 We're gonna hope once again that maybe I get half. I don't know what to expect! My channel today, I keep doing this to myself. That is actually painful to watch, but let's go! Today we're reacting to a TBR that I made, I think at the start of September last year, about the 22 books that I wanted to read before I turned 22. Now let me tell you everyone, the moment is upon us! I think this video is going up the day before my birthday, I'm pretty sure. So, um, like the time is now on whether I've read these books or not, and I genuinely, I can't remember what I put on this list. I can't remember, could not tell you, it could be anything. I think these TBRs, what I'm learning is there a reflection of what I was wanting to read at the time. And things change, and that's okay. I don't want to hear any goddamn excuses anymore! So yeah, we're gonna be watching back that video and seeing how many of those books I have actually read. 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But it is something that I'm thinking about and considering, and I think I'd quite like to create that kind of short form content, but I'm scared. Like I'm a little bit scared because it's like a medium I've never used before. It's like starting all over again. I've always been so used to YouTube, but this is gonna teach me about the TikTok algorithm, the best ways to use text, captions, how to edit TikToks, like the filming of it. It really scares me for some reason, like filming TikToks. So I'm hoping my taking this class is gonna help me with all of that. So yeah, there's literally a class for anything you can imagine. There's no ads, there's always new classes coming out. And something that is super amazing is the first 1,000 you to use my link in the description will get a one month free of Skillshare, a whole month to kind of test it out and have a go. And I would really recommend it. If you're thinking, oh, I don't know, just do it. You've got nothing to lose. Get a month free and see how you feel about it. And if it's something you want to continue in the future. Okay, I think I'm ready. Oh, what? Oh, it's not going to be good. Okay, let's see. Let's see how bad this is. So the first book on this list is The Spirit Engineer by AJ West. This is an art I very kindly received of it. This comes out early October. Bro, I read them. Why do I keep calling you bro? Bro, bro. Anyway, you are my rider die. You're on my home skillet, this Scott, you know what I mean? I have read The Spirit Engineer off to a great start. I quite enjoyed it. I gave it four stars. And yeah, we're off to a good start. Can you believe it? I feel like though that book, I knew I was going to read it. Like I think I had plans to read that book. So like it wasn't sometimes I put a few on there that I know I'm going to read because if you know me, you know, I've got a lot of videos planned and I'm like, okay, I know what I'm reading for those videos. So sometimes these TBRs, I put in a few that I know I'm going to read. Yeah, I think I've plans that one. So it's not as big a success as an unexpected book is. Next is another one of my most like anticipated really want to read 2021 releases. And it is Switch by AS King. Now there's only had the best review. I haven't read it. I have not read it. I have not read it. I am so excited for that book. I am so excited for my AS King. I have no excuses. I actually have nothing to say to you here because why haven't I read this? It's short. It's like 200 pages. I could easily read it. Have I? No. I think this next book was the only book that I had on last year's list that I have decided to put on this again. Hang on, hang on, hang on, hang on. On two years lists, had to read it before I turn 21 and then before I turn 22. And if I haven't read this, we're ending the video right here. Okay, Rebecca by Daphne de Morrier. Yes, it's a concern and a worry. It is a concern and a worry. Oh, this is and I really scratched my head and I wonder where's God when you need him. This is a travesty. This is a travesty. I have not read Rebecca. Haven't read it. I think I thought I was going to read it around like Halloween again. Didn't happen. Did I, have I put, no, I felt like I've just stopped putting Rebecca on lists because I've accepted it's just apparently not happening. No, I do still really want to read it. Just classics. I didn't read a single one in 2021. And in 2022, I've read four books and were 25 days into the year because reading has just not happened for me this month. February is a new month. Okay, February is definitely a new month for me because this month has not been very good. So you haven't read it. Next is one of my most anticipated ends of series. It's the end of a trilogy. I'm so excited. It is as good as dead by Holly Jackson. We love this very ideas first and foremost. So true. So true Megan. I have read as good as dead. Now I keep telling you I've read it because it was the fourth book, third or fourth book I read this