 Okay, here we go. 10 or 11 days of this. Wow. Thank you all for coming. We are so delighted that you're here because we have this deep conviction that awakening can be fun and actually humorous because that's actually what it's about anyway. You know in the faster we get that the better. So what a beautiful setting. They told me I just got here today. I haven't been here for quite a while and they said it rained for two months and here comes the sun right when we're starting the event and I think we're gonna have a lot of sunshine here and hopefully a lot of sunshine in your hearts. Really feeling the love that you are and have always been. And this year Nikita is running the show here. Some of you saw the movie Lucy where she goes at 50% 60% when she gets up there and she can pretty much move the people around move the cars around so Nikita just brought all of you here. She just walked your bodies, flew your bodies and that's good. You did a good job. This is a lot of happy people as you pulled together here. Yeah, yeah that's actually it's true that's exactly how it happened. I came here I'm like I don't even know when like what a few months ago we came back from the tour and then as soon as I got to as soon as I got to Kamasa I was just like something I felt something was calling me so deeply and I didn't even know why I was just like I didn't even know what it was and it's just like such deep call and then I started praying about it and I heard and I really felt it. Unexpressed love. There's something and up until then I mean we were on tour. I was on tour with David and you think that's like you know I was in the extension mode and you think that it's enough and like this is this is already good and yet there's something calling me there's something more there's something more and I was like oh I don't even know how to answer it but I really started to feel it and I couldn't like I couldn't deny it and so I just really felt like oh there's much more love to be expressed and then I just prayed and I said okay help me spirit like really help me and the next day David tells me you're running the strawberry this year and right right there and then I knew that this is it this is the answer this is the answer to that call for love to like this is gonna be the way to really to to bring out that little bit the rest that little bit I was still calling and and and yeah yeah and I didn't even know how much there was and I mean like I didn't like I didn't be it's like I knew but I didn't and so and then I just from there on I just kept I was just all I did was I just kept asking for help it was like help me help me and I could feel it in my mind that I put out like a call to the whole universe and beyond and I just said I need judges in every like every night I would pray and I would just really feel like connected to all of you I felt like I knew all of you like I felt like I was like come come come here like I really I could feel that everyone could hear me and I just like I would put out this call and and yeah and everyone every day I'd be like I all here I'm coming and then I'll hear oh someone signed up or like someone's calling in and it was like on and on and on and then there's more and there's constant like help me spirit help me help me help me and it felt like it was just like a whole new to have a whole new way to have and started to build from there it was just it was very deep and so it's just all for that like to really learn to collaborate in the heart it was all for collaboration in the heart just really to just like really everything happened due to this desire which is not personal I knew that call to extend love that wasn't just Nikita's call that was the call of the heart that like whoever's gonna show up here they have the same call wanting to extend wanting to just like express the deep love that's there and from there on that's been our practice that's all we ever did like just really just learning to really share the heart fully in every moment not hold back and boy took practice all right but it really did I never knew how vigil like just how much focus you have to be just to be able to say I love you the other day I was guided to tell a friend of mine that I really that I love him and then I did it and then I kept hearing like do it again and I'm like well and then and then my two other friends came like Suzanne and Janie and they're like you weren't clear enough right and then I'm like help I'm like okay help me like can you help me and I like okay so they called him and say did you hear what Nikita says and I'm like why I can't I'm like what humbleness I can't even say I love you without help because it's deeper than that there's still so much so much fear of just that simple I love you like I love you so much and that's been the practice and it's like help me help me help me help me and how the help appears so quickly and it's like will you help me to extend the love and it's like yes yes yes so I kind of so technically I called you all to be able to help me to extend the love so thank you that's no small thing to live as if there's no tomorrow live as live as if there's no tomorrow dances if no one's watching you know just be into that what do we call involuntary miracle and to experience the involuntary nature of the miracle that's kind of been like a theme this year that's in a course of miracles that miracles are involuntary they should not be under conscious control wow you've got to get to be more like Bill Murray you you got to be a little more like Robin Williams where are you right now on the Robin Williams scale you know I mean he seemed to pass recently and you could hear the people just pouring out the love just pouring out the love I heard one person say when you were there when he was in front of you it was as if you were the most important person in the world there was such full attention such full attention that you felt whether he said anything or not it was just the the presence the gaze walk into a room and light up the room even before he would start acting out he would just walk into the room and the room would kind of move toward him because again it's mind remember that's what we're really learning it's all mind it's all consciousness everything is a reflection of your mind your consciousness so you know that's I guess that's what you could practice that's what the key is talking about about a love that isn't doesn't have a hesitation to it love that doesn't have a limit it doesn't have a selection it's not personal it's not selecting a person out of seven billion persons and thinking that you can focalize or you can zero it down to a person