 58 For there can live no hatred in thine eye, therefore in that I cannot know thy change. In many's looks the false heart's history is written moods and frowns and wrinkle strange. But heaven in thy creation did decree that in thy face sweet love should ever dwell. What ere thy thoughts or thy heart's workings be, thy looks should nothing thence but sweetness tell." Shakespeare's Sonnet At the time when Mr. Vincy uttered that presentiment about Rosamond, she herself had never had the idea that she should be driven to make the sort of appeal which he foresaw. She had not yet had any anxiety about ways and means, although her domestic life had been expensive, as well as eventful. Her baby had been born prematurely, and all the embroidered robes and caps had to be laid by in darkness. This misfortune was attributed entirely to her having persisted in going out on horseback one day, when her husband had desired her not to do so. But it must not be supposed that she had shown temper on the occasion, or rode rudely told him that she would do as she liked. What led her particularly to desire horse-exercise was a vidit from Captain Lidgate, the baronet's third son, who, I am sorry to say, was detested by our Tertius of that name as a vapid fob, parting his hair from brow to nape in a despicable fashion, not followed by Tertius himself, and showing an ignorant security that he knew the proper thing to say on every topic. Lidgate inwardly cursed his own folly that he had drawn down this visit by consenting to go to his uncles on the wedding-tour, and he made himself rather disagreeable with Rosmund by saying so in private. For to Rosmund this visit was a source of unprecedented but gracefully concealed exaltation. She was so intensely conscious of having a cousin who was a baronet's son staying in the house, that she imagined the knowledge of what was implied by his presence to be diffused through all other minds. And when she introduced Captain Lidgate to her guests, she had a placid sense that his rank penetrated them as if it had been an odour. The satisfaction was enough for the time to melt away some disappointment in the conditions of marriage with a medical man, even of good birth. It seemed now that her marriage was visibly as well as ideally floating her above the Middle-March level. And the future looked bright, with letters and visits to and from Collingham and vague advancements in consequence for Tertius. Especially as probably at the captain's suggestion his married sister Mrs. Memgen had come with her maid and stayed two nights on her way from town. Hence it was clearly worthwhile for Rosmund to take pains with her music and the careful selection of her lace. As to Captain Lidgate himself, his low brow, his aquiline nose bent on one side, and his rather heavy utterance might have been disenfantagious in any young gentleman who had not a military bearing and moustache to give him what is doted on by some flower-like blonde heads as a style. He had moreover that sort of high-breeding which consists in being free from the petty solicitudes of middle-class gentility, and he was a great critic of feminine charms. Rosmund delighted in his admiration now even more than she had done at Collingham, and he found it easy to spend several hours of the day in flirting with her. The visit altogether was one of the pleasantest larks he had ever had, not the less so perhaps, because he suspected that his queer cousin Tertius wished him away. The Lidgate, who would rather, hyperbolicly speaking, have died and have failed in polite hospitality, suppressed his dislike, and only pretended generally not to hear what the gallant officer said, consigning the task of answering him to Rosmund. For he was not at all a jealous husband, and preferred leaving a feather-headed young gentleman alone with his wife to bearing him company. I wish you would talk more to the captain at dinner, Tertius, said Rosmund one evening when the important guest was gone to Lomford to see some brother-officer stationed there. You really look so absent sometimes, you seem to be seeing through his head into something behind it instead of looking at him. My dear Rosie, you don't expect me to talk much to such a conceited ass as that, I hope? said Lidgate broskly. If he got his head broken, I might look at it with interest, not before. I cannot conceive why you should speak of your cousin so contemptuously," said Rosmund, her fingers moving at her work while she spoke with a mild gravity which had a touch of disdain in it. Asked Ladislaw if he doesn't think your captain the greatest bore he ever met with, Ladislaw has almost forsaken the house since he came. Rosmund thought she knew perfectly well why Mr. Ladislaw disliked the captain. He was jealous, and she liked his being jealous. It is impossible to say what will suit a centric person," she answered, but in my opinion Captain Lidgate is a thorough gentleman, and I think you ought not, out of respect to Sir Godwin, to treat him with neglect. No, dear, but we have had dinners for him, and he comes and goes out as he likes. He doesn't want me. Still, when he is in the room you might show him more attention. He may not be a phoenix of cleverness in your sense. His profession is different, but it will be all the better for you to talk a little on his subjects. I think his conversation is quite agreeable, and he is anything but an unprinciple man. The fact is you would wish me to be a little more like him," Rosy said Lidgate, in a sort of resigned murmur, with a smile which was not exactly tender and certainly not merry. Rosmund was silent and did not smile again, but the lovely curves of her face look good-tempered enough without smiling. Those words of Lidgate's were like a sad milestone, marking how far he had travelled from his old dreamland, in which Rosmund Vincey appeared to be that perfect piece of womanhood who would reverence her husband's mind after the fashion of an accomplished mermaid, using her comb and looking-glass and singing her song for the relaxation of his adored wisdom alone. He had begun to distinguish between that imagined adoration and the attraction towards a man's talent, because he gives him prestige, and is like an order in his buttonhole or honorable before his name. It might have been supposed that Rosmund had travelled, too, since she had found the pointless conversation of Mr. Ned Plimdale perfectly wearisome, but to most mortals there is a stupidity which is unendurable and a stupidity which is altogether acceptable, else indeed what would become a social bond. Captain Lidgate's stupidity was delicately scented, carrying itself with style, talked with a good accent, and was closely related to Sir Godwin. Rosmund found it quite agreeable, and caught many of its phrases. Therefore, since Rosmund, as we know, was fond of horseback, there were plenty of reasons why she should be tempted to resume her riding, when Captain Lidgate, who had ordered his man with two horses to follow him and put up a green dragon, begged her to go out on the gray, which he warranted to be gentle and trained to carry a lady, indeed he bought it for his sister, and was taking it to Collingham. Rosmund went out the first time, without telling her husband, and came back before his return. But the rider had been so thorough a success, and she declared herself so much the better in consequence, that he was informed of it with full reliance on his consent that she should go riding again. On the contrary, Lidgate was more than hurt, he was utterly confounded that she had risked herself on a strange horse, without referring the matter to his wish. After the first almost thundering exclamations of astonishment, which sufficiently warned Rosmund of what was coming, he was silent for some moments. However, you have come back safely, he said at last, in a decisive tone. You will not go out again, Rosia, that is understood, if it were the quietest, most familiar horse in the world, there would always be the chance of accident, and you know very well that I wished you to give up riding the Rhone on that account. But there is the chance of accident indoors, Tertius. My darling, don't talk nonsense," said Lidgate, in an imploring tone. Surely I am the person to judge for you, I think it is enough that I say you are not to go again. Rosmund was arranging her hair before dinner, and the reflection of her head in the glass showed no change in its loveliness, except a little turning a side of the long neck. Lidgate had been moving about with his hands in his pockets, and now paused near her, as if he awaited some reassurance. I wish you would fasten up my plaits, dear, said Rosmund, letting her arms fall with a little sigh, so as to make her husband ashamed of standing there like a brute. Lidgate had often fastened the flat plaits before, being among the deftest of men with his large, finely-formed fingers. He swept up the soft festoons of plaits and fastened in the tall comb, to such uses do men come. And what could he do then but kiss the exquisite nape which has shown in all its delicate curves? But when we do what we have done before, it is often with a difference. Lidgate was still angry, and had not forgotten his point. I shall tell the Captain that he ought to have known better than offer you his horse," he said, as he moved away. I beg you not to do anything of the kind, Tertius, said Rosmund, looking at him with something more marked than usual in her speech. It will be treating me as if I were a child, promise, that you will leave the subject to me. There did seem to be some truth in her objection. It said, very well, with a surly obedience, and thus the discussion ended with his promising Rosmund, and not with her promising him. In fact she had been determined not to promise. Rosmund had that victorious obstancy which never wastes its energy in impetuous resistance. What she liked to do was to her the right thing, and all her cleverness was directed to getting the means of doing it. She meant to go out riding again on the grey, and she did go on the next opportunity of her husband's absence, not intending that he should know until it was late enough not to signify to her. The temptation was certainly great. She was very fond of the exercise, and of the gratification of riding on a fine horse with Captain Lidgate, Sir Gobwin's son, on another fine horse by her side, and of being met in this position by any one but her husband, was something as good as her dreams before marriage. Moreover she was riveting the connection with the family at Collingham, which must be a wise thing to do. But the gentle grey, unprepared for the crash of a tree that was being felled on the edge of Halsall Wood, took fright, and caused a worse fright to Rosmund, leading finally to the loss of her baby. Lidgate could not show his anger towards her, but he was rather bearish to the captain, whose visit naturally soon came to an end. In all future conversations on the subject, Rosmund was mildly certain that the ride had made no difference, and that if she had stayed at home the same symptoms would have come on and would have ended in the same way, because she had felt something like them before. Lidgate could only say, poor, poor darling. But he secretly wondered over the terrible tenacity of this mild creature. There was gathering within him an amazed sense of his parlousness over Rosmund. His superior knowledge and mental force, instead of being as he had imagined a shrine to consult on all occasions, was simply set aside on every practical question. He had regarded Rosmund's cleverness as precisely the receptive kind which became a woman. He was now beginning to find out what the cleverness was, what was the shape into which he had run as into a close network aloof and independent. No one quicker than Rosmund to see causes and effects which lay within the track of her own tastes and interests. She had clearly seen Lidgate's preeminence in middle-mart society, and could go on imaginatively tracing still more agreeable social effects when his talent should have advanced him. But for her, his professional and scientific ambition had no other relation to these desirable effects than if they had been the fortunate discovery of an ill-smelling oil. And that oil apart with which she had nothing to do, of course she believed in her own opinion more than she did in his. Lidgate was astounded to find in numberless trifling matters, as well as in this last serious case of the writing, that affection did not make her compliant. He had no doubt that the affection