 and I'll have to sign when I'm done. Hey what's up you guys, welcome back to my channel, this is Wendy here, hi, hello, I'm Lydia. I'm in 12 videos here on YouTube. Today I want to talk about dissociation and what that means and what it looks like. Dissociation. Dissociation is where that person becomes disconnected from the self or the surrounding most commonly with a mental illness. The five dissociative disorders that I know of and that were in the DSM-5 are depersonalization, derealization, OSDG, deodorizing, and dissociative amnesia. Personally I'm diagnosed with depersonalization and derealization which means I don't see my body as my body and I don't see my surroundings as familiar and I'm very disconnected from it all. For me it's worse, dissociation has caused me to hallucinate. Dissociation occurs when nobody needs out basically. Which is why it can happen in anxiety attacks. Having to do a high stress situation. I am melting in the tea wave. Dissociation itself isn't a mental illness. Dissociation and impact is a very common. Dissociation also occurs when anxiety is in a panic attack. You can dissociate. I'll insert a clip from that when I first realised I was dissociating. I'll rip the clip. Something I've done on video about this I don't really want to set up with camera because I think it's too much, right? I'm still quite afraid from all of this and I don't really know 100% what happened. Long story short, I woke up this morning, it was afternoon, went to an appointment, checked my call lots and realised that what I dreamt and actually happened or what I thought I dreamt was actually what had happened last night. I can't remember anything after about 8 o'clock yesterday. I had a dream, well apparently I didn't have a dream but it was a dream to me about these people who were following me and they transformed into animals but they went from being human versus invisible to like the ghost shape. I can guarantee this whole thing happened because of the state of my phone screen because I've got quick knees and because of the call logs. These call logs are actually on my phone and I'll insert a screenshot here. I don't know what happened, I don't know I don't even believe in my flight, I don't remember any of it. From the perspective of it actually happening I remember it as me waking up this morning thinking oh shit, that was a horrible dream to realising that it actually happened. It's a scary situation, I don't really know. I don't know, I don't know, I don't know what it was about but these fucking invisible dogs were chasing me, biting me and trying to bite me and I was just, I don't know. I don't really know, troubling, troubling to think about. It's scary, scary, scary, scary, scary stuff. I really don't know what happened and I'm very afraid of it. I don't know, I'm afraid to get to sleep again so I don't know if it's gonna happen again. I don't know if I'm gonna be dreaming or I'm afraid. I'm so afraid of what might be afraid. I don't know, I don't know how to explain it. I don't really know what happened, I just feel like it doesn't feel real, it wasn't real, but it was and I don't know, it was such a vivid dream that I don't know, it woke me up this morning and when I woke up I was like oh, it wasn't a dream cause it actually happened cause I got the call logs and the cubs and the brothers were like So yeah, as you can tell, I was very disturbed by it I was very disorientated. Association is a scary, real thing that happens to a lot of people. Do you hear this conversation? Do you realise that you're the most common dissociative disorder? Followed by dissociative amnesia, RSDD and then DID This is what it looks like when you dissociate This is an old video of mine. I've completely lost track of my thoughts. So as you can see, I was just out of it. Continuing on with my discussion on dissociation Yes, I've got changed. It's very hot in the UK right now. Let's talk a bit about the process of dissociation So yes, continuing on with my discussion on dissociation and what it means to dissociate What is dissociation? Here's what I found Association is a concert that has been developed over time There's any other wide array of experiences ranging from mild emotional detachment and the immediate surroundings to more experience to more severe connection from physical and emotional experience Dissociation comes on a spectrum You can mildly experience it You can moderately experience it You can severely experience it It's a spectrum For me, I experience moderate to severe dissociation More so moderate Dissociation is a complex thing Have you ever experienced dissociation? Let me know in the comments down below Thanks for watching I'll see you guys in my next video Peace