 The only thing I'm going to do is always keep it as tense, because when we bring it to present, in a subtle sense, I mean, the miracle sees that it's already happened. I put someone there to talk to me, and I will put, in a linear kind of a sense, or this or that. But you start out on the walk and you think about putting something? Yeah, literally. See, then we're getting back into this causation kind of a thing. And it really seems that way at times, where I think I'd left water and then pools show up and water and this and that. And that's where a lot of the concepts like immunity about abundance, using your mind to attract things to you. The script is written. I mean, really the only thing we have a choice on, you know, is seeing it through the miracle or being above the battlefield and seeing that none of those images are true, and that's none of it's me. That's where the piece comes from. As soon as, you know, the mind can be used to, you know, it seems as if symbols are being brought forth, like people use their minds to get cars and things and stuff and everything, and then they make an association. As my mind is powerful and creative, but you see it's linked in with the form. Again, we don't have that clarity that the course is bringing, you know, of the levels. The right mind sees it all as false. You know, the right mind is not full of images. It's able to, it's above the images to look on all the images equally false, you know. It doesn't attempt to, it's just really clear that it's causation and that all of these are unreal effects, you know. And also, if there are unreal effects and their cause is unreal, I mean, the Holy Spirit looks to the cause and knows that the cause of these effects is unreal. He has judged their cause and I don't know if you look that. He does not look to the projections on the screen. He's judged their cause and knows it is unreal, and therefore, you know, everything in the wrong mind is seen as false. So in that sense, you know, you can see where you could, defenselessness then makes perfect sense. There would be, there would be never a reason to be, have any kind of care or worry or concern. Can you imagine what it means that you have no cares, no worries, no concerns, but to be perfectly peaceful and have to contend all the time? Yeah, that is what time is for, to learn just that and nothing more. I mean, you know, it's kind of like, that's it, that's the lesson. It doesn't have to be striven for either, it's just... Yeah, that quote that I put out in my bathroom here, like, just spoke to me where it says, you would not react at all to figures in a dream you knew that you were dreaming. It's like, how could you react if you really knew that you were dreaming? I had a funny dream last night. That thing I, I think I read as the first one, maybe, about the function of dreaming. Yeah, that one really struck me when I was listening to one of the tapes. Awareness of dreaming, of dreaming is the real function of God's teachers. They watched the dream figures come and go, shift and change, suffer and die, yet they are not deceived by what they see. They recognize that to behold a dream figure as set in separate is no more real than to regard it as healthy and beautiful. Unity alone is not a thing of dreams. And it is this God's teachers acknowledged as behind the dream, beyond all seeming, and yet surely there is. Yeah, I can, I can hold on to that kind of a thought. So once again, even though they seem to be sick and dying and everything, it's just seen as, in a sense, the mind sees if it's impossible. It's impossible for the body to be sick, possible. You can say die, but really die, death gets redefined psychologically, is whenever you're upset in any way. That's death, and that's a more helpful thing, because that's tied into, that brings it back into the psychological or the mind realm and gets it away from the physical realm. Because if something happens, when a body quits breathing, transition, transition to what? I mean, you know, a lot of times when they say they've made their transition. They're passed on. They're passed on. Same, it's a continuation. Death. You got a mind. It's not worth it. Same spirit, it's the same. It continues. Yesterday, while you were all around doing your errands, right before you came home, she gathered that Matthew came in flailing. I mean, not just crying, but I heard him before flailing with his hands. And it was like, it was a great opportunity for me not to get tied into it. It sucked up my mind. I think it was something. But what I noticed is I just wanted to be loving. And I didn't know how to do that, exactly. I didn't know how to communicate that without getting caught up in it. And I wasn't going to get caught up in it. I mean, I don't, it just tells the intention of being loving and not getting caught up in it. How to communicate? Well, I felt like that wasn't communicated. I didn't know how to be, how to express loving, being loving and comforting or whatever. You know, holding him and hugging him and giving him, like, a physical... He came to the door when I came home, too. And, you know, it was like, on the verge of tears. I could tell he was, like, working himself all up again about it. Telling me that this had happened and the log had fell on his hand. And showing it to me. And I just up in other stuff that he never mentioned again. I just said, do you want me to look at it? No, no. Just go cry. He said, I'm going