 the mind like you had concerns about money and scarcity and so forth and those always play out in the world in terms of some kind of confrontation or some kind of like you're not playing by the rules and it's like if you withdraw money from a certificate or deposit or something you have to pay interest for early withdrawal penalties and but that all played out and also the structure thing because I think all of us know that that as you go through this spiritual journey there's a certain amount of inner discipline and that is required you know if your mind's been judging judging judging it's got the bad habit of judging judging judging and now you're going to try to withdraw your mind from this bad habit it seems to take a discipline whether it's of course in miracles look workbook lessons or meditation practices or tai chi yoga could be you know one of hundreds of things just studying even studying books there's just many pathways so so it was almost like there's a sense of inner discipline that's required and they were reflecting that and saying you have to choose a path you have to follow the rules you have to have special clothes the men dressed a certain way the women dressed a certain way they had a group of men that were there that apparently had devoted their life and so there was not supposed to be a woman in their presence so when she was out taking a walk you know they would she would be steered away as if like it could you know just the same as really all organized religion yeah just another and we could spend a lot of time investigating and delving into it but there is so many of these organized religions that this is the thing that actually makes us share in common that we're not interested in organized religion we're interested in actually uncovering our own inner wisdom and relationship yes so we could even say that that organized religion just the terms or contradiction in terms or we call it oxymoron they negate each other organized religion the religion's a spontaneous joyful experience of love in the present moment an organization is always of the ego and admittedly that there are many steps just like an alcoholic doesn't necessarily always have a spontaneous experience of God they go through torturous life of addiction and then they maybe come to a 12-step program and those 12 steps turn out to be very helpful because it brings a little bit of structure into a very chaotic mind that needs a few steps so yeah I think and too the in the story the whole thing was it's not about anything that anybody's done wrong and it's certainly not about putting down places or people or religions in any way but it's just it's a walk of trust we have to become more trusting in our own intuition which is there as the answer it's always the answer is never is in a formula or it's never in a book or a person or a place and you know we've we've all searched a lot of us in many different ways including I mean I think a lot of traditional religions talk about going off and spending time alone or in silence so a lot of the mystics and saints would go off to caves and into the woods to just be with themselves and be with their thoughts and certainly of course the miracles is a path that even incorporates relationships and says no your relationships are mirrors of what's going on in your mind and you can use that too so you don't have to avoid relationships or you don't have to avoid anything really in this world that anything can be used by the spirit and so that adds a much more of a sense of flexibility in terms of how your path goes instead of thinking I have to get away from these things or be around those things more be around like-minded people that's even could be a step but then where do you draw the line between the like-minded people and the unlike-minded people you know you always end up dividing something back to those old we and they or kind of things yeah it's all I was I met a woman recently in Sweden and she I could tell she had some tears and she had an emotion and she only her arm was was she was born with only like a stub here and she told me that she came outside of the session room and she just was standing next to me talking and telling me that she can remember anger at God for the situation with the arm dating back to when she was like a year or a year and a half old just this fury and she'd been blaming God for the circumstances like how could you do that how could you have me be in this world with with this condition with my arm and I'd been just discussing that that really the ego is the state of mind that's prior to coming to this world so even in reincarnation systems it's like you're kind of a soul that incarnates and comes into the world and to a to a certain set of parents and a country and a culture and so forth and what Jesus is saying in the course in the workbook is he says when you came to this world you brought the world with you in other words it's much more like quantum physics is describing now that it's almost like an imaginary world it's made up entirely out of fantasies and beliefs and you can't point a finger at a culture at a parent not even at a planet and say why did earth you know corrupt my little soul you know I just came here as a happy little soul and then the earth corrupted it you can't even point point at a planet and say I'm a victim of the planet because it's a sense that the ego is a belief in separation and then the entire environment that you seem to surround yourself with including the body a body with one arm is all based on ego decisions prior to even seeming to come here they're all predestined and it's that's where you get into deeper concepts like the script like all of history is like in a linear metaphor is like a script and it's already predestined and it's already prearranged and and the ego wrote it the ego projected out the whole script of history and all you really have a choice on is another way of looking at it because it's really not even linear it's I think simultaneous would be a better way than people talk about parallel universes and parallel lives those are all great witnesses that it's really all happening simultaneously and it's only the ego mind that picks out a little slice of it in a little like a spaghetti string and says oh this is my lifetime or past life regression when you seem to go through past life regressions it's just still little clips like little synopsis of memories of this linear world which is by definition an illusion and that that we need to open up to a new way of looking where we can see it more in its simultaneous state instead of seeing it in