 I was a great leader on the ground in combat, considered myself one of the best, and got out. I got told, you know, things were over with and I couldn't do that anymore. I just didn't feel like I was a good leader back here. Felt completely out of place, and just pretty much stayed away from most people. Drank too much. What I was trying to do for myself, it just wasn't working. The concern is if I open Pandora's box inside of here, I may not be able to close it, and I may not be able to deal with the things that come out. But having the opportunity to look back on the experiences that we've had, the good and the bad experiences, allow us to grow, allow us to learn. War is life's severest school, and those who experience it, endure it, and thrive in it, have the capacity to return home, and be incredible leaders and fathers and mothers at home. So much more, you have a heart bigger than anything. Someone actually reached out for me, and then I got a phone call to come up here and check things out. If somebody believes they can change and they can grow, they will be successful. If they don't, they won't be. We see the potential and the possibility in somebody's life when they are the person they want to be. The meditations was good for me. Giving yourself time to reflect and remember and leave it there, to go back to your family. It made things a whole lot easier to deal with. Just having another family again has made a big difference.