 And that's how you went there. So when I got there to sing the song, I'll be honest with you. At first it was like, my God, my God. And then I remember Chris and them came in and they said, you're not singing it the way you need to. I had to make me cry a little bit. He was saying, think about a mirror. And when I got there, I started singing it and I kind of was mad. And so when you hear that, my God, I was kind of mad at God. I was like, why would you do this to me? Don't boss talk one-on-one, one-on-one. Here we go. I got kids. So how did you go to that place where you, my God, my God. How did you go there in that song? How did, you see what I'm saying? That's a different place. Like the whole song, the tempo was something else. And I just want to know how you dig and find that place in that verse. I had a cousin named Amir. Amir Warkely Howard. And he had kind of, when we were broke, when we was trying to come up. And my cousin, he worked for Safeway. He used to do the bottling and the recycling. And we would come down to Oakland to record with the whole nine. And he, people would sometimes just leave him bottles. And my cousin, when he got the leftovers, he would just pile up and he would cash it in. And instead of keeping it for himself, he would actually, even though he was my cousin, he would pass it out to all the members in the group. And when we come, because we stay in his house, you know, and he would say, here's 20 for you, here's 20. I'll go eat and do all that kind of stuff. And when I got, when I decided to sign, I knew I was gonna be in the Bay because I was in Sacramento at the time. And I called him and I said, hey, I'm gonna be in the Bay with you. And then we was like, oh man, we're gonna, and we was like, oh man, we're gonna have Amir with us. And oh man, we're gonna, you know, be able to kick it with Amir and do all that. And the weekend before I got to go to Hams and start recording, there's a thing called sighting in the Bay area that they do. They rev the car up and he had just had a dream about dying. He had, his father had passed and he had bought a DeLorean. And he said it was too fast for him. He had dreamed that he was gonna die. So he went and bought a Trans Am and he got scared of that. So he decided that night to go out with his homies and let them drive and his homie had a Mustang and you know, the drop and he was in it. And he was in the back seat and he told his boy, hey, they started sighting and he said, hey, if you're gonna do this, let me out. Let me out. And he started to try to get out and his homie said, oh, nigga, I'm so sad. And he rev the car up and my cousin flew out like a projectile and his head snapped on a light pole. And when his homie saw that, he got nervous and the car just started spinning, spinning and crash and killed the other guys well in the back. And then the guy in the front seat, the passenger, he became paralyzed and the driver. Nothing. Nothing. And that's the guilt of the side you went there. So when I got there to sing the song, I'll be honest with you, at first it was like, my God, my God. And then I remember Chris and him came in and they said, you're not singing it the way you need to. I had to make him cry a little bit. He was saying, think about a mirror. And when I got there, I started singing it and I kind of was mad. And so when you hear that, my God, I was kind of mad at God. I was like, why would you do this to me? You know what I'm saying? So that's why you hear that. Yeah, yeah, I could feel it was something there, man. It just, that's heavy because like I said, not only it was needed for the time because it was a place where a lot of people was at. And then my homie YB was gone. Yeah. People had to feel that. People had to feel that through your music to resonate with it. Yeah. And then I started thinking about all these homies. And then when I got in there and we started singing, we started thinking about all these homies that we had that were passed away over some silly shit. Like, you know, stepping onto, you know, I think of you in my territory, Chris Holloway or we call them hard rock. All, you know, just silly stuff. You know what I'm saying? You know, just, you know, when you're young, you black, you really don't have no guidance. There's nobody there to really tell you, hey, you don't need to do this. You need to stop. Yeah. The let go of his memory, his son will know.