 there has not been a day where I've woken up without pain in two and a half years. I speak about invisible illnesses because we look normal but you don't see like right now my head is on fire, my throat's burning, the pins and needles sensation, the fatigue, you don't see that when you look at me you see like though she's smiling so she must be healthy. When I went to the academic hospital the first night they drug tested me. They saw a young black woman coming in for respiratory distress so they thought well when that happens most of the time it's because the woman's on drugs, must be on drugs and what I noticed in the online groups that I was in is that I would see story after story of women crying in tears about their doctors not believing them. What I have identified thus far is that majority of the women have lost faith in their doctors or just in doctors in general.