to go to my room. Over here. You know, when he came up, too, it was... I kind of sat down with him and sat down in the bed and he wanted to show me and everything. And I remember just holding my, holding my attention and then pretty soon it was just a matter of a few seconds that he quit talking about the hand and started talking about other things. He told me that the attention was, was shifting. When you don't share it. When you don't share it in mind. Then the attention had shifted from the hand to just sitting there, everywhere on the beds talking for about five to ten minutes just about those things. And one of them was, he said, when will my mom be home? And I said, I was just sitting there. I'm sure that's part of that conditioning, too, of wanting to even look for someone, you know, that's familiar and sympathetic or whatever. But once again, when you came home, that's that intention. When it's not shared, or like that example, I love that you always shared about going to the Christian Science. And he had that scab, I guess, from falling down on his face. He had hit the pavement, like this on his face, fell off his bike. I used to have huge... Like the elephant man, except when going to Christian Science they didn't, the kids nor the teacher they didn't mention it. And it was the kind of thing where everywhere we went for at least a week, it healed very quickly. But for about a week, everywhere we went, people just like, oh my gosh, what happened to you? You know, they wanted to hear all of it. You know, I mean, people really made a big, big thing about it. And so for me, it was the contrast. Going there, it was never mentioned. And it was like... Really quite into practice. And Matthew didn't... I mean, from what I observed, he didn't feel the need to go in and say, oh by the way, this isn't how I usually look. Or, you know, he didn't explain it to anybody. There was another woman. Betty Ann, down in Cincinnati, was in Christian Science and I talked to an elderly woman who had all kinds of experiences like that in her whole life. And, you know, going to pick up her granddaughter at school and after her daughter was being sent home by the school nurse and her daughter just went on and on in a panic about the nurse said this and it could be this and it could be that and just not giving attention, you know, to it at all. Not lending her mind to share that perception. Yeah. And just letting it diffuse automatically. Because the mind is literally calling out, you know, teach me that this isn't so. Well, you know, one area that I feel a little lost for is like when the kids have felt sick and wanted to stay home. And I said, you know, okay, so stay home. Then, you know, the school requires that you write a note and explain why they stayed home. And so I was like, I can't write. They were sick. Needed to stay home today. Well, what I've done is, yeah. The sickness, you know, in the sense of hope in the mind, you know, the mind calling for help. You know, that's what a sick mind is, is the mind that's calling for help. But it's like, what is my definition of sick? So Mandy had a sick mind calling for help. Mandy didn't feel well. But in your mind, you know it. I mean, the words can say one thing, but the meaning is that Jesus was so clever, you know, about saying the words. And you can see his meaning from his perspective that someone could read an entirely different meaning into it. So have you felt what I described? Yeah, I love the times, like Monday, Mandy got up and I went to wake her up in the morning and she said, oh, I'm stomach ache. I don't want to go to school. And, you know, I sometimes it's like a stop and say, okay, you know, what I usually do in that situation is I'll just kind of like say, okay, well, get dressed and we'll see how it goes. Let's just see how it goes. Get dressed. It's like I give her like one thing to do. And then, you know, and don't give her attention. But there are times when I'll think, well, what's the most, if this is a call for love, what's the most loving thing to do? Do I lay down in bed with her and hold her for a while? I mean, is it that that she needs or wants? And I try to just let it happen. I try to step back as much as I'm able at the time and just let it happen. And sometimes I do feel like they need that, like being embraced and being saved for a feeling, you know, that does come at times, I think, in a physical way. It's like the behavioral component of the miracle, but we're back to that when we were discussing last night. The important thing is I have to be in my right mind. That the behavior will feel automatic to whatever. It will be hugging and holding through me, not by me. You know, a time probably that I felt that more was the other day when Joni walked in and was clearly living and, you know, was real clear that something, she wasn't walking like she usually does. And I just said hi, Joni, and didn't say anything about it. And then there was this feeling that, you know, I did have noticed thoughts coming in of, oh, I hope Joni doesn't think I don't care about her, you know, that she doesn't misinterpret this, that I'm callous or something. And that was something, too, that I just, when I was at Christian Science, I just realized at that point, too, it was like to even say to somebody to acknowledge it in any way. Throw any attention. You have to say, oh, even if I don't mention, oh, what's wrong with your foot, are you okay? You know?