 Very nervous to make this video because that means I actually have to read these books or unhaul them and that's Not good for me Friends welcome back to my video. I hope you're all good today We're going to be doing a video inspired by Becca from Becca in the books who does this video Called these books were self-destruct in 12 months I'm working on doing it today and I I'm actually wondering why I've done this to myself It's not too late to like just turn the camera off and pretend I never started filming this video Are you tough enough for the job? No If you watch my channel often, particularly when I do unhauls, you know, I don't like it I don't like unhauling But it comes a time when there's a lot of books on my tbr that I'm like, why haven't I read that yet? Why haven't I read that yet? And so I've always watched Becca do these videos and be like, okay, this is entertaining but good for you And then I've just been having a bit of a talking to myself lately and I just feel like I need to start Reading books and we've got 10 books here that I have to read Next year or I have to unhaul that this is it's making me feel sick So it's basically to try and make me read them right because I don't want to unhaul these I want to read them. I own them right But half of this is like books that I've owned for a really long time And I don't necessarily I'm like super excited to read them Like they're the books that I kind of forget they're on my tbr Easy to look over, you know, and the other half are the books I keep saying that's one of the books I want to read the most That's one of the books I want to read the most But I keep not reading it because it doesn't fit into videos and I'm not making the effort To fit them into videos because they're not new releases and they're not, you know You know what I mean? Those are the books I'm particularly fit up at but I couldn't make a whole tbr of them because can you imagine if I didn't read them I think I'd rather delete my channel than like own up to that So we've gone half the books that like I need to read you or just get rid because my interest is waning And half the books that I keep saying Have to read that books in and keep not doing that because I'm a liar. I'm a pathological liar So let's just get into it I'll start with one of the books that I am Most excited to read and keep saying I have to read and then we'll go into one of the books that I am less excited to read So this one This one's really risky. I have this is a risk. I'm taking risks I'm living my life Um, this one's risky because I know there's a high chance that I am not going to read this But it's one of the books I want to read most But I just again like I don't fit it into videos. It's one of the books. I look at daily And I think I need to read you and it's unwell women by enla clay corn a journey through medicine and myth in a man-made world I might not go back in I'm gonna go home actually I remember I hauled this last christmas. It was like a surprise gift I didn't even know about this book and my boyfriend's mom got it for me for christmas and I remember I hauled it and I was like I need to read this like straight away. I unwrapped it I found out that I had it in a video in my christmas book haul after that I remember loads of people read this because of me loads of my patrons picked it up and were saying how Amazing it was and I know I just need to read it But it's a fairly chunky nonfiction and you know nonfiction I love But like I just don't prioritize her vlogs because I don't think as many people are interested in But I often say before I started my channel. I read 50 fiction 50 nonfiction I would alternate between them because I'm a psycho and I would line up the next 10 books I was going to read and I'd alternate at fiction nonfiction and that was how I read This is probably one of the nonfiction I want to read the most and I'm literally putting on this list to make me read it I have to read it. I love nonfiction about women That is probably my biggest interest in nonfiction is forgotten women throughout history Or you know inequality for women currently feminist nonfiction. I just like I just want to read about women. Okay, like that's all I want to do Women you know I'm particularly interested in how women have historically been misdiagnosed How there's like even to today, which is crazy Like women's issues are seen as lesser in in medicine like if you look at menopause, right? It's not compulsory I don't think the doctors to learn about Menopause symptoms and processes and whatever when they become a GP in the UK Which is crazy when 50 percent of the population are going through it. I'm getting So, yeah, I think this is one of the things I'm most interested in want to read so badly But it's been a year almost and I haven't read it and I know I just need to and I know I'd learn so much And I'd be fascinated and it's going to be so beneficial to read. So That's number one guys. Are we are we getting hot palpitation jet because I am Okay, then one of the books I'm less interested in is The Wife Between Us by Greer Hendricks and Sarah Peckinen This is one of the oldest books on my tbr. It's one of the few books I've now delete this is the only video I've ever privated But I did a video that was basically my whole own tbr when I joined youtube. Guess how many books on my tbr? About 30 and I was like If you can see me now Megan Yeah, this is one of the few books left from when I joined Booktube that I still haven't read and am I going to? I do not want to comment why Why I think I've learned through my reading that I'm less interested in domestic thrillers This is like as domestic as you can get like two women The ex-wife and the younger wife who's replaced her and like, you know something going on But I am interested in Greer Hendricks and Sarah Peckinen. I've never read from them I feel like I should give it a go. Listen. You've survived this long without being unhauled You deserve for me to give you a go. It's one that I just need to get to or unhaul Like it's been on my tbr now for how long I've been on youtube three years My god I was thinking about it. I was thinking about it before I started filming I still