 How did I get into this spot? I'm not going to make it. And you have to come to that when you're on the homestead. Those moments of, I can't believe, this is not this. Oh, it's the simple life. And it's idyllic. And it's really hard. Ours came. I remember that moment. I mentioned we had spent our last bit of money on some milk cows. The mistake I made is I had never milked a cow. And the cows I bought had never been milked. And they were pregnant. So we're waiting every day. And I remember all of a sudden it just occurring to me. This 1,000-pound animal probably doesn't want me yanking on its nipples to get milk out. And sure enough, my wife and I, we went in. We had trained her in a stanchion. And I had a jar of iodine to clean it off. And I reached forward to put the iodine to clean the teet off. And she kicked it. And iodine is red. So it just looks like blood splattering all over this barn. And it wasn't even a barn. We had screwed some boards onto an open shelter. And I kept trying to go to milk this cow. And she had just had a calf where the calf's hollering. Of course, it's got to be summertime. There's manure. There's flies. I'm sweating. My wife is there with a baby on her back strapped to her back. I think it was Peter strapped to her back on some kind of baby carrier or something. And I remember saying to her, I don't think we can do this. Like having this moment of doubt, I'm kind of embarrassed I said it out loud. But I just remember one of the guys I emailed when I was still in the city, hey, I want to be a homesteader. And he said, they said, you can't do it. You don't even know what it's like to have a cow with mastitis kicking at you or something. That he was very discouraged. And here I am in this moment of maybe he's right. But my wife, being there with the family, needing the milk, we had spent our money we needed this milk to eat. It's wasn't, I don't know. This wasn't an add-on. This was a necessity. And then my wife, she says, if this was one of the kids, you wouldn't let them get away with kicking you. This is, we've got to get through this. And see, there's a little trick. You can hold the tail up in the back. And so she's back there holding the tail up in the air. While the cow is, we call it anger pooping. I don't know if the listeners don't know. Cow can actually pass, sort of express its displeasure with you by expelling manure that's not quite digested yet. So it's even worse. So she's back, it's coming towards her. I'm on my hands and knees on the milking of this cow one hand at a time and we made it through. But it was, I think that was our moment. I don't know if that was your moment of like, what have I done?