year. The vlog that it's in, I'm hopefully going to get up this weekend. I guess cross. That's not happening. Yeah, I can't tell you what I think about it because I want to wait until that vlog. I mean, if you wanted to, you could probably figure out what I, if you want to go do some sleuthing, I'm not going to tell you where to look, but like I have spoken about it a little bit. I just want a complete secret, but I'd rather like not go into my thoughts until the vlog has come out and then you can experience the journey that is reading this book in the vlog. But I have read it. So who gives a fuck, point on the board, point on the motherfucking board. Okay. Another one I am so excited for and it has to be honest with you, I have to read it by my birthday is the Christy Affair by Nina de Grimond. This I've read it. I've read it. I've read the Christy Affair. When did I read that? Oh, I read it for one of my Christmas vlogs. I think the Christmas cookie vlog. I really enjoyed it. I'm glad I read it again. It was like a four star. It wasn't a five star, but it was a really interesting like fiction, like fiction. It was a really interesting fictionalization of when I, Christy, went missing, which I think it's just like the ultimate mystery around this woman. It's not really the ultimate mystery. His sister just wanted to dip for a couple of days and everyone made it into a big hoo-ha, but whatever. I think it's a really interesting thing to draw inspiration from and to, you know, you know, she's like the ultimate mystery queen. So of course she's going to have a mystery in her life. So I did really enjoy this book. It is out now everywhere. And yeah, I really recommend you pick it up if you love Agatha Christy because I think it's a really interesting take on what happened and there's a lot of interesting themes. And I really glad that I read it. So hey, another point on the board. We're winning at the moment. We're winning. Okay. You can tell in my brain when I was writing this and I was like mystery, mystery. I love it. Mystery. The next one is In the Hall with the Night by Dana Peter Freund. Okay. So this is a clue mystery, cluedo mystery. This is right here on my left hand side. So here's the thing. I have not started this because I don't want to start any series. At this point in time, I would have started this probably in like my Christmas cookie video. Like if I've had a choice, this is one of the books I want to read most, but I've restrained myself. So like I'm just waiting to finish a few series before I start that one. Just a few, maybe like four or five and then I'll let myself start a series. But yeah, that's not happening. That's not happening. So I haven't read that. But I'm happy I haven't read that because I'm really trying to be strict with myself on not just reading first books and series because that is currently a problem. Currently a problem. Like if you could see, we'll put a screen share in screen recording in here. If you could see in 2021 how many just first books of series I read. Just read the first book. I only read the first book. You would, you would have, you would cry. So let's not have a go at me for not reading this. I'm actually okay with it. Listen, there is one book on this list I'm gonna make progress in a series read. And it is The Jeweled Moth by Katherine Woodfine. Not me saying that with my whole chest. Not me saying that with my whole chest. So shame, so shame. Girl, shut up. You are making things worse. So yeah, I haven't read this. The reason in that video I'm like, I am gonna make progress in this series is because I told myself Megan, you don't have to vlog this. Just read this for your own enjoyment. Don't vlog it. And I'm still telling myself that I'm not gonna vlog it. Um, so I just constantly, I would, yeah. I just didn't have time to read anything really that wasn't for a vlog. I don't really have time to do that. I'm constantly like fucking trying. I've got so many vlogs I want to make. You guys don't understand how many vlogs I have written down. It's just reading the book at a time. If I could read quicker, that would be great. Um, so I haven't read this and I have no excuse. I can't sit here like I can with Switch or like other books and be like, I really want to vlog this for you guys, but I haven't fed it into a video. So like, oh my god, not really, but not my fault. This is my fault. This is my fault because I could have made time. It's an easy mystery middle grade. Like, anyway. The next one, I don't look so happy. I don't know how I'm gonna be successful at this, but I'm hoping I'm gonna read this in October is The King of Crows by Libba Bray. This is the final book in The Divine. Okay, now, now we reach a conundrum everyone. I didn't read this in October, but I'm currently reading it. By the time this video goes up, I will have finished it. I've got like 100 pages left. I don't give a fuck if you disagree. I don't give a fuck. I'm counting it as if I've