 Well hello friends of the internet, it's me. I did not vlog yesterday. I was like on the verge yesterday. I was not feeling it. I was having a very busy day at work. It's very busy today as well but I'm taking a few minutes to myself because I just, I need it. Yesterday was, I was just panicked. I don't know why. I mean I think I know why but like I was just in a very panicky mood at 2 p.m. Central time, which is what Minnesota is in and I'm in Minnesota, not in Canada, I'm in Minnesota. There was a like Minnesota press conference with Tim Walts, who is our governor I believe. So he put into effect like the stay at home ban or whatever, not banning you staying at home, banning you basically going anywhere that isn't essential and I'm already doing that anyway so it really isn't affecting me in any way shape or form. Thankfully I can still work from home so that doesn't affect my financial standing or work or anything like that. It's just, I don't know, I feel like I'm just being like way empathetic towards like everybody else that I don't know. I mean and even people like do know and it's just getting to me of like you know people's financial situations and you know not being able to go to work and get paid and have daycare and like I don't, I'm just taking it on and I shouldn't be taking it on but I was actually watching Jen Ross this morning. I'm like, I was catching up on some YouTube videos before I started work and I was watching one of her videos and she was talking about, she had struggled in the past with like feeling all her feelings and that like every feeling is valid and I'm like maybe that's what I'm struggling with because I'm just like pushing it down. Yeah so that's why I didn't vlog yesterday. I was just, I was feeling all the feelings you guys. It was just whoo. Also I stopped work at 4.30 something like that and I laid down for just like a couple of hours, woke back up, had my night and then I could not get back to sleep. So I decided to take a little night drive. I didn't go anywhere particular. I just drove around for like 30 minutes. I think I just needed to get out of the house even though I wasn't going anywhere. I just needed to get out. I stopped at my parents house and they're not there by the way. Like they live in the same area as me but they're not there. But I stopped there, just checked in everything, at like 4 in the morning but whatever. Anyways so yeah and then I just, I haven't slept. Like I got to finally lay down at like 5.30 and then I like laid down for about an hour but it wasn't like real sleep. I mean I have trouble sleeping anyway just because of my like reflux and stomach problems but I think I was just like, I was definitely on the verge like for sure because it's just too much going on in this old noggin here. And it's all stuff I can't control which I think is making it even worse. Like I feel like I should be doing something but I can't do anything and I know you guys out there feel me on that and yes I'm probably overreacting to whoever's trying, you know whoever's typing on their keyboard that I'm overreacting. I totally understand but this is just like, this is legit. This is how I'm feeling and that's what these vlogs are all about. You know I pretty much always have a very like positive and happy demeanor but you know sometimes it's just, this is real life so yeah. But in more fun news I actually got my simply gilded subscription box today. I haven't been posting those videos. Those videos just like don't do very well for some reason on my channel which is totally fine. I mean I was just posting them because I know some of you out there enjoy them. You know there's already videos out there anyways so it's like you know not a big deal. I already went through it and what I like to do is when I receive it I'm like clearly I like open up downstairs and then I kind of separate the things that I know I'm not going to use versus the things I will use because I don't want to bring anything up into my office that I know I'm not going to use so um so yeah but then I also have these sticker books that I got. They're just like plain pages. I'll show you what I did till days. This isn't all of them but this is some of the stickers from the collection that just came out so I will pull off on the sticker sheets the ones that I will potentially use and like I don't know I have like this is very very full at the moment but these are like stickers that I don't normally use things that are half used samplers things like that. I'll link this below. It is kind of expensive unfortunately but I got them on amazon. I have this one which is like a whole bunch of pages and then this one I have as well but it was only like a few pages but um I don't know they're kind of spendy. I will be honest they are kind of spendy for what they are but they work really well and it's the fun thing about these is they've like actually forced me to use some of my less used stickers because they're just right here and I don't have to go searching for them and so now this used to be like full like jam-packed full of stickers like all of these in my little categories and now it's just like if I truly love the entire sticker sheet it stays here so I like that a lot. Here are kind of like the remnants of the sticker sheets of the things I know I won't use so I'm going to end up passing that along to someone else and then also they had these this came in my order it's one of those like I don't know things folio things I don't know but there is and she said this before that there was going to be some shadowing on this and there is quite a bit of shadowing and I didn't know if I was like in love with the color of this in the first place and I brought it up here and I decided you know what this is going to be better to another home so I am going to go like this throw these in the middle for the moment go downstairs you guys can come with you can come with me I'm gonna grab some lunch because it's like lunchtime it's like 11 something and uh yeah so I don't know I'm just gonna in a funk are you guys getting funky already this is my week four of being quarantined or you know self quarantine whatever and uh I'm losing it clearly um yeah and then also in