 if i get half we're just gonna be happy okay we're just we're just gonna be pleased with that so welcome back to my channel today fuck i don't want to say it we i have been avoiding film this video for about an hour now i've been ready i could have filmed the whole video but i've been avoiding it we're gonna be reacting to my 2021 tbr that i made at the start of year of 21 books i have to read this year and like listen it's not gonna go well i already i'm setting myself up for failure so if we'd have slightly less failure we're still pleased i lost our hope today i'm empty i remember when i made this tbr i thought i had it i like so believed in myself that these were the books i was gonna read this year and then i'm just pretty sure that hasn't happened but let's not be negative let's not be negative Nancy's we've we've got this but before we get into the video i want to say a massive thank you to our sponsor for this video which is book of the month before i speak about book of the 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to fit it into like my tbr a bit it's a christmas romance of these two twins who swap places basically and then you start to fall in love with like a guy in the other's life but they're pretending to be one another and also it's like all baking their bakers they're like chefs like i listen i am obsessed with the great british bakeoff right now and i'm almost finished but i'm currently on like a bakeoff like moment at the moment so i'm hoping i could fit this into my tbr it's one that i'm really excited for and i feel like it's kind of fitting the mood i'm in right now we have ogre dies dreaming by zotcho gonzalez we have a mother who abandoned our protagonist young in her life to kind of pursue this kind of political revolution that was happening at time and she's coming back we have a memoir by ashley c ford this is somebody's daughter this is very much about family about a coming of age memoir and then my two like favorite ones of the month there's two here that i would have struggled to choose between we have a flick it in the dark by stacy willingham this i think is a debut am i right i feel like this is a debut and it's already getting so much hype like this is going to be one of the biggest thrillers we're following our protagonist whose father was convicted of a series of murders that happened he confessed he went away but now similar murders are happening in the area like i think 20 years on and so the question is is there a copycat killer or was the right person never sentenced and this has already been like commissioned to be adapted by emma stone what the hell so this is like that's quite rare i think for a book before it's even come out to be being made into a tv show and then the one that i'm most excited for this was on my most anticipated releases of this year list it is a history of wild places by shea urnshaw this sounds right out my street like it's kind of magical realism we have this guy who had a special talent for finding missing people all he had to do was touch an item of theirs and he could find them and he went to this very tiny community called pastoral to find someone who'd gone missing from that community and then he goes missing and then years later someone is trying to solve his mystery so i've heard so many good things about it i think the cover is so haunting and special and yeah this one oh i just i'm so excited this is like one of the best selections i feel like of books we've had and then one of my favorite things about book of the month is that you can have add-ons you can add stuff onto your order if you want and the add-on that they've sent this month is the anthropocene reviewed by john green listen i always said john green should write an adult we're halfway there because i meant adult fiction he's written a non-fiction but like i am so excited for this this is one i've been kind of i've almost bought it myself a couple times it's kind of like a just a non-fiction look at human race as it is now our world as it is now it's just on like loads and loads of different topics like throughout the world and i'm just very excited for this as well so don't forget to use the code jolly to get your first book for only five dollars which is a crazy price i absolutely love book of the month i think their quality their attention to detail in the books that they pick is absolutely amazing so i cannot recommend them enough okay we're gonna get into the video i'm i actually i feel very nervous god give me fucking strength part of me wants to believe in myself because i've read like over a hundred books this year most of like i should have been able to fit 20 of these books on it but like taste change taste evolve throughout the year i'm just i'm nervous anyway let's see let's embarrass myself hey everyone welcome back to my channel i hope you're good and today we're gonna be chatting about the 21 books i want to read in 2021 now last year i did do a series i want to read oh yeah it didn't go that well i did so badly in the series one i was like i'm not going to do that i'm tuned in general tbr and then this hasn't gone well either i felt like i thought it would be more realistic this year to just check realistic books in general that i want to read the 21 books i want to read the first category i have is series okay you should have a problem with this i expect i feel like we've done well start on what i own so far so first is the raven cycle i want to read both the raven boys and the dream theme okay yeah well i have plans to read this i think in about february march time so here's the situation i have read the raven boys let it be known i've read that i've not read whatever the second one is dream thieves um let i the second one really am i gonna continue with this series genuinely part of okay here's a thing we all know i love my themed reading vlogs there's a little niggling part of me that wants to do some kind of like finishing or reading whole series vlog series next year but like i almost don't think anyone would want to watch that i don't know i don't know i don't know if people care about series i don't know if they would do as well as my other videos and i know that's not important but like i want to do videos that people want to watch and i just don't know if anyone would care like i would kind of give a review of the first book that i've read and then read the other ones in the vlog but i don't know let me know what you think but yeah listen at least i've read one we're half for half at the moment which is something and then the other series i want to make sure i start this year is an ember in the ashes by sabr to here i do only but it's wrapped up for