because really we've been told this for many many centuries love has no object that's what a gap a love is that's what universal love is that's what unconditional love is as soon as you objectify it it's not love it can't be love if it's objectified just like the flower sends off the fragrance for everything and every one it doesn't select where the wind is to blow the fragrance it doesn't aim the fragrance it offers the fragrance so really that's what we're here for and I'm feeling the Beatles let me take you down cuz I'm going to strawberry feels nothing is real and there's nothing to get up about strawberry feels forever you can feel it in the vibration it's happy and it's even got nothing is real in the lyrics my gosh we've been serenaded the universe has been serenading us it's been coming at us from all different angles and over and over and over did you get it yet did you get it yet did you get it you know it's it's just there eager to be known love God oneness that's no mystery that actually that's the only thing that can be known everything else couldn't be forgotten you could have your spiritual Alzheimer and dementia all the way to the max so that you forget in the end you forget every detail of this world your heart is so filled that it just fades it just fades away so I think you know like he was saying it takes practice practice practice it practices a word but it's it's more like a focus that's really what it is because we're because being this or being present is not a doing we've had a lot of practice with doing and sometimes we even use the word undoing unraveling you know we start to welcome that we start to laugh as the unraveling comes along you start to feel like you're like the scarecrow in the Wizard of Oz they the flying monkeys had taken all the straw and you just laugh you've got clothes hanging around and your arms over there your legs over there your torsos down the road somewhere and you actually can laugh you know instead of obsessing about how your body looks or how it feels and all the things you know that you can actually have a good laugh and I feel like you know when we come together like this with such a clear strong purpose that we cannot fail to have that experience it's it's really the desire of our heart and so we really don't look forward to a future you know we we want to give up the bad habit of futureizing and maybe following your intuition following your guidance letting the guidance be practical for you you know not trying to push anything away or cover anything over or hide anything but just being fully transparent so transparent to the point that finally it just feels like it's just you it's just all you you in awareness not you personality you to see that it's safe to drop the mask that there's never been a reason to hold on to a mask it never really protected us it just locked the love and we don't need that mask anymore and we've got tell them what we've got my gosh what have we got in store here music music we have sessions we have experiential sessions we have all two sessions that's no tell us about an alter session this is this is this is brand new actually we've been testing it on us we tested it out this is a brand you think this is where you it's actually that's what Jesus refers to as a holy relationship is given to you and so I feel like oh this is like this is it where you join with a brother in the miracle and it's just in the prayer and it's so felt it is so felt that everything that doesn't belong naturally just really you know shows up and washes away and it could even and there isn't even a response to it it's like there's no need to address anything there's no need to like have long discussions it's just like that the reality of the prayer like what like nothing real can be threatened nothing unreal exists is so apparent that you just rejoice in it and everything is gone just in that moment and so these are the alter sessions now and this is where you know we say like the the use for words is almost over this is just it's like there's no words to it it's just real this is what's real and it's like and and that joining and that prayer and that miracle it is so obvious that whatever's coming up it could be even like oh but it's so dark it seemingly so dark it has no power it's like nothing can stand in a way because the only thing that's real is just that you know joining in that quantum connection in that quantum prayer and it's felt and so these are this is our new like this is the brand-new gift that we're offering this year at the strawberry feels forever and it's it works right away it just it's it produces immediate results so these are the alter sessions and now whoever are the guiding lights or the leaders of the alter sessions they'll be able to maybe give some more details around it but it's just a really joining in this really really really strong prayer and just investing everything you know like everything into it is just like only this is real and daring to just give into it and daring to just believe that this is the only thing that's real and then watch watch it's watch a whole new world appear in front of you so yeah so these are the alter sessions and like I said music session sessions experiential then there's a lot it's a very it's a spontaneous strawberry fields festival this year so we don't even know what's coming I was telling everyone like I'm expecting aliens to come because I'm like I don't even know like I don't even know what to expect it's so it's so out of this world so we just just expecting unexpected so it's like everything like just expect miracles all the way and dare dare to expect them dare to not look anywhere else dare not to doubt it so yeah yeah why don't we all just do that this year now that's great because in the past you know some of you know we've had expression sessions some of you have been here with in the morning how helpful were those especially if you've come from a conditioning of denial and repression and you know like children are to be seen and not heard and button it up and zip it if you've grown up with all those kind of conditionings then it's actually helpful to speak up you know sometimes when you can't hand it over you try and try it's helpful to speak it up and of course we're all familiar with so many different techniques in psychology and psychotherapy and all kinds of spiritual practices many of us had gone to churches and synagogues and temples we've been through rituals and so on and so forth when I first heard you mentioned the altar session yeah when I was listening to it because I'm just showing up I've never been to an altar session walk around