feel new I still feel like I've just started and I'm one of the newbies Isn't that crazy, but I've been here three years Huh The idea of it does interest me and I am interested in reading thrillers Like the big names are like this gong girl girl on the train You know that was the girl he's back in the day and like finding out Can I like them or am I just a mystery girl? Do you know what I mean? I don't know then one of the ones that I am most excited to read And I feel like I've spoken about this quite a lot recently is and the tree's creptin by Dawn Kurtigich I want to read this so bad two girls go to their aunt's home and it's clear that her house is cursed The the forest starts creeping in there's voices. There's secrets What's going on? There's a tall man with no eyes who plays and running them in the basement at night You're kidding me? And it's told in a such an interesting way where there's like letters Let me let me come a little closer Come a little closer, come a little closer, baby, baby Big letters like the font is always changed up So I'm really excited to read it. I feel like this this is like almost a five star prediction for me And I need to just read it like I need to read it or get like Can you tell I'm putting some big guns on this list. I'm scared. I'm super excited to read this I've heard nothing but good things from everyone who I've heard read it And I just think it's gonna be I love a bit and we know I love mixed media And this is I would say is mixed media like I love books that mess with what a book is supposed to be right When I pick a book up from the shelf of waterstones and it's just like A normal book Doesn't get me going as much as like a bit of drama A little bit theatricality a little bit of like you know what I mean? I would be lying To my core if I said that I hope there's no more drama here I like drama drama Drives me at times because I think without drama was the fun in life as someone who did drama her whole life I love I love putting on a production, right? Don't know if you can tell I love a feeling. I love an ambiance. I love a different. I love creativity. I love that so Here we go. It's gonna be five stars and I'm gonna read it and he won't You won't see me unhauling it in a year's time one of the ones that I don't know if I'm gonna read this next year But it's one of the ones I'm less interested in the cousins by Karen M. McManus Now lots of you have told me do not start here with Karen M. McManus But it's the one I own and I'm not gonna buy more until I know whether I like her stuff or not So Karen McManus is obviously the author of one of us is lying which is her big hit series This is like a standalone about cousins four children are suddenly dropped by their mother with a single sentence You know what you did And they get an invitation to spend the summer at their grandma's resort But yeah, lots of you tell me I'm not even gonna like this. So like lots of I don't read I think enough YA mystery You know got to look at miss Miss Holly Jackson my queen my angel my love to know I can really enjoy YA mystery and I feel like Karen McManus is one of the biggest Authors for YA mystery as well. I also this isn't on the list But I do know that Karen McManus has a story in the Marple short story collection And I've come to a conclusion I am not going to read this until I've one read at least one Marple novel because that's not fair And I haven't read a Marple novel yet. So I need to get my hands on murder at the vicarage But I'm intrigued to see her in this. So I feel like I should read This as well. How well do you think I'm gonna do put in the comments down below at the end of the video or now How many of these do you think I'm actually gonna read because uh, I have great faith in myself It will be all 10 Okay, this one This is probably one of the books I'm most embarrassed about not having read And it's Wild Beauty by Annemarie Mackamaw If you followed me like last year right last year You'll know this I could not shut up about how I was going to read this I could not shut up about it five star prediction book. I'm most excited to read on every tbr How did that go for me? How did that go for me? And I would say this was around the same time I was super excited to read in the Hall of the Knife which I recently read And I was just you know whilst reading it I was really annoyed at myself that I hadn't read it when I was most excited to read it That's why some of these other books are on this list because I want to read them before I get to that point Where the anticipation has dissipated and I would still say my anticipation for this is Really really high. I really think I'm gonna love this. I don't really know much about it Everyone tells me just going to meet Annemarie Mackamaw's stuff without really knowing anything and I'm like fine I do that half the time with books anyways I just know we're gonna get magical realism Beautiful writing and I've been told to start with bad beauty. So this if I don't unhaul this imagine the shame Imagine the shame That could be enacted on me. So I have I have to do it then one of the ones that I'm Less excited and reading it. This is one that my excitement has dissipated over the years Is educated by Tara Westover. I know I can hear you screaming like what Megan You're gonna love this. You need to just read it. I know but like my excitement for it has just gone a bit And I don't know what's wrong shame on you Many of you know, this is an autobiography by a woman who was not taught as a child Her parents were I think end of days Preparing for the end of days. She eventually gets what does she get? I think she gets like a masters from Cambridge or something like that So she eventually goes into education and like kind of teaches herself up to that point I've heard nothing but good things about this But I've had it again for a really long time and haven't read it and it's just I have to do it Or has to go has to or I have to set myself free of the burden if it has to be one or the other I know a lot of you will be like You have to read it. You have to read it, but Will it happen? I don't know Okay, we have two more on each side of the aisle Of ones I'm most excited