 What is good model squad? And welcome back to our channel. As you guys can see, it is just me. Bill's actually in the shower right now. But as you guys have read by today's title, I have been struggling recently and I've talked about it before on this channel and I've talked about it on Instagram and I made a TikTok video about it. But as you guys know, I have been struggling with acne for a couple months now. I have been getting chemical peels. I've been getting my granitolings done to get rid of my scarring. Me and my esthetician went hard on my skin, like was popping all my pimples and like just trying to clean it out. And that's why I do have some scarring on my face right here. As you can see, I am red right now. I kind of burnt my face, but this is my skin right now. My acne scars have gone down a lot and I've been so thankful for it. My acne was starting to calm down. I was like, oh my God, it's finally getting better. And it's flared up again. I have never experienced acne in my life. Like I'm gonna give you guys a little bit of backstory. I've never struggled with acne. I've always had the most clear skin. I would have a pimple here and there, but I've never had it to this extent and it kind of just came out of nowhere. It started in March. I looked back on my phone because I was looking at old pictures and I was like, okay, when did this start happening? Like did my diet change? What type of lifestyle change happened? Because it just doesn't make sense. And as of right now, I've been doing everything right. I've been doing my skincare. I'm getting these treatments done. I've been keeping up with it, but I think there is something internally happening with me because this isn't normal. This isn't normal for me. And I know acne is very normal. And I just want to say, if you are struggling with acne, please know that you're not alone. And it definitely is discouraging when you wake up and you look at your face and you're like, wow, like I miss how my skin used to be, but just know like it is so normal. And even though it feels like it's never gonna get better, it will. I mean, I had them where I'm like, oh my God, my skin's clear. I just have to get rid of my acne scars. And now it's flared back up. And it is so discouraging. So I feel like I'm taking a step backwards. And it honestly makes me so unmotivated sometimes. Like days like these, I just feel so down and upset. And just like, what am I doing wrong? And the only thing I can think of is I have been drinking a lot of like pink drinks. And I know that contains a lot of sugars. And it's like the only thing I can think of at the moment. I don't really know what other lifestyle changes I've changed with because I feel like I've been working out maybe my protein intake, I don't know. But I do have an appointment with my functional medicine doctor today. Actually in about 45 minutes, I'm really excited because I am just wanting to get answers. Like I want answers on maybe there's something wrong in my gut. Maybe I have a bacteria overgrowth in my stomach. Like I'm also very bloated. Like these last couple of weeks, I have been really bloated. Like more bloated than I've ever been. And I just, I don't feel as confident. And like I'll go to the gym and I wear like cover ups now because like I just don't feel confident in myself. And I think there's something going on with my gut. And a lot of times the gut has a lot to do actually a lot to do with your skin. Like something's coming out and it's coming out on my skin. And I think there's something internally happening because like I said, I'm doing everything right. I'm doing my skincare routine. I'm on top of it. Like I feel like I've been the most on top of my skincare regimen than I ever been in my whole life. That's been good. Now there's something else I think going on and that's why I'm really excited to talk to my functional medicine doctor today. Not sure what we're gonna go over but I'm really hoping maybe she can get some tests done on me and I'm getting on a phone call with her or not. I don't go in person but I just want my skin to feel better. Like I just want my skin to look better. I want to feel better. I want to feel confident again. I feel like it just sucks cause anytime I go out in public I put concealer on. Like I've recently been putting concealer on before the gym because my face is just so red and I'm so embarrassed and I hate feeling like that. And it's the only way I feel good. Like I'm just so embarrassed. It just sucks. Like I don't want to feel that way. Like I want to feel confident and it's just a struggle for me. Like some days I'm like, oh like I'm okay and then the next day I'm like, oh like I hate my skin. Like it's hard. Like I just want to be able to wake up and not have to worry about it anymore but hopefully I can get some answers today. Hopefully we can figure out maybe what the real the problem is. I have to go on a strict diet. I have no idea what's gonna go down. I'm excited. I'm just ready to feel better, look better and you guys know my wedding's coming up in February. Like I have been trying so hard to get my skin the best it can be by February. I think that's also stressing me out because it's November and I feel like I'm backtracking again and that's why I'm like, okay I need to nip this at the butt right now and see what's going on and maybe I need to do a whole detox. I don't know. But we're gonna get on this call. I'm gonna kind of record a little bit. I'll give you guys a little update and let you guys know what she says but please know you are beautiful, you are loved and I know if you do struggle with acne and you feel like you aren't beautiful or you aren't pretty, please know that you are. I feel like we all look at ourselves and we nip pick every little detail about ourselves and I think that's what really is sad because you guys might look at me and be like, wow, you're so beautiful. Like, and I wish I could see how what you guys see in your eyes because