 What's up everybody it's Chris from the Rewired Soul where we talk about the problem but focus on the solution and if you're new to my channel my channel is all about mental health so if you're into improving your mental and emotional well-being make sure you subscribe and ring that notification bell all right and for all of you loyal Rewired Soldiers out there you're like hey background looks a little bit different yes my beautiful girlfriend Tristan my son and I we are out of town for the holiday week all right so switching things up brought my camera so I can still provide you guys with some content but anyways let me jump into this I don't know how long this video will be so let's see so anyways this started out I noticed I was getting an influx of primink audience members coming over leaving me some hate comments and I was like huh that's weird so usually that means one of a few things one either primake made a new video about me uh two the algorithm is pushing his video out so a bunch of people are seeing it or three somebody else made a video about me and yeah just a bunch of people are starting to come over but anyways it ended up I think it's I think it's number two maybe the YouTube algorithm is showing him some love pushing his content out but anyways usually when this happens uh I'm just like curious and I search I'm like did anybody make a new video on the rewired soul let me see and even though I try not to watch them I just like to see what's going on um and I saw that leafy greens made a video three or four days ago and I was like uh oh what is this right but um I forgot the exact title but I said like an update about the rewired soul drama um and something about an apology I'm like okay I'll check it out it was about 30 minutes long I'll link her video down in the description below if you want to talk about it um the long and short of it uh she discussed being off her medications uh being pregnant just a lot of different factors and like it's it's such a great video and I highly recommend everybody go check it out um I'm actually gonna go check out some of her other recent content and see it but anyways I wanted to share some of my own personally experience with this talk a little bit about what's going on uh between her and I and the mental health community and the channel and everything like that but anyways uh the first thing is first thing's first like I never ever ever ever hated leafy greens there's not really anybody I hate at all but anyways I appreciate I appreciate her video I appreciate her you know her humility um being willing and open to discuss you know what a lot of us are like when we're off our meds and you know this is one of the reasons um you know I never hated her like I've made videos about this recently where you know when other people are affecting us you know to remember that we're dealing with sick people right like I'm sick I'm a very sick person which I'll talk about in a second uh but but yeah like um working in addiction treatment I worked with thousands of people who were you know suffering from the same or different sicknesses as me and some people you know it's a spiritual sickness whatever it is right so I do my best to try to empathize and understand that but obviously you know leafy greens has been very open and she has a channel about her own mental health journey and everything like that so like I'm like aware I'm like okay this isn't this doesn't mean she's a bad person right she has stuff going on like me like and watching her video it just reminds me of my my own issues right so something that's tricky for all of us in this mental health community mental health genre here on youtube it's not just even youtube mental health bloggers writers everything like that there's so many of us who are not licensed professionals talking about this and it has its pros and cons right like one of the reasons um I was good at my job at the rehab center was because I've been through it right not only have I had my own struggles with mental health issues and trauma uh and my addiction all that stuff but it gave me the ability to connect with people you know in the treatment center and now you guys my audience on that level of like listen I've been there and I get it right so that's one of the benefits but one of the drawbacks is we're not you know licensed professionals and that's something I'm currently pursuing and everything um you know like I'm almost done with my certified alcohol and drug counselor training my overall goal is to get a phd in psychology uh but that's that's a whole financial issue with uh because y'all know how expensive college is but anyways so all of us um who are mental health channels like we get into this conundrum right because we're showing from our own personal experience we show about a lot of stuff that we go through and we're not all the way well and um like first off when it comes to medications some of you have seen my videos you know I've made videos about being on my medication getting off my medication the process I go through with talking to my doctors and everything like that and I'm currently back on my medications I have been for a few months now but yeah when I'm off my medications I can act like a crazy person right like whenever I'm working with my doctor to wean off my medications one of the first things I do is I tell Tristan my girlfriend I say hey if I start acting different let me know all right because Leafy Greens did a great job talking about this in her video too like we're struggling with a problem up here so