 i'm so annoyed i'm so annoyed i'm so pissed off i'm so annoyed are you so pretty yeah i bought my macbook pro hello friends welcome back to a new video this is a very impromptu video that i've just started to do today i've got like no makeup on wow i could still use lori on your face today my laptop died i can't make videos about it so until i get a new laptop i can't make any videos so today is sunday where i would usually be in an editing haze the whole day i was like what am i gonna do today like i i literally could not think of what to do and then i thought i've never done the try a chapter challenge tag whatever you whatever you call it i don't know by the way before we get into this video i do have a ko-fi link down below where you can support me for the cost of buying a coffee i'm gonna be buying my laptop hopefully this week you all will know if i have it if i've got this video up i'm gonna be my parents are gonna be buying it and i'm gonna be paying them back over time because your girl has no money the bitch is broke my ko-fi will be linked down below if you want to help but don't feel obligated at all like you guys have already helped more than i could ever imagined so anyway into the video i'm gonna be trying a chapter of three different books today and then i'll decide which one i'm most excited by and we will read that i have got three very different types of books so the first is The Silent Patient by Alex Michael Ides this is i think this one best thriller at the Goodreads award last year it's about a woman who has killed her husband and then refuses to speak and it's about people trying to get her to speak i assume the next book i picked was A Darker Shed of Magic by V.E. Schwab so Sabine and Yasmin are doing a read-along for this series and i've been meaning to read it for so long like so long it was kind of one that i was thinking about getting around to this month anyway and so i thought i'd put in this video i think there's like multiple londons there's like gray london red london and we're following someone who can travel between them i've got a love hate relationship with V.E. Schwab like vicious was one of my favorite books ever and then vengeful was two stars that's so upsetting so that's a fantasy and then lastly i thought we'd throw in a classic for a bit of a shrink on this is Miss Pettigrew Lives for a Day by Winifred Watson it's about a woman who has a really monotonous boring life and then one day she just decides to throw in the tower and live for a day i want to read more books from Persephone books which if you don't know is an independent bookstore in london that publishes out-of-print women's work i think i'm gonna start with a darker shade of magic because that's on top of the pile so i'm gonna read the first chapter of this and then i'll let you know what i thought of it so initial thoughts on a dark shade of magic i did like it i like the first chapter essentially kel our protagonist is one of the few people who can travel between london so you can go from red london to gray london to white london wow it seems that he communicates messages between the londons to the royal families it was a good first chapter it set the scene introduced us to kel i don't believe that the king that he was talking to is gonna play a major role like i think it was more just introduced us to kel and what he does but i am intrigued i'm kind of in the mood for fantasy at the moment next i'm gonna read the first chapter of the silent patient okay so i read the first chapter of this and i really like it honey you've got a big storm coming i really like it and i didn't even i didn't want to pick this because i've been reading so many thrillers lately like i've been on a bit of a thriller binge but so it opens with a diary from is that a malisha yeah um who is the woman who killed her husband she was encouraged by him to start a diary because she was feeling down and like in her head i assume we're gonna come back to the diary as it goes along the way that this was written was very interesting i think it was the therapist or the person who believes that they're gonna be able to get her to speak whose perspective we're reading from it was very intriguing like it was a real page turner and i really like the tone of voice in which it was written in so like i think this now chumps a darker shade of magic if i'm honest with you but also i've read so many thrillers but like i kind of don't want to pick it but it sounds so interesting okay so i was gonna move where i was sitting i was gonna go outside for the final shot but i was comfortable and didn't want to what is wrong with this girl what is wrong with this girl so i just read the first chapter of miss pettigrew lives for a day by winifred watson and like it was fine it was it was fairly in good and fun as classics go there were a few phrases that i don't agree with but it's aged i think she's just got a job to go to uh this like party animals house and be a governess but i don't know if she has kids so i don't know how it's gonna work out anyway i'm not gonna read this the whole time i was thinking there's no point me even reading it because i'm gonna read the silent patient for this video i loved the beginning of this i can't wait to hear what everyone's been talking about you may notice i'm back at my family home my parents home i'm gonna be here for a few days socially distancing because i'm not fully in their their household so we're back with the bookshelves we're back with the cats you want to say hello hi are you so pretty yeah the biggest reason as to why i've come back is because i bought my macbook pro i never thought in my life i would own a macbook pro so i went out and got it yesterday and i'm just so excited to be able to edit videos again and for editing videos not to be of pain because it had gotten like to a point where my laptop was just so slow and it was it was a real struggle if anyone has any videos or tutorials