 Hey everyone! So today I've been thinking a lot and a bunch of things happened which I might go into detail during this video. I might not, we'll see, but the main thing I wanted to talk to you about today is the potential of applied Aikido philosophy and a quick recap if you do not know. I've recently been kind of exposed to a rediscovery of an interest in Aikido philosophy and that was surprising to me myself didn't expect that to happen. I was just recording a video reflecting about the pros and cons of Aikido philosophy, what it's supposed to be and why I consider it on most levels fails to deliver and I surprisingly caught myself feeling like whoa actually you know what that philosophy that would really work sounds pretty cool and then I continued to explore it. I recorded a whole video about the idea to explore further the philosophy of Aikido and I realized I do still apply up to today a lot of what I learned or picked up in what Aikido philosophy is supposed to be. I think it did become a bit of an inherent part of me and I also recognized that I think I became very destructive after I left Aikido. You know I just wanted to tear it down and I think for a good reason I think that was even I I'd like to say that that was the right thing to do because I needed to reconstruct myself. I realized that a lot of my identity was built around external influences the way I was shaped by the Aikido community that I was a part of the way I was shaped by my former Aikido instructors. Part of that was me but also part of that was just picked up material which wasn't always very healthy wasn't always very good and I feel that there was a natural kind of direction to just tear it all down and deconstruct in a way to deconstruct myself and to see what's left. Obviously also to add new things but but first of all to kind of level things down and I think I succeeded to that to that rear there's always you know more space to evolve and to continue to learn but I think I yeah I did manage to deconstruct myself and start to build up myself again kind of from ground zero with some inherent qualities or some methods that were so ingrained in me that I found useful and I continued to use but that path was primarily destructive for a moment for a while I was very negative I was you know bashing Aikido to pieces and again I think it was for the good I think some people needed to hear what I had to say even if it came from a negative place but at that moment I also realized after a couple months of being at a direct war with some of the Aikido members across the globe like they were really heavily criticizing me online and I was hitting them back with some videos I also realized that's not really changing anything because we're kind of fighting on the same level and one of my favorite quotes from Einstein he said a prompt cannot be solved on the same level it was created which I think part of like your philosophies like that and so I kind of needed to shift my level to come from a different place from then from where they are coming from and I think I took a rather more I wouldn't say passive approach but definitely an approach where I wasn't directly confronting them I got tired of it but I just continued my journey and I thought you know what the people who will need to discover that information that journey will discover it and there were numerous individuals who reached out to me and said that you know that did happen so I'm very happy about that it did have positive influence but now I consider that I finished this the first cycle of my martial arts journey and I already recorded said that on record especially after I did the Aikido versus MMA rematch half a year ago where my transformation and evolution was evident I feel I discovered the initial questions and answers that I posed about my martial arts journey and I think that's why naturally kind of my inclination to continue to train martial arts started to decline to slow down not that I'm not interested in martial arts anymore but it's just I felt my interest wasn't there anymore because I didn't have those questions active question anymore and asked myself you know what's the next question and I realized I was always very much about creating positive influence a deep core belief for me which I keep repeating is I believe that we are a part of a greater whole you know on all levels and I'm not even like talking spiritual rules just we're all connected and I part I personally believe that it's our inherent responsibility to take care not only of ourselves but also of others now that is a very complicated thing to do because some people take advantage of that and it's easy to lose yourself in it and or make it into an ego trip where you want to become the savior so there's a lot of challenges there to go about if you want to really create positive impact then and those things are I'm actively exploring myself right now I'm actively trying to figure out what are the methodology what's the methodology of cult leaders what's the methodology of self-help gurus so I would avoid that by all means I do not want to go down that path of repeating the crap that those guys are putting out and wow I kind of went a bit on this in the tangent but and as always I don't want to make this video too long but it's an important self-reflection I guess but not being said coming back to the main subject yeah so I kind of went for a destructive path I deconstructed myself and I feel I am now ready to reconstruct myself I feel a natural draw to look for what I can create rather than I can destroy and not like create like you know oh look at me I created something new I think that's ridiculous that's not the way to go that's again a path of egocentriness arrogance but but just kind of to see where I can chip in you know where I can have positive influence by building something up and supporting something rather than tearing down and it doesn't mean the tearing down goes away you know sometimes you do need to be critical and take a look at something and say look man this is bullshit like come on you know but also there needs to be a balance