the morning but when I first heard of the altar session I you know I got a flash because back in my 20s I just was just open-minded just going I go to Hare Krishna temple and go into a synagogue and the church and and all kinds of places ashrams and this and this and it's just just showing up and open open-minded paying attention and when this altar session actually reminds me of the first time when I went to a Quaker service how many of you have ever been to a Quaker service that was precious I remember the first time I just walked in and I felt this reverence and I felt this devotion and it was still and there was no you know doxology and benediction and sermon and all the things I was accustomed to growing up in a Christian church I just walked in there and it was walking into presence walking into stillness and then I stayed for the whole service and it was just an amazing experience because that's kind of what it was like it was almost like what I've been told one time like if you if you don't have something really to offer and really to extend that's better than the silence it's best to be in silence and that's what I felt when I went into this Quaker church reverence and then I went there and I was just there and then someone would just after silence and silence and silence that I'd heard this beautiful voice it wasn't a minister or a leader or anything it was just it was we were all in there together we were all equal we were all basking in the same pool of silence and then the voices would come out beautifying sharing extending and then back into the silence it actually felt like it was it was an enriching experience like everyone there appreciated the stillness appreciated that presence of non-judgment and when there's something to offer it would kind of be brought forth that's what these all alter sessions sound like you know it could be anything because maybe you show up there and you walk in and you come to one of these sessions and you're not feeling peaceful and maybe you're not feeling still something stirred up wow it's okay to offer that over to the altar it's okay to offer that to the presence the stillness to free your mind literally you're saying I know you are almighty I know you are powerful I know you are are there for me and I want to offer this up and in that sense it's it's not like a typical thing the words were not used in a way I was I was familiar with I didn't have a past reference it was a beautiful experience so that's great from what I understand that's going to be in the morning from like around nine to ten or something like nine to nine nine forty nine to nine forty so that'll be like a daily opportunity to wake up and open to the presence and then come in that presence and if there's something that you want to offer up could be a miracle could be a testimony could be something that's heavy on your heart you just want to offer that up take it let me be I want to have a joyful day yeah like asking daring like to ask for help just it's just ask for help out the spirit and like just like really claiming that I'm worthy like this is you know spirit is gonna take it from me spirit like really spirit really wants me to be happy spirit like wants me to have a full experience of joy and it's like this is like there's no need to handle anything not even a little thought on your own it's just offer it all for spirit and watch how quickly disappears like watch it watch it and it's just a constant yeah like accepting the love accepting the help and sometimes like you might even walk into your session like that or you join with a brother right because they don't start it with you know first it was Suzanne and I and then Jenny Suzanne and I and it was just like constant we spirit would tell us to come and join and we were just like we're just willing to show up right and then something like something really would start coming from the heart right and it's like oh sometimes like we may not even know what's on our heart but because there is such like an allowance and such love the love is so felt that naturally it's like there's no desired desire to hide anything like whether it's like whether it's deep love and an expression of love or anything that's in the way of that right it's just like you release it release it fully and so that you can be in a joy and you can flow and extend and it's like and none of it is random like whoever is going to be in your groups these are the very ones that are gonna take you home really that are gonna bring you home and it's like so there's that gratitude for the brother as it's like that spirit has it all perfectly orchestrated and it's all orchestrated in a way for us to open up our heart to this deep deep love beyond beyond this world beyond personal and so this is a very I would really take advantage of these author sessions I I have actually so I would highly recommend our take yes and speaking of the other sessions and speaking of presents some yeah that was behind the what was in my heart when I really really really felt to invite Lisa Cairns this year to come and speak here there she is over there so you're in for a big big big big treat innocence likeness playfulness and uncompromising devotion to the truth to the moment to a non-personal impersonal experience that's very very energetic very very vibrant it's not weighed down by personal motives personal blame personal whatever figuring things out from a personal perspective you know so it's really an honor that she's come all the way from England and flown the cross and in this past weekend I just four of us Lisa and Jason and Lisa the two leases they're both there went with us with me and we went over to Colorado and just had a very fun filled several days of lots and lots of laughter just splashing our laughter everywhere we went and really enjoying just being just the presence and really isn't that what you came for just to be into an experience of presence it's not here to learn something really you're not here to gain something you're not here to achieve something we've all tried that right and we've gone to seminars you know well what am I gonna get out of this one and you know but that's that really is not the motive that's not the purpose it's just pure presence it's just the simplicity of presence and really letting yourself extend that love with everyone that you meet in presence it's so beautiful or even think of you might just be off in a meditation and you had someone come to mind a big smile comes across your face you think thank you thank you for being who you are for showing up in a real way a true way so to me I just feel like well we have an amazing group