 Hello everybody and welcome back to Esoteric Atlanta. Just a note before you start this episode, this episode ended up being a very, very, very powerful episode, a deeply personal and deeply vulnerable episode. So if you are in a position where you cannot sit for a moment to take this episode in, I would suggest waiting until you have the time to really digest the messages that come through in this particular reading. With that being said, I hope you all have a wonderful day and let's continue with the show. Hello everybody. I hit record right as I was relighting my sage. I tell you guys, lighting sage, there's a, if one thing new I've learned in this great awakening is how to light sage because there is definitely no involved. You have to have the patience of a saint to be able to light sage. But before we get started, you guys know Nicole and you know Sarah. We're going to look at the coming month of April. I am, once again, I've blessed this computer in this room many times today, but you can never have too many blessings. So I am calling in Michael, Gabriel, Raphael, Magdalen, Yashua, the ones that I don't even know that are here and I don't know your names yet who are here for my highest good for our highest good. One second. I'm going to get the door. Oh, you're fine. Oh, I'll just keep less than you go. You do you do you do you girl. I'm going to ask for all of the beings of the highest good to come in and to protect the space, protect the message, bring, bring about the proper message that the collective needs to hear. If there are any beings that are here human or otherwise that are not here for our highest good that wish to infiltrate our cause harm, you gots to go. I don't consent. I also revoke any permission you think you have to as an entry point into so so be it. So be it. So be it. And so it is. All right, you guys. So how is everybody today? I know we were chatting before we even started filming, but how are you ladies do today? Nicole Dennis. Yeah, I'm doing great. I have a lot of energy. I slept good. I'm ready. I'm ready. I'm ready. I just feel so much energy and things are for me personally, I think things are moving in a very positive direction. Yeah, I feel fantastic. What about you, Sarah? How you feel? I feel actually really good for the first day, first time in a long time. I actually slept and I had a fairly good sleep. It's up like a full eight hours, which is actually huge for me. So the fact that actually feel kind of rusted is amazing. And I have my dark chocolate with me right now. So helping to cleanse because I'm like, I need to cleanse. So I'm good. I'm good. But I agree. Like today, it just feels, it feels good. The energy just feels lighter. It feels good to what you're saying, Nicole. I totally agree. Well, full transparency for everybody watching this, even though this is going to drop on Friday, March 31st, because this is going to be an April reading, which April is tomorrow. We are filming this on Monday, the 27th. So I'm going to go ahead and say happy birthday to Nicole. Her birthday is on Wednesday. So by the time this airs, she will have already had her, her new year, her 50th, her 50th birthday. Happy birthday, Nicole. Thank you. Thank you. She's so young. I mean, we're walking into like, I mean, we're all, we're all in middle school. We're all, we're all middle schoolers. Yeah, compared to the eight. We were. I'm really, I'm really enjoying this time of my life. But earlier, you know, my 20s and 30s, I was like, what the hell am I doing here? Like this is not my place. And then things started to come together. And now it's great. It's wonderful. It's exciting. And I'm very, very grateful and blessed to be here. So every single day, try to make the most of it. There is something to be said about that. I, as you guys know, I just entered my 40s. I know, Sarah, you're not far behind me on that. We were born this far. And I'm actually really loving being 40. I was kind of panicked about it. But I look back, I definitely don't want to do my 20s again. My 30s were great, but I learned so much. And I'm glad I went through. I don't want to do those lessons again, but they were really insightful. So I'm happy to see what the 40s have to bring. You know, so, so I, and we are supposedly going to be living a lot longer. Those of us here on the spiritual journey know that death is just an illusion anyway, regardless of whether you're changing bodies or whatever it is. So, so it's, but it's still, I love birthdays because that's a chance not just for the person who has the birthday, but it's a chance to like celebrate that person's life and the impact that that person has on you. That's how I always see birthdays. Like I love my friends' birthdays because it's a chance to celebrate them and the impact they've made in your life as well. And so, and so I always felt sorry for the religion that didn't celebrate birthdays. I thought, what a shame. Like the Jehovah's Witnesses, like what a shame. You know, that's, that's, that's kind of sad. So, so if you have not told for the audience watching right now, give Nicole a little some birthday love. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. And you're, you're Ares cussing Pisces, right? Yeah. I'm telling you guys, like Ares and Aquarians, well, and Sarah, you're a Leo, right? I'm Leo. So, you're fine. I'm, I'm rising as Leo. So, fire and air, man. It's a good combination. It goes up in a fire tornado. It does. It does. Ares are so much fun. Like Ares and Aquarian, like you guys are so much fun. Bryce goes, wait a minute. You're an Ares. Oh, we're going to get in so much trouble when we party. I had a roommate in L.A. who was an Ares and he was gay. So, there was no like, none of that stuff going on. But it was like, I was like, we're going to, we're going to get arrested. Like, but Aquarians and Ares in that other intimate relationship is also good as well because there's a lot of spark with the air and the fire. But anyway, I digress. I digress. It also has a lot to do with other planetary stuff too. But, you know, that the, the planet, the, the zodiac you were born under open and orb just went by me. So, I've been seeing that orb a lot today. So anyway, I thought what we would do for today is we're going to look at April and you guys know Sarah has been coming on the channel to do her tea leaf reading for the monthly and I asked, Nicole is a brilliant Oracle reader as well. And so I thought we could kind of compare notes on this. And so I don't know how you guys want to do. I don't know if you want to go first with that. And I want to remind everybody, I know you got to boil your tea. I think it's so cute. So Nicole, she has a tea set right there and she like turns it on. It's so, I love it. It reminds me of my grandfather because my grandfather used to make pancakes and we would spend the night. I think I told the story before. But instead of getting up and going to the kitchen, he had like this little stool and he plug it up and just make it at the table and then throw the pancakes. It was only for, only for the grandchildren. We spent the night when he'd do that because we didn't get pancakes from our parents. They had to be like the conscious healthy people. That's, that's why grandparents are great, right? Grandparents get this well, but he would just sit there and I'm like, that's awesome. Oh, Bree just walked in. By the way, I didn't jump. Bree just walked back in. Mom Heather is back and Bree just walked in. So it's fine. Thank you. And I want to remind as Sarah is getting set up, I want to remind everybody that we are doing a collective reading. So this isn't a specific reading. We don't, we don't do divination on any specific people without their consent. Never. Just a general reading for the collective, for whatever spirits, God, whatever you want to call it, wants people to know. With that being said, just to clarify, there could be messages in this reading for you specifically, but there could also be messages for other people as well. So if something doesn't resonate with you, leave it. Just leave it. There could be nothing that resonates with you for this month with, you know what? Sometimes no news is good news. So, you know, so just as it is, there's no one specific we're looking at here. It's just a general collective reading. Again, take what resonates, leave what doesn't. I will say that last week, I believe it was Friday, Pluto moved out of Capricorn and moved into Aquarius. So that could also be a huge reason why we're feeling a little bit of a relief today because insurance of the age of Aquarius. Interesting. So that would make sense. This means with Pluto leaving Capricorn, this means that a lot of the fraudulent business will say it that way. So we're on YouTube. We'll start to crumble. Yay. Olden age of miracles. Here we go. Age of miracles. Yes. So I don't know, ladies. So Sierra, do you want to go first with the with the tea or? Sure. Whatever you like to get. I'm open. Whatever. Nicole, would you like to go first? Show me to go first or? It doesn't matter. I'm good. I'm good. I'm still shuffling my tarot deck, but I've got my dragon cards ready. If you want to start with a little dragon reed. Will that work while you're boiling the water? Would that work for her to go ahead to the dragon reed? Oh, yeah. Absolutely. So I'm just getting the water ready. So you go ahead and do the dragon reading and then I can get the tea right here. So when you do that, I can get this ready. Awesome. Awesome. So this jumped out when we were talking about fire and water, fire dragon, dominance card, and it is believing in yourself, believing in yourself. And then trust. See if I get this one to show. Trust, love and friendship. All of these cards are super beautiful. I love the artwork