 Hello. Welcome to Above Life Channel. The purpose here is to inspire your spirit and to fill you with hope. Another live stream we have going today. Above Life Channel has, we have kind of changed a bit. We've been flexible here the last two months because of my working on my recovery and my healing journey. And thank you all for being such a part of that. I appreciate you. I appreciate you watching. And your support and your love and your contributions and your donations and your cards and the gifts I've gotten. Oh my gosh, you guys have to see this. I got this huge gift. This really very, a very bold, gestured gift. And I'm trying to figure out who it's from. And eventually I will figure it out. I just got it this week. It arrived in the mail and it had a beautiful card. And it came from the North Pole, supposedly from Santa and Mrs. Claus. And it's gorgeous. I'm going to show it to you because I got to figure out who sent it. We got to do that. Today we're going to talk about tight energy, stress. Sometimes we consider it stress. We consider it tension. We consider it overwhelm, overload. Yeah, we're going to continue this conversation about how energy is impacting and affecting you, especially now during the holiday season and during the end of the year, with external pressures like the economy, like global events, et cetera. And also internal pressures from your own family, your own workplaces, your own communities, right? There's so much that can really create such a tightness, a restriction. And I would really love to share with you what I know and what I've learned about helping to release that and find some relief in that heart space, some relief in the physical body, some relief in the metaphysical body as well. Because as you know, here on Above Life Channel, part of the purpose is to inspire you to manage your own energy, to really take charge of how you feel, how you move through the world. And that means using all the resources that are available to you like your intuition. You are intuitive. You have a soul and a spirit that gives you information all the time. And your heart happens to be extraordinarily intuitive and in tune and gives you information all the time, as well as your body. Your physical body is so in tune and intuitive as well. So I hope that I can help you understand some of these pieces a little bit more to be able to really use them for your good, for your healing, for your best life, for your empowerment, especially during these times when you might feel really stressed out or super worried or have the weight of the world on your shoulders or feel like, ah, I got to get everything done. And it just, it feels like a bit much. So we're going to talk about that, but I got to show you this gift that I got and you guys have to help me figure out who sent it. Obviously they wanted to be anonymous, so let me show you. It's like kind of unbelievable. It's huge. It's huge. And it lights up and it turns, this bottom part turns and it has an electronic component I'm not going to plug it in because it can be loud and it's flashy and it's gorgeous. Look at this. My goodness, who sent that? And the card was beautiful. The card was very beautiful. It was obviously somebody that either, I think it's one of my clients. That's what I think. I think it's a client. Because it's somebody that knows me and knows that I love Disney. Disney World to be exact. Going to the theme parks and being in that energy. And obviously I cannot do that right now. And so it's going to be more than a year by the time I get back there. So I went for my 50th birthday this year. I went to Disney World with my sister as I often travel with her or I go solo by myself there. And I traveled with her this year and in February. And so I'm clearly not going to go back before next February. And so it's going to definitely be a good year and a half, maybe even two years before I go. Isn't that crazy? That's like really special. I like, especially Florida, I enjoy the weather there. But like their politics right now, I'm like, there's no way I'm going to go there anyway. So for multiple reasons, I'm not going to Florida right now. No, thanks. Can't support the tourism industry there right now. Sorry, can't do it. So let's talk about that tightness, that tense energy. And I will say, I'll begin by saying that I, well, let me actually check my sound quality to make sure that I'm, I got to make sure that my son is working here. I will say that YouTube is adding more ads right now. So don't be surprised. It's not my choice necessarily. The way that they do their ads is kind of, it's pretty limited the choices I have to decide how to do it. But maybe if I was a bigger channel, I'd have more options. So during the holidays, they put a lot of ads in, obviously, because YouTube needs to make money. So they do. So just so you know, it's not like I'm, yeah, that's not a huge income stream for me to see, you know, it's not like that. But I just want to say that because it's annoying because I just plugged in myself and I had to listen to an ad before I could even check my sound, which is annoying. So annoying. But this week I did go, I'm skipping