here is this is my little bucket of things and oh this was in there as well so like this little pouch was in the seasonal surprise box um I just won't use it I know I won't so I know people ask all the time they're like well you know if you're not gonna use the things like why do you why do you get those little monthly subscription surprise box whatever the hell they're called I like them that's why and this whole hold on let me go back in here um I know it's hard to see but this whole thing is for like a future plan or meetup I just haven't been to one in a really long time so I uh just keep all my stuff in there like put to the side so I don't have to you know deal with it so anyway oh but like I was saying so this is week four for me so today's Thursday I'm almost to four full weeks um and then now the Minnesota order is two more weeks so I think it goes to the 10th um we could be like mandated to stay at home longer than that um or my office could also mandate that we stay home longer than that as well afterwards so whole lot of unknowns I'm just like I said I'm feeling the feelings you guys and I'm gonna eat my feelings now so I'm just gonna have some of this macaroni and cheese because I don't know what to eat and um I'm actually gonna make some dinner tonight so hopefully I will remember to vlog it a little bit um I have a bunch of like fresh vegetables and I need to do a little like stir fry situation might as well uh get the water going while I unload the dishwasher because you know dishwasher if so it is unloaded um I am going to have some orange juice because that you know makes me feel better I guess I don't know let's see here so I have my OJ I normally don't drink orange juice unless I'm sick um I'm not sick I'm fine now but um I don't know kind of helped me get over the hump before with um you know when I had the flu so I'm like you know what I need some orange juice makes I don't know you feel better a little bit OJ to the rescue I am gonna go um you guys already know what I'm gonna have for lunch I'm gonna drink my OJ quick here and um then I'm gonna work while I eat my lunch so yeah I just wanted to give you an update I just I just have all the feelings today and yesterday it was yesterday was bad I think we're all going through a range of emotions regardless if we decide to acknowledge it or not so anyways I will see you guys in a little bit bye all right it is five o'clock I'm leaving my office because I just don't want to do this anymore oh some days y'all some days um yeah it's just been like super super busy like my department's been crazy busy and it just doesn't stop like the emails don't stop which is a great thing um but yeah so tomorrow I have two happy hours to attend uh virtual happy hours by the way so it's like wow my social calendar has never looked so exciting but like I said before I am going to do some cooking I'm gonna bring you guys along we're gonna cook together it's gonna be great um let me get the pan hold on let's la la la la cool all right so I I think have a video about this on my channel if I can find it I'll put it up above um let me get all my supplies and then we'll start talking about it all right I'm going to put a pot full of water over here I'm not starting it yet but I'm gonna put it over here and now I have this little bad boy it's like one of those deeper skillet looking things and I am going to turn that on and let me grab all my veggies so the only veggies I really need or that I'm gonna be using today are things that I really clearly I like them um I've got my zucchini I've got some sliced mushrooms and I've got some tomatoes so that's all we need uh the sliced mushrooms I always just like check to see if the mushrooms are more or less expensive depending on if I get whole mushrooms or sliced mushrooms this time they were the same so I just got the same for like the same weight so I would just much rather deal with these so throw them in it's really like rocket science over here you just throw them in that's it all right so I'm gonna open up these clean these clean these and just slice them put them in that's it what I like about this is um I end up having a ton of veggies for several days which is pretty great and then I either put it over like a bed of pasta or some a bed of rice quinoa or something like that I have a bunch of whole wheat pasta that I want to go through so that's what the pot of like the big pot of water is for but I will put that on a little bit later so yeah one of my zucchini almost ran away I don't have a ton of room in this little space here but we're gonna gonna make this work all the vegetables are rinsed off with the vegetables you could like roast them too like you could just put them in the oven I just don't I just throw them in this pan and it's fine with me so I don't know everyone's different so yeah I'm just cutting cutting the veggies now but um yeah how are you guys doing tell me in the comments how things are going I feel like after lunch I had a better attitude you know about life and general and all that good stuff yeah I don't know I just losing it a little bit but I feel like we're all kind of on that struggle bus you know so I think it's I think it's okay to lose it a little bit right now I got a message from my dad this afternoon and he's like yeah I wouldn't got a haircut like what my parents are in Florida by the way um so I'm like what the heck like all the barbers and hairstylists and nail salons and tattoo places like any like massage all that kind of stuff like everyone is closed down right now um like gyms all of that so I don't know it's like dad just just stop with the haircuts he's like oh look pretty so anyway I don't know but definitely they're in a totally different state and um if I've understood correctly the virus likes colder climates like it sticks around a lot more so that could totally be the case and that would make sense that Florida doesn't have one of those like stay-at-home order kind of things so anyway um yeah so just getting this all chopped up this usually takes like um to get it all kind of like wilted kind of wilted down the way that I like it once it starts to heat up I do put the um top over it like what's it called the