 Oh, everybody, I guess I'm hosting. This is the second time we've done this. I just said y'all ready and we didn't record. We're all three co-hosting. This is kind of our part three of what we've been kind of doing. And that's kind of talking about the underbelly of the Great Awakening, which is the shadow work, which is coming into your own understanding of what this time period really, really truly is. And I kind of feel like, in a lot of ways, the three of us were like David and Goliath, but the good David and Goliath, where we're up against kind of a lot of people that are teaching false information about spirituality and what a Great Awakening truly, truly, truly is. And so I think it's super important that we're having these conversations, because I know I agree with Ricardo Bozzi when he said last week that there are certain events that are scheduled to happen, but as far as our ascension and as far as the great flip that we're going to make, it depends on us. And when we're actually done the work ourselves and are ready to move into that fourth density positive, meaning that no one's going to come and save you. No one's going to come save you. You have to do this yourself. And so of course, I'm joined today with Stephanie and Emmy. Y'all know Stephanie and Emmy, though. I feel like they don't even need introduction at this point, because they're regulars on this channel and friends of mine off camera. So anyway, how are you ladies doing today? It's been a rough couple of days for me, but I'm OK. I'm feeling like I got hit by a Mack truck, so I got my Superman mug. All right. My girl mug with my coffee. The coffee. Trying to wake up. I didn't even do my workout this morning, because I just woke up really late, which is unusual. And you know what it is? It's the equinoxes, the changing of the seasons. I really feel it's very drastic up here. We had the weather from Hurricane Fiona come up here. We didn't get the rain, but we got extreme winds. And then the temperature went from being in the 1970s all the way into the 50s. And I'm like, are you kidding me? Because it normally doesn't hit the 50s until later in October here. So I'm just kind of depressed that it's getting cold already, and I woke up freezing. So I just have to think that we were neighbors. The same thing happened here in Michigan. The same thing, it was 81 degrees two days ago, and yesterday was 57. And today, the high is going to be 57. It's like, I'm not ready for this. I'm not ready either. I don't want to have to put my heat on. Yeah. I'm just twiddling my thumbs, because it's still hot as hell down here. So I'll be paying you a visit then, OK? Again, I do want to start off with that, though, because we've been talking about that, Stephanie. Well, first of all, in traditional yoga, in traditional spiritual practice, which I'm going to, I want to really talk about a lot today, too. There's a lot of topics we want to talk about. And of course, we're going to be doing multiple parts on this. It's going to be an ongoing series is the role of a teacher, because teachers are super, super important because spirituality itself has a certain alchemy to it. It's not a free for all, OK? And we'll talk about why that is. But I do want to say, speaking of the changing of the seasons, in our Uvedic study, the changing of the season should be a very restful time. So if you're feeling a little bit extra tired, it's because your body's having, even here in Georgia, where our, or if you're living in the Keys of South Florida, where it's not as much of a drastic change, it's still a change, because the earth itself is shifting. So your body, part of our Uveda, is that your body has to always be at the same alchemy with the exterior world. So because I live in a city, I tell the students this all the time, because I live in a city, that means I get to drink a beer every now and again and eat greasy french fries, because my outside world is very, can be very dirty and toxic. And so if I, living in a city, were to drink a bunch of pure water and be a full-on vegan, that would cause me to go in balance because of my environment. Now, if I were to live up in the North Georgia Mountains, I could do that, because the North Georgia Mountains are clean air, fresh air, clean water. Does that make sense? And so with the changing of the seasons, you do want to be a little bit aware that for, like, maybe a six-month period, you might be feeling a little bit extra tired. It's because your body's having to realchemize to the new season that's coming in. And it's not a time, there's so many people I've met that think that going into fall or going into the springtime is a great time to do a cleanse. The changing of the seasons is the worst time to do a cleanse. Do not do a cleanse at the changing of the seasons. You will put your body, and more importantly, your mind into derangement at that point. You have to work with energies that are available to you in that moment. If you want to do, like, a cleanse or a fast, it needs to be in the middle of summertime or in the middle of winter, where your body's already alchemized to the exterior world. Now, you said you didn't work out this morning, Stephanie. Well, in traditional yoga and traditional spirituality, we know Saturday is the representation of the planet Saturn. And a lot of people in the truth of the world think that Saturn is just all bad because the dark players, the controllers, have inverted Saturn. But Saturn was created by God, just like all the other planets were. And Saturn's energy, Saturn is the matrix. And the matrix isn't just that there's going to be a matrix in fourth density, too, guys. It's just father time. It's just the planet of law and order. And it also, with that being said, is can be the planet of karma. So in traditional yoga, traditional spirituality, we don't practice on Saturdays. We rest on Saturdays. I kind of knew that already. And I have used this. It's an excuse of like, I'm just going to stay in. But I'm trying to more or less listen to my body. Now, if you're interested, I am working out. It was so funny when we can quickly discuss this. So Bryce called me as I just finished the entire, no, not the entire, but half of the first primary series, which is where I'm up to now. And I held that last pose. And I started to laugh hysterically, because I couldn't fully, if I was holding it. And that's the pose where Bryce was like, no, you can do it. You just don't want to do it. And I'm like, no, I really can't do it. She's like, you can. You can. You can. It's a very uncomfortable pose. And she don't want to do it. Let me tell you. I was like, ugh, I'm going to fight. Because I was like so exhausted. And I have no core strength at that point. And I was able to hold it like the full five times. And then I crashed on my mat after, because you take rest after. And she calls me and I'm like, oh my god, I did it. Oh, fuck her. I did it. It was really funny. Anyways, I wanted to share that really quickly. But where was I going with that? Well, the traditional yoga, well, and I was, we were talking about that, because, and this is super important, guys, because I was like, are you following the practice posture by posture? Like I was making sure that Stephanie was not skipping any postures or not interweaving postures. And this is something that's super important, guys. So if we're looking at a practice like yoga, yoga is a very, very old. It's one of the oldest systematic practices in the world. The first time we have any written account of yoga is in the Bhagavad Gita, which is how many thousands of years old? I don't know. OK. And so this practice was seen as a spiritual awakening. And so, of course, back in ancient times, no one was doing this practice to look good in a bathing suit. Like there wasn't vanity with this practice. It was about really opening up the patterns of the body. When we're working with yoga postures or asanas, each yoga posture holds a particular potency and a particular alchemy. It's an ingredient, right? Every posture, because you have these different pathways in the body that are clogged or stuck. And so the way the traditional practice goes is you'll go pose, counter pose, pose, counter pose, pose, counter pose, neutral posture, neutralizing pose, then pose, counter pose. And every time you hit a neutral pose, which is quarter primary series mark, half primary series mark, three quarters primary series mark, end of primary series, and thus forth with the rest of the series, the neutral posture is a place where you can stop. So if you were to stop your practice on a posture that isn't technically a neutralizing posture, then you are going to end up pushing yourself into the opposite direction of an awakening, right? Because it's like taking a bunch of really potent poids. So a lot of medications, even in plant medicine, are technically poisons, right? And if we use the poisons correctly, it cannot help the body detox, it helped the body. But if you use them incorrectly, it can cause a shit show. So this is why, this is why from my education and my experience, you should never, never be going to a class where the teacher is choreographing the practice. Traditional yoga follows a set mala of postures that have already been studied and put together to create a desired result, right? So in Ashtanga, we call your practice your prescription, OK? And the teacher, a 200-hour teacher training is not going to give a student or a teacher the education they need to understand all the different components of each posture and how, you know, if you do Mauritiasana D by itself without countering it with Navasana, which is the pose you ended on, Navasana, then it's going to cause a mental derangement. Because an energy is going to be opened without a proper subtle or counter energy open to support it, or a neutralizer being posted or coming in to neutralize the energies of the body. This is why it's so important, guys. And this is why I believe the yoga alliance is part of the cabal, is because they came in and destroyed this sacred practice. That's why it's so important to follow if you're going to find a teacher, to find a teacher who is a part of a lineage, meaning that if you look at their resume, they say, oh, I went through this teacher training or that teacher training, probably not, in my opinion, the best class to go to. OK? Look for a see who is the teacher's teacher. Who is the teacher accountable to? My teacher is Shirat Joyce from KPJAYI. I'm authorized under him. He is the param guru of the Ashtanga