around, it's okay, stay with me, stay with me. This week I went to, hi, Lisa, Florida, my Florida friend. I went to rehab, cardiac rehab for the first time. And I did the assessment and it's so crazy because there's not a lot of people like me there. Okay. First of all, there are a lot of old guys that are in the hospital setting there for the rehab stuff, for the cardiac rehab. So I'm like, okay. And then secondly, the focus is on the heart, like heart disease and stuff. And my situation is very unique because it's the aorta and the aortic dissection that I had, the particular thing that I had with my aorta is unique because people don't survive that. And so there's not very many of us, apparently. I should really search on social media and find some people that are younger and that have had that so that I can connect with. But so it's kind of weird. So I'm doing the rehab for the cardiac people, but it's my aorta, so it's a little bit different. But a lot of the things overlap, according to the Mayo Clinic and their research and things like that, things overlap. And so I was doing some of the stretches and the reason why they overlap is because it's a sternomectomy or something. It's like in order to do the open heart surgery when you have certain heart conditions or the aortic condition that I had, they literally have to cut your breastbone open. Yeah, like saw that open and like open you up. Quite literally open you up and your body is not really hinged like that. Like you're not really made to do that. And so there's a lot of sores and pains and stretches that happen to your back and to your shoulders and to your joints and your arms and stuff that is very uncomfortable. That is as uncomfortable if not more uncomfortable also on the ribs, the ribs and the muscles and ligaments and things like that here. That feels like somebody kicked you in the ribs or bruised your ribs or took you and just twisted your arms back. I mean, it's uncomfortable because of the surgery depending upon how long you're in the surgery and what they're doing. Your body just has to kind of come back into it's a natural alignment and now it's different. So it's very different. So it's hard to get used to that. And so I did some stretches. The physical activity part of it isn't a big deal. It wasn't a big deal. I get a little, I get tired quicker for sure, but I can do it. I can do all the physical activity because my body's used to that. There's some cellular memory, some muscle memory kind of thing. And so like doing the elliptical style bike kind of thing and all that was not a big deal for my legs. But when I'm using my arms, it is a big deal. My arms are just like, oh my gosh. So it's a whole new thing learning how to use my arms and so in the back of my head, my goal is I want to be able to do planks again. I used to do planks, you know, for yoga and I always felt so strong when I stretched my body out and I could do planks and I could hold myself up and do them up and down, you know, with your arms on the mat, like, you know, like with your forearms on the mat and then you stand up and then you go down and then you go up and the CrossFit stuff I did with boxing like that. I want to be able to do planks again. That's my goal. And so in order to do that, I have to hold my body weight but I have to be able to hold my body weight. I can't, there's no way right now that can happen. So that's kind of in the back of my mind what my little goal is there. As far as strength goes. So I'm going to be going three times a week and there's like a group kind of setting. There's a bunch of people there, I guess, I don't know how many like maybe four that are there at the same time and we all have our own little routines and stuff that we do. And so I'm pretty excited about that. It sounds weird to say that, but I'm excited. And I thought it was great when I went. I thought, oh, this is no big deal. This is fine. Well, the next day I was sore. I was, I was actually, I wasn't sore. I was really tired. I was like, oh my God, why am I so tired? Why am I so tired? And I'm like, oh, because I did that yesterday and I haven't walked either. I need to walk again. I haven't walked for like four days. So I need to start walking again. But today's going to be nice out. So I should be able to do that. But, but so I did try the stretches yesterday with the broom handle. And I tried to do the stretches and stuff like that. And I can, I can like lift my arms up now above my head and out wide. And I can do this at the same time and I can do all this stuff. And so I put my hands behind my back and stuff like that. And, but I used the, like the couple of stretches in the door frame that I'm supposed to do and stuff like that. And then the broom handle. And I didn't do very many. And I am sore today. My chest is very, I'm going to say it hurts cause it does. It feels pulley here. And in my back, it's like the same way. And so there's tightness. There's tightness. And it's hard to know sometimes if it's physical tightness or if it's tension, if it's worry or stress or anxiety. And so I thought that would be a good opportunity to talk to you about the tight energy in our