was there, and had no presentiment that he had done anything to repel it. For his own part he said to himself that he loved her as tenderly as ever, and could make up his mind to her negations. But, well, Lidgate was much worried and conscious of new elements in his life as noxious to him as an inlet of mud to a creature that has been used to breathe and bathe and dart after its illuminated prey in the clearest of waters. Lidgate was soon looking lovelier than ever at her work-table in drawing-drives in her father's fate and thinking it likely that she might be invited to calling him. She knew that she was as much more exquisite ornament to the dining-room there than any daughter of the family, and in reflecting that the gentlemen were aware of that, did not perhaps sufficiently consider whether the ladies would be eager to see themselves surpassed. Lidgate, relieved from anxiety about her, relapsed into what she inwardly called his moodiness, a name which to her covered his thoughtful preoccupation with other subjects than herself, as well as that uneasy look of the brow and distaste for all ordinary things as if they were mixed with bitter herbs, which really made a sort of weathered last to his vexation and foreboding. These latter states of mind had one cause amongst others, which he had generously but mistakenly avoided mentioning to Rosamond lest it should affect her health and spirits. Between him and her, indeed, there was that total missing of each other's mental track, which is too evidently possible even between persons who are continually thinking of each other. To Lidgate, it seemed that he had been spending month after month in sacrificing more than half of his best intent and best power to his tenderness for Rosamond, bearing her little claims and interruptions without impatience, and, above all, bearing without betrayal of bitterness, to look through less and less of interfering illusion at the blank, unreflecting surface her mind presented to his ardour for the more impersonal ends of his profession and his scientific study, an ardour which he had fancied that the ideal wife must somehow worship as sublime. They're not in the least knowing why. But his endurance was mingled with a self-discontent, which if we know how to be candid, we shall confess to make more than half our bitterness under grievances, why for husband included. It always remains true that if we had been greater, circumstance would have been less strong against us. Lidgate was aware that his concessions to Rosamond were often little more than the lapse of slackening resolution. The creeping paralysis apt to seize an enthusiasm which is out of adjustment to a constant portion of our lives. An on Lidgate's enthusiasm was constantly pressing not a simple weight of sorrow, but the biting presence of a petty, degrading care such as casts the blight of irony over all higher effort. This was the care which he had hitherto abstained from mentioning to Rosamond, and he believed with some wonder that it had never ended her mind, though certainly no difficulty could be less mysterious. It was an inference with a conspicuous handle to it, and had been easily drawn by indifferent observers, that Lidgate was in debt. And he could not succeed in keeping out of his mind for long together, that he was every day getting deeper into that swamp, which tempts men towards it with such a pretty covering of flowers and verdure. It is wonderful how soon a man gets up to his chin there, in a condition in which, despite of himself, he is forced to think chiefly of release, that he had a scheme of the universe in his soul. Eighty months ago Lidgate was poor, but had never known the eager want of small sums, and felt rather a burning contempt for anyone who descended a step in order to gain them. He was now experiencing something worse than a simple deficit. He was assailed by the vulgar, hateful trials of a man who was bought and used a great many things which might have been done without, and which he is unable to pay for, that the demand for payment has become pressing. How this came about may be easily seen without much arithmetic or knowledge of prices. When a man in setting up a house and preparing for marriage finds that his furniture and other initial expenses come to between four and five hundred pounds more than he has capital to pay for, when at the end of a year it appears that his household expenses, horses, and et cetera, amount to nearly a thousand, while the proceeds of the practice reckoned from the old books to be worth eight hundred per annum have sunk like a summer pond and make hardly five hundred, chiefly in unpaid entries, the plain inference is that, whether he minds it or not, he is in debt. Those were less expensive times than our own, and provincial life was comparatively modest, but the ease with which a medical man who had lately bought a practice who thought that he was obliged to keep two horses whose table was supplied without stint and who paid an insurance on his life and a high rent for house and garden, might find his expenses doubling his receipts, can be conceived by anyone who does not think these details beneath his consideration. Rosamond, accustomed from her to an extravagant household, thought that good housekeeping consisted simply in ordering the best of everything. Nothing else answered, and Lidgate supposed that, if things were done at all, they must be done properly. He did not see how they were to live otherwise. If each head of household expenditure had been mentioned to him beforehand, he would probably have observed that he could hardly come to much, and if anyone had suggested a saving on a particular article, for example the substitution of cheap fish for dear, it would have appeared to him simply a penny-wise mean notion. Rosamond, even without such an occasion as Captain Lidgate's visit, was fond of giving invitations, and Lidgate, though he often fought the guests tiresome, did not interfere. This sociability seemed a necessary part of professional prudence, and the entertainment must be suitable. It is true Lidgate was constantly visiting the homes of the poor and adjusting his prescriptions of doubt to their small means. But, dear me, has it not by this time ceased to be remarkable? Is it not rather that we expect in men that they should have numerous strands of experience lying side by side and never compare them with each other? Expenditure, like ugliness and errors, becomes a totally new thing when we attach our own personality to it, and measure it by that wide difference which is manifest in our own sensations between ourselves and others. Lidgate was leave himself to be careless about his dress, and he despised a man who calculated the effect of his costume. It seemed to him, only a matter of course, that he had abundance of fresh garments. Such things were naturally ordered in sheaves. It must be remembered that he had never hitherto felt the check of importunate debt, and he walked by habit, not by self-criticism. But the check had come. Its novelty made it the more irritating. He was amazed, disgusted, that conditions so foreign to all his purposes so hatefully disconnected with the objects he cared to occupy himself with should have lain in ambush, and clutched him when he was unaware. And there was not only the actual debt, there was the certainty that in his present position he must go on deepening it. Two furnishing tradesmen at Brazing, whose bills had been incurred before his marriage, and whom uncalculated current expenses had ever since prevented him from paying, had repeatedly sent him unpleasant letters which had forced themselves on his attention. This could hardly have been more galling to any disposition than to Lidgate's, with his intense pride, his dislike of asking a favour or being under an obligation to anyone. He had scorned even to form conjectures about Mr. Vince's intentions on money-matters, and nothing but extremity could have induced him to apply to his father-in-law. Even he had not been made aware in his various indirect ways since his marriage that Mr. Vince's own affairs were not flourishing, and the expectation of help from him would be resented. Some men easily trust in the readiness of friends. It had never been the former part of his life occurred to Lidgate that he should need to do so. He had never thought what borrowing would be to him. But now that the idea had entered his mind, he felt that he would rather incur any other hardship. In the meantime, he had no money or prospects of money, and his practice was not getting more lucrative. No wonder that Lidgate had been unable to suppress all signs of inward trouble during the last few months. Now that Rosamund was gaining brilliant health, he meditated taking her entirely into confidence on his difficulties. New conversants with tradesmen's bills had forced his reasoning into a new channel of comparison. He had begun to consider from a new point of view what was necessary and unnecessary in good's order, and to see that there must be some change of habits. How could such a change be made without Rosamund's concurrence? The immediate occasion of opening the disagreeable fact to her was forced upon him. Having no money, and having privately sought advice as to what security could possibly be given by a man in his position, Lidgate had offered the one good security in his power to the less peremptory creditor, who was a silversmith and jeweler, and who consented to take on himself the upholsterer's credit also, accepting interest for a given term. The security necessary was a bill of sale on the furniture of his house, which might make a creditor easy for a reasonable time about a debt amounting to less than four hundred pounds, and the silversmith, Mr. Dober, was willing to reduce it by taking back a portion of the plate, and in any other article which was as good as new. Any other article was a phrase delicately implying jewellery, and more particularly some purple amistice costing thirty pounds which Lidgate had brought as a bridal present. Lidgate may be divided as to his wisdom in making this present. Some may think that it was a graceful attention to be expected from a man-like Lidgate, and that the fault of any troublesome consequences lay in the pinched narrowness of provincial life at that time which offered no conveniences for professional people whose fortune was not proportioned to their taste. Also Lidgate's ridiculous fastidiousness about asking his friends for money. However, it had seemed a question of no moment to him on that fine morning when he went to give a final order of a plate. In the presence of other jewels enormously expensive, and as an addition in order of which the amount had not been exactly calculated, thirty pounds of ornament so exquisitely suited to Rosamund's neck and arms could hardly appear excessive when there was no ready cash for it to exceed. But at this crisis Lidgate's imagination could not help dwelling on the possibility of letting the amethysts take their place again among Mr. Dover's stock, that he shrank from the idea of proposing this to Rosamund. Having been re-iosed to discern consequences which he had never been in the habit of tracing, he was preparing to act on this discernment with some of the rigor, by no means all, that he would have applied in pursuing experiment. He was nerving himself to this rigor as he rode from Brassing, and meditated on the representations he must make to Rosamund. It was evening when he got home. He was intensely miserable, this strong man of nine and twenty and of many gifts. He was not saying angrily within himself that he made a profound mistake. But the mistake was at work in him like a recognised chronic disease, mingling its uneasy importunities with every prospect and enfeebling every thought. As he went along the passage to the drawing-room, he heard the piano and singing. Of course Laddyslaw was there. It was some weeks since Will had parted from Dorothea, and he was still at the old post in Middlemarch. Lidgate had no objection in general to Laddyslaw's coming, but just now he was annoyed that he could not find his half free. When he opened the door, the two singers went on towards the keynote, raising their eyes and looking at him indeed, but not regarding his entrance as an interruption. To a man gulled with his harness as poor Lidgate was, it is not soothing to see two people warbling at him as he comes in with the sense that the painful day has still pains in store. His face, already paler than usual, took on a scowl as he walked