 Hello everybody, welcome to my first vlog of 2024. What the hell? It feels like it was just 2020 and now knowing that that was four years ago is actually terrifying to think about. But anyway, I just finished my morning routine and I'm just getting back into things. I'm just trying to get back into the swing of going back to work and filming vlogs. I have a main channel video that I'm filming today which I haven't done since like honestly, probably mid December, it's been a while. So I'm just, I'm feeling good, I'm feeling refreshed. I had a nice little break. We actually ended up staying in Arizona until like the 29th or something like that. Maybe the 30th? Like we stayed a really, really long time and it was just needed. I canceled my birthday party. There was gonna be like 20 people that were gonna come over here for my birthday and there was just things going on and also I was just like, you know what? I wanna stay in Arizona and I just wanna have a chill, low-key birthday and that's what I did and it was great. We had an amazing New Year's. We celebrated with our friends, Josh and Noel and then we were promptly home by like 12, 10 and it's been great ever since. I've been trying to get back into like my joyful movement, exercise, fitness, whatever you wanna call it routine. And yeah, oh, I thrifted these things, these little things that I've hung up that are definitely not straight so don't look at them, it's fine. But I thrifted these when I was back in Arizona. I had to obviously and it goes so cute in here. Anyways, I thought for this vlog before I jump back into like the regular vlogs type of deal, I would sort of go over my 2024 goals with you, my resolutions, whatever you wanna call them and just do like a bit of a reset. I've seen quite a few people doing videos like these and honestly to me personally, they're very inspiring and they make me feel motivated and like encouraged and all that kind of good stuff but if these types of videos aren't for you, that's totally fine. You do not have to watch it. I know that for some people, resolutions can seem kind of like pointless or you already are happy with where you are in life and like same, but I just, I don't know. I am always really inspired by like self-improvement kind of stuff, I am a capricorn. So anyways, I thought we would sit down and like have a little chat. So let me pull out my chair here and we can just have like a nice little chit chat, you know, you are in fact, indeed sitting on top of a pile of clothes but we're gonna ignore that. I watched a few of these videos and I was like, you know what, yeah. Yeah, I'm feeling that. That feels inspiring and so yeah, if you are also on that kind of like new year bettering myself type of vibe, then maybe this will be inspiring to you and make you wanna do your own cause I was definitely inspired by other people to do this. So I'm already talking more than I have in weeks and I'm out of breath. So I am just like a person who loves a new year. I feel like it's a fresh start. It's like a fresh chapter. I don't ever wanna feel like I'm like completely abandoning the previous year's version of myself. I think it's just a nice practice of letting things go, leaving some things in the past and looking forward to the future. And something that I feel like people have done in the last couple of years specifically that I've seen is having a word of the year and last year my word of the year was balance. I really wanted to strike a balance between work and life and I do feel like I did a pretty good job of that. I will definitely roll that into this year as well. It's definitely something that I need to continue to work on but like I outsourced for a few different things. I hired management which helps me a lot with like, you know, brand deals, facilitating things like that, emails, et cetera. So I feel like I did a pretty good job and I was like sitting here thinking, okay, what would my word of 2024 be? I think I talked about this in like a vlogmas Q&A and I was kind of going back and forth between a few different things and what I actually decided I'm pivoting, what I actually decided I want my word for 2024 to be is prioritize. I want to prioritize myself in a lot of different areas of life and that to me is like the best umbrella word. So like prioritizing my health and putting myself first in like moving my body and advocating for myself in doctor's appointments and prioritizing myself in like social situations. A lot of times I put other people's needs way before my own and I'm just gonna try to like focus that on me this year. And yeah, we'll go into kind of some more details of all that kind of stuff, but yeah, just prioritizing myself. It's a concept I know but for me and you know, a lot of people I'm sure for people-pleasers it actually is a lot more difficult than it sounds. So that was my word I have written down a couple of things. That was my word for 2024 and I feel good about it. I haven't vision boarded it yet. If you missed my vlogmas Q&A here, I'll show you. I did make a vision board for 2023. This was my balance. You can see it right there balance for 2023 and I'm actually meeting up with my friend tomorrow night and we're gonna do the same thing for 2024. So I haven't like vision boarded it yet or anything but I'm feeling good about it. I'm feeling just like inspired and hopeful and ready to just take control of my life in some areas. You know what I mean? I don't know, I'm sure a lot of you can relate to that. Okay, so I've like broken down some of my resolutions or goals or whatever you wanna call it into different categories. I've seen quite a few other people do it like this and this is gonna be like in no particular order and not really any kind of like organized manner but we're just gonna go for it. So the first one that I wrote down was fitness slash health slash joyful movement goals. This