your mind and they start to fade away and you feel the lightness around them then they had an experience of love thank you Andy Page and thank you Andy and Mexico too we love you thank you for coming up after your name is called right, you came right to the camera you heard, is there an Andy and you answered the call immediately I saw myself going like this when I was just with the young hippies out in Topanga everything is involuntary everything is under Jesus' control everything is JC Central so I was using my hand to go JC Central, JC Central all group of us going like this as we're taking in the divine providence and letting go of thinking we're in control and they told me I do this thing with my hands too I'm unaware of this and I have to pay attention to all these happy mannerisms okay, do we have any more questions if we have any pressing questions and then we'll open it up for our live studio audience see if anything else jumps out of it I have another one from John thank you for hosting this time for us do you have any advice for one who struggles with deep seated resentments these are long standing repeated rehashing of events that cause great upset and this one in particular for someone who already understands what the Course is saying were not bodies and the seeming events were a false experience calling on the Holy Spirit so far had not been successful deep seated resentments well that reminds me again but I think in the parable of David the personality was very shy and reserved like a wallflower I stuffed things down I mumbled I swallowed words I would get comments back from employers even David swallows his words I was timid I was frightened I was embarrassed I was describing the egoic structure that the Holy Spirit and Jesus had to work with and also I think underneath all of that I had deep seated grievances and resentments that I was trying to even be kind of I guess you could say polite David was usually pretty polite but you know politeness only can go so far when you have deep seated resentments it's like you are sitting on a volcano and you may wear a polite mask it's like that very mentalist song that I like to sing you remind me I live in a shell safe from the past and doing okay but not very well no jolts and surprises no crisis arises my life goes as long as it should it's all very nice and of course the chorus is even better but I'm going to use the first part of the song today because I had resentments, deep seated guilt and anger and resentments you know what was under all that politeness and just kind of glazed over eyes and kind of going around like a shadow dancing in the world was I actually had a lot of rage I had a lot of rage underneath that huge amount of rage that was pushed down and pushed down and I spent all this energy that's why I was so tired I had fatigue at pushing rage out of awareness and we could even see that in Snowden as the movie Snowden as he goes along and he starts to discover these things he starts out very conservative very patriotic but then as he starts to discover all these things there are secrets and security is secrets and secrets secrets secrets everywhere he worked then he couldn't keep a secret anymore he started to feel like this rage coming up and it took and it played out as these seizures he got sick and I got sick too David seemed to get sick in the parable because I was sitting on a volcanic eruption of rage and I was trying to just not let it up I didn't want to disappoint the family disappoint the professors disappoint friends I wanted to be shy and quiet and polite and I didn't get in touch with the rage so in answer to your question when I started getting into the course when I started getting into relationships all that was buried came gushing up really pretty quickly and very intensely and it was such a thrust it was like when a volcanic explosion comes the lava just thrust up through the volcano and just spews out shoots sparks and lava and smoke all over her miles and miles and miles that's what happened to me too except I thought they're gonna lock me up if I erupt most of us have thought that about our rage that's why we don't let our rage up right we'll get locked up or first we'll get reprimanded by our parents and imagine what your spouse is gonna think if you let your rage up look for another fish in the sea you know I don't want a raging partner I'm sorry that's not my idea of romance you know so that's gonna happen so what I did was I was into the course and I was into prayer and I actually said to Jesus because Jesus was my teacher how am I gonna handle this I don't want to get locked up and I've got all this unconscious rage that's starting to come up and he said that's why we have hermitages I said oh tell me more about this hermitage option he said yeah so I had a hermitage in this beautiful little lake down in near Corinth, Kentucky Lake Arrowhead and I went off into a little travel trailer and I went with my Course in Miracles book off into hermitages there I did a hermitage in Michigan in the lower part of Michigan in Central Michigan Harrison Township I had a little hermitage there small little house in the woods I had a hermitage in Kansas I had a hermitage in North Dakota and I would also have hermitages when I would travel around I would go to state parks in the woods. Sound familiar? Have you ever heard of Buddha going off and leaving the palace? Where was he going? He went off into hermitage many times so actually that's how I handled this these deep-seated resentments because I could feel that they were just on top of the rage and the rage had to be allowed to come up and even in our monastery most of us here in the room have been to the monastery I asked Jesus one time about the monastery why do we have a Course in Miracles monastery and he said the rocks can handle your rage go out and take a walk in the canyon and rage all you wanted those big rocks, those cliffs the rocks will be so kind and gentle the rocks will not react and respond to your rage we've even got a little cave down there where you can even take a walk and if you through raging or you're a little embarrassed