lineage. His teacher was Patabi Joyce. Patabi's Joyce teacher was Krishmacharya. OK, you can trace it back. They follow the yoga karanta, which is what holds all the prescriptions in that book. They follow it, OK, and the Patangalene system. So this is why it's super important. And we're kind of, which kind of leads me into the role of the teacher or the guru or the shaman, all right? It is of the utmost importance when you start a spiritual path that you have a teacher. A guru, again, the word guru means to transmute darkness to light. That's what guru means. Now, guru and yoga is like a master teacher. OK, I'm not talking about a cult leader. I'm not talking about someone who's, you know, my teacher in India doesn't. I have to find my own apartment. He doesn't help with that. I prepare my own food. There's no food served to you. It's just a school you go to. He is hands off when it comes to what you do outside of the classroom. You can go to him and talk to him about issues in your life. I've had many meetings with him. He never tells you what to do. He always just gives you metaphors from the yoga sutras and then basically ask you, what do you want to do? That's a healthy boundary. So I'm not talking about cult leaders. If you're going to someone who is dictating who you hang out with, what you eat, all that kind of stuff, that's dangerous. I'm talking about a master teacher, all right? And the teachers they add in there, too, Bryce. So when you say teacher, too, they need to have some sort of resume. Yes, not just somebody who claims they know things. They need a resume. I have a paper, an actual paper that says that I am authorized by KPJAY in Mysore India to teach this. I have signed a contract with the school in India. Now, this was before the lockdown, so obviously things have changed now. But before that, I had to sign a contract that I would return to India every 18 months to work with my teacher so that he can make sure that I'm still on the right path, right? And that's the teacher's role. When we talk about the word guru meaning to transform darkness to light, I cannot do that for you. My teacher cannot do it for me. All the teacher does, the teacher is not going to be somebody that's going to blow smoke up your ass. They're not going to be somebody that's going to coddle you. They're going to, in a very tough love kind of way, help you stay on the path, right? And they're going to make you accountable, right? Do what? Hold you accountable. Hold you accountable. And as we tell our students at AYA, that's why in traditional yoga, the postures are not a free for all. Like you're given postures by your teacher. You can't just skip ahead without your teacher giving you those postures because your teacher has more experience than you do. It takes about 10 years to finish primary series alone. In order to teach my sore, what I teach, you have to have completed both primary and second series and possibly a little into third in order to just teach my sore. That's not a 200-hour course. That's many, many, many, many, many years. That's why there are no 22-year-old Ashtanga teachers out there. They're all in their 40s, 50s, and 60s because it takes that many years of your own tutelage in order to then hold down a micell room. And so part of that job too with a teacher, and I've done this before, and I've had it done to me before, is a teacher will give you postures. They'll watch you work on these postures. And if they see that maybe it might be a little too much for you at the moment, they'll pull you back again. Like if they see that it's walking a tightrope, right? Like we wanna have a controlled demolition of your emotions. We wanna push you into a dark night of the soul so that you can start to reconstruct yourself and create new patterns. However, if it's too much, then it's gonna affect the nervous system, so we have to pull you back. Does that make sense? There's an alchemy to this. And I'm seeing this in our spiritual world. First of all, we're seeing people tell you they can activate you. They can do this. I was saying before we started filming, I had my first two Muniki initiations yesterday with my friend, the first two of nine. And even though my friend is Cindy, who's on the channel a lot, is the one doing the activation, it was said multiple times, which I understand that the activations will only work to the level that I accept them. And it's gonna take many, many, many, many years sometimes for them to fully come into activation. And so when we're talking about transmuting darkness to light, you're the one, no one's gonna come around and like Bippity Boppity boo you on your third eye and all of a sudden, boom, all your karma's corrected. No, in fact, the role of the teacher sometimes is to instigate that karma to happen faster for you. And so that you do, and that you have that person that's able to sit there while you're crying on your mats, not coddle you, but tell you like, this is normal. Feel it, breathe in, breathe in it and then keep practicing. This is very normal. And we have these people out there saying, oh, I can activate you. Oh, we see it with the med bed phenomenon. You know, I'll use, let's use like weight gain because that's something that everybody, a lot of people struggle with. So if you're someone that thinks that the med bed is just gonna get you skinny, it's not gonna work. We see this with people in our society, when people go on crash diets, they get really skinny and then they gain the weight back. When somebody is overweight, that's a root chakra imbalance or underweight. But we'll talk about overweight. That's a root chakra imbalance. The food is not what's making you overweight. It's something that's broken within you. And until that wound is healed, I've seen people heal that wound and all of a sudden they lose weight and the weight never comes up. They never get overweight again. Right, so why would the med bed that fix that? It can't, you are your med bed, you're the med bed. I think in the society that we live in with the medical community pushing medications as band-aids and because they're petroleum based and you get an instant change, we expect that instant gratification and healing is not instant. I mean, it can be if our level of awareness is able to understand the quantum field and pull our healthy self into ourselves, because really anything other than love is an illusion. It's a disharmony, it's an imbalance. And if we can see that and understand that, but most of us don't see and understand what the quantum field is, like particle science. A particle exists with all possibilities, but we can only see one at a time. But there have been many cases where there's been instantaneous healing simply because the person is able to see the perfect version of themselves and call that into being in the physical world. And that's really what instantaneous healing is all about. I think another thing too is that spiritual awakening is not a fun process. And I think a lot of us have been delusioned into believing and thinking that when we have a spiritual awakening, everything is going to be beautiful and rosy and sunshine and lollipops and rainbows. And spiritual awakening feels like you're losing your goddamn mind. And it feels like everything is falling apart within you, everything's pulling apart outside of you. And we're taught these instantaneous gratification methods with pharmaceuticals and we wanna escape. We wanna bypass, we wanna go around, we don't wanna feel this stuff because we still have to go to work. We still have to raise our families, we still have to grocery shop, we still have to get gas and all of that stuff. So who's got time for this awful feeling that I have? Dr. Fix Me. So I think that if we can understand and realize what exactly spiritual awakening is, so that when it happens to us and it happens in stages, it's different for different people, but ideally it would happen in stages and have layers peeled off like an onion because rapid spiritual awakening, like you were saying, Bryce, can cause absolute delusion of the mind. Like it is, if your body is not, if your nervous system is not prepared and you have this Kundalini awakening, it is like, it's like you're losing your mind. It's like you're losing your mind. Like it is. There's a book, when we are finished recording, I'll put a link to the books. I have to text and ask what name the book is about a person that had like a Kundalini awakening too soon. And it was not good. And you wrote a whole book on the experience, but you're absolutely right. And I'll give you guys an example. A couple of years ago, actually it was probably around 2017, is when I moved into this place in Midtown. So yes, it was 2017. I was going through this really, really dark night of the soul. Like really, really, as I walked through the valley of the shadow of death type of like for two months straight, I was crying every day. We had moved into this new place. Robbie was a puppy. I was teaching, I was practicing, I was preparing to go back to India, and I would literally be sobbing all day, every day. And I was so depressed. It was probably one of the lowest places of depression I'd ever been in my life, but this is why. I had gotten to a place, you know, when we study the theory of yoga, we're looking at the two, the Prakriti and the Purusha. The Prakriti being the nature, the Shakti, the expression of the soul, and the Purusha being the soul itself. Now, the only thing that really directly connects to Ishvara, our God is the soul, is Purusha. The Prakriti, the nature, God is in the nature, but it's also our created experience. We created this experience for ourselves. And the two rules of Prakriti is anything that has a birth, a life, and a death. And because that first rule, because it has a birth, a life, and a death, that means that it's always shifting and changing. And the Yogasutras tell us that our human condition, our human suffering comes from, because we confuse who we really are. We think who we really are. I think who I really am is Bryce, this flesh and bones, this hair, this life. But this identity will die one day, whether that's tomorrow or 400 or 1,000 years from now with the new 4D Earth, I don't know. But one day this physical form will need to go back to the Earth. So what continues then is Purusha is the soul. Now the soul lives many lives, and through many lives creates many, it's like changing outfits, right? It's like one day you wear a dress, one day you wear shorts and a t-shirt, one life you're in royalty, the next life