on them and the messages and the meanings are amazing. They also have constellations associated with each dragon and each card. So I'm going to, I will actually read also from the book. It's got really great messages. I literally just told this to Bryce. Okay. Going with the flow. Going with the flow and time. This is a, this is hard to see. This has got my Delfinas constellation on there. So I'll just read this real quick for the dominance card. I think that's probably the one that will do the, get the best. The constellation is Andromeda. Yeah. Wisdom of the Herald is shed all self doubt as you sit perched upon a throne of strength and know your place. With a sliced mark, you have things covered and you are the captain of your own ship. The wisdom of the dragon in any given moment, fire can rain down from your powerful jaws and let the world hear your roar. Seize and lay siege to the entire kingdom with a single swipe of your claw. Dominate every given situation. You are mighty, powerful dragon, now roar. And the invocation is never slouch, never doubt, puff out your chest and raise your posture up higher and higher. You can do this. You must believe in yourself and then exert the power outward. Find your inner streak and never back down. That's beautiful. And that's the card that jumped out. That's the message that wanted to be really shown to the collective as we were talking about fire and air. That was very significant to me too. I felt like I was being called out there. Yes. And the time, the time card, that's just a direction card. That's like whatever you get when you do your pull, this dragon deck has these direction cards. And so to get time, it's saying you have taken the time to realize your power and now it's time to act on it, really. Yeah. That's beautiful. We are very powerful. That's part of this great awakening, right? I've talked about the intel that we take in is the EDEO. It's just the catalyst. The gnosis that are knowing is the spiritual. So if you have it awakened spiritually, then you're not a part of the great awakening, right? Yeah. And I would say too that those that feel so frustrated about wanting answers, this is your moment. Stop being frustrated because you're not getting the answers from the people that you're listening to. It's time for you to get the answers yourself. This is your frustration with yourself. Like look inside, do your research, and realize what this means to you. Like what does this actually mean for you? It's not for someone else to decide that. Yeah. And you, as the wall of one says, like we know 50% of the population are organic portals. They don't count. The rest of us, there's no new souls on this planet right now. There can't be because of what's happening. Every single person on this planet with a soul sold person is an old soul. So you got this, Boo. This ain't your first rodeo. It's not even your second rodeo. No. This ain't even your third. This is like your 10,000th rodeo. You got this. Like stop hacking. That's why we're here. That's why we're here. The law of one states that there were many souls lined up wanting to come to earth for this experience and source said, Nope, these are the souls we need to do this because they're the ones that can do this. And so if source creator had enough faith in you to put you here in this battle, then it's time for you to have that faith in yourself. Absolutely. I totally agree. Totally. And I love how I love watching Sarah set up because it's so, it's so fun to watch you set up because it's so different than what we normally see, right, with divination. It's just so freaking different. It's awesome. I'm off my own little world. I'm listening to what you ladies are saying, but I'm like, Oh, I'm upside down. And she's dabbing it and she's so methodical. I love it. You should see videos of you. What are those videos of people like eating cupcakes? What do they call the sound where people get attracted to like watching people eat the sound of eating or right at a camera? There's a certain type. You should do that. Just videos of you cleaning your you would probably be like a YouTube superstar because it's so like meditative to watch you do. Thank you. That's really sweet. I'm like, I'm just like in my own little world. I'm like, I'm listening to what you ladies are saying. I love it. Sarah and y'all, Nicole is from the South too. So when we talk about tea in the South, it's some cold ice sweet tea. So we're not used to like the fancy hot tea and I'm sorry. Sorry, Nicole, the little bitty cups. I see the little bitty cup. But I'm like, What am I doing with that? Yeah, we have big old glasses, big old glass to glass. I use mugs. I mean, you can use the fancy tea cups and I do have them. But I just, I like my mug. And I can send this before, but it's true. Like, I'm a coffee drink. Like, I love coffee. I have my coffee over here. I don't even really drink tea. I only drink Roy bus tea. It's actually pretty funny that I do TV reading because I was not just saying God has a sense of humor that so sounds like something God would do. Like, yeah, we'll make you a tea leader who does TV breeder who doesn't like tea. Don't like it very much. I like two kinds of tea. And that's about it. I think I think God has a total sense of humor. So I totally absolutely like that is that is something our creator would do just a little lol moment like for sure. And I want to, you know, I can, if I may say Nicole, when you were talking about the fire dragon about the part about stepping into yourself empowerment and stepping into yourself, I just posted, I'm so behind on my TV feeding for my own channel, but I just posted the TV feeding for the past two weeks. And I think at the end of it, near the base, which should be heading into sort of like now ish, it was exactly what you were saying about stepping into it was like this magical sense of intuition and recognizing yourself and being self empowered. So when you were saying that, I'm like, well, that's interesting. So exactly what came through. Yeah, that's another synchronicity. Yes. Yes. No coincidences. No. And Sarah, I must say you're looking very thin today. I just noticed that you're looking very thin. Oh, well, thank you. That's very sweet of you. Thank you. Very I was like, I just noticed that when you're moving, I was like, girls get thin. Look at you. Good job. Thank you. It's very sweet. I'm working hard at it. Well, it's showing. So you that deserves celebration as well. Thank you. That's something that I've always struggled with. Always. Yeah, but I think just just with everything that's changing now, it just it seems to be that's another transformation that's taking place for me for myself as well. So thank you. That's nothing to be ashamed of as I tell people all the time every single I want. And speaking to the audience watching if you're someone that struggles with weight issues like that, don't beat yourself up about that. We all have wounds. We all have imbalances. That's the that's your micro work. That's the part of why your soul is refining itself. And like just because someone like me doesn't have that issue doesn't mean I don't have other issues. Like it's just it's just so so in any time you see effort being made to course correct and to heal yourself like that deserves a body. I was telling Nicole before we signed or before we started, before you jumped on Sarah that I am starting for next week the octurion and analog and they there's one scene where the guy channeling talks about how he's hearing the octurion, but he doubts himself. So he's asking the octurion to show himself and the octurion is like, No, that's too hard to come down to your vibration. I'm just going to change something in the clouds to prove I'm here. And I paused for a minute. I was like, Let's think about that. Let's think about that for one minute. That's how hard it is to human. That these beings we see as being like consciously maybe more in depth than we are. I don't want to say superior, but more into having more of an understanding that we do. It's hard for them to take form in this density. So the fact that you're in a human body right now doing this, doing the human stuff, you have got to give yourself some grace because you and that is why like I had a memory of the angels bowing. A lot of people have that memory of coming down to earth and angels bowing. It's because we were the ones that were tough enough to be able to be in human form in this moment. So when you were in a human body and you were on the battlefield like Sarah is, and you were also taking care of your own stuff, like that deserves a round of applause. So I think Sarah, you should definitely be very proud of yourself for just doing it. And for anybody watching right now who's just taking that resistance and been like, I see your resistance and we're going to make, we're going to take this resistant. We're going to create that friction and we're going to spark a flame because you are here to do that because you are strong enough to do that. I just really want to express that to you guys like stop beating yourself up, forgive yourself from beating yourself up first of all and understand that you're a fucking badass. Yeah. And the other thing I would add to that if I could is that we are not the meat suit that we walk around in. It's literally something that we chose to come into in this life to provide us with lessons that we needed to come, things that we needed to come to term with. And I say all the time, I'm like, I seriously chose this big ass to shove into some pants. Like really, I did that to myself. Nicole, you're so beautiful though. I wouldn't even say that about yourself. Like why? My lesson in my learning. I've said that before because it's the Shakti, this you and the Shakti. I'm