 Hello everybody, welcome back to esoteric Atlanta. Of course today I'm joined with my friends Stephanie from spiritual perspectives of our great awakening who's also one of the sponsors or participating Channelers of this challenge and if she freezes up guys, she's in a hotel. So we all know what that's like So good thing I have the gift of the gap because I just keep talking and she freezes So but before we get into what Stephanie's got going on I'm just going to quickly go ahead and show you guys day 17 of the challenge because we are Getting towards the end of the challenge. We're over the halfway hump. Of course, um, Thursday today You're kind of coming off of a crazy day yesterday where you were going through the Kwan Yen stuff the day before yesterday getting in our Yesterday getting into the Kwan Yen stuff to really start to work through childhood trauma today. You're kind of Recovering from that the 17th. You've got again the bar or the half primary series with ashtanga nurse the all meditation And of course today if you feel very overwhelmed from the work you did yesterday Please make sure to take a little extra time to maybe do some sample healing as well And journal more about the feelings that are coming up So for friday november 18th coming up your halfway point You didn't come this far to only come this far start making your bed up If you uh, if you were doing let your last meal between be between 5 and 7 p.m We've been speaking about that a lot why that is give your digestive system at least tweet 12 hours to rest And then today you can do kickboxing again or half primary series with ashtanga nurse all meditation food journal And then today for friday, you're going to be journaling our tomorrow for friday You're going to be journaling about betrayal. This is another big one So a couple of days ago you went through childhood trauma Now you're going to be journaling and looking at what betrayal is what is betrayal Can you think back to one time in your life where you were betrayed who betrayed you what happened? How did it affect you going forward? Do you still hold resentment anger or hurt over the betrayal? Where have you betrayed yourself? That's a big one in your journal write a letter to the person who betrayed you then in that letter Tell that person you forgive him or her take a moment to close your eyes Take a deep breath and then let the breath go and this letter tell the person that you wish the best for him Or her if you wish to tell them that you let them go go ahead and do so It is up to you if you want to keep him or her in your life The most important thing is for you to to work on you is forgiving that person who hurts you This is not for them But for you in the last few days have been emotionally challenging. That's okay shadow work is not easy Take a moment to add extra to add any extra thoughts you're having Have you've been more emotional? Have you felt anger coming up if you felt anger coming up don't fight it let it come up The most important thing to note though is that you do not project an anger onto anyone else If you need to grab a pillow and go sit in your car and scream into a pillow you can If you decide to do this exercise Please journal about the experience and then of course you have the option for the friday night oil bath leading into your saturday Rest day, which we'll get into Tomorrow and so now let's hand the mic over to Stephanie who's got a lot of stuff going on so tell us what's going on Stephanie Hey Hey, hey um So I posted a video yesterday on some new stuff that is going on on my My website for services so as of The 12th of november So the interesting number on that is it's literally 111 222 I was certified in reiki Um wanting on too so I am now considered uh to be a practitioner in the reiki healing And so I am in the works of adding that to my services on my website I'm still my website is still under construction as I'm putting in the basic reiki which was Because I want to do an initial with you know new people that I'm doing reiki on which is like a 90 minute um where I'm going over questions with that person and You know I need to there's there's certain things it's almost like going to a doctor's appointment But I'm not a doctor but it's it's kind of similar in the concept is there's there's going to be questions I have for that person Um, so I'm just going to go over some of the new stuff that I'm offering Good news is my 30 and 60 minute basic card readings are open as of january So you can go check that out if you're interested you um I need to adjust the days ahead of time that you can book because it only allows me to have people book like Defaulted it's 60 days, but I can change that so I got to go back in oops did I I froze sorry um So I'm going to share screen here all right, so I'm uh working on my 30 minute reiki session. So that's just going to be basic reiki um, I have my shadow work readings that will So right now I'm I'm booking people through signal through the signal group until the end of the year After january, I'm still keeping the 25 off prices For when you Bryce you do the next part of the challenge, which will be january correct? Yep, so I'm going to keep those in here. So in order to do shadow work reading you do have to be part of the challenge um, I also have a couples tarot reading that was inspired by a friend of mine Um that um, actually I just did their reading today Which is really cute. So I want to be very very Careful how I word this this reading is for those who have strong bonds with their spouses or significant other If you're an abusive relationship, this is not a reading for you. That's a one-on-one reading I'm not going to deal with A narcissist In an empath all in the same zoomie So you would want to meet with me one-on-one. So this is more or less For soulmates and stuff like that that just need a little bit of clarity And it's really going to pull up childhood wounds to help strengthen the relationship if that makes sense at all No, can I ask it's kind of like a shadow work reading Can I like if we look at couples tarot card reading Could it be like siblings that do it together too or friends that want to do a reading together Does it have to be exclusively romantically involved people? Yes, because it's it's it's actually a shadow work reading Okay for specific couples Because it's bringing up the inner childhood stuff where it's bringing a lot of You know when couples can be really really close with one another Yeah, but Sometimes that the inner Childhood wounds really can affect the relationship if they're not healed Yeah, it's sometimes like in yoga we have blind spots where we can't see Maybe what that is so that's specifically to strengthen relationship through intuitive reading through it's a shadow work reading Just for couples in other words, okay I have reiki for animals And what that will entail is I will meet with the for babies owner or mom or dad I don't like to say owner because it sounds like an enslavement of the animal But I will meet with The animals Family or mom or dad whoever On zoom we're going to discuss what's going on with them It could be a horse. It could be a dog. It could be a cat could be a bird doesn't really matter could be a freaking dinosaur Okay, it could be an elephant whatever animals an animal And then we'll discuss things and then I will set a time period when I will administer the reiki healing for animals Animals take reiki really really quickly. So it doesn't really take that long Um, I'm also doing a seven chakra terror read reiki package. This is like the big kahuna. This is a 90 minute session Where it's literally one chakra at a time. I'm doing the Reiki plus I'm doing the card reading on that particular chakra And I'm going to do a before and after reading on each chakra to see what Spirit guides want to bring through, you know, what is in the root chakra? Is there any kind of trauma that specifically needs to be shown to the person, right? Like for instance, even in the pineal gland, let's say someone's intuitive, but they're not doing the shadow work It might very very well come up like this person You need to be very careful not to be delusional because you're not doing the inner work. So Again, that's kind of like that's kind of like a shadow work read as well But with reiki um in it and I kind of consider myself a shadow work reader anyways So even if you come to me for a basic reading I talk a lot about shadow work stuff regardless Yeah Then we have initial reiki healing. That's a 90 minute session Just because I will need to go through questions with the person and everything before I go through the reiki I still have my courses um potions I just have I have like six