across the room and flung himself into a chair. The singers, feeling themselves excused by the fact that they had only three bars to sing, now turn round. How are you, Lidgate? said Will, coming forward to shake hands. Lidgate took his hand, but did not think it necessary to speak. Have you dined, Tertius? I expected you much earlier, said Rosamond, who had already seen that her husband was in a horrible humour. She seated herself in her usual's place as she spoke. I have dined. I should like some tea, please, said Lidgate curtly, still scowling and looking markedly at his legs stretched out before him. Will was too quick to need more. I should be off, he said, reaching his hat. Tea is coming, said Rosamond, please, don't go. Yes, Lidgate is bored, said Will, who had more comprehension of Lidgate than Rosamond had, and was not offended by his manner, easily imagining outdoor causes of annoyance. There is the more need for you to stay, said Rosamond playfully, and in her lightest accent. He will not speak to me all the evening. Yes, Rosamond, I shall, said Lidgate in his strong baritone. I have some serious business to speak to you about. No introduction of the business could have been less like that, which Lidgate had intended, but her indifferent manner had been too provoking. There, you see, said Will, I am going to the meeting about the Mechanics Institute. Goodbye! And he went quickly out of the room. Rosamond did not look at her husband, but presently rose and took her place before the tea-tray. She was thinking that she had never seen him so disagreeable. Lidgate turned his dark eyes on her, and watched her as she delicately handled the tea-service with her taper fingers, and looked at the objects immediately before her, with no curve in her face disturbed, and yet with an ineffable protest in her air against all people with unpleasant manners. For the moment he lost the sense of his wound in a sudden speculation about this new form of feminine impossibility revealing itself in the self-like frame which he once interpreted as the sign of a ready, intelligent sensitiveness. His mind glancing back to Law, while he looked at War Rosland, he said inwardly, Would she kill me because I weird her? And then it is the way with all women. But this power of generalizing, which gives men so much the superiority and mistake over the dumb animals, was immediately thwarted by Lidgate's memory of wandering impressions from the behavior of another woman. From Dorothea's looks and tones of emotion about her husband, when Lidgate began to attend him, from her passionate cry to be taught what would best comfort that man for whose sake it seemed as if she must quell every impulse in her except the yearnings of faithfulness and compassion. These revived impressions succeeded each other quickly and dreamily in Lidgate's mind, while the tea was being brewed. He shut his eyes in the last instant of revelry, while he heard Dorothea saying, Advise me, think what I can do. He's been all his life laboring and looking forward. He minds about nothing else, and I mind about nothing else. That voice of deep-soled womanhood had remained with him as the in kindling conceptions of dead and sceptred genius had remained within him. Is there not a genius for feeling nobler which also reigns over human spirits and their conclusions? The tones were a music from which he was falling away. He'd really fallen into a momentary dose, when Rosalyn said in her silvery neutral way, here is your tea, Tertius, sitting it on the small table by his side, and then move back to her place without looking at him. Lidgate was too hasty and attributing insensibility to her. After her own fashion, she was sensitive enough and took lasting impressions. Her impression now was one of a fence and repulsion. But then Roslyn had no scowls and had never raised her voice. She was quite sure that no one could justly find fault with her. Perhaps Lidgate and she had never felt so far off each other before. But there were strong reasons for not deferring his revelation, even if he had not already begun it by that abrupt announcement. Indeed, some of the angry desire to rouse her into more sensibility on his account, which had prompted him to speak prematurely, still mingled with his pain in the prospect of her pain. But he waited till the trade was gone, the candles were lit, and the evening quiet might be counted on. The interval had left time for repelled tenderness to return into the old course. He spoke kindly. Dear Rosie, lay down your work and come to sit by me. He said gently, pushing away the table and stretching out his arm to draw a chair near his home. Rosamund obeyed. As she came towards him in her drapery of transparent, faintly tinted muslin, her slim yet round figure never looked more graceful. As she sat down by him and laid one hand on the oboe of his chair, at last looking at him and meeting his eyes, her delicate neck and cheek and purely cut lips never had more of that untarnished beauty which touches at in springtime and infancy an all-sweet freshness. He touched Lidgate now, and mingled the early moments of his love for her, with all the other memories which were stirred in this crisis of deep trouble. He laid his ample hand softly on hers, saying, Dear, with the lingering utterance which affection gives to the word. Rosamund, too, was still under the power of that same past, and her husband was still in part of the Lidgate whose approval had stirred delight. She put his hair lightly away from his forehead, then laid her other hand on his, and was conscious of forgiving him. I'm obliged to tell you what will hurt you, Rosie, but there are things which husband and wife must think of together. I dare say it has occurred to you already that I am short of money, Lidgate paused, but Rosamund turned her neck and looked at a vase on the mantelpiece. I was not able to pay for all the things we had to get before we were married, and there have been expenses since which I have been obliged to meet. The consequence is there is a large debt at Brassing, three hundred and eighty pounds, which has been pressing on me a good while, and in fact we are getting deeper every day, for people don't pay me the faster because others want the money. I took pains to keep it from you while you were not well, but now we must think together about it, and you must help me. What can I do, Tertius? said Rosamund, turning her eyes on him again. That little speech of four words, like so many others in all languages, is capable by varied vocal afflictions of expressing all states of mind from helpless dimness to exhaustive argumentative perception, from the completest to self-devoting fellowship to the most neutral anufendess. Rosamund's thin utterance threw into the wards, what can I do? As much neutrality as they could hold. They fell like a mortal chill on the gate's roused tenderness. He did not storm in indignation. He felt too sad, a sinking of the heart. And when he spoke again, it was more on the turn of a man who forces himself to fulfil a task. It is necessary for you to know, because I have to give security for a time, and a man must come to make an inventory of the furniture. Rosamund coloured deeply. Have you not asked Papa for money? She said, as soon as she could speak. No. Then I must ask him, she said, releasing her hands from the gates and rising to stand at least two yards' distance from him. No, Rosie, said the gate decisively. It is too late for do that. The inventory will be begun to-morrow. Remember, it is a mere security. It will make no difference. It is a temporary affair. I insist upon it that your father shall not know, unless I choose to tell him," added Lidgate, with a more peremptory emphasis. This certainly was unkind, but Rosamund had thrown him back on evil expectation as to what she would do in the way of quiet, steady disobedience. The unkindness seemed impartable to her. She was not given to weeping and disliked it. But now her chin and lips began to tremble, and the tears whirled up. Perhaps it was not possible for Lidgate's, under the double stress of output material difficulty, and of his own prior resistance to humiliating consequences, to imagine fully what this sudden trial was to a young creature who had known nothing but indulgence, and whose dreams had all been of new indulgence more exactly to her taste. But he did wish to spare her as much as he could, and her tears cut him to the heart. He could not speak again immediately. But Rosamund did not go on sobbing. She tried to conquer her agitation and wiped away her tears, continuing to look before her at the mantelpiece. "'Try not to grieve, darling,' said Lidgate, turning his eyes up towards her. That she had chosen to move away from him in this moment of her trouble made everything harder to say. But he must absolutely go on. We must brace ourselves to do what is necessary. It is I who have been in fault. I ought to have seen that I could not afford to live in this way. But many things have told against me in my practice, and it really just now has ebbed to a low point. I may recover it, but in the meantime we must pull up. We must change our way of living. We shall weather it. When I have given this security I shall have time to look about to be. And you are so clever that if you turn your mind to managing, you will school me into carefulness. I have been a thoughtless rascal about squaring prices, but come near, sit down, and forgive me." Lidgate was bowing his neck under the yoke like a creature who had talons, but who had reason too, which often reduces us to meekness. When he had spoken the last words in an imploring tone, Rosamond returned to the chair by his side. His self-blame gave her some hope that he would tend to her opinion, and she said, "'Why can you not put off having the inventory made? You could send the men away to-morrow when they come.' "'I shall not send them away,' said Lidgate, the peremptor in this, rising again. Was it of any use to explain?' "'If we left Middlemarch, there would, of course, be a sale, and that would do as well.' "'But we are not going to leave Middlemarch.' "'I am sure Tertius, if we would be much better to do so, why come we not go to London, or near Durham, where your family is known?' "'We can go nowhere without money,' Rosamond. "'Your friends would not wish you to be without money, and surely these odious tradesmen must be made to understand that, and to wait, if you would make proper representations to them.' "'This is idle, Rosamond,' said Lidgate angrily. "'You must learn to take my judgment on questions you don't understand. I have made necessary arrangements, and they must be carried out. As to friends, I have no expectations whatever from them, and shall not ask them for anything.' Rosamond sat perfectly still. The thought in her mind was that if she had known how Lidgate would behave, she would never have married him. "'We have no time to waste now on our necessary words, dear,' said Lidgate, trying to be gentle again. "'There are some details that I want to consider with you. Dover says he will take a good deal of the plate back again, and any of the jewellery we like. He really behaves very well.' "'Are we to go without spoons and forks, then?' said Rosamond, whose very lips seemed to get thinner with the thinness of her utterance. She was determined to make no further resistance or suggestions. "'Oh, no, dear,' said Lidgate, but look here he continued, drawing a paper from his pocket and opening it. "'Here is Dover's account. See, I have marked a number of articles, which if you return them will reduce the amount by thirty pounds, and more. I have not marked any of the jewellery.' Lidgate had really felt this point of the jewellery very bitter to himself, but he had overcome the feeling by severe argument. He could not propose to Rosamond that she should return in a particular present of his. But he had told himself that he was bound to put Dover's offer before her, and her inward prompting might make the affair easy. "'It is useless for me to look tersious,' said Rosamond calmly. "'You will return what you please.' She would not turn her eyes on the paper, and Lidgate, rushing up to the roots of his hair, drew it back and let it fall on his knee. Meanwhile Rosamond quietly went out of the room, leaving Lidgate helpless and wondering. Was she not coming back? It seemed that she had no more identified herself with him than if there had been creatures of different species and opposing interests. He tossed his head and thrust his hands deep into his