 Hi JB This is all I'm gonna eat y'all I know JB took a bunch of my fries, but this is it I'm leaving a little more than half of the burger here Oh Space available you are going to charm and Charlie. I'm just looking I don't buy anything because I literally just spent I Spent almost three hundred dollars today. That's just including bloat groceries, but still Basic come on JB. How do you sing a new song sir? I don't even want to know JB JB has created his own language. I know some of you be like, yeah girl You're right, but it's really annoying How many people know your language cuz I haven't heard of it before Yeah, this week has been a trying week. I will get into detail when I drop JB off I'm just dropping him off. He's supposed to not be dropped off on Thursday, but I'm gonna be like can I drop them? What are they gonna say? Still off on this dango camera, but it's okay. Um, how much time do I have I? Literally got like four minutes y'all. What was trying to say? I was talking speaking with my mama. Hold on Let me try to put this camera lifted up There she go If I can get my life together like a sack I probably do Film back here a lot more often because I like to sit up to the flowers Let me stop stop it. Um, and I got three minutes. I have a meeting in 11 o'clock y'all this week If girl this week has been between personal stuff and just Worky it's reporting time. But my thing is that this is how I view life in general Your fire is not my fire. So be careful. I me drag. How do you drag me into your mess? I don't like people that gets in a frenzy and antique like Be cool be calm. Don't get everybody else rattled up because your nerves is bad girl We don't all need to have bad nerves, right? This one I just want to say real quick. Um, and I don't like to talk about give very specific I try to be vague because I have family who watch my channel. Hey y'all a bunch of cousins grow I told you I have a lot of cousins girl y'all it is So hard being a parent. I always heard people say that who are not parents. I was like, oh really? Okay, but when you're actually a parent It is the most Difficult job there is and oftentimes I hear people say I've seen comments, you know from other moms Or you know those little in quotes around mother days, you know being a being a parent It's the most difficult yet rewarding job. No, it's not No, the hell I'm just being 100. I do not feel let me back up. You have your brief moments of reward, but overall It's it's it's a job of no benefits in my opinion No overpay no nothing Yeah, no, I'm gonna see now something came up in my in my text messages. I can't read that right now So being a parent is the most difficult job It has his brief moments of rewards, but for me personally, I don't feel any more fulfilled or sustained sustained I thank god for giving me a healthy child and for me to be able to bear a child That's a gift because I wasn't supposed to be able to to be honest But it's so hard and this is what I want to say too. Just because your child is of age So you're in this country ageing and over your legal age. You're grown. That's what we say you're grown now There are some people and they're in their late 2030s. Mentally. They are not grown um, and what I mean by that is that Some people not all people some people be very be pushing their kids out getting them, you know, they gotta be Whatever list you have for your children to succeed in life You have to prepare them and make sure that they are ready to let them go Like I told y'all in one of my other videos My child will always have a place home He will always be able to come back home no matter what's going on And I feel like if if he's not able to come to me He should be able to go to some other family members and I say all this to say this just because your child is grown Doesn't mean you stop being a parent They will still need us. I still need my parents. Oh, I still need the advice from elders I don't know everything. I'm about to be 39 and fine. I got said in a couple more weeks I don't claim to know everything. I don't think I know if you know, I know some of these kids Especially good girls, especially these millennials. They think they know everything but as a parent we need to Remain a parent. I'm not one of those people parents could be like i'ma be a friend too. No It depends on the stage certain stages. We can be friends. But right now jay b is not my friend Jay b is my child. I am the parent. Do you know what I mean? Y'all I cannot get this thing these camera settings before I come back officially I'm really have to get these camera settings together because now it is all over the place I am curling on my break. I am recording a little bit while I'm on my break most of Um the business when it oh y'all I can't get this to I need to get this camera together. Hold on Girl, I am back. I am technically on break Um, so I'm not actively recording or posting or editing. I'm just doing this as a relief you guys So last time I had a therapy