its linear state where I always say just take the string of spaghetti and turn it on its side and you go from a line to a point you come back to a present a way of seeing it in the present moment which frees it from all of its guilt and shame and hurt just brings it all back so yeah it's like uh those are the things we work on in a practical way like when Jenny's talked about at times she'll say she's she's very hard on herself and she'll tell me about a decision she she made yesterday when she did not follow her guidance and then all the consequences that came and then all this guilt and anger and whatever based on on not following her guidance she's talking about what happened the day before I say well it's the same process you're still doing the same thing some people do it with their childhood some people do it you know with their last relationship and some people do it with the day before and they're really hard the book and I haven't read the book in any great depth I've begun the book and I find it it's a it's a book that you really want to invest in and does it actually um talk about the fact that a you know we create our own reality and be everything as exactly as it should be there is no other perfect solution than the one you're in that you just have to allow a chance to prove itself and to demonstrate itself and it's our moments of distrust of the moment that we're in that we don't celebrate it because we're too busy banging at it because we think it's actually not the question we asked or it's not the thing we demanded or it's not the thing we thought we wanted but in fact it is the right thing and that if we actually spend more time actually being present and saying that allow it this is the right moment where in the book would you actually say that that is part of it or what demonstrations might they give I imagine that that is the general teachings of a lot of things I read and I know my father has been studying the book and every time he gives me an excerpt it always comes at the perfect time it's hand written it's on a piece of paper that's ripped out of something it's like oh thank god I did this piece of paper you know so yeah it's obviously a wonderful tool so maybe I'd like to hear about the book yeah yeah we just talked a little bit this morning but that's a good lead into that yeah everything is perfect uh it was spoken about in the bible where it said all things work together for good for those who love the lord and in the course it says the same thing all things work together for good there are no exceptions except in the ego's judgment it's only the ego that that says no something's gone wrong then nothing's gone wrong uh it's even got a workbook lesson at the beginning where it's one of those early lessons which is I do not perceive my own best interest it's the practice letting go of thinking you know what your own best interests are and he slips an a line in the book which says everything is for your own best interest oh well he's really quick to come in to say it's all perfect uh there's nothing out of alignment whatsoever uh it's only a misperception when you try this to say from an egoic sense no I want it some way else so in like 12 step groups with alcoholics they have a thing called a serenity prayer which is basically has three elements you know what you can change what you cannot change and the wisdom to know the difference I always tell people of course the miracles it's it seems like a big book 1200 some odd pages but it's basically the serenity prayer what you can uh change is is your mind you can shift from this egoic sense of separation to a state of wholeness you can change your mind you can change your perspective at any instant it doesn't have to take years or lifetimes you can do it any instant that you want really really want to shift into this miraculous state of acceptance allowance wholeness completion you can shift at any moment and what you cannot change is the script I mean it's a it's a linear script from the beginning so it was made as a distortion because eternity doesn't have a timeline in it you know when we were growing up in the history class they would always put the timeline and the past and then the little line for the present and the future and eternity is really beyond the timeline entirely and you might say that the present moment that they put in the middle of the timeline isn't really there either that the ego invented its own present moment squeezing between the past and the future and it's more like Jesus spoke in the bible 2000 years ago he said before Abraham was I am look at the grammar of that sentence before Abraham was I am before time and space were I am the I am presence Moses you know burning bush you know the burning bush spoke I am that I am well that's pretty direct I am that I am if a voice is coming from a burning bush and it sounds like the voice of God that's pretty powerful but it's nothing about time it's actually prior to time so the other aspect of your question which I would say there's a lot of new age teachings that that are out there now and there's a lot of quantum physics teachings and there's a lot of scientists and people that are in spirituality and religion that are on the cusp of starting to take 100% responsibility for the state of mind you can't blame anything or anyone for what you're feeling because you're doing it to yourself but the course even goes beyond you create your own reality it Jesus would probably say it in a little way he would say you project your own illusion that's that's the way he would say it he would never say you create your own reality he would say oh no God created reality for you and and God is pure love so your reality is pure love and even in terms of manifesting like a lot of I know you know Jerry and Esther Hicks were just here and Deepak and the movie The Secret is out now and manifesting and so forth a lot of this create your own reality idea is circulating now and I would say on the evolutionary letter of spirituality that's a big step towards 100% responsibility that underneath it what the people are really meaning is all the circumstances that you believe are your reality are there by your own making Jesus would even take it the next step beyond manifesting beyond you can make whatever you want you can have it be any way you want he would say well actually God created you as spirit and yeah you have tremendous capacity but when you're playing with illusions you can rearrange them in many different ways and make what you think are better illusions but still you're still playing with the the contents of consciousness