like, look at people like you picked that nose. Like really? I know Sarah's last reading was like a dark-haired person with a prominent nose. I'm like, I love that when she says a prominent, she's so polite. I'm like a big nose. Got a big nose. She's so polite about it. I've been like, listen, there's somebody that's not the really big nose in here. No, no, no. So yeah, I just I want to take this moment to celebrate you, Sarah, for that accomplishment, for everybody watching right now. Because yeah, Nicole is right. Your body is your Shakti. It's your vehicle. And so you're here doing multiple things. You're just not here to fight the macro, but you're also in the micro as well. And so congratulations for everybody who is and I just wanted to say to you, like a couple of nights ago, Nicole, I was like, damn, I'm tired. I don't want to put my She-Ra costume on and fight battles anymore. I used to watch She-Ra all the time when I was little. Like one of my favorite shows. Isn't that telling? Because yeah, it's like, yeah, we got it. We got to we got to take care of ourselves and do the big stuff too. So, you know, it's it's and we as I always say, I keep saying like that's the difference between us and them. We look cute doing it. Yeah, we look cute in our She-Ra costume. We sure do. We look good. You look good. They don't. It is true because the light comes from within. That's why people on this side tend to look better than the other side. It's because it's it's an indication of the light, right? So anyway, girl, the or just this orb, this orb has been like around me all day. I keep thinking it's a lightning bug, but I don't know if you guys saw that it just I keep seeing it not just on screen, but in my preference as well. So wow, that's really cool. If you're seeing it visually, like from your own eyes too. Yeah. That's one of your fairies. That's one of your fairies. Do you have a fairie? Do you have a fairy keep in your place? Do you have a spot where you just put like little stuff for the fairies? But we have fairy doors all over Atlanta. Isn't that interesting? So I always have a fairy keep and it's really just like a little bit of greenery, a little bit of grain, flowers and some sparkles. So like beads or I put like a charm bracelet in there and then I just give thanks like once a week. I give thanks for their energy and their joy and their protection because they really do a lot for us even inside and you just normally can't see them. That might be my whole setup back here for them because I've got all sorts of rocks and stuff over here. But you just have to say, you have to acknowledge them. You have to say, I know you're here with me. You're helping me, all the things and I let you live amongst my prettys because they love to live amongst the prettys and the flowers and stuff. Hey boo hey. Welcome to my home. You can stay here as long as you need to. I know we learn your worst of every day, don't we? So yeah, that one little orb has been around. All my recordings today I've seen this sucker just like flying around. So that's definitely more fairy activity than normal orb activity, I think. Right. Are you ready to go, Sarah? You got your tea ready? I got my tea ready and I'm sort of excited to see what you're going to get Nicole when you do your next pull so we can compare. I love this idea. I love doing this because you can just get more information and validate and corroborate. I think this is awesome. Okay, so how long would you like this tea to be feeding to be? You want to do the normal 30 minutes and I'll time you. Okay. So I'm going to put the camera on you now, girl. Okay, here we go. I'm going to turn up my light here. I'm a new ring light so I'm going to be blinded here for a few seconds just so I can see the better. Okay, it makes sense, Nicole, that you got the fire dragon like right off the get go because I can send you pictures too if you look here. That's a lot of beliefs is the main event or situation because it's like if any, as you know, like usually when I did TV readings, there's usually one main event or one main event or situation like the main focus, the main information, the main message, the main situation that's being referred to in the tea leaves and usually it's like a more of a one, it's a smaller line. This is absolutely huge and it's taking up a third of the entire cup. So whatever this is referring to for the month of April, again, Nicole makes sense that you got fire because this is huge. There's a lot involved and it's a very unique scenario because usually, like I said, it's just one line, but this is really cool sort of curves, it sort of goes on an angle, which to me is just a very unique situation. It's almost like, but it's very beautiful. It's almost like like the Fibonacci sequence because it comes on from an angle and then it curves back in. So I don't know how well it's going to show here, but you can sort of see it curving there and then it sort of curves around and goes into the base, which I just find very intriguing. I've never seen that before. So let's just see what's in here for April. Okay. One is common one can breathe. Okay. So looking at the main event or situation, so for the beginning of the month, it does appear to me counting here one is again, I'm going to start off quite busy. There's likely going to be one, there's likely going to be five main events or situations or scenarios they can pace at the beginning of the month, but two of those are the prominent ones and those two are likely are to have some influencer or some aspect of wanting things to get moving faster or more forward. So you may feel like I always like to put the positive spin on that. So you could say, you feel like you're stuck or stagnant and you want things to get moving and or you're very happy that with that things are common quiet and you're happy with that, but it's either of those scenarios, but specifically for two areas and then another three that are slightly less significant to present and then there's a couple other smaller ones. It's just so it does sound like the beginning does start quite quite busily to be honest and the two larger events or situations that are quiet do pertain directly or related directly to this main event, which I'm still boggled by because it's so big. So I like to do an overall, so overall there's just going to be a lot happening. There's going to be a lot of different events or situations pertaining to this main event, so individual scenarios taking place. I think that for the from what I'm seeing there's going to be some surprises, but at the same time we're going to know where we stand with a lot of things. It's really a combination between surprises knowing where we stand and a lot of thinking and talking, a lot of conversations, a lot of ideas taking place, but just basically full on general busyness whatever the situation specifically is regarding. I mean aside from that also to get go of the beginning of the month there is a small scenario indirectly related to this whole event that doesn't involve a new beginning, a new thought, a new opportunity that's being contemplated that hasn't yet happened, which makes sense at the start of the month. This really is about climbing the mountain something new that is being contemplated that results in taking a leap of faith going forward every day that you want to have effort being, definite effort being made. It involves some kind of knowledge or wisdom. I mean I see a version of an open book here, so I just say version of wisdom because I could say reading a book, reading books, writing a book, taking a course, there's so many different versions of knowledge or wisdom that you could relate to individual situations, but I just say just for simplicity sake some kind of wisdom learning knowledge of some kind education absolutely possible with this as well. Thoughts for ideas and one, two, three, four, five. Likely seven different aspects involved in that situation if you want to get really into detail about that as well. And again this is at the beginning of the month and this is an idea that's being contemplated, but at the same time there are two small opportunities that take place as a result directly from that and quite honestly we're receiving a lot of good things too. They're right after that indirectly related to the whole main scenario. I'm just following the line down and we are receiving something very like exceptionally good, a lot of happiness. There's a happy face and that involves positive movement forward as well as messages, news, and or information that's regarding that scenario. Again, regarding this, this education, wisdom, knowledge, open book. But again there's this positive movement forward, playfulness as well. Like there's literally someone, there's literally a girl who looks like she's playing catch with a mitt which I've never seen before that's what I'm saying playfulness. So looking at the main event. So April, so April, so that is Aries. So there is a fire sign that there's a staff or a wand that's being shown here. So that's Aries as a fire sign. So there's that being shown here as well and that's regarding one sort of thing in particular as a bonus message. So some kind of action, speed, momentum, things taking place rather quickly. This relates specifically to a scenario where at the beginning of the month we're going to be receiving something very good and this is in regards to a document likely of some kind that involves two different aspects, two different parts to it. And it is a positive scenario. There potentially may be a Leo connection, someone who is like the Leo or the qualities of Leo, I'm not an astrologer, but the qualities of Leo are like the present as a result of that scenario. But it is positive. There's happy faces. And