 Hello everyone, welcome to another Narc Survival Live video, not something that I talk about too often but most definitely it is a very important topic and I'm sure many of you resonate with being the real deal and I'm not here to dispute whether or not you are, I mean I've been doing this now for five and a half years, I've spoken to hundreds of clients that I have seen with my own eyes that many of you are successful people, you're intelligent, you're physically attractive and aside from the superficial things you are real and you're authentic, you stand for what you believe in, you're loyal, you're devoted, you're empathetic but if that's not real I don't know what is but yeah I'm not here to dispute that, I mean I'm sure you can identify yourself whether or not you are a real one, I know of myself I believe that I am and I think that it shows in my work that I have been doing and researching for the past six years, pretty much every day, pretty much every day. So when the narcissist realises you're the real deal it looks like they never do but in fact there is this split second window where they do realise it and as soon as they realise that they're not thinking about being there for you, cooperating with you, trying to maximise your talents, qualities or abilities, they're not thinking to do any of that because remember they're very insecure, they have an inferiority complex, they feel easily threatened and intimidated, they're very envious and jealous so as soon as they see that you're the real deal it instantly becomes a competition, they experience a narcissistic injury and then they will rage, they will attack you, they will lash out at you, they will devalue you, degrade you, protect their insecurities onto you, shift the blame onto you, manipulate and gaslight you, ghost you, discard you, triangle it with someone else, start a smear campaign against you, try to ruin your reputation, assassinate your character, tear you down financially, try to get you fired from your job, try to paint you in a bad light and try to provoke you in all sorts of ways so that they try to turn your character into the exact opposite of what it actually is because it's constantly this mirror reflection of themselves in front of them that they don't like, reminding them that they're not you and that they're never going to be anything like you, they're never going to be real, they're never going to be authentic, they're always going to be fake, they've been fake their entire lives, they've always relied on their manipulation and their false character, that's why when they got with you in the very beginning, they used a false character, they manipulated you and how do you know that they used a false character, how do you know that they manipulated you, well they lied to you, they future faked, did they ever follow up on what they originally said or intended to do, that's how you know that they are fake and manipulative and that they have a false character, that's how you know that, but yes as I said there is a split second window where they do realize that you're the real deal and as soon as they realize that they will set out to destroy you, that's all that they're going to do because they feel inferior to you and it instantly becomes a competition, it's not like oh you're the real deal, now I'm going to be loyal and committed to you, I'm going to love you, I'm always going to be there for you, it's not going to be like that and in fact I don't think they really even care if you are the real deal, they look at it like what difference does that make to me, as I've said before a narcissist is like a rat that comes out of a hole in the wall, grabs a piece of cheese and then runs back into the hole where it belongs, they know where they belong, they know that they're fake, of course they are aware of that, they recognize their actions and behaviors, they know that they're manipulative and exploitative, and they understand that they belong with other fake people just like themselves, they do not feel comfortable around you because you are real, you are authentic, you are the real deal, that's no good for them because it just shines the light on the fact that they are fake, it just makes them look bad, so you really think they're that bothered that they actually care that you are the real deal, that just makes them even more mad, it just irritates them, it just winds them up, it just makes them want to destroy you even more, so it's not like I mean despite what they may have led you to believe, they devalued you, try to make you feel like you're not good enough, so you need to do or be more when actually they prefer if you just did the opposite, if you just minimized yourself and kept yourself down, you being the real deal does not serve them other than if they can exploit you on your qualities and resources, if it could be used to be of benefit to them but even then they're not going to admire or respect who you actually are as a person and they're not going to decide to build anything with you because they have nothing to bring to the table, they're out of the tools, they're out of the resources, especially the mental resources as we know that are that, so they look at it like what good is that for them, you can be the real deal, you can have all the power in the world but what differences make if they're weak and ineffective, they're not going to be of any service to you and they already know that as soon as you realize that, why would you even keep them around when you know that they're no good for you anyway, but yeah they're not really that bothered that you're the real deal, you're real, you're authentic, even in that split second window where they do realize it, they prefer to surround themselves with other fake people who are just like themselves, they feel more comfortable, as the real deal, you are empathetic, you're a loyal person, you're a person of God and you have discipline and self-control, they do not, they have all of these addictions that are addicted to their narcissistic supply and they're also addicted to many other things as well, such as tobacco, alcohol, maybe shopping, gambling, video games, all of these different things, so