it would be kind of like the a titanic has hit the iceberg the water fills up the compartments the ship starts to tilt and I don't know if any of you saw the movie with Leonardo you know and Kate Winslet where basically the engineer who built the boat was in the middle of a party they said they told him that the ship had hit the iceberg and how many compartments had already filled up and he went she's sunk he knew the ship he knew how much water it could take and how many compartments had to fill he was an engineer he knew it all he knew as soon as he found out how many compartments even though the parties were still going on people most people were unaware of everything he knew the ship would sink because he knew his ship well he might say that that this world is in some sense like the sinking sinking ship it's not eternal it's not going to last forever it's very temporary it's going down in the sense that it never really came up it never really had any kind of eternity to it so authors like Gary Reinhard my friend who was just here in Ireland you know wrote a book The Disappearance of the Universe that's the direction where this is heading people have listened to me speak for days or weeks and the more they listen the more they go hmm sounds like if everybody was in the state of mind you're talking about David and if everybody followed this out to the fullest extent who would be working who would who would man and do all the jobs who would build all the things what would happen to the factories what would happen to the governments what would happen to the grocery stores this and this it's like your your the world as we know it would disappear and I said exactly precisely if you follow what I'm saying that's that's a that's a conclusion uh that where this is going so it's far from you create your own reality that's the step in the direction but what I'm saying is no Jesus would say you project your own illusion but once you start to forgive your projection and you start to pull it back in uh you start to reach a state where you really see the peace of mind is is not only possible but it's inevitable but it's also a state of mind that goes beyond manifesting um I had a woman one time at one of my meetings she said she came to me during the break like the coffee break and she said I'm the manifesting lady I can manifest anything I manifest soul mates for people and cars and houses I manifest money she says I spent years under the manifest lady they call me the manifest lady that's so sweet I said after the break I want you to come and launch in and tell tell this group of course the miracles group all your manifesting stories so she did she just was like well when she manifested this soul mate for this one and this this car for another and she had lots of manifesting stories and I told her also I said we'll go through that and then I'll kind of take it to the next step so after she told her stories there were some new people to this course of miracles group they were like cool I'm I need to manifest a different world than the world I'm looking at and I was like yeah I didn't understand that but I said what if you had the capacity to manifest anything in form and and you did it over and over and over and it still didn't bring you a lasting sense of peace and happiness what if there was still something underneath that was kind of going is this is this all there is like the Peggy Lee song you know is that all there is what if there's something like called eternal peace you know what if there is a kingdom of heaven a nirvana the state of oneness is so perfect so loving and joyful and harmonious that it's beyond anything that you can manifest so my teachings have kind of taken beyond the deep box beyond the Eckhart Tolle's beyond they asked Eckhart Tolle one time and they said you know why don't you talk more about that the world is a complete illusion uh you should mention that more uh in your seminars and he said no one would attend uh if I did we have a nice small group here uh generally I I kind of give it so straight without any compromise and just go right at the core of it that it's not really for the masses do you wonder that you know you see that if everyone got their situation and that everyone would give up work what about the artists who absolutely love to draw what about the people who love to plant what about the people who are natural so maybe this concept and this is only just a thought maybe this concept is actually a lot easier than having to everyone having to go into a situation where everything stops maybe it's everyone actually focuses on what they truly want because I think that everyone has a purpose and that yes we get distracted by the everyday life of our routine being a job being a routine being a being a mother whatever that case may be but there is a true calling I believe in us all which might be to write to draw to provide for I know a lot of women that without any encouragement on a monetary capacity love to care for people and love to mind people and I think that that's in every one of us we have a natural calling whether it's you know people don't create art for money eventually they might actually get recognized but generally it's not the beginning point and I think that there's that you know there are great spiritual teachers there are great you know people who love to help people improve and whatever it is they're doing and natural teachers other people couldn't teach for their lives and I know I certainly couldn't teach but everyone has a gift and that actually when you talk about focusing maybe that's something to be considered yeah it's it's everyone has a gift but I'm also giving words all headed in the sense that the time is something that can be used by the spirit to teach you that there is no time so it's like for example take the example of the artist I meet world famous sculptors I work with artists and some people would say that that I I make art every day just by my state of being my songs or all the stuff that I express so freely without any sense of monetary recompense or anything like that that my life is like art in expression but you might have heard of a psychologist called Abraham Maslow he's a very famous psychologist who did the hierarchy of needs you know the pyramid of needs and and it was very practical too because it started off with the basic needs you know people have needs for food and clothing and shelter then they kind of move into needs for safety and security then needs to love and be loved and then towards self-actualization he called it at the top of the pyramid and that was