of days here just to really to forget the days you know to forget everything to feel safe here to feel confident that you can relax be playful that everything's orchestrated that the things are working together for the good always and and that never it's never been any different nobody was ever out to get us nobody it's amazing to think to have that experience that you've never ever been mistreated that you don't have to buy into that lie of mistreatment or victimization and when you give that up then you don't have to buy into blame there's no fault finding it's like a rest it's a contentment ah everything is just right with the whole universe because I'm more I'm right then everything is right it's so precious that we can come for that just let the other thoughts drift away give me the people and free my soul and I want to get lost in your rock and roll and drift away yeah yeah it's great so there any anything logistical or since this is our very first meeting we've done different things at these very first meetings sometimes we just pass the microphone around and let everybody just speak from their heart that's always fun or a song or a song with a song oh a song oh time for meditation anyone have a request I think I'll go with having this perfect strawberry and cream jet whoa see from Eric's face that you are at an enlightenment retreat when I was over in Shanghai China I actually spoke to a very large group over there and I had a pretty long day and everything and I knew that they were tired of hearing me talk so I said tonight will be a dance party and oh did they like that idea and I said Lisa's gonna be leading a dance party tonight and and I looked at them all at the crowd and I said and when you come to this dance party and you look into Lisa's eyes you will see enlightenment and literally when this group came so I'm told I was there but she had 225 Chinese people really staring into her eyes and she walked right around and just stared right back I'm beaming so you see Lisa's face you see Eric's face you've come to an enlightenment retreat you know that's enlightenment is to know thyself you know to to be happy that's all it's about that's your function is to be happy it's not you know to memorize things or to know metaphysics or anything else except to be truly truly truly genuinely happy it's that simple and in order to do that what we talk about these retreats is really let go of the whole world in your mind in your consciousness don't value one scrap you know not one scrap because you're it your mind your consciousness your awareness is everything and of course in miracles Jesus says you are the goal the world is searching for how's that any of this here that growing up did you ever hear that breakfast table you having a rough day at lunchtime your mom with that listen don't forget you are the goal that the whole world is searching for the real you the spirit you and what we're discovering is that if you're not attached to anything of this world you just are naturally happy you don't have to like add in some ingredients or add something to yourself it's more just take away or just examine just see it and I remember one time I was listening to an Indian teacher Indian see Course in Miracles teacher Tara Singh and he just said with such grace and presence just see the false as false see the false is false and that's really all that forgiveness is it's not trying to change something make something different adjust something adjust to something or whatever it's just seeing the false is false in its entirety because then you're not attached and isn't that what Buddha talked about not attachment isn't that what Jesus talked about not attachment non-judgment it's presence free from everything else because really there is nothing else the presence the I am presence is everything and it's really the only thing that could be known whenever you try to figure something out in the world and you try to figure out a scenario or figure out a situation or whatever you're trying to know what cannot be known you're blocking the light of yourself of your reality of your creator by trying to know something that can never be known that's pretty ridiculous when you look at it but but that's what this journey so-called without distance it's just a discovery is really about it just first see the false is false then you can laugh that frees you up to laugh and then when you see the false is false how could you participate in it how could you invest in it false why would you invest in falsity when you can experience truth you see that's really what this is about and so I hope I really hope and pray that this will be very very practical for you that if you find yourself disturbed or upset that it will become apparent that there's just something that's still is clinging there something that's still holding and you can just gently open and not hold anymore like the key to saying earlier like love can seem scary and she was saying I need help I need help and and to call on that to say I don't even know what this is it doesn't make any sense that I would be afraid of love I don't even know what that means but but I want to fully experience that I want to extend that I want to open my heart fully to that that's my prayer and I don't even have to figure out the how I know a lot of times people come to these enlightenment retreats and and it's the how question how how how how maybe this is the one where we lay aside the how because really you know enlightenment is present so we don't need to look for our future goal and if we are willing to let go of seeking for future goals I think that the how won't be necessary then either because that's usually like the number one ask question but I think we're here not really so much to ask questions we've been to a lot of those seminars we've asked our questions it was good we got it up we got it out but now it's like our prayer is for an experience and that experience of that presence is what it's all about and that's my heart's prayer for all of you I just want you to truly be happy to be able to just bask in that happiness and and radiate that happiness with full confidence and full trust and if there are any parables to be shared let them be parables of of trust of how trust has has shown us with our own strength not our personal strength but the strength of the light within us just by trusting it that's what I want that's what I would wish for you that's what I would pray for you in your heart yeah and if in terms of support you know like use your brothers for that to remind you like rather than point out there it's like this is where you're doing wrong you know