pockets with a sort of vengeance. There was still sands, there were still good objects to work for. He must give a tug still all the stronger because other satisfactions were going. But the door opened, and Rosamond re-entered. She carried the leather box containing the amethysts, and a tiny ornamental basket which contained other boxes. And laying on the chair where she had been sitting, she said, with perfect propriety in her air, "'This is all the jewellery you ever gave me. You can return what you like of it, and of the plate also. You will not, of course, expect me to stay at home to-morrow. I shall get a paparse." To many women the look Lidgate cast at her would be more terrible than one of anger. It had in it a despairing acceptance of the distance she was placing between them. "'And when shall you come back again?' he said with a bitter edge on his accent. "'Oh, in the evening. Of course, I shall not mention the subject to Mamar.' Rosamond was convinced that no woman could behave more inappropriately than she was behaving, and she went to sit down at her work-table. Lidgate sat meditating a minute or two, and the result was that he said, with some of the older motion in his tone, "'Now we have been united, Rosie. You should not leave me to myself from the first trouble that has come.' "'Certainly not,' said Rosamond. "'I shall do everything it becomes me to do. It is not right that the things should be left to servants, or that I should have to speak to them about it. And I shall be obliged to go out. I don't know how early. I understand you're shrinking from the humiliation of these money affairs, but my dear Rosamond, as a question of pride, which I feel just as much as you can, it is surely better to manage the thing ourselves, and let the servants see as little as of it as possible. And since you are my wife, there is no hindering your share in my disgraces if there were disgraces.' Rosamond did not answer immediately. But at last she said, "'Very well. I will stay at home. I shall not touch these jewels, Rosie. Take them away again. But I will write out a list of plates that we may return, and that can be packed up and sent at once.' "'The servants will know that,' said Rosamond, with the slightest touch of sarcasm, "'Well, we must meet some disagreeables as necessities. Where is the ink, I wonder?' said Lidgate, rising, and throwing the account on the larger table where he meant to write. Rosamond went to reach the ink-stand, and after setting it on the table was going to turn away when Lidgate, who was standing close by, put his arm round her and drew her towards him, saying, "'Come, darling, let us make the best of things. It would only be for a time I hope that we shall have to be stingy and particular. Kiss me!' His native warm heartenedist took a great deal of quenching, and it is a part of manliness for a husband to feel keenly the fact that an inexperienced girl has gotten to trouble by marrying him.' She received his kiss and returned it faintly, and in this way an appearance of a cord was recovered for the time. But Lidgate could not help looking forward with dread to the inevitable future discussions about expenditure and the necessity for a complete change in their way of living. CHAPTER 59 They said of old the soul had human shape, but smaller subtler than the fleshy self, so wandered forth for airing when it pleased, and see beside her cherub face there floats a pale-lipped form, aerial whispering, its promptings in that little shell her ear. News is often dispersed as thoughtlessly and effectively as that pollen which the bees carry off, having no idea how powdery they are when they are buzzing in search of their particular nectar. This fine comparison has reference to Fred Vincey, who on that evening at Lovik Parsonage heard a lively discussion among the ladies on the news which their old servant had got from Tantrip concerning Mr. Gossabon's strange mention of Mr. Ladislaw in a codicil to his will made not long before his death. Miss Winifred was astounded to find that her brother had known the fact before, and observed that Camden was the most wonderful man for knowing things and not telling them, whereupon Mary Garth said that the codicil had perhaps got mixed up with the habits of spiders, which Miss Winifred never would listen to. Mrs. Fairbrother considered that the news had something to do with their having only once seen Mr. Ladislaw at Lovik, and Miss Noble made many small compassionate mewings. Fred knew little and cared less about Ladislaw and the Gossabon's, and his mind never record to that discussion till one day calling on Rosamond at his mother's request to deliver a message as he passed. He happened to see Ladislaw going away. Fred and Rosamond had little to say to each other now that marriage had removed her from collision with the unpleasantness of brothers, and especially now that he had taken what she held the stupid and even reprehensible step of giving up the church to take to such a business as Mr. Garth's. Hence Fred talked by preference of what he considered indifferent news, and a propose of that young Ladislaw mentioned what he had heard at Lovik Parsonage. Now, Lidgate, like Mr. Fairbrother, knew a great deal more than he told, and when he had once been set thinking about the relation between Will and Dorothea, his conjectures had gone beyond the fact. He imagined that there was a passionate attachment on both sides, and this struck him as much too serious to gossip about. He remembered Will's irritability when he had mentioned Mrs. Gossabon and was the most circumspect. On the whole his surmises in addition to what he knew of the fact increased his friendliness and tolerance towards Ladislaw, and made him understand the vacillation which kept him at Middle March after he had said that he should go away. It was significant of the separateness between Lidgate's mind and Rosamund's that he had no impulse to speak to her on the subject. Indeed he did not quite trust her reticence towards Will, and he was right there, though he had no vision of the way in which her mind would act in urging her to speak. When she repeated Fred's news to Lidgate, he said, Take care you don't drop the faintest hint to Ladislaw Rosy. He is likely to fly out as if you insulted him. Of course it is a painful affair. Rosamund turned her neck and patted her hair, looking the image of placid indifference. But the next time Will came when Lidgate was away, she spoke archly about his not going to London as he had threatened. I know all about it. I have a confidential little bird. Said she, showing very pretty ears of her head over the bit of work held high between her active fingers. There is a powerful magnet in this neighborhood. To be sure there is, nobody knows that better than you, said Will, with light gallantry, but inwardly prepared to be angry. It is really the most charming romance. Mr. Cossubon jealous and foreseeing that there was no one else whom Mrs. Cossubon would so much like to marry, and no one who would so much like to marry her as a certain gentleman, and then laying a plan to spoil all by making her forfeit her property if she did marry that gentleman, and then, and then, and then, oh I have no doubt the end will be thoroughly romantic. Great God, what do you mean, said Will, flushing over face and ears, his features seeming to change as if he had had a violent shake. Don't joke. Tell me what you mean. You don't really know, said Rosamond, no longer playful and desiring nothing better than to tell in order that she might evoke effects. No, he returned impatiently. Don't know that Mr. Cossubon has left it in his will that if Mrs. Cossubon marries you, she is to forfeit all her property? How do you know that it is true, said Will eagerly? My brother Fred heard it from the Fair Brothers. Will started up from his chair and reached his hat. I dare say she likes you better than the property, said Rosamond, looking at him from a distance. Pray don't say any more about it, said Will, in a hoarse undertone, extremely unlike his usual light voice. It is a foul insult to her and to me. Then he sat down absently, looking before him, but seeing nothing. Now you are angry with me, said Rosamond. It is too bad to beer me, malice. You ought to be obliged to me for telling you. So I am, said Will abruptly, speaking with that kind of double soul which belongs to dreamers who answer questions. I expect to hear of the marriage, said Rosamond playfully. Never. You will never hear of the marriage. With those words uttered impitiously, Will rose, put out his hand to Rosamond, still with the air of a somnambulist, and went away. When he was gone, Rosamond left her chair and walked to the other end of the room, leaning when she got there against a shiffanair and looking out of the window verily. She was oppressed by Ennui, and by that dissatisfaction which in women's minds is continually turning into a trivial jealousy, referring to no real claims, springing from no deeper passion than the vague exactingness of egoism, and yet capable of impailing action as well as speech. There really is nothing to care for much, said poor Rosamond inwardly, thinking of the family at Qualingham, who did not write to her, and that perhaps dirtiest when he came home would tease her about expenses. She had already secretly disobeyed him by asking her father to help them, and he had ended decisively by saying, I am more likely to want help myself. End of Chapter 59, Recording by Red Abrus, August 2008 Chapter 60 of Middle March This is a LibriVox recording. All LibriVox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer, please visit LibriVox.org. Recording by Red Abrus, Middle March by George Elliott, Chapter 60 Good phrases are surely, and ever were, very commendable. Justice Shallow A few days afterwards, it was already the end of August. There was an occasion which caused some excitement in Middle March. The public, if it chose, was to have the advantage of buying under the distinguished auspices of Mr. Botthrop Trumbull the furniture, books, and pictures which anybody might see by the handbills to be the best in every kind belonging to Edwin Larcher Esquire. This was not one of the sales indicating the depression of trade. On the contrary, it was due to Mr. Larcher's great success in the caring business which warranted his purchase of a mansion near Riverstone, already furnished in high style by an illustrious spa physician. Furnished indeed with such large, frameless of expensive flesh painting in the dining room, that Mrs. Larcher was nervous until reassured by finding the subjects to be scriptural. Hence, the fine opportunity to purchase us, which was well pointed out in the handbills of Mr. Botthrop Trumbull, whose acquaintance with the history of art enabled him to state that the hall furniture to be sold without reserve comprised a piece of carving by a contemporary of Gibbons. At Middle March in those times a large sale was regarded as a kind of festival. There was a table spread with the best cold eatables, as at a superior funeral, and facilities were offered for that generous drinking of cheerful glasses which might lead to generous and cheerful bidding for undesirable articles. Mr. Larcher's sale was the more attractive in the fine weather because the house stood just at the end of the town with a garden and stables attached in that pleasant issue from Middle March called the London Road, which was also the road to the new hospital and to Mr. Bullstrode's retired residence known as the Shrubs. In short, the auction was as good as a fair and drew all classes with leisure at command. To some who risked making bids in order simply to raise prices, it was almost equal to betting at the races. The second day when the best furniture was to be sold, everybody was there. Even Mr. Thiesiger, the rector at St. Peter's, had looked in for a short time, wishing to buy the carved table and had rubbed elbows with Mr. Bambridge and Mr. Horrock. There was a wreath of Middle March ladies accommodated with seats around the large table in the dining room, where Mr. Bortrop Trumbull was mounted with desk and hammer, but the rows chiefly of masculine faces behind were often varied by incomings and outcoings both from the door and the large bow window opening onto the lawn. Everybody that day did not include Mr. Bullstrode, whose health could not well endure crowds and rots. But Mrs. Bullstrode had particularly wished to have a certain picture, a supper at Emmaus attributed in the catalogue to Guido, and at the last moment before