they're caught up in all of this stuff and it's like oh so you're the real deal, so you're, it's the better person than I am, you know how to be the best version of yourself, how to live a good life and I don't because I got all of these problems and I can't perform at the level that you do, that's how they see it, they don't see it as though it's anything good for them, water seeks its own level and yet they devalue and degrade you and it keeps you looking at yourself, you self-loathe, you question and doubt yourself, you assume that there must be something wrong with you, but as I've said before how a person treats you as their direct reflection of how they feel about themselves, they feel very insecure and they're projecting these insecurities onto you, they're trying to deflect the shame because whenever you're around they automatically feel like they're a bad person, like they could never measure up to you, knowing that you're the real deal just constantly reminds them that they are not the real deal, they do not see themselves or their qualities in you, they know that they do not have the qualities that you possess, but again there's only that split second window where they do realise it, other than that they are constantly in denial, they constantly just scanning everything about you and focusing only on the negative aspects on any possible thing that they can find wrong and if they can't find anything that was recent they will dig up a stuff from the past to create this false narrative, to rewire their minds and to believe in that you're no good, something that's wrong with you and they're better than you, you're worthless, you're beneath their consideration for whatever reason so that they can feel more comfortable with that around you even at the same time while they're using you for supply and to extract your resources they're still seeing you that way because they have to in order to survive emotionally, otherwise they would probably go and sing, so other than that split second window they don't really realise that you're the real deal, they would look at it like the real deal for what, they don't really care about only the good qualities unless they can use it in a way where it benefits them, otherwise they look at it like what good is it and even then they only see you as something temporary for recreational use, they're not actually taking you seriously, they can't, they have to mock and ridicule you, they have to look down on you with a net of superiority and from an authoritative position because that's the only way that they can feel comfortable, otherwise it keeps them constantly looking at themselves and they do not want to do that, especially when they're around you, they want to be disconnected from themselves at all costs, otherwise it will cause a huge narcissistic injury because you're just showing them everything that they're not, everything that they don't have and everything that they're never going to be for you or anyone else because if they went that for you they're not going to be that for someone else, you really think if they went loyal and devoted to you with your empathetic nature, your good qualities and they went there for you, they didn't care about you, they were fake with you, you really think they're going to be real for someone else, of course not, they've already shown that they have the capability to be fake, they've already shown you their false character, their manipulation, their deception, their lies, their future faking, they've already revealed their character to you, so you should already know exactly what they're about and that's not going to change with anyone, I mean just, I mean, you know in old fairness they're very good at what they do, they are expert manipulators and I'm not saying that to compliment them, I mean that's really not a good thing in my eyes, but get their masters at it because they've had years of practice, they know exactly what they're doing, they've only ever been manipulators their entire lives, they've only ever had a false character that they've used to trick people, that's how they managed to survive emotionally, that's how they managed to get by, I mean just look at yourself for example, if they were real with you from the very beginning, they didn't have a mask, they just showed you exactly who they are, what would you do? You would just get rid of them, you would kick them out the door or you wouldn't even let them in and they know that, that's why they have a false character, that's why they manipulate and exploit you because they're seeking something from you, they're seeking their narcissistic supply, that's where they hide who they really are, otherwise they would just come out and say, yes, I am fake, I'm not what you want or who you need me to be, I'm just pretending so I can get what I want from you. Yeah, they would just come out and say that from the very beginning, if they didn't need anything from you, if they weren't concerned about their narcissistic supply, they wouldn't even waste their time, they'd do it because they're trying to get something from you and you've got to look at it like at some point, it's like if all they really wanted is for you to be the real deal, I mean for a start like attracts like, so if they were really attracted and drawn to you, if they were actually about something, if they were real and authentic, I mean just look at yourself, you consider yourself the real deal, look at everything you've done for them, look at everything you've done to improve their lives, you upgraded them and I constantly remind myself as well of how I am the real deal, all of the millions of people's lives I've changed around the world and a lot of real people gravitate towards me, victims of narcissistic abuse who are just used temporarily for recreational use, that's a typical example of someone who is real, I already know if someone is real because they're not going to be surrounded by fake people for long periods of time, fake people would not be able to exist around them, so typically if someone's real, they're probably going to be alone, they're not going to be surrounded by large numbers of people and I'm sure many of you can