just kind of like the ancient Greeks saying know thyself you know that's the ultimate aim of everything but that self is is purely spiritual in nature it's not a mother father sister brother it's not an artist or a sheep herder or a construction worker or a CEO people have asked asked me point blank can I be a CEO and be enlightened I say nope not a chance because there's too many constructs that are built into the whole whole concept of the CEO to even play the game competition you know without competition it's hard to be a CEO you know there's some basic assumptions that are part of the construct and so I think what you're saying is certainly the most practical thing that you can ever do is to tell people to follow their heart follow their joy really follow what deep down they feel like they want because if you talk to most people they would say well there's a there's a number of things that I want it's not just one thing and that's in this world that's quite practical in fact you have to be encouraging with people and then just like a child you know if you have a household and you have a child wants toys to play with and you give them a variety of toys they're going to pick their favorite toys and they're going to play with those toys whether it's a doll or a little tractor that they ride or whatever they'll play with it as long as it's fulfilling and satisfying and then they'll just leave it the doll gets left the tractor gets left right in the sidewalk and people outgrow just like children out go toys human beings outgrow things but Abraham Maslow studied the self-actualizing people for example the artist and they found he found that one of the characteristics of this of the highest advanced people in history and throughout history were that means and ends were together that for example the artist wasn't painting the painting or doing the sculpture for a future goal whether it's monetary goal fame and fortune recognition whatever just in the flow of the painting in the flow of the sculpting right there in the present moment the means the joy the happiness of of extending in that way and the end which was the joy and happiness were the same peace is a zone reward you don't need to do anything for future peace if you're peaceful now that's it so so what I say is yeah it's we need to inspire everyone and and everyone seems to have their gifts that that are given that are I could say like intuitive gifts some of them are latent but they're emerging as you go along spiritually they come out more and more the spiritual gifts and we want to celebrate all that and what I talk about is the state of enlightenment of Self-realization which is being totally present and totally disidentified from everything in the world and totally identified with who you are which is spirit so when people can say what they want about the course of miracles about countries and Americans or Europeans or this or that I have absolutely no opinion on anything I tell people from the beginning I have no opinion on anything from abortion to global warming to economics or anything I've been in university for 10 years I've read it seen it talked to people I've been in 21 22 countries and it's like in the end it's just a bunch of symbols to me and they don't mean anything in and of themselves I'm not interested in concepts where people want to identify with being mothers or fathers or sisters or brothers spiritual teachers you know people will talk to me about politicians you know Saddam Hussein or Osama bin Laden George Bush or whatever I was in Argentina back in 2003 and and my friend Maria put me up in her house and said you know you can stay in my son's room and uh son was about 22 23 years old and so I was saying hi to him and everything and greeted him and everything and but he was very upset and and uh all I remember him saying as I was walking up to the room to go to sleep was how long will the bush lovers be staying in my room that was the way I was going to bed so I went upstairs and my friend David was with me and we both stayed up in that room so I came came down the next morning and I should put it in the context this was also the time when the United States had just begun dropping bombs on on Baghdad and there was a huge anti-american sentiment down in in Argentina and I was doing 19 consecutive healing gatherings on 19 consecutive days this was kind of in the middle of it and so it wasn't like it was out of context I certainly wasn't shocked or surprised by it all but I did come down to breakfast the next day and I sat down and he was sitting kind of growling and grumbling and I said uh I said I heard what you said as I was going to bed last night and he said oh well good I'm glad you heard it and I said but you know it's not entirely true and he said what and I said I'm a Saddam lover too his mouth has dropped and thus begun our conversations where he was he was telling me all about the babies are dying the palms are dropping on their heads and it was quite emotional and I was calmly looking right into his soul and and talking to him from my heart where I felt no attachment or defense one way or the other towards any of it but I could see that it was all an illusion and and I was in the state of love and over time I would go back to visit down there in Argentina and he ended up leaving his job as a political writer for the newspaper and the last I heard from him he was wanting to publish A Course in Miracles down in Argentina in Spanish you know he's just a reflection of my mind like I was sure of who I was I didn't buy into any of the opinions and of course he's now reflecting the joy and I could go on and on and talked about how our relationship has just grown and grown in happiness and joy but it started off with how long will the Bush lovers be staying in my room that was our with our starting yeah all life is just fun and it's joyful but it's but it's when we have these times it's just good to kind of get get at the underpinnings of the fun so that you can really kind of have the experience I have something but it's you touched on it earlier and it's the part of the metaphysics of the course I find most difficult which is the script is written okay so it's the script is written and I can read with the course and the script is written and my choice is how I respond to that or how I perceive that and then there's the whole upswing of people working with the secret and manifesting and if you're manifesting in this illusion well why not manifest yourself a nice fun illusion and somewhere between the two I sometimes become paralyzed for want of a better word am