heart chakra. So let's just take a moment to acknowledge wherever you are and whatever is impacting you right now in this moment, even if you're sitting at work or you're driving in your car and you're listening, not watching. Just acknowledge how your body is feeling, especially your upper body cause we tend to hold our breath and we push the stress from our low bellies, from our root chakra and our sacral chakra. We push it up higher in our bodies. We just do. We just do. It's into our heart space because that seems like the most productive space for us as far as our interrelatedness, as far as our connections with other people, our connections with the world, how we relate and our relationships. Everything gets pushed up, pushed up to the heart space and then that throat chakra and then here we are then up toward the brain, right? Cause the brain and the mind is what makes the decisions. But the heart must influence the decisions and the heart is extraordinarily intuitive and in tune. I'm not saying that the emotions should influence because the emotions are information. You've heard me talk about this before. Emotions are info. They're flowing in a river and they come in and they should not become your identity. They can inform you and give you information and give you the opportunity for release. They can let you cry and let you get angry and you can have them to coffee and talk to them about why the fuck are you so angry? In fact, I had counseling this week on Monday and one of the emotions that was coming up was, I told her, I said, I'm angry and I don't know what to do about that. Why would I be angry now or why? I mean, it's not a really productive emotion to me. It doesn't seem like at this point because what it was was being angry about past stuff and I said, when am I going to be done with this? When am I going to stop wanting to hate and wanting to be like an eye for an eye kind of thing? When is that going to be done? I thought that was done. I thought I had this metamorphosis experience where I almost died and I came back and now I'm this different person and I can just let everything go bygones. Well, it turns out I can't. And so I'm like, because I'm a human because guess what? Your brain, that makes your decisions because it does. You know it. You know it. You're human. That's why. But your soul and your heart get influenced on the brain and how much depends on you and how active you are in your heart space and how much you trust your own intel, your in-tunement with the emotions that come through and what they say and what they're telling you, not to be impulsive and make a decision based on those, but to take in the information from that, you've got to be able to do that. And like for me, I'm working on this because I have an anger piece that is unresolved and I don't walk around mad all the time. It's not like that. That's not, I don't like right now. I kind of feel like that. I don't even feel it. I have to really tap into it in order to feel it. But it sneaks up on me. It sneaks up. It's something totally unrelated, right? Like you, the same thing happens, right? Everything all of a sudden gets tight, tight, and then it feels limited. And then it feels like you're being, you're like at the end of a leash. Ooh, that's a harsh thing to say, but it's true. You're at the end of your leash and you can't go any further because you're limited and you're limited by your own self. And it feels like you're limited by life experience, but the truth is you could just take off and leave. I know, leaving your kids behind with your grandma or, I mean, I know you could, you know what I mean? You could. You're not going to do that because why? Because that's not, again, that's an impulsive thing. And that's not a, that's like an escape reaction. That's like a trauma response. That's like really dramatic and intense. So I don't recommend that. However, my point is, is the energy of the emotions, don't be afraid of them because they can give you insight. Do not be scared of emotions. And we are, we are, we're afraid of them because we don't know like for me with the anger, like the counselor said, I'm just going to share, I'm going to share with you. It is fine. We all friends here. It's totally fine. And I'm going to counseling more than once a week right now because there's a lot. I'm trying to, with the experience I just went through two months ago, it's like, there's a lot here. And actually the rehab lady said the same thing. She's like, have you, you know, how are you feeling mentally and emotionally? I'm like, what? I'm like, I don't know. Like I'm grateful to be alive, but I'm also like frustrated because I can't do my normal stuff and I need to work and I've been out of work for two months and now I'm trying to catch up and I have a bunch of sessions I have to do before I can accept new clients and actually make money. And so I said, it's a little stressful. Yeah. It's stressful. I'm feeling stressed. And she's like, you know, that's how I'm like, I'm asking you like it's common to be depressed. It's common. I'm like, I don't really feel depressed. I mean, I've had ups and downs as you guys know, I've