is one of my biggest priorities. See priorities, prioritize. For 2024 is just like taking control of my life and my health and you know, I went to the doctor a lot this year. We'll talk about it but just feeling like I don't have a bajillion different health things going on that I need to worry about. So the first one that I said is that I wanna get stronger this year. I wanna be like a bad bitch. I wanna lift weights. I wanna like feel a lot stronger. I do feel like I don't have that much endurance at the moment. I have strong legs I guess but I want to just like get stronger. That's just something that like really is like inspiring me. Like I just wanna be really strong. I am trying to commit to moving my body almost every day just simply for me anyway. I found that that works best because I don't know if this is like my ADHD thing but like having a routine is just a lot easier. So I've noticed that for myself particularly having a routine where I just like know I'm gonna move my body every day. I know it's just gonna be like a quick 20 to 30 minutes is a lot easier than being like, okay, if I work out three to four times a week then which days am I gonna do it? And then like it's today gonna be the day that I do it. Maybe today is not gonna be the day that I do it. I don't really feel like doing it today. So I'm just gonna sit here and stress about it all day long and then not do it. And just like I don't wanna deal with that. My brain is a scary place. So for me it's easier to just be like every single morning it's part of your morning routine. You just do 20 to 30 minutes of movement whether that's like going outside for a walk or doing a quick workout video or whatever it may be. I just wanna do that every single day just because it makes me feel my best. I feel like I have just like a clear mental space in my head. It just makes things a little bit clearer and more pleasant up there. Speaking of my health issues this year I really wanna take control of my SIBO. I'm taking like a natural supplement at the moment that's supposed to help and I'm gonna give it probably like a month or so and see how that goes. Today is actually the first day that I'm starting that. I kind of started it and then I forgot about it. So I'm trying to be like more diligent and start that today. I would really, really love to make a video like this at this point next year and be like, yeah I do feel like my SIBO is much better or in fact to like completely under control, whatever. I know it's gonna be something that I deal with but yeah I would really, really like to feel like I have a little bit more of a grip on that because it is miserable. It's not fun, it's uncomfortable, it's unpleasant and I'm tired of having gas all the time let's be honest. I would love to get my ear issues under control, my station tube dysfunction whether that means like getting tubes in my ears whether that means just feeling like I'm in a better place with that, that would be great. I also would love for this to be the year where I finally get some sort of direction in like figuring out what's going on with my menstrual issues. They've been a problem in my life since I was like 15 years old is probably when I really noticed things getting kind of gnarly. So it's been 20 years of this and I'm tired. I'm really tired and yeah I'll open up more about that in the future if and when the time comes but I would really, really love for this time next year to just feel like I took control of my health and really prioritized my health and just felt a lot better overall, physically. Okay the next category I have is home because this year my lease is up so I have no idea what we're doing. We don't know if we're gonna stay in this apartment. We don't know if we're gonna move somewhere else in LA or if we're gonna move to the valley or if we're gonna move to Orange County. Like we truly have no idea but we do know for sure that we're gonna stay in Southern California. We are leaning more towards just staying in this apartment but it's insanely expensive and it's just gonna go up and in fact it was at the tippy top of our budget last year then our landlord raised our rent so now it's even more and now he's gonna raise it again and it's just like, it's just, it's insane. So I don't know, I would love to feel like I have some sort of like answer and I would love to stay in a place for several years. Like this place would totally work for that but it's just the price, you know what I mean? And so we'll see about that but that is definitely a thing that is in the back of my mind for this year is like, hmm, are we moving? That might possibly be a thing that we need to look at and sort of figure out. Another thing is making my bed daily. I am gonna be so honest. I have never been making the bed girly. I have never really made my bed ever except in childhood when I had to when I lived at my parents' house or whatever but I don't think I've made my bed regularly ever. I've heard people say that it just like puts you in a better mental state and for me, I was just kind of like, I don't see the point. Like I'm the only one seeing it, blah, blah, blah. But I've been doing it for about like a week or so now and I actually do feel like it's nice, you know? My room is much more put together. It just kind of, I don't know, it's one of those things you just like check a box, right? Like you're like, okay, that's done for the day and it just kind of feels better overall. And it's just a way to take care of yourself and your space. So I'm trying it out. We'll see what ends up happening but so far we're like a weekend and I think I've made my bed every single day. I mean, Drew does sometimes too but this is more like a me thing. Like I'm just like, I wanna do this. So we'll see. We'll see next year if I keep up with that. My two other things on this home list is cleaning my apartment more