like it's like ask your brothers to show you the trust like look you're trusting look look and just extend it like extend it to you ask like you know use your brothers actually it's not like use your brother like have that goal to you use your brothers as a reminder of who you are a reminder that like it's safe to love it's safe to open up the love to love it's safe to ask spirit for help it just like use it just open up to that kind of a curriculum almost like this is a new curriculum you know this like old way is like using your brothers to like bring up the triggers and all that it's done it feels like it's it's done it has served now use your brothers to remind you who you are and to strengthen that trust within yourself it's like if this is what you truly want you're gonna have the reflections like right away and they're immediate they're immediate you don't have to wait for it it was just like if this is the true prayer of the heart it's like boy this is the only thing that's supported here too there's nothing else that's supported around here and so what like look what's gonna come your way it's like this is so powerful this is so powerful I can't even tell you like things that have been happening but like no you tell me you know so yeah yeah it's like I accept by the way I accept and I've been feeling I've been like like a few of us we've been joining here very deeply preparing for the festival right and I think it's been a month and especially in the past a week maybe two weeks I keep hearing the song it's the most wonderful time and it feels like every day we'll get together like Christmas it feels like Christmas and then and then the other day and then the other day I feel like oh it feels like my birthday now's the most wonderful like ask ask it was like what do you want for your birthday or Christmas whatever like what do you want you know like I just want this what you offered it's just that like to be truly in full extension in love and not even knowing what what that is and just to really like in humbleness accept the help for it really accept it and just really seeing how like how supported that prayer is really and how like like I keep saying like oh wow I don't have to fight for it you know I really don't it is actually what's given that's the only thing that's given actually that is truly what I truly want so yeah thank you I think you're gonna find to there'll be actually lots of if you still have any lingering concepts in your mind that you're still playing around with you'll find it's like playing with fire as you move along at this festival you're gonna you're gonna pull back and not want to get burned because these are concepts I'm talking about the most basic concepts like if you go to a music festival and Lightmare Retreat and now we've got a movie fest thrown in too some of you weren't here when Eric did his condition he got up on the stage at the music festival and he got up there and people were anticipating his amazing repertory of songs and some were just digging in getting their drink and getting ready to savor this concert and everything and he basically just meditated and popped the whole concept of performances how many times do you go to a music festival and have the whole concept of a performance pops that's wonderful and and I had a lot of so-called artists coming up to me afterwards going wow he blew it away I feel so relaxed I was scared to death to go up there and then Eric got it there and now I feel great because because it popped the performance anxiety it popped the concept and wow could you see them just collaborating and joining and jam sessions you know the vibe of just being and letting it pour through you without any investment and any self-concept in it another thing if you go to enlightenment festivals or retreats and everything a lot of times people go to hear a teacher I hope you didn't come here to hear a teacher I really you know to teach is to demonstrate teaching is an actual living experience it's a presence we need to let go of this concepts of teach teachers and students you know that concept is actually blocking you from the awareness of who you are and well you might have found value of in the past I'll assure you that once you get a taste of the presence you're going to say whoa I can't believe I tied the concept of teaching down to teachers because you're going to get something and as long as you're coming to something to get something that motive is going to be a block because what we're learning is to give to have is give all to all we come to give to teach is to demonstrate and teaching is not done with words we all know that when we were children our parents would teach us a lot of things don't do this don't smoke don't do this don't do that and we were watching them very carefully to see if they were actually living the words if they were not living the words we wouldn't pay attention to them we would say you know don't do this don't do that you can't you can't have hypocrisy to teach us to demonstrate it's an actual actual living experience and I would say you're teaching all the time you're teaching all the time teaching is continuous we have to lift it up higher from this idea of going to hear teachers because if you go to hear teachers then you're still in persons and there's still be comparisons and there's still going to be an unfulfillment in your heart if that's the purpose that you came for it's the same with with the music and the songs just give yourself so over to the music that you you see that who you are is like a song just extending the melody goes on and on and on and on it's endless it's a song of gratitude and you're singing it by your attitude your attitude is the song if the words come out and you and they're beautiful wonderful if they come out and they're funny whatever however it looks it doesn't really matter that's the key and so and even with this idea of coming for a community experience well community is the concept to you know it's your mind it's your awareness it's your consciousness that's important that's what you're purifying or you're allowing to see that it is pure you have a pure awareness it's there it's always there just been covered over but you don't have to hold on to any of the covers anymore you can pull the covers away so I really encourage everyone to come and come with that openness come with that willingness to extend and if you do you will experience that giving and receiving are the same to the extent that you are open you are happy you are joyful you will perceive as an open happy joyful world and all your brothers and sisters are included in that and you won't be