talked about that. But anyway, my point is in the counseling session, I talked about this anger and I'm like, and I talk about it very rationally. Like I talk about feelings very rationally, which is a huge trigger that you're not willing to feel your feelings. Okay. If you can rationalize your emotions, you're not feeling them. They are not helping you. You're trying to just scoot along now, run along, run along little feelings, run along, run along because you're just now, and it's okay because hey, I'm you. Okay. I'm you. I'm very highly sensitive right now, extraordinarily astronomically sensitive right now. So I get it. Okay. I understand it's not a dig. It's the truth for me too. Okay. But so I'm rationalizing my feelings and I'm like, well, anger is part of grief. And instead of feeling sad, I'd rather be mad because mad feels stronger. It's a stronger emotion. And then I can keep people away from me and then I feel safe. Like I'm not going to make the same mistakes I made in the past. You know, I'm not going to trust people I shouldn't trust or I'm not going to be blindsided by doing what I think other people want me to do. I'm going to just fucking take care of myself and do what I need to do, which isn't entirely true because I'm still not at that place. I cannot do that totally yet. And not that I ever will obviously. I'll kind of balance, but it's like, but I'm angry. I'm really angry. And she said, what would happen if you let yourself be angry? I'm like, what? I said, it's not productive. Like it's not helpful for me to be mad. What good does it do? And she's like, I think you need to sit with the anger and let yourself be mad, be angry. And it's like, there's this piece of me that's afraid to like lose control, to be so angry that I do something crazy. Or it's not that I think I'm going to hurt anybody or hurt myself. It's just like, I feel like I'm going to do something stupid, you know, like completely ridiculous. And like, I'm not desperate. Maybe desperate. Yeah, maybe that I would look back on and go, oh my God, that was dumb. Like I've already done that. That's why I'm angry. Do you know what I mean? Like I want to get back into that place again. So it's a rationalization that's happening. And so what is it that inside your heart that is causing you to come to the end of your leash, so to speak, your limit, to reach your limit, that invisible wall, that invisible barrier, what is it? What is that? And then give yourself permission to just sit there, right there with it and let it soften. Let it soften. Get some slack in the leash and just sit there. Just sit with it. Just sit right there at that point, right there. Just sit there in the heart space. Just feel that literally. What does that feel like when everything just softens? Just breathe in and let it soften. Just let it soften right there. Let it soften. It's just this quietness. There's a pause and a stillness. And it's not to avoid the emotion. It's not to stop the intensity of the emotions because sometimes you do need to yell and scream and stand outside and just freak out in the middle of the woods or grab a pillow and scream into a pillow. If you live in an apartment, here's a trick for a townhouse. Scream into your pillow. It works really well. Or cry in the shower. That's the best place to cry because then everything is all wet anyway. And then, you know, you can put your makeup on. Everything's fine. And it's okay if your eyes are a little puffy because you can put those little pads on and you're fine. Let it out. We're right here right now. Just sit with that at that edge of that space. And it's not such an intense edge. It's not so sharp. It's not a razor. What if our edges were not so tight? They were a little more wiggly. They're a little more loose. A little more soft and pliable. What if? Nice breath in. Sweet exhale. Yeah, you feel your body kind of settle into the present moment. We've talked about this before that. The present moment is really such a powerful place because in the past, the truth is, I can be as angry as I want about the past. I can't change that. There is nothing I can do to take back all the mistakes that I've made. And the, oh, I should have done this sooner. I should have done that. Why did I do this? Why did I let that happen? All those things, right? The criticism, the critiquing, all that. I can't do anything about the past. And the future, I mean, I could stress about the future for sure. And I have children. If you have kids, you probably do this too. Think about worst case scenarios and all this. That's the worry part. That's the part that tightens is the worry. And the worry doesn't help. It doesn't help us to do better things or be positive. You know, that's like a fear-based thing. The worry and the fear is kind of commingled. It's just, it's messy, it's chaotic. It's a constant hum of like a scratch or something. Or a burn, a slow burn. It's just not very helpful. It's like heartburn. Yeah. So worry and fear projected like looking into the future. And when you feel that, that anxiousness, it's like heartburn. It's just not very helpful. So for the future, as we're sitting in the now, what if it