 Section 43 of Journal of the Reverend Francis Asbury, Volume 1. This is a LibriVox recording. All LibriVox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer, please visit LibriVox.org. Recording by Brian Keenan. Journal of the Reverend Francis Asbury, Volume 1, Section 43. New Jersey, Wednesday, 14. I met with and heard B. Abbott. His words came with great power. Over in Chester, he informs me, twenty were renewed in love, and eight on this side. The people fall to the ground under him, and sink into a passive state, helpless, stiff, motionless. He tried to attach himself to two other sects, but had such struggles within that he was forced back. The Lord would not let him be anything but a Methodist. Such is his account. He is a man of uncommon zeal, and, although his language has somewhat of incorrectness, of good utterance. Here I find remains the fruit of the labors of that now miserable man, A. Whitworth. How awful the thought that God should own a man and make him a blessing to many souls, and then lay him aside like a broken instrument. Yet so it was because of his sin. May others take warning by his fall. Thursday, 15. I have found the Lord with me in an extraordinary manner ever since I left Delaware. Brother Is tells me there is daily a great turning to God in new places, and that the work of sanctification goes on in our old societies. Tuesday, 20. Road to Penny Hill was much pleased with the simplicity of our old German mother Kay. She says she lived in blindness fifty years, and was at length brought to God by the means of Methodism. She is now rejoicing in the perfect love of God. Her children are coming home to the Lord, while she is preaching in her way to all she comes up with. Friday, March 2. My soul enjoys peace, and I have a little respite from the haste I have been in for some time past. Nevertheless, I have read the first and second volumes of Rollins' ancient history, containing about three hundred pages each, in about two weeks. We may justly admire the policy and the temperance of the Persians. And it is very satisfactory to find a more particular account corroborating the Scripture history of the fulfillment of the prophecies concerning that great man Cyrus, called of God. Pennsylvania, Saturday, 3. Road to Philadelphia where I preached but twice. I met the Society which was made a blessing to some, and I persuaded that my stay would be a means of the prosperity of the Society here. But it is possible I may be more useful where I am going. Tuesday, 6. Read the fourth volume of Rollins' ancient history. It contains the memorable life of Socrates, who was certainly a wise man. But, as the worthy historian remarks, there were many blemishes in his character. Saturday, 10. Road to French Creek, and was kindly entertained by my much respected friends Mrs. G. Grace, and her daughter Mrs. Potts, and her granddaughter Martha Potts, afterward Mrs. Haskins, who lived and have since died in the Lord. Oh, may the unfaigned faith which was in them be also in their children and their grandchildren. Sunday, 11. Preach to a small congregation. One of my hearers seemed desirous I should form an independent church. Wednesday, 14. Road twelve miles into the forest to preach to the remnant of poor DeMores's flock. I, DeMores, as well as S. Howe, died a martyr to labor and loud speaking. They were both disciples of good Mr. Evans. He preached the last day of his life. Afterwards, his people melted away for want of preaching and discipline. We have been sent for, and owned, and blessed among them. I have heard of a great work among the Germans towards Lancaster. Certain opposing sectarians hunt our preachers like partridges upon the mountains. They are trying to stop, but are going, I apprehend, the readiest way to establish us. God will stand by his people. Blessed be his name. My soul is kept in peace. Friday, 16. I preached at the Valley Preaching-House. And here I set my seal to what J. C. had done in expelling a member who had long been troublesome to the society. Monday, 19. A letter from C. B. P. informs me that the work of the Lord prospers endorse it. Glorious news this at which my heart is greatly cheered. Dover, Saturday, 24. I was much let out in speaking of Peter's fall at my favorite place. I am greatly comforted with the good news of Zion's prosperity. Upon a review of my travels I find that, from the first of last May to this present date, I have traveled nearly or quite 4,000 miles. Tuesday, 27. I resolve to spend an hour in enlarged prayer as soon as I rise in the morning. To retire again at 11, at 5, and at 8 o'clock when in my power. Wednesday, 28. My soul is comfortable. I daily find myself greatly humbled. Delaware, Tuesday, April 10. I preach the funeral sermon of J. B., a free mason, a great sinner, and an enemy to the Methodists, persecuting his wife and children for coming to hear them. And sick he sent for the Methodists to pray for him, and promised to come and hear them, if spared. Wednesday, 11. Since I have been here I am greatly kept from the fear of men, and unholy desires to please them. I feel as free in speaking to masters as to their servants. I trust the Lord will humble and save those people. Saturday, 14. Our quarterly meeting began at the Forest Chapel. The congregation was large. I spoke first and was followed by brothers C., R., C., and L. The people were quickened and appeared much alive to God. The next day, being Easter Sunday, our love feast began at 9, and public preaching at 11 o'clock. After meeting we rode about 20 miles to Brother White's, where about 20 preachers met together to hold a conference. Since I attended Kent Quarterly Meeting on the East Shore of Maryland, Maryland, Friday 20. Crossed the Chesapeake and came to Mr. Goff's. Saturday I rode to Baltimore and preached on the Sabbath Day, Tuesday 24. Our conference began in Baltimore, where several of the preachers attended from Virginia and North Carolina. All but one agreed to return to the old plan and give up the administration of the ordinances. Our troubles now seem over from that quarter, and there appears to be a considerable change in the preachers from North to South. All was conducted in peace and love. Monday, 30. I am relieved in mind relative to my visiting Virginia, and my soul is kept in peace, whilst I feel power to trust the Lord with my all. Tuesday, May 1. Rode to my father and Mr. Wesley. Monday, 7. I employed this day in visiting my friends. Tuesday, 8. I was preparing to set off to Virginia, but my horse failed. I hardly know how to proceed. Providence seems dark. I doubt if I can ride on horseback, and yet I am unwilling to give up my visit to the South. Thursday, 10. I set off in the hope that the Lord will bless and keep me for his own cause and glory. Saturday, 12. Reached Mr. Adams' about eight o'clock at night. I always come to this house weary, but generally get my body and soul refreshed. I missed my watch, but found it again at the door where I had alighted. My horse had trodden it and bruised the case, and not broken the crystal without otherwise injuring it. Sunday, 13. Preached at the chapel. Afterward, Harry, a black man, spoke on the barren fig tree. This circumstance was new, and the white people looked on with attention. Thursday, 17. I had uncommon liberty in preaching in the courthouse in Leesburg. I see the need of a preacher's being well acquainted with his Bible, and yet not to think so. The word of God is one grand dispensatory of soul diseases in every case of spiritual malady. I bless the Lord for health and peace. My soul was much drawn after God, and melted in family and private prayer. Virginia, May 21, 1781. I preached in the afternoon at P.H.'s, and had liberty in urging purity of heart. Harry spoke to the Negroes, some of whom came a great distance to hear him. Certain sectarians are greatly displeased with him, because he tells them they may fall from grace, that they must be holy. Tuesday, 22. We set off for Rectortown, being informed it was about twenty-two miles. We found it nearer thirty. I reached there weary and dispirited, about half past two o'clock. I spoke for an hour with great assistance, both loud and clear, to an apparently unconcerned people. I had been kept back by the rain, the waters, etc., so as not to reach John Heights until Saturday evening. Sunday, 27. Had about two hundred people to hear. The society here are not united in love. There is a consequent falling away among them. Monday, 28. I found my heart deeply engaged with God on my way to Jay Heights. Oh, what fellowship have I with God as I ride along. My soul is filled with love, and I witness that the Lord can keep me alive in the day of famine. Tuesday, 29. Felt solemn and much tempted. The Lord help his poor servant from day to day, from hour to hour, and from moment to moment. Alas, what a dearth of religion is here. My God, help us to go on under these difficulties. Here, Brother C was once taken up by Th, a man of property. He lived about one year afterward, and languished out his life. It may be he sinned the sin unto death. But there was hope in his end. He spoke to all around him, exhorting them to repent. Whether he was judicially visited, I know not. But I do not recollect an instance of one preacher that has been thus treated that something distressing has not followed his persecutors. It may not be for the preacher's holiness, but rather the cause of God which the Eternal vindicates. I have had great conflicts of mind for some time past. I believe Satan has been hard at work, and has painted every possible danger he can to my imagination. Thursday, 31. My soul enjoyed peace. I was blessed in reading the 37th Psalm, and was also comforted in reading a few pages of Bishop Hopkins on the words, Count it all joy when ye fall into diverse temptations. Saturday, June 2. Preached at Martinsburg. Afterward returned to Brother Bruce's. He is a lily among the thorns. Sunday, 3. Preached to about 150 serious people, and was blessed in meeting class. Monday, 4. I preached to a few lifeless people at Strouds. I find myself given to God in prayer, and am not