 Kido will definitely be around at the end. Please welcome our next speaker, Elise Ann. Elise said, female leadership events, women empowering type events. I'm glad that we can have her here personally. Do you want to take the microphone? Sure, sure, sure. Okay, thank you. Just click right. Yeah, you just click right. Thank you. So a couple of days ago, I was sending my husband to work and I told him that, you know, I'm going to do this event. Oh, call fuck up. What? Yeah. And I have seven minutes. What? That's fucked up. You should tell the organizers. So in a rare occasion, and I'm actually following his advice to start this off, right? And I rarely do this anymore because I have an option. So you have an option in life that you really, really do. So I was coming out today and my youngest daughter, she's three. Where are you going, mom? And I said, I'm going out. Are you coming back? Like, yeah, of course I'm coming back. And then cause I rarely do this. And then my helper was like, where are you going? Can I come? Like, no, you can't come. And in my heart, I'm thinking, I'm not going to let you rob me of the job saying fuck all night, right? And not be promiscuous about this. So, all right, so let's get started. How many of you don't know who I am? Okay, so that's fucked up. So when you saw this thing, how many of you did check me out? Okay, so the rest of you are fucked up. Okay. So just to break the ice, although we are on the same page of the night, fucked up, I am a mother to three kids. And I am a spiritual entrepreneur who believes in angel dust and buried us. Like, yes, the booboo kind. And I, okay, just read it. Right? So clearly you're all fucked up tonight. And I think you believe that you're fucked up, otherwise you wouldn't be here. Guess what? I also used to think that I'm fucked up, right? So therefore this advanced fucked up from beginners. And this is the unfuckable step by step guide to unfuck yourself, all right? So see, I can't have my kids with me, otherwise you'll rob me of the joy of saying fuck all night. All right, so I know I'm smart. You don't know I'm smart, right? So in the next night, I'm going to prove to you that I'm really smart just to sound really smart. Until you make your unconscious conscious, it will direct your life, and you will call it fate by the great call out. See, only a smart person can come up with this, right? So to be honest, I can't remember my slides. I'm just gonna go with the flow because there's only seven minutes. And I'm gonna talk really fast so suck it up, okay? All right, so how fucked up am I? I think I was fucked up right at the beginning of birth. My mom didn't want me. She told me that I was a mistake and she only wanted my sister. So when I was growing up, I felt really rejected from her. And that led me to being more fucked up because I rejected myself. So therefore I ended up looking like this. So how would anybody love someone like this with effroy? I didn't even love myself, right? And then you were like puberty and you're like, oh my God, I came from a converse school. Then you're like at the stage, oh, I like boys. But the boys not looking at me. Even the lesbians won't look at me. Fuck, you know, like shit. So then I got to this period of time. And this was when my mom gave me the permission of going to be a model. I don't know what she was thinking, right? But I accepted it anyway. And so that was when I got into alcohol, I got into drugs, and then she told me that you need to find a rich man looking like this. I don't know what she was thinking, but that was the conditioning that I had from her. Like you got to find a rich man. It doesn't matter if it's marriage. Just go find someone and go fuck yourself, right? So that was that. And so I guess I was a drug addict. And at that time I had to do certain things to get drugs. I don't have to spell it out. It is the title of the night, right? So that was that if you don't have to sell your body for shade, then you're not that fucked up. If you haven't been into drugs and your mom tried to kill you, then you're not that fucked up, okay? So all this goes for you. And then at the age of 19, I came back from the States and I got my N levels again. I was so fucked up. The school thought I was too good for them. They called my mom in at the age of 16 and then, you know what? I think your daughter is just too good for us. You better take her out to school. So I went to high school to drop out of school. I didn't attend college as well. So I came back at the age of 19. I attended my N levels and then I could come of life's jewelers because my mom says go marry a rich man and how the fuck do I get to know rich men by being of life's jewelers? And that's what I did. So but I didn't end up marrying a rich man. I ended up marrying this guy and this kind of like sums it up for a relationship. You see how it is? I'm still like this. So a lot of my husband's colleagues say that he's so, so lucky to marry someone like me. I'm self-sufficient. I say to you, tell them that I'm neurotic. I'm crazy and I'm psycho and I'm crazy. So you show you they want to marry someone like this. So when I met him, we were heavily in debt. We were still in debt and my intention was just to marry somebody and find a guy to validate that I'm lovable and if anybody can relate, like you know. So that was what happened. We were in debt. I was in debt for many, many years. And gosh, it's so long ago. And I actually loved him so much that I conned him to