 Hey what's up you guys, welcome back to my channel, if you're new here, hi, hello, I'm Lydia and today we're doing a rather long-awaited video. My cams experience, bear in mind, I am now 22, I got discharged from cams when I was 80, and you know, it's been a few years. I've recorded and vlogged the second time I went for first cams, but I never really spoke about the first time I went to cams, so that's what this video is, and the people have always wondered as well, like what my experience with cams was like, etc. They have a good experience, they have a bad experience, how much thin of an ounce, who has a bad experience. So, let's start at the beginning. I am 13, I went to uni, I was experiencing very severe psychosis at the time, I was seeing things, I was hearing things, I was following a ball of light around, I thought I could see some of my dead relatives, it just all around wasn't good, like it wasn't a good situation. I ended up getting admitted as a kid, so I was dating, I got diagnosed by Polo Type 1 and I've had that diagnosis since then. I actually thought it had been changed to BPD, but undiagnosed are both borderline patient disorder and bipolar disorder. I'm diagnosed by Polo 1, and the first medication I ever tried for bipolar was lithium. It's the obvious first choice, really. I lasted a week on it, it made me really ill, I get really dehydrated at the best of times. Taking a medication that makes you dehydrated is not good. I was then started on Depakote, which I believe is an anti-convulsant, and I took that for around a year and a half. I then got discharged from camps, I had weekly appointments and things improved, kind of. I was also involved with social services as well at that time, so I had a lot of support. So the first time around I actually did feel really supported with camps, I thought they did a good job. And also just before, so there's no confusion. I live in London now, I've lived in Lancashire. The camps team I was under was in Telford and Reekid, which if you don't know where that is, in the middle of nowhere, West Midlands area, that's where I grew up. So I was under Telford and Reekid and Child Children's and adolescence mental health services. The second time around I was referred to them after an A and E visit after a suicide. The second time around they wasn't that great. I was referred to them for the second time when I was 16 years old, which in some areas you get discharged at 16, in Telford you get discharged at 18. And this time it wasn't so great. I was still dealing with bipolar, and I kind of, I was okay for a bit. And then I got started on fluorosity again. And I lasted a week on that too. I was on a really low dose. I saw McCam's worker every three weeks-ish, to be honest. The point that got cancelled was unbelievable. I ended up seeing a psychiatrist though after a summer where I literally didn't leave the house. Mine is when I got taken to hospital in Ambulance Pickles. I was struggling with my eating disorder at that point, and that led to a referral to the Egan Disorder Services, which are different to CAM. But I was in hospital for three weeks, roughly, because my vitals were so low, which now I mean, he's a clip from the other life of what my blood pressure's like. Bit hit and miss. But the consultant that I saw the second time around under CAM was a complete twat. Oh my god, he was the worst person I ever had as a psychiatrist. The CAM's worker I had was so dismissive. Like it, I actually saw me like once every three weeks. You could tell that I wasn't eating at that time. The issue in my second referral was I was coming up on ATM, and the day before my birthday on the 3rd of December I got discharged. I didn't get transferred to ATM Services. No, no, no. They discharged me because there was less paperwork involved, so I then had to wait until my next break down, which took about a month, and then I got referred to adult mental health services. I'm still eating disorder services. I finally got through the list and they called. There's like, oh, do you want to make sure that you're found in the country? Instant discharge. But back on the subject of CAMs, the CAM's worker I had didn't seem that much. She cancelled pretty much once a month. See at the first time, I had a great experience. It was a different part of Telford. There's different areas in Telford for different teams. So the first team I was under, amazing. 100% highly recommend. I don't get it set very often, but stuff like that. And I'm glad you get to say it for once, because nice change. But the second time, massive failures. I mean, they tried me on one anti-depressant. It made me ill. And it was like, well, you get discharged. You'll be getting discharged when you're 18, so whatever, basically. And then my GP kind of had to try me on other anti-depressants, which didn't work. I remember the story of how I got to the mental now, because there's a playlist of it. And that was sitting explaining it all. Advice. If you are under CAMs at the moment or know someone who is, don't assume it's going to be bad. I know a lot of videos out there. I know even in this video, I've said a bad experience. But not every experience is a bad experience. I've been on the two different CAMs teams as long as amazing one wasn't. I know some people who have had a positive experience with CAMs. But I know plenty of people who have not had got it. Like, you have to go into it open-minded. If you go in expecting to fail, it's probably gonna fail. And I'm not going to regret that for anyone. Just be open, be honest. And hopefully you get help, but if you don't, don't be afraid to put a complaint in. Ask to change team. Ask to see someone else. There are things you can do with CAMs. And the first time around, I did change what key worker twice. And then the third person I clicked with. I'll find someone you can open up to and be honest with. But yeah, my CAMs experience isn't that intense really. Because when I was under them, I was there for different things. The first time around, it was because I was psychotic. Like, I was dealing with. I first made a psychotic episode. And then the second time was for Duration. I will catch you guys tomorrow with a new video. And if you have any questions or anything you want to add to this video or have an experience you want to share, let me know in the comments down below. And if you didn't know, I do have a Patreon. To those of you who would like to support this channel even more, happy 1st of June!