raging at the rocks go in the cave and rage in the cave you know there's nobody there are no eyes watching you won't even bother the animals go in the cage and rage you know that's the thing that's what you have to do so actually that's the answer I'm giving you is that if you pray change a way for you to let that up in a way that it can move through in a way that actually of course brings no harm to anyone in anything because the whole world is subjected anyway so you just perceive what you believe but you have to let go of that rage before you're going to find the happy dream so that's what I would do that's what I did and it was very helpful that's beautiful because it is very gentle you know like I keep hearing this recently this word desire you know the desire is is preceding everything you know the healing comes after our desire to heal to heal and the awareness of God comes after our desire to remember so in a way if I have this mixed result you know or mixed or confusion you know in terms of I don't hear or I'm not feeling clear or I don't have a result of healing then I can tell you let's work on our desire like go before the what to do part and whether I'm doing the right thing or the wrong thing go before that because if the desire is mixed then the doing part is going to be completely confusing because the doing part is going to be arranged according to the desire so here we have a small team that works every day using projects and interpersonal relationship and I guess outside of this little cocoon people are doing very much the similar thing in form working and to the best we can using the lessons that presented in our daily life to work through our minds but if forgiveness is not a consistent experience then you will find you started to find it's boring it's getting started to be going through the motions all the actions you do and the relationships that lose is meaning because nothing in this world really have any meaning in and of itself you very soon you will start to feel okay there's no meaning in this there's no vibration vibrancy in this there's no inspiration in this but really what happens is because there is nothing that is really popping in your mind that's really happening on a daily basis that allows the mind to keep going deeper so with this deep seeded resentment or with the question of with the plan B I would always feel like let's come back to our desire in the mind and be very very honest with ourselves we can be honest when we are alone there is no consequence to be honest there is only truth going to be revealed to you by welcoming it even if it is suppressed even to our own awareness we don't really know it for sure just by sincerely wanting it to be revealed to our minds and say I want to know do I really desire this and this is all that I desire if it is not strong enough because I know I also desire this I also desire that then let's just be very honest with it and ask the spirit to work with us with this multiple conflicting desires because the desire for God is really all the other desires are in conflict with the desire for God really so we just have to allow the spirit to work with us and I can guarantee you when the desire for forgiveness is beyond anything then the experience will come to you and the doing part and the how part will come to your awareness by you welcoming it so this is this is very very important and this is very very practical and as we are sitting here look at the lower right hand corner yeah, Andy's there is Andy we should know how how our tech is I think there is a little chat here too Eric will do it maybe you can read the chat for us yeah, Andy just thanks for answering my question David I was watching on Periscope okay thank you oh I love that how rapid it is Andy are you there, are you there through Periscope and this is the chat thank you Andy let us know how it goes okay and Eric's capable of letting questions and responses come through from our live audience and we have most everyone's alive Kirsten has gone off to La La Land but we have a mostly live audience here in Camus and all of you there and in Mexico our beloveds there in Mexico so if any, yeah we could field questions or comments or responses or maybe you want to say yes to the invitation the other thing too if you are saying well that sounds pretty good to really do what Andy has just said in his email I want to focus my full attention on this this awakening and this purpose and he brought up his plan B's and some of the doubt thoughts that were being reflected I should also mention that Kirsten and Suzanne and I are going to be out with others from the community for a week long sign of retreat that's coming up on the 30th of this month and I have been told that we're maxed out like 34 but actually the 49 acre monastery does not get maxed out I don't even believe in that concept so basically I've heard that our entire campground and trailers are unused so I don't mind if another 20 of you decide to come and join in I know that will be fun for everybody in our community they think they're maxed out but just come and bring some food and you can bring a tent or we'll get you in a trailer we're not even using our campground we're not even close to maxed out so we're just going to go into an experience so if it's 34 or it's 50 or whatever we're here our ovens are working now to do it and that's just one invitation but also like I said if you really just give yourself full permission you can drop into this and then as you drop into it of course the ego will put up its defense but what about this and just practice handing those what ifs and what about handing those over to the Holy Spirit because your mind there's only one of us so your mind is so powerful that it's literally moving the stars it's moving the planets if it's strong enough to move the planets don't think that those little doubt thoughts and those little protests have any chance of stopping you from reaching the Kingdom of Heaven you're moving the planets for God's sake you're moving the planets for God's sake and that's what you were just talking about go before them and that's exactly