peculiarly exercised. Yet my spirits feel depression. Tuesday, 5. Had a rough ride over hills and dales to guests. Here Brother Pigman met me, and gave an agreeable account of the work on the south branch of Potomac. I am kept in peace, and greatly pleased I am to get into the woods where, although alone, I have blessed company, and sometimes think, who's so happy as myself? Wednesday, 6. We had twelve miles to ours along a bushy, hilly road. A poor woman with a little horse, without a saddle, outwent us up and down the hills, and when she came to the place appointed, the Lord met with and blessed her soul. Thursday, 7. I set out for the south branch of Potomac, a country of mountains and natural curiosities. Blessed be God for health and peace. The enemy strives against me, but I look to God from hour to hour. We found some difficulty in crossing Great Capon River. Three men very kindly carried us over in a canoe, and afterward rode our horses over the stream, without fee or reward. About five o'clock we reached W.R.'s. I laid me down to rest on a chest, and using my clothes for covering, slept pretty well. Here I found need of patience. Friday, 8. Not being able to cross the south branch, we had to bear away through the mountains, and to go up one of about two hundred yards elevation. In some places the breaks in the slate served for steps. In other parts of the ascent there were none. We at length reached the place appointed, and preached to about twenty, as I think, prayerless people, on Isaiah 55, 6, 7. I hope some felt the word. Sunday, 10. I preached at eleven o'clock to about two hundred people with a degree of freedom. I then rode to R. Williams's. On my way I had a view of a hanging rock that appears like a castle wall, about three hundred feet high, and looks as if it had been built with square slate stones. At first glance a traveler would be ready to fear it would fall on him. I had about three hundred people, but there were so many wicked whiskey drinkers who brought with them so much of the power of the devil that I had but little satisfaction in preaching. Monday, 11. I rose at five o'clock with a determination to live nearer to God. Here are a few believers groaning for full redemption, but many more are dying through controversy and for the want of urgent exhortation to purity of heart. It is hard for those to preach this doctrine who have not experimentally attained it, or who are not striving with all their hearts to possess it. From Williams's I crossed the south branch and went to Patterson Creek. I came to a Dutch settlement. The people love preaching, but do not understand class meeting, because they are not enough conversant with the English tongue. And we cannot all do as J. Hagerty and H. Weidner who speak both languages. Could we get a Dutch preacher or two to travel with us? I am persuaded we should have a good work among the Dutch. I love these people. They are kind in their way. We have many trials and threatenings, but God is with us. I have lately been reading Fletcher's checks, and they have been greatly blessed to me. However he may be now treated, and his works held in light estimation, ages to come will bless God for his writings, as I have done for those of Baxter and other ancient divines. I am now in a land of valleys and mountains, about ten or fifteen miles from the foot of the Allegheny, a mountain that, at this part of it, is two days' journey across. Thither some of our preachers are going to seek the outcasts of the people. Blessed be God, I am kept in constant peace and love, and am not so subject to dejection as in times past. Sunday 17 My soul enjoyed great peace and family and private prayer. There is much talk about some of our preachers being taken up. I have no fears from that quarter. Monday 18 I was led to wonder at myself when I considered the fatigue I went through, travelling in the rain, sleeping without beds, etc., and in the midst of all I am kept in health. This confirms me in the persuasion that I am about the work I am called to, and the Lord gives me strength according to my day. So let thy work spread, blessed Jesus, and let not thy servants labour in vain. Wednesday 20 We had hard work crossing the Fork Mountain, being sometimes obliged to walk where it was too steep to ride. I was much blessed in speaking to about ninety Dutch folks who appear to feel the word. Here is a spring remarkable for its depth, and the quantity of water it discharges sufficient for a mill within two hundred yards from the source, which sometimes in freshets throws its massive waters considerably above the ordinary level of the surface. It does not appear that I do any great good. Yet I am constantly happy and measurably holy. I bless the Lord for this. Thursday 21 Last evening I rode a mile and a half to see some of the greatest natural curiosities my eyes ever beheld. They were two caves, about two hundred yards from each other. Their entrances were, as in similar cases, narrow and descending, gradually widening towards the interior and opening into lofty chambers, supported to appearance by basaltic pillars. In one of these I sung Still Out of the Deepest Abyss. The sound was wonderful. There were stalactites resembling the pipes of an organ, which, when our old guide, Father Ellsworth, struck with a stick, emitted a melodious sound, with variations according to their size. Walls like our old churches, resemblances to the towers adjoining their bell-freeze, and the natural gallery which we ascended with difficulty. All to me was new, solemn, and awfully grand. There were parts which we did not explore, so deep, so damp, and near night. I came away filled with wonder, with humble praise and adoration. In journeying through this mountainous district I have been greatly blessed, my soul enjoying constant peace. I find a few humble, happy souls in my course. And although present appearances are gloomy, I have no doubt but that there will be a glorious gospel day in this and every other part of America. There are but two men in the society at Lost River able to bear arms. They were both drafted to go into the army. I gave them what comfort I could, and prayed for them. Saturday 30. I got alone into a barn to read and pray. The people here appear unengaged, the preaching of unconditional election, and its usual attendant, anti-nominism, seems to have hardened their hearts. Sunday, July 1. More people attended preaching than I expected. I had some liberty in speaking, but no great fervor. Neither seemed their much effect produced. I retired to read and pray in the woods, the houses being small, and the families large. Friday, 13. Some days past my congregations have not been very large, which is in part owing to the harvest home. I fasted from yesterday noon until four o'clock today, though much tempted I have been blessed. I have kept close today, and have read two hundred pages of Baxter's Saints Rest. Surely this is a most valuable book, a book I should like to read once a quarter. Monday, 16. We set out through the mountains for quarterly meeting. It was a very warm day, and part of our company stopped after thirty miles traveling. Brother William Partridge and myself kept on until night overtook us in the mountain, among rocks and woods, and dangers on all sides surrounding us. We concluded it most safe to secure our horses and quietly await the return of day. So we lay down and slept among the rocks, although much annoyed by the gnats. Next day I met with several preachers with whom I spent some time in conversation about the work of God. At twelve o'clock the people at Perils met, and we all exhorted. Friday, 20. I had some liberty on 2 Corinthians 6, 2. I have been obliged to sleep on the floor every night since I slept in the mountains. Yesterday I rode twenty-seven miles, and today thirty. Saturday, 21. I adore the goodness of God that I am kept in health, and I may wonder at myself that it is thus, when I consider how rough the fare is in this roughest of circuits. I feel thankful to God for sending such plenty for man and beast, and for the fine season to gather it, which, considering how many men are called away to the armies, is a great mercy. Tuesday, 24. I had some leisure for reading my Bible, which I have had little time for of late. I thank the Lord for peace, power, love, and a fervent spirit. Monday, 30. I attended a quarterly meeting at Leesburg. I gave a brief account of the Methodists, who and what they were, and repelled some charges brought against them here. At twelve o'clock, Brother Ellis preached a solid, good sermon on he that hath this hope in him purifyeth himself, as he is pure. Maryland, Tuesday, August 7. Our quarterly meeting began at Charles Penn's, near Seneca. On Wednesday many gave testimony to the goodness of God in the Love Feast. I preached a long sermon to many people assembled in a barn. The weather was very warm and trying to me. But if good is done, all is well. I hear the work of the Lord greatly revives and spreads in Dorset. There is some opposition, but God is with the young preachers, who speak like old men. It appears as if the whole peninsula would be Christianized. Go on, gracious Lord, and let thy word or all prevail. I am kept by the power of God, and filled with comfort under all my trials. Sunday, 12. Was a damp, unwholesome day. At Micah Dorsey's Elkridge I was seized with all the symptoms of an inflammatory sore throat. I bled, took medicine, and applied blisters. But the disease was too violent to yield at once. Very high fever followed, and I suffered more than I can well express. I made use of poultice with better success. The gathering broke, and I found some relief. I praise God that His providence cast my lot among so kind of people. Food, lodging, a physician, Dr. Pugh, and whatever else was necessary, was not withheld. I am sensible, I am not so humble as I should be. And it may be I am in danger of forming improper estimates of my importance among preachers and people. Were this disposition indulged, God might justly cut me off. Monday, 20. I set out on my way in great weakness of body, but I could