the day of the sale, Mr. Bullstrode had called at the office of the pioneer of which he was now one of the proprietors to beg of Mr. Ladislaw as a great favour that he would obligingly use his remarkable knowledge of pictures on behalf of Mrs. Bullstrode and judge of the value of this particular painting. If added the scrupulously polite banker, attendance at the sale would not interfere with the arrangements for your departure which I know is imminent. This proviso might have sounded rather satirical in Will's ear if he had been in a mood to care about such satire. It referred to an understanding entered into many weeks before with the proprietors of the paper that he should be at liberty any day he pleased to hand over the management to the sub-editor whom he had been training, since he wished finally to quit Middle March. But indefinite visions of ambition are weak against the ease of doing what is habitual or big willingly agreeable, and we all know the difficulty of carrying out a resolve when we secretly long that it may turn out to be unnecessary. In such states of mind the most incredulous person has a private leaning towards miracle. Impossible to conceive how our wish could be fulfilled. Still very wonderful things have happened. Will did not confess this weakness to himself but he lingered. What was the use of going to London at that time of the year? The rugby men who would remember him were not there, and so far as political writing was concerned he would rather for a few weeks go on with the pioneer. At the present moment however when Mr. Bilstrode was speaking to him he had both a strengthened resolve to go and an equally strong resolve not to go till he had once more seen Dorothea. Hence he replied that he had reasons for deafening his departure a little and would be happy to go to the sale. Will was in a defiant mood, his consciousness being deeply stung with the thought that the people who looked at him probably knew a fact tantamount to an accusation against him as a fellow with low designs which were to be frustrated by a disposal of property. Like most people who assert their freedom with regard to conventional distinction he was prepared to be sudden and quick at quarrel with anyone who might hint that he had personal reasons for that assertion, that there was anything in his blood, his bearing or his character to which he gave the mask of an opinion. When he was under an irritating impression of this kind he would go about for days with a defiant look, the colour changing in his transparent skin as if he were on the kwee vibe, watching for something which he had to dart upon. This expression was peculiarly noticeable in him at the sale and those who had only seen him in his moods of gentle oddity or of bright enjoyment would have been struck with a contrast. He was not sorry to have this occasion for appearing in public before the middle-march tribes of Taller, Hackbert and the rest who looked down on him as an adventurer and were in a state of brutal ignorance about Dante, who sneered at his polished blood and were themselves of a breed very much in need of crossing. He stood in a conspicuous place not far from the auctioneer, with a forefinger in each side pocket and his head thrown backward, not caring to speak to anybody, though he had been cordially welcomed as a connoisseur by Mr. Trumbull, who was enjoying the utmost activity of his great faculties. And surely among all men whose vocation requires them to exhibit their powers of speech, the happiest is a prosperous provincial auctioneer keenly alive to his own jokes and sensible of his encyclopedic knowledge. Some Saturnines are blooded persons might object to be constantly insisting on the merits of all articles from butchacks to burghems, but Mr. Borthup Trumbull had a kindly liquid in his veins. He was an admirer by nature and would have liked to have the universe under his hammer, feeling that it would go at a higher figure for his recommendation. Meanwhile, Mrs. Larcher's drawing room furniture was enough for him. When Will Ladislaw had come in, a second fender, said to have been forgotten in its right place, suddenly claimed the auctioneer's enthusiasm, which he distributed on the equitable principle of praising those things, most which were most in need of praise. The fender was of polished steel, with much lancet-shaped, openwork and sharp edge. Now Ladis, said he, I shall appeal to you. Here is a fender which at any other sale would hardly be offered without reserve, being, as I may say, for quality of steel and quaintness of design a kind of thing. Here Mr. Trumbull dropped his voice and became slightly nasal, trimming his outlines with his left finger. That might not fall in with ordinary taste. Allow me to tell you that, by and by, this style of workmanship will be the only one in vogue. Half a crown, you said? Thank you. Going at half a crown, this characteristic fender, and I have particular information that the antique style is very much sought after in high quarters. Three siblings, three aunts expense. Hold it well up, Joseph. Look, ladies, at the chastity of the design, I have no doubt myself, that it was turned out in the last century. Four shillings, Mr. Momse? Four shillings. It's not a thing I would put in my drawing-room, said Mrs. Momse, audibly for the warning of the rash husband. I wonder at Miss Slutcher, every blessed child's head that fell against it would be cut in two. The edge is like a knife. Quite true, rejoined Mr. Trumbull quickly. And most uncommonly useful to have a fender at hand that will cut. If you have a leather shoe tie or a bit of string that wants cutting and no knife at hand, many a man has been left hanging because there was no knife to cut him down. Gentlemen, here's a fender that if you had the misfortune to hang yourselves, would cut you down in no time. With astonishing celerity, four and six pence, five, five and six pence, an appropriate thing for a spare bedroom, where there was a four posture and a guest a little out of his mind. Six shillings. Thank you, Mr. Clint Up. Going at six shillings, going, gone. The auctioneer's glance, which had been searching round him, with a preternatural susceptibility to all signs of bidding, here dropped on the paper before him and his voice too dropped into a tone of indifferent dispatch as he said, Mr. Clint Up. Be handy, Joseph. It was worth six shillings to have a fender you could always tell that jokon, said Mr. Clint Up, laughing low and apologetically to his next neighbor. He was a different though distinguished nursery man and feared that the audience might regard his bid as a foolish one. Meanwhile, Joseph had brought a tray full of small articles. Now, ladies, said Mr. Trumbull, taking up one of the articles. This tray contains a very rushy lot, a collection of trifles for the drawing-room table, and trifles make the sum of human things, nothing more important than trifles. Yes, Mr. Ladisla, yes, by and by. But pass the tray round, Joseph. Those beoks must be examined, ladies. This I have in my hand is an ingenious contravance, a sort of practical repose. I may call it. Here you see, it looks like an elegant, heart-shaped box, portable. For the pocket, there again it becomes like a splendid double flower, an ornament for the table, and now Mr. Trumbull allowed the flower to fall alarmingly into strings of heart-shaped leaves. A book of riddles. No less than five hundred printed in a beautiful red. Gentlemen, if I had less of a conscience, I should not wish you to bid high for the slot. I have a longing for it myself. What can promote innocent mirth, and I may say virtue more than a good riddle? It hinders profane language, and attaches a man to the society of refined females. This ingenious article itself, without the elegant domino box, scarred basket, and sea, ought alone to have a high price to the lot. Carried in the pocket, it might make an individual welcome in any society. Four shillings, sir. Four shillings for this remarkable collection of riddles, with the et cetera's. Here is sample. How must you spell honey to make it cash, lady birds? Answer, money, you hear? Lady birds, honey, money. This is an amusement to sharpen the intellect. It has a sting. It has what we call stire and wit, without indecency. Four and sixpence, five shillings. The bidding ran on, with warming rivalry. Mr. Bower was a bidder, and this was too exasperating. Bower could not afford it, and only wanted to hinder every other man from making a figure. The current carried even Mr. Horrock with it, but this committal of himself to an opinion fell from him, with so little sacrifice of his neutral expression, that the bid might not have been detected as his, but for the friendly oaths of Mr. Bambridge, who wanted to know what Horrock would do with blasted stuff only fit for haberdashers given over to that state of predation which the horse-dealers so cordially recognized in the majority of earthly existence. The lot was finally knocked down at a guinea to Mr. Spilkin's, a young slender of the neighborhood, who was reckless with his bucket money, and felt his want of memory for riddles. Come, Trumbull, this is too bad. You have been putting some old maids rubbish into the sale. murmured Mr. Toller, getting close to the auctioneer, I want to see how the prints go, and I must be off soon. Immediately, Mr. Toller, it was only an act of benevolence which your noble heart would approve. Joseph, quick with the prints, lot 235. Now, gentlemen, you who are connoisseurs, you are going to have a treat. Here is an engraving of the Duke of Wellington surrounded by his staff on the field of Waterloo. And not withstanding recent events which have, as it were, enveloped our great hero in a cloud, I'll be bold to say, for a man in my line must not be blown about by political winds, that a finer subject of the modern order belonging to our own time in a park. The understanding of man could hardly conceive. Angels might perhaps, but not men, sirs, not men. Who painted it? said Mr. Powderill, much impressed. It is a proof before the letter, Mr. Powderill. The painter is not known. Answered Trumbull, with a sudden gasping-ness in his last words, after which he pursed up his lips and stared round him. I'll bid a pound, said Mr. Powderill, in a tone of resolved emotion, as of a man, ready to put himself in the breach. Whether from awe or pity, nobody raised the price on him. Next came two Dutch prints, which Mr. Toller had been eager for, and after he had secured them, he went away. Other prints and afterwards some paintings were sold to leading middle marchers, who had come with a special desire for them, and there was a more active moment of the audience in and out. Some who had bought what they wanted going away, others coming in either quite newly or from a temporary visit to the refreshments, which were spread under the marquee on the lawn. It was this marquee that Mr. Bambridge was bent on buying, and he appeared to like looking inside it frequently, as a foretaste of its possession. On the last occasion of his return from it, he was observed to bring with him a new companion, a stranger to Mr. Trumbull and everyone else, whose appearance, however, led to the supposition that he might be a relative of the horse-stealers, also given to indulgence. His large whiskers, imposing swagger and swing of the leg, made him a striking figure, but his suit of black, rather shabby at the edges, caused the prejudicial inference that he was not able to afford himself as much indulgence as he liked. Who is it you have picked up, Bam? said Mr. Horak aside. Ask him yourself, returned Mr. Bambridge. He said he had just turned it from the road. Mr. Horak eyed the stranger, who was leaning back against his stick with one hand, using his toothpick with the other, and looking about him with a certain restlessness, apparently under the silence imposed on him by circumstances. At length the supper at Emmaus was brought forward to Will's immense relief, for he was getting so tired of the proceedings that he had drawn back a little and leaned his shoulders against the wall just behind the auctioneer. He now came forward again, and his eye caught the conspicuous stranger, who, rather to his surprise, was tearing at him markedly. But Will was immediately appealed to by Mr. Trumbull. Yes, Mr. Ladislav, yes, this interests you, as I can assure. I think it is some pleasure. The auctioneer went on with a rising fervour to have a picture like this to show to a company of ladies and gentlemen a picture worth any sum to an