in everything and I think that's how maturity looks you know when I won't speak too much about this I won't don't want to expand into too many subjects but I think that's initially when we get upset about something the first step the first step is to you know shed it away to kind of look at the negatives of it and later you know when you're ready you start to look at the positives and to see how actually can that be useful and you know I've been in the Akira world for about 15 years which is a significant amount of time especially since I'm 30 so half my life and now that I look back there were things which were useful to me and also when I look back I realized you know there was a reason why I felt an initial draw to Akira there was a promise in it which I wanted to achieve and embody and master I think I got some of it but but the methodology is still up to today believe it's it's it's flawed and that's why multiple people many people who who are inherently drawn to Akira for that reason to get that promise of becoming a peaceful warrior per se a warrior who is capable of violence but chooses peace instead and is able to confront himself and others in injustice and etc that promise is attractive to many but again people start training and training in regular schools and systems and they become a part of either occult mentality or a lack of critical thinking and you know they never get it but again I don't want to go too much god damn it anyway coming back to the main subject these are bells from cathedral center of city of bilnius so let's get back to the main question can I keto philosophy can I keep applied like your philosophy work would it work so I'm thinking about that for a while now or just like often often constantly I keep coming back to the idea and I'm still planning to explore that through the help of various people there are some individuals who are already helping me out high Linda and what came out from my explorations is that that I'm starting to see the more I look at it the more potential I see in it and it's also that this exploration happened in the current zeitgeist zeitgeist I don't know how to say in English the current spirit of the world or the times of the day where you know riots are so so prominent separation between people are so prominent and I feel that this perspective that I can offer could actually be of value and I mentioned one challenge is when you go into these idealistic paths it's easy to get lost in the rubu and the promise of it in the soft spiritual side of it and make it egocentric so I want to make sure I avoid all of that and it's tough path I want to make sure it's practical and I think one of the best ways to do that is initially to take a look at how does it work for you does it work for you if it works just once that doesn't say much does it work for you all the time consistently on a repeated basis that's kind of the scientific approach evidence based approach so that's the first step testing that out on my own and then if it works out really well then looking at okay so does it work for others as well so that's the next stage but but the first stage is I think it's super important because I think that's the self-help group the opposite is the self-help group path which I hate is dabbling around something looking that it's looking at it sounds good kind of worse and then starting to promote it and tell others to do it and that's like fucked up but I want to make sure it works on me and so now finally coming back to direct value what I discovered these bells are going for a long time damn anyway so coming back to my own discoveries I discovered and realized I was applying the some of that like you know philosophy already and in some of the conflicts I was exposed to I spoke about that in the previous video in this line of videos called the redistributing Aikido where even in the comments section sometimes when some nasty comment would pop up I would be able to not disassociate myself from that person not become enemies but take a look at at his perspective and to try to realize where he's coming from and and kind of discover a conversation and a transformative conversation where later on we would actually find some common ground so I spoke about that I don't want to say repeat myself too much again but I started to look at that at the present moment so is this working out for me right now can I apply it and and I'm enthusiastic to say that so far I'm getting quite good results now and the way I do it let me explain it to you so if I bump into a judgmental state which is not a big part of me I guess again from that Aikido perspective but you know judgmental states are common you know you hear about someone cheating on someone else you're about somebody doing something which is way off and then you want to say like oh nasty person this and that and again let's make it clear it's not about justifying that person or or saying that it's right what he did but if I catch myself in that in leading towards that judgmental state I stop myself and ask myself so wait wait so what about if I would come from his perspective you where is he coming from what might have made that person do that I do the same in some of the comments I still get today and it's tough man it's hard it's hard stuff to do that gosh something just fell a bird lost its food so it's really actually tough to do but if I am able to do it the conversation becomes so different the relationship with that person becomes so different suddenly there's a bridge where I can relate to that person I can emphasize with that person and then blend my own perspective with a potential understanding of better understanding of what that person might be going through and then have a conversation on a very different level or meet that person on a very different level because as I said in the previous video I don't want to put myself too much so I'll do my best not to do that if we disassociate ourselves from another person if we judge someone else and we're like oh he's bad period um it ruins the relationship there's no place for any union of opinions there's no