session when my anxiety was crazy. This was like three years ago Yeah, three years ago And I had stopped doing my videos and she's like so You stopped doing the one thing that was helping you You Meaning that she's like you need to continue it even when you don't post it just continue it. So I will load this up though y'all it has been a crazy It's mercury in retrograde right now gatorade whatever the hell they talk call it because it has been crazy Now going on three weeks for me and it seemed like it's getting crazier and crazier and I mean like Just a bunch of different stuff. It's going on And same thing with my best friend I haven't really talked to my best friend like talk talk to her in almost two weeks and that's not coming for us Sorry y'all that's not coming for us. And so I briefly spoke to her yesterday and she's like There's a lot of stuff going on a lot of stuff going on in a household Um She thinks she has you know some medical issues and not going to you know Tell her business out there. She has some medical issues. She was in an er And I'm like call me I know we're both going crazy call me if you get a chance today So i'm hoping she will call me Y'all work is when I tell you work is stressing me the hell out I have literally been working um today I've been working since five It had I've been putting in 10 12 12 over days 10 12. Let me see. Hold on Yeah, I've been putting in between 10 to 12 hours a day and I am exhausted I am tired and it's not just me as everyone at my work. We're just it's just crazy right now I was placed on a project That It's a new platform for me new app new processes and it's something that starts like next week And it involves managers and leadership and it's stressing me out Y'all I'm trying not to be stressed out about it, but it really is because its leadership is not just regular Oh, you know associates as people I'm having to work with hundreds of leaders and I'm like, oh my god. So anyway I'm dealing with that. You know meetings are going on. Um, I literally have had a meeting every day this week I have two today I already had one I have another one that's coming up in two more hours with my manager Y'all it's so funny when we have meetings Because my manager is african-american. We do what's called cold switch Cold switch is when you work in um, some people don't cold switch, which is fine. Some people just they just you know It is what it is Cold switch it is when you use Uh, you switch to black vernacular english is what we call it with another person of color or african-american So we would typically start the meeting off like this. Well, hi, you know, I'm not gonna mention her name Let's give her a name. So let's say her name is lauren Um, well, hey lauren did you get that email that I sent you earlier about the reports? Did you have any questions about it? I can add another column for you I could change the statuses and then like halfway through I'll be like child girl. These reports are gonna give me And she'll be like girl, I don't know Yeah And so without thinking about it. I cold switch in a meeting with other people And she did too. So I was I was like, okay good because I was done y'all I was like child. I'm gonna need a cigarette after this. She's a girl Y'all we're the we're the only two black people in the meeting. So everyone started laughing I was like child as soon as as soon as the child comes out, we know girl. That's the cold switch That's the key to the the trigger the girl we could go ahead and switch over to the black the black vernacular english anyway, y'all um Yeah, but it has been a lot of childs and a lot of girls in our meetings lately because it's been stressful And I know she's very stressed and I've been praying over my manager because I know she has some personal stuff going on But yeah, it's friday. It's friday And I'm ready to sling off key, but it's okay Y'all my baby is in camp. I was worried today because it's a field trip day And like I said, I didn't really want him going on field trips, but you know, he'll be fine. I may pick him up early um Even with that with me having to work more I have to put him in camp a little bit more often But y'all school starts in two more weeks for us School starts in august 1st We are meeting his teacher on the 29th and I need to be looking beautiful and aggressive at the same time when I meet her Um, so the hair will be big And the face will be beat. But anyway, um Yeah, so I'm trying to prepare for that You know get the household in order get us back on a schedule for when school starts because those of you Who don't know my husband works in the hospital. So he's not home at all to help me It is me doing it all but thankfully it's I should say this my husband isn't messy You know how someone would have to clean up behind their husband's girl. She please speaking of that Yeah, let me curve up this car Currently jb is in swim lessons. He has been loving it I'm going to be sharing some clips of that if I haven't earlier