individual whose means were on a level with his judgment. It is a painting of the Italian school by the celebrated Cudo, the greatest painter in the world, the chief of the old masters, as they are called. I take it, because they were up to a thing or two beyond most of us, in possession of secrets now lost to the bulk of the mankind. Let me tell you, gentlemen, I have seen a great many pictures by the old masters, and they are not all up to this mark. Some of them are darker than you might like, and not family subjects. But here is a Gudo. The frame alone is worth pounds, which any lady might be proud to hang up. A suitable thing for what we call a refectory in a charitable institution, if any gentleman of the corporation wished to show his munificence. Turn it a little, sir. Yes, Joseph. Turn it a little towards Mr. Ladislav. Mr. Ladislav, having been abroad, understands the merit of these things you observe. All eyes were for a moment turned towards Will, who said coolly, five pounds. The auctioneer burst out in a deep remonstrance. Ah! Mr. Ladislav, the frame alone is worth that. Ladies and gentlemen, for the credit of the town, suppose it should be discovered here after that a gem of art has been amongst us in this town, and nobody in middle-march awake to it. Five kinnies. Five, seven, six, five, ten. Still, ladies, still. It is a gem, and full many a gem, as the poet says, has been allowed to go at a nominal price because the public knew no better, because it was offered in circles where there was. I was going to say a low feeling, but no. Six pounds, six kinnies, a guido of the first hour, going at six kinnies. It is an insult to religion, ladies. It touches us all as Christians, gentlemen, that a subject like this should go at such a low figure. Six pounds, ten, seven. The bidding was brisk, and Will continued to share in it, remembering that Mrs. Bilstrode had a strong wish for the picture, and thinking that he might stretch the price to twelve pounds, but it was knocked down to him at ten kinnies, whereupon he pushed his way towards the bow window and went out. He chose to go under the marquee to get a glass of water, being hot and thirsty. It was empty of other visitors, and he asked the woman in attendance to fetch him some fresh water. But before she was well gone, he was annoyed to see entering the florid stranger who had stared at him. It struck Will at this moment that the man might be one of those political parasitic insects of the bloated kind, who had once or twice claimed acquaintance with him, as having heard him speak on the reform question, and who might think of getting a shilling by news. In this light, his person, already rather heating to behold on a summer's day, appeared the more disagreeable, and Will, half-seated on the elbow of a garden chair, turned his eyes carefully away from the commer. But this signified little to our acquaintance, Mr. Raffles, who never hesitated to trust himself on unwilling observation if it suited his purpose to do so. He moved a step or two till he was in front of Will, and said with full-mouthed haste, excuse me, Mr. Ladisla, was your mother's name Sara Dunkirk? Will, starting to his feet, moved backward a step, frowning and saying with some fierceness, yes, sir, it was, and what is that to you? It was in Will's nature that the first spark it threw out was a direct answer of the question and a challenge of the consequences. To have said, what is that to you in the first instance would have seemed like shuffling as if he minded who knew anything about his origin. Raffles on his side had not the same eagerness for a collision which was implied in Ladisla's threatening air. The slim young fellow with his girl's complexion looked like a tiger cat ready to spring on him. Under such circumstances, Mr. Raffles' pleasure in annoying his company was kept in abeyance. No offence, my good sir, no offence. I only remember your mother knew her when she was a girl, but it is your father that you feature, sir. I had the pleasure of seeing your father too. Parents alive, Mr. Ladisla? No, thundered Will, in the same attitude as before. Should be glad to do you a service, Mr. Ladisla? By Jove, I should. Hope to meet again. Hereupon Raffles, who had lifted his hat with the last words, turned himself round with a swing of his leg and walked away. Will looked after him a moment and could see that he did not re-enter the auction room, but appeared to be walking towards the road. For an instant, he thought that he had been foolish not to let the man go on talking. But no, on the whole he preferred doing without knowledge from that source. Later in the evening, however, Raffles overtook him in the street and appearing either to have forgotten the roughness of his former reception or to intend avenging it by a forgiving familiarity, greeted him jovially and walked by his side, remarking at first on the pleasantness of the town and neighborhood. Will suspected that the man had been drinking and was considering how to shake him off when Raffles said, I have been abroad myself, Mr. Ladisla, I have seen the world. Used to parley vows a little, it was at Boulogne I saw your father, a most uncommon likeness you are of him. By Jove, mouth, nose, eyes, head turned off your brow just like his, a little in the foreign style. John Bull doesn't do much of that, but your father was very ill when I saw him. Lord, Lord, hence you might see through, you were a small youngster then, did he get well? No, said Will Kurtley. Ah, well, I have often wondered what became of your mother. She ran away from her friends when she was a young lass, a proud spirited lass and pretty by Jove. I knew the reason why she ran away, said Raffles, winking slowly as he looked sideways at Will. You know nothing dishonorable of her, sir, said Will, turning on him rather savagely. But Mr. Raffles just now was not sensitive to shades of manner. Not bit, said he, tossing his head disseably. She was a little too honorable to like her friends, that was it. Here Raffles again winked slowly. Lord bless you. I knew all about them, a little in what you may call the respectable thieving line. The high style of receiving house, none of your holes and corners, first rate, slap-up shop, high profits and no mistake, but Lord, Sara would have known nothing about it, a dashing young lady she was, fine birding school fit for Lord's wife. Only Archie Duncan threw it at her out of spite, because she would have nothing to do with him. And so she ran away from the whole concern. I traveled for them, sir, in a gentle manly way at a high salary. They didn't mind her running away at first. Godly folks serve very godly, and she was for the stage. The sun was a life thin, and the daughter was at a discount. Hello, here we are at the Blue Bull. What do you say, Mr. Larislaw? Shall we turn in and have a glass? No, I must say good evening, said Will, dashing up a passage which led into Lowick Gate, and almost running to get out of Raffles' reach. He walked a long while on the Lowick Road, away from the town, glad of the starlit darkness when it came. He felt as if he had had dirt cast on him amidst shouts of scorn. There was this to confirm the fellow's statement that his mother never would tell him the reason why she had run away from her family. Well, what was he? Will Larislaw the worse supposing the truth about the family to be the ugliest? His mother had braved hardships in order to separate herself from it. But if Dorothea's friend had known this story, if the Chathams had known it, they would have had a fine colour to give their suspicions of welcome ground for thinking him unfit to come near her. However, let them suspect what they placed. They would find themselves in the wrong. They would find out that the blood in his veins was as free from the taint of meanness as theirs. End of Chapter 60. They may both be true. The same night when Mr. Bulstrode returned from a journey to Brassing on business, his good wife met him in the entrance hall and drew him into his private sitting room. Nicholas, she said, fixing her honest eyes upon him anxiously, there has been such a disagreeable man here asking for you. It has made me quite uncomfortable. What kind of man, my dear, said Mr. Bulstrode, dreadfully certain of the answer. A red-faced man with large whiskers and most impudent in his manner. He declared he was an old friend of yours and said you would be sorry not to see him. He wanted to wait for you here, but I told him he could see you at the bank tomorrow morning. Most impudent he was, scared at me, and said his friend Nick had luck in wives. I don't believe he would have gone away if Blutcher had not happened to break his chain and come running round on the gravel, for I was in the garden. So I said, you'd better go away. The dog is very fierce and I can't hold him. Do you really know anything of such a man? I believe I know who he is, my dear, said Mr. Bulstrode in his usual subdued voice. An unfortunate disillusioned wretch, whom I helped too much in days gone by. However, I presume you will not be troubled by him again. He will probably come to the bank to beg, doubtless. No more was said on the subject until the next day when Mr. Bulstrode had returned from the town and was dressing for dinner. His wife, not sure that he was come home, looked into his dressing room and saw him with his coat and cravat off, leaning one arm on a chest of drawers and staring absently at the ground. He started nervously and looked at that as she entered. You look very ill, Nicholas. Is there anything to matter? I have a good deal of pain in my head, said Mr. Bulstrode, who was so frequently ailing that his wife was always ready to believe in this cause of depression. Sit down and let me sponge it with vinegar. Physically, Mr. Bulstrode did not want the vinegar, but morally the affectionate attention soothed him. Though always polite, it was his habit to receive such services with marital coolness as his wife's duty. But today, while she was bending over him, he said, You are very good, Harriet. In a tone which had something new in it to her ear. She did not know exactly what the novelty was, but her woman's solicitude shaped itself into a darting thought that he might be going to have an illness. Has anything worried you, she said? Did that man come to you at the bank? Yes, it was as I had supposed. He is a man who at one time might have done better, but he has sunk into a drunken, debauched creature. Is he quite gone away? said Mrs. Bulstrode anxiously, but for certain reasons she refrained from adding, it was very disagreeable to hear him calling himself a friend of yours. At that moment, she would not have liked to say anything which implied her habitual consciousness that her husband's earlier connections were not quite on the level with her own. Not that she knew much about them, that her husband had at first been employed in a bank, that he had afterwards entered into what he called city business, and gained a fortune before he was three and thirty, that he had married a widow who was much older than himself, a dissenter, and in other ways, probably of that disadvantageous quality usually perceptible in a first wife, if inquired into with the dispassionate judgment of a second, was almost as much as she had cared to learn beyond the glimpses which Mr. Bulstrode's narrative occasionally gave of his early bent towards religion, his inclination to be a preacher, and his association with missionary and philanthropic efforts. She believed in him as an excellent man, whose piety carried a peculiar eminence in belonging to a layman, whose influence had turned her own mind towards seriousness, and whose share of perishable good had been the means of raising her own position. But she also liked to think that it was well in every sense for Mr. Bulstrode to have won the hand of Harriet Vincy, whose family was undeniable in a middle-march light, a better light surely than any thrown in London through affairs or dissenting chapel yards. The unreformed provincial mind distrusted London, and while true religion was everywhere saving, honest Mrs. Bulstrode was convinced that to be saved in the church was more respectable. She ignored towards others that her husband had ever been a London dissenter, that she liked to keep it out of sight even in talking to him. He was quite aware of this, indeed in some respects he was rather afraid of this ingenuous wife, whose imitative piety and native worldliness were equally sincere, who had nothing to be ashamed of, and whom he had married out of