cover the cover I put the cover over it um and then usually I don't know once I get everything in there usually it takes like another 15 minutes or so as it sits like when you put it in like your glass container or whatever for leftovers later so because I'll just eat this tomorrow too and probably the next day um it tends to get like more juicy if you will but I like to do the harder things first so this and then the mushrooms because those need to like take more time and then with these I'm just gonna cut them in half and then um what I do with those is just toss them in there and I don't care if those wilt down or not at least the first time around because it doesn't make a whole hill of the beans of a difference to me but um yeah I don't know I just like it it's easy and you could do it with like any vegetables that you like um I just like these and they're easy pretty pretty easy to find um I found it during this whole fun coronavirus situation so that's good um didn't have to fight anybody for any of these vegetables which was nice yeah and they're usually pretty hardy vegetables too so they do last quite a quite a while like in your fridge or on your counter or whatever um especially if you don't get to it right away like I didn't um so yeah so all of the um zucchini is chopped up ready to go I'm gonna give that a little bit and let it simmer down meh so I have this whole wheat pasta um I just decant everything into these jars I got from Ikea a long time ago um I have quite a bit of this as well so I'm just gonna put all of this like this is way too much for one serving but I'm just gonna put all of this into the water once it starts boiling and then whatever I don't eat I'll toss up a little bit of like extra virgin olive oil just so it doesn't get too sticky normally wheat pasta for me doesn't get too sticky at least this brand I'll save it for like lunch for tomorrow or whenever because I don't know I feel like it keeps pretty long so I'm gonna go do that but you could use any pasta that you want you don't have to use you know like a penne or whatever I don't know well here I'll show you the situation now so this is you know getting warmish that's what it looks like I haven't tossed it or anything you can just sit in there and then I've got my water going and then this whoo wow can't see right in there um and then I am going to just chop these up real quick with you guys and then um when I'm done then I'll just throw it right into the mixture there like I said I'm feeling better this is gonna be like a rambly vlog um I'm feeling better I just uh yesterday was bad y'all like I was just I was on the verge for sure and it was not good it was no boy knows um and I am not one I don't know if I've said this before I'm sure I've said it before but I don't know if I said it today but um I am one that does not watch the news so having to know what's going on is something I don't want to do um but uh yeah like watching the news like on a normal basis when this is like not going on is it good for my mental health I'm just gonna put it that way I feel like I'm on a need to know basis and like right now we all need to know me watching the news is just not not a good thing for the mental health situation but getting through it dealing and um yeah it's just it's just hard right now but um I did actually really enjoy it earlier today I took a little walk with the dog so that was really nice I saw a lot of people out I didn't say hello or converse with anybody um clearly everyone's keeping their distance but um you know saw a few families out like riding bikes and with like little kids and strollers which was nice just nice to like see people um because I haven't like physically seen anyone in a long time I mean I see my neighbors every once in a great while and we just say hello and then go back inside but you know it's just one of those things good to see people are like kind of getting out and about too and you know we're all kind of going a little stir crazy so yeah all right so all of my things are chopped horrible way of like explaining things just all my things are tough like okay um so yes I'm gonna just toss everything that's in this big pan real quick just get it moving around a little bit actually everything's still a little dense so I'm just gonna leave my tomatoes out for just a little bit until it kind of wilts down slightly and then I'll put those in and then we'll be good to go and then by that time it'll be time for dinner so anyway um I'm gonna jet because Doyle is over by the front door so he needs to go out and go to little peepees and um I will check in with you I will show you my dinner before I eat it so I'll be back in a little bit bye okay so here is the finished dinner um I just have a little bit of pasta around the sides and I just like basically all vegetables like it's like a mote of vegetables another thing that I do sometimes I'm gonna do it today because I have it is I'm gonna sprinkle a little bit of cheese on there um I like this Italian style cheese and I got it from Oldie and then um a little bit of cracked pepper and there's my dinner and I got all my water right there dinner time all right so it's about an hour later and I am done with dinner and I'm just hanging out now got my toilet paper um gotta bring some upstairs anyway so it's like my home value just skyrocketed with this toilet paper I swear oh goodness well since I missed the Vligati vlog yesterday I am going to throw that on the top there I'm gonna edit this video today and um hopefully the internet gods will be nice to us like they were the last couple of days and I can get this uploaded for you guys so I'm gonna upload my footage and uh get this done for you hey Doyle Doyle what are you doing just following he just sits in his little bed when I'm in here eventually every once in a while he doesn't do that but yeah he's just okay okay well he's got his back turned to us I guess that's a good sign bad sign I don't know but anyway thank you guys so much for hanging out with me today I will see you tomorrow for a Friday vlog and um yeah I hope you guys are doing really well let me know in the comments down below how you're doing and um I will see you guys tomorrow bye