probably I'm going to say for the sake of not being repetitive, I just won't say happy faces again, because I'll probably be saying it like, I will be saying it multiple times. So just know that there's a lot of happy faces throughout here. So there's going to be a lot of goodness that unfolds. I would say throughout the month. I would say to that just because and again, this is all for entertainment purposes only. But I would say that based on what I'm saying, just because there's just so much happening all at the same time, this is likely a small reminder to just pace ourselves, because there is a lot happening. So just whatever you need to do to calm your mind, take some deep breaths, yoga meditation, whatever it is, just to pace yourself, because you are going to be able to focus on this and not really be distracted by too many other things until I would say almost near to the middle of the month. There's going to be one, two, three, four, five, six, seven likely different individual events or situations taking place as well. But they are fairly short term. So they started like the beginning, no, around the middle of the month, and then it concluded the end of the month. So I'm just saying that in case it makes sense to some people, but just use the time that you have just to pace yourself is what I was all I'm saying. Do yourself cares. Some people may actually be thinking of moving in the beginning of the month. For myself, that's what turtles mean to me, and I see that's what that means to me. So there is a turtle at the start of the month. So again, someone may be thinking of moving, and if so, it does look like a very good scenario. There also may be a letter C, likely the letter C that's involved person placed or thing like that, that thought of moving, it may involve a letter L as well. So again, person placed a thing with a letter L. And this is obviously giving us some sense of stability. There's stability regarding that. A small reminder for perspective, class half full, class FMT, not acknowledging things that don't need to be acknowledged, like acknowledge what you need to do, but saw that whole positive thinking message. A reminder that the angels are around us, which I believe is true anyway, but sometimes it's just nice to hear that as a reminder. So I am seeing a beautiful angel up near the top. Another way that you can say that is that is that there is angelic help available or a connection with the angels involved near the beginning of the month, and that it's likely related to the moon specifically. That's also connected to some kind of conclusion. It's a new opportunity, but at the same time, it is a conclusion. So something is ending, but this involves likely two people and very positive movement forward. It's almost like I wonder if someone's thinking of taking a leap of faith. There's a lovely horse and a horse's head there. So for me, this is just myself, horses meaning like going for whatever it is that you want to have, action, vitality, life force, not being inhibited, like literally being unbridled, momentum, going for whatever it is that you want to have. So think that for what you will. This may very well involve a partnership of some kind and positive communication between two people regarding that specifically. There also may be a personal place to think with a letter Y that's involved. Again, for sake of not being repetitive, there are many people being shown in here like a lot. So there's a lot of helpful people. When I see people in TV, I always say it's helpful people. So there's just a lot of helpful people involved throughout the month. Now, this close communication between two people that like me, there's a surprise in there, it may involve, I don't want to trigger any words, but small individuals and also something to do with the whole man or family. Letter E, personal place or thing like be a person with a letter E that's involved. And that does help to create a new beginning. And also the letter M, lots of letters, letter M. Gosh, it's just a lot of happy faces. There's a small cute little puppy up near the beginning of the event. So this whole layout. So unconditional love, support, loyalty and commitment, protection, guardianship, all of those qualities are present. That is actually helping to create a very intriguing scenario where there is a lot of stability and a lot of protection. Not like we're in danger, but protection is involved that we are being protected and looked after, which I think is true anyway, but nice to hear it sometimes. And that also involves taking care of self-care. And the letter J is involved. Maybe the letter U. And there's positive news coming regarding that. And a positive partnership too. And positive and positive news, good news is on the way. So if anyone sort of wanted to hear or feels like we need to know hear about reassurance, which I know I do sometimes, it looks like especially at the start, there's a lot of reassurance. There's a lot of dogs and there's a couple of dragons. So for myself, like it's so cool that you have the dragon cards. I was like, oh, you have dragon cards? Because I love dragons. I love them. And so whenever I see dragons in TV, I always say like a knight in shining armor times a 10 or 100 or even a thousand. Like there's nothing that can get past them to me. So I just keep seeing that. So to corroborate even the fact that you have dragon cards with you today, like I keep seeing dragons in here. I think we're going to learn more about our dragon friends. The more the deeper we go into this, I feel like dragons have been given a bad rap and I feel like it's totally there. Time to shine again. Dragon energy came back in in February, February 22nd. I was a dragon energy portal and that the elementals and the dragon energy has been restored as of that time. And so people that have that connection can see them and hear them and call them in and use their power. That is beautiful. Just going down here a little bit further. There's a few letter J's and there's also another letter S and there really is a situation where person puts a thing with an S and J specifically that involve an M and an M that we are receiving really good news like the about the whole manager of family. And this may be even a possible addition to the family. It could even be some financial abundance that's being present. But it also is interesting because it does involve some kind of getting things organized, but also partnership too. So from that, like for example, I use this example a lot because I find it conveys my meaning because with tele-freeding, I have literally the situations could be so different for everyone. But for example, say you open a knitting store and you decide to also teach courses on how to knit. Well, that's abundance coming from abundance. So that's the example of what I keep saying. Going down further. Yeah, more dragons. Pick an area and go with it. It's coming there. Okay. And there you're at the 15 minute mark. So let's go. Thank you. I thank you because I'm only up near the tops. I will keep going. Thank you. Okay. There's also, I know again that we're in this period of time, but there's also tourist or areas connection that's being referenced near the beginning of this whole event. So that could be timing, but I would say like me, it's this qualities of that sign or someone who is that sign. Likely someone who has that sign that's present. Definitely surprises and they include abundance and prosperity. And this is about again, messages, news and information, community, but home and our family, abundance that we're receiving. And this involves helpful people, like we money. Again, we have a someone with a letter N and this is again, an angelic angelic help is being shown. And there's also, if someone may have had quickly, have had a dog with a letter N that may have passed, this could absolutely be their dog coming through in the tea leaves. I'm just saying that in case and N and C in case it makes sense to and C and W in case it makes sense to anyone maybe watching. So if so, please know that your dog is coming through in the tea leaves, which does happen, quite honestly. And we have a letter V, person closer thing. Oh, we have another dragon, cool. Law of protection throughout this month, protection, commitment, loyalty. We have a number seven. So take that for what you will know. That's like a esoteric spiritual and sacred knowledge number. I keep seeing the letter W as well. So person closer thing, like you hear with a letter W and seven. And again, this, this going for whatever it is that you want to have this sacred spiritual knowledge, this letter A and V and protection and going for whatever it is that you want to have it having, having that loyalty commitment, knowing that you're safe as well. A lot of love, a lot of commitment, a lot of protection, a lot of love. We also have a group in care with the letters F and S could be the letter E, but clearly F and S and E. And that involves someone specifically involving getting things organized in whatever way she performed that maybe because that could be different for everyone in every situation, but getting things organized. Number three, there's, I keep seeing a lot of hens and little cute little hens. So there's a lot of additions to the family and or money coming in, like the abundance and prosperity and whatever way she performed that maybe. And then as we go down further in the cup, again, huge happy faces. A lot of surprises, I would say by the latter half in the latter half of the month, we're going to start to see some large surprises in two areas, two surprises specifically, but we're going to see surprises throughout the whole month. And that one of the main surprises involves working with other people. Keep seeing