you're a pauper. You know, it's just changing outfits to have an experience, right? So the soul can have an experience to know itself. Well, what I was going through was that realization of mortality. And we all know we're gonna die one day, that's not a spoiler alert, right? But the realization, the hardcore realization that came through my practice was that when I die, I'm no longer Bryce. So then who am I? And it brought me to a really deep dark place of life and mortality. And at the end of that though, came a sense of liberation. And I remember once I was driving and for a split second, it was like I had this like Pratibab moment where I started laughing because I was like, holy shit, none of this is real. It's kind of like the first time I did shrooms. I had the same realization, like none of this is real. So if it's not real, then why am I taking it so seriously? And then of course I dropped back down into my body and I took it seriously again. And I was reading this morning when I have a quote from a great Indian teacher saying that, the minute you realize not to take life so seriously is when liberation begins. Because this is all, it's all a created hologram. But in that those two months, I went through a deep depression. I was mourning the fact that who I think I am as Bryce is not real. I was mourning that in order to then make way for the new understanding. And then to be able to marry the dance together, being able to stand in my integrity as Bryce in this moment with also the understanding that this is not even really who I am. Does that make sense? Yes. It makes sense. That's a hard dance. It is. Because we are so attached to who we are in this body and we identify as this body that we're in right now. And when you go through a spiritual awakening, part of that is realizing that you are so much more than just this body. We're all projections or fractals or pieces of source consciousness. And this physical being is the filter through which that source consciousness is having a perspective right now. And we have eight billion perspectives of the one infinite creator walking the planet right now. And we chose to forget who we were so that we could have an organic experience as a separate self, even though we are not a separate self. And part of spiritual awakening is realizing that this separate self, like you were saying, Bryce is an illusion. It's not real. It's not real. And we're so attached to this identity and this body that we make it real. And when we start to realize that I'm so much more because we've been in this little box and when we step outside of the box or when the box is opened, it's almost too much. And you have this existential crisis. Like, I mean, it can be scary. It can be scary. But on the other side, like you were saying on the other side, once you can wrap your head around and get comfortable with that idea it's so freeing. It is so freeing. And then you can look at other people and accept them where they are and have compassion and love and just realize that they're a piece of God and they just don't remember it. They're in a delusion. That's what Maya, that's what the yoga set so just called Maya is we're living in delusion about who we are. And that's the other thing that we're talking about past lives last week. That's why it's so important that we keep past lives where they need to be. Yes, the same issue might follow you from life to life to life but that's because that's an issue that your soul still needs to work through and your soul is giving you different experiences with different outfits on to see which outfit is gonna trigger the learning of that experience. If we harp on who we were in the past which we see some people doing then we're still stuck in that delusional thinking of property of Maya. Does that make sense? And it is a very interesting dance. I'm not saying with that being said that you need to be out there and be like, oh, it doesn't matter because I'm not real anyway. No, you still have to act in integrity. That's why a HEMSA is the first law of yoga. It's non-violence. You still have to be able to be truthful and work on yourself and be the best version of this outfit you can be but also knowing that it's not permanent and it's not forever and ashes to ashes. And I know Richard Freeman said that once one of the main jobs of the yoga student is to prepare for death. It's one of the biggest things you're doing in yoga practice is you're preparing for death so that when death comes one day it's just as sacred as birth. You can let go. That's why when I'm in India now I know there are haunted places in India for sure but being down here in the South and growing up in a haunted house and being around a lot of haunted places it's not near as intense in India. And my perspective of this is that in India this is taught in their religion. This is taught in Hinduism. This is taught the idea of reincarnation. And so there's not a lot of hanging on. So I think sometimes when we have hauntings it's people literally trying to hang on to their property instead of- But we also have a large population too of Christians who don't, they're not taught reincarnation at all. So I kind of want to just touch on the whole reincarnation multiple lives. Why some people in my opinion are so stuck on past life stuff. Cause this is a realization that kind of came to me. So when I first awakened, now I was in stages like you said, I mean a lot of times it's in stages. The first stage of it was beginning of 2020. And it was a very slow process of me starting to realize something is just not right in the world. But September, August of 2020, I then kind of snapped a weight to some things and then thought it was literally the apocalypse. So I was doomsday shopping. I actually did go a little delusional. I had a nervous breakdown in the beginning of 2021, a literal nervous breakdown. I was sick physically. I was sick mentally. And everything I knew and my goals in this 3D matrix were starting to collapse. And for the majority, I was actually happy about it because life never felt right to me anyways. But when I started to venture into the reincarnation thing, because I was so programmed to not believe in that stuff, it became a subjective interest. And I became obsessed about it to a certain degree. I'm not a very obsessive person. It was more or less, it's like I found a really, really good book and I couldn't stop reading it, does that make sense? So because I was so, it's like holding your child back and sheltering your child. By the time they turn 18 years old, they might go and just party, party, party, party because they were so held back by really strict parents. Well, it was the same concept. I was so held back by the church that once I came into the realization of this, I just, it was like the major subject of interest. So I did become a little bit like, I wouldn't say delusional, but I could have gotten to that point. And so I look at it now as just information. It's just information. And my biggest thing right now is working on the person I am in this lifetime because it isn't escapism if we are holding onto past life stuff so much that we're not paying attention to what's happening now. And it's like, yeah, you might be like you said, Bryce, you might bring stuff over, but if you're not going to learn it in this lifetime, you're going to have to go back and learn it in the next one. So why wouldn't you want to just learn it now? Yeah. And the thing about now, let's look at reincarnation a little bit. Cause I know there's probably people, a lot of people watching us that grew up Christian and were not taught reincarnation. Now I grew up Christian, but I grew up with a grandmother, my dad's mom who hid books on reincarnation under the bed from my grandfather, even though she played the organ every Sunday morning at church. So I had a grandmother who was very, I think she was probably a very old soul for talking about reincarnation cause she grew up in South Georgia where very, very Christian. So I kind of was already exposed to it. And I started studying it when I was like in my early twenties in school, I started reading a lot of Dr. Weiss's books, Many Minds, Many Masters. And I just thought this is very interesting. And then you realize the Bible does speak about reincarnation. It does. Yeah. Thank you for that. Yeah. Well, let's look at being born in, what is like, cause so we know symbolically that Yahshua the Christ was never literally crucified on a cross because the God of truth, life of sort doesn't do human sacrifice or blood rituals. That's what Lucifer does. But let's look at resurrection in the idea of reincarnation in our lives cause a soul, energy cannot be created or destroyed. It can only be changed and transmuted. And so we have, we live many lives in one lifetime anyway. Think about your life and how many chapters of your life you've lived. So you died to your old self and then you were born again to a new awakening, to your new self. You were resurrected into your new self. You know, I look at those, I mean, I've had many dark nights to the soul. The whole 16 years of doing this practice, most of it has been spent in tears, honestly. It's been spent in tears and physical pain because the physical pain is a representation of the emotional pain when you're going through this, this controlled demolition. But if I look at those like two months where I was really having that mortality crisis, you can see those two months being like in the underworld, right? In the underworld of hell. And then at the end of it, resurrecting again into a new life, a new understanding. It's a new understanding, a new perspective, right? It's not that what you were seeing wasn't always there to begin with. It's just you couldn't see it until you actually course corrected some patterns of thought, you know? And we see that really big. I mean, I've been talking a lot with Angie down here, you've met Angie Stephanie. She's here in the very Southern girl, Southern culture, like my name is a family name. You have this pride, this family pride. And that's who you are. I'm part of the Bryce family. My mom, my name is my mom's maiden name, the Williams Bryce Stadium at the University of South Carolina. My grandmother's cousin is the late Strom Thurman. And the longest running senator who was really bad. That was very family prideful. But that's none of that's real. None of it's real. It's not who I am as a soul. It's not who any of you are as a soul. The outer circumstances, if you read the law of one and you look