like when we're acting up it's hard for us to be self-aware about it right because our mind is convincing us that everything's justified so you know um Leafy Greens being back on her meds and even she talks about missing her meds the other day um it gave her some of that awareness right and we're able to sit back and be like whoa so I uh you know I was on my medications the whole time but like for me it's a combination of different things like yes I can act really different when I'm off my medications uh oh I'm not really going to be editing much so sorry about that that siren um but even though I wasn't off my medications that whole time like uh like Leafy Greens like any other mental health channel out there like I'm just another guy like I'm another guy going through my own struggles I have you know some more experience in my recovery than some people are just working in a treatment center um I'm a big nerd when it comes to mental health and psychology and philosophy and all these other things and I try to you know discuss the things I've learned on this channel and I try to learn from others I'll touch a touch on that again in a second too but anyways like one of the one of my biggest issues is my ego like in uh in recovery and a lot of 12-step programs some of you who are familiar with 12-step programs you know this like they talk about how when you're you're in the meeting outside you know your addiction is out there doing push-ups right so we always got to be aware whenever I hear that what I think of is my own ego my ego is my number one enemy my ego will lead me to a relapse my ego will lead me to being crazy on my own mental health channel all these things like my ego is my biggest problem and it's something that I'm constantly working on so I made that video a few weeks ago about like how I wasted the last six months of my life and a lot of it was just purely ego driven right like when when I'm getting attacked I get really defensive and I get obsessive right and that's where I was the last six months and like when I talk about obsessive like I'm not talking about just ruminating thoughts I'm talking like like I wanted to understand I started reading books on like crowd psychology mob mentality all sorts of like I wanted to understand why this happened what we could do to fix all these other things like that's how obsessive I get but I had this clarity and it wasn't from you know getting back on medications because I was taking those it was this kind of spiritual clarity like for me rather than getting off my medications I've discussed this many times before it's getting off of my my mental health journey track by doing all the things I'm supposed to do being the person I want to be acting the way I want to act or you know need to act you know not only for myself but to be an example for others and I completely botched that for six months and I've apologized to you guys the audience for a while so I can definitely relate to leafy greens and what she went through and I absolutely 1000% empathize with that so towards the end of her video she she apologizes to me and leafy greens if you watch this I love to comment on your video like reach out I'd love to talk in private but yeah like I apologize as well like the stuff that went on between her and I turned into this massive thing and like it was completely the opposite of why any of us do this like I didn't hop on YouTube and make a mental health channel to have all this drama and divide this mental health community you know what I mean but anyways in leafy greens video she she discusses how she still stands by you know some things she said in her original videos about me and everything like that she doesn't believe in it ethically and all that stuff and that's totally fine and like the way she said it too I can see this this change in growth in her that I'm I'm trying to pursue myself whereas kind of this awareness of we're not always going to agree on things right so like for example right now I'm reading this excellent book it's called Saving Normal and it's written by the author not the author but he headed the team that created DSM for right and I'm really learning a lot about the divides within even the psychiatric community and everything like that right and what I try to think about is our overall goal is to help people right and we all have we don't all have but a lot of us have different ways that we're going about it so like leafy greens and I or me and you know other people we might not agree on the methods right so when I got into my obsessive kind of trying to learn about everything and some of you know this like I really dove into moral psychology and moral philosophy I wanted to learn more about ethics and everything like that and I wanted to understand it now my motives with it if I'm just being completely honest is a pretty honest video I wanted to learn more about it so I could prove people wrong right I wanted to make videos talking about the subjectivity you know because a lot of times with morality and ethics are brought up a lot of it is presented as black and white a lot of it is gray you know what I mean and instead I'm just taking that in as my own personal knowledge I'll make content when I find it relevant to mental health but you know I I just realized that other people are going to have different views different opinions and this thing isn't as black and white and I think you know the best thing all of us can do is just sit down and have conversations about it you know and try to see both sides like this is something that