a thorough inclination still, and who cares to maintain his recognized supremacy. The loss of high consideration from his wife, as from everyone else who did not clearly hate him out of enmity to the truth, would be as the beginning of death to him. When she sight gone away, effort to throw as much very far from a state of quiet trust. In the interview at the bank, Raffles had made it evident that his eagerness to torment was almost as strong in him as any other greed. He had frankly said that he had turned out of the way to come to middle-march just to look about him and see whether the neighborhood would suit him to live in. He had certainly had a few debts to pay, more than he expected, but the two hundred pounds were not yet gone. A cool five and twenty would suffice him to go away with for the present. What he had wanted chiefly was to see his friend Nick and family, and know all about the prosperity of a man to whom he was so much attached. By and by, he might come back for a longer stay. This time, Raffles declined to be put middle-march under Bilstrode's eyes. He meant to go by coach the next day, if he chose to avail. He could not count on any persistent fear, nor on any promise. On the contrary, he felt a cold certainty at his heart that Raffles, unless providence sent death to hinder him, would come back to middle-march before long, and that certainty was a terror. It's not that he was in danger of legal punishment or of beggary. He was in danger only of seeing disclose to the judgment of his neighbors and the mournful perception of his wife, certain facts of his past life, which would render him an object of scorn and an approbrium of the religion to which he had diligently associated himself. The terror of being judged sharpens the memory. It sends an inevitable glare over that long, unvisited past which has been habitually recalled only in general phrases. Even without memory, the life is bonded into one by a zone of dependence in growth and decay, but intense memory forces a man to own his blame-worthy past. With memory set smarting like a reopened wound, a man's past is not simply a dead history, an outworn preparation of the present. It is not a repented error shaken loose from the life. It is a still quivering part of himself, bringing shutters and bitter flavors and the tinglings of a merited shame. Into this second life, both roads past had now risen, only the pleasures of it seeming to have lost their quality. Night and day without interruption save of brief sleep, which only wove retrospect and fear into a fantastic present. He felt the scenes of his earlier life coming between him and everything else, as obstinately as when we look through the window from a lighted room, the objects we turn our backs on are still before us, instead of the grass and the trees. The successive events inward and outward were there in one view, though each might be dwelt on in turn, the rest still kept their hold in the consciousness. Once more, he saw himself the young banker's clerk, with an agreeable person, as clever in figures as he was fluent in speech and fond of theological definition, an eminent though young member of a Calvinistic dissenting church at Highbury, having had striking experience in conviction of sin and sense of pardon. Again, he heard himself called for as brother bull strode in prayer meetings, speaking on religious platforms, preaching in private houses. Again, he felt himself thinking of the ministry as possibly his vocation and inclined towards missionary labor. That was the happiest time of his life. That was the spot he would have chosen now to awaken and find the rest, a dream. The people among whom brother bull strode was distinguished were very few, but they were very near to him and stirred his satisfaction the more. His power stretched through a narrow space, but he felt its effect the more intensely. He believed without effort in the peculiar work of grace within him and in the signs that God intended him for special instrumentality. Then came the moment of transition. It was with the sense of promotion he had when he, an orphan educated at a commercial charity school, was invited to a fine villa belonging to Mr. Dunkirk, the richest man in the congregation. Intimate there, honored for his piety by the wife, marked out for his ability by the husband, whose wealth was due to a flourishing city and West End trade. That was the setting in of a new current for his ambition, directing his prospects of instrumentality towards the uniting of distinguished religious gifts with successful business. By and by came a decided external leading. A confidential subordinate partner died and nobody seemed to the principal so well-fitted to fill the severely felt vacancy as his young friend bull strode if he would become a confidential accountant. The offer was accepted. The business was upon brokers of the most magnificent sort, both in extent and profits, and on a short acquaintance with it, bull strode became aware that one source of magnificent profit was the easy reception of any goods offered without strict inquiry as to where they came from. But there was a branch house at the West End and no pettiness or dinginess to give suggestions of shame. He remembered his first moments of shrinking. They were private and were filled with arguments, some of these taking the form of prayer. The business was established and had old roots. Is it not one thing to set up a new gin palace and another to accept an investment in an old one? The profits made out of lost souls. Where can the line be drawn at which they begin in human transactions? Was it not even God's way of saving his chosen? Thou knowest, the young bull strode had said then as the older bull strode was saying now, thou knowest how loose my soul sits from these things, how I view them all as implements for telling, thy garden rescued here and there from the wilderness. Metaphors and precedences were not wanting. Peculiar spiritual experiences were not wanting, which at last made the retention of his position seem a service demanded of him. The vista of a fortune had already opened itself and bull strode's shrinking remained private. Mr. Dunkirk had never expected that there would be any shrinking at all. He had never conceived that trade had anything to do with the scheme of salvation. And it was true that bull strode found himself carrying on two distinct lives. His religious activity could not be incompatible with his business as soon as he had argued himself into not feeling it incompatible. Mentally surrounded with that past again, bull strode had the same pleas. Indeed, the years had been perpetually spinning them into intricate thickness like masses of spider web patting the moral sensibility. May as age made egoism more eager, but less enjoying, his soul had become more saturated with the belief that he did everything for God's sake, being indifferent to it for his own. And yet, if he could be back in that far off spot with his youthful poverty, why then he would choose to be a missionary. But the train of causes in which he had locked himself went on. There was trouble in the fine villa at Highbury. Years before, the only daughter had run away, defied her parents and gone on the stage. And now the only boy died. And after a short time, Mr. Dunkirk died also. The wife, a simple pious woman, left with all the wealth in and out of the magnificent trade, of which she never knew the precise nature, had come to believe in bull strode and innocently adore him as women often adore their priest or man-made minister. It was natural that after a time marriage should have been thought of between them. But Mrs. Dunkirk had qualms and yearnings about her daughter, who had long been regarded as lost both to God and her parents. It was known that the daughter had married, but she was utterly gone out of sight. The mother, having lost her boy, imagined a grandson and wished in a double sense to reclaim her daughter. If she were found, there could be a channel for property, perhaps a wide one, in the provision for several grandchildren. Efforts to find her must be made before Mrs. Dunkirk would marry again. Bull Strode concurred, but after advertisement as well as other modes of inquiry had been tried, the mother believed that her daughter was not to be found and consented to marry without reservation of property. The daughter had been found, but only one man besides Bull Strode knew it, and he was paid for keeping silence and carrying himself away. That was the bare fact, which Bull Strode was now forced to see in the rigid outline with which acts present themselves almost. But for himself at that distant time and even now in burning memory, the fact was broken into little sequences, each justified as it came by reasonings which seemed to prove it righteous. Bull Strode's course up to that time had, he thought, been sanctioned by remarkable providences, appearing to point the way for him to be the agent in making the best use of a large property and withdrawing it from perversion. Death and other striking dispositions, such as feminine trustfulness, had come, and Bull Strode would have adopted Cromwell's words, Do you call these bare events? The Lord pity you. The events were comparatively small, but the essential condition was there, namely that they were in favor of his own ends. It was easy for him to settle what was due from him to others by inquiring what were God's intentions with regards to himself. Could it be for God's service that this fortune should, in any considerable proportion, go to a young woman and her husband who were given up to the lightest pursuits and might scatter it abroad in triviality, people who seemed to lie outside the path of remarkable providences? Bull Strode had never said to himself beforehand, the daughter shall not be found. Nevertheless, when the moment came, he kept her existence hidden, and when other moments followed, he soothed the mother with consolation in the probability that the unhappy young woman might be no more. There were hours in which Bull Strode felt that his action was unrighteous, but how could he go back? He had mental exercises, called himself not, laid hold on redemption, and went on in his course of instrumentality, and after five years, death again came to widen his path by taking away his wife. He did gradually withdraw his capital that he did not make the sacrifices requisite to put an end to the business, which was carried on for 13 years afterwards before it finally collapsed. Meanwhile, Nicholas Bull Strode had used his 100,000 discreetly and was become provincially solidly important, a banker, a churchman, a public benefactor, sleeping partner in trading concerns in which his ability was directed to economy in the raw material, as in the case of the dyes which rotted Mr. Vinty's silk. And now, when this respectability had lasted undisturbed for nearly 30 years, when all that preceded it had long lain benumbed in the consciousness and immersed his thought as if with a terrible eruption of a new sense overburdening the feeble being. Meanwhile, in his conversation with Raffles, he had learned something momentous, something which entered actively into the struggle of his longings and terrors. There, he thought, lay an opening toward spiritual, perhaps toward material, rescue. The spiritual kind of rescue was a genuine need with him. There may be coarse hypocrites who consciously affect beliefs and emotions for the sake of goaling the world, but Bull Strode was not one of them. He was simply a man whose desires had been stronger than his theoretic beliefs and who had gradually explained the gratification of his desires into satisfactory agreement with those beliefs. If this be hypocrisy, it is a process which shows itself occasionally in a thaw. To whatever confession we belong and whether we believe in the future perfection of our race or in the nearest date fixed for the end of the world, whether we regard the earth as a putrefying knightess for a saved remnant, including ourselves, or have a passionate belief in the solidarity of mankind. The service he could do to the cause of religion had been through life the ground he alleged to himself for his choice of action. It had been the motive which he had poured out in his prayers. Who would use money and position better than he meant to use them? Who could surpass him in self-abhorrence and exaltation of God's cause? And to Mr. Bull Strode, God's cause was something distinct from his own rectitude of conduct. It enforced a discrimination of God's enemies