for me, I look at myself and I look at everything. I'm like, oh my gosh, like I feel like people are judging me but in reality, you guys are the sweetest people ever and that's why I feel comfortable talking to you guys about this and I know you guys are gonna love and support me and hype me up and you guys are literally the best family ever. You guys seriously make me and Bill so happy and we're just so thankful that we're able to have this platform and be able to connect with you guys and I just wanna be able to connect with you too and let you guys know what's going on. I've been struggling. I know we don't show that side of us often but you know, I wanna be vulnerable and let you guys know like, this is me and I'm a normal human being and I go through life struggles just as much as any of you do and I don't want to make it seem like, oh, my life's over because I know people out there have it worse but this is my struggle right now and I just wanna open up and talk to you guys about it so wish me luck on this phone call and I will keep you guys in the loop. Where you'll find gluten most is in like the traditional fries, pasta, just like those normal sort of processed carbohydrates like the cookies, the cakes. So you wanna look for things that say gluten free and what is gluten free? Typically always are it's like oatmeal, rice, quinoa, like and then for the breads and pasta and all that we'll have to say gluten free for it to actually be. In terms of like just dairy-free that's just like milk and cheese. Like I would try to like keep that as out as you can but there are so many good dairy-free like alternatives that people often like better and even like the breads and the pancakes and the cookies, it's like there's so many good alternatives now so I'm gonna send you like a big list when it comes to that to check out but if you have any questions, don't be like oh no I have to like wait for my appointment in two weeks. Just ask. Like I can totally hear as a resource all I do every day. So I can be like some psychospiritual question or to be like, hey, like I need to know what kind of things to buy at the grocery store. So just feel free to reach out. The things that will always be in the clear so the reason why I like just like as a reset eating gluten and dairy free is because it's like very like natural and social too even on Uber Eats, like you can really get like eggs like oatmeal, like fruit, gluten-free avocado toast like if you're going out for breakfast for like lunch you get everything at Chipotle minus like the queso sour cream and cheese and then like at night for dinner you could totally like steak, chicken, salmon and like the normal vegetables or just like gluten-free cream containing stuff and now there's like all of this good like chocolate like you can literally eat whenever. It's just kind of like what I like about it is it kind of creates this experience where you have to like pause for a second and just like think about it just enough to be like more intentional but you're not like restricting the self. It's not like you're like trying not to eat so much or anything so we'll work on that together for sure and I'll send you some resources there. And then the other thing I always put this in the first like appointment email and there's two things. There's this one video on stress and I put this on everyone not sitting here thinking like, oh my gosh, or why I mean it's this stress thing. But actually it's interesting because it just talks about how stress is so helpful on so many levels. It's like your body's way of like come like all right I'm like rising to the challenge and how like basically like you know it's your career. It's like stress is a part of every meaningful experience. Like it's totally there for you. We just want to learn like what's distressed and what's taking away from my stuff. And what we actually need to like let go of and then use stress work like okay like I feel stress because I'm growing. Like this is unknown. This has changed. This is challenging myself. So we'll look at all of that. And then the other thing that I always put in the first visit is something called the heart based practice. It's just a simple like placing your hands over your own heart and feeling your heartbeat. And it's just something to that's such a self regulatory tool. Yeah. It's medicine and it's all right to just like let that coherence take place. And it just like gives you just enough pause to like go into the next moment just feeling like, okay I felt that coherence happen in my body. And I also have shifted into this next moment for the better. So yeah. I know that sounds awesome. And if you need anything, let me know. But I'm thinking when do you think you would be able to get into get labs done? I can get labs done whenever. So the idea of the labs is just like have a normal dinner. And then in the morning when you wake up, just like drink normal like water. Don't have anything else. And then just go get the labs like drawn. It's like your analysis. Okay. So you don't like go bother my before. Yeah. And it's a blood test and you're an analysis typically. But I'll send you like the list of labs and just check into it. Like let me know if you want me to edit anything. And then when you're ready for them just say approved and we'll send you back a requisition form. And if you have any questions at all and not just let me know. Perfect. I will see if you can get them done like this week. Yeah, I can do that. Okay, cool. I have one more question. So my wedding photographer has struggled with acne and she was trying to get me to take these supplements. So I'm taking poor favor. You heard of that? I have not heard of that. Like I don't know if I've seen results with them or what like I don't know. When we hit the nail on the head you will without a doubt see results. Yeah. So I don't think that there's anything wrong with it. I don't particularly like love it honestly. I don't think that there's