my wrapped up series where i have read ember in the ashes oh my god go megan we are ahead i am so proud of myself i'm literally the best i am so proud of her i could cry so i did start this series but i will not be continuing because i really i did not like ember in the ashes i'm a bit nervous about some of the why a fantasy i've still got on my tbr because it's very like amazing for me or a miss more than hit or miss it's like top tier or low tier like i i don't know i'm very nervous but yeah i read it but i will not be continuing with the series now the next couple books are all a nonfiction i definitely want to read more nonfiction this year that is another one of my reading goals that hasn't happened reading goals well that's spoiling another video we're gonna do in december but i don't know how many people will be interested in but i want to read save the cat rights a novel by jessica rody this is one i haven't read it okay listen you don't oh are you all right the writing anything related to writing is a is a sore spot for me i've written this year i don't even want to talk about it can we just not can we just like gloss over it listen i know i say like every month i need to write my book that is true it's just finding the time i just don't have time i just don't have time but i'm hoping january and february are going to be quiet a month so hopefully i will be able to you know actually start writing my book that is the goal and save the cat rights a novel is going to be something that i really don't we do that but have i read it yet no thanks another nonfiction i want to make sure i get to this year is disfigured on fairy tales disability and making space by a man i picked this up on kaylah from books and lala's recommendation haven't read it okay listen i want to read that so bad this is just we come back to the problem of my videos and fitting books into videos and how i need to get better at fitting nonfiction particular into my themed ideas that is like one of the books still that if i like made a tbr now the books i most want to read disfigured will be on there like i want to read it so bad i'm so interested in the topic but nonfiction is letting us down because i have not read a lot this year also this makes me so excited for my fucking 2021 goals video because i bet you write more is gonna be on there and i bet you well we know read more nonfiction is gonna be on there and i i haven't done that i don't know how many nonfiction i've read this year but it's not a lot is forgotten women the writers by jing sheng i've spoken about this series quite a lot wait have i read that no no no no haven't haven't read it oh dear it's not going well everyone i thought we'd be doing better than this this is the thing with the nonfiction books they are some of my top books that i want to read and yet um it's not happening yeah i love this series i talk about it quite a lot this forgotten women series it's like books about women the history of forgotten but that were incredibly influential and um this is another book i'm still very excited to read so listen clown clown behavior right here okay that was a last nonfiction book so what is the next section gonna be next let's quickly talk about this series i want to fuck this year there's only hold up hold up how many have i finished three series this year i don't think i have so this this is not happening i listen why do i base a lot of this around series why do i hate myself okay whatever the first series i want to finish is the famous files by sylvain new val this is waking gods and only two men i need to read to finish this and this is basically haven't haven't read it oh my god i actually no i'm ending the video this is ridiculous this is actually ridiculous have not continued with this series at all considering i have the audiobooks and it would be very easy for me to listen to them this is a travesty this is actually like a saccable offense if i was a football manager no one will get this reference i was a football manager this is too many losses on the bounce i'd be gone i'd be gone and fucking rain rooney would be coming in in my place to run this channel i don't want to talk about it okay listen this series i loved the first one so much i loved the audiobooks so so much and i own the next two and i wasn't even gonna vlog these so i don't have the excuse that they didn't fit they didn't fit in 12 blocks i can't have read them like i got these with the intention of not vlogging it because i hadn't vlogged the first one so like who would care i this is bad this is this is very bad this is very bad okay let's have hope let's have hope after promising it for so long i'm finally gonna get to six of crows and cook a kingdom by liba dugo i love nine pounds yeah okay okay i have read both of them i have read both of them oh my god i am so happy they're up there can you see them i did a reading vlog for those two and i love it i love six across your kingdom listen they were some of the oldest books on my tbr they were getting very old i like could not go any longer anymore without reading them like it was just not like listen and i just couldn't make any more excuses so i had to okay i feel like we're starting to get back into it let's believe and in the last series i want to finish this year is oh my god no the dragon republic and the burning god by iif cram i knew before i even saw these by the sound of me holding them what they were there's two more i haven't read these are just too scary like they're too big i'm just so scared i'm just so scared it's sad it's very sad very sad for me very very sad for me this is the worst this is the worst this is the worst yeah i don't know when i'm gonna read them i do this is like one of the series i'd most like to finish this is what makes me want to do that video series next year but like i just don't think anyone would care like i don't think it would huh i don't know i don't know what the answer is anyway moving swiftly on oh all right let's have some success here i've read it i have read it okay we're gonna have a resurgence here i can feel it in my bones i can actually feel it in my bones we're gonna have a resurgence i've read legend born didn't love it it was like a three star the way that ended did make me a little bit excited to continue on with the series but i didn't love it and like as time goes on i'm like do i just want to dnf the series like do i care that much what happens in the next book i'm not i'm not sure i'm not sure that's one that one's up for debate with that if you have arguments for or against tell me in the comments i wonder whether you think i should continue on the series or whether you think i shouldn't