place of communication there's no place for actual change or transformation it's it's dead all you're gonna have is the einstein situation which I already spoke about is the problem cannot be solved on the same level which was created so if you're meeting that person on the same level you're fucked you know you're not gonna get anywhere and also to something really important I want to stress here I was hiding here from the sun and some found me so we're gonna have to move but something really important I wanted to stress is this doesn't don't get me wrong this doesn't mean you agree with what the other person says it's a big misunderstanding many people think that if you if you understand where the other person is coming from and not and say okay I see what you mean people think you agree and that's one of the main reasons I find we avoid I find we avoid listening into what another person has to say or trying to understand always says because we think then then that then that will mean we agree without person another side of this is we're concerned that that person will think we agree and that way will support his perspective and make the situation worse so when we generally tend in my opinion we generally tend to that's why we tend to disassociate ourselves and become confrontational become against because then we're not allowing that opinion to fry but also we're not allowing any exchange either it's the downside to it and I've been in funny situations where I remember a very specific one was this really like cultish guy just at the beginning of when I opened my dojo he invited he wanted to meet up with me for coffee and he was back from Korea and he he was a part of a religion which believes that there's this Korean guy who is the new jesus and they had their famous or infamous for having mass weddings and there and a bunch of like weird stuff he told me one of the funniest parts was just very cultish I said so what about you know jesus had superpowers you know what about this guy and the cult guy said oh well he has superpowers the Korean guy has his superpowers but he doesn't want to show them because then scientists will realize he has superpowers and then they'll lock him down and you know they will you know make an experiment make experiments with him and I'm like but but you know most of the time he was talking he wasn't asking my opinion and I was just nodding because I was I you know I was like okay I see what you mean I see what you mean I'm like oh yeah it's like uh and it wasn't like it makes sense I was just like okay I can see what you mean okay okay so I was kind of nodding my head there and but after like an hour of him just talking in this monologue with me he said so now that I see that you agree with me are you interested to learn how to join our movement and I was like wait no dude I did not say even one word that I agree with you I was just nodding because I see what you mean but I don't agree with anything you said and he was like surprised and shocked because he he thought my nodding means yes so so we're not you know we're not going there but but my camera is running out of time so let me start so as you see it's a very complicated space to to go around and that's one of the reasons why you know I'm talking here in tangents but as well I wanted to make this on record since it's an active exploration and hopefully some of this is useful for you but uh to make sure it delivers value this this this solo conversation um let's get back to the main question you know it's does is what I applied like keto philosophy work so so far my inclination is to feel like it could it does I see the potential in it I see some of the effects it has on me and I'm quite happy with some of them some of some of the things which are happening I feel how my relationship to some people changes my my response changes becomes more potent and and creating active change without you know any forcing uh I do have to admit that some situations are still like whoa they're like you know tough cookies and in particular the one I was thinking a lot about today was my relationship with my previous like you know instructors I think I'll give you an interesting example which might better help you understand what I'm talking about again just to make so you know a few children get into an argument then probably not it's not going to be very constructive there's gonna scream at each other you know and kick each other and that's that's the end of it uh unless if we talk about children unless one of the children is more mature and kind of steps back and says you know what actually like like a bigger brother versus smaller younger brother you know the younger brother starts to starts to cry and the bigger brother says oh actually you know what I'm sorry dude that's my bad you know take the toy you know he kind of steps to a different level or says something else whatever that would be um if we take a mature adult and a child if a child does something bad a mature adult will understand you know this is just a child he does he doesn't have a clue what he's doing he relates to him he has that empathic empathetic uh relationship and he can go to him and say look understand you're hurt because you know I took away your toy but this is for the best and he searches for a way to communicate he talks with care because he understands the child is you know he's not mature enough he doesn't have the experience to understand what he's doing wrong and it's an adult uh it's it's an adult's uh responsibility to come from a different place of maturity and to understand where the child is coming from but also to talk to him you know and to take care of him an immature adult that happens too well you know will become we'll go to the same level with the child they're gonna scream at each other and you know and that's stupid that's not getting anyone this is in my opinion it's bad education you know the child says why can't I do this that the adult says because I told you so it's like okay if it's if a person if an adult becomes uh personally uh insulted you know by a child's by what a child