read it because I will have by the time this video goes out and I've read most of it. Now this is the culprit. Let's just sit down for a second and talk about this. This is the culprit for why I have not read many books this year, because I was avoiding it for so long and I'm reading it and it's taking me ages to read it. So that's, this is, this is, this is my arch nemesis right now. The book isn't that bad, but I'm just like not enjoying it. This is the worst. This is the worst. This is the worst. Yeah. Next one is a bit of a wild card, but I really want to read it. I have not read that. Hasn't even crossed my mind to read that. I really want to read it. It's a book that I own. It's like, sure, it's told in a very interesting way. It's a book I really want to read, but have not. And it's not even something that has been at the forefront of my mind to read. Don't I mean because it's not in any vlog plans? Like, it's just not been in my mind to read it. So um, no. How could you do this to me? Question mark. I always look back on these videos and think, Megan, you look so sweet and innocent with the hope you're gonna read these books. And listen, in my 2022 TBR, which I just made, I generally believe I'm gonna read all those books. So like, what's that phrase? Is it like insanity is doing, is it insanity? Something is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results. This is me now. I was hoping by now this like, you know, genre of videos on my channel, we would have seen some progression of me doing better, but that's just not happening. So I am just doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results. Anyway, next we've got the only nonfiction on this list. I'm not gonna read it. I'm still not gonna read it. But it is The Radiant Girls by Kate Moore. So this is about, yeah, no, I have not read that. I really want to read it. I want to read Radiant Girls so bad. I want to read it so bad. I feel like I need to like have one of my Patreon book clubs be a nonfiction soon. I feel like that would be fun. And maybe I feel like they would vote for Radiant Girls if it was an option. So let's see what TBR Clio brings in those couple months and whether we can have that as a book club pick. Yeah, this has been one of my most like, want to read books for such a long time. I've had the audiobook is great. I really, I really want to read it. I really want to read it. You're gonna make me cry. No. Then we have A Latte's Way by Darcy Little Badger. This is another one I didn't want to know too much before going into it. I think I put that, I put that on my 2022 TBR. I tried so hard not to put any like books that had been on previous like, I'm gonna read this by. But I think I still failed because a Latte's Way is on that. I'd forgot it was here. I haven't read it. I want to read this very, very bad. I feel like this is gonna be a five star. This is beyond a five star prediction for me. It's gonna be a five star. It's gonna be beautiful. It's gonna be amazing. Let's just not, please let's just not talk about it. Please let's just not talk about it. Let's just not, that one's embarrassing. Let's just not, we're moving on. Next, another book that's coming out in October of this year is Under the Whispering Door by T.J. Klune. I am so excited to read this. I loved House and the Serenian Sea. I'm not read Under the Whispering Door. I don't really know why I haven't because I was sorry because I really got the arc. You know House and the Serenian Sea was, I think, was it my fourth favorite book I read last year? So it's up there. I just feel like my reading was a little bit funny towards the end of last year. I feel like I did a lot of videos where I didn't have control. I, I, there's a few video, video ideas I really want to do in the next couple weeks but I was like, I'm finding the time because I still want to do all the other videos I was planning on. But yeah, there's some videos that I want to do that I'm debating doing that would give me a bit more control over what I read. So we're gonna, yeah, we'll see. We'll see. Another series I want to start is Hashtag Murder Trending by Gretchen McNeil. I own this. I've read it. I read that. That was the second book club pick for my Patreon. Everyone like hated it. It's an interesting book. It's very campy. It's very silly. So like, it's a book that you go in, you need to go into Hashtag Murder Trending thinking it's a bit crap. Like, you need to go into it thinking, oh, it's a bit shit because it's like a shitty horror film, like a really shit horror film. But like, I kind of enjoyed it because of that. I mean, I didn't rate it very highly. I think I gave it a three. Did I give it a three? I think I gave it a three. So I could understand why people didn't like it, but I kind of liked its silliness, if that makes sense. But I read it at least. So I don't care. I don't care about what I thought of it. I just know I've read it. Then I thought ahead, not just what I'm