and then next is mexican gothic by silvia moreno gasia i am sorry you know to read this i haven't mentioned before i've got a set video i do for this book but there's no yep i still have the video idea for that book and i still really want to do it i just need to get my ass together well i need to get my shit together and i i feel i feel like i am the shit with this pen excuse me i need to hold a pen in the rest of my videos how are you i'm successful how are you i need to get my shit together and just figure out two of the books for that video because it's not that hard like i could do it um i need to figure out those books so i need to do the vlog in january i could do that in january i could if i wanted to but i haven't so i haven't read it and the next book is come tumbling down by short and require this is the latest in the wayward children series i have read it i've read two of the wayward children series this year i've read come tumbling down and across the green grass fields and i really want to read the one that comes out in january where the drown girls go i have a physical arc of it and i really want to get around to that soon so i have read come tumbling down yes oh my god so happy yeah that was a great book short and require just i think is my one of my favorite authors ever like i've read so many of her books and they were all like four or five stars i've never given a short and require less than four stars so um yeah an icon a legend a moment and then the last general book i do own but again it's wrapped up somewhere and it is the sanatorium by sarah pierce i've read it i read that right at the start of the year very very early on and i enjoyed it like i thought it was pretty good i'm excited for the next one to come out this was a debut and i thought it was a pretty like it was all right debut i quite enjoyed it this just shows like i don't necessarily read the book i'm most excited for because like i'm easily more excited for forgotten women the rioters for mexican gothic than i was for the sanatorium but i just read it you know because i think actually that wasn't wrapped up that was an episode of wrapped up so i had to read it because i unwrapped it so i was excited for it obviously it's on this list but it just shows you like i am a strange reader we don't know what's wrong with her honestly love is a revolution by rene what's it oh oh my god we're almost even i have read love is a revolution i do love rene what's in but i didn't love this book it was kind of just average for me it was like three stars i think it could have been longer it was a bit like quick for me i read it so long ago i can barely remember it next is the project by courtney summers we're half and half this is so good oh my god i have read the project oh my god she's oh i just love it oh my god the project was a very like that was a five star for me now it was one of my favorite new releases that have come out this year i just absolutely love it the project oh my god how amazing next is darling by k and chrome k and chrome is an author i've really loved this year i have read them well and i do well yeah i i have not i have not read darling i don't even own it i haven't even bought darling because i was so excited for this book but then it didn't get very good reviews like the people who i know have loved k and chrome as much as me like kayla and mina neither of them really liked it so i was just a bit scared off by it i was kind of like convinced that i wouldn't end up liking it so i haven't even bought it i do still really want to read it but like it kind of slipped down the priority of new releases for me because i was just like oh my god i don't know if i'm as excited anymore like i don't know then next is survive the night by righty sega my sake is a super popular on here so i have not read survive the night another one that got very bad reviews but i i own it at least i got it from book of the month actually and so i own it and i listen it's wrapped up i could unwrap it in that series and i would really like to read it this has had such awful reviews that like i have to read it like people have thrown it at the wall they've laughed at how bad of the ending is like i've heard it's terrible and i'm like but it's it like sometimes i don't hate things that everyone else hates so we gotta see and then lastly i'm gonna read this the day it comes out am i heart stopper volume four by alice oh fucking hell that was gonna be that was gonna be famous last words that was gonna be famous last words oh my god imagine if i was like i am gonna read this the day it comes out and then i didn't read it i have read heart stopper volume four i listen i probably did read this the day it comes out i love heart stopper i'm never not gonna read that and it's graphic novel so it's easy to get to we were half and half pretty much it was 10 versus 11 i had read 10 by my calculations read 10 not read 11 which i did set myself up for failure but part of me was hoping i wouldn't fail so i'm still a bit disappointed dear lord what a sad little life jane listen it's not the worst but that considering this was like the books i was so sure i was gonna read this year this is not good not good not not not good i was hoping this would be like a happy like christmas studio where i was like oh my god look i read all the books go me and like i was hoping if i was like oh i'm not gonna read any of them by the end everyone was like megan i knew you could do it you should have believed in yourself but actually no i shouldn't have because i didn't delusion convince yourself so listen not the end of the world i will read these books eventually because they are still books i'm very excited for but let me know down below how many of them you've read and what you thought of them any of them your favorite any that you think megan you just shouldn't read that like you'll probably say that for survive the night like i kind of know that's coming but part of me still wants to read it like part of me is still excited for that book and like intrigued so let me know what you thought of them down below if you've gone into this video comment ahead phones emoji if you've gone to the end but listen i'm still gonna make a 22 books i need to read in 2022 video you can't stop me because the serotonin i get from making those tbr videos and also from making these reaction videos like a secret part of me that like likes pain likes it you can't stop me so i'm still gonna make that video and then i will react to at the end of the year and i will have read even less so look forward to that um but yeah thank you so much for watching i love you guys so much and i will speak to you very soon bye