says that's an immature adult he doesn't understand that it's a child he doesn't know what he's talking about but you know funny thing is what we don't realize often is that the same applies to adults adult versus adult um you know if you look at the other if there's a mature adult and a mature adult the mature adult looks at your person and understands you know what that other person has a lack of understanding he doesn't have the right education mentality and not I'm not talking about this in a patronizing way or or superiority way no actually you're you're emotionally you're with that person on the same level but but you also have the wisdom to look at that person and think okay well shoot you know he does not know what he does not know so how can I approach him then instead of the mistake we do with adults too often we we expect them to know better we're like you know this is obvious you're you're stupid this is obvious this is bad like why the hell are you still doing it what the hell are you telling me there's no transformation there but if I talk from a place which is mature if I come from that place there's there's a change so now the reason I'm saying this to you is because it's easy to do it's easier to do with children because you know it's more evident that they don't have the appropriate knowledge and you're the adult etc it's much more hard already to do that with adults because we expect them to know better but there's another level with some people it's still easier to do than with others and the difficulty happens when you think about people who have had direct impact on your life especially negative impact so for example a hurt a hurt relationship you know a breakup or a hurt relationship with a former mentor figure and out of respect for the different people you know I don't want to talk too much about them in detail but just to give you a hint I thought I went through this process of kind of I applied a keto philosophy in my mind with my ex-wife and not to say I don't have more internal work to do but I felt a change in how I feel about her not like me wanting to get back together I still see that the relationship was in my opinion toxic but but just as a human to human being that the personal stuff went to the second side and I look at that relationship then I feel like there's there's more space to care for her just as an individual you know whom add together a connection for years because beforehand there was a strong inclination to just really feel against your poser to make her into an enemy I did my best not to but a lot of mice a lot of me did and there was no there was not much space for care I did care on some level but on the surface there was more you know anger and negativity and now after I went through that process I was I'm going through that process I feel it wasn't easy but I feel you know it's my internal relationship with her changed uh the more tougher cookie is my relationship with my former IQ don't structures I actually still haven't released a video I spoke about my first relationship with my first IQ don't structure there was a lot of shit there which you don't know about I guess I've never spoke much about it I might release that video still a bit hesitant but you know a bit about my relationship with my former IQ don't structure I don't talk too much about it but I talk about it sometimes and that's like still a tough cookie and I try to go for the applied IQ don't approach with him in my mind you know and man oh man it's not easy I feel there's some breakthroughs but I feel the mind-resisting there's that fear which I spoke to you about before the fear that if I internal fear subconscious fear that if I will come to terms if I will kind of lose my negative direct negativity personal personally driven negativity towards my IQ don't structure that it will validate what he does or what he did and there's a strong desire not to do that I think a lot of things he did or is doing our dad and I don't want to support it and I don't want that thing to happen where I understand what he's coming from and that validates him so there's that internal fear but but I understand I also need to do this at least for myself and the crazy part is the reason I thought about it so much is one of my former students connected up with me today and he said he heard that my former IQ don't structure wants to talk once no he's waiting for me to reach out to and I don't know the details this is only hearsay but you know that to me personally that sounded very arrogant oh it sounds like it's to me there's an impression that it comes from that superior place of oh you know focus is lost and one day he'll understand what he did wrong and he'll come back to me I'm not sure if that's the case but it feels like it and my response to my former student was like look if my former IQ don't structure wants to connect up with me a mature person would do that directly he wouldn't be telling others he's waiting for me to connect up I think that's you know that's a bit douchebagry well one more sign that one more reason for me not to connect up with him myself and I thought about it like you know should I and I realized no I again I don't want to validate what he does and I'm concerned first of all I don't have anything to say to him aside from my criticism you know what I consider to be constructive feedback but it's made very well be like negative criticism negative feedback and I know from our past conversations he's not very welcoming for that but that's most of the stuff I have to say to him before anything positive would come out of that conversation and I don't think he wants you know to engage in such a conversation and or at least he didn't show any science he wants to I think as a mentor figure it would be mature for him you know to to be curious about such a thing he knows I feel strongly negative about anything he does so I think it would be mature for him to reach out and say look I guess maybe I don't agree with you but you know for it would make sense for him to do that acuto approach to reach out and say look maybe I'm not sure if you're