I going to work on manifesting something more fun am I surrendering do you hear what I mean yeah so anything into that realm of there's a just a spot where I become paralyzed it's like my blind spot am I going to put energy into creating or am I going to surrender and guess that's my answer is that am I surrendering yeah okay yeah yeah to me that means the greatest fun is is in the surrender do I want to control it by making a happier illusion and so many people now particularly in Ireland are caught up in the whole the secret and the Moses code and the manifesting and I'm looking at them saying no and yes sometimes I want a happier illusion to want the fun things yeah well it's it's right you're on the cusp of this this whole thing because it's obviously the all the stuff that's coming with the manifesting everything it's a it's a it is itself a leap in consciousness from being a victim of the world or feeling powerless or helpless it's a huge huge leap in the right direction and and yet for those that that start to go even deeper than that then like a friend of mine was talking about Eckhart Halley's new book and New Earth and she's hmm it's just it's like it it brings together some basic ideas from the course and kind of more of it a general way but she's just as I'm not satisfied with it I want you know I want just I feel there's something that's going going on much deeper and I want to tap into that and I think actually as I asked the question and it's a lesson of the work that you mentioned earlier the ones I don't know what I want anyway I don't know how to manifest what's good for me I forget to ask I'll get to that point where I asked you how would I know what's yeah yeah so and I don't yeah it's it's temporary it's a it seems as you're going into it like a very much of a dismantling or a dissolving experience it seems while you're still holding on to the ego to the less messages of the ego that it's disorienting it's very disorienting we have a friend Jason who's who was down doing a session like this down in Australia and he was in the middle of the session and people started to ask him questions and he just eased back into the state where he didn't know what anything was for he was like looking at the the course which the book was right in front of him and the words were always all of a sudden looking very funny in the book and everything and he could kind of it was very still he could see the people's mouths moving and it was like kind of like am I supposed to respond here is there something to say and then he watched his mouth and voluntarily saying yes Jesus talks about this and pointing to a certain passage but he was almost like watching all that occur and and he was just feeling so detached from everything just like like like you are in the middle of the soup like you are the soup liquid going very liquid and fluid and flowing you know and not not even being to hold together a simple concept like like sitting and having a little teaching session around the course that that all started to just evaporate and dissolve and when he would he came to me and he just said wow is this did you have these kind of experiences I said oh yeah it's you just you just relax and you just ease into them because it's like there's a part of the mind that wants to judge that it's losing control but the spirit is never losing control it never had control it never tries to control it's from the ego's perspective that it can feel like things are being taken away from you it can feel like sometimes oh I want a better this is a dream I want a better version of the dream and what this is is more just an easing back into a state of non-judgment where everything is perfect in that realm and there's nothing to strive for nothing to attain no process to go through it's just this it's a state of mind and the ego does quite a bit of kicking and screaming as you get closer to relaxing into it because the ego feels like it's dying or that it's losing its sense of existence when you just ease into that peace can I ask just when you were born through that process of kind of letting go I'm trying to step back from the ego and fight up and so on and so on did did there come any points where you just thought this is too hard I can't keep on fighting this or you know it's is that the common point we thought was easier to slip back into the illusion as horrible as that might have been or to keep on trying to step back out of it and doing the work and doing the work and stepping back I I don't think I have ever had one of those points I mean I have had intense intense emotions and particularly even prior to the course when it all already was happening and I didn't even have any kind of context for it right I just thought oh this is intense this is intense like I just went it out of it it was just so intense I had the context when I came across the course where even when I have friends or students that will just come up to me and say David do you ever had a moment with the course where you just looked at it and you go what if this is a hoax what is this whole big whole thing is just another trick and a hoax and everything I just looked at them I said no I've never I've never once had any of those experience because it was such a huge recognition for me that it was beyond question absolutely beyond question so when the students would say you know don't you ever wonder if this is even a hoax I said no I don't wonder that there were times even in working with the course where it seemed really fast like it was going really accelerated and they always would say you know you could never get more than you can handle and there's a couple times where I would say well I know I never get more than I could handle but I must be maxing out or something one time I was working with the course and I was doing a job coaching experience and I was with working with a young man about 18 years old and training him to be a busboy at a hotel and we would have some talks occasionally but but sometimes his behavior would seem to get erratic his voice would like drop down three octaves to this deep kind of voice and it really was something like the Exorcist or something it looked like there I was working and just pretty new with the course and it looked like what the world might call almost like a demonic possession something and I was like I was thinking like oh my god what is this and then it progressively got more and more intense to the point where I was with him it was Friday the 13th a full moon and I'm like I don't even believe in these things it's just a bunch of holy demonic possessions and