letter W. Number seven again, partnerships, a lot of close communication between people. Letter L. Now what else with the letter L? A helpful individual. This is likely a woman who is connected with the letter L and this involves someone who is likely, it's quite one second, very tiny, involves a document of some kind that has two parts to it. I thought it was referencing a natural logical sign, but it wasn't. Yeah. And going for whatever it is that you want to have. There's again, like there's action, speed, momentum going for whatever it is going for whatever it is that you want to have, not being inhibited. Going down further. Now we're heading into the base. I would just say again, just pace yourself. It's going to be a very, very busy month. Yeah. A lot of close communication between other people. Going down further as we soup into the base. So this is like the end of April. And I would even say the end of April heading into May. What do we have? Much of the same, I would say. Going to be quite busy. Maybe slightly less busy, but still very busy. A beautiful partnership that is beginning to form. More than one, but it's definitely one. Someone with a letter, a personal place to think with letters S and C and R. Possibly E. I'm saying that in case it makes sense to someone, but the E is not quite as clear. But those are regarding helpful individuals. And again, I keep seeing partnerships. So partnerships to me could mean anything from a new friend to a new associate. It could be literally anything, but there's some kind of new partnership that it keeps seeing throughout this entire month and now into the base as well. But there really is a lot of abundance and prosperity. New thoughts, new ideas, new beginnings, new conclusions, but the conclusions bring about new beginnings as well as we know. A lot of helpful people. I'm not seeing any smooching this time. No smooching. Oh yeah. I was about to say, you guys know that sometimes the T-reads get x-rated. They're x-rated. We love a good x-rated T-reading on this channel. No x-rated this time. It's quite toned down from last time. I'm just saying a quick look here. But I am seeing a lot of, again, I keep seeing a lot of people in close communication. So even though there may not be a whole lot of x-rated T-reads, but there are a lot of people in close contact. We're openly communicating. We could say possible foreplay happening. Only you would say that. We're doing it already. We're gearing up. We don't just hop into bed that easily. Like we gotta gear up for this. Trust has to be earned. Forgiveness has to be earned. How can I even follow up to that? I'm not seeing any x-rated T-reads. It's just a lot of people talking. So yeah, whatever works. But that's essentially what I'm seeing. It looks like heading into next month. There's just a lot. There are some surprises, but there's a lot of people closely communicating and a lot of talking and a lot of surprises and partnerships. Again, the theme of this month is heading into the end of this month and heading into next month too. And quickly looking around the sides. Is there anything else more to say? More of the same letter S. Learning education connection. Helpful individuals. More dragons. So more protection is involved. Stability. Cancerian connection. So someone like me who has that sign involved. Or those qualities are present. A helpful individual taking a leap of faith likely to also be referencing an angelic connection. And a lot of... I keep seeing books and people reading books. So again, take that for what you will. I mean, I just say knowledge because it literally, again, could... I know I'm repeating myself, but it could literally mean referencing. You're reading a book. You're writing a book. You're writing in a journal. You're writing a dream journal. You are taking notes from a course. You are writing a book. There's so many different variations that could be, but there's some level of knowledge that I keep seeing. People are reading books. So someone maybe thinking of taking a course or they're teaching a course. It doesn't matter what it is, but there's some form of education and knowledge that I keep seeing throughout this month. And just to wrap it up, happy faces. It's more people communicating. So lots of communication. That's what I keep seeing. That's what I keep seeing. So hopefully that TV freedom helps some people. Can I ask a question? And maybe Nicole can get clarity with the books because this hit me like I was sitting here. I was like, whoa. And this could be just... I mean, like I said, take it, take what resonates guys. This could be just for a select few. The book reading. Does this have to do with us getting access to our Cache records? It could possibly be. And I would never say no. Because when someone... I may say something, I may see something. And if someone asked me, well, could it be a Cache record? Could it be this? Could be that? And I say, yes, absolutely. I don't know. But all I know is that from what I'm seeing is that there is some form of education, knowledge, insight. So whether it's like at the 3D level of like your physically like writing notes or writing a journal or writing a book or taking a course or whether it is greater knowledge like that, absolutely. Because I'm not God. And I would never say yes or no, because I would never say no because I don't know. But what I do know is what I'm saying. So I would say yes. So what you're saying? Absolutely. 100%. Could totally be that. And I did get the wisdom card for the dragon draw, the wisdom card. That's so beautiful. And it has a dragon constellation on it as well. And I know. And then when you were describing that big wave coming in and the tea leaves, this is what jumped out at me. Oh, it disappeared. Oh, it just went away. That's beautiful. And it's freedom, breaking the chains. And so what does education do? What does wisdom do? Wisdom, it gives you the ability to make better choices and gain your freedom. Knowledge is power, right? Yeah, the text and knowledge is infinite. Yeah. Yeah. And with that, you'll have some grief because people are going to be figuring stuff out. You know, this is a grief card where they're coming to terms with what they thought they knew and what the truth really is, what that knowledge gives them the freedom to make the course correction. Course correction. 100%. 100%. And Nicole, you and I talked about this a couple of days ago when you said that the grief coming through, I think that, and this came up in the Sofia Code today on Aquarius Rising Africa, which you guys are watching this this Web in Monday. Okay. Forgiveness, being able to be in a place of forgiving those who have hurt us. And that's where I am. I'm at that place of being like, I forgive you. I forgive you. Yeah, because it's an integral part of every soul's ability to move forward is to forgive. We all have to go through what we have to go through. And it only stifles your progress and your growth to just sit there and relive the pain and relive the trauma and the heartache. So forgive is to release your soul and to go forward. It's not really about the things that happened with other people or not it can be, but it's really the power comes in through yourself and that active forgiveness frees up your energy. So you're no longer in that low vibrational state and you can really benefit from the growth that you're doing to work on yourself. So I'm really happy that a lot of us are going to get to that point. I think a lot of us have been trying to get there, but you know, sometimes you're pissed and you can't get to that point. You're just just quite ahead. It took me a while to get to that place and Nicole knows and I'm at a place where I can look in the camera and say, I forgive you for all the people that attacked me. I forgive you. I do. That's why I can laugh about it. It's because I forgive you. Now, you've got to forgive yourself. And then we can move forward. There's heavy guilt. I know people feel guilt. I know, you know, and I think a lot of that too with the book, the knowledge, the infant knowledge, we start to realize how controlled we actually are by thoughts and some of those thoughts aren't our own thoughts. It's bondage and we realize we've acted out. We've acted poorly or done something awful to someone that we actually love because we've been mind controlled to an extent to actually have the power to forgive ourselves for doing that. And I've forgiven the people who've done it to me. They and I would suggest really reading the ISIS key code because she talks a lot about this. You want to take power away from someone. Forgive them. Yeah. You taught me that, Nicole, like, yeah. So I will say, Sarah, though, I was texting when Nicole, because I was like, I feel like I'm on display. I think as long as we just keep, keep doing what we're doing, so I go ahead. Anyway, I was like, I kept texting Nicole. I was like, did you hear that? Yeah. Yeah. Very good. Very, very synchronistic. That was amazing. Do you want to pull any more cards, Nicole? Or do you want to? I can. I can. But you know, I really feel like it's like the same. It's the same thing. Like, everybody's coming into their power. They're taking their power back. That that wisdom is coming into play because people no longer feel like they're untethered. They feel like they're getting their grounding back and they're able to make positive progress and plans where they've just kind of been sitting, you know, churning prior to gaining their knowledge that they needed to go forward. And that knowledge is different for everybody. What they needed to be able to make that decision, what they needed to be able to, whether it's in your home life or in your work or community or faith journey. I'm on the faith journey. I can