more spots left and if anybody wants to sign up um beginners medicinal herbal magic workshop. Um, I have Actually, hold on. I'm gonna get my dates out here. Can you hear me? Okay? Am I? Am I I'm freezing a lot You're freezing, but it's fine. Okay only last for a couple seconds. So okay so My next tarot course People can sign up for this. Um for the 7th of january I have put um more courses up, but they're not available for booking yet Um, but the next one will be running from the 7th of january to to the 28th of january. Those are saturdays I made it a little bit easier for people to attend that if you are on a monday through friday work schedule um, it's going to be the two hours per um per day for the course So a total of eight hours will be for um that course. Okay now um in here If I do have people who need to go on a payment plan All you got to do is mail.com and I won't work Whether it's you you froze. So say that again say that email address again 50 or something great You're freezing her away Yep Can you hold on? Waking up. Yeah, so we missed the email address. So what she's saying guys is is you can have people hold on If people need to go on a payment plan She can put you on a payment plan. You just have to email her at Yeah You just have to ask And I'll Send me the email Stephanie and I'll put it in the description box below And can I ask so can I ask you a question too? Uh, Stephanie? So what if somebody's watching us right now and they're and they're thinking gosh One of these readings or these courses would be a really great christmas present For my girlfriend or my kid or my Can they can someone book for you? Will you give them like a gift card or something to like join? Yep, so if that's the case what they want to do is they actually would probably want to um Book the course and then I'm trying to think of the best way to do this because So Can you hear me? Okay. Yeah, you just cut out there for a second. So say that So if so so again what we're saying guys if you want to so let's say Your girlfriend is like super. So if um Yeah, so someone is interested I would email me for a gift certificate. Um Trying to think there's no way I can do gift certificates on this website Unless I literally set up gift certificate, but I can set up gift certificates on apple apple pay so On apple square And am I still freezing? Yeah, that's okay because I'm considering offering that you know for the next yoga course that's going to start in january And all I'm going to do is if someone wants to purchase a yoga course for their loved one They'll just email me and I'll just send them a piece of paper with all the information to give their loved one So it's super easy guys because Stephanie and I are both small businesses So we're not going through any type of corporation or anything like that if you want to buy Uh, let's say your girlfriend is really interested in tarot cards And so you think a great christmas present would be to buy her a spot In Stephanie's tarot card reading course for beginners You just email Stephanie and you can work it out between the two of you so that she can send you something So that your girlfriend has something to oh to unwrap on christmas day. Um Let's see guys. Sorry. There's internet issues Happening now we got two sevenies Oh, I signed off on the other one tonight. It's still up on my screen. I don't know you guys like Hold on I'm chaos of everything I don't know why it's still up because I'm I'm like it's off now. It's off now Okay, clear. This is better. So what I was saying guys. So yes, Stephanie I don't know if you heard that Stephanie and I are both small businesses We're not corporations So if you want to purchase of your girlfriend's really into tarot cards and you think oh my god This would be a great christmas present to buy her a spot in Stephanie's course Just email Stephanie and you can work it out with her and she can send you something a print out of something So your girlfriend has something to unwrap to see it now. Say your email address against Stephanie now that you're on a different different device So great awakening like the great awakening And tarot so great awakening tarot at email.com and I'll put that in the description box too as well guys. Yeah Yeah, what's something that's something you've learned on this journey, right Stephanie that in the spiritual world We're always working with people, aren't we? too Yeah, we're always working with people when it comes to paying for courses and all that kind of stuff So don't ever I want to express that too. I know I've got a few people my yoga course who are on payment plans Totally fine. That's totally fine. You know, you don't have to be a millionaire To take these courses. We will work with you. Um all people will And I think you've learned that too because you're so used to the corporate corporate world, right Stephanie or the medical world Where it's so like cold almost, right? Yeah, yeah, so I yeah, I've had to ask for help for doing courses before actually recently so Yeah Here to death to even ask but I I did it. I had no choice. So there's no way um So it's it's definitely a different world when you're working with People that are not in the corporate world that they want they want to help more than it's about the money. So Yeah, I'm I mean, obviously I need to pay my bills that so that's why I Charge as much as I do I have to pay my bills and it's the exchange of the energy But at the same time I want people to also realize that I enjoy doing this and I enjoy teaching these courses And if people are benefiting from them that makes my heart happy so um Yeah, it's it's not just about getting a paycheck. It's it's really about I have passion in what I do and To share that passion with others and help them and guide them through um Is also part of it too Yeah, and I'm going to reiterate that because I know for me in the 16 years that I've been in the yoga world It's like you'll see on reddit and all these places to piss me off Where people think that like yoga teachers should be offering their services for free Well, let me just reiterate this because yes, um, we love what we do. I love what I do I love it However, I still have to pay the rent and pay for electricity and pay for food And so if we did it for free We wouldn't be able to do it because we would have to go get another job And that would not give us the energy to do it. And so the prices that are are it's literally to keep a roof over It's an exchange of energy but with that being said With that being said we're always willing to work with people because it really is about I have to pay my teachers in india And people miss misunderstand. They say, oh, you know christmas charia. He didn't charge some of his students The students he didn't charge lived with him and had to be his servant They had to clean his house. They had to go to the grocery store and grow shopping for him They had to do his laundry. So there was an exchange of energy Absolutely. So even though some of his students weren't paying in money. They were paying in their labor So they're absolutely. I mean, I I have to pay my teacher in india. So it is an exchange of energy Unfortunately, that's the world we live in where we're in the we're in the nature I hope one day we go back to more bartering We're a more in a barter system. Anyway, I see that anyways, I mean, I can't tell you how many times I've bartered with people with with readings. Yeah, you know, I've done that before Um for reiki healings and such so I mean, that's also a great way to do things. Um, but yeah, it's like I have a ton of bills. I gotta pay so You know, it's it's those things where I don't It in the beginning it was like, well, how can I be creative to earn some sort of money rather than go back to the medical field Where I'm absolutely miserable. At least I love what I do now. I'm passionate about what I do It's not for me. You know, I mean, yes, it's work. It's it's what I do for work But there's a passion behind it. It's not I'm enjoying the work. You know, it's not I'm not miserable. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah, that's I I'm the same way You know, I have we have our emmy. Well, emmy is going to be doing the reiki portion of our yoga course coming up on Sunday And I'm so excited because I'm a hard teacher. Stephanie knows I'm a hard teacher Don't even get me started on that guys But I'm also I also I know I'm a really good teacher and my here in Atlanta my court and I'm not saying that I don't want to sound arrogant saying that's I just know that's what I'm supposed to be doing as part of my dharma because I understand it and um and and I and and for females too I will say this to you Stephanie for for females I find this that females have to be a little bit tougher than males sometimes because the traditional yoga world is a very male dominated world And so um in order to be almost taken seriously, you have to kind of prove yourself even more as a female and and that's okay You know, it's I'm the only female at this point authorized in the state of george to do this that came through Sweat when I say sweat blood and tears now that you're in the ashtanga practice Am I being serious Stephanie when I say sweat blood and tears I have bruises all over me. I have scratches all over me from being adjusted and doing the practice I've never had so many bruises on me. Um Yeah A lot and I I just don't cry a lot whatever that's from You cut out there for a second step. So you cut out after you said I have bruises all over me so As far as crying goes I can't even begin to tell you how much you cry You're purging I have cried and I have cried and I have cried and I am tired And I am beat up It's exhausting. It's because everything's coming out and you're being literally put through I always often see it's like putting yourself in like the washing machine You know the washing machine like shakes the clothes up and cleans it and it's kind of rough with the clothes It's kind of what's happening to you. It's everything's being unstuck Everything's being kind of shaken up and coming to the surface and the bruising too. So I don't know Stephanie. Have you ever done cupping before? I know what it is, but no I haven't I used to do cupping all the time cupping is is this um It's part of a chinese medicine as well as some arubatic medicine. So what cupping does is they They find places in your body where there's there where there's some tension and some stuck blood And as the chinese doctor who used to do it to me He would say you know, it's like you have a traffic jam with the blood over like a tight area And then they can't move so it gets stuck. So what the cupping does is it comes and it pulls the old blood up And then so the new blood can come in and heal Well, what happens with the cupping is you end up with these gnar after you're done You have these gnarly just bruises. They look like hickeys all over your body from the cupping And so what happens in yoga is kind of the same thing when you get bruised in yoga half of the time It's not a bruise because you were knocked. It's a bruise because old blood is being lifted out of the fascia So that it's not a bruise where I like bumped myself. It doesn't even they don't really even hurt that much It's just literally like a discoloration under the skin and I mean it's gnarly looking at times I have one on my inner thigh. That's like huge Yeah, it's new blood's coming in and and and healing the area and the physical body is the expression of the soul I mean Stephanie, we talked about this last night and this is where kind of the ego death comes in Because even though the physical body is the expression of the soul. It's not the soul. And so it's just this like Like jungle gem of obstacles that your soul actually picked You know, it's like when you go to college Once you flip the bird at my soul right now I mean when you go to college, you have to kind of pick your glasses, right? And then you have to petition to graduate. That's kind of what's happening like your soul sits down Before it takes the incarnation and sits down with your higher ups and says what what do you need? What what are you carrying over to the next from the next life? What do you need to work on? What's your karma? And so you you create this this beautifully designed avatar That's going to have a nervous system That's going to have you experience and on top of that though, you're not going to remember that this was your doing And when you start to accept that and remember it's you're doing then you kind of take your power back and you go You know what I mean? I talked about this with them yesterday You can either deal with this shit now or you can deal with it in the next life um I was doing the reading for a couple weeks from now for the sofia code and I was talking about uh, dr brian weiss who um He might like his book Stephanie actually he um So I grew up with a grandmother who believed in reincarnation my dad's mom even though she played the piano and the organ at the church on sunday She had her books on re and she would talk to us about it as kids So reincarnation was not a foreign subject to me when I got into college, but when I got into college I started to Kind of question life a little bit and I started to read these books on reincarnation and I read dr brian weiss's books and um, he is a hypnotherapist a psychiatrist who learned hypnotherapy to try to help people with like Smoking like stuff like that and he stumbled upon past lives accidentally When um, he his patients would go under hypnotherapy and they would start talking about past lives And the issue was coming forward from the past life and once they worked through it it released their issue And one of the books he wrote though is he started learning how to tap into future lives And so he would have his patients under hypnotherapy Look at all the options they had for future lives And all the options of these future lives depended on What they accomplished in this life And so if the patient or the person did not deal with their karma in this life It was going to double up on the next life And it was going to be a hard life But if they did their work in this life I remember one person like the next life that they did their work in this life the next life meant they were going to live they saw themselves living on the island of hawaii with abundant money Great family But the other option if they didn't work on themselves was like drug addict on the streets So it showed the patient like okay, you can you can neglect this in this life But if you do you're going to be going in the harder direction the next life It's not going anywhere. But if you work through it, there's an easier path coming for you. Let me tell you I'd better be on that Hawaiian Isle with abundance Because I'm choosing to work through it right now. So yeah, same Yeah, so just just please bring me there, please You just got to break through and that's and that's what and I and I talked about that in that reading Which I'm editing still for a couple weeks from now, but I was like this reminds me of this book And so if you guys look under brian weiss that dr. Brian weiss his books are incredible He actually gives a lot of lectures now And he even talks about how when he started doing this work on patients It changed him spiritually as well Like he started having when he speaks now. He has a very like calm when you listen to his lectures He's very calm He's very peaceful with life because he you know growing up jewish like we grew up christian This shit one talked about Even though it was in the original teachings So he like you know, if you grew up christian a lot of the jewish people also group this idea like you got this one life And that's it It's a very daunting idea. Yeah, but when you realize that no It's always just a game of you knowing yourself. That's all it is You start to kind of get more peaceful about it. And so so yeah, you guys and I keep the people in our challenge right now I mean Stephanie. I'm just so shocked at how many people are actually doing this. Aren't you? Well not just doing it Because part of me would at the beginning was like, okay People can say they're gonna do it, but are they gonna do it because it's free. Yeah Not like you're paying for Personal help But what i'm seeing is I can't tell you how many comments of people like Oh, I went to the store today and my jeans are falling off or um I went down a bra size like I just like and it's not even just weight things It's like literally people are being vulnerable in the chat to kind of express their experiences, which I appreciate because That honesty Through that vulnerability stage is like going to help the next person out, right? So that's why i'm open about a lot of my issues because if it can Help another person relate to me and what i'm going through and that would help the next person then great And you probably can understand that too because you're quite open about Stuff in your life as well But It's amazing to see the effort people are putting in they're not just doing the challenge They're actually challenging themselves with even more um So people will say oh, I had a choice between What is it bar in astanga? But I did both or I didn't just do a five-minute cold shower. I did a 10-minute cold shower That one because I can't do even more than like three to four minutes I told you guys like everyone's