Friday the 13th and full moons and once his voice up down there was this weird thing going in his eyes and everything and I'm going like whoa this is kind of steep here for an early Course in Miracles dude hello welcome and eventually and the people around him were getting spooked and and they eventually had a called the life squad and had to take if he was taken away he's like 18 years old but before he left we had part of my job coaching presence experience that time was to train these people and and help them out on their job so I was training him as a bus boy and there were these long narrow steps that were real slippery it was a restaurant with all this slop that comes from the kitchen in a restaurant one of our task was to take this heavy trash can it must have weighed I don't know a couple two or 250 pounds or something it was very heavy because it was full of all this slop and this wet stuff from the restaurant down these narrow steps were very slippery and take it out to the waste can and I remember we drug the thing me and him to the edge of the steps and he just looked at me and his eyebrows went up like Jack Nicholson in some kind of Jack Nicholson movie anyway you first and I was like this is a little bit steep here I'm pretty new to this course I remember coming home that night and just going into silence meditation and and praying about I say I said that I said this is getting a little steep and a little intense and the spirit said no I'm just showing you the map of of your heart it's only the own your own fear that you have of love there's no demonic possessions there's nothing about Friday the 13th or full moons all the that stuff it's just a projection but it's your own fear I'm showing you your your limits of love and your own fear that you're placing around your own heart okay okay this but it's it's been seems pretty steep at times but there never really was a point where I thought I just want to go back to the way that it was I have had students who have attempted that I have had people that I've known who have said nope don't want to go there I just want to pretend I never saw what I saw I've never gone where I've gone and I want to kind of well kind of like in the matrix there's a cipher character but there was a character in there basically he just wanted to be put back in the matrix you know go back into the amnesia and and it may even seem to be possible for people in this world but really the deeper you go and the more that you experience the more difficult it is because there's nothing really to go back to it's kind of like in the bible they had the story of Lot's wife you know don't look back or you'll turn into a pillar of salt it was I remember as a child watching the movie you know I guess it was the Ten Commandments and or something and and it was a shocking kind of image of this woman turning into a pillar of salt now I see it just was the metaphor was that when you turn back to the past you just freeze your consciousness just freezes it loses its fluidity the flow of it all I see it now it's just a symbol but I've had people talk to me about that experience of the feeling but I've never had that for me it was like I'm jumping in the pool and I'm going down the slide and I'm not even got my fingernails out onto the onto the side of the slides tucked in we let's go for the big splash you know and and I found that that's been the joy that's the fun of it is when you don't resist and when you when you really yield and surrender into it is very gleeful very joyful and it's the it's the resisting part of course it gets quite intense when the ego is trying to resist love because love is love and love just will always be what it is and the ego in fact Jesus says he defines resistance in a positive way he said resistance is the ego's experience of progress and growth so whatever you're in resistance just remember that that the resistance is the ego's experience of progress and growth so even when you have resistance the progress and growth is continuing it's just that the ego is interpreting against it and trying to say you know I can't do this it's too hard I have to go back it's just kicking and screaming like like it's being dissolved away and it is being dissolved away and it is within you I mean every all the answers are within you yes thank you earlier when I was a a lot younger back in 1983 I was in the police force and had a very bad experience I got thrown from the building and ended up in hospital I spent about seven days unconscious and when I woke up they had two or three operations and they said well the doctors two doctors standing in front of me I can visualize it now I feel too anxious but these were not really too anxious and they were standing in front of me saying well the good news is you're alive bad news is and wake up your mind and I'm going to walk again so I said why is that with damages spines and hips and so I said well are you sure about that oh yeah we're sure I said well actually I'm not sure you know because I just can't accept that you know I've been playing rugby for two or three times a week and that's what I think and I wasn't going to give that up I was not going to give that up and the more I thought of it the voice was saying to me look you know don't listen to that listen to yourself if you think you can do it do it and the thing that came into my mind was you remember the film the battle between not the battle between um reach for the sky double spade story double spade it was um fighter pilot in the second world war he lost both legs in a flying accident before the war and when he said you were never flying it turned out to be one of the greatest fighter pilots ever was and I can remember this image of him in the film where they said we're not going to walk again you've got your legs and he was pulling himself along and parallel bars and the whole sort of experience of it was in my mind you know and I thought no hang on that's me that is me that film was actually made for me that was my cue to get into this whole thing and within about three months I was walking and because I said no I'm not going to give into this and fortunately there was it was actually nurses really that were more positive than the doctors so if someone if you think you can do it we'll take you to the gymnasium you know we'll do this we'll do the exercises and that sort of thing and imagine what it was you see now fairly normal except I really I just sort of had that thing in my mind you know that that moment of the bright light came on and it said no forget what they're saying don't listen to that and of