 Good day, May 40 here. So I'm watching this Hulu show Dope sick it is so powerful So powerful now disclaimer Overwhelmingly Opioid abuse is not of legal medication It's overwhelming the deaths and destruction coming from opioids today comes from fentanyl Okay, it doesn't come from prescription medication, so Sacklers Certainly culpable for a lot of evil in the world a lot of death and a lot of destruction But they're not They're not genocidal maniacs, right? They're not the primary people responsible for the white death not the primary people responsible for the opioid problem that we have today But certainly they've done a lot of a lot of bad things So I was reading a Steve sailor essay last week making the point that there's no longer a recreational drug culture Because fentanyl there's in so many recreational drugs Including I guess cocaine and heroin and uppers and downers that you're taking your life, you know In much greater risk now than ever before thanks to fentanyl anyway dope sick it is shining a light an incredibly Big problem in this country over the past 25 years with regard to the Sacklers and the marketing of oxycontin and how they Took advantage of the FDA they perverted the FDA and the Food and Drug Administration and the DEA and the politicians and big government and they got them all in their pocket and they've got to paddle their poison and Played a significant role in destroying tens of thousands of lives now. I don't know where I stand If someone gets addicted to oxycontin. Do I blame the Sacklers the the distributors? My inclination is not even to blame them 50% All right, if you get addicted to a substance my inclination is to say that's That's primarily on you Not that you should feel blame worthy, but it is on you Now things can be on you and you shouldn't take the blame like I didn't ask to be a sex addict a love addict a porn addict a Narcissist a What am I the codependent? Under owner debt or like I didn't ask for any my addiction. You didn't ask for any of your addiction So I'm not using word blame, but yeah, my inclination is if you get addicted to opioids That's primarily about you and your makeup. It's not primarily about the substance that plenty of people can use opioids Recently and responsibly. It's like most people can read Mein Kampf and they're not going to lose their head over it but It may be point zero one percent of people in Mein Kampf and it lose their head and lose their career and lose The nice beautiful lies that they've created because you know, they can't use the calm for responsibly Right, I think most people could read the Communist manifesto without you know losing their life over it But some people will just take it way too far But this this we lose serious dope sick. It's just so powerful about the marketing of Oxycontin that the corruption of our major government agencies such as DEA and FDA and the Corruption of big medicine corruption of medical schools and how the Sacklers, you know Have had the ambition anyway of being the most philanthropic family in the nation and they did give a lot of you know, huge philanthropy, but it was all Not that wasn't all it was substantially based on peddling poison But Oxycontin on the other hand I'm overstating it because it wasn't poisoned to even necessarily most people who talk it But it was poisoned to a substantial number and all then all the lives that they negatively affected. So anyway, I'm I'm watching it. I'm at the end of episode four and I think I'm just gonna have to watch it straight through I've got to watch episodes five and six. I can't stop. This is so good, but I'm watching it and I'm a little bit introspective after my appearance on politically provoke yesterday and I can't get out of my head this this thing that happened to me circa 1986 I think it was summer of 86 and I was feeling happy and Here's what happened Here's the map. So this is in Rockland, California. This is Sierra College Boulevard And so I'm coming here from Newcastle and then I think I exit onto I get onto Sierra College Boulevard I believe And then I'm coming over the freeway and I'm coming down here and then I think there are lights here There were anyway, and there's a big red light for me, but I'm coming over the hill and I'm I'm listening to music And I'm traveling at about 70 miles an hour And there's a red light in front of me But I'm having such a good time listening to the music because I'm driving about 70 miles an hour in my 1968 Volkswagen bug That I don't pay any attention to the red light until I'm just about right under it and There's a whole line of cars Prepared to turn in front of me like right here They're all prepared to turn in front of me. So I'm coming down here at 70 miles an hour I'm paying no attention to the stop light the red light There's a line of cars preparing to turn in front of me and go up Sierra College Boulevard And so the only reason that I'm not a mass motor The only reason that I didn't plow into a completely innocent safe family in a car and kill everyone in that car through my carelessness is Divine grace or good luck or the forbearance of those people who are waiting in line who had a green light to turn in front of me and Somehow they noticed I wasn't paying any attention. I Said that's the only reason I'm not a mass motor Like that's the only reason that I'm not spending the rest of my life in prison. It's just so humbling Like with my carelessness and that think about all the other examples in my life Where the type of carelessness that I exhibited in that instance I've also exhibited but I've just completely, you know blocked it removed it or lost it from my memory. I Just think about all the times that your carelessness has could have been or was responsible for the destruction of untold numbers of lives and Just think about that think about that there are some situations where we would be the concentration camp guards And there are just other situations where we'll be the concentration camp inmates There are some situations where in our other carelessness. We could have easily wiped out a family and effectively being mass murderers it's just so humbling to think about that and And just to like think about the power of pornography that there is pornography for Now almost every guy out there that would just flip his lid That will just you know send his yarmulke off his office head that will just suck you in All right, there's there's pornography for you know every male appetite that would just drive a person crazy because we all have a Love map. We all have an erotic map. We're all programmed to be incredibly aroused by certain scenarios and Pornographers make money by playing to those fantasies and so if we're in a vulnerable state, I mean just I'm just thinking about vulnerability watching dope sec and thinking about how vulnerable we all are I've interviewed thousands of people one thing that I've carried away from it is that we're all far more Everybody's incredibly vulnerable far more vulnerable than I thought of When you interview people you sense there, you know their weaknesses and that their vulnerability and so we have pornography that we're vulnerable to or shopping or food or Certain social scenarios that will lead us down a bad path and The reason that some of us haven't destroyed ourselves is that we by the grace of God haven't been placed in situations that would lead to our destruction or We've been blessed with the right genetics or the right, you know, social imprinting to stay away from those situations that lead to kind of social destruction you see in this This Hulu series dope sec and and just this notion of our own vulnerability like you know I went on politically provoked I you know barely knew anyone on there, you know could have been an absolute horror show and it didn't go too well the first 20 30 minutes because there were technical problems and it just wasn't smooth and I've been in five lawsuits and just think about, you know, how information can come out in a lawsuit They could just absolutely upend your life. I guess that's our American crime story too. I just finished the later season It's so incompetent that the very first graphic in American crime story the final episode about the Bill Clinton impeachment is that they misspelled September They spell it S-T-E-M-E-B-E-R Right Vox they misspelled September in the first opening graphic of the final episode of that show. I Mean who was responsible for that But think of like Bill Clinton's, you know vulnerability There's a certain mouth that he cannot say no to right. There's a certain personality There's a certain, you know woman he has a hard time saying no to And then certain women just have a hard time saying no to power and Then as I think about my own social life how I can go to a party with a hundred women But I would zero in on the woman who's got a you know a father who's a sex addict and she'll zero in on me and You know, we'll scratch each other's itch Which is great for a few weeks or a few months until it just all goes to hell so just thinking about vulnerability and the power of situation and and How our own carelessness can devastate the lives of other people and I think that puts you an appropriate level of Humility to go through life not that you think you love yourself But you just recognize your own vulnerability Therefore you are more understanding about other people's vulnerability and you're less likely to have an exaggerated sense of your own Importance and your own morality and your own wisdom