right but I want to really understand if I did something wrong last conversation we had he didn't do such a good job but listening to what I had to say and that's where pretty much the conversation ended and he never there was never even one word afterwards about that anymore so there's no intention in me to reach out in first like there's no nothing I have to say to him unless he would be interested unless he would show interest and yeah I don't want to validate what he does um but I went on a tangent I guess but yeah but but I heard that my thought that that kind of I guess is out there and I started thinking a lot about you know my relationship with a kid instructor and I felt I realized that how negative I feel about that and negative I feel about him and I thought okay I'm exploring the applied acuto philosophy so this is a great opportunity let's do this and then I felt it's so hard but I still I did start to feel it's breaking down at certain places like I am able to crumble some of that negativity and not to validate him but like to come to a place where I go to a different level and I look at it and I feel like man okay you know what I personally consider he's he is misguided I personally consider he lives in a self-supporting environment which makes him believe he is right which does not help him point out his own flaws and I could talk and talk but I said I don't want to talk too much on record about what I think about him that's more between him and me but the reason I want to talk about this because I I'm sure that there's a lot of people who feel the same way like I did not about him but just about the same dynamic and I wanted to share that as I went through that applied acuto philosophy I started to feel it's hard it's very hard but there is somewhat of a glimpse that I can transform it internally again not to validate what he says but at least to remove that negativity from me that I want to say this in the best possible way but to look at it as a as an adult relating with a child to be like you know what man it's fucked up what he got himself into but it's not going to help if I will simply look at it and be like you know it's his douchebag he's a douchebag it's also not going to help if I'll go on an ego trip and try to be his savior and be like oh now I know the truth and now I know what you're doing wrong and let me you know tell you it's like that's one of the reasons again why I'm not going to write to him because if I would write to him being there I would go down that path to criticize him without an invitation but the internal process I feel it's important and one more thing I it's you know it's very honest but I guess I'm you know well known for my honesty um one more reason what made me really think about the subject was because when I was when my former student wrote to me and I started recording a message back to him about partly concerning my relationship my relationship with my former teacher I felt how many emotions how emotional I was as I was talking about him and this is not the first time it happened you know I I there's so much emotion there like now I'm talking to you like I'm okay mostly but there's some things which I still talk about and it's just like oh my god it's just there's stuff there which I haven't addressed which I haven't resolved and a lot of me does not want to look at it but the thing is for my own good it doesn't help because it's still there somewhere in the back of my mind it's still there I'm sure it's somewhere still bothering me and limiting me I don't care so much you know I don't care if I resolved anything with him directly it's not about that you know if it says he has his life I have my life we don't have to be buddies but internally I feel it's very important to do that to remove that heavy burden that heavy weight I think I'm getting a terrible video because I'm facing the sunlight well I'm about to finish so big talk huh you know not all of you are willing to listen to this whole talk but I think some this journey is universal and some of you might have value from it I also have value from it but these these are the things I am talking about and just I guess coming back and just saying a few last words about applied a keto philosophy again I will say I do see potential and I do say it's a very tough cookie just realistically to do you know it's so much easier to avoid doing this it's so much easier to blame someone to judge someone to avoid someone like a neighbor you don't like you know you wait until he goes down the stairs until you open up your door but it also limits your life because you have to wait until he goes down and so here applied a keto philosophy it's a tough cookie but also I like to say that rarely the right path is the easy path and the fact that this is hard to do actually shows promise more than the opposite the fact that it's hard to do shows that there might be something there which has realistic value but the danger is to not make itself help voovoo cult and that's a tough cookie to handle too I like I don't really actually like cookies it's about to say like cookies because I say cookies so much today so yeah let's see where this keeps going let me know in the comments what you think I'm curious to hear your comments also like to point out your comments do you mean a lot to me especially when they come from a sincere honest and curious place um I read your comments and they make me reflect about my own process I get insights sometimes which I haven't thought about I'm like oh clap now this is this is good shit you know I can learn from this and it makes me confront my own thoughts and re-establish myself in some way so comment don't hesitate I appreciate it and I think yeah it's time to go back home and this is not the end of the process and I'm trying to talk to many individuals about this because one of my preferred ways to gather information or self-reflect is as you see through conversations with myself or the camera and with other people so that's gonna happen it's gonna be fun not easy but fun so stay tuned and keep questioning and I'll see you later