like, I don't know if I can do the I'm like listen that that's just life changing I I'm a baby when it comes to the cold too Like I don't even know how to do we I mean we were laughing We got hit with some cold weather in Atlanta from the hurricane and that's last sunday At we I was at the grocery store at the in the convenience store at the gas station And the news was on and they were like laughing on the news because they're like, we don't know what to do We don't know what to do It was like everything was shutting down because it was cold So I'm in an air of the world Well, we're just not equipped and I when I started doing cold therapy and the benefits that started happening It's a very spiritual experience as well when you're having to lead into such an intense reaction From your nervous system and yeah, I was shocked people in the chat were saying yeah I'm doing 10 minutes of a cold shower now and I didn't ask for 10 minutes. I just said five minutes And people are and people are saying how much of a benefit they're finding from that cold shower There's also I'm finding a lot of people are getting the clarity about What this it's not just doing a shadow work challenge Like there's a lot of clarity now on what it truly means and what it's truly doing to you spiritually emotionally and physically And even though it's hard. I think people are starting to get those aha moments. Yeah, like holy shit Why didn't I know this sooner? I can't tell you how many times I saw that in the comments There's a couple people that I actually had known from doing private readings that I'm not going to ever put names out there but those In in you know, I had said to them. Are you doing this challenge and they're like no and I'm like Just do it just do it Please just do it and they did and Some of the comments coming from them. I'm like That's awesome. That's really really awesome because it's like you're really really leaning into this and I have no words to say how proud of everyone I am Because I'm going through my own hell rip myself right now. So I get it. I'm right there with everybody on that challenge I'm not doing the challenge verbatim like how it's set up because I've been on this journey from since march but But I'm still I'm I'm I'm emphasizing because it's like and I just got rakey attuned So my body is acclimating to the energies and there's its own detox with attunements when you get rakey attuned so going through the yoga practice with an actual teacher who is adjusting me and ringing out The wet clothing, you know that my organs With the adjustments plus the rakey attunement. I asked for a double whammy Apparently my soul wanted the double whammy the double whopper burger. Okay, not the not the thin patty the really thick patties with the gooey ooey cheese on it Why I don't know but it is what it is. This is what it is I think I know why So I'm going through My own version of the underworld my own version of hell. What did I say to you this morning? I said, yeah I'm in the eternal hell fire of hell right now Yeah, literally I think that's what the fire of hell when they say of eternal fires in hell in church That's like the metaphor of pretty much the shadow work. I really think if you want to really break it down but um and what What they're actually talking about in the christian faith from like the high controllers because they know they know um, but It's like seeing everybody go through their own version of hell, but still doing it is so amazing and I think that's been the biggest revelation I know probably for I mean, like I said, I've been on this road for a very long time And so I forget how and I've kind of told you some memories I have of in the beginning when I first registered some stuff But it's like when you realize that pain isn't only necessary but inevitable And you have to work through it It gives you a different perspective of because how many people Stephanie Start to any type of exercise all exercise really is shadow work If you allow it to be shadow work if you allow it if you allow your body to talk to you But how many people do you know Stephanie get a little bit uncomfortable with exercise? They pull a hamstring or they have a little bit of a backache and they just quit Oh, that's that's very common. It's very very common, but I'm not really seeing any of that in this Because I think people got it. I think that was the biggest aha moment was like, oh My body even though my body and my soul are not necessarily the same thing because my body is just the expression of my soul All physical pain is is a manifestation of thought and attachment And so if I if I neglect the thought and attachment the pain is going to continue to be there But if I work through the pain and I ask the pain to talk to me Then the thought and because the body and the mind will work together the body is the mind field And to work together so you change the patterns in the body you eventually shift the patterns in the mind You shift the patterns in the mind you change the patterns in the body There was a book a while ago like years ago called think yourself thin And so many people laughed at that book But now looking back Whoever wrote that book understood the power of the mind think yourself thin Because your body's a representation of your mind now I want to talk to Stephanie about because we have so many people getting stronger and they're losing weight And they I asked at the halfway point I put the same exercise that I did on the first day so people could kind of gauge How much stronger they've gotten from their first time do it until two weeks into it And we spoke about this and I kind of mentioned this on some videos the half four speak about this in the half four material And this is why so many old spiritual practices like the priest and priest of ices yoga all these spiritual practices Had intense exercise programs in them Why is that because when the vibration of the soul gets higher The if the body's not strong enough if the muscles aren't toned enough it can't hold that vibration And that made so much sense to me when the half. I don't know if I've said that to you I've told you about the half door saying that It's like if you have a really weak like thin glass jar and it breaks easily when you put stuff in it But if you have a sturdy jar and you put a powerful liquid in it, it's not going to break And so the half doors explain that in this book they say from from the from half door From ices and half door. That's the same thing. It's the same egyptian mystery school The body has to be physically fit in order for this soul's vibration to rise Because the body has to hold the soul in this life and that made so much sense to me That made so that's like I was like, oh wow that's common sense That's yeah How can we not correlate it to before? I rattle a few cages, but It doesn't mean you can't get there, you know I Over wait for I don't know 15 years on and off. So with me Um, I'm very uh, I fluctuate and I've been fluctuating I'll I'll be 110 pounds and then I'll gain 40 pounds I'll go back down to 120 pounds gain another 40 pounds So I could be a little toothpick Or I can be a pleasantly plump little munchkin from munchkin land singing my munchkin tunes like It it just depends on what I'm going through in life because I'm an emotional eater but That I'm doing And the eating of foods that benefit my body rather than harm my body through the dosha are evaded ways and practices I'm not even really that hungry and I'm not emotionally eating Even even though I'm going through the ring of fire right now Literally, I'm going through my own little fire of hell Um, I'm not emotionally eating. In fact, I don't even really think about food I just eat when I need to eat sometimes actually forget to eat Which is unlike me because let me tell you I am a foodie through and through When life has me down I put just munch on a lovely bag of potato chips That is my thing. That's my jam even more so than ice cream. That is my jam the crunchy kettle cooked salted potato chips Okay, and if we want to really get fancy Then we can get some dip in there too, but that's but I'm not doing that In fact, I haven't touched a damp potato chip in about two months now It's amazing So and because I can't it's it's kappa and I have to eat lots of food. So Like this morning my I ate an apple with peanut butter and then I had a vegetarian salad with fresh fresh um vegetables on it So instead of putting meat on there and stuff like that because I love sandwiches, but I don't eat meat anymore I'm a vegetarian so You get creative. You really get creative. I've been eating a lot of chickpeas love those chickpea Cheese twizzy things that are not made with potatoes