 Hello I'm Christine for those of you who don't know me. I was raised in a Baptist church in a Christian home thanks to the faithfulness of my mom and despite the great difficulty and struggle at times she taught us the things of God and brought us to church, dragged us to church at times. So the assurance of my faith that wasn't ignorant to the word of God because of faithfulness teaching my mom I knew who Jesus was and I knew who I was as a sinner and the assurance of my faith was based on this knowledge of the work that Jesus did on the cross combined with sporadic devotions and you know several heartfelt prayers asking for forgiveness of my sins. But every other observable action in my life was in complete opposition with my profession. I lived in this manner darkened with sin and deceit ignorant of my condition before God completely alienated from him all the while professing his name. This false way of living became so routine that I was honestly deceived into thinking I was right to stand before God. It's clear to me now the great measure of hypocrisy littered in every contradictory word and action in my life but before God opened my eyes I was unable to see my wicked deception. It was the end of May spring semester at UCF this year when Edgar and Fredo lightly approached me with boards and Bibles in hand asking me to go through a survey and it was really the sovereignty of God that they even were there and I was there at that time and that I decided to go through it with them. As we continued through the law my pride in answering the questions correctly and striving to maintain the front of my faquette prohibited me from even taking a second to acknowledge the disconnect between my words and my actions. So near in the end of the survey I'm sorry yeah I was like going through the survey I was thinking like this this doesn't apply to me because Jesus died on the cross for my sins so I'm forgiven. Near in the end of the survey though I was filled with how to content with a survey the way the survey went and my ability to get through it despite my neglect of the church and the things of God I'm not sure Fredo and Edgar were what they were thinking about my responses or if I deceived them but despite that they continued with the survey taking me through Matthew 5. As we went through each one I was asked to rhetorically rhetorically to answer whether these characteristics were evident in my current walk. With each careful explanation of these vital signs that are mandatory in the Christian's life my dead blind eyes were slowly being pried open revealing the absolute wickedness and filth in blasphemous hypocrisy that I just spewed out of my mouth during the survey. How could I profess these things with such boldness and confidence when every single aspect of my life was absolutely void of any sign of true conversion or godliness. At this point of the conversation my mouth was completely shut each revelation of the next lacking quality was like the piercing stab to a vital organ and at the end of the passage I was a lifeless body with nothing to offer. Everything I had assuredness in had dissipated into nothingness within just those 10 verses that we went through. Yes Jesus Christ did do an amazing merciful and selfless act on the cross but he didn't die for all those who who professed Lord Lord. He didn't die for those who just knew the facts like I did and had biblical novelage. He died for those who would give up their life so make it their complete will and become a slave to the rightful master and creator the true and living God. Coming to this realization by the grace of God I have been made a new creation in him. I've been granted a new heart given the eyes to see ears to hear and the desire to obey. These things are not humanly possible and my attempts at repentance and devotion to the word of God proved futile time and time again completely impossible without the mighty power of the Holy Spirit. I'm a changed person in with thee and outwardly and by the power of God sin and death no longer have authority over me. I'm no longer under the bondage of sin living as an enemy of God but now as an adopted child of a majestic king. The life taking I'm sorry so I am eternally grateful of the work the Lord has done in me and for the precious gift of his son's blood. I'm no longer deceived and deceiving others as well but recognize my salvation did not come free. It took the innocent blood of Jesus and just as essential it requires the laying down of my own life and my own will to surrender my will to the Lordship of Jesus Christ. I want this account of my testimony and the evidence is that my walk to testify to my commitment before the Lord as well as a testament to the miraculous and abundant abundantly gracious work the Lord has done in my heart and continues to do in my life.