at a lot of the channelings, it's kind of comical because they tell us that when we sit down up in the heavens, when we're in just our soul form and we're about to come back into another experience, as a soul, we perceive this one life to be really fast. And so we'll sit there and we'll be writing our soul contract and we're gonna try to get all these experiences. You know, like we're loading up ourselves and all these experiences we wanna have in this incarnation, you know, to experience them and grow. And some of our spirit guides and our higher level souls have to step in and be like, no, no, no, this is too much. You can't go through 20 abusive relationships in one lifetime. That's too much. It's kind of comical. They have to like pull us back a little bit because when we get into this earth, we do go through that realm of amnesia. And so we come into this world and we're like, oh shit, oh shit, oh shit, oh shit. All of this is real and it sucks. And how do I get out of this? Well, the way out of it is not to run away. The way out of it is to be able to find that inner peace while being in it. Yeah. Can you find the inner peace while living in the matrix? We don't know when we're gonna flip. None of us do. And it really depends on the collective as a whole from what I understand. So at this point, all of us have to live in that Saturnalian matrix of third density. Can you live? Can you go to your job every day, the one you hate and find peace with being there at the moment? That possible to do that? And true peace is no matter what your circumstances, you're still at peace. Yeah. And I mean, sometimes change is necessary with certain things, but it doesn't mean you have to completely run away from your entire life, hide out in the woods and call it a day so that you can find peace. We still have to do matrix work, cleaning your house and folding the laundry and earning money and all sorts of things. And yeah, a lot of us had to get creative about earning our money and everything like that. I mean, a year ago, I would never think that I was gonna be reading the cards for people because a year ago I was still stuck in religious land. But, and that was another part of my awakening too, was I had, everything I had learned in church was crumbling. I can't tell you how many times I did have cognitive dissonance about especially that, what Jesus' name meant. That was the beginning of my religious awakening. I went to you, Bryce, that's actually what put me on the dark outpost in the first place was my deep diving into what the name Jesus meant in the fact that it did not mean something good at all and that he was not some wonderful person who died for our sins on a cross and everything and realizing no, that I had to fix everything within me. And that was a huge part of my crashing and burning and going through my own hell. I not only lost people around me because I didn't decide to put some sort of chemical in my body if you know where I'm going with that. A lot of people perceived me as literally having a mental breakdown because my whole entire world was crashing and burning. All of my own matrix was crashing and burning and as much as it was liberating at the other end of it it still was held to go through. Yeah. Oh yeah, you're not gonna be able to come out the other side of the spiritual awakening without getting some bumps and bruises and burns along the way. That's part of the awakening is going through hell. Again, the Bhagavad Gita, the whole story of the Bhagavad Gita is, Arjuna is, I've told this before but let's really think about this in metaphor because a lot of the Hindu mythology is metaphor. So Arjuna is standing on a battlefield. He has to go to war. He's got to go slaughter people that are standing across from him that he's loved in his life, his friends, his family, his teachers and he's having this moment of like, oh shit, I don't want to do this. And so Krishna is the avatar that comes to him and Krishna is having a conversation with him. And you would think in spiritual form, Krishna would be like, back away, don't do it but Krishna was like, no, toughen up, Buttercup. You signed up to be a warrior. You pick this, go be a warrior, go do it. And that was the biggest, one of the most enlightening things about the Bhagavad Gita and Krishna also says, this is a big one I got from the Bhagavad Gita too. Love the work for the sake of the work, not for the fruits of your labor. How many of us are trained to go out there and do all this work, all this work to make that money? And we live miserable lives but yeah, we got a bank account full of money. What if, what if we do the work because we love it? What if instead of coming to the mat every day, we don't dread it but we go, you know what? This is going to be hard but I'm going to love every minute of it. I'm going to be present with it. I'm going to feel every sensation. I'm going to understand that my body is simply reacting to my thoughts. That's why I told you, you can do Navasana. Because when I was on the mat yesterday, I'm like, you can do it. You got this. You love every bit of this. No, you don't. Yes, you do. I was like, I love it. You can be in the posture. There's so many postures I have. Most postures I don't love. And I'm like, no, I don't love this posture. I hate this posture but I hate this posture because what it's coming up and being I'm going to sit with that. I'm going to sit in a hatred and I'm going to sit with that sensation because the more my body, the more my mind can sink into whatever energy is being opened in this posture that's not comfortable, the more I can sit with that and experience it and not run from it, the faster it's going to move. And when it starts to move, that's when the layer starts to peel back and I start to go, oh, this is why. This is why I react this way to things because of this right here. She'll be back, guys. She'll be back. She just said that. She's going to take a bathroom break. But yeah, so it's, and that's, and that's, Amy, you were saying the other day that you were doing the Ashton, or the bar and you had something trigger in your body that you hadn't experienced before, correct? Yeah, I don't, I don't, I still don't know what exactly it was but something was released and it just needed to be felt. And the entire day I was just an absolute mess. I was sad, I was angry, I was depressed, I was anxious, and you know, sometimes, sometimes it helps if I can see where it's coming from so that I can heal that thing or work on that thing. But when that thing doesn't show up, I just know that, okay, I just need to move this energy. Everything is energy. These feelings are just energy. I just need to let them flow. I just need to let it flow and let it transmute. And, you know, I can do things to help myself like self-reiki and meditation and being present in the moment. One thing that was really eye-opening yesterday, I did this meditative eating exercise that I was reading about in Ram Das' version of the Bhagavad Gita. Yeah. And I had this completely and totally blissed out experience while eating my salad yesterday for lunch. So what you do, yes, that book right there. I'll put a link to it in the description box, guys. This is one of the most amazing commentaries on the Gita that she's talking about. You can see my copy is very old. In that book, Ram Das explains how you can do this meditative eating exercise. And you completely separate yourself from what you're doing. It's all impersonal. And so you just note what you're doing. Okay, I'm intending to take my arm and scoop a bite of food. So as you're doing that, you say intending, intending. And then you pick up the bite and now you say opening, opening, you open your mouth. And so you're just completely disconnected from what you're doing personally. It's all impersonal. It's just you're just observing and witnessing your actions. And it's amazing because when you take the bite and you notice, okay, now I'm tasting, okay, now I'm chewing and you're just really, really present in the moment observing and focusing on the actions of what you're doing. And for that moment, for those like 10 minutes, I was completely and totally in touch with who I really am. And I was just watching myself do these things. And I was so incredibly grateful. Like I was moved to tears. Yes, A Course in Miracles. I'm studying A Course in Miracles, the Law of One and the Bhagavad Gita all at the same time. And there's so many similarities and correlations and commonalities that it's really, really fulfilling and rich. And this meditative practice that I did yesterday was just, I can't describe it. You just have to do it and experience it for yourself. But when you can be with yourself, who you really are, that peace of God, that essence of Source Consciousness and just observe what you're doing, everything becomes a miracle. Everything becomes miraculous. And I just remember I was sitting there and I had a bite and I was bringing it to my mouth and I just stopped. And I was just completely blissed out. I'm just like, and I was so grateful that, oh my gosh, I get to taste things. I get to eat food. I get to feel feelings. Like when you are pure light, pure consciousness, I don't think we know what that feels like. And then we come into the physical and we forget who we are. And we're feeling these things and experiencing these things like for the first time, but not really, because we just choose to forget so that when we feel them and do them, it is like the first time. And we do that so that we can have an organic experience every time, so that we can actually learn what we wanted to learn. But when you can connect with who you really are, even just for a moment, everything falls away. And you're just completely consumed with this love and this joy and this peace that is, it just transcends all understanding. I mean, it's really emotional. I mean, you can see that I'm getting all teared up. But it is an experience like nothing else. There is no drug on the planet. I've tried a few. There is no medication on the planet. I've had many. There is no love experience. There's no sex. There's no nothing compares to falling in love with who you really are and spending time with who you really are and being able to connect like that. It's just like, it's just mind blowing. And isn't that that's like the crux of all these spiritual teachings is that the past and the future don't exist. The past and the future are thoughts in our head. The past isn't coming back and tomorrow never happens. And most of us live