frequently. Whether that needs to be like outsourcing, hiring someone to come in like once a month and deep clean this place or whatever it may be, just to like free up mental space, to free up mental space, to free up mental clutter. It just stresses me out when I don't have a clean space. And a lot of times I feel really like overwhelmed and too mentally busy to clean. And so then it just gets put off and then it stresses me out more. So maybe like having someone that's able to do that would help, but I also just feel like I can just do it myself. So I don't know, we'll see about that but just like making it more of a priority to clean my actual apartment. And then also leaving less dirty dishes in the sink. I am so bad about this. Like I will just like rinse a spoon and then just leave it in the sink. When the fricking dishwasher is right there, like I have no excuse. It's not like I have to hand wash it later or anything like that. Like I can just throw it right and I just don't. It's become a problem. Both Drew and I actually have gotten really bad at that. So having some sort of system where like as soon as I'm done with dishes, putting them in the dishwasher would be really cool. Okay, next we have some personal goals. This video is already so long, but it's just, this is going to be a chatty one. You know what I mean? What I have written down is that I want to be more sure of myself. I just want to like have that self-assuredness that I see so many people have. And I do feel like it definitely is improving the older I get, but I just want to have more of it. I just want to be like, no, this is who I am and this is how it is. And like just be so sure of myself. I would like to be more confident just overall. I would like to be able to walk into a room and just feel like I have my head held high and I just know who I am. And I'm not going to be like, oh, it's okay if you don't like me. No worries, no worries. Like just be like, yeah, some people are for me. Some people aren't for me. And that's literally that. So being more confident is a huge one. Being more assertive, I'm not very good at that at all. Like I have a real problem with being assertive and I'm sure it boils down to being a people pleaser. I do feel like in some situations I have no problem like popping off. But then in other situations I feel just like, if that's okay with you, no worries, if not, but like just kind of being more comfortable being more direct. Feeling more comfortable advocating for myself was one. That's kind of something that I mentioned before, especially in like medical situations. This is probably one of the biggest ones. This one says stop questioning every single thing I say after any social interaction. Oh my God. I have made it an Olympic sport to like sit in a spiral after every single social interaction and analyze every single thing I said. Think about everything that I could have done wrong. Review every single conversation and be like where did I go? Did I cut that person off? Was I supportive enough? Did I say X, Y, and Z correctly? And I think a lot of this comes from a place of like in the past I have had friendships where people didn't speak up and tell me how they were feeling about me in the moment. And then I found out after the fact that they like were talking behind my back or didn't like me or whatever. And it just made me go inward and question every single thing I ever, ever said or did and be like where did I go wrong? Like what happened? And so that's something that I definitely need to work on but like, oh my God, it is so exhausting questioning every single thing you do or say after you hang out with someone and I have got to stop doing that. And then the last part for my personal goals was feeling more comfortable saying no without guilt, without feeling guilt. I mean, fingers crossed for me on this one but I just like I feel like I need to give so many different like contexts and explanations and I over-explained why I'm saying no instead of just being like, no I can't. I'm trying to get better about that and like not feel the need to over-explain but yeah, I would really love to continue working on that. Like if I don't wanna do something, I'm not gonna do it. Okay, for reading, I have a goal, maybe possibly of reading 20 books this year. I don't know, that feels like a lot. I think I read like 12 or 13 last year. I am much more of a read for 20 minutes before I go to bed type of person, this construction. I'm so sorry, we're just gonna have to ignore it. Anyway, I'll try to talk loudly over that. I'm much more of like a read 20 minutes before I go to bed type of person. I don't really like spend my weekends reading. It's just like not, I don't know, I just like enjoy it as a way to relax and unwind before I go to bed. So I'm not reading as much as like the average person and I know that like a lot of people I see are like my goal is to read 60 books, my goal is to read 100 books and good for you babe, like if that's your thing, amazing. I love reading, I think it's so relaxing. But I think for me, yeah, like a manageable goal would be 20 but it may be less than that. It's honestly not that deep. I have some financial goals for myself. I don't wanna like obviously put them all on blast but I would love to have like an even better year. Like I would love to just continue having better years on the trajectory of my business, right? I would also love to continue to invest in things like my retirement, in stocks, things like that but also be more intentional about saving this year. I would love to really have, you know, money set aside for like, I mean, God, in this market who knows but like a house someday maybe or just having like a good chunk of change set aside for saving. I've never been good at like intentionally saving. So maybe just like buffing up, building up my savings a little bit more would