in the video He has been loving it to the point to where we're going to pull him out of karate and do swim lessons He doesn't really feel karate. He's been doing it now off and on for two years and he's not really Yeah Um, so we're going to switch him over to swim lessons and the good thing about arizona is that there's pools everywhere Of course, we have our own pool and so yeah, we're going to switch him over and plus it's cheaper to go Oh, I'm all about it. Be more affordable. Hell All right, you guys so who Lord three hours later I put together You know what? The bench two chairs a table I'll put this together. I like to do stuff like this Haha Y'all I look a mess because I just washed my hair. We're out here Um for swim lessons again swim lessons is every week. But look every time we come here. There's another little boy He acts a hot mess when it's time to leave I don't know if the babies are has special needs or whatever I don't know but it's because he wants skittles And so jb looks at me whenever he starts screaming and crying jb looks at me like he ain't getting Today he's a he ain't getting nothing for christmas jb What jb we him two time rules I don't understand what you y'all the the child is a mess. I mean he's be screaming y'all excuse my hair Like I said screaming and crying screaming and crying. He has to be around nine years old I'm like, I looked at jb. I said, where's my belt at? He starts laughing Are you guys so started cooking about? 80% done cooking. This is the keen lime pound cake a little runny on the um The icing but I can spoon it back over here's some sugar cookies for jb. This is our drink concoction area I already poured me up one. Um, very very simple for what we're eating I don't know why this thing just went dark. There you go. Now you can see we have green beans and potatoes corn Carrots my barbecue sauce is going away. I'm gonna go turn on the grill to put the chicken wings on It's been marinating. Yeah carbs carbs carbs carbs carbs yeah You know how you have that one month where Okay, so you know you have that one birthday month where everybody's birthday It's in that month and then it gets busy That's what august is I'm still on break. Y'all won't see this till september um The thing that I like to do on my social media though is still share information so that you know you want to keep people Coming back to your channel even if you're not there So I'm still very active on my instagram and on youtube as far as my posts go um August back to this august is it for me? My birthday is in is in august My husband's birthday is the day after mine. It's the day after the day after mine. What the hell? um, my daddy's birthday My uncle's birthday the one that loves shabby My niece's birthday my first niece and then my really good friend here in the valley in phoenix who she's originally from houston, but She lives here in phoenix, too. All that's going on school starts next week. The house is a mess We're really busy at work. I mean really busy at work to the point to where A lot of the things I have on my to-do list personal are being um On the back side because I'm just putting out fires all week long So last week, let me back up a couple of weeks ago. I ordered aiming planner From home depot and I used to have a planner you guys It has a different view. It's more of a what's called a dashboard and um Didn't work for me So I have to do what's called franken plan combined those doing the planning community. You know what that is community See all your syllables and vows girl Combined planners together I'm gonna try to hear it because jayby's back in their plan and I need to hurry up To keep me on track. So I have to do that a couple of days ago School starts next week. This is my to-do list to get ready for school y'all and I know I could be a bit much but I To help me stay organized and to keep my anxiety at bay and just in general I have to have to do less. So my back to school includes everything from decluttering decluttering his room Making sure you have enough underwear. Let's keep it real. Um Gradually getting back on a schedule in the morning time so that his body could get used to you know, even on the weekends is what we do um Cleaning the kitchen kitchen cleaning the bathrooms just so everything could be clean and I'm not Getting ready for school starting school getting back into the habit of going to school because again, I've told you guys It's just me. I'm married. You know, I'm married, but my husband is not available He works second chef and so that means he sleeps in the morning and works at night Okay, that girl those you in the medical field, you know, I for the longest I was upset about that wanting him to change it But that shift differential Makes I think he gets at this point almost like a three or four dollar difference per hour JB's probably gonna come back here because that was a layout See, I knew it Was that layout to the scare you baby? Yeah, are you ready for school to start? No