in the past or the future. We're constantly going between the two. But God lives in the now. There was one person who said like, when you die, you die in the now. When you're born, you born in the now. Right now is all that you have. And those exercises that he talks about that I've done that before with just basic stuff I do around the house. Like if I'm in the shower instead of thinking about, because I do struggle with anxiety, which is a future based trauma. If you're looking at that spiritually, it's worried about the future. And I'll be shampooing my hair instead of thinking about things I have to do that day. I stop myself and I say, right now I'm shampooing my hair. Right now I'm filling the suds in my hair. Right now I'm shaving my legs. I'm creating lines. Look, I'm shaving my legs. Right now I'm putting soap on my body. When I'm exercising, I do this a lot in my exercises. Whether it's on a yoga mat or a bar class. Instead of thinking about what's coming next, I bring myself into my body in that moment. Whether it's uncomfortable or not. And I try to pull myself into the sensation of what's moving in my body. And when things come up and that whole idea of just observing, that's huge in yoga too. Because we call parusha the watcher and prakriti the watchable. Or the seer, parusha is the steer, prakriti is the seeable. So parusha, your soul, I explain it to my beginner class a lot like this. This is the best way I know how to explain it. Have you ever had a night where you got really drunk? And there's a part of you that you can sense is observing yourself being drunk. Like you know you're really drunk. There's that part of you that sees that. That's your parusha seeing your life. So if you settle into the parusha is just watching your life unfold. Watching you experience these experiences and have these feelings while it's literally the observer. That's literally all it's doing. The parusha is not invested. And whether it's a good outcome or a bad outcome, even the aspect of good and bad are energies we put into a situation. So if we look at like bad karma, let's say if someone gets mugged, we would see that as bad. But what's happening is someone literally just took a bag from you. That's all the action was. Right? And so it's the emotion we put into these actions that cause the trauma, which then we have to experience and work through. But the parusha is just observing it. It's not involved. And when we can tap into this a good example, even though we know the Bible is pretty corrupt, Paul, when he was going to be executed, is when he wrote the letter to the Corinthians about what love is. So he had a peace in him. And he was going to be executed. So he had found some sense of awakening, which we know that's not the awakening the church tells you it is. It was through the, that's what Yashua and Magdalene taught. They didn't teach you. Yashua and Magdalene didn't teach you that they were going to do it for you. Don't worry, I got it for you. No, they taught you how to do it yourself. They were teachers. They weren't saviors. They were teachers. They were gurus. They were teaching you to transmit your own darkness. And to light, to be accepting as death is just death. Once you get that enlightenment, you view death, the same as you view going to the supermarket. It's just something you're experiencing, you know, and that being in the now, I totally, if you're cooking, now I'm cutting up carrots. Now I'm cutting up carrots. I'm not doing anything but just cutting carrots right now. And it does work. It brings you to this place of really being in your body and really being in it. And you do come to this place of total just observance where you're experiencing your feeling, but you're not invested. You're just experiencing. And that's huge in spirituality. I want to touch on the here and now too because in another perspective, I guess in another way of saying it, you know, when, and I've been a big time with, you know, living too much in the past and then trying to race to my future, right? And I think especially like when we're in our 20s, we do that a lot, you know, if we're in this, in a new relationship with somebody, we'll do that a lot. But we're missing the point if we're not in the now because then we're missing the journey to get to the goal. It's like when I'm doing yoga or bar, my mind, when I used to do exercise, my mind was always focused on the weight loss, always focused on the weight loss. And it was always focused on the goal. However, I was missing the journey of it. Well, why did I get to this point where I gained weight? What, what do I need to work on besides just exercising to get to a weight? What brought me here in the first place? So now my mind is more or less like on the journey rather than the goal. I'm not worried about weight loss when I'm doing my yoga. I'm actually working. I'm worried about getting anything that, you know, has caused me trauma or pain or is blocking my energy to transmute it and to heal and to go into that dark night of the soul even though it's not comfortable. That's what I'm more worried about. The weight is secondary, right? So I think we try to race ourselves to the finish line way too quickly. And we're missing the point when we're so focused on the goal or so focused on the past that we're not really like in the now moment actually focused on the now moment and what we need to work on in the now moment. Does that make sense? Well, I'm being focused solely on the weight loss for social acceptance is, is looking for validation outside of yourself. It's the same thing we do. How many, like I know when I studied a weight, the way down workshop with a Gwen Laura Shamblin Laura, whatever name is a girl who just passed away. I did a lot of research and statistics and the highest level of obesity is found in the fundamentalist church, Christian churches. And it's because people have to eat their emotions because they're taught that no Jesus is doing it for you. You can't possibly do it for yourself. And so then you don't deal with it and you just continue creating karma, creating issues for yourself, right? Well, we finally realized that like, and I was telling you on the phone yesterday, Stephanie, that in the Yoga Sutras, it's potentially tells you that everything you have, everything you need in this world, you already have within you. And it took me many years to figure that out what he was saying. Your healing lies within you. You need a teacher. Yes, of course you need a teacher because this is a very old sacred path we're on. If you just do a free for all of spirituality, it's going to be chaos. Do not go paying someone a shit ton of money without looking at their resume, without asking them what their experience is. My resume on the websites where I teach is really long. My bio is really long. I name all of my teachers. I name all of my teachers in India, not just my Asana teachers, but I named my Sanskrit teacher who he is, what his accreditation is. So you can take those names and Google them and see who these people are. Also, I want to touch base on this really good point. I'm not pointing out any names, but this is something that really perturbed me. There are, there's an individual or multiple that are actually using Bryson, my name, to promote their business saying we recommend them and that is not true. I recommend Emmy because Emmy has actually done work on me. I know she has integrity. I know that she, Emmy, you're very clear about it before you even start the session. You're just the conduit. The client is actually the healer. You're just the conduit and you make that very clear. So I know how Emmy does business. And I've known you actually before you even had a channel. So, you know, I do promote Emmy, but even if I've had somebody on my channel, if I have not promoted their business, I don't know them well enough or they are scam artists. So I want to kind of put that out there because my name was being used and this is not fake. Anyways, I'm not going to go deep into it, but that really upset me when I found that out. I had an email come into me saying something about an individual that I didn't know and I didn't even know she had a business going on. So, and there's no training, nothing. Yeah, you have it. And I'm going to explain this from a yoga perspective. I was telling this to you the other day, Stephanie. And let me just give you an example of how much experience your teacher, your teacher should have. Let's just look at something very basic as at physical stuff because that's how that's in yoga. That's how we start with the awesome and the body is because that's what we can relate to the most. That's we use the illusion to fuel our understanding of the destruction of the illusion. But with that being said, there are different pathways of energy that relate to the energetic body that connects to the soul within the body. So I was telling you, Stephanie, that nobody should be doing handstands until they can drop back, stand up from like in a back bend. They can actually stand up from a back bend and then drop to the floor or and or until they can catch their ankles in a back bend. Why is that? Because doing the handstand is going to clog, clog because of the strength being built. The strength is necessary. But if you can't already catch your ankles in a back bend or stand up, drop back in the back bend, then you've clogged something before you got a chance to open it. This is this is what I'm talking about with a potency. This is why it takes years for people to be able to teach this stuff. I know that as a teacher. I also, because I've been at this for 16 years, ekapatis yasasana, one of the biggest postures that people want to do in Ashton. It's one leg behind the head pose. It's a beautiful posture. When people do it, have been doing it for a really long time. When people first start doing it, they don't look so pretty doing it. But over time, when they open, it's a very beautiful posture. And everyone wants to be able to do it so they can take that beautiful Instagram picture. But when you start pulling someone's leg behind their head, because you have to as a teacher, you have to help them guide them, pull the leg behind their head, you are cranking up that hip opening to the maximum. And so much shit starts to come up for the student. So as a teacher, who's experienced that for years now, I have to be able to stand in the mice room and pull my student's leg behind their head, be able to feel the sensation in their nervous system to understand where I need