or stuff just to like fully get me into how it works because i've never owned an apple laptop before let me know she's beautiful i haven't added a any kind of background yet thank you so much by the way to everyone who helped me out on my ko-fi page for affording the laptop i can't tell you what a weight it is off my shoulders the amount that you guys have helped me i think it's over 200 pounds i can't tell you what a big relief all the help that you guys have given me on ko-fi is so thank you from the bottom thank you so much if you've helped me out on there it really is amazing i'm so thankful okay i need to stop being soppy back to the book i'm only like 73 pages in so i've barely read anything i just haven't had a lot of time to read for like moving over here and everything i am enjoying it however the major gripe i have with it is that so far it's been all about the psychiatrist or therapist i don't know the right terminology is but the guy is speaking to her it's been all about his life like how he met his wife and why he loves her so much and i'm like why do we need to know this i really don't enjoy the parts about his life and i understand that there will probably be a reason as to why we've learned so much about him i feel like that will end up being a reveal like why we're learning so much about his life but i really don't fucking care i don't care i don't care i don't care it's okay so far but like i don't feel fully into the thriller we've now got another cat here do you want to say hello lexie you don't look very happy i'm not loving this and i don't know if i'm crazy because everyone else loves this i'm still having that issue where to me it seems so centered on the psychotherapist the one who's narrating the story when the concept is so interesting of this woman refusing to speak after she kills her husband there's so much that we could explore with that and we we're kind of not or not to a degree that i want to be i just feel like it's so consumed by the narrator and i tend to read more female thrillers i think like thrillers by women but i do read thrillers by men obviously but this is just so masculine in the way that like the women in the story are all framed through the men in her life like the woman who has killed her husband is so framed by her relationship with the narrator and the relationship with her husband and the relationship with these men in her life it's just annoying me i'm sitting on the floor and i guess i'm not really used to it i'm not really attached to any of the characters like the characters are just so bland to me the writing is okay like it's nothing that i'm obsessed with i'm so fed up of his storyline it's not bad i'm just like i don't need you here you know the the concept of the book is always so interesting and then you've got this bog standard plot line for him i just feel like i've read it before and i'm just not interested oh lord again a fucking game nothing new nothing changed same old shit so this is sad considering it had such a strong start it's not awful it's like a three it's it's gripping in some aspects oh by the way i'm 200 pages in so i only have a small bit left i have about 130 pages left it could pull itself up because i've heard the ending is surprising and polarizing so we'll see surprising and polarizing um do you want to say bye lux i'm pissed off i'm fucking pissed off i'm pissed off i'm pissed off so i didn't like the ending at all you know what i kept thinking i kept reading it and i kept thinking listen they won't sleep that low that won't be the ending that that won't be it that won't be it and then it was i'm so annoyed i'm so annoyed i'm so pissed off i'm so annoyed it's so shit so shit please be something interesting it was fucking obvious the whole time why do people tell me it's had a surprising ending it didn't bullshit bullshit bullshit didn't enjoy it didn't enjoy it didn't i'm just really unhappy with how it ended i'm really unhappy with the direction that the story took i feel like it was utter bullshit why did this win why did you all like this so much i don't feel like it's written that well i don't feel like any of the characters are people you can connect to i feel like there's so much so much of the book is a waste so much of the book is a waste so much of what happens happens for no reason like no like it has no identity like it does not it does not look like it's i'm i was angry i was angry would not recommend i wouldn't recommend it to anyone but i'm giving it two star i'm giving it two stars i'm giving it two stars it feels right in my heart it feels right another thing i just want to say quickly that i forgot to say last night was that i really don't feel like the bipolar disorder representation was good in this it's obviously not something that i can really speak on because bipolar disorder isn't something that i experience however it did make me feel uncomfortable while reading it i just felt like it wasn't a healthy representation to be putting out into the world and like giving people that perception of a person and i i said this before early in the video but i really didn't feel like the female characters had their own identity had their own experiences it was all through the lens of the men in their life so yeah that's just like two more of my issues with it really well the first chapter challenge or whatever it's called was a failure i've been scared good reads winner of the year incorrect incorrect incorrect we're in the turn of the key i'm pretty sure was on there and came like a second i think lock every door was on there both so much better please explain to me why you all liked it because i'm fuming i'm fuming anyway hope you enjoyed the video um i'll see you soon with another one we all know it's coming this weekend i'm so excited my copy arrives tomorrow and it's gonna be so much fun reading midnight sun so i will see you then thank you so much for watching i'll see you at the weekend bye