I'm really really trying to do and I'm trying to figure out the best way to go about it because I I wouldn't be sitting here alive today if I wasn't open to criticism or suggestions like that's the only reason I'm alive today because I had to do that in my early sobriety so I have some things that I'm working on and just I'll let you guys know about them soon but uh yeah I'm pretty much going to put myself through the ringer and find a bunch of people who tell me things that I might not necessarily like to hear but you know I want to have conversations and just figure out how I can you know make videos the best way I can how to write you know my mental health blogs the best way I can and you know be empathetic and try to see all sides of the situation and everything like that so if leafy greens and I talk you know maybe we'll discuss you know these things but you know just real quick like one of the ways that I've learned I mentioned this in a video the other day but one of the best ways that I've learned is learning from others both mistakes and successes right like when I was in 12-step programs I learned from people's mistakes like their relapses as well as other people's successes like their years of sobriety or months of sobriety whatever it is I learned from others right I'm like how can I learn from this so one of the reasons I started to kind of switch my channel was like hey here's an example of some context maybe you relate to this youtuber let's see what we can learn from them right and you know I I never tried to be malicious or hurt anybody you know in my content sometimes you know uh that does happen though and I try to minimize that happening unless I'm just completely off my rocker which I have been and I've uh I've mentioned this before too and I talked about in my book I've reached out to any youtuber who has been hurt or offended by anything I've ever done or said you know to try to have a conversation um but yeah that's never my intention all right uh but anyways like I said like leafy greens and I might disagree on uh certain ways that we tackle mental health subjects um a great example is you know the the controversial diagnosis of borderline personality disorder I love educating myself about that and seeing all the different angles and sides of it and everything you know and this is something that she's made some great videos about you know and that's one of the ways I educate myself more is by hearing other people who have been diagnosed and you know choose to not accept it or choose to get another opinion and everything like that I also read a lot of books on it everything but at the end of the day we're all just trying to get on here I think our main goal is to educate people and to help people right to educate people help them understand what these mental health issues are like you know what's going on in the world how to and the other thing is to help uh to help right how to deal with it how to cope with it how to deal with a loved one who has mental health issues all these other things so those are two goals at least those are my two goals right and I'm really trying to focus on those two things because the last six months a lot of it was very self selfish self-centered egotistical gearing my channel towards different things like oh and you know screw cancel culture and all that stuff like that's not what my channel is about my channel is about helping all of you guys and I am trying to just connect dots and say what's the best way to teach people these things how do I combine education and entertainment because those are my favorite types of teachers right people who could teach me by taking situations that I could relate to people who can teach me things by um you know uh being a little entertaining and slipping and some humor and you know and all that kind of stuff and we all have different teaching styles we all have different ways that we learn and everything like that like uh some people like for example Dr. Todd Grande very smart well educated man you know obviously you know not only is he more educated than me but him and I have very different styles then you have somebody like Katie Morton right she has her own specific style right she's very bubbly and everything like that that's her style and there's a whole bunch of different people out there who are going to watch the content that resonates with them but I do you know I do hope that we can all you know just come together and try to help people as as much as possible but anyways again I appreciate Leafy Green's video um and seeing and hearing about her awesome journey and Leafy Greens if you're watching this congratulations on your beautiful beautiful little baby and yeah hopefully we could talk in uh in private sometime but anyways everybody uh yeah stay tuned even though I'm out of town I will be obviously making some content everything but yeah also follow me on Instagram and Twitter uh stay tuned I've been posting my Instagram stories and tweeting and all that other stuff you while staying in touch and you guys are always more than welcome to DM me if you have criticisms or you want to chat about something I've been answering a lot of my DMs lately I just talked to a uh a social worker student the other day we had a good conversation on Instagram and all that stuff so feel free to DM me anytime all right but anyways I've talked way way way too much have a great day if you're new make sure you subscribe ring the notification bell like this video all that other stuff I love you all so much I'll see you next time