to release or where I can keep pushing. And I also need to be able to understand their physical reaction emotionally to this posture too. Because if it seems like it too much is happening, then I need to tell them, you know what, we need to wait a couple of months before we revisit this again. Let's work the hips in a different way and then we'll return to this because I need to have that experience myself in my own body to be able to gauge that in somebody else's body and take on that responsibility as a teacher. And that's why it's really important that you look at these resumes and that I know Emmy has had teachers. I know that she has been studying with other people. That's why I recommend Emmy as well. And Emmy, I wanted to point something out. We were talking about this kind of last week before we sign off for the day for today. And this is the concept of the bundas, which you said that you guys don't really talk about this and Reiki, do you? No. Now the bundas are really important in yoga and the asana because they're the energetic walks. And so if we look at the root bunda, which is in the perineum, which is mola bunda. So the root chakra is mola dara. Mola is root. Root bunda is mola bunda. This is a literally like pulling up of the perineum. And so it's like, what's those Kegel exercises women do? It's like that. You're pulling it up. Now it also comes from your big toe. So when I'm in India, they will literally stick their hands in your crotch to feel to make sure your bunda is locked up. I can't. And in India, it's just not weird. It's not weird in India when they do that. It's just very normal. But in America, I can't. I'm not going to do that. So what I look for is the big toe. And so the big toe will press into the big toe, presses up through the inner thigh into mola bunda. So if I see a student's toe is lifted off the floor, I know their mola bunda is not engaged. Now, let's talk about why what could have happened because the reason why I recommend Bar is because when she goes those pelvic tilts, she's actually engaging both mola bunda and Udyana bunda. So there's a lot of people that teach breathing wrong in yoga asana. They tell you to belly breathe. You do not want to belly breathe and when you're doing yoga asana because of Udyana bunda. Udyana bunda is the pulling up of the navel. So it's the pulling the navel into the spine and pulling it up into the solar plexus, which works with mola bunda. So when you're coming into that, you're actually pulling everything up into that stomach. Right? There's a huge power source there. It's catching that Kundalini energy. It's not, we always laugh if you fart in yoga class, you lost your mola bunda. Right? The energy needs to stay in. Yeah? Jaundar, mola bunda is mostly done in a breathing classes where you're pulling in the lock there. But it's also, if you see that the head's tilted, it's allowing the spine to open up, which is Shishumna. So what happens a lot with mola bunda? The reason why I wanted to bring this up today, especially for women. So mola bunda is in the crotch. We have been so shamed by sexuality, bisexual trauma that we have a really hard time accessing mola bunda. It took me years to figure out how to pull up my perinina. Now in sports, they also do bunda work in sports too. They don't call it that though. So if you see gymnasts or dancers and they're able to do a pose really smoothly, we call it floating and yoga. They're very smooth. It's because they have bunda control. That's what's being controlled. And so sometimes what happens is when mola bunda, when you tap into that for the very first time in your body, it will trigger an emotional response, especially if there's trauma in that area. And it could also be trauma from childbirth, from giving birth. That's why women don't practice on their periods. When you're in your period, you don't have mola bunda. It's like a wet paper towel because your body's detoxing. So the mola bunda retracts at that time. When you're giving birth, mola bunda retracts. And if you see, so this is mola bunda all the way up to $1, now your seventh chakra is right at the top of your head. These bundas are what are locking in the energy to stay in that spine and move through up and down through the spine and up and through all the chakras and in through all the values, the pathways that come through the body. So the lock on the bunda is what's igniting that energetic flow. And that's why the bunda work again is so important in yoga asana to get that. Now, usually people who have strong bundas are pretty fit. They have pretty strong cores because they can pull in pretty easily. So it does take time to really, and it's a constant, it's a constant work in progress. It's a constant. There's never a time where your body's like, yes, strong enough. No, no, no. It's always, it's always a work in process and being able to pull Udyana bunda in that, the ribs are coming out to hold that, control that. You know, I think in Pilates, they call it your powerhouse. They're different, they call it different things in different disciplines, but that is, and I wanted to point that out because it's such an important thing that you tapped on anywhere you're like, I don't know what that is. And for a lot of people, it is because you tapped into mola bunda and it tapped into a trauma that could be from this life. Again, it could be something carrying over for a past life. Doesn't matter. The trauma is still there. They're the work to work through. And it's not just women that have trauma. And there are men who have trauma in that area as well. But as women, we're told not to even think about that area. Right? That's a private zone. That's like, we don't talk about that. And then when you start to activate that pulling up through, basically through your vagina as a woman, that's what you're doing, it's giving you power. It's giving your power back. When I had my Muna Ki writes yesterday with my friend Cindy, it was just her and me, I had to go in and see myself pulling up the energy, which was relatively easy for me to do because I spent 16 years on the yoga mat working on my bundas. So it became easy for me to tap into. And so I would highly suggest for anybody that has never heard of the bundas. And in Ashtanga Yoga, we focus more on the bundas than we do on the chakras. Because if you don't have bunda support, you're not going to have chakra support. Does that make sense? Yeah. And you can see the inhale and exhale how it works. So the fact that she's able to hold herself up like that, that's coming from strong bunda or her pulling up into. Does that make sense? So I want to point out, I really wanted to, and that's, okay, that's Udhiana Bunda Kriya, what he's doing. I have a picture on my Instagram of me doing this Udhiana Bunda Kriya. That's a Kriya. So it's not, that's not the extreme, extreme motion you hold in your yoga practice, but that's just a Kriya to do, like a five minute practice to do, to pull the belly up and into the rib cage. This also comes in not just for spiritual stuff, but when we talk about flexibility of body, what we really want is flexibility of organs. If your organs are not flexible, you're screwed. And these Kriyas help get those, those organs to start to come to life again and to become flexible again and that energy, because the organs also represent different fundamental energies as well, like what kiddies are fear, liver is anger. And so if we can actually get the organs to start to move throughout the body and start to detox as well, from the emotions, then we're also working on our spirituality as well. Does that make sense? Yeah. So I'm going to talk as much. I have a chainsaw right in my ear over here. Some guy is cutting down something over here. So if I'm on mute, that's why. That's okay. That's okay. Like out of all the days, you can do this. Out of all the times, you can do this. It's now all we're recording. Thanks. Congratulations. Thank you for the neighbors building next door. But I wanted to also talk about too, just to tackle the bundles too, that's how powerful your Shakti is. Even though the body is just an illusion, it's just an experience, it's still an experience you created for your soul. It's still the expression of the soul. And so when we work with these energetic principles like the bundles, like the chakras, you're that that's correcting the illusion. That's helping you to start to deconstruct the illusion. Does that make sense? That's why we use the body and yoga. A lot of spiritual disciplines will use the illusion, will use it because you can feel it because pain is real to then unwind it. Does that make sense? I hope that makes sense. And that's, we were talking Stephanie like, I won't go to a healer. I won't go at this point. I won't even go to a tarot card reader who isn't doing their own work. How can you heal others when you're helping yourself? And that's the thing, like when I do my class with search, which stuff, wow, I got tongue tied there for a second, which starts on the 29th. I'm actually quite excited about it. We are going to talk about this stuff. I'm not just going to teach cards. No, that'd be super irresponsible of me to go ahead and teach just cards. If people are going to take the cards and actually make a business out of it, they need to know how to do this type of work so that they can channel without going delusional. That's very, very important. So I will be talking a lot about this book and I'm also doing this on my channel. I'm reading this. This is like the best book I have picked up in a long time and it takes me, I don't just freeze through books. I have to be really, really like sucked into a book. This book has got my attention because this is like taking your power back on steroids because it really helps you truly see in a very easy way. When you hear it, it's one thing, but when you're reading it and you've got the visual and you're also bringing in the information, I just feel that we often times can absorb it even better when we are actually reading it. And it's really a bit, I'm only on the root chakra and it's such an eye-opener as to even my own self, why I've reacted to things certain ways, why I've been moody at certain periods of time in my life, why I've had certain behaviors, and instead of feeling like shame about a past thing that I might have done, a decision I did, it's more or less now I understand why. Like I have a major understanding now and now I can go and start to correct these things and start to heal myself instead of relying on Dr. So-and-So