not be satisfied to be at rest while able to travel. I stopped a while at Dr. Pugh's, and came in the evening to my old friend Thomas Cromwell's. Sunday, 26. I had a warm ride of 15 miles to G's, where I spoke with liberty to the poor, simple-hearted people. My body is weak, but my mind is kept in peace. I desire to trust to God with body and soul. It is now near four years since I was in these parts. In times past, I labored much here. Preached at Fell's Point on Deuteronomy 33, 29, with a good degree of freedom, and in town at half past five o'clock. I trust the people felt, and I hope they will remember it. Spent Wednesday and Thursday in writing. I still find my soul kept in peace, and I daily feel a deeper sense of God and a greater concern for the prosperity of his work. Yet I have no distressing thought about it, being able to trust God with his own cause. End of Section 43, Recording by Brian Keenan Section 44 of Journal of the Reverend Francis Asbury, Volume 1. This is a LibriVox recording. All LibriVox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer, please visit LibriVox.org. Recording by Brian Keenan Journal of the Reverend Francis Asbury, Volume 1, Section 44 Friday, 31 I received a packet of letters from the peninsula by which I learned that the work of God still prospers there, that persecution as a necessary consequence rages with great violence, and that two or three of the preachers are unable to preach through weakness of body. Monday, September 3 I visited the bush chapel. The people here once left us to follow another. Time was when the labors of their leader were made a blessing to them. But pride is a busy sin. He is now no more. Upon the whole I am inclined to think the Lord took him away in judgment, because he was in a way to do hurt to his cause, and that he saved him in mercy, because from his deathbed conversation he appears to have had hope in his end. Wednesday, May 5 I preached to about three hundred people at Deer Creek with a good degree of freedom, and rejoiced to find that my old friends continued faithful. Sunday, May 9 After riding twenty miles I preached at Jones's on the Manor, to about six hundred people, with great liberty. The audience were still and attentive. Mr. Goff spoke after me. Monday, May 10 I learned that the Lord is reviving his work on the eastern shore more or less in every circuit. The wicked persecute and Satan rages endorse it, but God will carry on his own work and maintain his own cause. Tuesday, May 11 My soul enjoys great nearness to God in private and more fervor of spirit than I have known for some years. I also feel a greater care for the circuit preachers and for the work of God in general. I spent part of my time in marking Baxter's cure for church divisions through. I have little leisure for anything but prayer, seldom more than two hours in the day, and that space I wish to spend in retired meditation and prayer. Riding, preaching, class meeting, leaves but little for reading or writing, and not always enough for prayer. Something might be gained could I pour over a book on horseback, as Mr. Wesley does in England, but this our roads forbid. Saturday, 22 Spoke in a barn, a coal place, and coal people. Here I met with T. Stevens, who heard me, and Mr. M. of Stroud in England. His wife was then a member with us. He has rambled until the Lord has also found him out. Pennsylvania, Tuesday, 25 Road to York I was met by Mr. Rankle, who was once a Methodist, but now a German Presbyterian minister. Mr. R. and Mr. Wagner appear as if they wished to be friendly, but they fear us lest we should get the goodwill of the people and we should join them to our societies. Sunday, 30 Under Great Weakness of Body Wednesday, October 3 I began to amend. Kindly and comfortably entertained by Mrs. Grace, an old disciple. First awakened by Mr. Whitefield, afterward convinced by reading Mr. Wesley Sermon on Falling from Grace. And now a fast friend and member of our society. Sunday, 7 Preached at the Valley Preaching House on the Great Salvation to an attentive people with some animation. From thence we rode to Benson's Preaching House where there was a great gathering of people, like a quarterly meeting. It is with difficulty I observe my morning and evening hour of retirement. I am, however, kept in constant peace. Tuesday, 9 I preached at E. Jones's to about a hundred people. Here I met with J. R. S., mischievous and disappointed. Having separated himself, he charges us with casting him off and spares not his secret abuse on conference and preachers. Fallen, deceitful, self-deceiving man, I leave thee to God and thy own conscience. Friday, 12 Came to Philadelphia, found the people serious, loving and lively. The society here appears to be in a better state than they have been in since the British army was here. Sunday, 14 I had some comfortable sensations in speaking on John 3, 14. Our congregations are large, and I hope for a revival of the work amongst us. I heard two good sermons at St. George's. I gave them a plain discourse at night at St. George's on 1 John 1, 8, 9. Tuesday, 16 I enjoy peace, but I soon grow tired of the city. There is a deepening of the work in some souls, but I fear the religion of others evaporates in talk. Thursday, 18 I left the city of Philadelphia. In the evening I visited a German woman in distress for her soul. We spent an hour in prayer, and God set her at liberty. Next day I returned to the city, and on Sabbath day, the twenty-first, we had a love-feast. I attended the Episcopal Church twice. Our own house was crowded. The work of God appeared still to revive amongst us, and I trust the society increases in grace as well as in numbers. Among too many of the citizens, the spirit of politics has, in whole or in part, eaten out the spirit of religion. We have come to a conclusion to print the four volumes of Mr. Wesley Sermons. Thursday, 25 I attended the quarterly meeting at Cloud's Chapel. I found myself sweetly united to preachers and people. James Barton, a public speaker among friends, bore his testimony that God was amongst us. Saturday, 27 My intervals of time are employed in marking Baxter's Cure for Church divisions for abridgment, which may someday see the light. My soul is drawn out to God to know whether I ought to go to Virginia this winter in order, if possible, to prevent the spreading of the fire of division. I do not look for impulses or revelations. The voice of my brethren and concurrent circumstances will determine me in this matter. Harry seems to be unwilling to go with me. I fear his speaking so much to white people in the city has been, or will be, injurious. He has been flattered and may be ruined. Delaware, Wilmington, Sunday, 28 I made an application to a discourse delivered by another. At Newcastle, many attempted the word while I enlarged on Matthew 7.7. Saturday, November 3 We had twelve preachers and about one thousand people at quarterly meeting. This evening our quarterly meeting conference began. We scrutinized and dealt with fidelity one with the other. Nothing would satisfy the preachers but my consenting to go to Virginia. There appear at times to be great movings among the people, but there seems to be a slackness of discipline among the preachers and them. This evil must be cured or the work will be injured. Monday, 12 For some days past I have been engaged in troublesome business. Saturday, 17 I am agitated in my mind. I want to be gone, for I am persuaded my call for the present is to the south. I have often observed, as others doubtless have, who have been similarly circumstanced, that the peace of mind which the preparations for a journey necessarily disturb returns to the traveler on his way. Thursday, 22 I set out for Virginia. My horse gave me the slip, so that I got no farther than Dover by Sunday. Saturday, 1 December I have attended my appointments on the way, and am now as far as my old friend Mr. Robert Thompson's in Bohemia. My mind has been kept in peace ever since I left Brother Whites. I felt the pain of parting with him at Dover. He has the most real affection for me of any man I ever met with. The Lord show kindness to him and his, for all their kindness shown to me. Maryland, Sunday, 2 I preached at R. Thompson's, and in the evening visited his brother E. Thompson, who was very sick. Monday, 3 Crossed the Susquehanna, and came to I.D.'s. Thursday, 6 Came to Baltimore. Here I received letters from Virginia, by which I learned that affairs are not so bad in Virginia as I feared. A few of the local preachers have made some stir, and the traveling preachers have withdrawn from them and their adherence. I spent some time in Baltimore with satisfaction, and could freely stay longer. But there may be danger in these trading towns, and my way south seems to be open. Monday, 17 Set out for Virginia. Virginia, Wednesday, 19 Preached in Leesburg. From thence I traveled and preached through Hanover and Gloucester circuits. I find the spirit of party among some of the people. The local preachers tell them of the ordinances, and they catch at them like fish at a bait. But when they are informed that they will have to give up the traveling preachers, I apprehend they will not be so fond of their new plan. And if I judge right, the last struggle of a yielding party will be made at the approaching conference to be held at the mannequin town. Saturday, 29 Road to Stettums in Gloucester circuit. This man was once famous for racing. He is now a servant of the Lord Jesus Christ. The old man wept when I described the tenderness of a soul when first united to Christ. He was awakened by the instrumentality of Mr. Jarrett. And I am persuaded there have been more souls convinced by his ministry than by that of any other man in Virginia. Tuesday, January 1, 1782 Having preached several times in the neighborhood of the old church to very unfeeling congregations, I rode to Dudley's Ferry in order to cross York River, but was disappointed, the boat being on the opposite side. We returned to the widow's seas, being unwilling to stay at the tavern, and had a congregation of sixty or seventy people. We