have a baby with me. And so that's how my 10 year old's born. And so she's 10 and then we're married for nine years. We just celebrated our nine year anniversary. So that's that. And during this time, my mom was a huge influencer on me. She kind of like, she was like my money tree. She billed me out every time. So I wasn't financially dependent until I was 30 because I had my mom, right? So I was in debt and I would quit my job like this and she would just be here, here you go, the money's here, just go. Like you think that I'm super lucky to have a mom like this but it was a very cold dependent relationship. It was so cold dependent that one day I think the soul just decided to, I think you have to just grow up. And so that was that. And when she left, I was really down into nothing. Nothing, nothing, nothing. Like really nothing. And I built my crystal business out of a cardboard box in my friend's house. And at that time, I think my second daughter was born. So, and we were moving house, we're staying with my friend. So daytime, my husband would go pack the house and that time I would just go stand out the crystals. And that's how I really started. So you have to have that resilience in you. So this is my children. And the reason why you can't see their face because I'm protecting their identity, I'm no longer a marketing slut. I don't use my kids to prove that I am, you know, I'm Zhen Gong Fu, real scale. So I don't need to use my children to prove a point. Which I used to, then it came to, I think it became so famous that somebody just wrote to me, you got 20 kids, is it? And I'm like, oh shit, I better take all their photos down. So don't use your kids or your, use your dog. Don't use your kids to prove a point. So that was that, right? And I didn't think of dying because I did, but I knew that if I didn't die it would be more fucked up because I would be like, so now I didn't wanna do it. So this is my third child time. And during this time, I quit my crystal business and I went to some MLM rubbish, it's rubbish, that's my personal opinion, it's just rubbish. So I was eight months into it and I just knew it wasn't for me. I crashed my car and I had crazy ousers on my lips and I just knew this wasn't for me. And now what? You know, and I knew I had a gift, I'm a channel and I'm Angel Healer and all the kind of my boo boo stuff. And I knew I just wanted to help somebody. I just wanted to make enough money for myself so that I don't have to depend on my husband. I just wanted that for myself to pay my bills. Like why are you making it so fucking hard for me? Like what the fuck is wrong with you? So this is how I talk to God, right? And then I was crying, I was crying. This must be, there must be a way out, there must be a way out, like cannot be that bad. And so finally I calmed down and I thought to myself, hey, you know, so this is how I was, then that working party, this is my party scene. So I was thinking, hey, you know, this must be an easier way out. And I remember, you know, Oprah at the time, Donald wasn't crazy and he came out of my mind, Richard Branson and I lived a generous, and I just knew, like God doesn't have any favorites. So then at least we all have the same equal opportunities. And that was when I decided I was going to, whatever it takes, to be successful legally, morally, without prostitution and selling out my children. And so that was what happened. So I was out here networking, doing whatever it takes, talking to God, like what the fuck is wrong with you. And I was screaming in my house. So this is my personal mantra. I'm going to do whatever it takes, can take a photo and borrow it. And whatever it takes. And then that's what happened. That's what happened. And by the second week after I delivered, I was coaching my clients again at the third week. People do maternity and massage, right? I was out there networking, wearing my six inch high heels networking. And so because of that, I won an award. Like an award, like me, like an award. So, but I knew nobody knew me then, I needed a validation, I needed to prove a point so that people know that I'm good, like I'm smart, like I know my shape, you know? So I became a media slut. And here it is. I became a media slut, did you already? I slut my way out. So I met the people that helped us was out with your good friends now. And I met them at an event and I told them that, hey, you know you got any other adventures invite me, I'm a media slut, by the way. I can slut all the way for you. Like me and anyone just, so I'm like, wow, you know, you're so brave. You're like, yeah, I just won what I want, right? And so that's that, you gotta ask for what you want. And last year, I was back to my $1 days, but worse, I was back to my 50 cents days. You know why? Because I had all the success, crazy, right? Like all the success, then what the fuck are you thinking about? Then I didn't want money to define me after, you know, this, you know, having a Paris photo shoot, I brought my family there and like, wow, just living the life, living the rich life. And I decided, hey, you know, I didn't want money to define who I am. So that's what happened. You make the intention and the universe delivers. Clients were jumping out, drop out, drop out, drop out. Ch-ch-ch-ch-ch-ch-ch, I'm like, so how am I gonna pay my bills? And at the time, I didn't know this thing called savings because I'm spiritual, right? La, the money come, la, the clients come, so you got no savings, right? So