or anything, but they're made which the chickpeas. What did they call that? Chippies or whatever hippies. Yeah. Yeah hippies Yeah, so so guys and that's what so when you start to I feel like And yeah, I might trigger people by me saying that but I'm just saying what the hathores are saying what the egyptian mystery schools are saying And it makes sense It's common sense and I'm going to tell you if you are overweight So this should be the wake-up call to get your body Physically fit to be able to take on a higher vibrational Spirituality you might not ever be a size zero, especially if you're a kappa But you need to a point where you're A six or an eight and you're physically fit and the same muscles that I have in my body Stephanie has in her body the same muscles that our friend jamie soley the Figure skating olympiad has in her body you have in your body too And so it is possible and if by saying that if by the hathores saying that it triggers you it only triggers you because you know It's correct Well, we're not even right. We're not necessarily talking about like body shape either So obviously your disposition is going to have a contribution to what you're like. I'm more rounder I gain weight easy Where you are underweight very easily and you're long and lanky Somebody told me I was sharp. I have sharp edges because I'm so bony sizzled face I have to this is this might be tmi guys This might be tmi, but I'm well, it's one of my never not you always say tmi I worry about my hip bones in certain acts sometimes There's certain intimate acts that I worry my hip bones are actually hurting the other person Where I am a little bit more I'm like What would you say? It's like, uh, a curvy What is that cushion for the cushion? Yeah, I'm a little far on the curvy or side. No, I'm not obese by all means. I'm not at all You have a cute figure. Yeah But if I mean I could get I could get obese if I let myself go easily like absolutely easily I've never gotten to that point where I've allowed it because you know, I just can't Clothing hurts me to begin with because my skin is super sensitive with certain clothing I'm always in sun dresses even in the winter time because I literally hate pants I hate the way they feel on my waist I'm the same way and I'm skinny and I always wear sun dresses because yeah Comfortable me and a lot of life that way actually me and you have like the same Style and clothing. It's funny. Um It's way it's I'm sorry blue jeans are only for special dates Yes, I don't do blue jeans very often I brought them with me on this trip and then it got really really cold. So I ended up wearing them However, I actually had room in them. So I've dropped What do you think I would drop you haven't seen me too too often on this trip I've dropped probably between five and ten pounds since being here I'll I'll see you more next week and I've been doing that guys I've been intentionally like she only she's only saying like 20 minutes up the road for me But I've been intentionally allowing Stephanie. I've said this before but it's super important When we get into the artful dodger That's what that's what david greed used to call the ego because the ego works in very weird ways when it knows It's being challenged and so it will like do things to like so So like if you are in the shadow work process and all of a sudden all you want to do is go hang out with your friend That's your ego trying to avoid feeling the feelings that the work is bringing up And so I know that as someone who's but so I've been giving Stephanie her space to allow her body and her psyche to process Everything coming up for her In this moment, but I'm going to see her more next week because we've got a holiday next week But um, but yeah guys, so that's something to important to bring up too. Also, I want to tell I Said this on a video and I'm meant to tell you this last night Stephanie as well And rom dos writes about this as well as bagavan dos writes about this. They both have the same teacher in india named curly baba Right before the ego takes like a arrow to the heart like right before it really starts to die It ranges So all that yesterday Yeah, it will And yelled at god I don't yell at god I don't get mad at god. I never blame god for anything. I've never been one that's like This person died in my life. I'm so pissed off at god. I've never been that person But last night, what did I text you? I said I fucking feel like god hates me right now I felt so abandoned by god yesterday because I had another situation arise That had to do with again my fear of finances So I I flipped the fuck out I got in the bathtub Had my salt bath and I literally said god If you want me on this trip if you want me doing what i'm doing You have to provide a miracle for me because I am no longer gonna I set my rules and so God proved me wrong and miracles happened Well, and that's what happened. So I and I told you I was I tried and I was telling you last night I was like because I was trying to talk you off the ledge last night There's gonna come a point years from now where you're gonna be talking someone else off the ledge because the same I was I was I was like Stephanie the same. I was like, you're not alone. You're not alone This happens to everybody on the path. You're not being singled out. You're not being excluded I told you after after we calmed down. I said my first trip to india I went to my bank which was sun trust bank at the time, which is truest now and I told them specifically to put in my file that I was going to be in india for like four months And I knew that because I'd gone to school in the united kingdom And so I knew I had to tell the bank because I didn't want been shutting my card off Thinking someone had stolen my card because that would happen to me in england a lot But in the in europe It was easier to deal with than I knew it was going to be dealing with it in india Well, like three months into my trip All of a sudden all of my cards got shut off And the only way I could contact my bank was through email Because I could not call them and what had happened Was that was when they were putting the chips in the cards? Remember our debit cards used to not have chips in them. That was just a stripe Well, they were starting to mail out new cards with chips in it. So they were shutting everybody's cards off But I had specifically told them at the bank to put in my files that I was going to be out of the country For a certain amount of time and all they sun trust was so fucking rude They would not help me over email. They just kept saying, oh, well, you need to chip in your card Well, I'm in fucking my sore india Four hours away from bangalore. How the fuck am I supposed to get a new card here? I had no access to any of my money and that's the most frustrating thing is when you're looking at your banking account And you can see money in it, but you have no way to get it out No way to use it and so I was praying I called my parents They had to western union me money But then I was nervous because sometimes in india they run out of notes Money notes. And so I was like, dear god Ganesha Shiva Whoever's listening like whoever's on call right now like whatever I Let there be some and thank god there was there was some there was some notes at the western union So I was able to have cash on me But then even flying back I had to fly to dallas first and when I was in dallas I had to change over to a domestic flight and so I had to recheck my baggage in But I didn't have any cards that worked and I didn't have any united states us money on me And so I had to call my mother From dallas texas to have her western union like a hundred dollars over to the airport in dallas So I could recheck my luggage in and I went to and I mean it was one of the most stressful situations I'd ever been in in my life because I literally had no access to anything in the middle of india In the as a white girl in the middle and i'm not i'm not trying to sound racist about that But i'm a target if you know when you're in a country where like in europe it's easier because as a as a white person You can kind of blend in but you stand out And so I I was screwed. I mean the good thing is is I had friends there as well So I knew that if I if I really was in trouble I could just go to my teacher or go to some friends and see like If there was a way that I could have and what it happened to one of my friends as well One of my canadian friends where their cards got shut off and all they did Were able to get transferred some of their money to another canadian person's account and that canadian person pulled the money out So I thought if worst-case scenario I could try to find someone that I can do that