course now I know it was ego it was them but it was me actually my ego isn't them saying no you know you're not going to walk again and me saying get out of course I'm going to walk yeah yeah so it does work that's many many years before I was a coastal miracle yeah an actual living experience of the power of the mind and consciousness very much like that they called them and the miracle man in the movie the secret the man who was in that big crash and basically was just laying there and was unable to do about anything he was even on an artificial breathing machine and then basically he had it in his mind that he would walk walk out of that hospital by Christmas and then slowly did you know went from what people would say basically being almost like a vegetable into doing that but and those are those are powerful powerful experiences that show you that you do have all the answers within you that that the only limits that anyone has is what they're placing on themselves and then there's sayings from the bible about you know if you had the faith of a like the size of a grain of a mustard seed you know you could move mountains and we think of mountains you know in a much larger context even than the human body you know it's just there they seem massive but it goes way beyond the mountains that's why it's it's like one time the scribe of a course of miracles who was a research psychologist was talking to Jesus and she really wasn't into the new age at all you know she wasn't she was a research psychologist a very clinical search psychologist and and she she was learning for the first time about things like astrology and so forth and she was almost like very like a child would ask questions like well what's this thing with astrology it seems like there's a correlation between the movements of the planets and the spheres and the lives of men and women there seems to be some kind of correlation but you're teaching me that everything is in my mind everything's a decision in mind and Jesus said yeah you're moving all of those billions of bodies around on the planet and behind that you're moving all the spheres around with your mind and I remember reading that just in absence from Felicity I think it was I'm just almost fell off the bed of the power of the mind like moving mountains is is nothing in this cosmos that goes we're still discovering new galaxies you know it's it's much much bigger than anyone ever thought and and that's what they said also in in the movie what the bleep do we know you know it's always larger it's always bigger than what what you can conceive of so to go for a highly trained state of mind you know where you have constant peace is a very lofty goal but it's like basically we were told over and over you are worthy of this goal you are worthy of constant peace of serenity of joy and happiness love and I just recently was in Australia and we got this invitation Jenny and I to be flown up to Palm Cove which is up near Cairns very tropical there near the rainforest and it's up closer to the equator down there in in Australia by this captain he was the captain of Qantas Airlines a pilot and he said I'll fly you up there I'll fly you back take as long take a week if you want take as many days as you want you know just be be our guest and my wife and I would love to be up there and either I'll be there to pick you up or there'll be a limousine waiting for you and I was like looking at Jenny on limo I've never never been in a limo before he's either be there to personally to pick you up or there'll be a limo waiting for you so we got up there and uh there was no limo there he was this big man with his both his arms outstretched like come here you know just to give us a big bear hug and he was beaming and glowing and one of his first questions to me was he said David if I wanted to be your shadow if I wanted to just be your shadow and come wherever you are in the world for six weeks and I could fly there and come and I'd pay all my expenses and everything but could I could I could I could I just come and be and shadow you around for six weeks I said sure he said great that's all I needed to know and then he got into sharing all this love and joy and basically he was like a like a five-year-old child in a 61-year-old body just beaming and glowing and he just listens to the course of miracles all hours and hours just listens to it the audio thing and then he's listened to all of my materials I had no idea I just put a bunch of it on the web so people can freely download and listen to it I I don't I had no clue of how much he said oh there's 400 hours David you have 400 hours of free material on there he said which I have listened to by the way and twice for 800 hours and do you have any new material I said well we're always traveling and filming and everything but he was just like a sponge you know he's originally from Hungary and he'd been like like a little child soaking up all this and he had a very difficult marriage but then he he had really just let go and took leaps of consciousness and then he met this other woman married her and she's like a soulmate to him now and and then he was telling me how he he said I'm realizing the power of my mind so he said when I a few years ago when I was 58 I thought I love to fly I just love flying he flies these jets all over the world and then when he gets off when he makes it back to Australia and just gets in from Asia or India or someplace he goes on he goes to the smaller airplane where they have these little hangers and planes and he says can I fly mail routes and he's just like a kid he just he could fly for 10 12 hours he gets off instead of going for a rest he goes and has a spontaneous holy encounter and he's off flying a mail route off to the bush or something and and he was so full of joy and energy like we were talking just this energy was pouring from him and so he said when he was 58 he just thought he realized that there's a international limit for pilots was 60 years and he thought oh my gosh two years and I can't fly anymore uh he so he said I went I wrote a choose file he called it he said I lesbian when uh two months before I reached my 60th birthday all of the rules for pilots all over the world internationally will change they will raise the age limit from 60 to 65 uh you know kind of like I'm going for it you know like alive and he showed his wife you know he said do you see this he said he went way into his mind because he's listened to all my stuff where he went way into the dreamer of the dream and he brought the choose file to the dreamer of the entire dream of the cosmos