trying to get anything I mean I had to laugh when I went to China we went to Beijing and we went to Shanghai and then when I got down to Hainan I just greeted everybody and a group followed us all the way down to this island it's like the Hawaiian island of China up to see it's very warm we went there and the first question was the guy said honestly I was at your last gathering in Shanghai and I didn't get a thing out of it not a thing and now I've come all the way to Hainan they can a plane flight so what are you going to give me you know because I didn't get a thing out of your last talk and I forget the exact words that I said we have to go back to the archives to get it but it was it was something to the scent of you'll never get anything from me and if you follow me trying to get something you know you'll just be disappointed and the whole place you'll lose everything there it is you'll lose everything if you keep coming to see me you'll you'll seem to lose everything and the whole crowd erupted and that was the first question yes that was it you'll seem to lose everything and and really this is a good thing now some of you are probably going oh wow what if I walk in whoa but but actually what what I'm saying is you you don't have to be afraid of the big bed wolf you don't have to be afraid of what of course the miracles calls the ego it's like a lot of people the more they go on in life they're just kind of a little anxious around the ego they think the ego is powerful it has dominion over you it's it's a genius and it's it's clever it's sneaky it sabotages your whole life and everything like this but actually if you fear it you give it power you give it reality miracles living in the moment is how you see that the ego is not you and has no power and you have dominion over it reminds me of a time when we were in Mexico and I came out to the patio and then Nikita came walking out and she's like oh just waking up and then she got this really fiery look in her eye and she said the ego actually tried to tempt me last night she's had a big smile on her face like come on bring it on and she was even enjoying the fact that she was tempted because why because you have dominion over that which has no reality she you develop a confidence when trials and tribulations and upsets or whatever these things may come into your awareness you need to have that smile on your face you need to have the smile on your face because if you're not smiling and you're afraid you've already given away your power you've already disempowered yourself and that's what the journey is about you've got to have a confidence when arrogance arises when control arises when jealousies arise when anger arises sadness depression you know if you have the thought oh no here comes again that's just taking a past experience and and saying oh no you know I'm it's giving power to something that doesn't have empowerment so so that's really another reason to come here in confidence and grow in strength and confidence of the power of your mind that's what empowerment is about your mind is very very strong he was created that way and weakness is an unnatural condition so that's a really good thing to keep in mind as you come to extend you're here for empowerment you're not here to learn a few more techniques and tools you're not here to become a teacher of something so you can try to go teach other people you're here for an actual experience that you are naturally bobbing heads okay Val if everybody here Val or should Val come up and take a microphone being on time I know that one so I'm everybody who's not at masterpiece well that means everybody who's here at angels landing or down in the camp ground campers the altar session will start at 9 a.m. and the groups are Joe Pete Eric Kevin Ludwig and Al you'll be with Ricky in the mystic one that's the bus then Ola Nicholas Chris Laurie and Patrice will be with me in the retreat trailer if you don't know where that is the end of the loop yeah exactly if there's retreat on the front and it's the largest trailer down there right by the wooden cabin okay then Karen Suzanne Jessica Steven Rebecca you'll all be with Utah in the rainbow dome that's the very colorful dome like structure in the campground then Sundari Lawrence Rick Desi and Casey will be with Salita in the gazebo there are two gazebos in the campground so I'm not sure which one so I think that would be obvious in the morning at nine the most central one okay then Craig Christian Chrissy AC Danny Sylvia Kate Jonathan and Francis Allen will be with Greg at angels landing and then everyone who's staying at masterpiece I don't have this list on me but Cody has the list so there'll be two groups at masterpiece Cody will have one and Doug will have the other and he'll all be going home together tonight so Cody can share that information with you and masterpiece will start the altar session 20 minutes before us so we're starting at nine that makes it 840 you'll have your session and you'll be ready to leave like getting in your vehicles at 940 to be here for a session at 1015 that's right here right up here yeah so is there anybody who name I didn't mention who is not staying at masterpiece so make sure we've got everybody okay and these this list will be posted in the bathhouse in the campground and we'll put a few around up here as well in case you need memory assistance okay thank you it's in the and another thing beyond time I know it has nothing to do with time and we're going beyond time but being on time somehow goes hand-in-hand with it so yeah not logical so whoever is staying wherever there's gonna be breakfast available there simple breakfast like cereal stick your nose up in the morning and just there will be food we're gonna have two meals one at 1230 and another one is at 530 and breakfast is just gonna be wherever you are breakfast is wherever you are this year we're gonna do the food thing next year it's breatharian but this year strawberry and this year this year strawberry and next year breatharium so enjoy your food this time you should know this is the way it's going for me and you're all reflection of my mind yeah I don't feel hungry I'm not hungry at all but if you still feel hungry this is the last year for that I got I started getting mail I haven't been here for a while but I was here I started getting all this mail in the postal mail just saying David are you still eating and saying are you still going to the refrigerator like I was reading it to the whole group was months ago and I was here okay well this must be the last year for that so I need the questions about food body image dieting sleeping yeah well