with But it was and then I went back when I got back to america I went into sun trust and I closed my account I said I will never bank with you guys again and I told the woman at sun trust what had happened I showed her all the emails the woman at sun trust that was helping me started crying reading my emails Because she felt so bad for me Because she realized at that moment that I could have been killed Without having money in india And no way to get to even to get to bangle lord to get to which is four hours away to get the american embassy That sun trust had put my life in danger at that point and they were not willing to help me And I had I had taken the precautions beforehand. It was in my file to let them know That I wasn't going to be I was going to be there that was going to be me using my cards She cried at the desk And she closed my account. She gave me all my cash back and she was like, I am so sorry I am she goes. I'm going to send this to my higher ups. This was this is inexcusable what happened to you So I told stephanie. I was like it was funny because kind of the same thing happened to me that happened to you And it's terrifying It's terrifying in that moment, but there's always and that's what's happening So that's what shri swami satee satee jananda always says in the yoga sutras When things come up and we feed into fear Which is something I do all the time because I have horrible anxiety issues That's when we're not aligned with god Is when we have anxiety we have fear when that we've now we now stop trusting god That's what's happening and that and when you can observe that as oh I'm I'm pulling away from god Then hopefully you can start to observe that because it worked out for me and it worked out for you So god didn't abandon god just wanted us to see where we really were emotionally Oh, yeah, and I was in a full blown rage. So Yeah, and now you have that experience and now you can learn from that experience and I told you last night There's gonna come a day five years from now 10 years from now Where somebody's gonna be in your shoes and you're gonna be talking them off the ledge and being like same thing happened to me It's gonna be okay You know, that's the thing we talked about with emmy too. It's like when you start the spiritual path Usually your life starts to fall apart as well Oh, yeah Well, I was on the phone with with david last night as he's trying to walk me through Figuring out my account situation because I'm terrible with anything to do with the computer And I was so frantic. I couldn't even like focus and I needed So much information to send over and and I won't go into what happened. You know what happened, but um I was in full blown panic and um Calmly talking to me and I'm like you wouldn't understand my whole life is falling apart. I'm even losing you too like It's like because literally in the last two years. It's like god has totally just shed Everything like if it's not aligned with me raising my vibration. It's coming off Yeah, it's coming off a layer of clothing or it's it's killing the onion and literally My life is completely different than it was two years ago You know it's And you have you have those moments of pity party you do Not gonna lie. I'm I'm human. So it happens I guess that's what makes us human and um You just gotta breathe through it. I guess and um This too. She'll pass. Yeah, and that's uh, it's so funny because I text you I go you guys know I go to bed super early and I woke up at like 11 30 last night woke up something told me to check my phone I checked my phone and I saw all Stephanie's text messages So I got up and went into the bedroom and we worked it We I helped you work it out and then finally you go. Why are you up? And I said I woke up and something told me to check my my text messages So you see the power of the consciousness of god because that's all god really is right god's a consciousness It's it's a consciousness everywhere. That's always working It's always and believe it or not the universe is always conspiring in your favor Even though it doesn't feel like it at times It's conspiring in your favor because these layers Have to be shed. It's like the snake shedding off its skin And and Stephanie you having me this time last year you were still kind of halfway still programmed in the church And look at how much you've shed that off It's a whole different belief system that you you've had to adapt and even though this belief system from the yoga world Is more aligned with the actual teachings of yasua It's still hard to change a mental programming Because you really aren't even about yasua. It's about you and your programming I was in a situation like this a year ago. I'd be praying in jesus name and it's like so what do I do now? And I heard a voice say You tell god what you need Yeah, and don't don't ask don't hope don't pray for it You say I need this now And what happened the hell Ancient The weather channel. I just got a notification ancient egyptian secrets from isis and osiris What and we're talking about the egyptian mystery school That's a god wait Why is that coming from the weather channel? What the hell actually i'm gonna say i've been saying this since we've been really realizing how scammy the news is I'm like when we were kids We always thought the weather guy was like a liar the meteorologists like they say this is happening But never have and now i'm like the meteorologist is the most honest of them all at this point so But yeah, so stephanie you made you you told god i was asleep during this time You told god what you needed and then what happened before 1 a.m I got what I needed literally so And by just pure miracle really And and it's funny because when I told david what happened he goes Why isn't why doesn't that happen to me and I said Because you put fear over faith Yeah, and you're he's not on the initiates path so If he was exercising and doing the shadow work and really On purpose I say that my yoga classes don't I stephanie like you're here on especially in the really hard postures I remind students when they're in it. You're here on purpose You came here on purpose So own it own how hard this is you're here on purpose powerful that is a powerful statement to make So when we're in that hard dark night at the soul, you're there on purpose Yeah You can't and that's the thing like we I think we still sometimes have this delusion That when it comes to spirituality, we're going to start doing it and then like this unicorn's going to come down with like Gold farting gold out and like all of a sudden everything's going to make sense and in reality like You are the gold farting unicorn. You just have to figure it out. You'll have to go through You have to go through all of the deconstruction of the ego the fault sense to realize that and that's painful It's You know, have you ever be broken a bone? Haven't you Stephanie? You've broken I broke my middle finger in middle school playing basketball So I kept flipping everybody the bird unintentionally with a big cast on my finger. I would have loved that I would have loved that. Well, the funny part is I have such tiny fingers that my friends would go Like if I flipped them the bird they go, what are you doing? I can't even see it There's nothing there because I have such tiny fingers and I'm like, what about now Because as I have this giant roll on my freaking finger. Um, yeah, I it's still it it's still crooked Um, I you know when you jam your your hand playing basketball and I was very competitive in sports growing up like I I was I was competitive Even if it was simply gym class. Um, a lot of the girls did not like me because of that, but oops But And then I and then I think I broke other bones that never really got like diagnosed because it was such like a Minimal fracture. I have pretty strong bones for the most part, but I know I broke my coccyx bone You know the tail bone. Um, while ice skating I fell on my ass And uh, I broke uh, I believe I fractured something in my ankle while surfing but other than that, no Well, let's think about that when the bones break. I've broke broken a couple of bones. It's very painful for a bone to break But what happens is after that you go through the pain and the bone breaking it heals and it gets stronger So that's what's happening to you. You are breaking The oh, I and I feel very broke It's gonna build back yourself stronger and um, it's like I was telling you last night when I broke my sacrum I'll tell you guys. So when I broke my sacrum, I was practicing in Ohio with a teacher that I will not name who is a raging narcissist And there is a I had driven up to Ohio. I just got back from India And there's a rule we have in ashtanga yoga