what I was trying to say not look at the world for reference is that allowing me to do this is this hand out so that I can do this are people approved of me to do this these are worthy more than that you're worth more than just looking at the world to see what is okay because the world is there to support you but it is for you for us to claim the strength and the certainty from within first then the world can reflect because the world cannot give us what we deny ourselves first so if we deny then we look out and then we keep having reflections okay, you're crazy you don't know what you're doing what about responsibilities in this world that's just the uncertainty in our own mind and we need to go back to our desire and trust the spirit and then claim that certainty because even talking about the retreat I just had this example came to my mind our friend, a messenger JP who first time seven years ago when he came to join us he also applied for a retreat and we were maxed out on the waiting list and I heard he was the number 10 on the waiting list 10 down and with 40 some people already confirmed so there was a very very slim chance that he will be able to come in but then right before the retreat he got a call he took a miracle for him to join but he got a call from Lisa who said well it's a miracle so he joined us and I guess he moved up 10, 9, 8, 7, 6 he moved up and he made it in and he's never left so it's just the power of your mind and your desire the desire is strong literally the mind is moving time and space to make room for what is truly important if the important thing in the mind is about other things then that's what we get but then we taste the hollowness and the dissatisfaction of that too so there is never a victim in this because we always get what we desire always yeah how sweet how sweet those two things will save you we always get what we desire and remember Jesus is in charge when he's having a good laugh with all of us we need to learn to laugh with him at this meaningless world and enjoy the symbols enjoy the symbols as they go from ego meaning into zero meaning and back into the kingdom of heaven we go so let's enjoy it as the world starts to fade and fall away why not have a party with Jesus why not really join with the Christ's mind and enjoy it as it falls away some of you have watched the movie the Truman Show raise your hand if you have seen the Truman Show at the end the memories he goes through the exit door you might also remember eternal sunshine of the spotless mind also with Jim Carrey at the end of that movie basically he's holding Kate Wenzel's hands trying to run through the mind and he's trying to protect her because he doesn't want to lose her and all his memories are being deleted and they finally get down to the last memory and she's on I think on a beach with him and she goes Joel, what are you going to do this is the last memory and he says enjoy it so it's the last memory deletion imagine all the memories all these false memories of time and space Jesus is swooping and cleaning and cleaning and erasing and evaporating all the memories of time and space to bring you back into eternity and you get down to your final memory and this final memory is with the Holy Spirit it's a happy dream you finally get down for all these other egoic memories to the happy dream and now you're watching the happy dream and you get this voice well, this is the last memory of this world enjoy it before it disappears just savour it enjoy the non-judged world enjoy the whole and complete world enjoy the beautiful world that the Holy Spirit has made for the mind and the awakening it says in the Course there is a maker, capital M of another world he's talking about the real world true perception is what he's talking about enjoy that one and why not enjoy it now why wait and delay the happy dream why not be more honest and look in your mind to say what do I value in this world more than the happy dream and more than eternity what is it that I'm holding onto is it some kind of a body concept is it some kind of a self-image concept is it friends is it family is it money is it possessions is it wanting to go on a spaceship and go into outer space maybe you're into mental phenomenon maybe you like astral projection and you've only projected yourself to three galaxies and you want to go to a hundred more galaxies with astral projection before you wake up don't do it it's not worth it it's time and space it's worth denying the real world and the happy dream and maybe we can talk a little bit about this book this PDF file of this book that I read 2150 AD by Thea Alexander I actually got into metaphysics years ago again like Andy I was at my parents house they had cable TV I was up in the middle of the night laying on the couch to death shipping through probably 80-90 cable stations board board board still wanting to maybe go to sleep and then I hit this channel and they were interviewing Thea Alexander about a book she'd written 2150 AD and maybe Francis and I can use this time to talk about Francis JP got her the PDF file maybe you can just share your impressions of the book and then it's as inspiring as it is in this talk we're actually saying you can actually even go beyond this kind of higher community that was experienced there the story is probably a fiction story about some futuristic society that is so transcended of the egoic mind which they call the micro-thinking is the equivalent of what we call the egoic mind that they live in this place of the macro society they call it it's very the thing is the principle that they use or they live with is called the macro philosophy and they say that the master macro philosophy is Jesus basically because the way they live is complete transparency with their mind not just with possessions definitely with possessions with relationships their relationships are not possessive not co-dependent not to be together to get something the relationship is really for a period of time for them to have a growth together if they are like co how to say supportive of the mutual growth in their expansion of awareness and then they will