attest for that. It's like, you know, I was going to say, I was in Aquarius, but we were redoing the ice, or the Sophia code, which is my second time around with it. And I just felt inclined like Spear maybe was the fairy that said, read from this. And I opened it right to the direct page that I want to read from. So as you're pulling the cards, the cards, Nicole, this is from Isis. This is what you say. She says, you need to say to yourself and believe within yourself. I forgive myself for fearing that I will die for embodying my personal power. I forgive myself for suffocating my own voice to prevent the full expression of my personal power. I forgive myself for dreading an outcome of isolation for living in my personal power. I forgive myself for acts of self rejection and shaming of my human body that I committed to blatantly resist embodying my personal power. I forgive myself for the practice of self-determined confusion to separate me from the aligned actions of my personal power. I forgive myself for relinquishing my personal power to bless others and myself. I forgive myself for the frightening feelings caused by believing my personal power comes from an externalized place other than the God self within me. I forgive myself for the tear of believing that if I accessed my personal power I would hurt others and myself. I forgive myself for the self-shaming belief that others have more right to my personal power than I do. I forgive myself for incurring debts of poverty from denying my personal power. I forgive myself for practicing of blaming others to distract me from accessing my personal power. I forgive myself for taking refuge in victimhood to defend my limitations and deny my personal power. I forgive myself for blinding my own eyes to the truth of my innate personal power. I forgive myself for every belief and sole contract of self-agreed slavery to anything outside of myself. I forgive myself for the self-rejection of the Holy Spirit within my human form. I forgive myself for self-judgment and doubt that my soul does not belong to me. I forgive myself for the dreadful belief that sovereign power which created me was outside of my true self. By the power of my I am presence the God self within me I now summon the Holy Spirit of my higher self to release and dissolve these unconscious beliefs, vows, oaths and soul contracts from the matrix of my carbon-based DNA. I call forth the Holy Spirit of my higher self to now fill every cell of my body with self-forgiveness and the breath of life. I forgive myself. I forgive myself. I forgive myself by the power of three a perfect trinity it is done. Very powerful. Very powerful. And while you were doing that I got the wisdom card again. I got the vision card again. I got understanding looking at both sides because it takes looking at both sides to truly forgive because even if you feel just total victimhood you played a part in that encounter. That's why you have to forgive yourself. I've had people ask me that before like why do I have to forgive myself it was done to me and the actual thing is it was done for you. It wasn't done to you. It was done for you to give you the lesson that you needed to it so you knew how strong you were and the and the direction card that came up is inspiration. This is the third time that cards jumped out today so I'm going to read that one. It is time to gather and I'm sorry wrong one. It is time to listen to the whispers on the wind and the deeper energies flowing in every situation for new ideas and creativity that can all be found around you. I am everywhere and nowhere at the same time listen to my call and be inspired. Draw from me your new undertaking. I will be available to you in all points times and places. I'm abundant energy just ready to be plucked from the ether when I strike often without warning be inspired. The general of inspiration beckons you to heed the call of source to abundantly creative creativity that is larger than yourself. Draw from the well of inspiration you will no longer be thirsty. Now is the time to be inspiration and be creative in in your own life. So a lot of this same message energy is going on right now. Absolutely I'm so curious what this is going to be in April. I'm so curious. So I I kept filling that fairy around me saying it wanted to speak and I was going to ask Nicole to actually pull and the fairy said no you pull. So I said the fairy said three card spread that's it and the last card I got I had to clarify with two more cards but I'm going to show you guys and this this resonates with me and it kind of makes me want to cry because we're all tired. I'm not going to pretend like we don't pretend this is easy like we've I mean how many times have I stood out inside and like a board mission. Save me up when you're trying. I hate periods. I hate crams. I hate this shit. More smooching. More smooching. Now and so I just I I'm listening to what they've said about the wisdom about what the contracts the talking the communication which the forgiveness making amends with people that truly matter to you the souls you know how sad is it that one event can happen where something bad happens and two souls that are supposed to be working together all of a sudden don't speak because of something I'm not saying if there's abuse you obviously have to put a boundary up but I did a three card spread spread the first card that popped out was the Empress the second card that popped out was the Six of Swords which is coming out of troubled waters the Empress is moving out of the hard stuff and then I got the Four of Swords which typically means death card but I kept thinking it means rest and regeneration and so I asked can you clarify this just for me and the two cards I got were the Five of Swords and the Sun card so the Five of Swords is like something worth worth fighting for you are being rejuvenated resting from a battle that you had to fight and it is going to bring about the Sun card the golden age of miracles yeah and I don't want to say that that is specifically just for women I were it's about the divine feminine in every living thing that's what's been at this day that's why the Magdalene you know I've I've discovered in my own research as of now that the royal bloodline we're looking at is not Yeshua's it's Magdalene's and it's not literally I'm talking about the divine feminine that's what's been at war the sacred prostitute is what we're going to call it because she wasn't a prostitute no and she is within everyone even the men watching as well yeah right everybody knows she's my guide too one of my guides and I have a direct connection to her um and that she is within everyone Magdalene is like she is like the Mac Daddy and Magdalene means something right it's not she was not from Magdala that didn't even exist when she was around like that's the controller's narrative she was Magdalene and I feel like that word in itself her name is actually a mantra and I want to say and maybe this is the fairy talking maybe it's Magdalene talking use her name as your mantra when you are feeling like you can't find your own power say her name three times Magdalene Magdalene Magdalene and that is going to ignite that flame of that personal power and sovereign strength there is nobody that represents divine sovereignty more than Magdalene yep and it's in line with that that wisdom from rage in the Magdalene wisdom again pay all that and harness that power and and use it for the greater good use it for your greater good absolutely I'm actually getting that Magdalene wants to say something so I'm going to pull and you guys do you want to pull as well Nicole and see and I'll be told like there's more girl listen Magdalene's funny she's funny but she's like keep going keep going girl you're not you're not done yet I know you're hungry you got a pee but you're not done does she want me to use the dragon deck or a different deck have her tell you ask her yourself that's what she's saying I'm gonna I'm gonna mute so that you don't hear the card shuffling in the microphone yeah me too Sarah can talk for a minute about sorry talk about talk about what I didn't hear the last part sorry whatever you want to grow while we shovel okay I open like um no I totally agree I mean and I love Magdalene too and I I feel like I felt her around more more recently too and and like you said Bryce one time like ask her for a hug and I did the other night you can totally feel you just put your arms out you say Magdalene may I please have a hug and she does hug you and it was so beautiful when you said that the other day because I was one of your videos I saw and I went I haven't done that in a long time so I did it again and you can absolutely feel it but it's true and and I'm I'm very curious with all this all of our beautiful all the beautiful divination happening today like what is coming up in April like the messages are very consistent that whatever is coming up for this month it's it's it's huge and I am I am genuinely curious it's like we've been working working working working working so hard and slugging away and really doing our work and and whatever way she performs they are and then to be embodying the self-power and that open communication with the divine and to see what is on the way and knowing that we are truly enough and I think that's one thing that we to what you both ladies were saying it's something that we I think it's so easy to forget because it's so easy to forget that we are good enough and then we think we're not and it's all the societal programs we're not yeah because you go to a doctor for medical advice you go to a teacher for this advice you've been told to trust this the experts not trust your own inner self and I got I got a message from Magdalene here and I don't know