that after the day after travel you do primary series If you're working in second or third series, you only do primary series to to reground your body And I got to his shala in Ohio to practice with him and he said he he wanted me the very next day to Just go straight in a second series and I said no, I drove 10 hours. Like I need to do primary We kind of got into like a little standoff over it. I was like, no, my body needs to be regrounded So we finally like gave in and let me do primary series And I was in soup to kermasana, which is like one of the middle postures of primary series It's with both of your legs are behind your back and your arms are bound and your head heads on the floor So you're laying on the floor with the head with your legs behind your back So you're pretzel Yeah, well, I was in the posture my friend chris had driven down and he was from canada. He was practicing beside me And this teacher came by and did an adjustment on me That's not supposed to be done. It's an illegal adjustment. It's um very dangerous adjustment And I didn't need the adjustment. I did not I was in it fine. I did not need the adjustment He sat on my back. So this teacher is like six foot four a lot bigger than me He sat on my back and he grabbed my feet and pulled my feet back Now when we adjust like when I adjust the student this I stand by their head and lift their feet up and let their head drop That's my but that's not putting any pressure on the back. The back is supposed to be curved It's like it's a turtle pose. So it's like you're like curved with your legs Well, he because he sat on me it popped my spine in the other direction and pulled my legs back My secret went pow. It was so Loud when it actually broke my chris beside me like jumped up Like looked at me. He did not the teacher did not get off of me He stayed on me while he was doing this And then he like let and I continued practicing. I just continued practicing Chris was looking at me. I think my mind just went into shock I didn't notice how much pain I was in until I got to drop back stand up I was doing my back bends and I stood up and I went to drop back and that's when I realized Because drop back stand stand up is relatively easy for me now. It's something I but that's when I realized something was wrong Something was really wrong And I got in the car and I drove back to the hotel. I was sharing a room with my friend chris And I got on the floor of the hotel and started sobbing like I could not get into the bed. My Sager was in so much pain. He's a reiki practitioner too. He did some work I don't know how I did it. I practiced the whole week there with the broken sacrum went through second series All that stuff did not realize I had a broken sacrum until I drove back to Atlanta and went to the doctor And after I realized I went through a breakdown an emotional breakdown because all of a sudden My body started to respond to the break Everything got tighter Everything got swollen. I never stopped practicing though. I'm poor. Todd. I would come into aya And Todd would just kind of tell like he would do little adjustments But he'd be like you can't do second series right now You can barely do primary but I would come in every morning and I would do something I would do at least some of primary series But I was having a really hard time of course at this point. I'm in my mid 30s. So I'm not young anymore And I'm having a really hard time. I'm emotionally having I'm pissed off at this teacher for doing this to me I found out later that he was mad because he wanted me to move to Ohio to be his mistress I didn't know that at the time. He's a married man. I don't fuck around with that I found that out later. And so he was taking his aggression out on me Because I he's a narcissist. He's a total narcissist Anyway, so I was upset about that that they hit that, you know, how dare he he's got three fucking kids like what? You know, like no, um, and I wasn't attracted to him anyway. So like even if he was single, I wouldn't I wasn't attracted to him. Um But over time I would be calling my friend chris and like crying to him on the phone about You know losing my practice basically like losing everything because of this douchebag And chris was like, you know, I think your body's so used to the yoga now that you're gonna have to start incorporating other things Into it to to kind of get your body to renew some strength And that's when he told me to start doing bar And this was when bar was really new and so I kind of knew what it was But I never done it before I went to a few classes here in Atlanta But I didn't really jive with it because even with the broken Sacrum at that point my level of fitness was was still higher than most of the people in the class Just because of everything I put my body through over the last, you know In india and all that kind of stuff. So I kind of dropped it for a little while and that's when one day I was um Just looking on youtube and I saw marnie alton's videos and I started doing her videos And doing her videos changed me And got my sacrum to a place where it is so much stronger my core now is stronger than it's ever been And i'm pushing 40 And it's because so I look back now at that time in my life of when that break happened and how Detrimental that was to me mentally emotionally my one of my trips to india. I was there with a broken sacrum But everything that came as a result of that Changed my life and made me stronger and so I'm happy that happened now. Let me shut the door. Hold on one second So i'm happy. I'm actually happy that happened. I'm actually grateful to that son of a bitch who did that to me And I hope his wife is left him by now because girl you deserve so much better than that asshole But you know, um, I'm actually grateful it happened to me because if I had not gone through I mean it was like a couple of years of rehabilitation I would not be where I am now with my body and my body would not be as strong as it is now And so what I could have done is I could have just quit everything Because I had a broken say and been lazy late on the sofa Just quit everything, but I didn't Even though life was so depressing for me and everything was so frustrating. I still got up every morning I still went to the shawla. I started doing the bar and everything and that's how I found marnie alton Which we love a marnie alton, don't we? Sure do She's what I so I I feel grateful and I noticed too I was actually studying some of her classes and I said this on the voice message to our group today about the flushing between sides And you know how in a stronger we flush between sides She does that too in her per practices as well. I noticed it. I noticed too between sides. That's super important So how do you start a yoga background perhaps even I think she studied some of the yoga stuff She does do is not um traditional But I think what she's done is she studied energetic body Yeah And that's and so you're just gonna you're gonna understand that there's two different karmas And so she's flushing as well, and I'm just so grateful. So because of that asshole What the devil will make for bad god will use for good because that asshole broke my sacrum I found marnie alton and my body got super strong So you have a choice though It's kind of like we were saying with the brian white stuff where you can work on your karma now And have a great next life or not work on it have a shitty I had a choice to make in that moment We're at these this crossroads where I am either going to just give in to a broken sacrum and have a woe is me and not do anything and just I'm going to be the victim Or i'm going to have many little many many tiny pity parties every day, but still get up and do the work And because I still got up and I did the work Another pathway of education and learning opened for me And so that's what and that's why I keep telling you stephanie. You're at these little crossroads God's like what you're gonna do which which path are you gonna take even the each each I won't say what the eaching said but what the eaching was pretty much like You're on the path Yep Buckle up buttercup That helped me The eachening is another form of divination guys That's what the each if you don't what the eaching is that's another form of divination coming from confucius It just speaks in metaphors, but it pretty much was very clear was Was stephanie it was like listen you're walking a razor's edge right now, but it's necessary for the initiate It's the initiates path I mean even I was reading even the nostics christians the original christian faith They had a very extensive initiation process and the beginning stages lasted about five years and A lot of people quit