move on so relationship is highly collaborative and the thing is with their mind because their thoughts are completely transparent in terms of they allow all their thoughts to be received and to be given there is no holding back or no hiding so they pretty much live in telepathy because of there is no fear of hiding their thoughts so they could live in telepathy but also because everybody is very tuned in they can see everybody's aura as well so there is no mistaken of each others what do you call awareness or emotions because you talk about you wear your heart on a sleeve all your emotions show up in your aura so you can't it's like it's so advanced that there's no hiding how you feel and then if you can't hide how you feel you certainly can't hide how you think and so the auras everybody is proceeding auras so that's where all this is heading with no private thoughts and no people pleasing you so when this guy basically he got transmitted to this higher society in his dreams from 1976 where he lived and he was basically just get introduced to this society and their philosophy and looking back on where he lived in 1976 it's actually not much different than 2016 really but in terms of philosophy in terms of the thought system that we live by probably in terms of perceptions and how automated things are is different but in terms of the underlying philosophy it's really not much different but just they were reviewing all the philosophy of this day and age is actually absolutely ridiculous and there is no real one thing is more ridiculous than the other is all ridiculous because it's all based on this notion of we are separate and we can hide from each other and there is me and there is other and our action is not going to bring any kind of effect to us you know that is like ultimate forgetfulness is that what the cause is not is not from within and what I do have no consequence of you know this is also where the victim is going to start is ok someone else has caused me to have some kind of internal emotional state or upsets this is the game of this world the cause is outside is not here so they are just reviewing how we get educated how we get born even this nuclear family that we think is so natural it's so loving and it's so the basis and the foundation of this society is so right that is still advocate for the same thing so the nuclear family as most of us have experienced with mom and dad maybe brothers sisters is a projection of micro thinking it's a projection of the ego really these characters like Solaris you know how I show you the movie Solaris is just a projection of the thoughts that you have inhaled the biological family that you have been dealing with for all these years is a projection of ego thoughts and so basically your biological family if you heal if you forgive they can turn into happy reflections but if you don't do the inner work then they are just going to continue reflecting back these egoic grievances and thoughts and patterns that were there before the mind even there was a birth and a person that was in the mind so if you really started to you know the book touch upon something but if from that point you really look at everything we believe in this world you know country I'm born from a country you're born from a country and there is a country interest you know all these worlds and all this even the CIA or these movies it's about country interest what is that like really what is that advocate what is that based on what is that reflecting of is this micro system thought system that we are separate individuals and we need to get the most for ourselves and harm other people that there will be no consequence and that is absolutely ridiculous from the macro philosophy which we are one and connected and you know it's like there is no victim of anything so yeah just really give us a very good like leaping point really start to look at everything that we believe as real and we believe as natural we believe as what we should be doing what is right and wrong in this world that's why I was saying there is no right in the wrong minded thinking there's nothing you can't find anything that's truly right in the wrong minded thinking you know we can let go let the whole thing go it's a game if the ego right versus wrong in this world and even the idea that people persons have their own belief system that's a joke too that's all based on private minds private thoughts and wow Snowden Snowden if you are watching me from Russia from Moscow good job good start you made wow your last decade has been a great you know you've made great advances what's the partners name Lindsay you and Lindsay have been had a relationship and you've soared and you've let this epilepsy come up and you've let yourself face a lot of these things and you've done a great service by exposing these private thoughts in your mind now is when you've got to kind of take, I don't care whether you take a course of miracles, a beta, but onto just some non dual path that will take you down and show you the ridiculousness of private thoughts the ridiculousness of protecting information not that there's some that are doing it and some that are the victim of it come on we have to go beyond this the ego is still playing games with this information stuff who's got the information who controls things blame the government blame this racing around hiding as if there's people trying to get us it's a game it's made up a projected world with this game going on and at any time that you want you can stop and drop you know instead of drop your weapon it's stop and drop the belief in private thoughts and private minds, stop and drop that's what's going on that's the only escape there is no security in the world there are no defenses there is no encryption there is no servers that can be protected or invaded all this thing of countries and you know what the Chinese are doing and what the Russians are doing and what the Americans are doing and who's hacking into who and hacking into banking systems you know there was a there was a young Chinese back when he was maybe 16 he was a teenager and he developed this file sharing