relate to that, especially after you've been involved with someone who asks this, you don't want to be involved with anyone because you're just thinking is it just another fake person again trying to manipulate and exploit me, just like the last one and the one before that, because there's been real most people in this world are fake, there's very few people in this world who are real, when you come on this channel it seems like they're raw, but it's because I put myself out there authentically as I've been doing for many years now, so naturally a lot of real people do gravitate towards me, so it seems like there's so many more real people than there actually is in this world, but at the same time there's also a lot of fake people coming onto my channel as well in my live chats, like I said they come around us temporarily, it's like a rat that crawls out the hole in the wall, grabs the cheese and goes back in the hole where it belongs, they know they do not belong around us, they know that, that's why they cannot be around us for long periods of time, and you should be worried about that anyway, you really want some fake knock around you, someone who's just given you a false character, they're manipulating you, the experience you have with them is not even real, they're disconnected from themselves, they're disconnected from their emotions, they tell you anyway I want the same things that you want, at some point people have to wake up and realize everything you saw from them in the beginning or the lies, the revelations, it was just future faking, as I've said it before, if they were authentic, loving, empathetic people as they portray themselves to be, if they cared about you, where are they now? Where are they right now? Why are you feeling the way that you do? Why do you feel anxious? Why do you feel depressed? Why do you feel down? Why are you watching this video right now? If they were really real, if they were authentic, if they actually cared about you like they said that they did, why are you alone? I mean, they said they were looking for the same things as you, they said they were looking for love, commitment, a relationship, intimacy, a connection. If anyone wants that, it's quite clearly you. I mean, you're watching this video right now and I'm sure you've been watching my videos for a long time so if anyone cares about that, it's you. If they're ever going to find anyone in their entire lives who values those things, it's going to be you because you've been watching these videos now for how long? So clearly you care about it, you care about relationships, you care about intimacy and connection and I know that you do because you're watching videos about narcissists and if there's one thing you're not going to get from them, it's that. You're not going to get love, you're not going to get commitment, intimacy, a connection, understanding, someone who cares about you, someone who's real and authentic, you're not going to get any of that and so you're coming to my channel and watching my videos because you're trying to fill a void. You are getting something from me, from watching me in my videos that you were never getting from them but they made you believe that they had it or that they could give it to you but they never did and in the end they always played the same trick. They ghost you, they discard you and then they flaunt the new supply and social media looking like they're having such a great time without you. Now they're giving the new supply everything you wanted, everything that they never gave to you, they do the same thing every time. It's textbook narcissism and again it's fake, it's always fake. Remember they never cared about you, they were fake with you, they could be a false character, they manipulated and exploited you, they lied to future fakes, they never followed up anything with action so you really think what they have for the next person is real? Of course not. It's exactly the same as how it was with you in the beginning. They are being manipulated and it's always going to be like that for them. Again they do not care about love, intimacy or connection. They do not care about relationships, they're not even physically or sexually attracted to people, they don't even view us as people, they view us as objects. It's never love, it's never a relationship, it's always a transaction and although it may be a transaction it's never a mutual exchange, it's never an equal exchange of value. You're giving all of your value to them but you're getting nothing back to return. They're not giving anything to you. You're invested all of your time, effort, energy, money and resources but at the end of it what have you got to show for it? Look at yourself, look at your life, look at your health, look at your wallet, look at your bank balance, what have you got to show for all of the time that you invest in them? If they're really what they say they are, if they're such high value people then what happened with them? You should be doing pretty good by now then. You've been gaslit for a very long time. You've been under a spell, you've been in a trance and it happens to a lot of us and at the end of it we'll have to look at our lives and we'll blame for it all as well. They just leave us in the rubble and it's pit of misery and the destruction after everything they did to us. You lose it all, you lose your life and in the end they blame you. They make you feel like it's you like you were never real, you were never the real deal for them. That's why you're watching this video right now because you're wondering will they ever realize that I was the real deal but their narcissism just won't allow them to accept it because then it's like they're to blame and they don't want to do that. It's too weak later and many of them don't even have the means anyway. Do you think they came around you in the first place, they used you as narcissistic supply or for money or resources? If they already had that of their own why would they ever come around you? They cannot or energy from within. They've got to get it from you or from someone else but the odds are they're never going to find anyone like you ever again. It's highly unlikely