in the mood to read right now, but I was thinking, all right, seasonally, what am I gonna be in the mood to read? Because I got the mind of a mastermind, okay? What am I gonna say here? What am I gonna say here? Okay, Halloween or Christmas then? You know, it's gonna be Christmas. It's gonna be wintertime. So I've put Midwinter Murder by Ika the Christy on this list. Megan, I could, I could kiss you right now. I've read it. I read Midwinter Murder. I read that on Christmas Day Unboxing Day and I enjoyed it. It was a really fun thing to read over Christmas. I liked some short stories more than others, but that's always, I guess, the nature of a short story collection. But I've read it and I had a lot of fun. I'm glad I thought ahead to this because I was in the mood to read some Christmassy stuff over the Christmas period. So honestly, mind of a mastermind. Mind of a mastermind, Megan, I'm so proud of you. You just got yourself another point there. We need to claw back two to get even. Can I see that happening? No, no, I can't. But let's hope. Then another book that I've been so excited to read for such a long time is The Only Good Indians by Stephen Graham Jones. I thought it was the right. I've read it. I read The Only Good Indians. What video did I read that for? My brain. It ashamed me sometimes. I can't remember what vlog I read that for, but I read it and I enjoyed it. It was such a different horror than anything I've read before. I'm so glad I finally read it because it was on my want to read for a long time. So I'm really, really happy. I feel like, oh, Megan, that was a good one to put on this list. That was a good one. I am so proud of her I could cry. Another kind of mystery that came out in Train 3-1 I really want to get to is Girl in the Walls by A.J. Genise. Oh, I haven't read it. I really want to read this still. This is like such an anticipated mystery kind of book for me. It was about this girl who's like living in this walls and it's the current family living there like figuring out what's happening. I really, I really, can you tell? Can you tell I really want to read it? Can you tell I really want to read it? That's interesting because now, yeah, we're not going to win this are we? That's a shame. That's a shame. No, I feel like this one I've meant to read so many times like the whole of last year. It came out very early in 2021 and I've meant to read it for so long. I just haven't picked up for some reason but like I said I'm gonna, I've got a video idea I really want to do. It's a lot of work but it would give me control of what I read but I would have to read short books for it. So I don't know. We'll have to have a think. Now one I am super excited to read pretty much like off the cover is Six Crimes and Cranes by Elizabeth Lim. This is such a gorgeous edition. That's an interesting choice Megan because I haven't read it. Six Crimes and Cranes, another one I really want to read. It's a book a lot of my patrons pick as one of their books to go in my like TBR Cluedo pot, my rose prompt which I sometimes pick out of if I land on that. A lot of them have picked that as their book. It's a very popular book. I still definitely really want to read it. I need to like hold it in my hands again and like and look at the cover but it's wrapped up. Maybe I'll end up reading it for wrapped up. There's a few, quite a few of these books I haven't read that are still in the contention to be read for wrapped up. So maybe I'll end up reading it for that. Then another one of the books I was most excited to come out this year and I bought it and I have not read it yet is Fire Keeper's Daughter by Angeline Booney. I haven't read it! Oh another one that's wrapped up, another one that I'm so excited to read. Everyone tells me Megan you're gonna love it. My mum's read it. Like my mum reads a lot of books before I get to them. I buy them and I'm so excited and she goes oh that sounds interesting. She just picks up on a whim and reads it before me. You don't know how many books that woman has read before me. This is so humiliating! But no, have not read Fire Keeper's Daughter, another one that I keep saying I'm gonna hopefully get to them soon but am I? Am I? Am I? Is Dead Dead Girls by Nikita Afea? I've read it! I really enjoyed this. I did a video where I read like murder mysteries. She's there, she's there sitting pretty. I really enjoyed this and I'm excited for the next book in the series to come out. It's like a 1920s murder mystery. I feel like we've got an interesting like character arc going on throughout the series. I almost had season then, excuse me. But yeah, no I really enjoyed this and it was a really great debut and I thought I had a lot of interesting themes to it. So go me! Then another kind of book that I have owned for a long time. A long time. Okay, a pretty run of credit. It's The Moonless Dead by Katie Starling. So interesting, I have not read that but I have read Katie Starling's newest book The