then rode about five miles to a ferry and passed over immediately. Arrived at the other side, we found the smallpox and camp fever raging, and heard of several poor creatures, white and black, that had died on the road. Ah, we little know what belongs to war, with all its train of evils. Churches converted into hospitals and barracks, houses pillaged or burnt, which last has been the sad fate of the palace at Williamsburg. I met with five or six faithful souls on our fast day, and the Lord was present with us. There is considerable distress amongst our societies, caused by some of the local preachers, who are not satisfied unless they administer the ordinances without order or ordination, and the whole circuit appears to be more or less tinctured with their spirit. Tuesday 8. I rode to Mr. Jarrett's, and found him, as usual, quite friendly. Wednesday 9. I rested with Mr. Jarrett. Thursday 10. Brothers M and F met me at White Oak Chapel, where AC, one of our young preachers, was baptized by Mr. Jarrett. We spent the evening comfortably. I find the party men among our societies grow weak, and I am persuaded this division will cause the sincere, among preachers and people, to cleave closer to doctrine and discipline. It may be the means of purging our societies of those who are corrupt in their principles. Saturday 12. I preached at Captain Smith's. The matter was good, but I had not much liberty in speaking. I feel that talking about anything but the things of God is improper for me, and out of my line. I am not so full and flaming with the love of God as I was some time ago. I feel resolved, through grace, to keep near to God at all times. Oh, how many things are lawful in themselves that yet are not expedient, and damp the pure life of God in the soul. I have these words often in my mind. The children which thou shalt have after thou hast lost the other shall say again in thine ears, the place is too straight for me. Give place to me that I may dwell. Tuesday 15. Preached at Ellis's Chapel to a simple loving people. Wednesday 16. I preached at the Widow Kings. About 18 months ago I preached in this neighborhood, and then thought the people dead with a witness, all except one poor old Englishman. Now there are a few faithful souls. Sunday 20. I preached at the Great Preaching House in Nantimond with uncommon openings in my mind. About 20 months passed I preached here, and was then in hopes of a revival, but evil speaking and other things have prevented. How do unskillful surgeons often put their patience to pain without profit? Tuesday 22. I preached at Brother Moss's, a place the circuit preachers had quitted, because there were no hearers. This good purpose my traveling answers, to get a few to hear me who will not come to hear others. Wednesday 23. At Lane's Chapel I enlarged on 2 Corinthians 7.1, and found it was what the brethren wanted. They are a loving people, and may rank with any of our North Country Methodists. My soul is refreshed, and I bless the Lord for what he has done for this society. My friend W., who was fond of our preaching, and rode 30 miles with me in my last visit here, is gone into quietism, and would not come to hear. How changeable a creature is man. This was a day of fasting and humiliation with me. In describing the filthiness of the flesh, I treated on those sins that are in the flesh, and committed by the members of the body. The filthiness of the spirit, those sins to which devils are subject, such as pride, envy, self-will, bitterness, etc. To cleanse ourselves from these, every mean of self-denial and spiritual mortification is necessary. It must be sought by faith, and expected as a present salvation. Thursday 24. God is with me, and has all my heart. I am not sensible of anything contrary to humble, thankful, constant love to God. Pitying love to poor sinners, and melting sympathetic love for the dear ministers and people of God wherever I meet them. I found great fellowship with the pious family of Davis, especially with Henry Davis, who I trust is an Israelite indeed, in whom there is no God. I had about fifty hearers at blank, among whom were some high Calvinists. Mr. M. took my text to preach from the grace of God that bringeth salvation hath appeared unto all men. Friday 25. I had a comfortable meeting with my old friends at R. Jones's, and trust the word was felt among the people. Saturday 26. I had a large congregation at Richardson's, where the Lord has lately been at work. I met a class and found many earnest seekers of salvation. The poor mourners came again at night, to whom I applied Hezekiah's experience, at which all appeared deeply affected. They wept, talked together, and seemed loath to leave the place. Sunday 27. I had a large solemn congregation at Maybury's Chapel. I trust the work revives in the souls of these people. I lodged with my old friend I, Maybury, who gave me the following account of the death of his daughter, F. Maybury, who for some years past appeared to live the life of faith. In August last she was taken ill. When at the point of death the Lord cut short his work in her soul, cleansing her heart. She testified what God had done for her with great power, her language surprising all who were present. She appeared to be kept alive one whole day, almost miraculously. Her father said he thought the power of God was so strongly upon her that she could not die. Tuesday 29. I rode to Roses Creek. This is the coldest day I have yet felt in Virginia. Mr. Blank, who had lately lost his wife, desired me to preach in his house, which I did to about fifty people. I spent the evening with F. G. N. and E. M. N. at T. Reverses. Wednesday 30. I saw Brother E. Dromgoole. He is very weak in body, but steady to old methodism. I feel a great desire that he may travel again. Thursday 31. I preached at Walsy's Barn on Where is the Blessedness ye spake of? From thence rode to O. Myricks. North Carolina, Friday, February 1. Brother S. Yeorgan gave me an account of a light his former wife saw, whist at prayer one day, and a little thicket below the house. She said the light shone all around her, above the brightness of the sun. This remarkable circumstance she had resolved not to communicate, even to her husband. On more mature reflection, however, she thought it most proper to tell him. He observed to her, perhaps ye will die soon. Are ye willing? Yes, was her reply. But at the same time expressed her fears of a long illness, which said she will burden the family. Within two weeks from this she died. She was my kind nurse the last time I was in Virginia. And she is the third woman of my former kind friends that I have heard of, who has died in the Lord during my absence. Plus it be the Lord for the great things he has done. After preaching to a few small congregations, on Thursday 7, I rode 16 miles and preached to a large assemblage of people at I.T.'s on the Great Salvation. Though I am often in haste and straightened for want of time, I have gone through Mr. Wesley's third volume once, and am going through it again. I make it a rule to spend an hour, morning and evening in meditation, and in prayer for all the circuits, societies, and preachers. I expect to see the work of God revive in these parts, so soon as the spirit of disputation is cast out. Blessed be God, I enjoy good health of body and peace of mind. I find no preaching does good, but that which properly presses the use of the means and urges holiness apart. At these points I am determined to keep close to in all my sermons. Virginia, Saturday night. We rode 25 miles up Maharan, and missing our way did not reach the place until three o'clock. The people in meantime had waited for us, and I spoke to them on Luke 19.10. I trust not in vain. In this country I have to lodge half my nights in lofts, where light may be seen through a hundred places. And it may be the cold wind at the same time blowing through as many. But through mercy I am kept from murmuring, and bear it with thankfulness, expecting earlong to have better entertainment, a heavenly and eternal rest. Monday, 11. I rode to Jay Martin's Briary Creek, and preached to nearly 100 people from Acts 26, 18. After preaching I had some conversation with Mr. M. Roberts, who was formerly a clergyman of the Episcopal Church, but he is now set out on an independent plan. Although he has his peculiarities, I admire his candor as a Christian. His plan may fail, and his zeal may cool, if indeed that is not already observable. Mr. M. charged Mr. Wesley with inconsistency in some things, and disapproved of his sending what preachers he thought fit to any place or people. I observed in reply that Mr. Wesley did nothing without consulting the preachers, that he was no spiritual tyrant. Mr. M. took care to let me know that he did not believe that anyone could finally fall from grace. I felt great love to the man, and was pained that we had to agree to disagree. Tuesday, 12. We rode to Solid Robert Martin's on Appomattox River. Brother Martin appears to be a man of piety, a professor of sanctification. He informed me of the remarkable conversion of Captain Wood, an officer of the Continental Line. He was taken at the capture of Charlestown by the British. Obtaining a parole, he returned home to Prince Edward. Here it was that he was convinced of sin. While laboring under deep distress of soul, he made frequent attempts to destroy himself, and would suffer no one to come near him but Brother M. At length the Lord set him at liberty, and he is now a serious man, and appears to be much devoted to God. Wednesday, 13. I preached at S. Jones's, and was much let out on Romans 13, 11. I enjoy peace from morning to night. Was it only for what I feel that I traveled and preached, my labors to myself would not be lost, but I shall do good. God will not suffer the word he gives me to fall to the ground. It will be blessed to preachers and people. Bless the Lord, O my soul, and all that is within me, for ever and ever. Saturday and Sunday, 16, 17. Preached at Colonel Bedford's in Charlotte County. Many appeared to be quickened and restored to the grace of God. Monday, 