 so trust me i know i know that you are tired of hearing about the bs and trust me when i say this i am tired of talking about the bs and i wish i could tell you this is the last time the last time ever that i will have to talk about this but i don't know we'll see where the future goes all right i just put out a twitter thread and i wanted to put this on the record on my youtube channel so if any of you have been following this platform for a while um something that's come up a lot lately is youtuber burnout youtuber depression right a lot of talk about mental health and something i try to do with my channel is try to see what we can learn from these things how do we how do we learn from this so i've watched so many of my peers so many youtubers be burnt out become depressed all sorts of stuff right hell if i'm being honest we even saw recently the tragedy that just happened to etiquette right and i watched this and i'm like what can i learn from this and there's always commonalities you'll always hear the same thing when you watch these videos about burnout depression right people focusing on the numbers people not making content that they want to make right all of those things and people attach so much of their self-worth to these numbers and if i'm going to do that i'm setting myself up for failure and whatever i talk about on this channel what i'm trying to get everybody to do is no matter what content you're consuming i don't care if it's my videos i don't care if it's another youtuber i don't care if it's the news i don't care if it's a movie a tv show whatever it is i want you to look at it and say what can i learn from it right ask yourself do i want to be like this person or do i not want to be like this person whatever it is always look always watch that's something that has helped me exponentially in my life but the purpose of this video is much like i said on twitter like i would much rather i would much rather lose tens of more thousands of subscribers than have people here who don't believe in me who don't believe in my mission who don't believe what i have to say all right if they want to take the words of people who don't know me and assume i'm an awful person that's fine like something i learned in my addiction recovery right is that it does not matter if you are the most popular person on earth if you keep a bunch of crappy people in your life you are going to be miserable today rather than having a million friends i have a very small group of friends but let me tell you this they are ride or die all right they they know that i'm a human being they know that i'm gonna screw up they love me for who i am and when it comes to us being youtubers like that's who we need in our lives in these channels in these communities as well okay like this is a boundary that i'm setting up and like it's it's interesting too because you see people talk about the numbers all the time like when you watch other commentary channels or drama channels something that's always being brought up is social blade numbers social blade numbers social blade numbers like why are we basing someone's value or worth on social blade numbers like think about that for a second if we attach happiness to that thing to that number it's no different than people who try to attach their self-worth their value to money or things right and something i learned a long time ago that i hope a lot of you learn as well is this is something that will not make you happy in the long run all right but one of the reasons i'm making this is because trust me like a lot of you realize this i go through the comments i read a lot of them and the massive amount of hypocrisy and double standards again like i don't need people like that in this community all right and i hate to bring her up again but the fact the fact that so many fans of creep show art came to my channel right to talk about how i discussed taylor nicole dean if you don't see the hypocrisy in that like i don't know what to tell you creep show art literally made a video saying holy konrad a woman who went to a mental health hospital who was having ideation of self harm right this woman literally went to a mental health hospital and creep show art made an entire video talking about how this woman was using her mental health as manipulation but i make a video about taylor nicole dean saying that dating in early recovery is a bad idea but that's a problem like there is such a massive amount of hypocrisy and a lot of you watching this you're subscribed to drama channels you're subscribed to commentary channels i want you to think about that hypocrisy i want you to think about that double standard all right when tati westbrook and jeffrey star made all those allegations against james charles like jeffrey star accused james charles of things that are illegal disgusting and can stick with you for life and every channel was doing that do you think that affected james charles in any way shape or form of course it did he talked about that same thing with jacklyn hill everybody being upset about her lipsticks which rightfully so right but do you think she wants people talking about that as people who talk about commentary drama whatever it is we are taking things from the public spotlight we are not breaking into people's houses and taking their files these are all things that are public record and we're having conversations about it and here's the thing i would never tell people to not make videos about me i think like that is the most ridiculous thing like the audacity the audacity that we can have as creators saying we want the public spotlight we want to make money we want to be popular we want all of these things we want all the good but do not be critical of my behaviors like can you like i can't imagine that okay and i'm gonna end with this like if you want to stick around awesome because here's the thing i'm gonna talk about drama i'm gonna talk about news i'm gonna talk about movies and tv shows i'm gonna do my thing and see what lessons we can learn from them things that are in the public spotlight all right and i'm gonna be real i'm gonna be honest with it and i'm gonna make mistakes i'm gonna screw up i'm gonna continue to try to learn and grow and i get it sometimes i can come off harsh sometimes my tough love is a little too much and i miss the mark all right but i'm telling you this right now i'm always gonna be real and honest with you guys and yes like i said i'm gonna talk about drama i'm gonna talk about other youtubers just like every other commentary channel out there and i'm telling you this too i also have bills to pay so yes i'm going to monetize videos like other youtubers and yes i'm going to have merchandise like other youtubers yes i'm going to do something extra that a lot of youtubers don't do which is write books that i feel can help people all right these are all the things that i'm going to continue to do and if you don't stand behind that if you don't stand behind my opinions my ideas the things that i believe will help us improve our lives that's fine we all have different opinions like here's here's the other thing too like there's there's different people for everybody like when i found a sponsor i needed somebody who was tough on me i needed somebody who would keep me accountable i needed somebody who would tell me what i didn't want to hear right some people on the other hand need someone who's gonna hold their hand be their best friend and cuddle them okay we all need different things the thing that i want from you is to be very self-aware and know what you need do you need somebody who's going to beat around the bush and be very soft and light with you is that what you need or do you need someone who's gonna come out here and be real call you out on your bs also try to hold myself accountable and realize when i have some bs and do this thing together all right figure out what you want follow the creators who you like who you agree with but i just wanted to get this on the record like i want people who want to stay here who want to improve who want to be held accountable who want to take what they're consuming things that are in the public and learn from them if you don't want to learn from what's happening in the youtube community that's fine watch the drama channels watch the other commentary channels this isn't a knock on them i respect them i have many friends in the commentary community not so much in the drama community but what i try to do differently than anybody else is when you leave one of my videos i want you to take a step back and look at your own life and say huh maybe i'm doing some of those same things and maybe there's something i can learn and something i can prove upon so that's the point of my channel that's what i'm going to continue to do here so if you're down with that stick around with me but if not that's totally fine if you want to believe what others have to say about me without knowing me that's cool all right no no bad feelings between you and me okay but i hope if anything if anything that you take away from this video is start doing this in your own life all right it's not about the quantity of the friends you have it's the quality of the people that you keep in your life all right that's what i'm trying to do so i hope you could do the thing thanks for watching