Death of Jane Lawrence this year and I didn't enjoy that. So I feel like I'm gonna really enjoy The Moonless Dead. I feel like The Death of Jane Lawrence was just like, that was a whole, that was an experience. I have blurred for my mind because that was a lot. That book was a lot. So I feel like I've kind of like forgotten what that book was like and the The Moonless Dead is gonna be my new introduction to Katie Starling. Still really want to read this. I'd still probably put it on a TBI and heartbeat today. It's a shame I'm not reading at the moment because a lot I want to read. I'm so excited to read. I've just really been struggling. I've had a lot going on behind the scenes. So I've really been struggling to read this month but February, New Woman, I'm gonna go back to three videos a week. I'm gonna read lots. I'm gonna like get my shit together a little bit more and no I really am. I'm really, really am gonna get my shit together and yeah hopefully I'll get better and hopefully I'll start reading more. And another series I want to make progress in is Across the Green Grassfields by Sean and McGuire. This is the Wayward Children series. I've read it. I've read Across the Green Grassfields. Now I really need to read Where the Drowned Girls Go, which is the next one. But I have read Across the Green Grassfields and I loved it. It was such a different book in the series of following this guy. Is it Reagan? I think his name's Reagan. He like lives in this world of horses and what goes into this world of horses and centaurs. Could you try again? What? Oh my god. Interesting question. Oh, stop it. I just go away. Go away. Go away. How do I get you to go away? Go away Siri. How does this work? Siri close. How do you do fellow kids? What? I just got an Apple watch yesterday and I don't really understand how it works and Siri just started talking to me. What was I saying? Yeah, lives in this world of horses and centaurs. It was just a really cute, really cute edition of the series and I really loved it. And then the only like contemporary on this list, I really should have read this like a lot sooner because it came out in June, I think, or June or July is Love and Other Natural Disasters by Mrs. Guria. Interesting choice. Haven't read that. Have not read Love and Other Natural Disasters. I have an arc of it. That is shameful. That is actually shameful. I loved Mrs. Guria's other book that I read. This time will be different and I was so excited to read this and I haven't. Why am I not reading at the moment? Why am I not reading? I mean I had like four other months to read it and I didn't. Hey-ho. Okay, everyone. That is it. I read nine of them. That's not terrible. Here's the thing. I did set myself up to fail a bit with this video. I should have made the list. Like I should have not made this one. I should have made that video. Whoa, this is a creaky chair. I should have made that list a couple months before. I feel like September is quite late to like read these 22 books, which a lot of them I didn't have plans for. Like it's just not realistic. It's just not realistic. So I feel like I set myself up for failure. I'm like going to do it again this year. Yeah, I think I will, but I think I'll do it in maybe like July, August time. Like halfway through the year, because my birthday is at the end of January. So I feel like I should give myself maybe six months to do this, because then this year it's going to be 23 books. I got to read before I turn 23. But listen, we all live and we learn. During these videos, like doing my last video is my most anticipated releases of the year. And obviously this one is reacting to a lot of books I haven't read. They do make me more excited to read. Like I said, I've just really been struggling lately. And hopefully this will kind of give me the motivation to read until I read more and to finish fucking King of Crows. It needs to fucking get gone. I don't care. It needs to get out of my life. I've truly had enough. I'm truly at my limit with King of Crows. So yeah, hopefully I will start reading more. I'm not even going to do a January wrap up guys. It's not going to be worth it. I'm going to read probably like six books in total. I'm going to change my way of doing my wrap ups anyway. So they will start for February. I'm just not going to do it on January. I don't think it's worth it. But yeah, I hope you enjoyed this video. Let me know how you thought I did. Let me know if you thought I would do better. If you had no faith in me and thought I would do as well as I did or do worse. If you've gone to the end of the video, comment the shocked face emoji, because we're not shocked, but let's pretend we are. Comment that down below if you've gotten to the end of the video. Thank you so much for watching guys. I cannot tell you how much your support and love and everything means a lot to me. So thank you so much for watching until the end and I'll see you very soon in another video. Bye!