down the street or instead of relying on another outside source, instead of relying on a church. I am now taking my power back and I'm, he can stop now, it's like in my ear with chainsaws, but it's like, it's so liberating when you can take everything into your own hands and heal yourself. It really is. And yeah, sometimes you do need that external teacher to hold you accountable. Yeah, you absolutely, 100% you need a teacher. You cannot take this by yourself. It's going to go into chaos and what's going to happen too is the blind spots. So when you start to have those delusions, you're going to then fall into the delusions instead of having a teacher going, hey, no, back on track, back on track, or like you try to talk yourself out of things. Like, oh, my big toe really hurts. I can't do that. And the teacher is going to be like, get on your fucking mat. I mean, I tell my students all the time, I've practiced with a broken sacrum for a long time. I had a broken sacrum and I still got on my mat. I modified a lot. Still got on my mat. I've had a stress fracture on my ankle. I'm pretty sure it's a stress fracture. I know what they feel like. This feels like one. And I've still been practicing five days a week. Now, I get on my mat. I modified that particular ankle when I do the bar class. I don't modify when I do the yoga because it's pretty impossible to kind of do that, but nothing I'm doing is really making it worse. But I still do it. And then I might pull my back out sometimes, but I know my body is trying to heal itself and everything. And I continue to be skilled. I'll level you up one. Are you pulling your back out? Or are your muscles strengthening in your back? And it feels like... Well, that's what I don't think it's... Yeah, I don't think it's actually... But I get that a lot with students because we have these muscles in our spine that go into atrophy when we get older. And when you start to practice, those muscles start to come alive again. And just like when your quads are sore or your biceps are sore, those muscles are going to get sore. And people freak out when it's the back. We've been trained to freak out. And I'm like, no, it's just your muscles waking up. Give it time. It'll stop being sore. But it's the mind trying to make an excuse not to do the work. Even if you do pull your back out. I've got multiple herniated discs, but I don't feel any pain in my back because my core is strong. I'm not going to go to the doctor and deal with that. Well, it's funny you mentioned herniated discs because I have herniated discs upper. So I have cervical herniated discs and I have lumbar herniated discs. So upper and lower spine. And I've noticed since I've done, especially the yoga, not so much the bar, but especially since I've been starting up yoga, they don't affect me anymore. And I don't think about them. And just overall, I've been exercising now, I would say for roughly 10 months now. And what a difference that has made just in my spine alone. All the different pains I used to have. Now I had that diagnosis, that all around diagnosis, fibromyalgia. And I was definitely bed bound sometimes. I couldn't move very well. I would wobble and hobble. Like I couldn't bend my knees at times. I thought I was going to need a chain or a walker at some point. And now I'm so much more mobile than I was then. And it took blood, sweat and tears to get to that point. Yes, it was not the easiest thing in the world. And plus too, I do have a streak of being lazy at times because I'm very kappa in my disposition. So I have to really light a fire under my ass to get motivated to do certain things. And so exercising, once I get the fire lit, and I actually am motivated to do exercise. But in the beginning, getting back into that routine of exercise was not easy. And I would make all excuses in the book not to want to exercise, but I pushed myself and I pushed myself and I started to see the results. And I'm not talking about physical results. I'm talking about emotional results. The physical comes later, but the emotional and spiritual results of it were so amazing and liberating. And yeah, I still have days where I'm crying on a mount. Yesterday I was laughing on the mount. That's the first, but it's all different processes. And then you're going to have times where you might feel weaker than you did last week. And you kind of go into this dip, but you come out of it and it's just your body going through the cycles. And I only have about 10 minutes left before I have to sign out. And I know we didn't get to psychedelics, which we can talk about in the next video. So what we say a lot of times too, if you think about a slingshot, and I see this with students, I see it with myself, right before you have a breakthrough in your body and in your mind, usually your body, you'll pull back a little bit. So the body will feel heavy. The body will feel tired. And that slingshot that pulls back and then all of a sudden you pop forward. And no, 16 years in and I still cry on that. It's there's not, there's not a finish line to this. There's never going to be a finish line. As long as you're in human, that's another trap you got to watch out when people say, oh, once you do this, it's over, you're activated, you're ascended. Even in fourth density positive, we're going to have a whole set of new karmas to work through. How do you think you get to fifth density or sixth density? You got to work through those karmas too. It's a never ending. But just by starting to work on it, you've already started the ball rolling. You've already started it. And it does, again, there is no, next life there'll be more stuff. So there is no knowing that there's no finish line should be a liberation. That if you just taking it as it comes one day at a time once and understand that it's going to be painful, it's going to be uncomfortable, there are going to be tears and there's going to be depression. That's part of it. And yes, you're right. That's one of the most annoying things when people say to me like, like I don't take anybody's excuses as a teacher. I take no one's excuses as to why they- No, she doesn't. I don't- No, she doesn't. Unless you're on your period, unless you're on your period, or you have a fever. Those are the two times or you're giving birth. Those are the three times that you're allowed not to practice. Other than that, What do we tell people who can't find a teacher? I have- There is no one in my area. No one. We're going to be doing our yoga court. Now, I would say go back. I've said this to Stephanie. Okay, so I don't- My courses here in Atlanta that I've done for years always sell out. Like we have waiting lists. I teach one of the most thorough courses. And we're going to be doing it online. Or we're going to reset the date after Mercury retrograde because no one wants to put anything in stone in Mercury retrograde. If you go back and watch my videos, I give a lot of information out in my videos. A lot. That people pay a lot of money to get from me here in Atlanta. I would also highly suggest that people start reading the Yoga Sutras. Start reading Eastern Body, Western Mind. Start reading the Bhagavad Gita. Start reading all of these books we recommend. Follow Ram Das' page on YouTube. Even though Ram Das is no longer living, they've archived all of his lectures. And just start research. There's many. So when I first got deeply into Ashtanga Yoga, I was living here in Atlanta, Georgia. But my teacher, David Garree, who's here in Atlanta this week and that's why I have to leave soon, he's based out of Philadelphia. So I traveled back and forth to Philadelphia. I would go to Philadelphia for the- It's only like a 45 minute flight from Atlanta. I would practice with him for a weekend. He would work with me that week and give me homework. Then I'd come home and practice. I would film my practice to send them to him. I was constantly texting with him. So just because you don't have a teacher that lives in your- That's normal in Ashtanga Yoga because most Ashtanga teachers live in cities. So like if you live outside in somewhere that doesn't have a legitimate teacher, you can still find one. And you have to have that conversation with that teacher. You can't just say, Oh, this person's my teacher. There has to be a conversation. Because a true teacher needs to know they're your teacher, right? I had to have a conversation with David years ago, be like, ask him, will you be my teacher? So therefore he could have the right to yell at me and have the right to hold me accountable. And I still stay to this day with David here this weekend and he's teaching at AOA this weekend. As a guest, he's packed out right now. Everything I learned, I learned from him. It was just reiterated in India because he's such a fantastic teacher. And so that's what you need to do is start from the ground up. Find somebody, research people, take their workshops. If you resonate, first of all, in my opinion, don't waste your money on people that went through a training system or program. Don't waste your money, right? Find somebody that legitimately, and you can tell the difference, that legitimately has an education, legitimately. Studied with Patavi Joyce or BKSI Engard. They literally went to India, literally, and I don't want to hear the whole privilege thing. Trust me, India takes a lot, and not all of us are, a lot of us saved our money to go and gave up our, that's one thing that drives me crazy. I sacrifice a lot to be able to go and spend time in India. That's why I don't have children, right? I sacrifice a lot to be able to do that. So find those people who did that, who dedicated that time. Follow them if you jive with them and then have a conversation with them and say, will you be my teacher? They need to know that and then be expected. If they're your teacher, they're not going to be your friend. They're not going to be, they're not going to be like chummy with you. They're going to hold your foot to the fire. And even though we're friends, Bryce, you taught me a lot. You still hold me. You are not me. You're very hard on me. I'm actually not as hard as some of our stronger teachers. There are some of us stronger teachers that are way harder than me. And with certain things, I'll say something hurts and then you're like, okay, so let's figure this out. Where is that coming from? Like, and you help me brainstorm and figure out and get, but you don't tell me, you guide me. And you don't, you don't even, I can't even use excuses. I was actually on the phone with somebody the other day when we were talking about it. And I said, yeah, she doesn't put up excuses. And I said, I do get angry. I used to get angry. I used to get angry, but that was me breaking through my own shit. Yeah, right? That wasn't, I wasn't necessarily mad at you. You were guiding me to get through and break my own programming and everything like that. And I was coming to these realizations. Like you said, you went through a dark night of the soul. When you started to realize none of this is real, that was happening for me, especially with the religious stuff. And so anyways, if a real teacher is going to hold you accountable, a real teacher is not going to hold your hand and coddle you and, you know, allow you to make all sorts of excuses. So, and they're very, very highly educated and trained. So if I, if every single person quit exercising because something hurt or was uncomfortable, the whole world would be overweight. Yeah. Which might be why the whole world has an imbalance when it comes to that. You're not a pretty little princess of print sitting up on your little mattress, can't get touched by anything. That's not why you came to earth. You came to earth to feel the pain. You came to earth to have these experiences. And if I can get on my mat, it's hard for me to get up in the morning. 