18. Preached with pleasure and delight at Mr. Almond's on the Almost Christian. While Brother Ellis was exhorting, the congregation was alarmed with the cry of fire, which had kindled in a house adjoining. Willing hearts and ready hands sufficed to save the furniture and almost every article of value from the destructive flames. At the house that first took fire and the dwelling house, with the connecting piazza, were consumed. We left this scene of awful solemnity and alarm, and rode to Brother Crowders for our dinners, which we needed, having ridden 25 miles since we took any refreshment. Tuesday, 19. I preached to a mixed multitude with great comfort on Colossians 1, 27, 28, and hoped the people will remember it. I praised the Lord for uninterrupted communion with him. End of Section 44, Recording by Brian Keenan. Section 45 of Journal of the Reverend Francis Asbury, Volume 1. This is a LibriVox recording. All LibriVox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer, please visit LibriVox.org. Recording by Brian Keenan. Journal of the Reverend Francis Asbury, Volume 1, Section 45. North Carolina, Wednesday, 20. I crossed the Dan and Stanton Rivers and came to C.S., poor and worthy people. The woman professes sanctification, and the man appears to be much given up to God. I had uncommon enlargement of spirit in speaking on Mark 11, 24. Thursday, 21. I am filled with love from day to day. O bless the Lord for the constant communion I enjoy with him. Sanctification is the doctrine which is most wanted to be preached among the people here, whom the more I know, the more I love. Antinomians are laboring to spread their tenets among them, but they will give way, as holiness of heart and life is pointedly enforced and pressed home upon their consciences. This is the best antidote to the poison. Sunday, 24. I always find the Lord present when I go to the throne of grace. O that the Lord may keep me from moment to moment. I received a letter from J.W., a faithful youth, that bids fair to make a great man of God, and a useful preacher of the gospel. I began to fear I should have no one to travel with me, and pilot me in this strange land, when providentially Brother J.C. met me. I find my greatest trials to arise from taking thought. It is by this Satan tries to come in. It is my constitutional weakness to be gloomy and ejected. The work of God puts life into me. And why despond? The land is before us, and nothing can hurt us but divisions among ourselves. Virginia I preached the funeral sermon of Philip Adams, one of our preachers. He died last March. This duty I performed the more cheerfully believing that such would have been his choice had I been within reach at the time of his death. My subject was 1 Kings 13, 30. P.A. was a man of grace, and his gifts increased. He was steady and closely attached to the doctrine and discipline of the Methodists. He died happy in the Lord, and I doubt not but that he has gone where the wicked cease from troubling, and the weary are at rest. North Carolina Sunday, March 3 I preached the funeral sermon of Mrs. Harrison, the wife of T. Harrison, on Dan River. Although there was snow on the ground, many people attended, to whom I spoke on 1 Corinthians 15, 57, 58. Mr. H. appears to be deeply distressed at the loss of his wife. I hope it will terminate in a concern for his own soul. He offered me a large reward for my services. Money is not my object. I have great affection for C. Kennan, one of the most sensible Calvinists in these parts. He acknowledges he found his religion among the Methodists. His system he borrowed from Witzias. Fletcher has cured him of the disease of disputation. He reads him with delight, even while he is prostrating the pillars against which he leans. Tuesday, 5 I enjoy great peace, my soul resteth in God from day to day, and from moment to moment. Saturday, 9 I have had hard work, but the Lord supports me, and daily keeps me in his love. This bears up my spirit under all the usage and fatigues I undergo. Notice is taken here of a preacher's words and actions. We must therefore be cautious, and not lay a stumbling block before the weak. It is my duty to labor for God and souls without a complaining word. Tuesday, 12 I have been much tried this day, two various ways. I feel myself greatly humbled. This morning I poured out my soul to God in the granary, and was refreshed in my spirit. When we came to New Hope Creek, we could not forward it, so I crossed on a log. Hitherto the Lord has helped me. I would not live always. Neither would of choice know what is before me. Sunday, 17 I preached with great liberty to a solemn, attentive people. I met society, and the people spoke freely. I am willing to travel and preach as long as I live, and I hope I shall not live long after I am unable to travel. I obtained the promise of brothers P. Bruce and O'Kelly to join heartily in our connection. I feel much let out in spirit for the preachers who are to meet in conference, that we may all be united together in love and peace, and firm resolves to carry on the work which God hath called us to. Sunday, 24 At Kimbrough I preached to a large congregation, but I am afraid the word preached will not profit them. I spoke warmly for about an hour, there came on a rain, and the people appeared to be more afraid of their saddles being wet than their souls being lost. Wednesday, 27 I preached to about one hundred people at the Tabernacle on Deuteronomy 33, 29 I trust there is more of the life of God here now than when I was here last. Thursday, 28 I felt much this day from the coldness of the weather, but no matter. Brother Ogbird met me again. I am generally blessed with the preachers. When one leaves me, another meets me, and my soul enjoys God as a satisfying portion. Sunday, April 7 I preached at Roanoke Chapel on I have somewhat against thee, because thou hast left thy first love, et cetera. It may be for the last time. I hasted on to preach a funeral sermon at Brother John Seward's at the interment of a young woman who had been a member of our society about five years. She died suddenly, and I trust rests from her labors. Friday, 12 I preached at the Widow FS on Work out your own salvation with fear and trembling. We rode to Jay Keese's to be ready for quarterly meeting, to be held next day at White Oak Chapel. Saturday, 13 We met Mr. Jarrett, but he had such a cold he refused to preach. I spoke on to children thou shalt have after thou hast lost thy others, et cetera. We had a love feast at four o'clock in the evening. It was truly a gracious season. Many spoke freely and feelingly of the goodness of God. Sunday, 14 I preached at the Chapel, and we then went to church. I read the lessons of Mr. Jarrett, who preached a great sermon on union and love from the 123rd Psalm. We received the sacrament, and afterward went home with Mr. Jarrett, that we might accompany him to our conference. I have been much tried inwardly and outwardly. I have been deeply and solemnly engaged in public, in families, and more especially in private, for a blessing on the people, and for union and strength among the preachers at our approaching conference. Tuesday, 16 We set out, and on the next day, 17, reached Ellis's at whose house we held a conference. The people flocked together for preaching. Mr. Jarrett gave us a profitable discourse on the 14th chapter of Hosea. In the evening the preachers met in conference, as there had been much distress felt by those of them of Virginia, relative to the administration of the ordinances, I proposed to such as were so disposed to enter into a written agreement to cleave to the old plan, in which we had been so greatly blessed, that we might have the greater confidence in each other, and know on whom to depend. This instrument was signed by the greater part of the preachers without hesitation. Next morning I preached on Philippians 2, 1-5. I had liberty, and had pleased God to set it home. One of the preachers, James Haw, who had his difficulties, was delivered from the mall. And with the exception of one, all the signatures of the preachers present were obtained. We received seven interconnection, and four remained on trial. At noon Mr. Jarrett spoke on the union of the attributes. Friday, 19 We amicably settled our business and closed our conference. Mr. Jarrett preached on, a man shall be as a hiding place from the wind, and a covert from the tempest, etc. We had a love-feast, the power of God was manifested in a most extraordinary manner. Preachers and people wept, believed, loved, and obeyed. Saturday, 20 We rode upwards of thirty miles to Captain Smith's without eating or drinking. Sunday, 21 Held quarterly meeting at Boiseau's Chapel. The glory is strangely departed here. I preach with liberty on, they that sow in tears shall reap in joy. From thence I hasted to Mr. Jarrett's barn, where the people were waiting, to whom I enlarged on James 4, 7-10. Mr. Jarrett seemed all life, and determined to spend himself in the work of God, and visit what circuits he could. I am persuaded the separation of some from our original plan about the ordinance's will, upon the whole, have a tendency to unite the body together, and to make preachers and people abide wherein they are called. I feel abundant cause to praise God for what he has done. Monday, 22 I rode thirty miles to Brother Finney's in Emilia without any refreshment. I have constant peace, and my soul enjoys more calm than here to fore. Some pain indeed was felt imparted with my Virginia brethren, as though I had left something valuable behind me. Thursday, 25 I rode forty-three miles in order to reach Fluvana Circuit, and next day preached at the Broken Bax Church. Tuesday, 30 I rode to Dr. Hopkins's, and preached with liberty from Psalm 145, 17-19. I hope our meeting was not in vain. Lord, preach thy word by thy holy spirit. Let me not travel and spend my strength for naught, and thine shall be the glory. Lord's Day, May 5 I preached with freedom on the parable of the sower at Brother H. Fry's in Culpeper County. He professeth sanctification. I find many of the people and some of the local