 Oh, before Nikki hops on here, just wanted to say hi. This is my first live video, even though I've done YouTube for a little over two years now. So I thought it'd be fun to invite Nikki on here. I will definitely put her YouTube channel in the comments below. We're just gonna cut a chat about, we have a very similar background from Christianity to New Age to Christianity and kind of everything that goes along with that. And we're gonna talk about some other stuff involving Hollywood and it's gonna be fun. So she should be hopping on here any sec. And we will just go from there. I just wanna see if it is coming up on here. And then as soon as Nikki gets on here, we will go right ahead and get started. See what's going on over here. Okay, I just wanted to make sure I could see the chat, which I can. As soon as Nikki gets on, well, we'll get started. So this is my weird little live room setup. It's not really like it has set up, but all my roommates are home. So it will do for now. I thought this was supposed to come up. I have my laptop sitting here so I could see how it's showing up, but for some reason it's not popping up. So, oh, there it is, cool. So it is here, put that on mute. That's what everyone's doing. So like I said, we're gonna be talking a little bit about New Age to Christianity, some struggles that go along with that. We're gonna talk about like Hollywood and what's going on over there. We all know something's up. So if you guys have any questions or evolving anything that we're, me and Nikki are gonna be talking about today, she should be on any second. Then let us know in the chat because who are we gonna talk about, so. Here we see my chat. Yeah, here she comes. How's it going, Nikki? Good, how are you, girl? I'm good, I'm so excited that we get to chat today. Yeah, me too. Yeah, so like I said when I texted you, if you have to go at any point, just let me know and we'll wrap up. So now you said you have a kid? Yeah, yeah, he's napping, so we should be good for a little bit, but yeah, I'll let you know, thank you. How old is he? He's two. Aw, he's super cute. Tooth or nose? Yeah, definitely, definitely tears. He's so crazy, he has the most vibrant personality. He's wild, but I love that. Well, so basically the reason I wanted to kind of like chat on here with you is because I actually found your YouTube channel. Geez, I don't even know what it was that I reached out to you, probably November or December or something like that. Definitely before the new year, but I just like related so much to your story. You're like new age, I know you started off like Christianity and then you went new age and then you went back to Christianity. And I just like really like went through the same thing. And I feel like it's just like something people don't talk about. So I guess I'll kind of just start off by like asking you like a little bit about like your story, like how, I know you were raised like in the church and everything, and then you went, how did you go from like Christianity to new age in the first place? Yeah, it's like such a journey, you know? But like, I don't think it was one specific thing, but it just kind of, just kind of, I've always had this like yearning spiritual seeking mindset. Like I will find the truth, you know? Yeah, love that. Yeah, and I think you do too. And some people seem to have that more than others, right? Like they're very interested in spirituality. So I just kind of started exploring whatever came into my realm, like what my friends would talk about or, but it was the secret, the law of attraction. That was my pro too. Yeah, so many people got really into that because it is fascinating. Yeah, very like enticing. And it's like, I feel like especially with those, like I know you mentioned in your one video, I grew up like Catholic and I struggled really hard to connect with that and grasp onto it. So like when law of attraction, the secret, all that started popping up and like, oh, like this is more like tangible, you know? Like this is something that like I can understand on an easier level. And I don't know if it was like that for you or not, but. Yeah, yeah, I guess so. And it was just, because it talks so much about the power of your words and how that's creating your existence. And I mean, they take a lot from the Bible. So there's truth mixed in with it, of course, but it leads, it doesn't lead to Jesus is the thing. Yeah, that's the thing I like found too. I actually recently did a YouTube video on like is manifesting in the Bible. And then I don't know if you know much about like the law of assumption community, but they also often refer to themselves as like gods of their reality, right? And I feel like that is, that's like such a blurred line where, you know, like do personally, like I do believe manifestations in the Bible. However, I think it's been taken out and like kind of misplaced whereas people are believing they're doing this manifestation through themselves and essentially like glorifying themselves through it and not understanding that like this is all through the Holy Spirit, right? And I feel like that's like the issue. Yeah, yeah. And I would agree. And I think that when you are just trying to manifest, like that's your main goal in your life is manifesting. It becomes more about you, more about what you want specific goals or dreams in your life, which sounds fine, but that's when it comes to Christ, you know, Christ wants us to lay down our life for him, you know, so. Right. Like, yeah. Yeah. Yeah. And you know, I, it's like, you can hear that. You can hear that over and over again, but it takes some, it takes God, it takes Jesus to like actually pull it out of you and hear, right? Hear that I want you to lay your life down for me, for my will. Right. Well, and you mentioned will, so I wanted to