who were to be used merely as instruments and whom it would be as well if possible to keep out of money and consequent influence. Also profitable investments in trades where the power of the prince of this world showed its most active devices became sanctified by a right application of the prophets in the hands of God's servant. This implicit reasoning is essentially no more peculiar to evangelical beliefs than the use of wide phrases for narrow motives is peculiar to Englishmen. There is no general doctrine which is not capable of eating out our morality if unchecked by the deep-seated habit of direct fellow-feeling with individual fellow-men. But a man who believes in something else than his own greed has necessarily a conscience or standard to which he more or less adapts himself. Bull Strode's standard had been his serviceableness to God's cause. I am sinful and not a vessel to be consecrated by use, but use me had been the mold into which he had constrained his immense need of being something important and predominating, and now had come a moment in which that mold seemed in danger of being broken and utterly cast away. What if the ax he had reconciled himself to, because they made him a stronger instrument of the divine glory, were to become the pretext of the scoffer and a darkening of that glory? If this were to be the ruling of providence, he was cast out from the temple as one who had brought unclean offerings. He had long poured out utterances of repentance, but today a repentance had come which was of a bitter flavor and a threatening providence urged him to a kind of propitiation which was not simply a doctrinal transaction. The divine tribunal had changed its aspect for him. Self-prostration was no longer enough and he must bring restitution in his hand. It was really before his god that Bull Strode was about to attempt such restitution as seemed possible. A great dread had seized his susceptible frame and the scorching approach of shame wrought in him a new spiritual need. Night and day, while the resurgent threatening past was making a conscience within him, he was thinking by what means he could recover peace and trust, by what sacrifice he could stay the rod. His belief in these moments of dread was that if he spontaneously did something right, God would save him from the consequences of wrongdoing. For religion can only change when the emotions which fill it are changed and the religion of personal fear remains nearly at the level of the savage. He had seen raffles actually going away on the brassing coach and this was a temporary relief. It removed the pressure of an immediate dread but did not put an end to the spiritual conflict and the need to win protection. At last he came to a difficult resolve and wrote a letter to Will Latisla begging him to be at the shrubs that evening for a private interview at nine o'clock. Will had felt no particular surprise at the request and connected it with some new notions about the pioneer. But when he was shown into Mr. Bullstrode's private room, he was struck with painfully worn look on the banker's face and was going to say, are you ill? When checking himself in that abruptness, he only inquired after Mrs. Bullstrode and her satisfaction with the picture bought for her. Thank you. She is quite satisfied. She has gone out with her daughters this evening. I begged you to come, Mr. Latisla, because I have a communication of a very private. Indeed, I will say of a sacredly confidential nature which I desire to make to you. Nothing I dare say has been farther from your thoughts than that there had been important ties in the past which could connect your history with mine. Will felt something like an electric shock. He was already in a state of keen sensitiveness and hardly elate agitation on the subject of ties in the past and his presentiments were not agreeable. It seems like the fluctuations of a dream as if the action begun by that loud, bloated stranger were being carried on by this pale-eyed, sickly-looking piece of respectability whose subdued tone and glib formality of speech were at this moment almost as repulsive to him as their remembered contrast. He answered with a marked change of color. No, indeed, nothing. You see before you Mr. Latisla a man who is deeply stricken, but for the urgency of conscience and the knowledge that I am before the bar of one who seeeth not as man seeeth, I should be under no compulsion to make the disclosure which has been my object in asking you so far as human laws go you have no claim on me whatever. Will was even more uncomfortable than wondering. Mr. Bullstrow had paused, leaning his head on his hand and looking at the floor, but he now fixed his examining glance on Will and said, I am told that your mother's name was Sarah Duncourk and that she ran away from her friends to go on the stage. Also, that your father was at one time much emaciated by illness. May I ask if you can confirm these statements? Yes, they are all true, said Will, struck with the order in which an inquiry had come that might have been expected to be preliminary to the banker's previous hints. But Mr. Bullstrow had tonight followed the order of his emotions. He entertained no doubt that the opportunity for restitution had come and he had an overpowering impulse towards the penitential expression by which he was deprecating chastisement. Do you know any particulars of your mother's family? He continued. No, she never liked to speak of them. She was a very generous, honorable woman, said Will, almost angrily. I do not wish to allege anything against her. Did she never mention her mother to you at all? I have heard her say that she thought her mother did not know the reason of her running away. She said, poor mother in a pitying tone. That mother became my wife, said Bullstrowed, and then paused a moment before he added. You have a claim on me, Mr. Ladisla. As I said before, not a legal claim, but one which my conscience recognizes. I was enriched by that marriage, a result which would probably not have taken place, certainly not to the same extent if your grandmother could have discovered her daughter. That daughter I gather is no longer living. No, said Will, feeling suspicion and repugnance rising so strongly within him that without quite knowing what he did, he took his hat from the floor and stood up. The impulse within him was to reject the disclosed connection. He seated, Mr. Ladisla, said Bullstrowed, anxiously. Doubtless you are startled by the suddenness of this discovery, but I entreat your patience with one who was already bowed down by inward trial. Will receded himself, feeling some pity which was half contempt for this voluntary self-abasement of an elderly man. It is my wish, Mr. Ladisla, to make amends for the deprivation which befell your mother. I know that you are without fortune, and I wish to supply you adequately from a store which would have probably already been yours had your grandmother been certain of your mother's existence and been able to find her. Mr. Bullstrowed paused. He felt that he was performing a striking piece of scrupulosity in the judgment of his auditor and a penitential act in the eyes of God. He had no clue to the state of Will Ladisla's mind, smarting as it was from the clear hints of raffles, and with its natural quickness and construction stimulated by the expectation of discoveries which he would have been glad to conjure back into darkness. Will made no answer for several moments till Mr. Bullstrowed, who at the end of his speech had cast his eyes on the floor, now raised them with an examining glance which Will met fully, saying, I suppose you did know of my mother's existence and knew where she might have been found. Bullstrowed shranked. There was a visible quivering in his face and hands. He was totally unprepared to have his advances met in this way or to find himself urged into more revelation than he had beforehand set down as needful. But at that moment he dared not tell a lie and he felt suddenly uncertain of his ground which he had trodden with some confidence before. I will not deny that you conjecture rightly, he answered with a faltering in his tone, and I wish to make atonement to you as the one still remaining who has suffered a loss through me. You enter, I trust, into my purpose, Mr. Ladisla, which has a reference to higher than merely human claims and as I have already said, is entirely independent of any legal compulsion. I am ready to narrow my own resources and the prospects of my family by binding myself to allow you 500 pounds yearly during my life and to leave you a proportional capital at my death. Nay, to do still more if more should be definitely necessary to any laudable project on your part. Mr. Bullstrode had gone on to particulars in the expectation that these would work strongly on Ladisla and merge other feelings in grateful acceptance. But Will was looking as stubborn as possible with his lips pouting in his fingers in his side pockets. He was not in the least touched and said firmly, Before I make you any reply to your proposition, Mr. Bullstrode, I must beg you to answer a question or two. Were you connected with the business by which that fortune you speak of was originally made? Mr. Bullstrode's thought was, Raffles has told him. How could he refuse to answer when he had volunteered what drew forth the question? He answered, Yes. And was that business, or was it not, a thoroughly dishonorable one? Nay, one that, if its nature had been made public, might have ranked those concerned in it with thieves and convicts. Will's tone had a cutting bitterness. He was moved to put his question as nakedly as he could. Bullstrode reddened with irrepressible anger. He had been prepared for a scene of self abasement, but his intense pride and his habit of supremacy overpowered penitence and even dread when this young man whom he had meant to benefit turned on him with the air of a judge. The business was established before I became connected with it, sir, nor is it for you to institute an inquiry of that kind. He answered, not raising his voice, but speaking with quick defiantness. Yes, it is, said Will, starting up again with his hat in his hand. It is eminently mine to ask such questions when I have to decide whether I will have transactions with you and accept your money. My unblemished honor is important to me. It is important to me to have no stain on my birth and connections, and now I find there is a stain which I can't help. My mother felt it and tried to keep as clear of it as she could, and so will I. You shall keep your ill-gotten money. If I had any fortune of my own, I would willingly pay it to anyone who could disprove what you have told me. What I have to thank you for is that you kept the money till now when I can refuse it. It ought to lie with a man's self that he is a gentleman. Good night, sir. Bulstrode was going to speak, but Will, with determined quickness, was out of the room in an instant, and in another the hall door had closed behind him. He was too strongly possessed with passionate rebellion against this inherited blot which had been thrust on his knowledge to reflect at present, whether he had not been too hard on Bulstrode, too arrogantly merciless towards a man of 60 who was making efforts at retrieval when time had rendered them vain. No third person listening could have thoroughly understood the impetuosity of Will's repulse or the bitterness of his words. No one but himself then knew how everything connected with the sentiment of his own dignity had an immediate bearing for him on his relation to Dorothea and to Mr. Cassabon's treatment of him, and in the rush of impulses by which he flung back that offer of Bulstrode's, there was mingled the sense that it would have been impossible for him ever to tell Dorothea that he had accepted it. Bulstrode, when Will was gone, he suffered a violent reaction and wept like a woman. It was the first time he had encountered an open expression of scorn from any man higher than raffles, and with that scorn hurrying like venom through his system, there was no sensibility left to consolations. But the relief of weeping had to be checked. His wife and daughter soon came home from hearing the address of an Oriental missionary and were full of regret that Papa had not heard, in the first instance, the interesting things which they tried to repeat to him. Perhaps, through all other hidden thoughts, the one that breathed most comfort was that Will Latteslaw, at least, was not likely to publish what had taken place that evening.