for and ones I'm least right for most excited. I'm still So excited to read girl in the walls by A. J. Can you say I've been so excited to read this since it came out and then I keep like forgetting about it and then seeing it again. I'm like I just want to read it so bad like I love the vibe It's about this girl who lives in the walls of this house A family moves into the house and he he sometimes spies a girl from the corner of his eye He needs her to disappear and like is she a ghost? Is she a ghost or is she real? It gives me. Oh, I can't say that without spoiling something But if you were around in 20 20 20 20 20 312 and watched a certain horror series and there was a twist You know to do with a house to do with is there a ghost? You'll know that's what it's giving me You get me you get me you get the vibe. So I'm just really I really want to read this I love the edges of this. I think this cover is so gorgeous This cover was made But this is all like 2d card that they layered up like in layers going back and took the photo How cool is that? How cool is that? It's so cool. I feel like not a lot of people read this. It came out last year I pre-ordered it and everything guys. It's really bad. I came out last year And I feel like I haven't heard a lot of people speak about it So I want to know what I make of it. Next we have pine by francine tune Hmm This is I I think I originally bought it as a thriller I think it was waterstones thriller of the month and that's why I bought it But then I've actually had it's more of like a very slow horror This is about a girl and her dad Who see a woman a lot of stumbling across the road on halloween nights They drive her back to their house in the morning. She's gone It's about this small tight knit community And I think it's I think I might love this but again my interest in it has just waned a bit So I have to read it or get rid. I think this is going to be slow Haunting creepy atmospheric I do really love the cover as well. Like I think it's a great cover I feel like I should read this in the winter time. Maybe I'll get around to it in february I don't know. We'll see I feel like I need to read this in the winter for it to be fully atmospheric I know I won't get around to it in january because I know what I'm reading in january Listen, it's blurred by lucy froley at the front. She says that I loved this book. Hugely atmospheric exquisitely written and utterly gripping. Okay gothic thriller. Oh, yeah, you've got me gothic thriller Everyone's calling it gothic thriller grizzly mystery occult thrills We're gonna give it a go and then the last book that I I looked at all my books for this right I wasn't gonna put like my newest releases on here I knew that the books I wanted to put on here were books I'd had for a while because Then I'm justified in saying to myself right you have to read this the next year or get rid And this is another book that I've owned since I started my booktube channel and still haven't read And it's been highly recommended to me by my mum my mum read it people I follow like booktubers have since read it Like kayla's read it. I've owned this since I started my channel three years I've owned this and still haven't read it, but I'm so excited to and it's biased the new science of race and inequality by Jennifer eberhardt I have wanted to read this so bad for the past three years and again non-fiction I'm just not good at fitting it in so this is all about unconscious bias and looking at it Scientifically so when you look throughout there's like pictures graphs and stuff how we think it's studies that show how humanity makes Uh, perhaps bad assumptions based on ingrained thought processes and that is just so interesting to me I have never heard a bad thing about this. I've only heard wonderful reviews my mum loved it I know kayla really liked it and I feel like I've read a lot of non-fiction lately That's more like memoir based or like just like more personal experience based and the stuff I'm more interested in reading now is like expert stuff So that's why I'm super excited to read both of these These are both very like sciencey looking at something. I'm interested through a science lens And I feel like that's an angle that I'm excited to read through at the moment And then finally I'm putting a series on here. I'm putting the next installment in a series on here Because I have to read it. I don't know if any of you all know this book It's the jeweled moth the second in the Sinclair mysteries by catherine wood fine This is a middle grade mystery series which I started in 2020 I did a video where I read three middle grade books. They were all starts of series I have not continued with a single one of them I'm sorry. It just hit me just now So I have to start making progress in them or just dnfing them This was a really fun mystery series though. I think it's like 1920s and it's set at this department store called Sinclair so very like Selfridges and it definitely plays up on like its historical setting and like The vibes and I don't know. I really enjoyed the first one of these This was I think my lowest rated series out of all the ones I start in that video So I feel like if I don't make progress in this in the next year should probably dnf So there we have it that is the 10 books that I have to read in the next year or I have to unhaul them Oh my god, can't believe I've just filmed this whole video I'm still in shock that I'm doing this to myself But please let me know which of these you think I should prioritize which ones you think I will enjoy And yeah, let me know how successful you think I'm actually gonna be at this because these are again not the books that I like Planned for in the next videos that I'm doing or whatever like they're books that I'm gonna have to Really make an effort to get to and fit into vlogs. Otherwise I have to unhaul them. That's so much pressure. Oh my goodness So, yeah, please let me know what you think I should prioritize leave the crying face emoji down below if you've got to The end because I'm really So leave that down below if you've got to the end. Thank you guys so much for watching and I'll see you very soon in another video Bye