and dreamer man like so be it like so be it so then a couple of months after he wrote it out he noticed that they the different people would have to meet different organizations fAA and the flying organizations were starting to meet to discuss the age limit for pilots usually and then he watched but there was a lot of fighting and fighting and arguing and typical stuff politics around this thing so he watched it turn 59 and the month started to click away and uh as the month started to click away when he was 59 now the United States was holding out everybody else all the other nations of the world finally had given in but the United States was saying adamantly no no no no and then when it got closer and closer it got right to the two month uh period it was his wife who heard it announced on the television she came in and she said well the United States caved in they just changed the age limit from 60 to 65 for every pilot in the world and he's like mm-hmm so when he met me he had he wanted to do one-on-ones and everything because he still had whims still wanted had a few ideas in his mind for better illusions and and sometimes he would he would do a little choose file and take it into the dreamer and the dreamer would go no and he would be fascinated and then that was his question why he's like why you know why that and so we had some powerful experiences because one of the nose was uh he likes he really really wants to fly the big big jets the jumbo jets the ones are like flying apartments are so huge but you have to be at the very in quantities you got to be at the top of the seniority list to fly the jumbo jets just only the pilots there at the top and he had participated in a controversial strike where he supported some of the younger pilots and some of their demands probably walked off with them and he took a long time before he went back coming back from the strike and so they just they just decided to to deduct 25 years of seniority from his uh flying record for participating in the strike so it put him from for being like maybe three four five in the in all the whole quanta system down to nine hundred and something not even close and so he was like petitioning the dreamer the dream i want to like a little boy i want to fly the jumbo i want to fly the jumbo i want to fly the jumbo and so he said there's some lesson here isn't there and i said yeah he said yeah it's it's the same lesson you were talking about about the manifest thing and going the next step you know are you going to go for the state of mind or are you going to go for the form that you believe would bring you the happiness which is always you know the ego's always got some idea of what it would be and so we spent a day a one-on-one talking about it and then the next day we had a day of silence and then he he and his wife wrote me a note when i met him on the day of silence can the Holy Spirit make an exception i have something to talk to you about and passed me the note i said let's go to our restaurant so we went and his wife said we've got an important meeting uh we were supposed to go to tonight with one of his colleagues at another pilot and she said i really think you know we should go i said yeah i think it's a good idea so they went to the meeting the dinner meeting and here was one of the ones that are at the top of the the pilots that fly the jumbo jets it's like the Holy Spirit was going to say here you go and he meets with this guy and his wife and they're talking and this guy is at the top up near the top of the seniority list flies the jumbo jets he's got some kind of a little tick and twitch you know he's he's had to play by all the rules you know go against his heart maybe he didn't support the strike and he didn't do this this didn't follow his heart he's got a bit of a tick a twitch and everything and the more that they they talk to him uh he's this this guy's saying oh yeah and my wife and i we sleep in separate bedrooms and this and this and this and love is just watching going the spirits going there you go uh is that what you if you want he flies the jumbo jets you want the whole package uh i kind of like the movie the butterfly effect you know you can you can have this but it throws other things and so he was like wow he said i i'm seeing now that i i need to look at what i'm asking for here you know because he was he was seeing okay i've got a powerful mind but what do i want to do with it and then he said he he said he came in one day with a big grin on his face and he said i wrote another choose file he said what did you write and he said i wrote i want to be in the same state of consciousness that david is in consistently before i die and he said he took it to the dreamer and dreamers so it was a state of mind goal he was going for the peace of mind even though he he'd used the power of his mind in the with the raising the age limit you know it was like it was a a manifestation some people would say quite a good met his manifestation the worldwide rules for pilots you know but but that's what we're talking about is taking it so deep that you realize that that you are entitled to miracles you are entitled to a state of constant peace and happiness and joy and no matter how unrealistic the ego wants to paint that picture to be uh that as jesus says you'll really never be content with anything less than the love that you are you can try to content yourself in time and space and you can actually get to a point where you forgive it and see a very happy dream which is as high as you can go in this realm so to speak but but you'll never be content with anything less than than God's love and he says in the in the text of A Course in Miracles and maybe it's back in the workbook he says you know it's not that you ask for too much out of life but it's that you ask for far too little you know you you just kind of offer up your little prayers you know keep me safe and and help me with this and help me out financially and he's saying oh you could ask for you could ask for everything and it's like you've got a little thimble you're going please fill my cup and God's like oh yeah I could fill it in much more but you have to you have to take the the limits and the parameters off of your asking and start to open up your asking so that you see that you deserve the worthy of of love so it's those are good little parables and stories I think that kind of put things into context that there's nothing wrong with asking for anything at all but it's like when you're entitled to to such fullness and such grace then why why settle for less it's kind of what it comes down to