preachers quite warm about the ordinances, on which subject there is much disputation. Blessed be God, in the midst of it all I have quiet and patience, and hope shortly to get into a more peaceable climb. My face is to the north. Friday, 10 I preached at Culpeper Courthouse. The people were serious and attentive. Here I heard the good news that Britain had acknowledged the independence for which America has been contending. May it be so. The Lord does what to him seemeth good. Wednesday, 15 Our quarterly meeting began in Fairfax Circuit. I preached with but little consolation to my own soul. Next day there was some move in the love-feast. One sinner brought under conviction, and one backslider reclaimed. Friday, 17 I set out with Brother G., who has given up his separating plan. The Lord has conquered him, and I hope that all who are worthy will return. Maryland, Monday, 20 A few of us began conference in Baltimore. Next day we had a full meeting. The preachers all signed the agreement proposed at the Virginia conference, and there was a unanimous resolve to adhere to the old Methodist plan. We spent most of the day in examining the preachers. We had regular daily preaching. Monday, Brother Ellis preached. On Tuesday, I spoke on 1 Timothy 4, 12. Wednesday, 22 We had many things before us. Our printing plan was suspended for the present for want of funds. Friday, 24 Was set apart for fasting and prayer. We had a love-feast, the Lord was present, and all was well. The preachers in general were satisfied. I found myself burdened with labors and cares. We have now 59 traveling preachers, and 11,785 in society. Our young men are serious, and their gifts are enlarged. Saturday, 25 Road to Brother Lynch's to get quiet and rest after so much haste and bustle and business. I want to be retired to answer my letters. I feel a great necessity of being more than ever given up to God. I hope he will yet do great things for us this year. Saturday, June 1 I spent a considerable part of this week at Mr. Goff's in answering letters, in reading and retirement. I now return to Baltimore under a deep sense of the goodness of God. Monday, 3 Set out for Calvert, preached on the way at West River. I spoke to about 100 poor people whom I exhorted to seek that they might find. After dinner I retired and sat down on a log beside the water for nearly two hours, and had sweet communion with God. It is not the place nor the posture of the body that constitutes the real worshiper. Yet at proper times at convenient places it is good to kneel before the Lord our maker. We came to Herring Bay and thence went to a place formerly called Hell Corner, and thus named because of the desperate wickedness of the people. Yet even here hath God brought many poor souls to the knowledge of himself. Thursday, 6 Rows at four o'clock and spent an hour in private. Road through the heat 16 miles to Child's Barn. Where I spoke on 2 Corinthians 4, 16. And where God has already wrought on the hearts of many, bringing them to the knowledge of the truth. Friday, 7 We have a pleasant rain after great heat and drought, for which we have caused to praise God. Saturday, 8 There was an extraordinary hail near this place a few days ago. Sunday, 9 Rows in peace. My soul is solidly given up to God, although I am sorely tempted. Friday, 14 I had many of the rich to hear, to whom I spoke on John 7, 17. In the course of my preaching I was led to strike at Deism. I learned afterward that Dr. Blank, a professed deist, was present. I love these poor people, and I believe some of them love me. I hope the time to favor them will yet come. Virginia, Saturday, 22 I preached at Leesburg, and again on Sunday afternoon. I fear too little purpose. God be merciful to these people. I must now retire. My morning and evening hour is as my daily bread. Wednesday, 26 Road to Essays under the Blue Ridge. Neither the place comfortable nor the people lively. I believe but few of the hearers understood me. I've read the lives of Mr. Gilpin and Mr. Latimer, and took good heed of the life of Mr. B. I admire their spirit, writing, and speaking. There is something in them all so methodistical. I find it difficult to get time, strength, and place for retirement. Nevertheless, I do not neglect it. From Essays we cross the ridge to Heights, where we rested and were comforted. We crossed the mountain at the gap, near my bed where I slept last summer, and riding up the North River made our journey near twenty miles. When we came there, we found that the people had gone to bury our old friend Ess, so that we had seven miles farther to go. Arriving, we found them handing about their stink-pots of mulled whiskey. We have not unfrequently to lodge in the same room with the family, the houses having but the one room, so that necessity compels us to seek retirement in the woods. This, with the nightly disagreeables of bugs to annoy us, shows the necessity of crying to the Lord for patience. In the midst of all, I thank God, I enjoy peace of mind. Oh, how many thousands of poor souls have we to seek out in the wilds of America, who are but one removed from the Indians in the comforts of civilized society, and considering that they have the Bible in their hands, comparatively worse in their morals than the savages themselves. The want of religion among them arises, I apprehend, from the badness of their own hearts, and from their hearing corrupt doctrines. Saturday, July 6. We crossed the Great Mountain, and being obliged to walk down its opposite side, I was much fatigued. Arriving at the widow George's, I preached on, my spirit shall not always strive with man. I had been sorely tried in body and mind. I now spoke with delight. Sunday, July 7. In recrossing the mountain on my way to Mill Creek, I was obliged to walk up and down its sides, and was greatly tired. I delivered a short discourse with pleasure to about three hundred people. Afterward, Brother Hagerty spoke to them. It rained before and after preaching, but held up while we worshipped by the side of the stream, for want of a house. After preaching, we rode to the branch, making a Sabbath day's journey of nearly forty miles. Monday, 8. I am sick and weary. Ah, how few are there who would not choose strangling rather than life and the labors we undergo, and the hardships and privations we are compelled to submit to. Blessed be God, we have hope beyond the grave. Thursday, 11. At Patterson Creek, I struck at the root of anti-nominism, while speaking at Jones's. Certain sectarians were not well pleased at this. Once in Christ and always safe. This is a favorite morsel to some. Friday, 12. Road to the north branch crossed the Nobly Mountain. At its foot we stopped, ate a little bread, drank fine water, prayed, and then went forward to Cresceps. I was pretty plain on Isaiah 55, 6, 7. Here Colonel Barrett met me and conducted me two miles up the Allegheny. We were riding until near ten o'clock, the road was dreary, and the night was dark. I wanted rest and found it. We had nearly two hundred people to hear in this newly settled country. They were attentive, and I hope God will do something for them. After preaching on John 7, 17, we set out on our return. I was much fatigued, and it rained hard. My poor horse, too, was so weak from the want of proper food that he fell down with me twice. This hurt my feelings exceedingly, more than any circumstance I met with in all my journey. Sunday, 14. It was rainy, however it cleared away time enough to get to Williams's on the south branch. Brother Hagrid he preached an excellent discourse on he would have all men to be saved and come to the knowledge of the truth. After which I spoke about forty minutes on Proverbs 1, 23-25. I am not so pious as I want to be. I pray much, but I do not watch and pray enough. In the course of the labors of the day, I purpose to do it more. Since Thursday, we have ridden sixty miles along incredibly bad roads, and our fare was not excellent. Oh, what pay would induce a man to go through wet and dry, and fatigue and suffering, as we do. Souls are our hire. Tuesday, 16. We proceeded along to Great and Little Capon, over rough and stony roads. Wednesday, 17. We went on through devious roads and arrived at guesses. Here I set on a scheme to prevent my horse from falling lame, that had yesterday lost a shoe. It was to bind round his foot a piece of the neck of a bull's hide. My contrivance answered the purpose well. Thursday, 18. I preached at Stephen Harlins under the spreading trees on David's charge to Solomon. Thence rode on to Boydstones, where we stayed one day, which afforded us the first leisure time since Monday morning we have had to sit down and write. I am at times greatly concerned that there are no visible movings and instantaneous conversions among the people. Saturday, 20. Preached at Shepherdstown to about two hundred people. From thence crossing the Potomac came to Woods. Maryland, Sunday, 21. I preached to a large congregation of poor sinners who appeared hard and ignorant. We went forward to Fredericktown, where I arrived much fatigued and unwell. Yet I preached in the courthouse at six o'clock on Luke, 19, 41, 42. Saturday, 27. Being unwell, I declined going to Baltimore and went to Perry Hall, where I found my dear friend, Thomas White. On the Sabbath day we read prayers in the family and I preached in the afternoon on 2 Chronicles 32, 24, 25. Monday, 29. Closely employed and answering letters from various parts. I find it hard to keep the power of religion, yet I feel that my soul is stayed upon God. I want to be moving on. If I rest a few days I am tried. Blessed be God, who thus embitters inactive quiescence to me. I am impelled forward by my desires of comfort for myself and sincere wishes to be useful to the church and to the world of sinners. Thursday, August 1. Preached at the Fork preaching house to about one hundred people. Pennsylvania, Monday, 12. Goed to Little York and dined with Mr. Otterbein and Mr. Magner. I had many hearers in the German schoolhouse. This is a day which I ought to remember with gratitude. I borrowed a young mare, and as I rode along