they're going to find another empath. Only one to two percent of the world's population are empaths and also keep in mind they're not really concerned about that anyway. They're not actively seeking for an empath. They will settle for whatever they can find and as I said like attracts like, water seeks its own level. They're comfortable around people who are like themselves. People get confused they think, oh narcissists seem to be drawn to us so maybe narcissists are attracted to empaths. Water seeks its own level so maybe we are the same because I find myself keep going back to them. I feel like I'm desiring them. I'm longing and yearning for them. No you're not. You're longing and yearning for something that doesn't even exist. The false character of the illusion. You've been manipulated and gaslighted for a very long time. You've been lied to and future faked. You never wanted them. They just reflected back to you your own qualities and virtues. You fell in love with yourself. You never really loved them and I don't want to tell people what they love or what their feelings are but you just got to look back and remember it was all fake. If it wasn't fake where are they now? If they care about you where are they now? If they're loyal, if they devoted how have they gone off with their new supply? If they wanted love intimacy and action why did they not have that with you when in the beginning they presented this character they manipulated you they made you believe that they were about that as well. Doesn't look like they were. Doesn't look like they were at all. So you see they're really not concerned about that anyway. I mean I know we like to think that we're so special. We're impasse. Are they never going to find anyone like us ever again? They were never really attracted to us like attracts like opposites do not attract. What they were attracted to is our energy which they tried to steal for themselves. They tried to use and exploit our empathetic nature rob us of our money and resources they just looked at us as a meal ticket. That's what they were seeking that's what they were attracted to then nothing like us. So yes it's true water does seek its own level like does attract like if not then they would still be with you now. They saw you as something temporary as something for recreational use and that is always how they see as empaths codependents or people-pleasers. We are just something for them to use and exploit. They don't really value or appreciate us. They don't even really see us. They just see us as objects that exist to meet their needs. We're an appliance. We are nothing more than that. We're just something for them to use and then they dispose of us like we're garbage but even then that's just so they can go into the shame they're not really running from us. They're running from a reflection of themselves that they do not like because they know that they're garbage. Of course they know that in the beginning they had to manipulate us and give us a false character and at the end they had to create a false narrative and go off their new supply and put on this show like they're so much happier without you even though that's not even the truth. They have to live the rest of their lives in denial and an illusion, an alternate reality in their minds because they just can't deal with the reality but the fact that they're fake, their entire life is a lie and everyone they're surrounded with is fake as well and many of us we had to be fake too. When they came around us we were walking on eggshells we couldn't be our authentic selves so we had to be fake around them and that's why we felt so uncomfortable because we couldn't even be ourselves. They capitalized on that that you can be fake all you want the moment you do become real and you present your authentic self you start speaking on the truth confronting them watch what happens then then they're out of there they can't be around you then they can be around you as long as you're willing to be fake and validate the illusion the false character put them on a pedestal worship them even though they've never even done anything for you or they ever did was manipulate lie and exploit you future fake that's all they ever did and they want to be validated for that because they've been successful at their manipulation in the past so in their minds that makes them such great people everything they do is fake everything they do it's a mirage and it's all because they just can't deal with reality reality is against them the truth is against them anything real is against them so when they're around you it feels like you're against them as well because you're real you're authentic they're constantly shining the light on them they're constantly exposing them it's like sunlight to a vampire they don't want to be around that like i said like attracts like water seeks its own level they want to be around people who are fake just like themselves and typically because of that they run into other manipulators corn artist narcissistic people they get manipulated and exploited as well and they go through a lot of things they get used and abused and if you catch up with them later in life just look at how things turn out for them things don't turn out very well they come around us not so much because they like us they kind of like what we stand for and what we're about they see it as a source of power but they just want to take that power for themselves so that they can use it for their manipulation to then elevate themselves that are expense the reality is they were never meant to be around us to begin with narcissists and empaths do not match and how do we know this well just look back at how they had to use a false character an illusion they had to manipulate exploit lie and future fake just to get in through the door if they presented who they are and what they're really about for the very beginning you would have kicked their arses out the door immediately you wouldn't have wanted anything to do with them and they know that that's what they have to pretend in order to get their narcissistic supply because yes even they not even they're aware that they do not belong around us they do