be great. I would like to gain more financial literacy this year. I do feel like over the last few years I've gotten a lot better at that because I work with like an accountant and a financial planner and all that kind of stuff but I tend to spiral every time I speak with one of them because I don't know what's going on. I feel really confused. I feel really stupid that I don't know what they're talking about and I'm just like, what is happening? And it feels really scary for some reason. So I would love to get more financially literate. That would be really great. And then also just feel more comfortable and like confident when I'm speaking to these people in my life about money because it causes me a lot of stress and anxiety. I'm like, what does this mean? Anytime I interact with like a financial professional I feel like I'm eight years old. Like I genuinely feel like a infant child. And I'm like, I don't, can you please explain this to me like I'm five because I don't understand. So maybe like putting in some more work and learning some more will help me with stress in that department. So that would be, I would love to get to this point next year and be like, yeah, I do feel like I've gotten there. And my last category is YouTube slash social media. So I would love to have a consistent posting schedule on both of my channels this year. And maybe this will be the year that I can finally feel, I do feel like I definitely got there a little bit last year but I want to feel just so comfortable and like sure of the direction that I'm going in like both of my channels whether that be like, you know, feeling like I have a set posting schedule and I'm comfortable with that. Like I'm always just questioning like, ah, what do I do with this one? What do I do with this one? Do I get rid of this one? Do I get rid of that one? I just want to feel like so confident in where I'm going with that. So having like a consistent posting schedule, obviously growth expansion for both of my channels would be amazing. I would love to continue to just tap into my own creative well when I'm looking for what to make on YouTube. Cause I think sometimes you can really fall into the trap of like the trends and what everyone else is doing and being inspired by other people is amazing. And I will always do that. But sometimes I feel like I'm, we're all making the same videos over and over and over again. So like trying to tap into my own creative well would be really amazing. And then lastly is just doing what I want to do instead of what I feel pressured to do because that's what everyone else wants or whatever it may be. Like for example, I stopped doing review videos on my main channel, my sort of like trying anti-chafing shorts, trying strapless bras, et cetera, because I was genuinely trying to help but people would get so unbelievably angry because I didn't think to do X, Y, and Z. I didn't think to do this particular thing. And like genuinely, I don't know, I'm just figuring it out. And they're like, you're a professional. This is your job. You are so lazy and entitled and like the least you could do. And it was just, it was like so insane that I just decided I don't want to do this anymore because people, it gets great views and great, fantastic, happy for the people who do it. But I just like, it doesn't make me happy. And so I just want to make the things that I want to make and not would just like other people expect me to make or whatever. So I just kind of like, I stopped doing that. That's an example, but I want to continue doing that this year. And then finally, I would love to maybe find an editor for real. I just haven't found someone that I feel like is the perfect fit that fully gets me and like my vibe and where I'm trying to go with it. So maybe that'll happen in 2024. That would be really, really great for like either channel, honestly, or both would be fantastic as well. But if it's me watching this video in like December of this year or January of next year, you know, how's it going? How are things? Do you still live in this apartment? What's going on in your life? How many books did you read this year? Did you prioritize yourself and your health? All these other things that you mentioned, do you still have all the same friends? You know, all the hard hitting questions. So maybe we'll have to answer this in a future video. But yeah, I have talked enough. Oh my God, I have said so much, but I just kind of felt like sitting down and chatting about this. So hopefully you enjoy it and it will be something that you can use in your own life and maybe have you make your own list of things that you want to do. And if not, at the very least, hopefully you just enjoyed it. Maybe you put it on while you were folding your laundry or doing dishes or cleaning your house or sitting on the couch or whatever. Thank you so much for watching. I'm so excited for 2024. I don't know what it is about this year. It just feels like it's gonna be a good one. It feels like it's gonna be a really good one for a lot of us. So fingers crossed. Because 2023 had some amazing moments but like some really low moments as well. So I would love for this to just be much more of like a chill vibe. So we'll see. Anyway, that's gonna do it for me today. I have to tackle this entire pile of clothes. I don't want to talk about it. I have so so much to do. I have a lot of main channel stuff to film. It's only 10 30 in the morning. So I'm feeling accomplished. But the next video you see will just be me getting back into my regular vlogs. And I'm just gonna like kind of play around with it this year and see what I feel like I want to do. Like if I want to mix in some other videos like this in my vlogs or what I want to do. So we'll figure that out. But thank you so much for watching this vlog. And I will see you very soon for more 2024 vlogs. I can't believe it. Bye.