bring that up and talk to you about it because I watched a video of yours a little bit ago and it was about like predestination, you know, free will, that kind of thing. And I feel like that is such a confusing concept, like in the Christian community. And I would love to like explore that a little bit because like, I always go back and forth with it, but I don't know, like what's your opinion on free will? Let's go right into it. Well, I think that we have both, like they're both simultaneously happening where we have free will and we don't on some levels because in our day-to-day existence, obviously you can make a choice to do one thing or do another, but I definitely think there is times in my life that I could even look back on and see that I had no choice. God came in and did something, pulled me somewhere, whether that's like, maybe you have to move, maybe someone dies in your family, maybe something really intense happens. You know, maybe you go through a big divorce. These things like kind of can sometimes seem influenced from God. Yeah. And you don't really have choice in that. I feel like that's part of God's higher will or higher plan or- Yeah, no, that's so interesting because on one hand, people that don't believe in free will, right? They'll say, well, then what's the point of praying? What's the point of doing anything when everything is already laid out for you? But then on the other hand, it's like, well, if we didn't have free will, then essentially, there wouldn't be evil because God would completely control everything. So it's just such an interesting- The way I kind of look at it is how did you ever read one of those books when you were a little, where like you would read a chapter and then at the end of the chapter, it would give you like two choices. And it would say, if you want to do this, like in the story, you know, turn the next page, but if you want to do make this choice, jump to page, you know, 50 or whatever. You know what I'm talking about? Look at it that way. Where I'm like, you know, like we have this free will, but within the free will, we're kind of always like being directed and guided. Does that make sense? Yeah. Yeah. I think it's somewhere along those lines, you know? It's like, we'll never, I feel like we'll never really fully get the answer, but- Yeah. It's just such an interesting concept, but like I definitely believe in free will because I mean, even if you go back to like the story of Adam and Eve, I mean, if they didn't have free will, you know, the apple wouldn't have any. Yeah, totally. And it's all, they're both in the Bible. Like it constantly talks about choosing Jesus, choosing to pray, choosing to read the Bible, choosing to follow the Word, but then also God chooses people and it's all already done. Yeah. Right. Right. It's just like the, and I honestly, like it's just so far above human comprehension, I think that a lot of times like, cause that's what I hear from, you know, people that don't believe in God or atheists or whatever, is they're just like, well, none of this makes sense. Like how can it be, you know, three people or three entities in one? And it's like, well, it doesn't make sense to us, obviously, because we're just like little humans. Yeah, totally. I'm like, well, what do you expect? It's God, but we're not gonna- Like the most complex, confusing, high energy, all that there is, thing, spirit, entity, and we're just like a little tiny, like pebble of that. Yeah, but what scared me a little bit actually about Calvinism is that God, so if God predestines everything, if God predestines the chosen people, his chosen people, then he also predestined, this is Calvinism, this isn't my opinion, this is just- Yeah, no, I'm interested. Then God also predestined like Satan's children. Interesting. So in a way, it kind of makes God the author of evil. Right. That's interesting. Yeah, well, because it's just like, because God is light, right? So it's like God is all light, all love. So how could he, but I also understand, my problem is that I always understand where people are coming from. Yeah. Like says, well, this, it doesn't make sense, or like something like Calvinism, or the Bible was written by humans. I'm like, I mean, I get where you're coming from. Yeah, same. Yeah, that is an interesting concept. I really haven't looked too much into Calvinism. I saw you did a video on it, but I didn't get a chance to watch it yet. But it seems like an interesting concept. It is, but it's also, it's kind of dark, it just paints this like darker image of God almost. But I don't know, like the Bible talks a ton about God being sovereign. So God is allowed to happen, every evil thing to happen. Right, right. Go ahead. For a purpose. Yeah, well, right. And that's the thing I always come back to, right? So like, I don't know, have you ever studied like near-death experiences, or like soul contracts or things like that? Yes. Yeah, I've looked into, I've listened to a lot of near-death experience stories where they go to heaven and hell. Yeah, yeah. I'm just like so hooked on them. I am like, I've been studying them for like a year. I'm reading this book by Dolores Cannon right now. And she's really interesting. I don't know if you've heard of her or not, but she does a lot of, she studied like Jesus's life outside the Bible, like things that like people don't really like know. You're cut, you're cut now. Sorry, you're frozen for a second. I think she's coming back, guys. I'm waiting for her to come back. I don't know. Yeah, DZ. My name's Nikki. I'm just a girl. I'm just, I'm Christian. I'm a Christ follower. I would prefer to say Christ follower than Christian, but I'm okay with saying Christian too. And I come from like New Age. New Age beliefs. I come from a long spiritual seeking journey and I landed at Christ.