anything wrong with it. So if you want to just like kind of like finish it out feel free to. Yeah. I think we're going to do better. Oh a hundred percent. That's why I'm so thankful because my best friend she has a functional medicine doctor and I had her help me find someone. And she was like this girl seems like she's amazing. And I'm like oh my gosh I have to reach out. I have to talk to her because I feel like I've been trying everything and now I'm at that point where it's okay I've tried everything and now I need to see what's internally going on. Yes. So I'm very excited to finally get to the root of the problem and just start feeling better with everything my body, my energy, my face like all that stuff. So. It can happen so quickly too. So much can happen in the space of six to eight weeks. Oh I know. I know. Well thank you so much and I'm excited to you know read the plans and then get back on a call and talk about everything. We'll work on it all and I will send you all of this and we'll go from there. Perfect. So should I start my gluten and dairy today? Yeah. Okay. I would even start like I'm free to see it as like okay I'm starting today but like just like it's kind of like see it as like a every time I go to order on Uber Eats or I'm looking at a menu just start to like see what is and isn't. Yeah. And then just start to like naturally choose like what falls in that plan and then we'll dial it all up next time we talk. So I usually don't like add any supplements on the first visit just because I want to see labs but there are two that I'm pretty sure we're going to want to use no matter what. Yeah. And one is like this multivitamin it's actually a prenatal but it has like all the B vitamins and it's like has vitamin D and it has a Nostatol which is really blood sugar regulating too. And I've seen that like single handedly but you're still helpful for applications and there's also something called a digest time. So when you do I have okay wait hold on I have to I'm going to show you this I haven't taken them yet but they're these. Oh, those are good. That's a great perfect. I'm going to put a different brand in your chart but I do want you to use those. Don't buy whatever I'm recommending until you finish those because that is a great product. Yeah. It says gluten free and all that. That is a great product. Okay. That's like my second favorite digested enzyme. Okay, perfect. And I like it when you have like some good things in stock is we may find that you end up liking that better than what I recommend. And then in that case we just like finish up what I recommend and go back to that. So when you eat I would take that and it's okay if you end up taking it after a meal no worries for the problem but if you kind of take it like right before the meal that's what I would try to do. Okay. Yeah, I would start that right away. Okay. You may notice some good changes. Perfect. For sure. Perfect. So wait, we'll arrive. You need everything, let me know. I'll send you the email. Awesome. Thank you so much. Sure thing. I'll see you in five, two weeks. Perfect, bye. So you guys, I didn't really show a lot of the video call just cause she was just asking me a bunch of questions about like my anxiety, my health, just like all the questions she needs to know about me. And I already just feel a weight, a big weight lifts off my shoulder. I feel like I get emotional and I cry. Like I just, what it feels like right now because she's just amazing. And I can already just tell like this is going to be the best thing I've ever done. Oh my God, it's making me emotional. It's crazy to me that I'm finally getting help where I need help. So pretty much for these next two to four weeks I am going gluten-free and dairy-free or non-dairy, however you say it. I'm going to start taking digestive enzymes and then my multivitamins that she's recommending to me and then I have to go in this week for a lab results just to kind of see like what's going on and what we need to fluctuate. Then we're going to go from there and I talked to her again on the 21st. So I'm really excited. And she was even saying like we can hit so much in like six to eight weeks. And by my wedding I should be where I want to be. So that was literally the greatest news I need to hear. And I think these past two days I've been really anxious because I've been ready to just get and hit the nail on what's going on. And I just feel like a huge weight lifted off my shoulder. Like I finally have the help that I need because like I said, I was doing everything right. And I've been struggling still and I really have been struggling mentally, internally, just everything I've been struggling bad. And I am just so excited to start feeling better. And she seems like she's going to really help with like my energy levels, things that I may need more in my body. So I have to go gluten free, which is going to suck and being dairy free for two to four weeks. But I honestly would rather do whatever I can now just so I can start feeling and being the best. So I know this video is probably all over the place but I feel like I wanted to really just catch you guys and let you guys know what's going on. And I love you guys so much and please know you are not alone. If you ever need someone just a DM to just send a message to, please feel free to message me on Instagram. And I just want to hear about your guys' stories, things that's helped you or just like, like if I need someone just to like send a message, sometimes just sending a message to somebody even if they don't open it feels good cause you let all your emotions out. So please feel free to leave it in the comment section down below. Feel free to message me on Instagram, it's more private. Like I love you guys and I'm here for you guys and I would not be in the position I am if it wasn't for you guys. So I love you guys and I hope you enjoyed today's video and I will see you in the next one. But until then peace, love you guys.