because they wanted instantaneous They couldn't handle the five-year ruling work Before they were brought into deeper teachings But you can't have deeper teachings until you've shattered the programming of the That makes sense because I mean if you were to go into the the deeper deeper Teachings and the ego still has not died its death Forget it. Then you're turning into an asshole. Yeah. Well, that's what the dark cult did So a lot of the teachings it's like I was talking to tomorrow off off camera and we were talking about nexium that that A lot of what keith renare is teaching Or was teaching does come from legitimate Um teachings about the self But what he did because he's a psychopath and he's now rotting in prison What he did is he twisted it and he used it to manipulate And so a lot of these poor victims had not had the appropriate prior teachings to see where the manipulation was And so that's what that that's why we keep keep saying we can't throw everything out We can't throw the baby we can't throw the baby out with the bathwater because the dark cult is using the The controllers are using the exact same thing that life workers use They're just using it for narcissistic psychopathic manipulative purposes Whereas we're using it to strengthen the individual soul. It's like in the gnostic teaching joshua says You want to know god then know yourself Meeting the soul not the ego Where the truth you're completely the opposite of that Because god where does god live? In our in our in our cells in our so in in our body really The spark of life the recording I did today, which will be released in a couple of weeks It talked about went through the gospel of holy 12 again in the sofia book where we talked a lot about animals And we know in the gospel of holy 12. Yashua was very clear You don't abuse animals. You don't eat animals Are they do they not have soul? Are they not the same divine spark of light? You are They just chose to incarnate as an animal for whatever Lessons that their soul wanted to learn partially, I would probably not mind incarnating as like I don't know a dog. My dog's over here just chilling. She's just chilling My my friend harmony slater who is a canadian. She's one of the 17 women who were certified She's quite a badass. She loves ravi. So before the pandemic She would come down and teach a couple of times a year as like a guest teacher And she loves my dog ravi, which stephanie has met ravi and she always laughs because ravi ravi was A from he's from india my friend denise. We had already laughed my friend denise He wandered into the shala basically as a puppy and my friend denise picked him up and took him home and then we She looked ended up we ended up with him well ravi If if we fuck around on the yoga mats and don't do our traditional practice ravi gets very upset. He'll bark at you Who like he barks at you? But if you do your traditional practice, he lays down and goes to sleep on his bed So we always laugh that it's guruji That guruji reincarnated as ravi and harmony laughs. She goes well, what isn't that something? Guruji was adored by his western students Guruji is the the person who changed who really gave the information to the western students that they brought back to The west like my teacher david greeg thad You know and i have charot his grandson is my teacher because he's passed away and army like isn't that funny Guruji and thad had a very close relationship So she goes i give a lot of credence to the idea that ravi is guruji and that How karmic is that he came back as a dog who was adopted by westerners who spoiled the shit out of him now Exactly exactly Personally i might want to incarnate back as a dolphin because i love to swim And i just i love how they can swim so fast and jump and like to me it's like a fun life besides maybe like Trying to defend themselves from like sharks and stuff like that, but I don't know that's where my mind takes me. I mean we're like ravi's on the perpetual retirement plan We tried out for out. There was a hot second there. We gave him a job where he would go into the shallow Sometimes because a lot of dogs that are adopted from india will end up being shallow dogs Like they'll go on go in with their human while their human teaches and they'll like lay on the bed and sleep and the ravi ravi floated too much with the girls He wouldn't stand as bad he would come we have a picture of him one of the one of the Female students he loved was in our closing and ravi's literally leaning up against her back giving her like puppy dog eyes and He got fired And i'm just going to say something about ravi There is no way his soul is a two-dimensional soul. There's like no way he's way Well, same thing for my abbey. Okay way too intelligent. So the thing about ravi is He argues with todd all the time. They literally will argue with each other They have a full-blown argument where todd will tell him don't do that Like and he looks at todd with this like This this rebellious teenager look in his face. Oh, yeah. All right, and he'll be No, you don't do Don't talk back to me ravi road Oh my god He's very protective. He will not let any anybody hug me sometimes like if people go to hug me in front of him He gets very upset on When we first rest when we first got him in we had to work with a trainer because he's half wild And so we had to learn how to work with him and basically he sees me as his puppy Like he's the co-alpha and I'm his puppy So he is responsible for me. That's how that's how he sees me. I don't know how to change that I don't know how to like make that different My god sees me. That's our trainer. Like he sees you as as his puppy He's you are his because he used to before we had him on He's on Catherine Edward's diet plan now, which has changed his life But before he was so now he doesn't share any of his food because he loves his food so much But he would always bring me his food like every time he got kibbles. He would always bring me kibbles at my feet So but then he always expects me to give him my food too, but Waiting to happen so Yeah, but he's but he's I mean that's just the guy As I brought ravi up that's the I mean literally that would be the karmic because garuji gave his life To helping people achieve some sort of understanding transmuting some sort of understanding as to who they were and so of course this life He gets to come back as a very spoiled Don't mistaken very spoiled Have I will continue spoiling him to the rest of my life because he is the love of my life Robbie is the love of my life very spoiled dog little boy very spoiled Yeah He this is his house. This is his life. We're just a part of it I call him because I live in midtown. So I call him the maharaja of midtown Because the maharaja is like the prince of india the maharaja. He's the maharaja of midtown So um, so yeah, all right guys, I know it's getting close to and you've got some stuff You got to do today Stephanie. So let us know down in the comment section below If things are coming up obstacles are appearing for you guys and the challenge just know that this is part of it And it's okay. It's okay to cry. It's okay to get pissed But then pick yourself back up again I know I told Stephanie go do some kickboxing to get that Anger and aggression now. I'm actually about to go kickboxing again in a minute. So just just to just I still like ready a kickboxing I shouldn't be doing as much of it I did it a couple days ago what I'm going to do it again Because I'm PMSing and so things are agitating me. So I'm going to go channel that Maybe that's why I'm also has struggling. I'm I'm on the verge without myself right now I'm like a week out. I'm like, oh my boobs are a little sore this morning. I was like, oh Okay, that's what's happening Sorry for the TMI everyone. So Hey, it happens man when you are PMSing your boobs get sore It's just it is what it is they get sore They get sore if you ever date me I will probably ask you to massage my boobs at some point in this time. Nothing sexy just like I'm there They hurt. Can you massage them for me? They really hurt So they hurt man. They hurt Well On that note, I have a course. I have to go Teach soon and uh, yeah All right guys, we love you all let us know how you're doing down in the comment section below Check out Stephanie's courses. I'll put all the information down in the description box once again If you need help financially to do a course just contact Stephanie privately and work that with her and if you want to buy something for a Christmas gift or birthday gift or Hanukkah gift or If you just want to buy someone a gift Contact Stephanie and you can work that out with her too. 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