 Moment of truth guys fingers crossed fingers crossed they spelled my name right What is going on welcome back to another video in today's video? It's time. Hey, it's time Look what I got Look at this As you can tell by the title of the video I Assume wouldn't it be funny if it wasn't actually what I thought it was but I assume guys that this is This is my birthday present, you know today is my birthday believe it or not the 27th of November 2018 It's my birthday. I turned 28. So Happy birthday to me. I don't receive any gifts anymore Ever since I turned 18 and I moved away from New Zealand. I haven't received any gifts, but it's okay It doesn't matter birthdays aren't all about getting stuff anymore In fact, I get so much more pleasure out of life when I give or when I teach Rather than when I receive and that is an attitude that has come through the years You had to ask me ten years ago when I was 18. I wouldn't have thought that all I want is a hundred bucks from you Hundred bucks from you. Oh, why don't you get me any money this year dad? Oh, what? Why don't you get me those shoes? I wanted this year, you know fuck that That ain't how it should be, but it is when you're a kid and you know anyways regardless of that regardless of that I'm 28 Boom. Thank you very much. I probably don't act like it and this is going to be the best birthday present I've ever received In fact, it's it's it's from YouTube. YouTube has literally sent me a Present I'm gonna take it as a present, but it's an award. I assume I assume it's the 100,000 subscriber YouTube creator award and I'm about to open it right now on camera for you guys I'm not gonna do anything viral like cut it in half or see what's inside or anything like that I'm just gonna open it. I'm gonna appreciate it. And you know what it's about time. I put up my third shelf To display stuff in my little office here So I'm gonna do that too and then we're gonna place this right in the middle so we can all see it Okay, so that sounds like a good video. Stay tuned. I'm gonna roll the intro and see you in a second for my next trick I need to move this like that Is that gonna work? Yeah, that's gonna work. Now you go get the shelf And the drill Do I do it first? Do I? Do I really put it up? Okay. Fuck it. We're gonna do it first I'm gonna have to open this It's gonna make opening up that award so much sweeter if I can just put it somewhere straight away And you know what guys I did I did want to sort of discuss something with you Discuss like The mentality it takes To be what they call a youtuber You know the thick skin that you need to have you really do You know, there's been times There's been times recently where I've read comments You know, I've got probably a lesser result or a lesser response from certain videos and I thought I might There's been days where subscribers go down In the last month, I've I've you know, I still take these subscribers like they're gold honestly I appreciate every single one of you guys and you guys know that But the reality is is there was months there where I was getting 20,000 subscribers. I Got less than a thousand subscribers last month You know, so for me to continue this channel going I realized that it's on me. It's on me to to Continue making content and continue being positive about it Because man if I let some of the comments that I received some of the the negative shit get to me I wouldn't be making videos You just you can't because when you're not feeling good when you're not feeling positive when you're worrying about too much shit You can't be yourself and you can't be present and you can't be making these videos If I'm not present in the moment when I'm making these when I'm making a video when I'm addressing you guys when I'm doing a Reaction video if I'm not completely present I Shut the video off halfway through and I can't do it because I'm worrying about too much shit You know and so these comments these negative comments the troll comments I do take them with a grain of salt, but they do affect me at times. You know, it's it's just human nature. They do so What I was actually where I was going with this is the fact that I received this two weeks ago But I haven't felt in the right headspace. I haven't felt good enough about myself and about where this channel is going I haven't basically guys. I'll put it. I'll put it straight. I haven't felt as though I've deserved to open this I haven't felt like my audience feels as though I actually Deserve a hundred thousand subscribers. There's been days where I've lost subscribers like I said man that hurts that fucking hurts But it's all part of it and what I would like to say is Anyone who has stuck around anyone who is here to really support me and the channel from the ground up You've seen this rising subscribers. You're still here Man, what absolute legends what fucking legends? So I do feel good enough now. We've had a hundred and fourteen thousand subscribers Which is amazing. It took me over a month to get from a hundred and thirteen thousand to a hundred and fourteen thousand We've got there. I feel like we're over a hump I feel fucking amazing about it and you know what I feel present enough For me to make this video put the shelf up on the wall open this shit say thank you to everybody Stick it on my shelf and say good night. So that's what we're gonna do Little bit of real talk for you guys Just got to remember Exactly how to do this body seven and a quarter divided by two equals twenty three point Nick minute six two five You still with me guys. Oh, fuck that one up. That's not ideal Not at all But I'm not gonna cry over spilled milk Let's continue. Okay. I've just realized this is Gloss white and the other two are matte white. So hopefully you can't see that. Anyways, put these down here New England Patriots North Dakota State Bison Buffalo Bills We've got the North Texas Mean Green. We've got the New York Sabres Hockey team Ohio State buff guys and the Bison Nation from North Dakota State. I think it's gonna be great Let's do this man. Oh, I've been waiting for a fucking long time to do this to be honest So let's do it. This is for you guys This is for you guys. This is for Man, I've got to be honest. I only get one chance to do this. So I'm gonna say it now. I I Always wanted and I always imagined opening this award With my daughter sitting here. I always wanted to do that because the reality of the matter is I Sacrificed a lot of time with my daughter and with my ex who was my girlfriend at the time I Ignored them for hours and hours on end. I'd sit in my room editing. I'd sit in my room making videos editing replying to comments working on my major key physics stuff and You know months went by months and months where I Was completely zoned in completely focused on one thing and one thing only myself and Getting this YouTube channel up to a hundred thousand subs so Now looking at it from a