was just clear? What if it was just clear? There's no pressure to manifest anything. There's no pressure to make anything. There's no pressure to set goals or to change anything. There's just this clarity. There's just sunshine or a perfect glass window. Just very clean. And that's it. There's no sound. There's no, there's nothing but just this simplicity for the future. What about that? And then bringing our attention right back into this present moment into the center point, which is our heart space, physically and metaphysically in the body. Nice breath in. Nice exhale out. And our heart, by the way, is where we are connected to everybody else around the world. And in other universes, if you choose to connect in that way, I would suggest you start to keep your circle small at first and then let it radiate out the more comfortable and confident you become with your energy. But focus on your energy first. We're so quick to. I'm going to send you energy. I'm like, no. When I was sick, I'm like, do not send me your energy. Do not. I had to put all these shields up and try to bounce energy off of me because I was getting all this weird stuff. I'm like, OK, sending prayers is fine. Because it goes through a filter. Prayers goes through angelic energies, spirit guides. It gets filtered. And then it comes in in a way that is palatable, that is not overwhelming. So when everybody's just sending healing energy, unless somebody asks you for your healing energy, do not be given it. Don't make the assumption that you have so much extra to give, which you do. I mean, you're generative. But you need to be focusing on your own energy space and your own part of the world and your own physical body and your emotional body and your mental body. Please take care of yourself because you need that energy for you also. I'm not suggesting energy is limited. It's generative. It's amplified. However, there's this weird kind of ego minded thing that comes into it when it's like, oh, I'm going to send you energy. Yeah, no, unless I ask you or you ask if you can and I say, yes, that means we're compatible and I can receive from you because we're similar. Our soul family might be similar. We might have some similar vibrations. We might be super close friends. And so I know you're a psychic person. I know you do healing work. I'm cool with that. But just anybody's random energy. No, thank you. No. Don't make the assumption that you're so great that you can give somebody energy. Now, I know that some of the things I say sound a little harsh, but they're just the truths from my perspective. Okay. It's a nice breath in. Exhale out if that triggered you. Probably did. I'm not even going to apologize. You guys, I just don't have the energy to do that. So the tightening and the softening is something that you can be aware of in your own energetic space and be focused on the present. And when you are then, you are contributing to the world in a way by bringing your fullness, bringing yourself right now. And that's going to help the grid system that you're connected to that amplifies and affects other places around the globe. Okay. And also, okay, also your heart is connected to multiple hearts connected to the one heart, connected to the world and her energy, Gaia, the earth and her heart. So if you're taking care of your heart and if you're taking care of your energy, you are contributing to the health of Gaia earth energy, which then is supporting people in Israel, which then is supporting people in other places that in the Ukraine and it is supporting people in whatever part of the world you are in, animals and earth energies and peoples and governments and organizations and families and all sorts of places where there is the ability to receive heart energy. It's as simple as that heart energy, but healthy heart energy. So focus on that and be present. And that's how you take this energy of stress and all this stuff that kind of derails us and distracts us and turn it into something hopeful and positive and productive in this now moment. Nice breath in. Sweet exhale out. And there we are. All right. I'm going to do a card for you today. Let's say hello to the chat. Hi, Lisa. Hello, Karen. Nice to see you. Hi, Brenda. Nice to see you. Hello, Rebecca. Nice to see you as well. Okay. Let's do a card today. I'm kind of in between two right now. I'm kind of feeling this one. This is the Kyle Gray deck. This is the Angel deck from Kyle Gray. We'll do that one. Whoa. Hey, the last, the one I did on Monday, I think it was Monday. It might have been Tuesday. When did I do my live stream? Was it Tuesday? I did a live stream. I didn't say it was a channeling, but it was and ended up, we ended up chatting just briefly with Matthew Perry. So if you're interested in that, go check that out. The one I just did before this one. It was this week in December here. All right. So the card that we've got is inner child healing. Now inner child energy isn't necessarily about the past. It is about the part of you, that youthful part of you, that young part of you. It's almost like, I don't want to say you have a second chance, but it's kind of that energy a little bit. It's