we'll address those one more year and then that's it yeah no breathe that's two years but you're jumping a gun here the first we go next year breath in and then we yeah but we go to the morphias you really believe that's air that you're breathing and we take it that's we're trying not to get we're in the moment we're not getting too far ahead of ourselves we're not skipping any steps we're practical but it's 730 accepted masterpiece okay very good and though we had all kinds of fun ideas about all of you sharing but then the little birdie whispered in my ear not tonight because this is the first night people have come distances and you don't want them to get to bed too late because they won't get up they'll miss the altar the altar sessions but we I still would like to hear from you now I've told you some of the topics we're not gonna cover and what we are coming but I want to hear whatever you would like to hear what you're interested in yeah me too Sundari offering it up to the light this is not the William Hurt movie altered states this is actually handing it handing it over giving it up yeah being altered in the altar any other topics themes anything that the request soap the heart maybe I'd like to hear yeah like Francis yeah we'll talk I'll talk a bit about space because you're right it's sometimes we have been emphasizing time let's let's really go into space because Jesus tells us in the course of time and space of the same illusion and I think I might have to go into quantum I have to go into quantum gear for that to superposition and the idea of the quantum field because the quantum field yeah doesn't have any spatial component to it or any time component to it and there's no you know gravity no gravitational fields and so yeah we'll talk about that it very much sounds like Buddha's empty emptiness but well I'll talk about that then remind me space David space don't get spaced out on time talk a little bit on space okay no relativity subjectivity we talked a little bit tonight about love has no object so this all this subjective perception stuff seven different subjective perceptions no wonder there's there's the conflict if you've got subjective perceptions clashing always it's good to know that they aren't real and they really don't have any validity or reality that's what we'll explore that's good I want to hear requests of the heart okay you'll be shown that's granted yes any other requests of the heart that's good that's good too that's a good start that's a great place to be yay consistently choosing the miracle granted yeah yeah real forgiveness real I feel forgiveness. Okay. I just want to keep my mind just, here's one of your guys. Here, here. I mean, this one is worth it. I'm gonna hear the heart. It's magnified. Yeah, I'm just, the question that comes to mind is like, does it have to be like a roller coaster ride? Like, I mean, I've been here three weeks, and it's been amazing, but it's just like, it's just like, is there, I guess, is it just okay for it to be a roller coaster ride? Or is there a way to get it, kind of like what she was saying, a consistent love, like staying the love, and just never leaving. Just, you know, it's on my heart, just the roller coaster part. I hear that. Where is the love that was mine all mine till the end of time? Was it just a lie? Where is the love if you had had sudden changes? So, Will, that's what you're calling for. It's like beyond the roller coaster, the ups and downs. Yeah. Yeah, I had, like, yeah, there's, I know that there's a prayer to the heart that, to really go with the consistency of the love, with the consistency of the experience and not have it like, oh, I'm in this deep experience and then all of a sudden, I have to seemingly go through something or I have to go through some weird tunnel and then to go back to that heart-opening experience. And I was saying in the past few days, I think the mind is very ready with the consistency of it because, you know, we've looked at a lot of fear, right? And a lot of fear has been undone and now it's just the mind is ready for that consistency. And that's granted, yeah. Like, I just really feel it in my heart. Like, that is my wish. Like, that is what I want. It's like, what would you want for your birthday? This is what I would want. See, this is what's given. Like, this is actually what Spirit wants for us. And like, that's what I'm saying, I accept. And so, yeah, that is very much heard, that prayer for the consistency of the experience. And that's why we did so much mind-clearing here in preparation for it, which is like, it was all to prepare the mind to really allow Spirit to come in and just really take us into it gently and trust is the key. Trust allows some cluelessness and making no assumptions and conclusions and staying open. That's the recipe, by the way. There you go. If that's what you want, this is it. I'll repeat. I'll remind you. And we went also simplicity. Like, what seems to be the roller coaster, you can't really ever figure it out and you can't really dissect it or whatever, but I will say the clue is that that everything is about identity. So, we're really joining in coming to a real clear, clear, clear experience of identity. And that seems to involve not in reality, but it seems to involve a surrender or letting go of self-concepts. You know, if you're identified with the man, the woman, the mother, the father, sister, brother you're identified with the roles and so forth. You know, this is really getting into the latter chapters of The Course in Miracles self versus self-concept. Capital self, your real self, your real spiritual self versus egoic self-concepts that were made to shroud your mind to keep your mind caught up in shadows. And you know how I said it's about seeing the false as false. Well, when you see the false as false, the false drops. It's not about intellectually pointing a finger at something saying this is false, that is false. The next step is obviously releasing or letting go whatever you had identified with. So, this is not a play of ideas. This is not an intellectual experience. This is actually having the trust in your heart to shed whatever attachments whatever you had been clinging to. And I know that a lot of you are going through that. You're in the middle of a dismantling like in I Heart Huckabees and where the existential therapist, psychotherapist and there'll be others. You'll meet your brothers and sisters. When you're part of that dismantling things will come out of their mouths and you'll be like, whoa, that's it. So, that's really we're really with you in that because it just seems to be a dismantling but then you