 whatever you did wrong, leave it behind and move forward. It's that religious inheritance of yours that is filling you with guilt because you did this and that and now go and confess about it and say 10 rosaries. This is your inheritance, even if you yourself are not like that, your parents are not like that. It's a religious inheritance that has filled you with this barrier of fear between yourself and your soul because you're not even supposed to surrender to the soul, you're supposed to surrender to something out there. Take it back, put it back inside and start surrendering to it. And when you surrender to the soul, then you can love Jesus. I mean, extrapolate it now to whatever you want to love. You cannot love Jesus if you don't love the soul, if you don't surrender to the love. And whether it's Jesus or it's your boyfriend or it's the dog next door, love is love is love is love.