if this is a personal message for me or I'm the collective I'm just going to give you what I've got and every take what resonates so the first thing I got is the Page of Wands so it's interesting that you saw wands in your mug because wands this is the Aries deck so this is the fire the wands there's always Aries right so for the Emperor is the Mastercard of Aries so when we see the Page of Wands the page is always childlike so we think of it's coming in hot like something this could also be a one-night stand but I'm not getting this with this spread right this is like coming in hot like something fast action like it's just going to happen right and then we got the next which is the Six of Wands which is a victory coming in hot for a victory which is then going to create change I'm so curious so I got I got the divine feminine deck to pull from so the first one that jumped out is Diana Queen of the Wilderness the language of the natural world is a frequency of love and this is my mother tongue then the goddess of light Amaterusa we are all sacred mirrors reflecting back the same light and the last one is Lalitha the red goddess playfulness is a spiritual power laughter leads me back to the light order of the red rose yeah and there's fire and there's light and there's laughter and not taking yourself so seriously and forgiveness comes with that yeah you get your power back put your power back in fire it's like that's like that's spirit yeah yeah and that comes in hot as soon as you ask for it it's right there quantum immediate yeah that's that page of wants yeah yeah yeah not slow and deliberate it's it's right it's immediate action right it's a victory which brings change yeah yeah and I think the wisdom that people get has been slowly leaking out but now it's coming in big and so now they're having to make that that aha moment change okay so now I've got the information what are you going to do with it what are you going to do with it for the greater good yeah now I'm hearing Kwan-Wit Kwan-Yen wants to say something that's my girl that's my girl here you guys listen we gotta take a line here I'm not a reader either so I know I do cards I do cards for fun but uh yeah Kwan-Yen's my main soul imprint Kwan-Yen you tell me girl what do you want I guess she wants the cold to pull to Kwan-Yen what do you want to say honey the queen of compassion one of the most powerful key codes you'll ever read in the Sophia code um Kwan-Yen Kwan-Yen man look what's under the deck oh wow the tower divided into I'm getting told divided into three pull from this one with the tower again under I mean this might be a message for me as well personal guys once again five of swords something worth fighting for page of page of pentacles a new beginning is coming and you're going to have to be offering of love the queen of cups is love be be there for the new beginning to offer nothing but unconditional love speaking of forgiveness that's what I took for the message for me is be in that place of compassion and forgiveness in loving in order to move into the new you fought for what was worth fighting for you're going to get the new beginning but then you're going to have to take that loving step yeah okay all right so what I got is our lady of Guadalupe the Empress of Protection I'm safe and divinely protected and held in love at all times and then Lilith the first woman the voice of my body and soul I choose the life I desire to live could not be conquered could not be controlled and Aquilanda the goddess of never not broken everything happens for my liberation I choose to become only more love I hope you can see this card she goes from being broken and exposed and burned to a rebirth of beauty wow well they say the more your heart breaks the more the light can come through and that's what we see with Kwan Yin anyway right she was her story when she was here on the earth in human form she had a horrific life yeah and um it just made her the queen of compassion and in her softness there is power right right I'm dreading when we do the I'm not dreading it but I'm dreading it in some ways when we do it on Aquarius is a live show and I did it I did it pre-recorded so I could pause and clean because Kwan Yin I cannot I cried the whole time yeah I cried the whole time every time I've read it three times and I cried the whole time every time it's just that she is like I mean she's not the grand finale the grand finale is why Buffalo woman but like she is like get ready if you have not read the Sophia code and you're doing it with us on Aquarius Raising Africa Kwan Yin is the that is for me and I think a lot of people have said that I don't think I mean I thought I was going to be more attracted to Magdalene's key code but I had confirmation through Magdalene's key code because I had seen a lot of the same things that the channeler saw but Kwan Yin that was like the tidal wave that just took me like it was just unbelievable Kwan Yin's story and um and I think she's kind of getting because even my friend Cindy at sacred ground yoga she's the one that told me to start reading the Sophia code and she said that Kwan Yin shocked her too because you know I'd known the story of Kwan Yin I kind of I think most of us kind of knew who she was and Cindy I said I'm paraphrasing what she told me that before the Sophia code she always kind of saw Kwan Yin as being the meek and mild of all the ascended masters but when she read her story she realized that her meek and mildness was a sign of strength it was because she had been I mean I think we're further enough in the recording I'd say had been raped multiple times gang raped beaten left for dead had a wilderness her twin flame came and brought her back to life and the minute she was able to trust again in the beginning she wouldn't come near him she wouldn't touch him she was a very beaten up broken person and the minute he restored her and brought her faith back into humanity he left her right and so then she had to go alone with that history and she um oh it's just so powerful it's just so freaking powerful I can't even if you guys don't have the Sophia code again I would absolutely suggest getting it it's it to me that's my Bible that's my real Bible is the Sophia code um because it's so powerful and it just it ignites you and you know the whole time they're saying you're one of us like in the book they're like you're reading this because you're one of us like you're no different than we are you've just forgotten so I would absolutely suggest um everybody getting that to help you move through and the first key code is ISIS like I just read from and she's like hey forgive forgive yourself for being duped so what did Mark Twain say it's a lot easier to fool somebody than convince them they had been fooled yeah it's true and it's reclining I mean I mean it makes complete sense that through all of that strife and through all of that struggle and through all of that pain and turmoil you do you you can reach that point but she also chose I would assume she also chose to to be like that she didn't have to she could have perpetuated it but she chose not to but through all of that pain and strength and all that suffering you you do become resolute as well that also can really truly help you to create like a sense of strength that and that you would not have had otherwise possibly not to say that it's good to go through a pain and suffering but through a pain and suffering you can become so strong and you can learn so much from that and clearly she did I mean it makes you strong yeah and you see the somebody's eyes and you you know that pain you understand that pain even I mean um Nicole and I did a couple days ago my my experience in the slums and I was just thinking about that like you can obviously I come from a very different life than the kids in the slums in India come from but in that looking into each other's eyes there's an understanding of suffering and within that understanding of suffering the dichotomy of that the polarization of that is compassion you know and having that compassion and I said on my channel update video and I'll I'll say this again I forgot to say this with the video with Nicole the safe house where the slum kids go that's also where we store the dogs so like when we have dogs we're going to rescue as well because foundation also rescues dogs when we take them off the streets in transition for them to then fly out to their adopted families they stay at the slum house or the safe house with the kids they take them in and so the kids then it's kind of they get then get to learn how to love on yeah they get to help each other learn how to be cared for to care for the dogs and one one one year we had a bunch of puppies and so the kids at the safe house got to feed the puppies and nurture the puppies before they were due to fly to the United States for their new homes so it's this whole karmic chain and and that's you know in Sriswamy I talk about this a lot his commentaries on the Sriswamy Sachi Tananda and his commentary on the yoga sutras he talks about the minute you start to recognize your own soul you see the soul in everyone else including the animals including the trees including you see it all the sudden the illusion all the sudden you're not like when I see people out there and don't get me wrong there's no there's wealth it is good to be like having wealth is not a bad thing in fact taking a bow of poverty is not spiritual at all like being wealth I'm not I mean look at Mr. T right like look how he used his wealth right it's not a bad thing it's just that when people are wealth hungry and they put themselves in a hierarchy of being better than or they start manipulating for money to be better to have a power that's when it becomes a problem but it's the