merge in your own fullness in your own glory unscathed by whatever seemed to pass you won't stay there. Just like the caterpillar doesn't stay in the cocoon. The caterpillar emerges with strength and the wings come out and then flies. It literally takes off and spiritually that's exactly what happens and I think it will be uncompromising but if you really want that, that's why you're here. You don't want it watered down. You don't want it kind of diluted. That was always my prayer with spirit. Give it to me straight. Give it to me straight. And there could be a bit of a rattle with that when you say, whoa, that's really strong. But then you're grateful. You feel the gratitude coming out. Like, thank you. So, I think that's coming. That's coming, yeah. To attraction to innocence. I mean that's what we've been speaking all about but I just noticed how what you're saying earlier, the temptation and to see the fault is false and then it's really love and revel in that innocence. That's the call of my heart so that I can be in my joy in my love and forget about fear. What's that? I don't know that. It's not in my vocabulary. Beautiful. Yeah, a lot of you have read Byron Katie about the Turn It Around. We really are going for a deep Turn It Around from the attraction to guilt to the attraction to innocence and then you gain the momentum of really starting to see the great value of escape that's involved here and it's just beyond anything you could imagine but that's being drawn to innocence. I think that's why you're here. You're being drawn to that. You wouldn't come here if there was a sense of guilt or wrongdoing or whatever. It's really coming because you feel, ah yes, I'm calling the witnesses now to my innocence. Not to pointing out errors, not to pointing out mistakes. Coming into a state of mind where you can see that everything is perfect and that you never really could make a mistake. That's where the innocence is in seeing that you are beyond the possibility of mistakes. Clearly, even a lot of you have come to the course is very much about choose again and, you know, Holy Spirit, decide for God, for me. I could choose to see this differently. It'll be fun with some of Lisa Cairns talks too because there'll be the presence too coming through, kind of calling beyond the idea of choice. Really, I would call it acceptance because this experience of the moment is really not like a choice of the world. It's just an absolute acceptance where you don't make any exceptions to that acceptance. If you want to come at it from that angle, you can even do it without talking about choice. There's ways, there's words, just coming into that acceptance and that's what the course calls accept the atonement for yourself. That's the sole responsibility. That's the only responsibility you have is to have that acceptance. So we're going to zoom into that. That's really what everything we talk about, no matter what words we use what vocabulary, it doesn't really matter. We're really going to zoom into that atonement accepting that presence as your reality. Yeah, and I really am feeling like a great delight around our first movie of retreat that we're having too because there's been such a string of amazing movies. It seems like we used to wait five or six months for one of these amazing movies to come out and now boom we'll go all the way back to last year, like around December. What was the one we had there about about time? And then this year it's just been one after the other. It's like heralding eternity. And like Lucy, amazing, amazing, amazing movie. I saw that again I think for the third time. Still was seeing, Spirit was like doing more instructions on that movie, seeing the third time through it. See, see, see, Kevin's here. Kevin's our movie, we have an amazing chef who's a world famous chef and Kevin is like with movies and finding metaphors first and right to review and then we read Kevin's email and we go, oh my god did you see he's got like a wide vision and notice this and notice that, did you see that symbol there? It's like the whole thing is just like oh my god we get a glimpse of it and then Kevin gives us the essence of the nuances of everything that was there. That's going to be fun because these movies are absolutely amazing. Lucy was a mind-blowing movie and then I did yesterday, I think it was yesterday I lose track of the days but I saw the giver for the second time and I was just sitting there going, whoa whoa whoa whoa whoa again again again about 1993 I was in a community in Denver and we all kind of went off our ways in different directions and one night I was sitting before I left that community and everybody was trying to prophesy what I would be doing in 10 or 20 years and one of the people there, Luke, said you will have like a little mini movie theater and you will watch movies with people and then instead of going to a confessional you'll go into a little processing booth and go into these deep mystical experiences with people kind of that was a pretty good prophecy actually it was like 93 that's what is that 21 years ago this was a prophecy that was given and I'm like it's working out so we should have a lot of fun with that that's kind of, that's like, talk about the cherry on the cake and the cream we go through our music enlightenment retreat and then we, ooh we go into these movies ah, yum I may be going to be a breath area but I'm still going to be yum with these movies I'm eating the movie there mmmmm okay well we don't want to keep you too long tonight because actually we have a full full day tomorrow I think after your sessions and everything we'll come right back here for a 10-15 session which I'll be sharing at 3 o'clock yeah at 3 o'clock there's going to be another session with at the stage, down at the stage with Lisa Cairns Cairns and then at 7 there's going to be another session most likely a music set something musical so yeah so even though after that we'll be spontaneous we don't really have a schedule for the whole thing at least you can think of that 10-15, 3 o'clock, 7 o'clock we have 3 minutes for one closing song from Eric to send everyone off Strawberry Fields Forever maybe I don't remember no that's the Beatles we've got to get Eric to do the Laura's version yeah that one, R R's Strawberry Fields Forever yeah yeah soon man Friday to Monday her and Donna she wrote the song last year and yeah it was like a kind of a take on the original Beatles song and then just threw in a lot of lyrics about the festival and the canyon walls and yeah Strawberry, I think she called it Strawberry Fields Redux every step we take I'll see if you can sleep after that