16 years later, it's still hard for me to get up and practice. But I do it. I don't, that's what drives me crazy. I'm like, I've literally practiced through a broken sacrum. I've seen people with bloody noses on their mat keep practicing. I've had bruises all over my body from this practice. And I still do it. We have a student at AYA. I think I've talked about him before, Booker. He's, to me, the most advanced student we have at AYA. In AYA, we have a lot of students practicing advanced series A third series. Booker has several palsy. And I know he doesn't mind me talking about this because we talk about Booker all the time. He has several palsy. So that means one of his arms, half of his body doesn't really work. The same as the other half. He was sent to AYA to the Mysore program because the Vinyasa Flow Studios all kicked him out. First of all, we can talk about this next time too. You should not be going to a teacher who not only choreographs the class but does a lead class. That's not traditional. It should be Mysore style where you're working with the teacher individually one-on-one, which we'll talk about more next time. But Booker came in so he could have that one-on-one individual attention. That man will never finish primary series. But he comes into that Mysore room every single day with a smile on his face and works his fucking ass off. He never complains. He sweats. Whenever he's challenged with something, he digs right into it. He can't even lift both of his arms up. He has to take one arm and pull the other one up with it to do a composition. When he does a jump back for Surya Namaskar, he has to come to his fist because one of his arms isn't like the other one. There's modifications that have to be made for him because of the cerebral palsy. If that man can get his ass on the mat every single day and work through it with the obstacles he has, you can sure as hell get on your mat in the morning. And it's great because the students at AYA, they walk in and you can tell they're thinking of excuses as to why they want to skip a certain posture or not do their full practice. They walk in and they look at Booker and they get on their mat. Yeah. It's amazing what people like that, they're just, they're inspirational because they have even more challenges to face. I notice walking into a grocery store, those with like cerebral palsy or any kind of disability, they're the hard workers. And then you got regular people just complaining. What do you have to complain about? Yeah. Look at them. They have so many challenges, but they're doing it. I mean, I have had a bad arthritis, it hasn't been full, I haven't had a flare up in a few years now, but it's nothing compared, my body's relatively healthy compared to, and that's why I say Booker's the most advanced student at AYA. It's not because he has the most advanced practice, it's because he's actually practicing yoga. He's doing it for the right reasons. And he- I could barely hold myself up with the yoga at first or with anything, doing the bar because my wrist hurts so damn bad they felt broken and I kept pushing through and I kept pushing through and it hurt like freaking hell and I just wanted to cry for so bad. And now I can hold myself up. And that's so common. Wrist pain, like when you told me, I was like, oh yeah, that's so common. That's like, I would say probably eight out of 10 people experience that. And what that is is you're not protracting, you're not pushing. And so when you have that wrist pain, any type of pain, that's your body telling you where to pay attention. It's not your body telling you to stop. It's your body telling you, hey, your body's the GPS of your soul. So it's saying, hey, something, you need to pay attention to this. Well, what is this connected to? The hands are the extension of that fourth chakra. It's interesting you said that because I had a little bit of an emotional week. And yesterday when I got on my mat, I noticed for the first time my wrist was starting to hurt again. But I just said, okay, and I related it to the heart because now with my knowledge, I understand that it's an extension of the heart chakra. So I'm like, okay, so what hurt this? That what do I need to work on with this? It's interesting when you start to figure out what is linked to what? And like start to figure out, where everything is connected because then that's where you can really hone in and try to work out. You know what I mean? Yeah. Yeah. I think to do that. I've got to sign off soon because I have to go to the shallow with David. But we have so much more to keep going guys with the next episode. But I would do like 10 hours of this because there's so much to talk about. I mean, it actually does make me mad when people give me lame excuses. Like it really does make me mad because I'm like, that's so disrespectful to come in and say, oh, I can't do this because my wrist hurts. Well, 20 of the other people in this room are also in the same problem. Your wrist hurts because you're not protracting. Okay, let's work on it. It makes me mad because so many people in the world, you're disrespecting all the other people in the world to have the integrity to work through it. And so we have to start thinking about that integrity. And I will leave you before we have to sign off because I have to go. I will leave you something I told Stephanie the other day that Patabi Joyce used to say. Any man can practice yoga. A fat man, a skinny man, an old man, a young man, a healthy man, a sick man. The only man who cannot practice yoga is a lazy man. And in traditional yoga, I'll tell you this in traditional shalas, students do get kicked out for being lazy. It happens all the time. You dismiss a student because they're wasting your time. And so you have to take this serious. And we are in a world, the cabal has set us up into a world where we have to have safe places and you can't but that's not traditional. That's not you need to have your feet held to the fire by someone who's also had their feet held to the fire. Right? You need to have someone that's going to help you see past your blind spots. And it's going to let you experience the dark night of the soul and kind of babysit you through it but not coddle you because by coddling you, you're not going anywhere. They're going to let you have that breakdown and monitor you while you're having it but then also say, okay, it's like one time before I'll let you guys go. When I was up in Philadelphia with David, I was in this busy mice room and there was a girl practicing beside me. I can't remember her name but she was, I could tell, I could just feel that she was having a really tough practice. Like every posture, I could just feel her energy like something was going on. And at one point she just sat on her mat and put her head between her hands and just started crying. And David just kept working in the room. That's what we do when that happens. Someone just, we just let people have their moment. And then after you could tell, she was trying to compose herself. David just came and sat beside her by the mat and was like, you okay now? And she said, yep. And he goes, all right, get back to it. You just sat beside her and said, you got your composure now? All right, get back to it. He just let her have her moment, let it come out. And then she got right back up and started practicing again. And so, you know, anyway, I think we should do like a 10 part series on this work. But yes, guys, again, most important thing, find a teacher, whether your modality is going to be Reiki or yoga or Tai Chi, look at the resume of the teacher. It's okay to question, it's okay to interview a teacher. It's okay to go into the studio or the salon and be like, what's your experience? Who's your teacher? That's the most important question you ask a teacher. You ask me, Bryce, who's your teacher? My teacher is Sharath Joyce of KPJY in Mysore, India. My American teacher is David Green, who is one of the 50 people to be certified by Patabi Joyce of KPJY at Mysore, India. Those are my teachers. They have Wikipedia pages, you can look them up. All right, so that's the most important thing you do is you find someone who has someone they are accountable to. You see what they've studied, ask them what they've studied. When you go to the yoga teacher, ask them, do you speak in Sanskrit in your class? If they say no, don't go to that teacher. Do they ask them if they play music in their class? If they play music in their class, don't go to that teacher. There's these little things that you can look for to help you find the right path. But in that being that said, sometimes we make mistakes with teachers and that's also important to the path we're on too. I've had some shitty teachers before I had David and that was important because I learned what I don't want and it helps me learn the difference between the good and the bad. Okay, so anyway, guys, I have to run because I have to go with David. So anyway, guys, thank you ladies. We'll do this again. Leave us your questions. Let's see if we have any questions in the audience. And next time, let's get to, let's text and figure out a time in a week to film again. Let's get to psychedelics and stuff too. Okay, all right. Love you. Bye. Bye.