system where files could be shared freely from device to device computers all across the world some of you, I don't know if some of you ever remember Napster this is getting back into history remember Napster tried to put music for free for everybody on the internet and there was a big outrage by the community of artists and so on and so forth and they had one central server where they kept all the music and they shared it out with everybody in the world guess what they did they shut down the server but this Chinese boy invented a system where you could share device to device with no central monitoring system Holy Spirit Holy Spirit total 100% sharing no possessing can't be controlled the ego got to him he committed suicide but I'm using this example this young man from China because wow isn't that as much as the internet is a reflection of our connectedness free file sharing nothing can be classified nothing can be codified that'll scare the bhajibis out of the ego ego is that'll scare the bhajibis out of the ego because what can be shared what did we learn from Jesus and of course miracles only the thoughts of God can be shared only the thoughts of God can be shared private thoughts cannot be shared they don't even exist but they can't be shared and this world, the ego projection is the attempt to share the impossible to share fear to share doubt to share anger when you go to your partner you say let me get all the rage and anger off my chest and you blast the partner you're keeping it you're not getting it off your chest you are keeping it the only the thoughts of God can be shared that's the divine law so when you share love you experience love which is in the giving and the receiving are the same and when you share thoughts of God you experience yourself as you truly are and as everything truly is pure spirit so this is why we have a community that talks about no private thoughts and no people pleasing this is why we enjoyed the Beatles we enjoyed Snowden because of this deep, deep teaching and it's not a matter of whether the government's ready or the projection's it's your mind your own mind, the mind are you desiring the peace and happiness and freedom of God's love we are ready and we are ahead of this ego game in our mind and we have to be confident with it let's go, let's break the grounds and let's keep going forward without looking at anything for reference here because they're not a worthy reference they're going forward and that's the support we can give each other go forward, go forward don't look back, don't look left don't look right don't look up, don't look down and please this is in the Bible if you have to go back to the Old Testament don't look back or you'll turn into a pillar of salt remember that one some of those old movies how graphic that was don't look back don't look back to the past or you'll freeze into a self-concept that's what that meant don't look back or you'll turn into a pillar of salt just don't look back to the past or you'll freeze into an unreal self-concept that God didn't create and really doesn't even know anything about you become nothing you become a shadow a lost shadow if you look back you'll freeze into the past so what does that mean don't look back to the past that means you don't even have to be sentimental anymore you don't have to be nostalgic you can free your mind even from those nostalgic songs like Billy Joel's Piano Man looking back remember Paul McCartney's song yesterday love was such an easy game to play now I need a place to hide away oh I believe in yesterday listen that was a hit that was on the Ed Sullivan show when the Beatles first came he performed that that's the ego singing yesterday there's nothing great about yesterday people say what about your fond memories of the past I don't have any fond memories of the past it's like there's nothing attractive about the past at all it's like you don't have to go back and long for something what's some of those what was that Nielsen song I can't live it's living is without you I can't live I can't give come on now that is ridiculous that's the most codependent song you better turn that to God I can't live to God if living is without you now then you've got a song but please don't sing that to a partner my God if you think that you can't live without a body then you don't even know what life is you don't have a clue what life is and so we can probably come up with our all-time favorite sappy codependent love songs but just to have a good laugh at the ridiculousness of all of it and say that's enough of it we're not going to waste an instant we're not going to waste this holy instant on all those like things like something in the past something that we we need to go back to don't look back turn inward because there is a reference that is worthy of you and that is only within and every time we look outside it's basically denying this inner inner guide to say I mean this is not worthy I have this to look at I have this to satisfy this to please but no like turn your head to inward like ask in inner and that is really reflective of your desire how much do you ask how much do you really pause and withdraw all your reference from this and from that and say I only ask this and tell me this will reflect your desire and this will tell you how much you desire it and this will give you the clarity if you desire it fully okay wow thank you here's Dan getting a thumbs up from Arizona precious precious precious precious and thank you for joining from Europe as well because we have retreating Europe coming this weekend as well we have retreat coming here in the monastery with David Crescent and Suzanne and so like there are a lot of people in the port that you can join I see you Sonia, I see you, we've got a retreat coming up in a weekend in Portugal next June there's one in December there's one in December Algarve and then there's one coming up in there's one near Lisbon near Lisbon coming up in June 16th, 17th, 18th that's way off this next June 17 but I just want to say that thank you for joining and we are here we're together in this all of us all the way thank you thank you