not belong around real people empaths again it's like that rat crawls out of the hole in the wall grabs the cheese runs right back to the hole where it belongs all of their friends and family are fake they see us they target us they take whatever they can get and then they run right back to their family and friends where they belong other fake people where they feel more comfortable because when they're around you it's like there's this mirror that's constantly in front of them reflecting back who they are it reflects back to them their own insecurities about themselves it triggers their shame it doesn't do that when they're around other fake people because then it's like there's no mirror there or if anything they can both be fake together and they just reflect the illusion back to each other so they all live in constant denial in this delusion and that's just how they prefer they could be around you for a short amount of time as long as you're susceptible because then they can manipulate and gas like you they can make you believe in their lies and delusions and as long as they can do that they will feel quite comfortable around you it's only when you start noticing the cracks in their armor when you start noticing things that aren't right with them maybe you're pressing them you're making demands upon whatever they represent of themselves to be to you and ooh now they've got a turn against you and then they typically go straight to the devaluation making you feel like you're an adequate or something is wrong with you when in fact they already know that it's them they're just in denial it's why when you press and confront them there's a split second window where they self reflect and it causes a narcissistic injury to where they attack and lash out again because there's like layers to it the outer surface they have this denial this armor once you pierce that you pierce the shell and then they're very vulnerable and insecure inside because it's not real it has no foundational structure it's kind of like they just woke up one day and they thought okay this is who i am i'm this because this is effective at getting me what i went from people so i'm going to give this a go and yeah it proved to be effective over time it worked for them so they thought they would just keep doing it and then that's how they constructed their false character but it's not who they really are it's just based on the results and the reactions that they were getting from other people and then after a certain amount of time they began to realize that they can actually do less and less and still get the same results so they don't even have to go so far as to fully commit to someone and be in an exclusive relationship they can get away with more so they really fine-tuned their manipulation to learn people's thresholds and what they can get away with what they have to do or don't have to do to get the result that they want and typically as time goes on it's very different to what you're seeing when they're flaunting their new source on social media it's nothing like that in reality because typically you thought it was bad with you the more sources they move on to they typically get worse and they do less and less and they're also more and more impatient it's like if they were with one source are they putting this act for let's say a couple of years they got so much stuff out of them so much money pleased to stay now with the next source it's like all right i want to get double that triple that in a half the amount of time and then with the next source it's even more but even less that they're giving out that's how it works i mean think about it you really think that they're going to do all this stuff for you and then get a certain amount in return a certain result and then they're going to move on to someone else and think all right okay i'll make double or triple the effort for half the result you really think they're gonna do that of course not that's why the more sources they have they typically do less and less as time goes on and yet they expect more and more so you think it was bad for you and i don't want to invalidate or minimize anyone's experience here but with this concept in mind you should know that it's only gonna get worse for whoever they're dealing with after you it's only going to get even worse for them because typically they're going to do even less they're going to be even more arrogant and entitled based on their past successes so whoever gets with them next is really in for a ride they're really in for a lot of trouble and if they come back to you they hover you you let them back in it's going to be even worse for you the second time around or however many times you deal with them it will just get even worse which is why the best thing you can do is shut that door turn the key make sure it's locked and just never let them back in again because as i've said before all they can do is manipulate and exploit you they can't do anything else everything it's all manipulation it's never real or authentic there's nothing authentic about them nothing there's no foundation or structure they can't show you from their past their journey how they established their character their values their virtues what they believe in they can't show you any of that it's just one day they woke up and decided i'm this because i've seen celebrities be this i've seen it in television movies see my friends that's how they construct this character but it's not even real it's just intended to elicit certain reactions and results from other people that's all that it is so those of you you feel like you're infatuated like you're longing and yearning for them i can tell you that you are longing and yearning for something that doesn't even exist and they know that it doesn't exist they know that they fooled you you already know that and they can look like there's so much in denial which they are but you've seen it when you confront them when you're speaking about it you've seen that luck in their eyes they know deep down they know they're not real they know this character isn't really who they are why do you think they're always so miserable it's because there's nothing inside