you loving you. Look at it. It's an image of you holding you close. It's an image of you holding you close. And it's right at the heart space. Look at that. That beautiful yellow energy is a nod to the solar plexus or the spirit chakra, the energy of your intuition. It's you loving you. You taking care of you first. And then letting that goodness amplify out and affect and impact the grants. You loving you. Again, this is that Kyle Gray duck, inner child healing. All right, my dearest. It was wonderful to check in with you today and chat with you today on this Thursday in disambra. Oh my gosh. I'm going to wrap some presents. And I have to go to the post office. I definitely need to do that. I don't know if I'm actually going to do that today. Actually, I have a session today. I had a session yesterday. It was my first one. It went well. I was very teacher Lee, which makes sense because I've been working with a person helping me with my business to help me be my brain right now because I got to try to get things organized. I'm just like, I need extra help with that. Right now there's too much happening at once. So I did a session yesterday. It was good. And then I enjoyed it actually. I think I can do sessions in like 50 minutes. Actually, I think I'm going to change my session. Sessions to 50 minutes because it feels better that way. And then I have a session today, but like I said, I have to start making up all my sessions that I missed. And there was a lot of them. So I'm going to try to do that in December here. So that then in January, I can start fresh, but I don't know. We'll have to see. I might not be able to get that many done in a short amount of time. And it's tough because mentally it messes with me a little bit because I have to make them up. So I feel like I have a deficit right now. You know, I feel like I'm behind and I don't like that feeling that creates some tightness for me. So I'm working, but I'm not making any money. And that feels kind of stressful. Like I feel like I should add more sessions, new sessions, but I'm like, I know I can't do that. So I have to just slow my roll and take it one thing at a time and just slowly. So I have two sessions this week and next week I'm going to try to just have two and see how that goes. And I said, like I said, I just got to make up the sessions. Usually I take off this month. I can't do that. So I need to try to catch up. And I will. It'll all work out. Everything will work out just fine. But it's fun to chat with you and to connect with you guys. And I have therapy tomorrow too. So rehab tomorrow. Well, rehab, I have cardiac rehab tomorrow and then Monday I have my counseling. So we'll see what happens. I don't know. I have to work on the anger thing. I'm going to work on it. We'll see what happens. I don't know. I can't imagine I'm just going to freak out and get mad. But I might. Who knows? Maybe I can. I can. All I have to do is think about a couple of things. And then I want to kick somebody's ass. And so maybe that's what I'll do. Oh, that doesn't feel good though. All right. But we'll see. We'll see how we'll see how it goes. So as always, thank you for being here on above life channel. If you're looking for celebrity channeling, please visit the numerous playlists for the multiple years of content that we have here that you can go check out your favorite celebrity from Marilyn Monroe to Robin Williams to some obscure celebrities as well. Like Anna Nicole Smith or just there's a lot of different people. We've got Nelson Mandela. And we got Maya Angelou. We've got, oh my gosh, Louise Hay. Wayne Dyer. We've got so many different Debbie Ford's in there. We've got the Kennedys. We've got Judy Garland. I like Judy, Judy McCutie. And there's just, there's so many. There's a lot of Hollywood types in there. And there's a lot of musicians too. Yeah. So, so check out the playlist if you're looking for that. And if you're kind of going, hey, hey girl, hi, are you going to be doing your celebrity channeling private sessions? Because the last two years I've offered private personal channeled messages, like little video messages where I channel a celebrity for you personally. It's like a 10, 15, I don't know how many minutes is 10, 15 minute message from that celebrity like Prince or Freddie Mercury or that kind of thing. No, I'm not going to do it for Christmas, but I am considering doing it in January for like the start of the year kind of thing. So I'm considering offering that at the, at the, for January. So it kind of depends on how quickly I get, how soon I offer that it's going to depend on how quickly I catch up on all the backlog of sessions I have right now that I got to make up. So we'll see. But yeah, I'm hoping to do that in January. So yes, I will be doing that. So don't worry. It's coming. It's just not going to happen in December. So I hope I've inspired your spirit today and filled you with some hope in our conversation again about energy and about working with that heart space. And hopefully that's helped you just a little bit. I hope so. Thank you so much for being here. Thank you for being part of the journey. Have a great rest of your day.