with my hands in my pockets she blundered and fell. In the scuffle I had thoughts of throwing myself off, but did not. After some time she recovered and I praised the Lord who had preserved me in such imminent danger. Monday, 19. I see God will work among meninists, dunkers, Presbyterians, Lutherans, Episcopalians, Dutch, English, no matter. The cause belongs to God. Sunday, 25. Rowed ten miles to Benson's preaching house where there were I suppose nearly four hundred hearers collected. After preaching here at ten o'clock I rode six miles farther and preached to about five hundred people at the Valley preaching house. Tuesday, 27. After preaching to a small congregation of unengaged hearers we rode to Philadelphia. What a noisy, disagreeable place. Oh, for something of that simplicity which dwelt among the dwellers' intents. But the souls of the people are precious. End of section 45, recording by Brian Keenan. Section 46 of Journal of the Reverend Francis Asbury, volume 1. This is a LibriVox recording. All LibriVox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer, please visit LibriVox.org. Recording by Brian Keenan. Journal of the Reverend Francis Asbury, volume 1. Section 46. Sunday, September 1. We had a solemn melting season at the Love Feast in the morning, most of the society present. We afterward went to St. Paul's, her discernment preached by Mr. McGaw and received the sacrament. Monday, 2. Met the leaders and stewards to look into the temporal affairs of the society. After dinner we rode to Burlington, 19 miles, and preached on, My spirit shall not always strive with man. Jersey, Tuesday, 3. Road to Trenton, the town in a great bustle with the court and the French troops. My subject was the Syrophoenician woman. The congregation was large and serious. Ah, poor gospel-hardened Trenton, but a few have been converted of late. Thursday, 5. I spoke with plainness to a multitude of people at Egbert's. Some probably came to see us taken up by the magistracy. At night a drunken man applied to have his wife's name blotted from the class paper. Anon came two more to demand our passes. We were threatened with desperate work and an attack on the road. We saw neither harm nor them. In Germantown there came a gentleman of the committee and examined our passes. He treated us with great politeness and told us what the law required. Brother Tunnell's pass was pronounced valid, but mine was not, because I had not the signatures of the proper authorities in the counties through which I had traveled. I pleaded ignorance of the necessity of this. Here appeared to be the secret. The mob had been after Brother Everett with clubs, and it was supposed under the connivance of their superiors. They found, however, that he was qualified according to law. The work of God prospers, and, it is possible, this is the real cause of offense to unfriendly ministers. Saturday, 7. Rested from public labors and spent some time in reading and writing. Sunday, 8. Preached to a very gay congregation consisting of four or five hundred people. There appears to be a prospect of good among them. The priests of all denominations, Dutch and English, appear to be much alarmed at our success. Some oppose openly, others more secretly. The Episcopal ministers are the most quiet, and some of these are friendly. Saturday, 14. I came to New Mills after preaching at H's and Penny Hill. I passed through Monmouth and upper and lower Freehold. Here lived that old saint of God, William Tennant, who went to his reward a few years ago. Pennsylvania, Monday, 16. After preaching at Mount Holly to a crowded congregation, I rode very unwell and under deep exercises of mind to Philadelphia, twenty miles. I have preached seventeen times and ridden above two hundred miles in the last two weeks. I think God will do great things in the jerseys. The prospect is pleasing, east and west. Saturday, 21. I received two letters from Virginia which gave me great consolation. The divisions there are much abated. The work revives. The preachers are in health and well received. Sunday, 22. After preaching on the Christian graces, I visited Mr. M.W., who opened himself to me I went to St. Paul's and, to my great surprise, incomes my old friend Barton. He was brought up a churchman and was awakened without human means. Observing that ministers and members in that church were dead and careless, and finding some living testimonies among friends, he was induced to join them and thus adhered for twenty years, becoming a public speaker among them. He is now jealous for the Lord's ordinances. He says he could never fully give them up and must now come to the Methodists. Monday, 23. I began begging for the society that we might, if possible, relieve our preaching house from the incomparance of ground rent. I soon got about two hundred seventy pounds subscribed. Tuesday, 24. I think the Pennsylvanians are, in general, as ignorant of real religion as any people I have been amongst. When the power is lost or cherished, the downright ignorance of the heathen who have only heard of Christ is the necessary consequence. Delaware, Saturday, 28. Preached in thoroughfare neck, twenty miles, and then returned to Wyatt's and preached with liberty. Thence I hastened on to Dover and at six o'clock delivered my third discourse, making a journey of forty miles. We know not what we can do until we try. I preached in Wyatt's new chapel for the first time. It is one of the neatest country chapels the Methodists have on the whole continent. My subject was Haggai II, 9. In this place will I give peace. Tuesday, 22. I have had large congregations in several counties of the states of Delaware and Maryland, and have been humbled before the Lord that so many people should come to hear such a poor worm as I am. If any good has been done by my poor labors, to God the Lord be all the glory. I am this day endorsed at circuit and have preached for the first time to about three hundred hearers. Saturday, 26. Quarterly meeting at Thomas Avery's. The first day had about five hundred people, though rainy, and I had life and light and liberty in speaking to them. Lord's Day, 27. We met at seven o'clock. People spoke with great life and simplicity. At noon it was supposed there were not less than twelve hundred people to whom I spoke with divine aid from the latter part of the eighth chapter of Mark's Gospel. I attended quarterly meeting at Barrett's Chapel. I was greatly afflicted in mind. I could not accomplish my plan to send preachers to the backwoods where they are greatly wanting. I have been counseled not to leave the peninsula. This advice I shall not follow. Saturday, November 16. I have been employed in making large extracts from Baxter and Burroughs on church divisions. I think every minister and Christian ought to read these works. Monday, December 2. My soul is kept in constant peace and shall make her boast in the Lord under all her trials. Virginia, Sunday, 8. Preached to a wild heart and people at the old church in King and Queen County. In the evening spoke at Stedmans. My spirit has been clothed in sackcloth since my coming into this state. My hopes begin to revive. Wednesday, November 11. I wrote to Williamsburg formerly the seat of government but now removed to Richmond. Thus the worldly glory is departed from it. As to divine glory it never had any. I preached in James City Courthouse. The place has suffered and is suffering. The palace, the barracks and some good dwelling houses burnt. The capital is no great building and is going to ruin. The exterior of the college not splendid and but few students. The Bedlam House is desolate, but whether because none are insane or all are equally mad it might perhaps be difficult to tell. Sunday, 22. We had a solemn time at the great living house in Nansamund County. Tuesday, 24. I rode through Suffolk. Alas for these Oliverian times most of the houses here except the church are destroyed or more or less injured. New Year's Day, 1783. I have passed through Gates, Hartford, Bertie and Northampton Counties in North Carolina. I am now in Southampton County and this day preached in St. Paul's. Monday, 6. After preaching at H.C.'s we rode 20 miles to Greaves's where I met with Mr. Jarrett. On Tuesday he preached for me at R. Jones's. I exhorted. The meeting was lively. Tuesday, 14. Wolsey's Barn Cold Day Cold House There has been preaching here for seven years past yet the society declines. Friday, 24. At Brother Holmes's in Mecklenburg County. My soul mourns for the deadness of the people in our old circuits. We have great calls to South Carolina and Georgia. Monday, 27. I preached and the people seemed attentive. At present there is a good prospect of success. Saturday, 1 February Our quarterly meeting began in Mecklenburg circuit. I hope God will favor us and revive his work here. Sunday, 2. I was very unwell. Brother Blank held a love-feast. At noon I was much let out on Mark 8, 4. I am quite dissipated with company and greatly desire retirement. Tuesday, 4. I offended some at Colonel Bedford's. They could not bear the thoughts of a possibility of falling from grace. Friday, 7. Being unable to reach the quarterly meeting at Henleys, I consented to preach at Brother Crowders. God is my hope and my help at all times. My soul is kept in peace and, oh, that I could yet sink deeper into God from day to day. Sunday, 9. Rose with a sense of the divine presence. I am greatly blessed in reading the latter part of Jeremiah's Lamentations and Ezekiel's Prophecy. I discover how the prophets who spoke in different ages and places of the kingdom of God accord in sentiment and language. So it is now with the preachers of the gospel. I had great comfort in preaching at noon, and so I always have after severe trials. Monday, 10. Being disappointed in crossing Roanoke on Saturday, we tried again this morning, and getting into Pennsylvania Circuit after riding about forty miles reached Brother Martins. I felt weary of what I have done for months past. Thursday, 13. Road twenty-five miles, but my horse failing, bad fare, and no fodder for him, we did not get in until two