of them all they have is a void they can't generate any power or energy from within and that is why they need their narcissistic supply that's why they need these sources that is why they manipulate exploit life huge fake gaslight they have to get these emotional reactions out of for you they have to provoke you so that it fuels them and then they can elevate themselves at your expense you're an external regulator because they can't regulate their own emotions from within all they have is a void inside of them until you feel like you're infatuated with them you feel like you're longing and yearning for them and it's like they can't even sustain themselves let alone you what are they meant to provide to you what are they meant to give to you if they can't even regulate their own emotions if they can't even get anything from within if they have no power or energy from of their own or they have to extract that from you so how can you be longing or yearning for anything or even desiring for them to seek you as the real deal you shouldn't even be concerned about that it's kind of like you're interacting with a robot or artificial intelligence and it's like you're so concerned about what they think about you or how they see you it's just like AI do you really care about what an AI thinks about you or if they value you but you could imagine you're like you're communicator with a chatbot it's just computer coding programming that you're thinking wondering if they care about you if they value you if they think that you're real can you imagine someone else and you're observing that experience that they're having it would look so foolish so weird so strange and yeah that's pretty much it when we're dealing with these narcissists it's the same thing it's just many of us we don't realize it at the time i mean they can be very convincing the master manipulators they will do anything they can to seem normal to seem same to protect their false image to survive emotionally and to get their emotional needs met but they're really not real at all as you should know they're not real i mean like tracks like water seeks its own level so why are they surrounded by other fake people other people like themselves alcoholics drug addicts losers con artists they're around bad people other narcissists other abusers other predators how can they be around those types of people and feel comfortable if they are not alike because you never felt comfortable around them and they never felt comfortable around you because someone who is pure cannot be around someone who is contaminated it's not a good feeling you just want to run away they can fool you for a certain amount of time but when you start to catch on to it you just want to run away from it i think they cannot be around you they cannot be around your purity your light your love because it shines a light on them it triggers them to reflect on their shame or their own insecurities it's like this mirror reflection in front of them it's reflecting back to them who they are and what they're like and what they're really about and yet we wonder why do they rely so heavily on their relation and gaslighting it's so that they get the reflection of themselves that they like and prefer so that they don't have to feel bad about themselves all the time and then they couldn't exist in this false reality but there's nothing wrong with them when they're real even though their their actions and behaviors clearly do not align with anything real or authentic it's just all in their minds so they never really or really want to realize or accept that you are the real deal even though deep down they do know that they're just in denial and that is why if you confront them or you talk about your success your accomplishments or they witness it they hear about it from someone just look at how they react causes a narcissist's injury they want to devalue you and tear you down or point out something wrong with it because they just can't accept it they don't want to believe it it just reminds them that they're not real they're not authentic it's not so easy for them they have to rely on their manipulation they can't just be like how we're beginning just we don't even have to try it's effortless like for me i could just sit here and go on for almost one hour now talking about this based on whatever comes to my mind regarding this topic and as you can probably see from watching this it's effortless the unauthentic is effortless of course it's a lot of hard work when you always have to manipulate and lie and again why do you think they're always so miserable they can't generate their own power and energy from within they're going to have their supply but even then they're never satisfied because it's a void that can never be felt and that is why even though like attracts like and water seeks its own level and they do prefer to be surrounded by other fake fake people like themselves where they feel more comfortable they may still hoofig you they may still stalk and arrest you because you've got that energy that power that like that love that they kind of like but it's not meant for them but it fuels them when they can get that from you yes they want that but when they get it it drains you because they take it and yet all they have is a void they have nothing to reciprocate back to you so guards your assets and i'm not just talking about money i'm talking about your emotional assets your emotional properties your mental bandwidth guard these things or it will be drained out of you they will be sucked into the void all right so that's my message for this topic when the narcissist realizes you're the real deal and i hope you found it helpful if you did as always you can show your support down below by giving it a thumbs up and it's very important because it helps the youtube algorithm to get this message out there to other survivors who may need it so please hit that thumbs up button down below if you enjoyed it it will only take you two seconds and let me know your thoughts in the comment section i read your comments every day hit the subscribe button click all notifications so that you will be 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