problem itself isn't with the wealth it's with the person right and so and that's that's the Quan Yin kind of idea of being able to see into somebody else's eyes and in that moment understanding the emotional center because as the Cassiopean say that's how we know our own soul is through that emotional center even though the emotions are found in the senses which are a part of our Shakti our creation they're an essential tool for us to to understand our emotional centers and when we start to go through when we descend into that state of hell only then can we find that the chains of liberation and I want to read I sent this to Nicole God I'm getting all this fairy must be really active because I'm getting all sorts of I sent this I found this I was going through my old pictures and I found a post that I had made and I had quoted from Carmageddon which is a documentary and I'll read it because I feel just feel like I need to right now there is a spiritual lesson in all this but not one I expected I too was a spiritual bypasser turning to God as an escape for my unresolved pain body looking for spirituality out there rather than in here in my real life in my embodied experience the truth is I couldn't be here now because I was still in the then the power of then and now I know why I was so attracted to underground ideas of spirituality after my childhood I needed a spirituality that kept me from feeling what lay below the surface it felt easier to believe that I could ask the universe what I wanted and it would manifest and by pretending it was all good it would make it good even if it wasn't I was confusing self-avoidance with enlightenment my repressed emotions are not illusions to detach from they're actually unresolved spiritual lessons a karmic field for my soul's expansion if I want to grow in my relationship to God I have to drop right back down into my body raise the feelings from their grave and do the real work to heal my heart spirituality lives inside of our bones and not in our effort to escape them here is where we heal there is nowhere to go just here Jeff Brown Carmageddon sutra one one and now the study of yoga begins here always just here thank you mother India for giving me here every day and every day for many years now the sun rises and for me the study of yoga begins always just here deep within my bones every day I suffered a lot in my life but I wouldn't trade this incarnation for the world the darkness of yoga is the light of salvation and just so funny I have 17 likes on it because it's a very old post of course numbers but that is so beautiful but how true is that though and I'm sure you ladies can completely agree as you were saying that I was thinking how many times have I sat in front of a client because of my struggles I'm so grateful for all the struggles I've experienced because I can relate to them like literally and I can say yes I had spiritual psychotherapy and all of these other things but I can say that because I can relate to them and I'm so grateful because like even though you go through those experiences that are quite extremely difficult at times like extremely hard it allows you to relate to others that's that's the thing and you can relate to well it's the wisdom right the wisdom the wisdom can only come from a nice comfortable existence to a degree and then you have to really experience it and that's the friction and that's the friction that allows you to grow yeah and once you experience friction you have a choice yeah that's when you're given the the polarity of choice and I love how he said that he was using spiritual that spiritual bypassing I don't know how he said it was was not enlightenment but he was a self-avoidance was not enlightenment the darkness and that's what we see a lot when people first enter the spiritual world as they're expecting rainbows and butterflies and that's not and the story of Quan Yan is quite literally the example of like no it is dark night of the soul it is like everything and I've told this this story before you know in the traditional yoga practice if you're going to yoga class to get comfortable you're not going to a real yoga class that the yoga students are very clear on this we exhaust the physical body in order to exhaust the emotional and mental body to the point where you come to a place of honesty and vulnerability right because when you're exhausted I mean think about a little child when a little child is like we call slap happy you know when they get exhausted they're at that breaking point where they're just honest and just you know they're on their knees right and the practice of Ashtanga physically can be at times very painful it's supposed to be and David Grieg my original teacher before going to India always told this story that he asked Guruji he said Guruji is is is is it necessary for this practice to be painful and Guruji said yes because pain is real there is no ego and pain pain is real and regardless of whether you're a Canadian like Sarah or an American like Nicole and me or whether you're from Africa or the United Kingdom or Europe or Russia or China or wherever Australia the ladies I don't know wherever you are from we all know pain and that's where we connect and that you are a sold person you can use that pain as a catalyst you can use that pain to reach your you recognize it so you reach your hand out to the person in pain yeah that person in pain has to go through that you can hold them and support them through that now an organic portal good luck but they won't be coming forward with us anyway so so don't ever I mean suffering is awful I mean I've been I've been at the point of of not wanting to be here anymore in my life I think most people have been at that point I think if we're really honest most people have been at that point where they're just ready to leave because it hurts too bad that's the decent to ascend part of the the roller coaster ride of spirituality in my opinion you know you're gonna get you're gonna hit some incredible lows that you never mean yeah and then you're gonna be so grateful that you are able to navigate through that and find the light and find your power and and then you feel stronger you are accomplishing something and you can help other people because of it too yeah yeah and that's such a beautiful thing but you know it's it's um I think like when I first got into spiritual spiritual journey I thought oh this is amazing no and you learn very quickly no it's not all the rainbows and butterflies it's not what you think oh love that might not not say love might as bad no I'm not saying that but you think it's going to be some mystical experience and everything no you go deep quite quickly and you have to really acknowledge yourself because it's really the only way that you can heal is you have to acknowledge parts of yourself and it and it is a process and now we've all seen this before it it is a day by day thing you don't just it's not just a one and done you have to work on it daily and there's always something to need to learn but that's part of it too is it is a constant it is a constant thing yeah you're never going to be never going to be 10 can't know the light until you've seen the darkness yeah and then you know yourself and then you get to learn yourself that's right so we are a little bit over an hour now ladies and so that was a really powerful episode I thank you guys for um I feel like these episodes just keep getting more and more and more powerful like fear we're going to start listening one of my really good friends down here in Atlanta she's this black lady we've been friends for a long time and she used to make a few she's talked about black church versus white church and the south black church is way more fun than white church and so pretty soon it's going to be white church is very boring people just sit there so um so anyway up down up down up down like so so anyway guys we're going to get all we're going to be feeling the spirit I remember one day I'll tell a quick story before we sign out I was in Philadelphia and I was not I had just left the mice or room because of David's mice room because I we were I was done and he was still in there with some students and I was in the dressing room the lounge room with his girlfriend Joy and all of a sudden we heard he play he has a conk he would play which the conk is a big thing and indeed a play is you know all of a sudden we hear it and Joy kind of looks she goes wow David must have been filled with the spirit like I don't know why he played the conk like it's all a mice or room so we're going to be filling that spirit up in here you guys so anyway I'm going to put all of Sarah's contact channel information in the description box as well as Nicole's both of them are available for private readings you guys know this I've done private readings with both of them they are amazing and so if you want to go a little bit deeper into your own understanding of your the path that is laid before you then I would definitely suggest contacting both these girls or separately whatever to have that guidance because they are both here and have awesome services to offer so anything else you ladies want to add before we sign out for the day no I think I think there's a lot of energies coming in and I just want people to open themselves up to all the possibilities because every single day that we go through that we learn some new things the next day is even more beautiful I think that's what we're all feeling absolutely I would just say what I'm just getting is just be true to yourself and do what you feel is right and always forgive others and forgive yourself that's right all right you guys well love you very much and I love you guys watching right now and we will all talk to you soon bye everybody