 Hey friends, um I'm coming on here today to to tell you a little bit about what's going on in my life and Ask you for prayer and So about last week or a couple weeks ago found out that My mom actually has Cancer again, and so some of you that have been following the channel for a long time. You knew that When I first began Daily disciple that that was kind of in the midst of my mom's first about with breast cancer I was stage four breast cancer. That was very serious and Got ended up healing her from that and we were so thankful for that but we she now has breast cancer again and There's some issues in the lung and the liver that we suspect might be cancer as well This is really hard. This is really hard A lot of you know that I have seven siblings and right now I have three little sisters that are still in In school when they're being homeschooled right now by my mom and so that provides a little bit more complication to the whole situation It looks pretty serious. It does You know, or I think God's been preparing. I Mean I can only talk about my own experience. So I'll talk about that I think God's gonna have been preparing me for this In learning why he wounds us in learning why Even though we feel like we're doing things right and We're owed kind of our dreams to come true We're owed this kind of perfect life that that that we feel okay, God I did my part now you do your part right give me a good Good life good relationship good career good family life Exactly as I wanted and he doesn't He doesn't always do that. I mean most times things don't work out the way that we Exact wanted them right and we ask him why God like I thought that was part of the deal I thought it was I do this for you and You do this for me like kind of a transactional relationship But that's not the way that God works at all He Uses these trials these things in our life To show us that he is the most important to show us that all these things that we relied on for comfort All these things that we look to for satisfaction. They actually They weren't not they were nothing. They were nothing in light of of who he is and how he wants to grow us This season of life has been really hard But I think it's been really hard because Because God is teaching Teaching us something he's teaching me something He's teaching me that all the things that I look to for peace for For satisfaction for a sense of security They're wiped away At least at least in some ways The world feels really chaotic right now the world feels really chaotic right now and I think the only time that you the only the only thing that you can do is rely on God and and And it would be just disingenuous of me to be like hey, I have no doubts. I have no fears. I have no It's okay. We'll be fine. That's not the way I feel But what I am confident of is Is this That God that the trials in your life that you experience They will either harden you or soften you They will either harden you or soften you They will either make you moldable and ready to receive the lesson that God has for you and the The teaching and the shaping and the transformation that God wants to take place within you Or you will become hardened and bitter and angry at God because he didn't deliver what you thought he was obligated to deliver and that decision to let it become make you soft to let it make you Malleable that is the hardest decision ever Because it is so easy to choose the opposite. It is so easy to choose anger and and frustration and bitterness God, this is not how I wanted it Whatever it is in your life You say God, this is how I wanted it. This is how I wanted to play out. I thought you would You would repay me What I think I deserve number one. We don't deserve anything Everything is a gift every moment is a gift and yet God Through these trials through these pains through this wounding He's doing something so glorious underneath the surface that we couldn't even comprehend Now to me the crux of the issue is this this is what I've been talking about with my wife is When stuff like this happens we know that God is working all things out for our good in his glory We can believe that intellectually But will we believe it on a heart level Do we believe that God is good? We know that God has the reins. That's not a problem I can grasp my mind about that to believe that God is sovereign. I know that But do I believe that God is good? Do I trust his decisions? Do I trust his working? Do I trust his plan? Even if it's not the plan that I wanted That that's the hardest thing that is the hardest thing I'd ask you guys to pray for my mom pray for my family it's a hard season and And just thank you You know for supporting Me and my family Thank you on a ministry level for supporting daily disciple For allowing me to do this and also just have the flexibility to help care for my family Thank you for everyone that supports That is such a blessing to me. I think often about Psalm 23 In in times of my life that have been hard in this season of life not only with this But with a lot of different things have been it's been really hard. I think about Psalm 23 and I think about when He leads me beside Still waters and in green pastures and green pastures and both sides still waters. I Think that's a picture of heaven Picture of heaven when we all gather together We're in perfect peace and harmony. There's no more sin And we're sitting in a green pasture besides still waters and there's peace and there's rest It's no more hurry or panic or fear It's just rest and slowness Contentment Confidence trust hope joy It's a beautiful thing. It's a beautiful thing. And I think as much as we can embody that rest that trust that slowness in our life right now We can get a taste of what God has for us in the new heavens and new earth Even emits uncertainty and fear that's what I want for you to embrace a slow restful trusting faithful life Not clinging so tightly on your dreams that when they are crushed you deny God or you You get bitter towards him, but Trusting that his ways are good. That's what I want for you. Thank you for watching God bless friends