different perspective actually being here I Just want to say that yeah, you know, what's done is done. What's done is done The time I sacrificed I sacrificed and it was for what I thought was important to me at the time which was Getting one of these and for me to sit here on my own and not have my child here because she's Moved to Queensland with her mom is Upsetting and it's another reason why I left this for so long without opening it because I didn't feel right. I Didn't feel right. One thing was on my mind was that I didn't feel right because my subscribers were going down I felt like I didn't deserve it But as well as that yet, you know the people and the relationships and the amount of time that I sacrificed to actually Get to this point in the amount of time that I did I wasn't sure whether it was worth it And that's why I wasn't in the right headspace to open this shit, but I am now. I'm feeling good. I'm feeling positive I feel like I Feel like the subscribers are going up again now, which is a fantastic feeling and I Do feel I do feel like I deserve this and I guess that's what it comes down to did I really deserve this and I guess now I feel like I do So thank you one and all for being here. It's about time we open this I'm gonna get a better angle here so you can see exactly what I'm doing Let's do it. This is not just my award guys This is an award for all of you All of you out there who've enjoyed seeing the rise of this YouTube channel from ten thousand subscribers in April to a hundred and fourteen thousand On December no on November 27th 2018 my 28th birthday, so you know what regardless of anything else? This is my birthday present to myself So I should feel good about it fuck it man fuck it But that stuff about my daughter is real That's some real talk, and it's always on my mind. I don't know. I don't know what's gonna happen in the future. I don't know Honestly don't I don't know what's gonna happen in the future guys But this man this journey this last six months has been unbelievable. It's been phenomenal. It's been amazing. It's been uplifting It's been exciting Let's do this Thank you YouTube. Thank you Thank you for recognizing all of my hard work and Giving me something to display for it Ever since I started my YouTube channel ever since they started bringing out these awards. I'd always wanted one I'd always wanted to see one. I never thought it would be possible to actually receive on myself But here we are Sorry guys, I'll get into it eventually moment of truth guys fingers crossed fingers crossed they spelled my name right You're here with me man. You're fucking here with me guys. Fuck. We're here. We're doing it Look at this. That's even more beautiful than I ever thought possible. I thought it was on a black plaque But it's not It's silver and it's a mirror look at that Can you see yourself? That's a straight-up mirror right there. Oh Mate, it's got felt on the back Fucking hell of us presented to Jacob McDonald for passing. They spelled it right. Thank God for passing a hundred thousand YouTube Subscribers that is a beautiful thing. That is a beautiful beautiful thing I love it. Jacob McDonald 100,000 YouTube subscriber silver creation award It's gone right there. I don't even know what to say How does it look back there? You can't you can't even tell what it is Can you? Doesn't matter man. All you guys who've been here for this opening know what it is and that's all that matters So before I do go I'm gonna read this this piece of paper This letter from Susan Wachiki CEO of YouTube imagine for the CEO of YouTube You've done something you've just done something that very few YouTube creators accomplish you had an astonishing 100,000 people subscribe to your channel We know that numbers on YouTube can get really big But we hope that you don't lose sight of the reality behind that six digit milestone Each and every person who has subscribed to your channel has been touched by what you created They were inspired challenged or entertained You achieve this milestone with hard work Perseverance and probably a healthy sense of humor too What you've accomplished can't be taken away from you and we'd like to recognize you and all your hard work With the silver creator award a small token of our esteem and respect We know that you don't do this for rewards You do it because you have a drive to create and share and because you've found an audience who cares Believe us when we say that we can't wait to see what you do next a million subscribers may seem a long way off right now But you're closer than you think and we're rooting for you Congratulations, you're sincerely Susan Wachiki CEO of YouTube Wow, and this was this is a little business card from Society Awards who make the awards on behalf of YouTube Congratulations on your subscriber milestone We are honored to take part in recognizing your achievement and want to experience and want your experience to be exceptional This award was inspected and packaged with great care by Rick Thanks Rick. So yeah, I'm a little bit lost for words right now, but None of this changes the fact that I sacrificed a hell of a lot to get here. I did it's time It's what they call sweat equity. It's time and effort that you only you would be willing to put into your your videos Or your brand or your business only you it's sweat equity. It's just reality I mean some people can have a viral video and get a hundred thousand subs just like that Certainly not the case with my channel I've had it for six years now and so moving forward. I'm hoping to have a bit more of a work-life balance. I Have employed a video editor I've employed someone to do my thumbnails when I need them and so I'm still gonna be video I'm still gonna be editing. I'm still gonna be making videos all that stuff But if I do come to to a point in in time where I've got too much and like I'm literally facing like three or four days Straight of editing and I can't sacrifice that time That's when I'll be employing this video editor that I've you know Taken the best part of the last couple of months to get to know and and sort of work with so if you're out there, mate Dustin you know who you are the fellow who's doing my thumbnails. You know who you are, too I want to say you're a great designer. I want to say you're both awesome at what you do and let's see if we can really You know keep this YouTube channel going at the rate that it is through Sharing a bit of the workload. I'm paying for it. Obviously. It's a cost. It's associated with my channel now I've never had any costs before But this is this is about leveling up This is about continuing with the amount of content that I want to produce and and keeping you guys entertained That's what it's all about. I want to say thank you guys if you've liked the video if you want to support the channel Please hit that like button if you want to subscribe please do I'll see you soon