now you must have a, what do you call it? Savings, talk to Richard. He has, he's good at that, he's good at financial planning. So now I know that last year, first six months was the most horrible time. The $1 days, no banks were calling. This time, banks were calling. Banks were calling. They want to come in and take away the furniture who are stealing all the, so they really came. So my husband, Tamsun, with them, Tamsun means negotiate how, how, how, how, how. You know? And so I had two banks. One was Yobi, fuck them. I love DPS. I love DPS. Sorry, I love Yobi. They were so mean. For no reason, now they sue me to pay extra thousand plus for the lawyer fee. I'm like, hey, I didn't ask to be sued, you know? So some idiot has to pay the fee, la. La. So the idiot must pay me, la. La. LPPL, pay la. So I paid off, I paid off the main sum and I split the lawyer fee into several payments. But again, I paid it off. So I'm completely debt free now. And really like this, right? So, and that was the most fucked up moments in my life, in the nutshell. And so I don't regularly do this now because I run a community of 18,000 members on Facebook. It took me one and a half years to build. There is no such thing as a magic pill. You can do this. And you know, when I was so much younger, I had a dream, I really had a dream. I knew I was gonna play a much bigger game and impact when I was five or six. I knew that, but I just didn't know how to. And then I fucked up along the way and I thought, oh shit, what can I do? I live in Singapore, 45 minutes from one end to the other end. Huh, how are five, four, four can I do? And I asked God, why you don't put me in some happening country, like America, Australia, or UK, why in Singapore? So now I know why, it doesn't matter where you are, doesn't matter. I used to know one street, now I can't shut up, you know? So, like I'm so conscious about my sting double accent. Like, so weird, right? Like everybody's like, hey, why are you doing this? Like, no, no, no, no. And then you're like, stick with IT, you know? Like, so I was really conscious about my accent and now I'm looking at my father, right? Like just, whatever it is. So this is what I do. That's why, there's a choice for me right now to show up. It's really a choice and I really wanna be here, not because I'm forced to by Angela or Richard. I really wanna be here tonight because it's a choice. So that's why I say, you have a choice. You can double look. People say I'm not a choice. You do have a choice. Just a fight the next day, that's all. So you have a choice, right? So there's no overnight success. I'm a 15 years overnight success, okay? Take me 15 years. So for all of you who say, oh, take me six months, three years. If you don't want to put in three years, why say fuck now, just stop it. Don't waste your time, don't want to get a job and I think that's better for you. It really takes that long, all right? So my parting words is if you want it, go for it. Nobody's stopping you. Like, nobody's stopping you. It's just you here stopping you. Like, what's the worst that could happen? Just be fucked up, right? So just, like, everybody else is fucked up here, so it'll be good, good space. So hang out with more fucked up people than you are safe. So you wanna go from fucked up to suck it up in life and then be unfuck with the world. This is what it means. And you have to have tenacity. You need to be fearless. You need to be relentless. And you need to be shameless. You need to be shamelessly talking about yourself because no one is gonna promote you more than you and better than you. And you need to know yourself super, super well. And the problem is, like, God, why you don't give me one line? Why, why? And you're so wrong, you're praying like this because God knows what you want. He fucking created you. The problem is you don't know what you want. That's why you're in shit. That's why you're fucked up, that's why you're here. So he already knows what you want. Your thing is to go and claim it. So before I end, I wanna just let you know, like at the beginning I asked how many of you believe you are fucked up. And let me tell you you're not. You're not fucked up. Somebody told you you are. You believed it. That's why you fucked yourself. So you are not fucked up. You are not. You know why I know? Because God does not create rubbish. And you are not rubbish. Okay? And maybe I'll fuck with him or speed with you. I don't know. So, questions? Thank you for sharing all the lows and then how you got it. So, the picture, I kept doing the first picture you showed, the modeling one, your mom wanted to be a model. I'm amazed and I kept looking back for it because you look so much younger. Now. Thank you. So what did I'm just curious to know about you? Botox. No, just kidding. No, if I married the rich man and then I would be busy botoxing myself, now I'm just happy. I'm happy but I'm just happy. I'm happy. Like my husband is 10 years older than me but he looks younger than me so that's fucked up, you know? But he's got his good genes so he should actually exchange his genes with me then I'll be able to meet me. But no, really I don't even use a lot of, really proud outs because I've got three kids and you just need to go in and out of the shower. You know what I mean? So, I am just happy. Yeah. Do you have a question here? Or was it the same question? No. At least we'll be around afterwards. If you wanna ask your questions in private, please give a round of applause.