o'clock. The people, however, had waited. I was much let out in speaking, although very unwell from fasting, walking, and the exercise of my mind. North Carolina Monday, 17. We proceeded to the Yadkin Circuit. It is well we are on this side, the Dan River. The late rains might else have prevented our going on for a season. On our route, we passed through Salem, a Moravian town, well built after the German Manor. Everyone appeared to be in business. We lodged at Mr. Thompson's, a settler on the Moravian lands, which is a tract of sixteen miles square. Neither was the cabin comfortable or our host pleasing. Sunday, March 18. Came to Shorts, and preached to a number of people who appeared solemn, while I enforced, my spirit shall not always strive with man. We rode on to Elles, lodged in a cabin, but the bed was clean. Monday, 3. Cold as it was, we rode from Guilford to Caswell County, a distance of twenty miles, and met with a considerable congregation among whom were a few warm-hearted people. I hope the Lord will work here. Here was a cabin with one room, a barn and stables. I have little time to write or place to read. The barn is my closet for prayer. Friday, 7. I had a large congregation at Hillsborough, and there was more attention and solemnity observable than formerly. I visited three young men who are to die shortly. They wept while I talked and prayed with them, and I said, I will go to the church. It was once an elegant building, and still makes a good appearance at a distance, but within it is in ruins. The calamities and destructive waste of war have been severely felt in these parts. Tuesday, 11. Preached at Wims's to about thirty people, one or two faithful souls among them. The son of Mr. Wims has been cured of a confirmed drop-see supper to keep his remedy secret. Would it be a wonder if God should render it unsuccessful, or that some judicial dispensation should light on those who will not make generally known a discovery so useful? Oh, what a distressed people have they been in these parts during the Lake Contest. To the Fightings Without were added all the horrors of a civil war within. Poor brother P.T. was twice robbed and escaped with his life. Saturday, 15. Preached to some Calvinistic professors and sinners. The people are very careless, and professors are unfaithful. What have I suffered on account of these things? Road twenty-eight miles to H's. Oh, how this family is changed for the worse. Black and white now wicked. We got our horses and took our leave about an hour by son, and came to sister Kembrows where we found a family we were wonderfully directed along a road I had never but once before trod. Here my soul is blessed. My burden is gone. Saturday, 22. I preached to a poor, unfeeling people, at a place the circuit preachers had left. We were fortunate enough to eat about eleven o'clock. We got nothing more until about that hour next day. We pushed on to get to M's, arrived there at eight o'clock at night. No fodder, no supper, no prayer. Next morning we started at sunrise, and with difficulty getting over the river, came to Winstead's about ten o'clock. Here we breakfasted. Sunday, 23. I have peace. I was close and fervent in speaking at the Widow Tees. Hard times, we can scarcely get food for man or beast. Wednesday, 26. I spoke at G Hills to a proud and prayerless people, many of whom were backsliders. Friday, 28. By getting my feet damp I have taken cold, and have had a return of my old complaint, an inflammation in my mouth and throat. I could not eat flesh and have little else to eat. Saturday, 29. My throat growing worse I was bled in the arm and tongue, which gave me some relief. Monday, 31. Preached at tees and peas with some fervency, the work revives. While I am unable to praise God for health and peace, I lament that I am too apt to catch the spirit of the people I am among. I want to be more habitually serious. Saturday, 5. I heard the news that peace was confirmed between England and America. I had various exercises of mind on the occasion. It may cause great changes to take place amongst us, some for the better and some for the worse. It may make against the work of God. Our preachers will be far more likely to settle in the world, and our people, by getting into trade and acquiring wealth, may drink into its spirit. Believing the report to be true, I took some notice of it while I treated on Acts 10, 36, at Brother Clayton's, near Halifax, where they were firing their cannons and rejoicing in on the occasion. This day I prevailed with Brother Dickens to go to New York, where I expect him to be far more useful than in his present station. Virginia, Thursday, 17. Quarterly meeting at White Oak Chapel. Next day, Good Friday, Mr. Jarrett preached and administered the sacrament. After I had preached on Peter 3, 18, I, Cromwell, speak very pointedly at seas and apostates. He came with great assurance to the door, as if he had a mind to say or do something. But I, C, called him Factor for the Devil, full of all subtlety, and maintained his ground. Monday, 21. Set out for Buckingham to visit some who have been separated from us on account of ordinances, and my spirit was refreshed among them. Preached at Brother B's to a kind and tender people. Brother A, of this neighborhood, had a child of ten years of age that found the Lord in a gust of thunder and lightning, and straight way preached to all the family. At the same time, a poor backslider was cut to the heart. He thought himself to be dying, and cried out against the doctrine of not falling from grace as the means of his fall, and warned those about him of those destructive principles. After long rides through Fluvana and Orange Circuits, I came to Petersburg on Monday, 15 May, and the next day to Ellis's chapel. Wednesday, 7. Our conference began at this place. Some young laborers were taken in to assist in spreading the gospel, which greatly prospers in the north. We all agreed in the spirit of African liberty, and strong testimonies were born in its favor in our love feast. Our affairs were conducted in love. From Petersburg I proceeded northward. Thursday, 22. I enlarged on the 14th chapter of Hosea at Adams's church, and feared the subject was nearly descriptive of the state of the people. Maryland. On my way to Baltimore I dined at Colonel Dorsey's. Here I gave an exhortation. After reading the burial service over a child, I proceeded on to Baltimore. Sunday, 25. Preached at town and point, and was assisted to be searching. Tuesday, 27. We began our conference with what preachers were present. On Wednesday we had a full assembly which lasted until Friday. We had a love feast and parted in peace. Monday, 2 June. Preached at Cromwell's on my way to Calvert. Thence rode on through dust and heat to W's. I found my old friends tender. Here was a young woman in deep distress of mind, occasioned by the flight of a whipper-will close to her, which strangely led her to fear her end was nigh. Road to Mrs. Henelises, a few poor people and negroes, and the minister Mr. Gates from Annapolis attended. I was as close as I could well be. Mr. G. and myself had some talk on religion. He is a polite man. I went alone to the silent woods, and my soul was much melted in prayer, and treating the Lord to go with me and preserve me through all my weary journeys. I had the pleasure of receiving a letter with a sermon from Mr. Ogden, a man of piety, who I trust will be of great service to the Methodist societies and the cause of God in general. Friday, 6. I rode to Childes was close and pointed. Poor sea was very kind. I admire the piety, prudence, and good sense of the Mrs. Childes. Since they have experienced religion, none of the great will employ them. Their patrons, alarmed at the deep and gracious impressions apparent on the young minds of some of the scholars, withdraw their children at once. Sunday, 8. I have been well exercised, although I am not so weary as I expected. I have preached three times, and the weather is very warm. I believe the more we do, the more we shall be enabled for God and for our souls. I visited Sister R. Y., sick of the putrid fever. I prayed with her and trusted God with my safety from infection. I went to I. Worthingtons, but I beheld such cruelty to a negro that I could not feel free to stay. I called for my horse, delivered my own soul, and departed. Sunday, 15. Road to Bennett's Chapel, a pretty octagon house with lots of logs. There was an insensible but attentive people. I hoped the time to favour them will come. I had a comfortable time at I. Wilson's. They were kind beyond measure. I visited the old gentleman hoping he had done with disputation. The subject of slavery being introduced, he acknowledged the wrong done the blacks by taking them from their own country, but defended the right of holding them. Our talk had well nigh occasioned at I. W. W. W. W. After preaching at Shepherd's Town I rode to Boyd's Town and rested one day. Saturday, 21. Preached to a few people in Winchester. For several days passed I have had to ride the whole day and to preach without eating until five or six o'clock in the evening except a little biscuit. This is hard work for man and horse. This, however, is not the worst. Religion is greatly wanting in these parts. The inhabitants are much divided, made up as they are of different nations and speaking different languages. They agree in scarcely anything excepted be to sin against God. July, 13. Preached at I. Heights at 10 at W. H.'s at 12 and at W.'s at four o'clock. All these were funeral discourses. Rachel S. Y. was a professor of religion. She dreamed that within three weeks she should die of the smallpox. She thought she heard something strike on the top of the house like the nailing up of a coffin. She took it as a warning, went to prayer, was exceedingly happy, sickened and died triumphantly. Friday, 25. The weather has been uncommonly warm. I felt weak yet spoke closely to a few people. Thence I rode to Pops, where I fell sick, and became unfit for service. I went alone into the fields and poured out my soul to God. End of section 46, recording by Brian Keenan.